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you

you

I can't believe you actually made it

yeah I can't believe it either

don't be like that you know what I was

hoping the driver would never find this

place that way could get the next flight

out of here come on son

give me a break it's what you deserve

David look I'll tell Donald this wasn't

a good idea well guess what I told him

the same thing you know I'm only here

because of him oh well that makes me

feel really special thank you you're

welcome

you better come in well this is where

you're staying looks like a prison cell

why do you hate me so much son phone you

get me a piece of paper and I'll write

it down for you David

stop calling me son okay well he pisses

me off okay whatever you want her thank

you David I don't know what to say to

you except just try and enjoy the next

few days

feels like a fucking eternity already

language Jack I don't know what's going

on inside your head believe me you don't

want to know

yeah I'll leave you to it hey you must

be tired after your flight um just get

some rest and give me a shout later okay

thanks for your concern David but I'll

be fine please shut the door on your way

out

why am i doing

you

you

how you doing jack

still alive honor who's that oh you do

haven't met yet have you that's Maria

since I've been single again

he'd somebody to look after me I hired

her the help of the housework cooking

cleaning all that sort of thing she's

here a few eyes every day if you want

anything she's the one to ask and I know

what you're thinking she is a very

beautiful lady which is one of the main

reasons I hired her it's good to have a

beautiful face around the place again

and she's a very good cook this is my

son Jack it's nice to meet you Jack did

you have a good race

he doesn't say much does he he's just a

bit shy oh I'm sure you'll be fine David

look Jack I'm sorry I've got a meeting

at 1:00 and it's gonna be a few hours so

I'll leave you in Maria's capable hands

yeah if that's all right with you it

will be my pleasure see you later jack I

thought today isn't it can I get you a

drink uh yeah sure okay I just be

minutes

you go Thanks

so while I'm are you planning to stay

only a few days oh that's too bad

not really why not David and I were not

exactly close I'm sorry to hear that shy

you must be very close to your mom LAN

why would you say something like that to

me for fuck's sake Jack I'm sorry if I

say something to offend you

why did you say it I don't know I just

presumed you a close to your mom that's

all are you telling me David never told

you he told me he was divorced but

that's it

typical David he never even speaks about

her do you live with your mom oh she's

not around excuse me

you

I'm going on now I'd left you Tina in

the oven okay see you tomorrow

sorry for snapping at you earlier

it's not your fault it's okay it's my

fault rainy no it's not my life's very

complicated isn't everyone's

when you said your mom wasn't around

anymore what did you mean where is she

she died I'm so sorry it's okay it was a

very long time ago but I sweat your

pants oh I only recently divorced yeah

like I said I likes very complicated

are you okay yeah cool thanks

when did you mum pass away very long

time ago is it after your parents

divorced no the divorced thing that's

Linda my stepmom they got divorced last

year oh that makes sense now

hey Linda she's a nasty piece of work

I was why you and your mum passed away I

was uh just a baby she was just a baby

she died at childbirth he died giving

birth to me I wish I could remember

something about it right I can't

that's not your food Jackie was just a

baby I feel responsible for her death

you know I always have

I killed her don't say that jack

okay I'm fine

it's getting late I should go Jack

hey Renee can I come in go away David

I'm sleeping tonight restaurant in town

what'd he say

I'm not fuckin hungry and I'm not

fucking interested so fucking leave me

alone all right

okay if you wanted miserable stay near

only go ahead I don't care you're not a

little boy anymore you're a man now act

like one

I'm a man and me fucking leave me alone

the right men enough you did it

hi

I haven't seen you around here before

are you new here

I'm Harold Holliday your accent you're

from America right ah yeah

I'm Becky Jack are you here with your

family

Oh with your girlfriend no good

how long you here for only a few days oh

that's not fair

do you want to hang out I don't know I

have a few things to do

Haley stop my friend

and you want to get a drink I'm sorry I

can't I have to get back actually

can we meet again sure whatever

I shot your back so soon

well yeah there isn't much to do around

here just took a few pictures that's all

I'm thirsty can I get a drink

oh he let me get this for you I see you

amazing your friend sorry

oh that girl back there we that's why I

didn't stop and say hello didn't want to

disturb you

it's good to make friends she looks like

a nice good yeah I suppose I just met

her today yeah my girlfriend's at home

jack no really why not I don't know I

just never met a girl I really liked

find girls my age really immature how

old are you jack 17 oh but no it's

phenomenal your dad told me he said you

might be coming to spend your birthday

with him did he really

well did he tell you about the last time

we spend my birthday together such an

asshole

I'm sorry jack flaps acting you again

you didn't upset me Maru David did do

you always call your dad by his name I

don't really consider him his my dad

he's more of a pain in the ass has it

always been that bad between you two

he's never there for me so who do you

live with right now

I live with my uncle in the US uncle

Donald he's my mom's younger brother

he's been more of a father to me than

David ever has I know you have probably

had this before jack but I really do

understand what you're going through

I had my fair share of bombs going up

with my parents pounds can really mess

up your life if they want to you have

any kids Maria no no in some way I'm

glad I don't have any children I think I

would make a bad mother yesterday when I

told you about my mom

you look really upset do you mind if I

ask you why it's like I said before Jack

I know what you're going through

did you lose someone close to you we

and like you it was a long time ago so I

understand your pain it must have been

so outgoing up without the mother yeah

and it's even harder when you have a dad

who doesn't really care about you I've

always felt like an orphan oh don't say

that Jack I'm short deep down your daddy

loves you very much well if you did he

never showed it my life's just too

depressing let's talk about something

else okay so how long have you lived in

England for about two years now and

before I lived here I lived in Germany

for about three years did you learn to

speak English after you came over

well that's a funny story when I was

younger I used to watch a lot of

American movies Enon and that's really

when I learned to speak English it's

such a beautiful language we speak any

other language is young not really I'm

the one or two French words that's about

it I speak very good German and a little

bit of Spanish also well maybe you can

teach me some friends sometime judoka

way I said I'd love to

look at the time I better get back to

what I was doing

Donn's want you going ungry merci Alto

p.m.

