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If you think choosing
a college major is hard,

wait until you have to choose
your medical specialty.

How late were you up
researching treatments
for that patient?

- Late.
- You need sleep.

I'll get right on that.

You have no idea
how many emails you get

until you come back
from a three-month sabbatical.

Delete all.

Wait. What if some of those
are important?

I'm practicing
healthy boundaries.

If they need me,
they can pick up the phone.

It's not just
what medicine you'll practice,

it's your whole life.

Hey, should I pull the drains
on Mr. Sherwood
before we round?

Uh, no, Adams can do that.

Um, Toni Wright
is down a resident,

so I took the liberty
of moving you to her service.

I hope that's okay.

-Dr. Toni Wright?
-Yeah.

NIH grant recipient
for research on myofibroblasts
for wound healing,

- pioneer in lymphedema,
Dr. Toni Wright?
- Oh.

Yes.

- Okay, yeah.
- I may have read up on her.

- Play it cool.
- Yeah, I gotta go prep.

- Ben Warren?
- Hey, hey, hey. Come on. I...

Look, I was born cool.

Uh, okay.

Oh, my God.

I'm playing. I'm playing.

Who you'll work with,

whether you'll be home
in time for dinner
or never see your kids.

I love how they think
we have time
to go to the doctor.

Last year, I had
a dental student pull one
of my teeth in the cath lab.

Have you considered
egg freezing?

Have I considered
giving myself a series of shots
and screwing up my hormones

and then going through
an uncomfortable procedure

and then paying forever
to store my eggs in a freezer

on the chance
that I might want kids?

You could have just said, "No."

I might do it.
I wanna keep my options open.

Why do they need to know when
your mom had her first period?

Oh. I hope they don't,

- 'cause I have no idea
and no way to ask.
- Oh, smoothies.

The choice is yours,
and so are the consequences.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Hey, so my lawyer wanted
to check in.

I still haven't received
any papers to sign.

Yeah, I still have them.

Your lawyer mentioned
wanting to file before the end
of the month.

I-I just...
I-I've been slammed with work.

If we don't do it soon,
they're gonna make us
pay additional retainers.

I am aware. I'm... I'm sorry.

I-I have a consult,
but I will... I will
get to them as soon as I can.

Okay.

Dr. Morales to the ICU.
Dr. Martha Morales to the ICU.

-Dr. Wright, Ben Warren.
-Hey.

-Thrilled to be
on your service.
-Nice to meet you.

Benson,
back on my service again?

Yeah, I can't get enough,
and people call me Blue.

-After the Joni Mitchell album?
-No.

Oh. Well, that's too bad.
It's one of
the all-time greats.

I applied to three colleges
in California solely
because I thought it'd be cool

to sing that line
about coming home there
and literally mean it.

Do either of you play guitar?

-Um, not really.
-A little.

- Well...
- Um...

Uh, listen, um,
feel free to push me.
You know, I like to work hard,

and I'm actually applying
for a plastics fellowship.

Good for you.

You should have told her
you play guitar.

Five minutes to answer a page?
Patient could have died
in that time.

-Did somebody die?
-That's irrelevant.

-What do we got?
-Randall Lutton, 62.

He has scrotal swelling
and severe pain
after blunt trauma.

BP is slightly elevated.
Gave two of morphine en route.

Oh, God,
it hurts like hell.

Yeah, we're gonna
get you more inside, okay?

I got up to use the bathroom
in the middle of the night

and walked
right into the dresser.

I'm gonna need an ultrasound
and some gel.

Are you a doctor?

Urologist.

No need to comment
on the irony.

- Okay. Let's get him
to trauma one.

Hey, Corban, just
double-checking you're getting
your IV antibiotics

before rounds with Dr. Altman.

Um, do you think you could slip
me the staff Wi-Fi password?

I know the guest Wi-Fi
is spotty,

but ours is used
for things like imaging
and staff messaging,

so they're pretty strict
about it.

