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you won't be the same person after
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watching this video you see the porn
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history they try to tell you that all
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their actors are having a good time
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everybody's making money from it the
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consumer you watching the porn industry
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you're having a great experience and
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everything is all rainbows and sunshines
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everything is good but this video is
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exactly what the porn industry doesn't
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want you to watch this is the Dark Truth
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behind the porn industry and what the
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porn industry doesn't want anyone to
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find out about I'm gonna be exposing and
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unveiling certain porn stars and many of
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you you will know these female actors
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you will also know some of these male
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actors within this video that are going
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to be exposing the truth behind the porn
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history and how much they regret getting
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into the porn industry because again the
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world tries to tell you that porn is
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healthy porn is good for every single
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person these women they're making a
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whole lot of money from it they enjoy
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sex they love sex all these different
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types of things but that's the furthest
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thing from the truth because again it's
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not all rainbows and sunshines and this
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is going to be a very explicit video
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that women are not going to be in the
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most modest dressing obviously they're
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porn stars they're entertain
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whatever you want to call them and
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they're going to be talking about a lot
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of graphic stuff so viewer discretion is
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advised but you're not going to be the
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same after watching this let's get into
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it
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during my short stint and porn they're
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really extreme acts were what was
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popular and that's why being the number
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one performer in the industry at the
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time everyone wanted to make money off
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me so they pushed me to do these things
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and it just gets really extreme like you
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were saying abusive I don't want to go
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into too much detail like honestly some
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of my experiences are really humiliating
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for me and I wish that they never
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happened there's stuff going on like
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people getting pissed on men are pissing
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inside of women
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down their throats they're
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sorry oh don't cry
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I've lost my whole family and
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it sucks so a lot of times when people
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ask me if they should do porn I tell
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them no
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I tell them that it makes life really
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hard it makes dating really hard it
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makes your family life really hard it
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makes intimacy hard if you're putting
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yourself out there and the world is now
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judging you you have to be okay with
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being shamed every day of your life I
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don't even want to have children because
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I do porn because I'm worried of the way
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that people will treat my child with me
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personally my mom was supportive in the
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beginning she kind of just let me do
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whatever that I think it was a good
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thing I had a lot of freedom has time
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progressed and I became successful I
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started to feel like my mom was using me
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so that she could live a more luxurious
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lifestyle when I started to set like
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these boundaries not giving her money or
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things like that it made our
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relationship a bit more difficult and
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almost toxic and so it sucks I don't
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have a mom anymore I don't talk to her I
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miss having a mom I feel like you can't
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rewind and you can't go back I don't
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have that really relationship with her
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anymore I don't ever think I will and
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that bums me out bumps me out a lot I
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talked to my dad and he struggles with
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my my job being in the industry he's
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also religious recently I wanted to go
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visit him and he said that I can't go
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visit because his wife my stepmom
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doesn't want me there I'm not allowed to
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go visit my dad anymore because my
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stepmom doesn't like that I do porn but
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then he told me that
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and I was like can we like go get coffee
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and like go like get breakfast and he's
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like I don't want to be seen in public
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with you and that just being hurt so bad
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and it sucks I lost my family I don't
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talk to like my brothers or sisters I
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think that they all kind of like try to
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take advantage of me and stuff or
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they're just like my dad don't want to
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be around me that's not how it was it
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wasn't just hey do you want to come do
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porn it was more so oh you're beautiful
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like would you like to do some modeling
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oh uh you know you have a great body
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like I think you'd be great nude
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modeling uh things like that and after I
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came in toward the studio you know it
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was very respectable it was a gorgeous
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location it was uh in Miami in Doral
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Florida
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um it was clean everyone who worked
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there was nice all of their cubicles
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were decorated with family photos like
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it was nothing dodgy or that made me
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uncomfortable and after do like it the
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first time I went in wasn't the first
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time I I filmed a porn movie
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um it was the second time the the first
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time was more so do you want to do this
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like sign the paperwork etc etc so these
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guys they just saw you frankly as a
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money machine absolutely but you still
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had no advisors you had no lawyer you
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had no nothing so I was 20 what 21 year
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old has a lawyer on retainer I I I'm
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just trying to get my head around how
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stressful this must have been and
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whether even now because you sit here so
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poised and obviously a lot of time has
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passed and you've moved on but do you
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think there is some sort of
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post-traumatic stress that is in you
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from this experience yes and I
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pose and it brings me deep shame it
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makes me feel like
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it makes me feel like uh
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I lost all right to my privacy which I
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did because I'm one Google search away
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yeah it's days like this where I realize
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I need to go play with myself
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for a living
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eight
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hired
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and then I think to myself
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maybe a nine to five won't be so bad you
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know I know you don't feel sorry for me
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but
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after four years you know my just
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sits there please please ma'am no more
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not again I'm just like no I'm sorry
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I'm sorry the pain
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and around and around
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and went
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what pornography did to me
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was it changed how I thought
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felt
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about women
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they began to look at them
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even more so
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as a sexual object
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I lost the ability
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to have a loving and caring relationship
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I thought I was still able
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that I was fooled
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one day
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I left the set I was done for the day I
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got in my car
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started it up drove two blocks pulled
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over and turned it off
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and I started crying
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I wanted out so bad in order to get off
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that merry-go-round
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it's the last movie I ever made
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and I never went back
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into my life
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earning a lot of money and I was
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struggling to pay my rent because I had
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a really really bad drug addiction I
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would spend thousands and thousands of