it's very nice

Missy Baku

this might sound a bit strange but I

really feel comfortable talking to you

oh thank you jack that means a lot to me

I'm always here for you

Thanks

I'm very glad about what you told me

earlier it's good to talk to someone

about your problems

normally I don't but with you it's

different mm I'm here for you you can

talk to me about anything you want I

want to show you something

your mom she's beautiful look a lot like

her we may be but she's more beautiful

than me I always wonder how my life

would have turned out if she'd have been

here right now you know you know what

you mean you're not like as a teenager's

are you Jack I think too much that's my

problem

fine it's really hard to find a person

my age to have a decent conversation

with let's talk about something else

something that's ashy you up I'm not in

the mood

oh don't say that how about your

birthday have you decided what you're

going to do this

I really really don't like birthdays why

not everyone likes best days it's the

happiest occasion of my life isn't it

yeah well not in mine don't say that do

that fucking dumb jerk just fucking

leave me alone okay

what's wrong jack told you I don't want

to celebrate my birthday so please don't

ask me that again okay are you just

trying to cheer you up can't celebrate

my birthday without feeling guilty I

want to be happy I do but how can I be

happy when it's also the day that my mom

died what am I supposed to do tell me

I'm sorry jack

forgive me every year I feel guilty when

my birthday comes around I always feel

like I should just be mourning her death

Oh Shaq I want to get depressed around

my birthdays I want to forget it I want

to be happy but thinking about my mom it

just makes me more depressed I

understand your pain I really do I know

how hard it is to lose someone so

precious to you was it your husband no

you've never been married sorry I said

that it's okay I don't like to talk

about it it's just something I prefer to

keep to myself I build you feel

comfortable telling me you can trust me

you know I won't tell anyone I do trust

you jack it's just too painful to think

about the past that's all yeah sometimes

it's best not to remember the bad things

we you're right

but at the same time you know it's good

to talk about them we may be

it was a long time ago it was about your

age

and naive 16 year old good thinking I

knew in the world you know it was seeing

this boy and one thing led to another

and I ended up getting pregnant my

boyfriend didn't want me to keep the

baby he told me to get rid of it but I

couldn't do it I tried to keep it a

secret for my parents so as long as I

could when I found out they went crazy

my parents are a bit religious we come

from a small town where everyone knows

everyone's business

it was the scandal of this century what

happened

my parents were against abortion so they

let me have the baby that's the only

thing they did right so you have baby

we was a boy two and a half kilos he was

such a tiny little thing

I still remember that day in the

hospital they let me have the baby but

they wouldn't let me keep him

I made me give him away they made me

give up my beautiful little baby boy for

adoption I have never given my parents

what they made me do my father passed

away a few years ago I didn't go to his

funeral because I still couldn't

forgiving

but I hate myself more for not standing

up for my son I hate myself for being a

coward but something I've learned to

live with my life isn't as perfect as

people think it is you know so sorry

well I have only myself to blame did you

ever try to find him no no I felt so

guilty

wherever he is I'm sure he's fine

we thank you

we have something in common haven't we

yeah

oh hey uh um hi jack look I'm sorry I've

been really busy at work recently why

doesn't that surprise me David you know

you haven't changed at all

don't be like that son I'm really trying

all right anyway the thing is I know

you're gonna hate me for this I have to

go to Paris for a day I have a meeting

with a possible new client and it is

really important that I meet him in

person

typical David no time for family don't

worry I'll make it up to you when I get

back like you've been making it up for

the past 17 years you know I don't even

know why I came here in the first place

hey I've asked Maria to stay over and

keep an eye on you until I get back that

supposed to make me feel better no I

suppose not but at least you'll have

some company excuses after excuse

your dinner's ready

not hungry I'll eat it later I used to

angry at your dad no mad at myself for

coming here has he always been like this