Well, could you make
an exception?

I just... I really want to see
my cousin get married
in Big Sur today.

Second cousin, second marriage,
and he's not that great.

You didn't get it from me.

Thank you.

Somehow, I am always
in the hospital for my friends'
and family's big life events.

This is his second aortic graft
to get infected in a year.

No offense to Dr. Altman,

but if this one doesn't take,
we need a second opinion.

Well, Dr. Altman's
extremely skilled.

She's even kind of famous now.
She invented a new surgery.

Yeah, but like a difficult one?

Don't look at me like that.

I already know
I'm becoming Mom.

- Surgery's incredibly
complicated.

She's on a podcast.
You can look it up.

Told you. I just have bad luck.

Well, hopefully the new TEVAR
gives your aorta a break

so the antibiotics
can do their job.

That's what you said last time.

I'll be back soon.

Dr. Miley Tokugawa to the ER.

Welcome back, Dr. Shepherd.

Have you met our new plastics attending, Dr.
Toni Wright?

Relatively new.
Nice to meet you.

We should get started.
It's a LeFort fracture.

I'm sure
there will be questions.

-Did you see that?
-Uh, yes.
Um, yeah, I don't know.

I don't think she remembers me.

Should she?

We went to med school together.
We were
in the same study group.

She hated me.

Oh, well, maybe it's better
she doesn't remember.

Teresa Daniels, 49, post-op
day five from a hemicraniectomy
for subdural hematoma

after auto versus pedestrian.

Concomitant LeFort I fractures.

Please say you're fixing
my mom's face today.

Well, that's up to
Dr. Shepherd.

She'll tell us if your mom's
head bleed has healed enough
for us to proceed.

I'll do a neuro exam on her now
and make sure
the EVD's working.

So, uh, what are you studying?

Uh, data science.

I was going to major in it,
but the intro course is hard.

I'm a freshman at UC Davis.

Do you have a study group?

-I haven't found
the right people.
-Oh.

- Does make a big difference.
- -My mom says to stick with it.

I was complaining to her
about it on the phone

when she got hit
by that idiot driver.

That's awful. I'm so sorry.

She'll be happy to see you
when she wakes up.

ICP is 12
and subdural is stable.

Great. So we're good to go.

Let's order a CT max/face
before bringing her to the OR.

Hey. Sorry I'm late.

How was Cousin Frank's wedding?
Were you able to stream it?

Still no contractions?

Don't jinx it.

-Okay.
-Uh, Dr. Meade.

Corban Gregory,
28-year-old male.

Status, post-coarctation repair
when he was two.

He subsequently
had two graft repairs,
both became infected.

Has now developed
a pseudoaneurysm

and is here today
for his second TEVAR.

You made somebody a new aorta?

He's stalking you online.
I told him it was weird.

And it said that the patient
had two repeat graft infections
too.

-Can I get this?
-A TEVAR is still a solution
for you.

It's less invasive
and less risky.

For me or for you?

Corban, the patient that
you're reading about
was much sicker.

I don't want another Band-Aid
if there's a permanent fix.

I don't want to diminish
what you're going through,
but--

You think you know
what I'm going through?

My favorite thing is running,

but I can't remember
the last time
I had a runner's high.

I won't be able to lift
my baby nephew.

I can't travel.
I can't visit my friends.

I have spent more time
in the CCU than my own house
in the last year.

Is that not sick enough
for you?

What, you just don't care?

That's not true.

Then why won't you fix me?

I wish there was an easy fix.

Just get out.

Get out!

Okay.

It's a larger patient load
than usual,

but with two of you...

Adams, please tell me that
you were at the benefits fair

or rounding
or anything but late.

Sorry, I was on the phone
with Boise General.

They don't have Katie Rogers's
immunotherapy either.

Well, the government cut off funding.
You're not going to find it.

Okay, what about
cytoreduction surgery
with HIPEC?

