All language subtitles for Lilly Lives Alone

42 I'm sorry

See that's right

Hello? Hello?

Oh my god! Jesus!

What's up?

Hey, hey, hey. I'm your neighbor. Get
out of my apartment. I'm your neighbor.

Get out. You know my face, okay? You've
seen me before. You know me.

I live next door. I'm Brandon.

Please.

Please.

What are you doing in here?

The door wasn't locked.

Yeah, why are you in my apartment?

Something's happening.

Yeah, no shit. Why are you in here?

Are you alone?

Just what is going on?

I don't know what's happening.

I don't know what's going to happen.

Oh, God!

I can't help you here. You have to
leave.

Dude. No!

No!

Get the hell out!

Get out!

Go.

Go.

see some instances of groups of people
well groups of people fighting back we

not encourage this certainly if you are
attacked you should defend yourself but

what we have seen so far the best way to
survive to avoid infection to avoid

being a part of spreading the infection
is to just completely avoid contact find

a place to hide and stay there hopefully
it won't have to be for too long

You kid.

All circuits are currently busy. Please
try again later.

I love that they put this guy in the
leadoff spot.

I mean, he hits everything. Look at him.
They can't get the ball past him. On

top of that, he hits for power. This is
great.

So in the absence of a biological
imperative, we learned that there could

That makes infected people only willing
to eat what's alive and not infected.

There are chemical changes happening
that are impacting brain function

significantly.

Observation would tell you that rage and
shame are both at work in a very big

way. So if you're thinking about
rationing food, that's smart.

But you also need to be thinking about
your water. We've still got running

here for now, but we're starting to hear
from other major metropolitan areas

that they are losing access.

And a human being can survive up to
three weeks without food, but water is

like three days.

My first video vlog, I guess.

I think it's recording.

My name is Aiden, and it's been seven
days since this started.

The news is calling it a global
pandemic.

I've been alone since day one.

It's weird because I've...

Never been by myself more than a day in
my entire life.

So... And I can't leave.

And the phones are, um... Get away!

You hear that?

It's constant.

All the time.

And, uh... And I'm, um...

I'm trying to, uh...

Now,

there are two things going wrong in an
infected brain.

The first is that the reptilian brain
becomes hypersensitive, particularly in

the areas that control anger and
depression, triggered, as we have seen,

contact with the uninfected living
thing.

that when the reptilian brain is
engaged, it suppresses the productivity

frontal cortex.

Not enough to affect action, but enough
to scream.

Yes, and cause involuntary movements.

Although involuntary movements is a
misnomer.

The twitching, the last move...

So you're saying that they know what
they're doing?

On some basic level, yes.

And they're almost screaming at
themselves to stop.

But they can't.

Hey, this is Aiden.

This is my 16th video log, I think.

I've made one every day since... I've
made one almost every day since the

one.

I'm slowly running out of, uh... Like,
everything.

And, uh... I mean, I know at some point
I'm gonna have to go out there, but,

um... I... I need to stop sending people

out to shoot anything new.

So they keep playing the same clips over
and over and keep saying the same

things. And it's weird how they try
to...

Stay calm and act calm like nothing's
happening, but you can tell that

is.

I still watch it, though, because I
don't know, maybe I'll see my family on

I know it's stupid.

Word of the odds, right?

I read this thing a

long time ago about sensory deprivation.

They put people in these... sensory
deprivation chambers and there's no

no sight um nothing and then after a
little while you you kind of you start

hallucinate like completely sane people
would start to see things just to see

something kind of like an input for the
brain

i think that i

started to um

Like, out of my periphery, I... I don't
know, I think that there'll be, like, a,

uh...

What is happening to me?

It's like I... No,

I do know what's happening. It's not a
mystery.

I'm losing my mind.

I... I keep... I

keep thinking about these stories.

A guy crawls miles in the snow on two
broken legs to get to safety.

And I can't even open my front door.

It's a hell of a thing to find out that
you're a coward to know that, you know?

I begin starving in three days.

What the?

Did you hear?

Honey, are you there? It's Mom.

Your dad and I are really worried about
you. I hope you're at home. Your sister

got out of town before the roads got
blocked.

Go to your sister? She's heading to her
cabin. You couldn't get out of here fast

enough. Please try to get a hold of her.
She isn't answering our call.

I don't know if the phones are down or
what, but please do everything you can

get in touch with her. And, honey, don't
worry. No, Dad.

We're locked in with everyone at the
office.

We're okay.

I wish we were all together.

Listen to me. Do not go outside. Keep
the doors locked.

There's somebody outside the door.

Don't go out of here, Mary.

Stay right there like this. What's
happening?