ever since I can remember yeah David's

always been workaholic so was work first

family second with him how about your

stepmother she was the reason why I went

to go and live in the States dad married

her a year after my mom died and at

first I grew up thinking she was my mom

you know

but then my step-brother Matthew came

along and her attitude just started

changing towards me I got pushed to the

side I got into trouble for all the

things he did and I became a nobody

David wasn't around to notice David was

always too busy work too busy making

money so my stepmom could spend it now

the marriage is over and everything

feels so pointless

total waste of time when did you realize

she was not your real mother not about

sex found a photo of my mom and David

together and when I asked my stepmom

about it she was only too glad to tell

me that she wasn't my real mom I'm sorry

jack

no child should go through what you have

been through yeah I suppose so

maybe the divorce is not such a bad

thing you know maybe you can start again

fresh with your dad's I don't think

that's possible have you ever told him

how you felt all these years no well

maybe you should maybe you should give

your dad another chance you think so my

way of course

thanks for thanks for all your advice

you have been a great mom so uh what are

you watching

nothing special hi I'm tired I don't

like sports try the next one oh this

looks interesting

you

you

you

you

hi Jacob what was you I'm doing I'm fine

what are you doing here don't worry I'm

not following you I'm here covering a

story it small world huh it's good to

see you you uh gonna invite me in for a

coffee so huh what have you been up to

nothing special and you oh you know

usual I've been doing an article about

the local wildlife reserve riveting

stuff someone's got to do it right so

how have you been Jacob pretty good

chattering so is there someone special

in your life at the moment

oh sorry hard to ask I'm not seeing

anyone and you yeah

I've been seeing someone for about two

months now

I'm happy for you yeah well after you

left me I spend a lot of time trying to

figure out what it is I did wrong no you

didn't do anything wrong

Jacob I just wasn't ready for commitment

that's all I didn't set out to us you

you did I suppose it was my own fault

really I shouldn't have started talking

about marriage so soon it's complicated

just that I didn't expect to fall in

love with you so quickly I thought

marriage would be the natural way

forward for our relationship you know

does that make sense it makes perfect

sense

I just I have a lot of issues to sort

out first

all the time I was with you I felt you

never really opened up to me emotionally

you know I was hoping you would over

time but I was wrong that's not your

fault

Jacob I I'm still in love with you Maria

yeah just hear me out we can start all

over again

take a lot slower this time we can just

date if that's what you want and I won't

talk about marriage I don't just think

about it okay okay please well I'm here

for a week if you want to see me or just

want to hang out give me a call

you still have my number something tells

me you're not gonna call it and that

I'll never hear from you again

I don't know Jacob he's probably not a

good idea how about your girlfriend's I

don't feel the same for her as I do for

you

tell me you'll think about it okay we

can still be friends right I'm okay with

that what's going on in her head of

yours it's complicated I know

well I'll leave you to it just remember

I'm on your phone call away okay

I'll see myself out take a Maria you too

Jacob

hi jack you finally oh yeah I was up a

long time ago okay who's that guy I saw

leaving the house earlier

oh you mean Jake owes just an old friend

I bumped into him on the street so I

invited him back for coffee okay wants

me something oh you want to wait until

lunch I'll wait to watch - okay that's

gonna be ready soon

hey Jack I don't want you to take this

the wrong way but I want to say happy

birthday thank you you're welcome

where's my present

Oh shake I didn't get you anything just

teasing you Maria but to tell you the

truth if you did get me something a

woman said no I consider it very special

oh thank you jack if you were to get me

something what would it be oh I don't

know uh something you like something you

always wanted I don't know it's still

not too late Jack why don't you tell me

what you want for your birthday and I

get you for you

you promise wakefulness as long as he's

not so expensive I want you Maria what I

want you stop saying silly things yeah

so you gonna get me my present what do