What about it?

Well, could Katie
be a candidate for it?

- I-I emailed you
the case report.

Okay, no.
I appreciate your initiative,
and I will look at it.

But right now,
I need you to focus on patients

-that are currently admitted
to the hospital.
-Okay.

We're down two residents
due to illness
and a family wedding,

so I need you and Spencer
to get started on the floor,
okay?

Ms. Hayes needs a Dobhoff tube
for tube feeds.

Ooh.
Well, I've never inserted
an NG tube on a real person

o-or a fake one, so...

Well, um, Adams will help you.

- Don't forget to check
your email.
- I...

Just keep taking deep breaths.

New pain medication
should kick in any second.

Can I take a look?

Yeah.

Wow, that looks painful.

Last I checked,
it measured 20 centimeters.

I suspect a bleeding
testicular artery.
Do you see anything?

I, uh... It looks like
it's expanding.

Let's get an ultrasound
and page urology.

Was the dresser sharp?
I mean, I do see a couple
of small lesions.

I-I must have just
snagged a drawer pull.

Oh, okay.
Well, let's get him some more
fluids and a full set of labs.

Okay.

Well, the testicles are intact
and they're in
the correct position...

-Okay.
-...but I do see some
free fluid in the scrotum.

Oh, my God, Randall.

Is it his heart?

Uh, no, no.
My heart's just fine.

Doctors, this is my wife Kimmy.

-Hey.
-Hi.

Is that one of your...

Yeah, I walked
into the dresser.

Probably just a hematoma.

Is this gonna jack
your fertility?
I ovulate next week.

We're going to
give you some privacy.

Dr. Neil, dial radiology.

Oh.

You've been back three hours

and you've already requested
a new 3D microscope
with AR tech?

Why are you reading emails
when you are supposed to be
on leave?

Catherine finally
left the house.

If that woman makes me
take one more nap,
I'm going to lose my mind.

Um...

When did you hire Toni Wright?

A few months ago.

I was surprised we got her.

Jackson says she's the go-to
for facial reconstruction.

Well... Jackson is the go-to
for facial reconstruction.

Is there a problem?

I just... I just spent
the last few months
getting to a really good place.

I took Scout camping.

I went to the grocery store
during normal hours. I slept--

You need to get to the point.

Wright and I
have a history, in that...

in that, historically,
she pushes my buttons.

If I hired people based on
whose buttons they pushed,

no one could work
at this damn hospital.

And your request
for a microscope is denied.

Oh.

You know, I, uh...

I read that you won
the Goldstein Award
for excellence in teaching.

-Mmm?
-Um...

No.

So, you know, you must be
an excellent teacher.

That's the name of the award.

-She is all set.
-Okay.

Oh. Yeah.

Oh, her nasofrontal
and ZF sutures are broken.

Good. What else?

Her zygomatic arch
is comminuted.

And it's a LeFort III,
not a LeFort I.

Yeah. This just got
a lot more complicated.

Yeah.

Should I call the OR?
Let them know that
we're gonna push the surgery?

Her daughter's
going to be crushed.

No, we're not pushing anything.

Every day that she's intubated,
it makes it tougher
for her to recover.

We're just going to have to
come up with a new plan,
quickly.

Dr. Traversa to radiology.
Dr. Valentina Traversa...

Is he asleep?

Just resting.

Did you get my scans back?

Everything looks stable,
so you're all set
for the TEVAR.

Corban.

He was hoping you'd say that
he got worse, so he could get
that new aorta business.

The TEVAR really might work.

A new aorta
would definitely work.

If you survive it.

I want to talk
to the other guy,

the doctor that did
the new surgery
with Dr. Altman.

-Dr. Ndugu?
-He could give me
a second opinion, right?

Dr. Altman
should be in shortly.
You can ask her any questions,

-or you can--
-I'm asking for Ndugu.

This is my life.
I'm not gonna ask permission
to hear about all my options.

