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♪♪

♪ I know you watch my every move ♪

♪ In the corner of my eye I see you ♪

[Harry] So, my sisters are in New Zealand,

-so is my brother.
-Oh, yeah.

Your hair's a little bit funky.

Oh, thank you. I never brush it,

-so Jessi usually brushes it for me...
-Yeah, yeah.

-...when she washes it.
-[Mayci] Jessi.

[Dakota] What the fuck do I do?
Why am I even here actually?

[Mason] I don't know
what the hell is happening.

[Dakota] Hey, where's Mason?

-[Mayci] I think he went that way.
-Did he go with Layla?

Um...

-[laughing]
-[Mayci] Oh, my God.

[Dakota] I've only been in LA
for less than six hours.

Taylor's already brought over a boy toy

to try to make me jealous,

but I'm just not taking the bait.

♪ I know you watch my every move ♪

[Mason] Is that Taylor?

I don't care if Dakota sees me with Harry.

I knew it'd piss him off,
but we do need to get used to this.

I'm gonna be The Bachelorette.

It's inevitable, so like,
why not start now?

-If that's--
-[Layla] What're you shaking your head at?

-[Dakota] What do you mean?
-What do you mean, Dakota?

I don't know what this game is.

What do you-- What do you think that
girls would feel like meeting your ex,

though, as like a friend?
I would be fine with it.

[Taylor] Well, obviously,
you're in a situation where...

-[Miranda/Taylor] What? Huh? Wha?
-[Harry] Wait.

[laughter]

-[Harry] These guys?
-Yeah.

-With our husbands and some other people.
-Ay!

-They're freaky.
-[Harry] Freaky girls.

What were you shaking your head at?
Are you gonna elaborate?

Oh, uh-- Just this situation.
I think it's fucking hilarious.

It's cra-- If I was to do that,
oh, my-- Could you imagine?

[gasps] Could you imagine
the double standard of this?

I don't think
they'd get through the front door.

Yeah, they-- they wouldn't.

Honestly, I'm wondering
why Dakota's even here right now.

I mean, it's a couple's trip

and our husbands are here,
they're helping with our babies.

His kid isn't here, so I don't feel like
there's a need for him to be here.

If, like, you're gonna be upset
that Harry's coming tonight,

then, I'm sorry, take the flight back.

[Harry] Wait, how do you
know who's a good swing?

Well, that's why it's trial and error.

[Harry] And Big Joe Smith
doesn't like that?

-Wait, who--
-Joseph Smith. [laughs]

Oh, Joseph Smith!

-[Taylor] Oh, okay, yeah.
-Wait, who's that? Who's Polygamy?

-Do you know what polygamy is?
-Is that a person?

-[Mayci] No. [laughs]
-[Miranda] Huh? What?

[laughter]

"What? Huh? What?"

Dude, he's-- he must be so funny.

-Oh, my God. [laughs]
-Dakota.

I'm joking.

-You're not joking.
-[Layla] No, you're not.

-I fear that was truthful.
-[Dakota] Wait!

Oh, my gosh.

[Taylor] Sit. You guys wanna sit?

-Or do you wanna--
-Yeah.

Plenty of seats over here, guys.

-Yeah, we can make room. I'll stand up.
-[Mikayla] There's plenty of seats.

If I would react really poorly
in this situation right now,

I know that Taylor would get
so much satisfaction from this.

Like, she would eat it up

because that's her whole goal
all the time with me.

And so, I think,
by just playing this off really cool,

just kinda like, "Whatever,"
I think that will piss her off.

When did you move to America?

Uh, 2019.

[Taylor] Wow.

Wait, where are you from? England?

No. [chuckles]
Right at the top of Australia.

Well, I know you from all the-- Okay.

-Australia?
-It's the middle of nowhere.

-Oh, shit, I didn't know that.
-[Harry] Yeah.

[Dakota] Yeah, I'm from Idaho originally.

[Harry] Wait, how did you meet this bunch?

Uh, I moved to Utah.

-Okay. Crazy.
-Yeah.

-I know. [laughs]
-Fun, huh?

So, inviting Harry over,

I'm just like trying to have fun
and like put myself back out there,

and so it's annoying that
Harry and Dakota end up hitting it off.

It's bullshit. It's all bullshit.

[Dakota] Yeah, it's been wild, dude.

-[Taylor] It's a wild ride.
-A wild ride!

[Taylor] Utah. Like, Mormons.

Everyone shares everyone.
It's really weird.

This is one of--
one my baby daddies, by the way.

-Oh, yeah? Fun.
-She has two. Yeah.

-[laughs] He's like, "What the fuck?"
-I have another one back in Utah as well,

then I'm gonna go on The Bachelorette
and probably find my third.

[Miranda laughing]

The initial plan to have Harry come over

was for Taylor to get
a little bit of flirting practice.

He's the perfect person for it,

but, uh, the awkwardness is palpable.

I think we're all asking ourselves
why is Dakota even here?

-But are you not dating anyone else here?
-No.

No. He just got back from the villa.
He had a lot of fun out there.

-What's the villa?
-Vanderpump Villa.

-Oh, I was gonna do that!
-Wait, are you serious?

-Like, recently or like at one point?
-No, recently.

-Oh shit.
-I was meant to go out,

but then they're like,
"But you might have sex with everyone,"

-and I'm like, "Oh, I can't"--
-Yeah, ask Dakota about that.

He knows all about it in the bathroom.

Well, I wasn't proud of it,
but yeah, it led to that moment.

But here--
But to be fair, I actually tried not to.

It was like Do or Drink was the game.

Who gives a fuck?

-Yeah.
-Dakota does.

Taylor,
it's just the vindictive stuff you do.

-I'm not your girlfriend. Why do you care?
-[Dakota] Because you--

If I was your girlfriend or your wife,
I'd understand, but I'm not.

But then you cry about everything I do.

It's like, oh, I-- a girl says hi to me,
and you cry about it.

It's just like, I don't understand
how you come at me for anything.

-When did that happen?
-What do you mean? Every day.

Taylor and Dakota start fighting.

It's background noise to me at this point,

but Harry, poor guy over there,

his first exposure to all of this,
by the way...

[laughing] ...head in hands, mortified.

Mortified, and rightfully so.

I forget how jarring it is.

If anyone cries
between you and I, it's you.

-I'm gonna cry right now.
-[Dakota] Shit, dude, I'm like--

-I'm gonna cry right now.
-[Dakota] This is what I'm saying.

I'm always like,
"This is why I'm always crying."

Well, he normally is not allowed
to come around 'cause he does this, so...

-Does what?
-[Taylor] You're annoying.

[Dakota] What did I do?

You open your mouth.
You know exactly what you said.

[♪ tense music playing]

[Mayci] I was hoping that Taylor
just wouldn't get into it with Dakota,

maybe just have a night
where he doesn't piss her off.

However, I don't think anyone--

any person can stop this man
from getting under her skin.

I just don't think it's possible.

-[Taylor] Never mind.
-This is crazy.

No, this is great, but I'm gonna go home.

-[Taylor] Oh, you're gonna go home?
-Well, because--

No, this is the best day of my life.

-Oh, my God.
-[Taylor] He can go home.

Don't feel obligated to stay. Go home.

-I'll walk you out.
-[Harry] Okay.

[Taylor] I really did wanna enjoy
the time with like Harry.

I was trying to get in the mindset
of like The Bachelorette, you know?

But I feel like, yeah,
Dakota definitely threw me off.