you mean jack think you know what I mean

I don't think you do I think as you get

back to what I was doing

don't ignore me Maria you promised me

you'd get me why I want for my birthday

well now I'm telling you what I want I

want you you cannot be serious chef I'm

very serious Maria we have something in

common

we have a connection I know you feel it

like I do we have a connection Jack I

won't deny that what's exactly do you

want from me you I wanna hug you I wanna

hold you I wanna touch you this is wrong

she didn't to be talking like this you

just the kids not a kid anymore today

I'm a man and what matters is that we

have a connection nothing else that

doesn't make it right jack

I don't see you in that way

you're confusing my friendship for

something else I see you as a friend

Jack a good friends but that's all so

you're saying you don't feel anything

for me other than friendship

no hey why don't you look me in the eyes

and tell me that you're just a friend to

me Jack nothing wrong

he's still in love with that guy

what's how you talking don't play

innocent with me Maria I heard you guys

talking he wants you back doesn't he

that's none of your business

thinking about going back to him I just

stop this please I can't answer this

anymore just stop

you know what Maria the first time in my

life I thought I could feel a bit of

happiness on my birthday I thought I

found something special someone who who

would care about me what's wrong you

never cared about me you just like David

you're just pretending I do care about

you jack just nothing that way it's okay

deep down I knew it was too good to be

true I didn't mean to give you that

impression Jack I was just being

friendly no you're lying I know you feel

something for me I know you feel the

same as I do I don't love you Maria

I love you more than that guy ever will

loo

you don't love me Chuck you just miss

your mother I am NOT your mother Jack I

could never replace her why not you gave

your son away and you've been living

with a guilt ever since always wondering

what it'd be like to have him around you

hold him to hug him

to touch

the Kissin

to feel

hi I'm looking for Jack

hi jack um I thought that we could hang

out today yeah sure

need to get out of this place anyway

you okay

Jack yeah something wrong

nothing

how do you find me I that's what I do

after the other day you stalking me do

you want me to what do you have a

boyfriend no would you like to be my

boyfriend it's my birthday today really

happy birthday jack for the first time

in my life I really want something for

my birthday and I can't have it

grenade what do you want Jax maybe I can

get it for you

no you can't get really are you sure

maybe I can do you want to get back to

my house my parents aren't in at the

moment

I can't look cute you look like a really

nice girl but how I'm interested in

someone else sorry if I gave you the

wrong impression

who is it is it your ex is it someone

back in the u.s. that's complicated

I have to go why are you going yeah

what's what you doing is check was your

friend are you crying

I'm not calling online real why are you

still here if you were just friends why

don't you just take off and leave huh

what I feel for you it's more than just

friendship I care for you I want to take

care of you I love you what's he wants

for me love me Maria love me like I'm

your son

don't stop me Maria I like the way it

feels doesn't feel wrong to me

can I kiss them

laughing ow

I'm sorry

what happened between us just now it's a

very special moment in my life

did you not like what I did hello I can

get better you know what practice was I

do rough I didn't hurt you did I know

you didn't ask me there is no future for

us you know that don't you I'll say that

please we have a special connection it's

age the only thing keeping us apart is

it

have you ever been in a relationship

with a girl before have you ever had sex

before are you a virgin I didn't mean to

embarrass you

I've always found it difficult

connecting with girls emotionally I

always have until now you're the first

woman I've ever felt comfortable with

here's a woman I've been waiting for all

my life

don't say that Jack you're so young I'm

fat you old wine you always have to talk

about age it's just a number

maybe maybe you're gonna abandon me

just like you did with your son why

would you say something so cool like

that maybe it's true maybe you always

abandoned the people you love you bendin

your boyfriend didn't you I am not like

that Jack yes you are I love you and

you're willing to abandon me maybe I

should just go and die somewhere slash

my wrists or hang myself maybe that'll