Would you?

Just give me ten minutes
with him, please.

I'll talk to him. No promises.

Catherine, I didn't know
you were here today.

Oh. I had to get out
of that house.

For ten days, I've been
taking care of my husband.

I don't know
how these nurses do it.

All right, where's my consult?

Randall?

Randall,
what are you doing here?

Good to see ya.

Oh. We missed you
at the last AUA conference.

- We were on our honeymoon.
- Oh, that's right.

So what... what brings you in?

Uh, you... you have
more important things to do.

I can see a resident.

Nonsense. I am here.

Dr. Hunt, what we got?

Blunt trauma. Now experiencing
severe scrotal swelling.

-Hmm.
-It's the size of a coconut.

Thank you, Dr. Millin,
for that wonderful assessment.

Randall, may I?

Uh...

You don't have to
be here for this.

Why don't you just go eat?
I'm sure you're starving
after Pilates.

- I'm not leaving
your side.

How does it look?

Well, for a blunt trauma,
it doesn't seem to follow
the typical injury pattern.

Will this mess up
his sperm count?

Yes, it will.

From walking into a dresser?
How is it this bad?

I'll let Dr. Lutton
answer that.

I didn't walk into anything.

Okay, please don't hate me.

I gave myself a vasectomy
last night.

Oh.

While I was at book club?

-What the hell?
-I will page psych.

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

-Keep swallowing.
-Mmm, mmm.

- It pushes the tube down your esophagus...
- -Mmm.

- ...to your intestine.
- Okay.

- Does that look right?
- Yeah.

Keep going
until you hit the mark
we measured on the tube.

- You sure you know
what you're doing?
- Uh...

She does. Keep sipping.

-Chin down.
-Is-Is that mine?

My catsitter's
supposed to be calling.

Uh, excuse me.

Hi, this is Dr. Adams.

Uh, yeah. Uh, actually,
I'm with a patient right now.

Can I call you back?

Okay, I'm done.

All right, looks good.

All right, pull out the stylet,
secure the tube
and start trickle tube feeds.

Then we gotta do research
for Dr. Bailey.

She didn't mention anything
about research.

-It's for her patient.
-Oh.

Well, she's in luck.
I'm really good at research.

- In med school,
I-I presented a poster--
- Great.

Finish up here
and, uh, I'm gonna get started.

Where you going?

I'll text you.

I'll text him.

Hey.
How's it going with Wright?

I have no idea.

- Did you change services?
- No,
I-I'm just getting zero vibe.

Because you're over-vibing?

No, no, no, no, no.
Okay, I've been cool.

No excessive praise,
no impulsive moves.

Well, just give it time.

Hey, if it makes
you feel better,

I hear your residency director
is very impressed.

It does.

- What were you even thinking?
-Psych is on their way.

That man doesn't need
a psychiatrist.
He needs a marriage counselor.

You think he was successful
doing it on himself?

We'll find out.

I gotta get him in an OR
and evacuate that hematoma.

Can I scrub in?
I've never operated
on a DIY vasectomy before.

It'll be my second.

Wait, you know somebody else
who tried to do
their own vasectomy?

Another urologist.
Said he was embarrassed.

I don't know why these boys
don't just pick up the phone
and call me.

It's just a hollow tube
filled with sperm.

In fact, if you ever want one--

I-I'm good down here.

Go scrub in.

Uh, wait.

Just let Kimmy get in another
few rounds, then go prep him.

...laughingstock,
and you'll be to blame.

Can't even count
how many fractures she has.

Yeah, the number
doesn't matter.

Okay,
so how-how do we plate
her zygomatic arch?

It's like tempered glass.
There's nothing solid
to screw into.

Warren, any ideas?

Uh, create a scaffold
of cadaveric bone paste
and BMP.

You've studied this.

No, I saw it once,
years ago. I...

I was an anesthesiologist
before I went into surgery.
Mmm.