So, I'd like to talk to him about that

so I can actually be in the
headspace I need to be in

going into this
once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

-'Kay, well, thank you for coming.
-[Mayci] 'Kay, we'll see you.

-Thanks so much, guys.
-Have a good night.

-[Mayci/Taylor] Bye.
-See you.

Holy shit. [sighs]

♪ Come thee saints ♪

♪ And come thee sinners ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Listen up ♪

♪ I'm the one you've been dreaming of ♪

♪ I've got everything
you could ever want ♪

Shh.

♪ Try me and you'll see
I'll bring you to your knees ♪

♪ Baby, you're gonna believe ♪

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

-♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪
-Shh.

♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪

♪ Temptation ♪

♪♪

[♪ intense music playing]

♪ It's a party where we all get together ♪

♪ Got my girls to the left and the right
It's even better ♪

♪ It's a party where we all get together ♪

[Layla] 'Kay, we're gonna go
wake the girls up for breakfast.

[Mason] Alright.

[Layla] See if they wanted some brekkie.

[gasps] Ew!

[Layla and Mikayla shrieking]

[Layla gags]

There's only one thing that's worse
than seeing Dakota naked,

and that's seeing Taylor
right fucking next to him.

I am absolutely petrified right now
and I think I'm gonna return to church.

I think I need some holy water
to cleanse my eyes

'cause I think they're burned
outta my fucking head.

Alright, you dirt bags. What the fuck?

What the fuck? Taylor!

[Layla] She has a baby, and respectfully,
I can't sleep past 9:00 a.m.

Why are you in bed with him?

[Layla] [stammers mockingly] What?

It's always like, "Eff him, I'm done,
he's disgusting.

I'll never sleep with him again."

And then, like a day later,
she has slept with him.

It's just mind-blowing at this point.

Like, my brain can't comprehend
this madness anymore.

[Layla] So, did you guys just like study
the Bible last night, or what did you do?

[Mayci] I didn't wanna see them in there.
I'm grossed out.

I'm not even trying to be a bitch.

I'm just trying to understand

like, why you guys, like,
literally fight and roast each other

and then have sex after.
Like, is it like a weird, toxic kink?

It wasn't even, like, planned.
I don't think about it.

Because I'm an idiot! I'm an idiot!

I'm an idiot! That's--
There's no other words.

It's a cycle.
It's a vicious, vicious cycle.

I think anyone in a toxic relationship,
a trauma bond,

it is one of most difficult things
to get out of.

And I would've never understood that
unless I had lived it.

[Mayci] At this rate, I'm just concerned
for both of you, actually.

Just like, I'm just trying to understand,
even for you, Dakota, too,

'cause I know Taylor loves the toxic,

and I'm assuming you must too, you know?

Yeah. I've always loved Taylor. I just--

-[Mayci] Mm-hmm.
-It's-- Yeah.

Last night, I saw him walk by the room

and then I was like,
"Aw, that's like Ever's walk."

Like, Ever walks like his dad,
and so it's...

Ugh. I don't know how to talk about it
'cause I just get so emotional

'cause it's so sad. [inhales sharply]

[voice breaking] When I look at my son,
it's just like, that's part of Dakota.

So we just sat, and we were talking
in the middle of the night.

Like, yes, like, he tries, I cave.

I don't know. It's just-- I don't know.
It's confusing.

And I know that going
into The Bachelorette,

I understand it doesn't look the best.

This isn't gonna end well.

This is just gonna be a lot of hurt, guys.

And you guys have
already hurt each other a lot.

I, like, crack-opened the door,
his, like, arm's around her

-and he's scratching her arm.
-[Mason] Taylor and Dakota?

They're so full of shit.

I know. It's, like, so awkward though.

I'm like, It's just not healthy

and it's like, you're never--
it's never gonna change.

So it's like, "How can we help you guys?"
Like, "What do you need us to like do?"

-None of us can say anything.
-Yeah.

Like, if you guys were contestants
on The Bachelorette and you found out

that the girl slept with her ex
before filming--

-Not just her ex; her baby daddy.
-Her baby daddy.

Oh, I'd be pressed.

-[Layla] Yeah.
-[Mayci] Yeah. That's what I thought.

Taylor and Dakota
are both each other's addictions.

Jealousy, possessiveness,
and it goes both ways.

But it is hard, I feel like, on MomTok

because we've all tried so hard
to help her,

but like at this point, it's like,
I don't even know what to do.

Even though they wanna say,
"It's just sex," it's not just sex.

[Mayci] It's not.

I feel like we're parents right now.

-I know--
-I feel like we're parents

and we don't know
what to do with our kids.

-[Layla] I know.
-They're older than us.

Taylor's literally older than me too
and Dakota. I'm like why--

I'm 24. Why am I schooling her right now?

[baby crying]

-[publicist] [on phone] Hey.
-[Mayci] Hi.

-[publicist] Good. You have two minutes?
-[Mayci] Yes.

[publicist] So, we wanted to give you
a not-so-great update.

So, King's English
in Salt Lake City, Utah is very upset.

The sales aren't great.

The publisher,
at this point, i-- is not happy.

I'll just be honest with you.

'Kay.

[baby continues crying]

-Okay--
-[publicist] They're not happy.

They-- They've written us so many times
and they feel like,

you know, if we're just being
completely honest with you,

they feel like
you're not making the book a priority.

Yeah, well... Mm, okay.

That's fine. I mean, I have some thoughts.

I mean, I just had a baby,
so I'm like, "Okay." [chuckles]

My memoir Told You So
is coming out in a few weeks.

I have my book tour event
in Salt Lake next week

and I'm super excited.

Jessi is going to host my tour stop
in Salt Lake.

This book means so much more to me
than anything that I've ever done.

But now, the publisher is upset

and some of the book tour stops
are a little upset

because I haven't posted enough
for the tour stops

and we need to sell more tickets.

And honestly,
I'm feeling really stressed out.

I feel like I have so much
on my plate right now

and I'm just so spread thin.

[publicist] So,
they wrote an email to the publisher

and they're like,
"The sales have completely stalled."

Like, "How could this be happening?

-This is her hometown."
- [Mayci] Mm-hmm.

[publicist]
We really need to get the sales up,

and, um, in the meantime,
we are canceling the venue

and going to a smaller venue
because this is gonna cost us.

[Mayci] Okay.

As a Mormon, as someone
who's kind of breaking the rules

and kind of not being
in the best situation in their life,

feeling like they're at rock bottom,

I just didn't feel like
I was ever gonna recover from that.

So, I wrote this book for the person
who felt like me

where they felt like life was over,

like they could never be successful.

And so, it's really hard

when you have people coming to you saying
like, "Oh, you're not doing enough,"

where I'm like, "I literally feel like
I'm giving my all and like more,

and I feel like
there's nothing left of me to give."

As much success MomTok has brought me,

I don't know how to balance everything
between friendships,

my relationship with my husband,
my children,

my book tour, social media,
running a business,

it's just so much to balance.

It's so hard,
and it's starting to worry me.

[publicist] We're the messengers, Mayci,

but we know you're doing a lot,

we know you're bouncing around.
We get it.

[Mayci] Yeah. No, I'm-- I'm tired.

-So, I'm like--
-[publicist] I know. I know.

[Mayci] I'm like,
I just don’t know what to do.

[baby crying]

[Taylor]
Aw, Miranda slept all by herself.

[Miranda] Good morning, sunshine.

