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When I was younger,
life was uncertain.

Curious phenomena like...

back-to-school Glenroe music
panic attacks on a Sunday night.

White dog poo.

Fat Frog ice pops.

'White dog poo?'

But who knew that life
would turn into this?

I've got an Abrakebabra gold card.

Life has blossomed for me,
Canine Aidan.

'Yeah, notice I have a chicken wing
still stuck in my throat

'from the last doggy bag
you brought home.'

I've just evolved so much you know?

Really tuned into
understanding people now

I mean, really hearing them.

Joy.

Joy.

Joy!
- Oh.

Sorry, you were lost
in your little bubble thingy.

Oh, yeah, I was just telling Canine
Aidan how mature I've become.

Oh, excellent.

Like, take for example
when you moved in.

I was overwhelmed
by you and your mess.

OK.

And then somehow I just learned
how to cope with it, you know.

- Yes.
- Yes.

And now I've got a certain
social responsibility

that's reflected in free kebabs.

As many side orders as I want.

"Hey, do you want loads
of free sauce sachets?"

I'm like,
"Yes, put them in the bag."

CHUCKLES

I mean, things have got
pretty exotic for me.

Yeah, do we hug now?

It's just cos Scott Disick
is setting his beard on fire

live on the Internet
in like five minutes.

Mm, excellent.

UP-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYS

DOG BARKING

JOY HUMMING

Hey.
- Oh, hey, you.

Where are we going to go
for pancakes?

Oh, God, yeah!

No, I can't.

Oh, no, Joy.

- Oh, no.
- Where are you going?

Oh, I can't go for pancakes, Trish.

I got to go to work. There's just
so many people relying on me

to sort out their happiness
right now.

What about my happiness? What about
happiness-related pancakes?

Mm-mm. Can't do it.

Oh, you pinky swore.

I did, I did, Trish, but look.

It's just a really big moment
for me, OK?

I mean, I really think
that I can do this job,

which is just so weird
because, I don't know,

I guess I always figured
I was going to be

behind-the-scenes editor
forever, you know,

like I was born
to correct grammar or something.

I'm scared, Joy.

I'm scared of what's gonna
happen next when she says push.

And then who am I then?
- I mean, don't get me wrong.

I mean, I still love an adverb
as much as the next person

but this has really
been something for me.

Has that ever happened to you?
Humour me for a second.

Has anything so big
or new and exciting

ever happened to you that,
I don't know,

felt like it was changing you
or something?

LAUGHS
This is so crazy.

Remember when you were afraid
that I was incapable of changing?

LAUGHS
It's so weird.

I have been incapable
of changing for two days

because Tom
tied my shoelaces too tight

before he went on his work trip.

I'm going to capture this moment.

I can't get out of my own shoes.

Smile!

CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS,
JOY CHUCKLES

Aw, it's gorgeous.

We look adorable.

Oh, Trish, I'm sorry.

Oh, do you know what?
I know how to cheer you up.

Mm! Are you ready?

I'm going to let you have
my Abrakebabra gold card.

You can go get your brekkie there.

A kebab for breakfast?

As many sides as you want,
all the sauces.

I know you pregnant people like
to eat all sorts of weird shit.

So, you're welcome!

Why are you being such a dick, Joy?

- What?
- Seriously, we're not kids

any more.
We're not making friendship rings

out of Lilt pulls.

LAUGHS
They were good days.

This is you avoiding
the tricky shit...

again.

I don't do that.

GROANING

DOOR CLOSES

Oh, don't look at me.

Oh, don't touch me.

If you need to break up with me,
I completely understand.

Are you crazy?

Are you crazy?

I just shat at the bottom
of our friend's garden

in the middle
of a housewarming party.

Yeah, you did.

This wouldn't have happened
to Anthea Turner.

Joy, I had a poster of Anthea Turner
in my room when I was 12.

I've grown up a little bit
since then.

You're my girl, in good times
and shit times.

Oh.