I'll be right back.

Leave me alone.

Leave me alone!

What? What?

Thank you.

This is Aiden.

It's day 42.

It's about to die, and I don't have any
way of charging it now.

So?

I met a girl today.

Well, um, met might be a strong word,
because, uh...

I'm almost certain that she was real,
though.

And she might be alone, too, and need
water or food.

Or help, somehow.

And... I... Could help her, I think.

So tomorrow I'm gonna try.

I'm sure she was real.

She has to be.

Where's my battery?

Oh my god, he looks like a psychopath.

Aiden, huh?

Yeah, me too.

Shoot.

Let's look.

Come on.

Where did you put it?

Come on, Aiden.

Stupid.

She can see you. Stop looking at
yourself.

Ah!

Shitload.

Oh my gosh, I can't believe this is
working.

I know.

I'm sorry.

No, no, no, no.

Hey, wait, wait, wait. Hold on.

That's not good.

Arrgh!

Um...

Stop! Get inside!

what I should do.

If I stay here, I die.

You know that.

Okay? So?

Then what?

You can't get to her through the
hallways.

No hallways.

Get closer to her. But what the hell is
closer?

Every door is locked in the hallways.

Maybe I could, uh...

Oh that's it.

Oh yeah, this stuff never goes bad.

Of

course,

he's a rock climber.

Gotta be something in here.

Fuck!

This doesn't get any easier.

Keep away!

Keep away!

Wait, how am I going to get it to her?

Whoa.

It's Aiden. Yeah, I'm here. Can you hear
me?

Oh, my God.

Yeah. Yeah, I can hear you.

Hey,

hi. Hello.

Hi. I can't believe you did this.

Sorry.

It's been a while.

How are you?

I'm fantastic now.

How are you?

I'm great.

It's really nice to hear your voice,
Eva.

It is so nice to hear your voice, too.

Oh, wait, hey.

Eva, before I forget, is that pounding
still happening on your wall? Because I

was thinking, um... Uh, hey, Aiden?

Uh, yeah, yeah, I'm here.

Sorry, I just haven't talked to anyone
in a really, really, really long time.

And me either.

Do you think maybe we could just... I
mean, I know we're going to have to deal

with all of it soon, but maybe for a few
minutes we could just talk

about something else.

So,

you

surf, right? I sometimes see your
surfboards and wetsuits out on the

Yes, I serve, yeah.

You have a girlfriend, right? I feel
like I've seen... That wasn't my

girlfriend.

What about you? Do you have a boyfriend
or girlfriend?

No. I mean, I was engaged a couple years
ago, but no, not since

then.

Have you ever been in love?

I was in love once, yeah. In fifth
grade, Jenny Caldwell.

She was adorable, and she held my hand.

And then I cried.

And I threw up.

It was the most romantic love story of
this generation.

I feel you like to draw. Do you like to
draw?

Yeah, I love to draw.

You've been a subject of mine once or
twice.

It sounds a lot weirder than it actually
is. I feel so violated.

Just, I mean, I don't have very much to
look at lately, so, sorry.

I saw what you did last night.

It was so brave and courageous, and I
can't thank you

enough.

Thank you, Eva.

Talk later.

He's really dead. He's dead.

Oh my... Whoa.

No way.

Twinkies.

Oh, be good to me.

Oh my God, I gotta tell you.

Oh, my God.

She's freaking out.

Hey,

Eva.

Aiden?

Eva, you're not going to believe what I
just found.

Where have you been?

I went to look for food.

What?

Eva, look, I found something.

What were you thinking?

A re...

Are we fighting?

Yes, Aiden, because you just left.

I don't really know why you're mad.

You didn't tell me. We didn't talk about
it. I've been trying for the last 20

minutes, getting no answers, thinking
you were dead.

You're scared of being alone? Well, so
am I.

I'm so sorry, Eva.

We do things together now, okay? You
don't withhold the fact that you're

completely out of food. We talk about
it, and we find a way to fix it

It's kind of nice to not be the only
codependent one in this relationship,

know?

There's nobody here. I came up through
the crawlspace above my bathroom, and

there's nothing alive up there, so...
Have you found food?

Eva, you will not believe... We could
wait this thing out.

And, I mean, these things are going to
starve, you know?

And then I can go find my sister. I can
find your family, and we can get out of

here.

And there's got to be other people like
us, you know, that survived.

And we can find some place.

You know?

Eva.

I don't know how much longer I can wait.

Are they at your wall again?

Damn it.

Four, five times a day now.

The news said they repeat patterns when
they get desperate.

I made a rope, like yours.

You what?

Out of bed sheets.