[Taylor] I slept outside by the pool.

[Miranda] Oh, yeah, I'm sure you did.

Or you got kidnapped
and dicked down by Dakota.

-[laughter]
-I'm like, "Huh?"

[Taylor] Do I regret it? Yes, I always do.

It's fair to say that
there's a wound there of, like,

if the only man in my life that was
supposed to love me didn't love me

then who's gonna love me
like when they walk away?

My dad, obviously. Like, my ex-husband.

But then you have Dakota,
where no matter what,

my mistakes, his mistakes,

I always come number one.

And he always chooses me
at the end of the day.

So, yeah, it does get confusing, for sure.

Speaking of Dakota,
um, I was gonna ask you

if you thought about using protection
for The Bachelorette

'cause what if you got pregnant?

'Cause what if I did use it?

-[Miranda] What if you did?
-No, you didn't.

-But what if?
-I'm asking, did you?

[♪ dramatic music playing]

...thought about using protection
for The Bachelorette

'cause what if you got pregnant?

The church used to frown upon the idea
of birth control.

That was years and years and years ago.

Now, there's nothing against it,

so Taylor is reckless

having unprotected sex
with her baby daddy.

Not okay.

But I track-- You guys know this.

-I track, I track, I track.
-[Miranda] I know. I know. I know.

But the fact
that you're about to date 30 men

and you claim, "I won't sleep with them--"

You're probably likely gonna
at least sleep with one of them.

Yeah.

I think the girls, you know,
get a little nervous

that I could obviously have
a potential pregnancy,

but I am not a fan of birth control.

I've always tracked, and I don't want
something else in my body

messing with my hormones.

Us as women already deal with that
so much just naturally.

Adding in more things from both ends,
medications, birth control

would, I think, even make it harder.

[Layla] I hate condoms though.

-I mean, so do I, but you--
-Oh, my God! Which one is it?

Circumstance matters.

You are about to be The Bachelorette,
and you already have--

You're right. That is the only argument
you guys have right now.

We're just looking out for you.

I would just hate for you
to lose out on opportunities.

[Layla] Our intentions are pure.

We just want Taylor to have the best
out of this experience,

and her just being so nonchalant
that like, "If I'm pregnant, like ha-ha,"

I'm like, "Uh, it's not 'ha-ha'

'cause I have one kid
that's a pullout game baby and--"

[laughs]

If you got pregnant, like,
I don't know that the network

or the men would want
a pregnant Bachelorette.

No, I get that. Absolutely.

And I would just hate for that
to like, ruin your future

and think great things
you have coming, you know?

-Well...
-[Miranda] And a third baby daddy

-if it wasn't Dakota's.
-Yeah. Yes.

[Layla gags]

And if it was Dakota's,
that would also be shitty, so...

-Worse.
-[Miranda laughs]

-[Layla] Actually, anyone else is way--
-[Miranda] Worse is crazy.

♪ Yeah, I'm on your lips ♪

♪ Gotta get a taste of this ♪

♪ Come on, come and take a sip ♪

♪ Sweet like honey with a drip ♪

Oh, D-dog!

[Dakota] What are you doing, dude?

-[Mason] Dude! Oh!
-What's up?

[Whitney] Yesterday was the premiere
of Dancing with the Stars,

and all of MomTok was there to support me.

It's just so crazy
because just a few months ago,

I felt very strongly that

I was never going to be welcomed back
into this group ever again,

especially with Mayci and Mikayla.

But my relationship with MomTok
is stronger than it's ever been.

-Hey.
-How are you?

[group chattering]

-The party has arrived.
-[Mikayla] I know.

[Whitney] Demi came to the premiere
of Dancing With the Stars,

but she's taking a step away from MomTok.

I worked my ass off trying to integrate
myself and Demi back into MomTok.

So, seeing the group break apart,
yeah, it sucks.

[Jace] Congratulations, by the way.

I'm seeing you at the top
of everyone's ranking list.

[Conner] Yeah. It's--
It's fun watching the TikToks

and all like the fans are like,
"Whitney's my number one.

Whitney's my number one."
I'm like, "That's right."

It's so incredible that
everyone's getting these opportunities

and going out and living their dreams,

but my health has held me back
from saying yes to a lot of opportunities.

It's definitely discouraging
and frustrating

and it kind of holds me back
from other places in my life

like my marriage with Jace.

-[Dakota] You just dance all day long?
-I literally just got back.

-Look at her abs. [laughing]
-Oh, my gosh, dude. Dancing is such a...

[Mikayla]
Dancing's actually freaking hard.

Uh-huh.

[Jacob] 'Kay,
you guys wanna go get some hot dogs?

I feel like we should go hit up Pink's.

[Dakota] So, the dads
are just kinda wanting to get away,

do a little boys' thing.

We decide to all leave
and get some hot dogs

because there's obviously
nothing more manly than that.

I call the back.

I call the middle!

-[Dakota] Short leg.
-Short leg king!

[engine revving]

Did you hear, like,
Harry Jowsey came over?

I heard a rumor that...

-Right. Okay, yeah.
-...he was gonna be invited.

And he was cool.
Like, got along with the dude.

-I was like, "Oh, shit, alright."
-Oh, he's a cool guy.

Yeah, so it was fun, and I think
that pissed Taylor off more.

-Was that your 3D chess?
-That was, like-- Yeah.

You're like,
"You were trying to make me jealous.

-I'm about to make you mad."
-Right. I was like, "Watch this shit.

I'm about to bring my queen out."

It ended up with Taylor somehow in my bed,
dude, believe it or not.

-What?
-At the end of the night. Yep.

Held me all night, dude.

[Conner] Wait,
why am I disappointed, Dakota?

I-- Uh, because there's a lot
of disappointment somehow.

Was it just holding?

-A little.
-[Conner] No, be honest.

We wrestled for a sec.

Well, the job got done.

-It-- It finished the job, something.
-[Conner] Okay.

-[Dakota] It was shocking.
-[Conner] What do you want, Dakota?

I don't know what I want, dude.
All I know is it was confusing as shit.

Because she's never nice to me,

when she is, I'm like, "This is awesome.
I love when you're nice to me."

-[Conner] Sounds like codependency.
-Yeah.

Well, there's more to it
than just that as well.

Clearly, you guys have connection.

Right. Yeah, there's-- it's a lot more.

There's so much to our dynamic
and I think that's why it's so hard.

Why? Dakota! Taylor!

It feels like a trauma bond.

From the start to where things are at now,

them being together isn't healthy.

-What do you want, man?
-Well, I mean, if we were done right now

and I didn't have a kid with her,

then I would freaking completely cut her
outta my life in like two seconds.

-You think? You think you would do that?
-Yeah, 100%.

Yeah dude, just the kid aspect
feels like it tied my soul to her forever.

-Well, it-- it did in a way.
-Well, it does. Yeah.

Exactly. That's what I'm saying.

So, it's like-- It feels different.
Like, I'm like, "Damn!"

You know, Taylor's gonna leave
for The Bachelorette

and that's like another reason why
I think I'm kinda stressed.

I don't know. It just feels kind of crazy.

I feel like she's low-key, like--

It just sounds like
she's keeping you on a leash.

-It's like a six-inch leash.
-Yeah.

I feel like you're the one
who is keeping the collar on.

If you want the collar, keep the collar,
or you can just rip it off.

Hey dude,
don't be doing fucking fist bumps

-in front of my face like that, dude.
-[laughter]

You keep that shit to yourself, bro.