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dollars on drugs a week because I
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started off with cocaine but then
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eventually I was battling with the
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heroin addiction to tell that I was like
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I was like super high my eyes look all
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glossy so I was also battling with
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severe suicidal thought it took Brittany
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more than one attempt to leave porn but
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in the end it was religion that gave her
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the final push she needed
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started going to church and I went to go
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film a porn scene in Las Vegas and I
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brought my Bible and on the airplane I
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open up Revelation 220 and it says I
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have this thing against you you tolerate
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that woman named Jezebel and she leads
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my people into sexual immorality I've
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given her time to repent and if she
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doesn't repent I will cast her children
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and her into a sick bed
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like oh my goodness I was like God I'm
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so sorry
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so I ended up going to set that day and
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I quit the porn industry I filmed my
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very last scene that day and then I was
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just done
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I would pop as many pills as I could get
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my hands on and then just drink and
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drink and drink trying to overdose when
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I would wake up for my suicide attempts
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I would get drunk like it was that
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realization that
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hated who I became I hated money and it
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was killing me
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and at the very end I called my parents
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when I said
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I really messed up
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that was the night my parents answered
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the phone
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so through recovery my parents have been
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there when I treated in porn
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I got my family back
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now we talk every single day
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there is nothing
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that is worth the life I chose
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now that I'm out of the industry I want
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to be a wife
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and I want to be a mother
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and one thing that I really want is I
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want to be a friend
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I want the truth to be known about porn
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so the scene starts and right away it's
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just
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poor it was just this bomb of just
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physical abuse you know and
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I knew that going into that it was going
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to be like that but I mean it was just
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sort of
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whoa you know it really took me off
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guard I was 24 years old when I entered
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porn
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I was a burned out prostitute stripper I
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was a single mom addicted to drugs and
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alcohol
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I was the kind of person of the Prime
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Minister preys upon
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industry preys upon people who are
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already damaged so they can damage them
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more
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that was that girl
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they promised me Fame Fortune attention
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they promised me I would be the next
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biggest hottest porn star and they
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promised me that would be kept safe
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that porn people are the cleanest people
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in the world and that if we get our
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tests every 30 days for HIV then I'll be
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kept safe
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are you sure of course babe we of course
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we're sure you'll be safe
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well
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after about 30 movies
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I got burned and I caught two sexually
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transmitted diseases one of those
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diseases was HPV human papillomavirus
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which I had never heard of
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and another was a non-curable disease
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herpes
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catching herpes back in the 90s was like
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catching HIV I mean your life is over
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you're going to be forever stuck with
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this disease and it devastated me
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and I try to kill myself with
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prescription pills I didn't care anymore
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I had herpes on my mouth my lips my
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throat my anus everywhere I was a
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monster how far I had come I joined the
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porn industry I was promised glamor same
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fortune I hear him standing
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in the worst human ugliness you could
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possibly see in the mirror and I was
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devastated
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and I thought my life was over I like
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many of the porn stars who catch a
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non-curable diseases STDs are rampant in
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the porn industry
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and what what's horrible is these people
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don't understand that even repeat
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infections
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are breaking down their immune system
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over you know after they have so many
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STDs sooner or later they're going to
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live with the long-term health effects
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like I am I'm 43 years old now and I
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still have problems with my period with
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my cervix I had to have half of my
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cervix removed because of all the herpes
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lesions and I couldn't have babies after
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that praise God by the grace of God that
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I have children I'm blessed but I did
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lose four children because of the damage
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to my sexual organs
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Portland history does nothing more than
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damaged lives damages the lives of the
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workers it damages the lives of the
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General Public
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it damaged the lives of the men who are
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viewing pornography who are addicted to
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porn I I was constantly going to urgent
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care I went to Urgent I had to be taken
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to urgent care I think more than 10
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times and then the actual emergency room
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I had to go there twice I was constantly
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getting sick with strep throat mono
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getting the flu like I was constantly
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getting sick and also you know with
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infections down there like bacterial
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vaginosis urinary tract infections yeast
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infections and then eventually towards
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the end of my career I caught herpes
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um but yeah I was constantly getting
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sick and not just that because of the
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types of scenes that I was doing I
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couldn't eat I was not allowed to eat
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and so I would go days without eating
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and just really munch on on Gummy Bears
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and energy drinks just so I could get
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through my scenes so I wasn't healthy at
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all
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I think what happens
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so often
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with
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people who are in the industry that they
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have this trajectory that they see their
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life going
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and when you start to view yourself as
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being a product that your value is
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indicative of that service and that
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service being sex
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and for 30 people who were dear to my
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heart that I knew personally they were
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in the industry the same time as me
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what was next
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they didn't see any light at the end of
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the tunnel so 30 of those people have
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taken their life I want to continue
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telling my story
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because while pornography in itself is
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so dark and so detrimental to people
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I think that there's an underlying story
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within my story and it's that your past
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doesn't have to Define you and your
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mistakes don't become you like that's
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not who you are
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I think there's too many people that
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deserve a second chance that don't give
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themselves a second chance because of
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mistakes they've made every every
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everyone makes mistakes and that that is
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my biggest message for people it's like
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regardless of what you've done an event
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or a series of events don't Define who
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you are like each and every person is
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valuable and they have gifts and talents
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and Charisma and they have something to
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offer you can't choose what happens to
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you but you can always choose how you
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respond to it
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