Let's go get you up
into the shower, huh?

- I'm too weak to fight you.
- Up!

I'm too weak to fight.

Just don't go too crazy
on the sides.

We don't want to attract
too much attention to anything.

Bye!

- Ah!
- Morning.

Morning.

Human Growth Inc
are holding a hot yoga session

at Grand Stretch in the Evening.
Get in there.

Pain and growth,

stretching through the knots
to feel happier.

- Growing pains.
- Or to feel taller.

I actually knew someone
who grew three inches from Pilates.

It could be trickery,

like those secret wedges
Bono wears in his shoes,

or it could be science.

Yeah, by the way, got to make
this one a really good one.

Got a rep to protect now, Charlene.

He knows it, yeah.

- Really?
- Yeah.

Oh.

Hi, there. Sorry. Excuse me.

Could I ask you a few questions?

Mm-hm.

Now that you're old...

...der than before
when you were young...

younger, does happiness change?

Happiness is peace of mind.

Your own choices.

Family, friends, work.

Love.

Not playing the lotto the one
night your numbers come up.

Oh, fuck!

Oh, sorry.

Fuck, indeed.

But the real moments of unhappiness
that stay with me

are the regrets.

If I had that time again
in the palm of my hand,

I would choose to live
every minute without fear,

connected with the people I love.

You're going to get bored of me,
I know it.

You know what I'm bored of?

I'm bored of this,

the same conversation
over and over and over.

There is a difference.

HE GROANS

Oh, hi, there, sir.

You're young, you know.

Does your definition of happiness
change the older you get?

Do I know you somewhere?

I'm the Happiness Hunter
for News Today.

It's no big deal.

Well, actually, it is.
LAUGHS

Expectation versus reality.

Oh, I know where I know you.

We shagged in the porta-loo
at Epic Festival.

What?

Oh, no, no, the sun's catching.

Yeah, I can see she was hotter
than you and younger.

Yeah, my bad.

MAN CLEARS THROAT
Take it easy.

Have you ever been to Epic?

Never been.

- It's meant to...
- I've heard good things.

Yeah, music.

Hello. Excuse me.
Could I ask you a question, please?

Do things change
as your relationship goes on?

But of course things change.

Sure, my heart doesn't skip
a beat any more when I see him

but things move on.

He makes me tea when my knees hurt

and he makes me laugh
when my heart hurts,

and that's better than a tummy
flutter any day of the week.

I like that.

HE LAUGHS

We can't just keep saying
this turned out

how it was meant to be.

We did have a choice.

You've changed.

Yeah, of course I've changed.

I'm trying to share my life
with somebody.

You haven't.

Oh, there you are.

You are going to love me

so much more than
you obviously already do.

Do you remember that girl
from the wrestling?

Yeah.

That funny, hot,
lovable, sassy girl

that made the wrestling segment
such a screaming success?

- Yeah, yeah, I do, yeah.
- Was it Sarah?

Yes, it was...
That was exactly what it was.

It was Sarah.
- Well, I got in touch with her.

And I've managed to get her
to come to tonight's event, too.

So you're all set up,
and you're welcome.

Hope you're not getting bored
of all of this.

Bored? No way.

It's the opposite, really.
It gets more fun.

How are you finding all this?

Deadly, just trying to be
the best at being deadly.

There's talk of Flora coming back

and I'm like, eh,
better not ever do that.

BOTH LAUGH

What's this one about?

Growing up.

Erm, Stan, what do you think
about making this one, er,

just, like, a little sexier?

Like...

Uh, yeah, sure.

- Is that OK?
- Absolutely.

Want to come for a kebab
with me later?

Absolutely.

How do you like yours?

Bit of tomato ketchup
and a bit of m-mayonnaise.

Mayonnaise.

Erm...

I like mine hot.

Very hot.

Like, so hot
your tongue would be throbbing.

Joy, Joy, we were just
talking about you.

- Hey.
- Over here, ASAP.