You're like, "Fuck, yeah, dude."

He's like, "I want the best for you guys."

Like, "Fuck this guy."

-No, and I'm giving her the power.
-Taylor-- All this power.

Yes, a hundr-- Bro, I give her--

-Just take the power back, dude
-I give her all the power.

-You're a dog with thumbs.
-Yeah, anytime I've taken--

-[laughter]
-Great analogy.

[laughing] There you go, guys.

Bro, I'm hungry.

Well, we're getting hot dogs right now.

Oh, yeah, we are. Okay, cool.

-You're in the perfect vehicle for that.
-Yeah.

♪ Hard work, oh this is how to take it ♪

♪ Every last drop if you can make it ♪

It's cute. I've never been here.
The Henry.

[Mayci] Oh, The Henry.
Yes, I know this place.

[Miranda] Oh, The Henry.

-That's what we we're saying last night.
-The Henry. So fancy.

We are getting a little lunch in LA.

Jessi's not with us
'cause her and Jordan are in New York

'cause Jessi's winning an award.

Jen is gonna meet us later,
but we're having so much fun getting out.

Could we do,
um, some truffle fries? [laughs]

The Parmesan Trussel-- Truffle fries.

You got it. I'll get that started.

-Thank you.
-Thank you.

Why is Jesse Palmer here?

-[Miranda] What?
-[Taylor] Wait, what?

The host for The Bachelorette.

-[Taylor] Where?
-Oh, wait, what?

-What?
-What?

-He's right there.
-[Mayci] Where?

Right there.

[Whitney gasps]

We see Jesse Palmer,
the host of The Bachelorette,

and we're all like, "What are the odds?"

Honestly, we thought we were being set up.
We're like, "Whoa, what's going on here?

Is there a surprise?" But no.

-[Mayci] Hello.
-[Mikayla] Oh!

Hey.

-[cast exclaiming]
-So, this is super weird.

-I was literally just in the coffee shop.
-Oh, my God!

He saw obviously some filming us around
and so he was like, "What's going on?"

-[Jesse] I promise I'm not stalking you.
-It was meant to be.

-[Mikayla] It was fate.
-This is absolutely meant to be.

-How's everybody doing?
-[cast] So good.

Good. My wife and I are
huge fans of you all.

-[cast] Aw.
-So this is really, really neat.

-I am so excited!
-[Taylor] Thank you!

For the upcoming journey.
How are you feeling?

I'm excited, nervous,

and I don't really know
what to expect, so--

You are gonna be absolutely amazing.

And I know that, right now,
they're putting together

just an incredible group of guys
for you to meet

-so we're really excited.
-[Whitney] Yay!

Can we send you a list of guys that
you're absolutely not allowed to let in?

-[Jesse] Yes, absolutely. Gimme the list.
-[Mikayla] Okay, good.

I'm like, "I have a few.
One starts with a C. One starts with a D."

I think she's definitely telling herself

that it's not as big as a deal
to sleep with him as-- like it--

It is. It's a huge deal.

I just wanna see her happy.

I wanna see her healthy.
I wanna see her healed.

And with The Bachelorette coming up,

I feel like Taylor's chaotic energy
will definitely rub off

and reflect on MomTok.

Anyways, I will see you soon.

-Very soon.
-At the mansion, I guess.

-I guess.
-[Jesse] Okay. Really excited.

-Alright, guys. Have fun. See you.
-[cast] Thank you!

-[Mayci] Wait, that's wild.
-It's fate.

That's your sign
to stop sleeping with Dakota.

[Mikayla] Yes, that's your sign.

-[Mayci] There you go. There it is.
-Wait, what?

-Wait, what? What?
-Oh, she slept with him last night.

-Taylor... Frankie Paul.
-I know. That's everyone's reaction.

I honestly wasn't even mad.
I wanted to cry.

I was so sad, honestly.

It is confusing, but it's a pill
we both have to swallow.

Like, this is never going to work.

But it is hard when you
didn't necessarily want it, right? Like--

I don't know. I have to do it.
I know I do. It's just hard.

-[Whitney] Yeah.
-Well, she has to

before she goes on The Bachelorette,

which is coming up in less than a month.

I do believe she's on The Bachelorette
for the right reasons.

I really do.

I think she wants to have
that lifelong partner.

I think she longs for that.

But I don't think Taylor feels like
she deserves happiness.

[Mayci] I just don't want you
to sabotage this opportunity to move on

and find someone who respects you
and treats you super well.

I don't want you to ruin that for yourself

because you're sleeping
with your baby daddy.

Yeah. Yeah.

I think if she is really serious
about being The Bachelorette,

it is very important that
she has a conversation with Dakota

and cuts it off completely

just because
it could throw a real wrench in things.

[sighs] I think this will be good, though.

A next chapter
'cause I don't have a choice, you know?

♪ Dancing on my, dancing on my own ♪

♪ I'll be dancing on my own
I'll be dancing on my own ♪

♪ I'll be dancing... ♪

[group vocalizing]

-I don't know where I'm going.
-[Layla] What's wrong with that?

[Jen] I was really nervous
going into my routine,

but the minute I hit the dance floor
and seeing MomTok cheer for me,

just having their support
meant everything to me.

[Mikayla]
Oh, they're trying to hold hands!

[group] Aw!

Hi!

I didn't realize how much
I missed the girls.

I wish I wasn't rehearsing so much
so I can have more time with them.

Jen, great job last night.

-[Jen] Yes!
-[Conner] Yeah.

[Jen] I want that Mirrorball, baby.

-Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
-Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

I've been definitely trying
to rebuild my friendship with Whitney,

especially being in LA
and being on the same journey.

-[Whitney] Oh!
-[laughter]

-Right?
-Thigh gap?

Ooh!

[Mikayla] It's from all the stress.

-Stress and dancing.
-And dancing.

But we're both feeling a bit competitive

and also, with the whole world
trying to pin us both against each other,

it makes it extra hard.

Wait, why is Jessi in New York?

-[Taylor] She won an award.
-She what?

She won the Page Six Awards

-for like the Best Boss Babe.
-Wow!

-Yeah, it's cool.
-Oh, that's awesome!

-[Taylor] Crazy, I know.
-[Whitney] Wow! That's so cool!

I'm so proud of everyone
in MomTok right now.

I feel like everyone is really
just going after their dreams,

and it definitely does make me think
about future ambitions that I have.

My lifelong goal has always been
to be a model.

It's something that I dreamed of
since I was a little girl,

so I wanna really try to hone in on that.

Your book comes out in October, right?

-Yeah.
-Like, that weekend?

-Like, October 10th?
-October...

Yeah, so it'll be like an event.

It'll be more like a live event though,
like where I have like a host

-and, like, they ask questions.
-[Whitney] Right.

-I asked Jessi if she wanted to host it...
-Yeah.

...because I just like--
She's like, "I like hosting," and she

-wanted to do that for career stuff too.
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Just kinda like I do, and she's good.

So I was like, "Okay, you wanna do it?"
And she's like, "Yeah."

And then we were supposed
to do an Unwell event.

Me, Mikayla, Jessi.

-Uh-huh. Yeah.
-The Unwell, like, Call Her Daddy thing,

and then it was supposed to be on the 11th
but they moved it to the 10th.

Recently, me, Mikayla, and Jessi
got invited by Alex Cooper

from Call Her Daddy
to do her Unwell tour in Vegas,

and it just so happens that
the day of the Unwell tour

is the same day of my book tour stop
in Salt Lake.