make you happy why are you talking like

this I can't live without you Maria if

you leave me I will kill myself I will

never leave you chuck

I don't believe you you must believe me

when I say I would never leave you you

promised

Shelby

you

you

you

you

you okay gree I'm fine

your dad will be here soon

who cares are you going to stay mad at

him forever why not he deserves it you

need to find a way to let go of that

anger

intimidation that's easier said than

done

we can't change your past jack but you

have the opportunity to patch things up

with your dad's and start again I don't

want you to end up like me I know

someone madam I know you are but he's

trying his best to change so give him a

chance give him so many chances fuck

them all up but you never told him how

you really feel all these years of you

oh you just presumed he knows and don't

care unless you sit down and talk to him

tell him how you really feel about him

and why then you'll never be happy jack

you'll never be happy I don't want you

to make the same mistakes I have made

you're still young you still have time

to eel

make me a promise that you would try

your best to patch things up with your

dad's before you live promised me

okay I promise

you

are you are you - hey David how was I

tricked it was fine thanks hi jack

happy birthday well I got you a present

come on son take it I hope you haven't

been giving Maria a hard time while I've

been away

he's been a good boy oh good know why

don't I take you out for dinner tonight

but why don't we all go oh I don't know

I don't want to get in the way I'm not

interested Thanks oh come on son it's

your birthday no thank you

come on Zedd no tonight if you go fair

I'm doing my best here but it's

obviously not enough let me talk to you

in David's okay sure

you okay I don't want to go to dinner

with him wait wouldn't hurt if you did I

know but I want him to suffer I won't

make it easy for him so you think you

can just make up for all these years in

one day you cons keep living in the past

shock you need to move on I'm here for

you now you need to let go give him

another chance

for me

but I'd rather go to dinner tonight with

you than him I thought we could be

together tonight

you need to be adults about the shack

you know deep in your art this is the

right thing to do but I really want

spend the night with you anyway we can

be together tomorrow night tonight

you're going to spend it with your dad's

I see you tomorrow

good luck

you

no nothing you would ever get to a merge

sit down let me get your glass

go on happy birthday son

hey go steady on that stuff is what the

hell refill you want to slow down some

what's the rush

we got the whole night ahead of us hmm I

get the feeling you're going to tell me

off aren't ya

you damn right all right let me hear it

you're an asshole did it oh so you think

your dad's an asshole dear yeah I do

you're an uncaring asshole I'm caring am

i yeah

and let's not forget about selfish and

selfish well is there anything else you

want to mention you might as well you're

a selfish uncaring unloving piece of

shit all you ever think about is

yourself I'm fucking glad your marriage

to Linda is over I hope you die lonely

old man no now that's really hurtful son

right you think I'm selfish I only care

about myself you think I don't care

about you that I never cared about your

mother don't bring my mother into this

you never loved her that's where you're

wrong jack before she was your mother

she was my wife and I loved her that's a

lie

you never loved her I loved her jack I

loved her so much so much he couldn't

wait to remarry I immediate that for you

no that's the truth Jack I didn't want

you growing up without a mother it's the

only reason I married again so soon at

it I just wanted you to have a normal

life and so on and I always loved you

and Matthew equally that's a lie

Matthew's always been your favorite I've

always been invisible to you no that's

not true I have always seen you and

Matthew equally no you haven't you've

always blamed me for her death

wait is that what you think

I've never blamed you for your mother's

death I never have look I don't know why

it happened maybe it was fate maybe bad

luck I don't know sometimes bad things

happen to good people I was a very kind

woman was going out of her way to help

others I still think of her you know

think about her all the time

I've only known uh from a photo

how says that real memories to hold on

to I'm sorry it turned out that way for

you jack but we can't bring her back you

have to find some way to let her go

never let go look I know I have to be a