Come and meet Flora properly.

Flora, Joy. Joy, Flora.

- Very nice to meet you.
- We've met loads of times.

Oh, I just had
a full-body massage

and then some genius
took the cucumber from my eyes

and put them into my gin tumbler.

I have never been so happy.

Joy, they exfoliated
all my dead skin cells off

like a very relaxing exorcism.

Thank you, Flora.
- Honestly, it was nothing, guys.

Tiny candles that smell
of summers in Rosslare

is not nothing.

CHUCKLING

Listen, thanks a mill
for filling in for the last while

and thanks so much
for doing your best.

Let me give you something
from the goody bag.

Erm... no, I'm going to
want that one.

Oh, here's a sample.

Anti-wrinkle cream.
Yeah, I don't need that one.

- Oh, thank you.
- There you go. Nice to meet you.

We have... met.

Sweet little thing.

We do need to discuss
about me taking over again.

OK.

Yeah.
- Yahoo.

FINGERS SNAPPING

Something wrong
with this mat in the front?

OK, everyone, welcome to
A Grand Stretch in the Evenings.

Now, I know the idea of this
might seem silly to some idiots.

Am I right?

We all have this idea
of what our life is going to be.

And then shit happens.

If we don't address this,
we internalise it all

and we hold on to these stresses

until they become
physical knots inside of us,

blocking our ability to be happy.

OK, everyone.

Downward dog.

Oh, Stan, I don't think
this is a very sexy angle.

Oh, yeah, no worries.

Hey.

And salute.

Who'd like to be the first
this evening

to share their life problem
with us?

I'm a failed musician.

I always thought
I had really tight quads

but I think maybe now
it's cos my dreams have died.

Excellent! Next.

I feel like I'm running out
of time to find happiness.

To be fair,
you're not getting younger.

I thought it was a physical knot
inside of me, but it's a kid.

I'm knocked up and terrified.

I don't even know
how to make myself happy.

How will I know
how to make my child happy?

Do you honestly think I'm
worth duplicating, like really?

Yes!

I mean, you have your stuff
but everybody does.

I would honestly...
I would have a billion of you.

Well, maybe nine, realistically.

Actually two, you know, with
the cost of school books, groceries.

Yeah.

Anybody else
like to share their life problem

with us this evening?

So I always figured honesty
is the best policy for stuff,

but I've also had this knot
for a while

because I feel like
I've been used a bit.

Oh, is that... that by your guy?

Do you think maybe he's not
over his ex or something,

like he's using you
as a distraction, maybe?

No, not by him.

I know how he feels.

By his ex.

You're just sweating.

- Sorry.
- No, you're sweating a lot.

Is it reading on-camera?

It looks hot, literally.

Like, it's... it's good.
It's good.

Just wipe your face.

Yeah, see,
I know how he feels.

We're realistic about what we want.
We talk about it all the time,

our hopes, our fears, our dreams.

I'm just not sure where
she's coming from in all of it.

Hold this stretch
for one more minute.

One minute. To your corner.

58...

57, 56...

55, 54...

Five, four...

My wee is on there!

Two, one.

It's a no!

Ha-ha, it's a no!

It's no.

Yeah, yeah, I heard you first time.

BREATHING HEAVILY

Oh, I can't do it any more. Ah!

MOANING

Oh.

Oh, Aidan, look at you.
You're back.

I thought you'd forgotten about me.

I did.

That was me.

I was going to have your baby
and buy school books,

not her, not Sarah,
not Anthea Turner, us.

Now you're back to me,
you beautiful rock star.

Yes, you are, yes!

And you don't need to make love
for two hours a night any more.

We can go back to our life.

Our life.

Come here to me.

Oh.

Oh, sweet Jesus.

Fucking hell.

JOY GROANS

Jesus Christ.

SNIGGERING

JOY GRUNTS

Jesus!

Oh, Mummy!

Oh, my God.

Namaste.

I'm... I'm fine.
- Hang on. It's OK.