-Okay.
-And so, now, I think she--

she texted me today saying like--

that she was basically choosing that
over hosting the book thing for me.

-I don't know. It kind of sucks.
-[Mikayla] Sucks.

-[Taylor] It's sad, but...
-Yeah.

It just, uh, it just feels shitty,
but that's okay.

Well, don't do that.

Because when you say it's okay,
then you invalidate yourself.

-It's like--
-[Mayci] No, I know.

-I don't wanna make a big deal out of it.
-Mayci, I know how you feel about it.

[Whitney] You can say, "You know what?

-That really hurt my feelings."
-[Mayci] Yeah.

And you have every right to feel that way.

Listen, I understand
all of us spreading our wings

and wanting to have
our individual success,

but you've already told
one of your best friends

that you were going to be there.

Mayci's hurt; I get that.

It's just hard 'cause I don't want her
to like lose an opportunity for herself

-to do it just for me, you know?
-[Whitney] But you're missing the point

is that a commitment was already made.

So, you're choosing
something that "looks better"

-than the commitment you already made.
-[Mayci] Yeah. Yeah.

I just hope that Jessi chooses her friends
over the opportunities and the fame

because I think the fame might be starting
to get to some of the women's head,

and it's starting to pull MomTok apart.

I don't know, for me,
it's just not a question.

I'm like, if your friend has something

and like this is not as-- as important,
to be honest.

I mean, this is kind of a bigger deal
than Unwell. Like, by far.

♪♪

♪♪

♪ I need that-- I need that--
I need that medicine ♪

♪ Like it's a-- Like it's a... ♪

[Mayci] Oh, the boys are here.

[laughter]

I mean, who would've thought

that MomTok and DadTok
would all be together once again

in this beautiful LA mansion
minus Jessi and Jordan.

The boys calling this a DadTok trip

really, honestly, it doesn't bug me

'cause we all know
what you're really here for,

and that's to watch the children
so we can go to Dancing with the Stars.

Taylor, do you wanna offer us a prayer
over the food?

[Taylor] No. No, I'm sorry.

[Jen] I said good,
'cause I'm starting now.

-[Zac] Okay.
-[Jen] I'm starving.

Do you guys ever feel like
we're like a dysfunctional family?

-[Jen] Yeah.
-[Mikayla] Yeah.

Yeah.

-Yeah.
-True. [laughs]

-Yeah. [laughs] It is, though.
-[Mason] [laughs] Yeah.

Taylor and Dakota are sitting
next to each other at the dinner table.

I mean, [sighs] it's weird.
It's like awkward.

I honestly can't just sit here
and pretend it's okay.

You know what we're also tired of?

[Taylor] I knew you
were gonna bring that one up.

[Mayci] I'm just gonna say it, you know?

[Mikayla] It's a pattern at this point.

-But does it affect you as a whole?
-Yeah.

[Taylor] I really hope that my sex life
doesn't always affect you guys.

[Mikayla] It does. It made me really sad.
A slow tear went like this.

-[Dakota] Really?
-[Taylor] [laughs] No, it didn't!

-[Jacob] Mayci's on your team.
-[Taylor] I know.

This relationship has been
draining my soul for the last three years,

and so it's hard supporting her
time and time again

when she keeps doing the same thing
over and over

that she said she's not gonna do.

She's trying to like help you
get to what you want.

-Yeah.
-That's why I don't like telling her

'cause I'm like,
I don't wanna hear the right things.

Uh, Dakota heard all the right things
from Conner today.

-[Taylor] What?
-Yeah, dude, Conner lit me up today.

Oh, my gosh, tell me about it.

He was just-- Uh, I just don't think
I've ever seen that side of Conner

-so it was like hilarious.
-[Mikayla] What was he saying?

He was like,
"Feels like Taylor has you on a leash."

And Dakota's like,
"Yeah. Like, I think that's it."

"The collar you have, like, you,
you're the one who can take it off."

-Yeah.
-And he said something about that

and I was like, "Oh, that was good."

No, it was a great analogy.

Why, because it was accurate, or what?

Yes, Taylor. That is--
That is why it was a good analogy.

[Taylor] Like, see how simple that was
to just be honest?

Sh-- Shit.

-Yeah, I mean, I don't really care.
-[Taylor] Yeah, you do.

[Dakota] No, I don't.

Taylor doesn't want to give me,

you know, the satisfaction
of her being kind or nice to me.

She, like, always has to push me away--

She's just so guarded, but I actually feel
like sh-- she does love me a lot.

I think she still wants to be with me.

I just feel like she thinks that
she can't be with me

or like it's impossible to be with me.

[Dakota vocalizes, laughs]

♪♪

♪ Baby, this time won't be the same ♪

Do you feel stressed? No.

-Stressed for you.
-[Mayci] Stop it.

Also, you can tell Jessi how you feel.

I think you need
to let people pick a stance on it.

You don't need to react over the top,

but you also need
to have a good enough response

on letting Jessi know, like, how you feel
without, like, letting her off the hook.

It's not like I need to keep her
on the hook either though.

-It's just like--
-[Jacob] Just, she needs to know

that, like, she picked it over you.

[Mayci sighs]

[Mayci] Jacob is very protective over me

and was really upset
when Whitney didn't come

to my Babymama event in the past,

and he knows how much that hurt me.

I've been working on this, like, endlessly
for the last two and a half years.

[Mikayla] I don't wanna stress you out,
but have you talked to Whitney at all?

[Mayci] Oh! No.

I don't know how you can focus
when your best friend is not here.

[Mayci] I don't know if DadTok
is a great influence on him

because he has been a little more vocal

and getting involved in things
in my business.

I'm like, I know he has good intentions,

I know he's trying to help me,
I know he wants us to succeed,

but it's so exhausting.

You gotta move fast with these things.

That way you have more time
for people to know.

'Cause if you're not posting
every three days,

like, that's just wasted time...

You should write something
super personal to all your girls...

...really emotional to like have them
really connect to the book.

I am the breadwinner in the relationship.

He helps with the kids so much,

but also like, he needs to work
to feel that fulfillment,

and so I think
that's why he is so passionate

about helping me with my businesses
and things like that.

But I get annoyed
because he's overexplaining

and he's overwhelming me,

but sometimes it comes off to me
like, "Oh, you're not doing enough."

I'm already stressed out

about the tickets not selling well
for the book tour,

and then the Jessi stuff
that I have to deal with

that I don't really want to confront,

and so I'm like, "Just get off my back."

I don't need help
with you telling me what to do.

I need help with people helping me
make it happen. Like, that's it.

I'm trying to just, like,
help you be more organized,

but then also like ideas for you
and for the book, like not--

But what I'm saying is, is like,

unless they're put into action,
that's the problem.

-I don't have time to put into action.
-I'm not gonna do anything into action

because you, like,
don't give me the respect and like--

What do you mean? What respect?

This is about the respect
of like us being creative together,

and you actually using my help

and then being respectful
to the ideas I have back.

Okay. What do you mean?
When am I not respectful?

-All the time?
-I never am disrespectful.

It's not disrespectful, but it's like,
I'm not gonna spend my time helping

-when it's like, "Yeah, yeah, yeah, okay."
-Literally, just said yeah.

I feel like me and Mayci
are a little bit different

than the typical Mormon.

Men get the priesthood
when they're 12 years old in the church,

and women don't.