good father to you jack

and I am sorry for that truly am I I

wonder way to make it up to you if you

let me will you do that I don't know did

it that's a little too late for that

don't you think

oh it is never too late for a man to

change so you're saying you think you

deserve another chance death

as I do

I'm gonna make you proud of me one day

sweet dreams

okay how'd it go with your dad not what

I expected a lot to think about

glad I took your advice though Thanks

it's okay

I'm just that before you your dad all uh

you're not going in there today why not

is something wrong I just want to spend

the whole day with you that's all

Jack you we later Junaid

listen I'm leaving tomorrow and I'm not

taking any chances

no my bad luck something could pop up

and ruin everything

please Marie lit let's go back to your

place please I want to spend the whole

day with you please

what's about your dad you'll be looking

for me I'll be all right tell him

someone came up please

you

I don't know why but I'm really nervous

me too got butterflies in my stomach

doesn't feel real feels like a dream

don't say that Jack I'm not the dream

I'm real they don't want you to remember

as if they like it was a fantasy I'm

here cuz I want to be yeah you

you

you

you

you

you okay am i hurting you no no I

thought you know we we don't have to do

this hope you guys just give me a minute

I want to tell you something something

I've never told anyone

and so he's been with me eating me up

inside okay

I haven't been totally honest with you

okay what I said about my son was true I

did give him up for adoption he once

asked me if I try to find him what I

lied to you and I said no after I left

home I tried my best to hide him

it would have been about five years old

I managed to find my son

I'm precious little baby boy I found out

anything killed and it's a man accident

where he was playing outside

he bled to death there on the road

before anyone could get help yes sorry

it's all my fault I killed him only I

tried to find him sooner

today they find the guy that did they

send him to prison but nothing can bring

back my son you can't keep blaming

yourself for what happened it just

happened okay and I've come to realize

that sometimes in life bad things happen

that reason not any sense

we just have to accept it and move on I

suppose but I kept I keep imagining him

lying there on the road leading in pain

all alone and I wasn't there for him

that's image keeps playing over and over

in my head every single day look I don't

want to say to make your pain go away

fear of you meeting you just really help

me deal with what I've been carrying

around in my head all these years

you're doing it right I'm gonna come

I haven't felt like this for a long time

really we have been in a few serious

relationships but I always run away when

they talk about marriage and having

children that's what's up for my shaco

you still love him I I still have

feelings for him but I don't think I

want to go back to him he wanted to get

married and I don't think I'm ready for

that yet

you know you can't live like this

forever I actually think your tragedy

will make you a better mother you think

so yeah I do because you really know how

precious a child's life is you love it

with all your heart it will try to be

the most wonderful mother a child could

ever wish for

it's something I never experienced in my

life but mother's real love I wish I was

your son I wish I had all that love from

you

you're right huh

I'm seeing you all day yeah I was in

town huh um

ordered a cab for you tomorrow did we

hear about 9:00 Thanks

are you feeling okay what do you mean

it's the first time you haven't bitten

my head off I like it look what we were

talking about last night I don't know

how much you can remember before you

passed out what's your point David I

meant every word of it I know I have not

been a good father to you and there's

been a lot of misunderstandings between

us and I'd like to give it a try to put

it right if you're willing to give me

the opportunity you finished

yeah that's all I wanted to say I'll

think about it

you

on taxes can't give you back

so I wasn't gonna get to see you before

I go don't worry I wasn't going to let

you go without saying goodbye I'm going

to miss you you're gonna come visit me

in the States

I don't want to make any promises

I'll see okay thanks for everything

Maria take care mom baby

what are you doing in there jack touches

waiting come let's go

look have a safe trip home son and now

you can tell dog from me that this

wasn't such a bad idea after all

you

we even do an entire mold

Chris

you

you