HE CHUCKLES
It's OK. Sorry.

Just carry on.

OK.

- You OK?
- Yeah, absolutely.

SOBBING

DOORBELL BUZZES

Trish!

Trish!

SOBBING CONTINUES

- I miss everything.
- Oh, yeah, like what?

- I miss Fat Frog ice pops.
- Mm.

I miss roller skates. I miss punts.

I miss the original Pippa
in Home And Away.

Oh, yeah, God, she's great.

I miss when everything
was simpler and my life felt easier.

Oh, growing up's a pain in the arse.

In fact, that's exactly
where growing pains are,

right in the arsehole.

I mean, screw growing up
to be an astronaut or a princess.

Turns out I've grown up
to be selfish dickhead.

Yeah, imagine, I used to think
I could fix animals.

I mean, how do I even fix me?

You don't need to fix you.

You're honestly
the coolest person I know.

Yeah, that's probably true.

But it's time
I stopped running away, Joy.

Time I grew up myself
and faced some truths.

That's why I'm... I'm heading
off to Bali to find myself.

You're leaving?

Yes, but you're
going to be so fine.

You've got Trish.
- Trish?

Trish hates me because I pretended

that she wasn't really
having a baby because...

...because maybe I couldn't
face up to the fact

that I had my own regrets.

That's not a cappuccino.

Yeah, I went out
to get a cappuccino

but you know how you go out
to get something

and then you get distracted
and you come back

with something completely different?

Yeah, like a... flat white,
not a cot.

So the guy next door,
he was throwing it out

and he said that maybe
we might need one of these

one of these days.

Pfft!

SHE LAUGHS

Oh, come on, like, we barely even
discussed anything like that.

Also, I mean, that kind of stuff
can take forever.

It can take like 20 years.

OK, so when you were younger did
you ever think you'd get married?

Yeah, to Johnny Logan
but then you grow up, Aidan.

Exactly.

And I just think that
maybe we could be mature enough

to have an actual grown-up
conversation about us.

Maybe Canine Aidan
could use it as a fun den.

Joy, that's, like...
That's all part of it, you know.

Life is like a bikini wax.

You can't have happiness
without pain,

and it is pain,
but it comes out lovely.

I'm really gonna miss you.

More than Fat Frog ice pops?

Yeah.

Stan from work is calling over.

Will you send him up to me
when he's here?

Cos I think I might need to
have lonely person sex with him

and maybe that's OK.

It is, and I will.

Go on.

Thank you.

GLASSES CLINK

Yeah, bring the bottle.

And make sure you go full pen.

Really treat yourself.
You deserve it.

SIGHS

BOTTLE THUDS

SNIFFLES

Jeffrey, it's Joy.

Erm, look, I'm sorry
for letting you down

but I don't have anything
for you this week.

We can't use the footage
because, erm...

Well, I'm sorry.

PHONE BEEPS,
SHE SIGHS

PHONE CHIMES

'You have one new
voice message.'

'Soz, Button, I think we
just missed each other there.

'This is gas. Stan is so wrong.

'OMG. This is hilarious.

'OK, gotta go.
It's trending all over Twitter.'

PHONE BEEPS

PHONE CLATTERS

CANINE AIDAN GAGGING

Aidan, Aidan, outside!

CANINE AIDAN WHIMPERS

SHE SIGHS

CANINE AIDAN GAGS

Aidan!

Aidan, Aidan, spit it out!
Spit it out!

Stan, help me!
The dog can't breathe!

There's something
stuck in his throat.

Who's Stan?

- OK, reach into his mouth.
- OK.

Come on, Aidan! Come on!

Oh!

It's a chicken bone.

I thought I lost you.

I think I've lost you.

I saw your video,
everything you said.

'OK, I'm confused, yeah, uh, yeah.

'They're doing that thing.
Downstairs!'

UP-TEMPO MUSIC PLAYS

DOG BARKING

DOGS HOWLING

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