You know, the priesthood should be
the ultimate decision maker

for things in the house,

but I'm not gonna be an asshole
and make decisions for her.

I'm not trying to be toxic and try
and take things that aren't mine.

I try and give her solutions
and I try and help.

I feel like
that's what a husband should do.

And that's the number one
thing that I care most about,

is that Mayci's not gonna be
walked all over

when it comes to business,
friends, work, everything.

-This is my-- This is my thing.
-Whatever. You don't even--

No, since you haven't done anything
in the past...

What are you talking about?
You're being annoying.

♪ Kinda feels like summer ♪

♪ With the windows down ♪

♪ It's really makin' me wonder ♪

♪ If it'll ever get better than this ♪

♪ Your hand in mine... ♪

[sing-songy]
♪ We're back! ♪

-[Mayci] Oh, my gosh. Hello.
-Hello.

-Oh, my gosh. Welcome back.
-[Jessi] Hey, guys!

-Oh, my gosh. Are you barbecuing?
-[Taylor] Yes. Yes.

Hi!

[Mayci] Okay, let us celebrate you!

-It was fun. It was-- Thank you.
-No, it looked incredible.

It was so fun, but it was like
so in and out, like so fast.

New York was so much fun.

The award show was amazing.

I won the Boss Babe Award,

and I won it over Kim Kardashian,
which is so surreal.

Being known as a successful businesswoman
means everything to me

because I put my heart and soul
into my businesses.

So, I'm really glad I went,
and it was such an incredible opportunity.

-You deserve it, though.
-You do.

-You're literally a workaholic.
-You honestly-- Like, you worked so hard.

I know. For that specific category,
I'm like, "I did earn it."

-Oh! 100%
-What was the category?

-It was Boss Babe. Like, business.
-[Miranda] Oh, literally.

-[Taylor] Yes. It makes sense.
-[Jessi] It makes sense. Yeah.

Things do feel like a little bit awkward
with Jessi

because I didn't respond to her right away

when she did text me that
she wasn't gonna do my book tour.

Jacob does think I should confront it
and talk to her about it,

so I don't feel like
any feelings of resentment.

But I don't wanna create drama
or have issues

so, for now, I think I'm just gonna
leave it be and not bring it up,

and I'll get over it eventually.

What did you guys do yesterday?

[Taylor] Mm... Uh...

[Miranda] I forgot.

-I got bitched at most of the day really.
-[Jessi] Why?

-Wait, what?
-He did say that.

[Jessi] Taylor!

It's just wild to me that
I wasn't even gone for 24 hours,

and she managed to slip back
into his bed again.

The grip that Dakota has on Taylor
is really concerning,

especially because The Bachelorette
is just a few weeks away,

and we need to get her ready.

[Mayci] We saw Jesse Palmer.

And he's like, "There's nothing you can do
to prepare for this, just by the way."

-[Jessi] Okay.
-I was like, "Any advice?"

He's like, "Sleep with your ex.
That's the best way to prepare."

[sighs] No.

[Jessi] I have had conversations with her
in the past where she knows

that she wants to choose
to be healthy, and happy, and better,

but I think her behavior
stems from a deeper issue.

He walked by my room and it looked
like Ever's walk and I was like,

-"Oh, my gosh, that's so sad."
-[Jessi] Aw. Yeah.

Like, I don't even wanna talk about it
'cause it's so hard

but like, it's hard for me
and I was just crying and I was like,

"I just missed, like,
obviously want my baby.

I'm like sad, like,
we're in a broken home."

[♪ somber music playing]

This isn't just about sex for you.

I think you feel like your core wound
is that you're unlovable

because of your dad,

and I think that
Dakota made you feel that way as well,

and you're trying
to, like, fix the relationship

with your dad and him in one,
subconsciously.

That's just how I see it.

And I think that
since Dakota did this to you,

it made you feel unlovable,
it triggered that wound.

So, you're trying
to go to get that validation.

[Taylor] Yeah.

So, with my biological dad,

there's been really no relationship
at all.

I met him one time when I was four.

That is it, and he obviously, like,
didn't, you know, want me.

There is a wound there
that, subconsciously,

you weren't enough for them to stay.

Like, I was an option to my dad
and now I'm an option to Dakota.

Because of the trauma, I have lost faith

to find my person,
and the man of my dreams.

And so, I think the only way to do that
is to work through this.

With Dakota, I always felt there was lies.
I always could feel it.

And then you ended up
being right every time...

-Yes.
-...so it just confirms like everything.

If you can lie
to your so-called "love of your life"

for three years in the eyes
as they're begging and crying,

-I-- That's-- No. No.
-[Miranda] And the mother of your child.

[Dakota groaning]

I mean, dude, are you-- How you doing?
Are you doing alright?

I'm okay. I just-- [sighs] I get it, dude.

Like, I know the thing I even did,
it was stupid, it was fucking dumb.

That just seems like
you're going through the wringer, dude.

Like, back and forth emotionally.

Dude, I don't think you need that.

-No, I don't.
-You don't. That's not healthy for you.

This will never change.

-[Jacob] Yeah.
-You're gonna always fucking hate me.

She's gonna be stuck in that
until she feels like

-you understand the hurt and pain.
-[Dakota] Yeah.

You can tell that

-there's a lot of love for you underneath.
-Yeah.

You just need to go through a stage
of being an emotional punching bag

until she can move past that.

-Yeah.
-[Jace] While, at the same time,

-taking space if you need.
-Yeah.

It's a really tough thing,
but Dakota needs to give Taylor space.

They have to break
this toxic back and forth that they have,

and the way for them to do that
is to split up

and try to heal on their own.

Someone has to do it right first.

-[Jace] Yeah.
-Yeah.

I mean, that's even what
like our therapist said,

was like, "Dakota, it's gonna be you."
Like, "Sorry, buddy."

-Like, "It's not gonna be anybody else."
-[Jacob] From like an emotional place,

-I feel like it is you.
-Yeah.

Because she has a lot of hurt,

and she's trying to heal
a lot of parts of her,

-and, like, we could see it.
-Right.

[Jacob] You know, but like--
It takes-- It takes one of you.

And I-- I think I have to accept that.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

-[Jacob] Basically, this way.
-[Zac] Really?

Yeah. 'Cause it's a tunnel of like--
No, you go on that side.

-[Jace] So it would be something like--
-Yeah, Jace is Alpha. There you go.

-I'm scared of that.
-I'm scared of-- Look.

[indistinct chatter and laughter]

[Mayci] What the hell are they doing?

[Jessi] They look a little too comfortable
in that position.

I think you went too far forward.

-Did I?
-At the end.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[howling]

♪♪

-[laughter]
-Ah! That's funny!

That's perfect!

I'm getting
like four hours of sleep at night.

-No! Is she waking up?
-Yeah.

-[Jessi] Oh, that sucks.
-[Jen] I know.

[Jessi] I need to be that. [laughs]

-I know.
-Or your nanny.

Hey, you guys, I got an idea.

[sing-songy]
♪ Truth box! ♪

-You've never done one.
-I know.

I just figured it'd be a good thing

-for us all to do.
-[Jessi] 'Cause you saw it go so well?

[Conner] That's Pandora's box.

Respectfully, I don't wanna do it.

It's time for the inaugural
MomTok and DadTok truth box.

Ew, Jordan is literally
such a wannabe MomTok-er.

Uh, can you not get original ideas?

Like, once again,
Jordan riding on MomTok's coattails.