Do you think if I climb down on my side,
I could get back up on yours?

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah, maybe.

Or maybe the hallways.

No, no.

No hallways, Eva. No hallways.

The rope was a good idea, okay?

I'll come to you.

No.

No, it's too much for you to risk. I'm
not going to leave you there alone.

Aiden, no, please.

Are you sure it's safe for you to be
talking in there?

Yeah, yeah.

The fridge is pushed up against the door
and everything.

I can't, Eva.

I have to go back with the food in the
backpack.

No, no, no. Listen to me. Forget all
that. It's not safe. It's not safe. You

have to get out.

No, no, no. Eva, we can't.

We'll starve. I have to go back.

I have to turn down my walking in case
it doesn't make any noise.

Eva, if anything happens to you, throw a
wine bottle.

Or something into the courtyard.

And I'll hear a break and I'll come for
you.

Eva.

You're not screaming.

You're not either, but you got blood
there.

Oh, I cut myself on something.

That's a pretty cool spear you got
there.

I made it.

Really? You can't just pick one of those
up at the convenience store?

I'm not sick, okay?

If I were, I'd be begging for you to
take my life.

I've seen what it does.

I apologize for threatening you with
this.

If I ever did have any manners, I guess
they're pretty well gone now.

Yeah, I did come try to take your food,
though.

It's not my food.

I came through the wall a couple of
weeks ago.

We're both looters.

Are you alone?

Huh? Yeah.

I mean, yeah.

You?

Yeah.

Who were you talking to earlier?

What? I heard you talking.

Earlier.

Oh, yeah. It was me.

I talk to myself sometimes now.

I do it all the time.

But I'm old. Old people do that.

So I guess whoever lived here was out of
the apartment when it started?

You didn't know?

No, did you?

Well, sort of. I mean, he was my
neighbor.

But he wasn't out.

He killed himself in the bathroom back
there.

Did you open those?

What?

The curtains.

Yeah, to let the light in. He killed
himself?

Don't do that, okay?

Okay. Yeah.

Cut his wrists in the bathtub.

It must have been early days, given how
much food was here when I came through

the wall.

Where's the body?

I wrapped it in the blanket, taped it
up, and dragged it into the hall.

Is that the only bag you brought?

Yeah.

Wait.

I'll bring you another one.

You look like you're hungry.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, definitely.

Chew it. Eat it slowly.

Right. Wow.

Thank you. This is really good.

Thank you. I cure it myself.

Always have done.

Oh, wow.

Did you live with anybody before this?

What? Eat slowly.

Chew it.

Chew it. Mm -hmm.

All right.

You know, I'm in a roommate, girlfriend.

No. No, it's just me.

Oh.

You've been alone the whole time.

I mean, I'm only saying that just
because if there were someone, we should

sure that they get something to eat.

Have you killed anybody yet?

I shouldn't ask you that. I'm sorry. I
really shouldn't. No, no, really. It's

okay.

I have.

But there's, um... There's one that I
didn't kill.

And... He's the one I think about still.

Why would you kill someone if you don't
absolutely have to?

Yeah.

Hey, did you watch the news before the
power went out?

Well, it said that these people know
what they're doing.

I mean, can you imagine that?

I'd want somebody to kill me, too.

Maybe they'll find a cure.

Shit, we've been looking for a cure for
cancer for over a hundred years, and

that was before the world went to shit,
so...

I should let you eat.

I'm sorry. That wasn't helpful at all.
You've been so kind.

Have you had to?

Had to what?

Kill him.

Me? No.

No, never.

It's good.

Yeah.

Hey, are you sure that you're okay with
all of this?

Hey, there's got to be enough here for
us for a month.

And we'll cross that bridge when we get
to it. And I do think that if we hold

off as long as possible, they'll all
eventually starve and die.

You're probably right, actually, given
the limited supply of what those

cannibals eat.

If I grab something that you want me to
leave, let me know. Here.

Do you think he had a wife?

What?

The guy who lived here.

Jonathan. His name is Jonathan.

Yeah, sorry.

No, I don't think so. There were no
women's clothes here.

Yeah, I was just thinking that it might
be a reason to give up. I mean,

if your partner got sick with this.

I guess for some people it might be.

Maybe.

No, that's mine.

Have you lost anybody to this?

To my parents.

Oh, I'm sorry.

And my sister, I think.

I don't know.

But that's it, really.

They're the only three people in the
world that I gave a shit about and gave

shit about me.

But your sister, I mean, she might be
alive.

It's actually worse not knowing.

You know, wondering if I should be out
there trying to find her.

I mean, I think it's worse.