-Are there any questions in there?
-Well, no. We get to ask the questions.

I see Dakota being completely petrified

that Taylor's gonna go
be The Bachelorette.

I think that
this is the perfect opportunity for Dakota

to be honest and truthful with Taylor.

Yeah, I got pens, I got cards.

Wait, I was being serious.
Like, I don't wanna do that.

[Zac] Okay, who voted for Jen?
Who voted for Whitney?

[Jessi laughs]

-[Jordan] That's a good one.
-[Jessi] Write the name down.

[Jordan] I'll start with that one.

[Layla] I don't think so.
Him and Mason are working out.

[laughter]

[Taylor chuckles]

[Dakota laughing]

The last thing I'm gonna do right now
is play Truth Box with Taylor.

I try to stay away from that stuff
because I just know that that's like--

It-- It's things
that's just gonna trigger Taylor, and...

there's only gonna be one person
that breaks the cycle and it would--

It's gonna be me if I do it.

But again, there's a part of me
that doesn't wanna break the cycle

because I want to be with her.

I just feel like a conversation

is probably like
what me and Taylor need right now

to just kind of sort everything out, too.

Even with with co-parenting, like,
really just try to get on the same page.

-[Mason] Do you think it's gonna be weird?
-No, I don't actually.

[laughing] I'm not--
I'm not usually right.

[Jacob] Mason, put your shirt back on.

Hey, take yours off.

[Mikayla] Why are they working out
with their shirts off?

They look like tools.

[Jessi] Is everyone playing or...?

No, Conner and I have to go.

Conner wants to. Look at him!

-I don't want to.
-[Jordan] Conner wants to.

No, he is-- he is excited.

[Whitney] I have the in-person interview,

-wardrobe, and rehearsal.
-Same. Same. Same.

So, I've gotta go,
but I hope everyone tells the truth.

I don't think anyone's a fan
of the Truth Box,

but I know for a fact she wants
to win Dancing with the Stars.

You kinda have to have a good image,

and so I think she's doing everything
to protect that.

Do we think Jessi photoshopped
the picture of Jordan's penis?

-[all laughing]
-[Jessi] That was before AI existed.

-[Taylor] Oh, my God.
-Right there.

Jessi, that's not fucking blurred out.
You can see the damn tip.

[Jordan] Alright, fam,
welcome to tonight's festivities.

"Jacob, who is the least trustworthy
in DadTok?"

-Ohh!
-Jordan.

-Oh, yeah. It's true.
-Me?

-That's no surprise.
-For what?

'Cause your mouth.

-[Jessi laughing]
-[Jen] [laughing] Yeah.

"Who needs MomTok the most?"

Ooh!

Probably DadTok.

-I would say DadTok, yeah.
-Probably, yeah.

Yes, safe answer.

[Mikayla] Miranda.

[Miranda] Question for you, Taylor.

"Do you think
you are self-sabotaging The Bachelorette?"

Uh-oh.

Mm, I think my life is chaos right now,
so maybe my whole life.

So, if including that, maybe,

but I'm not specifically thinking
"Bachelorette, let's ruin this."

-But my life is always like that.
-Fair.

So, maybe yes.

"Taylor, do you think
you deserve Dakota's love?"

Aw.

-Oh, my gosh! That was--
-[Jordan] Jesus!

-"Mayci...
-[Mikayla] Uh-oh.

...how do you feel that Jessi chose
the Unwell event over yours?"

[sighs] It looks like I have no choice
but to address this with Jessi.

Feel like the Truth Box
just strikes again.

[♪ tense music playing]

[♪ tense music playing]

I'm just trying
to think of how to answer it.

But I felt kind of shitty,
if I'm being honest.

[Jessi] Like, I feel so bad
'cause you asked me to host it

-and I felt so honored to do that.
-[Mayci] Yeah.

It's hard 'cause we're in a position now

where it's like
there's so many amazing opportunities.

Obviously, that's a huge opportunity
for me to get that podcast in the fall,

and also,
if anyone else got the opportunity,

I would hope that everyone is thinking
of their careers and themselves.

Well, they tried to offer it
to me and Miranda today...

Thanks.

Supporting each other is why we're here
in MomTok.

This is just a very out of character thing
of Jessi to do.

I think all the cool opportunities
we're getting are great,

but I also think it has potential
to pull us away

from why we're in MomTok to begin with.

This is why we are so successful is that
we have always supported each other,

and I think that
that's the most important thing.

If I ever get on Call Her Daddy,
my time will come,

but I just feel like
this is really big for Mayci,

and I don't wanna miss it for her.

Coming from a business standpoint,
like, you're very business-mindset.

And that's just naturally like who you are
and that's okay,

and it makes sense that
like that would come first to you.

Well, then you have the think about too

that MomTok is a business
as well as a friendship.

In my head, it was like,
business and friendship.

-Oh, for sure. Yeah,
-Because you obviously know me really well

and I know Mikayla probably would die
if I had her host something.

[Jessi] So, I had agreed
to host Mayci's book event

and she kept telling me they hadn't
announced that I was coming yet,

it was just a special guest,

and so I actually didn't know
that I had been announced

when I told her
I was gonna do Unwell instead.

She always approached me being like,

"Hey, just let me know
what you're gonna do. No big deal."

It's clear that some of the girls
are talking about it behind my back.

And I didn't even realize she was upset
until it got brought up here at Truth Box.

I wish she would've actually talked to me
about it.

I didn't know if you--
if it mattered to you as much

'cause I know the other girls are going,

so I was like,
maybe she doesn't care if I'm there.

[Mikayla] I think it's so dumb.

Jessi obviously knew that
it would affect Mayci

because she did agree to host it for her
and Mayci had already put out the flyers

saying that
Jessi was gonna host it with her.

I mean, obviously Mayci was gonna be upset
and I think Jessi knew that.

I think, for me, it's just hard
because I don't wanna ask for support.

You know what I'm saying?
It's like when you're in a relationship,

and you're like, "Oh, I want them
to do this without having to ask."

-[Jessi] Yeah.
-And then it doesn't happen naturally

so then, I would feel bad
in this situation no matter what

being like, "Oh, host it"

'cause I don't wanna take opportunities
away from you

-that you're excited about.
-[Jessi] Yeah.

So, I feel like it puts me
in a lose-lose position

because I'm like,
"Well, it's like shitty either way

-'cause if you did stay, I'd feel guilty."
-Yeah.

I want you to know, like,
knowing how you feel now, I'm not gonna go

-'cause, like, I wanna support you.
-Then I'll feel bad that you don't go.

No, but I didn't-- No, don't feel bad
'cause I didn't know you felt that way,

but now that I do,
that makes my choice easier.

Whereas before,
I genuinely thought you like didn't care.

I thought you were gonna be like,
"Oh, I'll ask Whitney to host it."

'Cause I would much rather figure it out,

obviously, support you
and like lose that opportunity

'cause there's gonna be more.

I had to at least consider it,
but you're my priority.

And I just want you to know I love you.

And you were there for me

-through the hardest time of my life and--
-[Mayci] Love you too.

I'm gonna cry.

[voice breaking] Um, I just don't want you
to ever think I don't value you

'cause I really, I really do,
and I wanna be there for you.

[Mayci] It was good of Jacob
to give me the advice to confront it.

The Truth Box was a good way
to open up dialogue

for me and Jessi
to talk about the situation,

and honestly, it's a good segue
into future experiences

and just learning
how to express my feelings

without holding them in.

I love you, and I'm really sorry.

I don't ever want you to feel like

-I would've chosen something over you.
-Thank you.

-I appreciate that.
-Yeah. [sighs]

[Miranda] Our LA trip
is coming to a close,

and there's a lot on the horizon
for MomTok.

We have Mayci with her book tour,

Dancing with the Stars
is now in full swing with Jen and Whitney.

Bachelorette for Taylor
is four weeks away.

I am worried that
Taylor might not be ready.

I do fear even just one more thing
added on MomTok

could potentially break it.

[♪ gentle upbeat music playing]

[birds chirping]

I never didn't want Taylor.

I've always wished that
I could be with her.

But at the same time,
I think seeing how much pain she is in,

even if it deals with me,
it's really hard to watch

and I don't want that for her.

So, I think the one thing I can do now
is kind of just learn to let go.

So, I'm super nervous to go
into this conversation

like always, with Taylor,
because I usually feel like

if she gets triggered in any way,
it just ends awful.

Anyways, what did you wanna talk about?

Okay.

[♪ intense music playing]

I guess, yeah, I was just gonna talk about
as far as like co-parenting

and just maybe how we can,
like, move forward in a...

better way.

Like, what are we doing? You know?

It's like, how should we do this, Tay?
How can we help each other?

How can we be on the same team?

[Taylor] Mm-hmm.

Like, right now, like, Tay,
you're about to go on The Bachelorette.

All this stuff's happening.

Like-- I don't know.

I think we just need to, like,
swallow the pill. It's like over.

Yeah.

You haven't swallowed it yet, nor have I.

[Dakota] Right.

Can we help each other with it somehow?

'Cause it is gonna hurt, and I know that,

like, even after just this, like I...

I like miss you a lot.

And I just realize,
like, sometimes I forget,

and then I'm like, "She doesn't want me.

"Like, I--
I don't even know what I'm doing.

Like, what's the point of this?"

For me, I feel like I-- I get--

I confuse myself because I, like,
obviously, like-- like, I care about you

that I don't think
that's like a secret to anybody.

-[Dakota] I know.
-I did.

-I loved you. [sniffles]
-[Dakota] Yeah.

[Taylor] But at the same time,

I could never sit in a bed with you
and not wonder like,

"What else is going on on the side?"

And that is where
my issue will always lie with you.

-You know?
-[Dakota] But I'm saying like,

you're the one that's made this decision,
like, it's not me.

Like, I didn't--
I-- I-- I didn't want this.

When he says that,
"You're making this decision, Taylor,"

true, but at the same time,
I feel like I've had no choice.

And then not to mention all the other lies
with the girls

that he lied about
and talked to behind my back.

So, to believe someone loves you so much

and you're his number one girl,
and you actually weren't.

Fuck him.

I respect your decision,
but what I'm saying is if that's--

Do you understand it though, too?

Yeah. Yeah, but I just like,
I look at it from my perspective of,

there's tons of things
I shoulda walked away from you.

For me, that's different
is because I... I still chose you.

Like, I still-- I still do. Always.

♪ Who has the power? ♪

♪ How far will you go? ♪

You think you would choose me if you knew
that I was sexting your dad's friend?

[scoffs] Well, I think given...

-With a child on the way?
-...the situation--

-Well, Taylor--
-And I didn't tell you.

-[Dakota] Again-- That--
-Would you?

-Would you choose me still after that?
-I don't think that's okay.

But don't you think that would kinda
ruin you for-- with that person forever,

-like at family parties?
-No, I could get over it.

Well, that's easy to say.
It's never happened to you.

I-- I just know who I am.

I do, and I know you're very like insecure

in that sense of like
where, like, you get jealous,

-so I can't imagine--
-Look at me right now though.

It's different
when you're together with someone.

That's the only difference.
I don't have a say.

I was with you
when that was happening.

-That's the difference.
-You weren't.

-We were broke up when that happened.
-I was with you during my pregnancy.

-What are you talking about?
-No, no, no. Yeah, after.

While you were lying
and being sneaky with her,

-sitting next to her.
-The lie after. Yes.

-Yeah. We were together.
-[Dakota] Right, right.

So I'm talking about when we're together.
I'm not talking about when we broke up.

-I'm not trying to fight with you.
-Then listen. Then listen!

-[Dakota] I'm just telling--
-Just stop talking.

When it comes to Dakota,

I don't know why
I, like, get so angry so fast

and it's just, yeah, it's frustrating.

You never do it. You can never do it.
See, it's my point. What do you want?

You always are talking over me.
You never fucking-- just fucking listen.

-Stop interrupting, talking over me.
-Taylor--

-You're not listening. You're still going.
-It's the-- You're--

You just never tell
the truth of the story though

because if you're gonna throw that around,
that's a big deal.

-You can't just say that.
-Then wait for me to be done talking

and then talk.
The point is to fucking listen,

and every fucking goddamn guy has it
except you.

I know I shouldn't have slept with Dakota.

It's like a really unhealthy cycle.

It's like a, a drug, really.

I need to figure out why I keep
choosing people that hurt me

so I can have a good experience
on The Bachelorette.

If not, I could end up
in the same situation.

-You're just not a good guy.
-[Dakota] When I hate someone,

-I don't do that--
-[Taylor] This is a good reminder

that you're not a good guy.

You sleep in the same bed with me.

I know. I hate that I trap myself.

Oh yeah. Okay, yeah, 'cause I'm so shitty,

-I'm so awful.
-[Taylor] You are.

Right, right. Okay, Taylor,
you're so innocent in all of this.

No, you won't listen.
You don't just listen.

-Okay.
-Listen to me!

No one fucking listens.
Not no one, just fucking you!

Listen! All I wanna do is to feel heard!

[crying] Just listen.
No, it fucking hurts,

the person I wanted
to be with doesn't listen.

[Taylor crying]

♪♪

Help me welcome to the stage
the one and only Mayci Neeley!

-[crowd cheering]
-You can always create your own future.

[Jen] Dreamt of this moment

-my whole life.
-There are no limits.

-I wanna do it all.
-We can't do it all.

Your mistakes do not define you.

-What went on in LA?
-Nothing really.

We're all human at the end of the day.

[Mason] Is this what I think it is?

[Miranda] There's no way we can help her
if she doesn't wanna help herself.

[line ringing]

-[woman] [over phone] Hello?
-I'm gonna ask you one time.

How long have you known?

[Dakota] She's about to go
on The Bachelorette.

What, like, I can't go date?

I don't give a fuck about Dakota!
I'm gonna fucking fuck them up!

Jordan's a hard person to be married to,

but I think he'd be a harder person
to divorce.

What do you want, man?

I have to convince myself every day
that she does love me.

-We found your father.
-Does he have any other kids?

I'd like to go out there
and maybe get some answers.

Whitney only cares about Whitney
and she knows that I hold power.

You don't own that dream!

Anyone in this cast can go on
Dancing with the fucking Stars!

[Mayci] We all want this for you, Taylor.

I'm scared to death.

What is happening?

I know that you're in love with him.
Is he worth it?

[Dakota] All I'm gonna say...

is save a rose for me.

♪♪

♪ Make sure we're alright ♪

♪ 'Cause you can't imagine
how I feel inside ♪

♪ How'd I let this happen? ♪

♪ Out of control ♪

♪ I wanna let go ♪

♪ Out of control, oh-ooh ♪

♪ Sometimes there's nothing left to know ♪