I don't know whether I agree with you
there.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

Well, think about it for a minute.

Imagine you've been with someone.

For most of your life. And it's been a
long life. So whoever you each became,

you became together.

And together was really the only way you
knew yourself.

Imagine that you had problems like
everybody has problems.

But whenever you looked at her, you knew
exactly who was looking back.

And you knew exactly what she felt for
you.

And what you felt for her.

No matter what else was going on around
you, you knew.

You knew.

You knew that at the core, it was
unchangeable.

And then she became sick.

Whatever that is that's going on out
there.

She didn't look at you with love
anymore.

She looked at you with hate.

Just the sight of you filled her with
hatred.

Imagine what that must be like.

You think that'd be worse?

Yeah, I'm sorry. I don't know what I'm
talking about.

Come on.

Don't be silly.

I'm just an old man having fun. I'm
whiling away the time, debating with a

man, making up stuff just for argument's
sake.

Okay.

I shouldn't be having fun.

Not at this time. You're a young man,
and your future's been ruined by this.

It's not fun.

And I feel sad for you.

I do. I feel very sorry.

There's some booze at the top shelf up
there.

Go grab some for yourself.

come to.

Took your time about it. I hope I didn't
hurt you.

What's going on?

Please keep your voice down. Help me!

Help me!

Losey, stop!

I'm so sorry. I really am.

This was supposed to have been finished
already.

You were conscious and she wouldn't.

She wouldn't what?

She wouldn't.

Lucy,

stop.

I don't know your name.

Aiden.

Aiden.

Please. Please.

You can't. It's better if you keep your
voice quiet.

It arouses her when she hears you.

What?

No.

Oh, God.

Kill me.

Kill me.

Kill me. Kill me. Listen, please.

Kill me. Kill me. Kill me. Never hurt
anyone in my life.

Never.

This isn't who I am.

But what else can I do? I love her.

You take care of the person you love.
You can't take care of everybody, not in

times like this.

But you take care of your family.

How can that be wrong?

If you kill me, she won't eat.

I know that.

So what we're going to do is you're
going to take these pain pills, as many

you want.

And then when they take effect, I'm
going to...

Make a little cut in your femoral
artery, and you'll bleed. And then when

bled enough so that you're too weak to
resist her, then I'll bind your feet and

move you closer to her. You won't feel
anything by then, nothing.

How long has she been like this? Since
the beginning.

You've done this before!

Just like with your neighbor. No, he was
already dead. She wouldn't touch him.

No, you're the first human person.

My two dogs, she had my two dogs.

This is crazy. My beautiful, loving,
loyal dogs.

She didn't understand it was them.

Gotcha. She would be so disappointed in
me.

The only part of her that's your wife is
telling you what she wants. She doesn't

know what she wants. She's begging you
to die.

Oh, she's sick.

There may be a cure.

And then what? She's never going to
forgive herself for eating people.

who survives this will have to be
forgiven unforgivable things.

You can't, man.

I have to.

I don't have a choice.

No, please.

No, you please.

I don't.

She's in pain.

She's in pain.

I'm in pain.

Jesus, God.

She was a teacher.

Did you know that? I don't think I told
you that.

Jesus Christ.

No.

No, no, no, no!

You're with someone.

Oh, no!

Help me!

No!

Eva.

They're inside.

They're in my house.

I'm coming to get you.

I'm coming to get you.

Just climb down. You can do it. Yeah,
just look at her. I got you. I got you.

Just look at her.

Hi.

Hi.

We should probably...

Kill me.

Come on.

Kill me.

Forget it.

We'll leave him. Come on. Come on.

Kill me.

Okay. All right. We're here.

We're going to get out.

Make a right. Go around the corner and
then straight into 4 -3 -2 -7.

4 -3 -2 -7. Okay.

Okay. Ready?

Yeah.

No, okay.

You have to hold me off, please.

Please don't make me do this.

No, I can't. Eva, I don't know how much
time we have.

If it's bad, Eva, you have to hold me
off. Hold it off. Please don't make me

this. Please, I'm begging you. Aiden,
no. Stop.

No.

Aiden. Please.

Stop. Aiden, please stop. Please don't
do this. Please don't do this.

Please. Aiden.

Aiden, no. Please.

Please get down.

Aiden, I can't do this without you.
Please.

Eva, you're going to be okay.

No, I'm not.

I'm not.

Go to the attic in my bathroom and take
it to my neighbor's apartment. They have

food. It'll last you the rest of the
month.

You'll wait it out. I'm not going to
make it if you're not here. Please,

Please.

Eva, you saved my life.

And I love you.

You're going to be okay.

but we can do this.

We're stronger together.

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