Interesting.

Okay, so our first step
is gonna be to wire her jaw

with her bite
in the proper place.

We won't be able to
have her orally intubated
for anesthesia.

Warren, trach
or submental intubation?

Oh, trach. It's a straight shot
into the airway,

less risky than going through
the chin into the mouth.

Spoken like
an anesthesiologist.

A plastic surgeon thinks
it'll take her three months
to heal from a trach.

A submental incision
will heal in a week.

Kwan, what are the steps
of a submental intubation?

You make an incision
under the chin and...

Honestly, I-I don't know.

Of course not.
You're a gen surge resident.

- You'll learn today.
- Cool.

It is. Take a look at this.

So we would create
a large segment of aorta
with a synthetic graft,

rerouting it from your chest
to your abdomen,

and then we would staple off
the infected piece here

and remove it at a later time.

So then no more
TEVAR procedures?

If the surgery's successful,
yes. That's the idea.

And you really think
this could be a success for me?

I'd need
to further study your case
before I could answer that.

So shoot me his latest imaging,
and I want to do another echo.
Before we--

Dr. Ndugu? Excuse me,
may I have a word, please?

Sure. Yeah. Excuse us.

Someone talk fast.

- Corban asked for a second--
- Not you.

You're talking to my patient
behind my back

about a procedure
that I've already said no to.

Okay, I assumed you were aware.

Don't do that.
Don't put it on the resident

to have
the uncomfortable conversation
with her attending.

Your patient asked
if he was a good candidate
for a ventral aorta.

I simply explained what it was.

No, you got his hopes up.

And if you had
come to me first,

I would have explained that,
unlike Nora,

Corban has major scarring
from a previous esophageal
reconstruction.

He is a bad candidate for it.

How do we know
who's a good candidate?
We've done this once.

And that might be all we ever
do if we kill Corban with it.

Nora hasn't even hit
the six-month mark.

We need more time
to see how she does.

Okay. All right.

Dr. Altman, I'm sorry.
I wasn't sure--

How did Corban even know
about the ventral aorta
in the first place?

If you shut me out again,
you are off this case.

I'm her boss.

Didn't she make you chief
while she was chief?

Okay, well... Okay, so what?
Now I owe her?

If I made someone chief,

and they gave my patient
a second opinion
behind my back,

I would blow my stack too.

Okay, yeah, yeah...

...that part was bad,
but I'm not wrong.

This surgery could cure
all kinds of aortic disease,
you know?

Wait, Toni Wright just gave me
the cold shoulder again.

It's okay.
I was pretty much done.

Okay, she can do
a supermicrosurgery
in a 30x magnified field,

- but she can't say hi to me?
- Oh.
Amelia, don't...

I can't watch this. Nope.

-Hi.
-Hi.

We went to med school together.
You hated me.

No.
I didn't hate you.

So you do remember me?

Yeah.

Wow. I should have
thought this through.

I don't really know
what happens next.

Why did you think I hated you?

You ran out
of your own birthday party
when I showed up uninvited.

- Oh, my God.
- You changed study groups

and actively avoided me
in labs.

Because I liked you.

- What?
- I tried to kiss you

in The Mission
during orientation.

No, you were drunk.
I thought... I thought
you stumbled into... into me.

No, I had a huge crush on you.

I mean,
I thought you were queer,
but then I wasn't sure,

so I didn't want to get burned,
so I kept my distance.

But you have nothing
to worry about.

This is all way in the past,
and, um, frankly,
you're not my type.

My OR is ready.

For some reason,
I froze when I saw you earlier.

I'm glad we cleared the air.

I'm pretty sure
Altman hates me.

If she didn't
kick you off the case,
you're probably fine.

Let's talk
about something else.

Uh, my patient tried
to give himself a vasectomy.

- Wow, we will always have jobs.
- -Mm-hmm.

Everyone thinks they can
do anything themselves

if they watch enough videos
on social media.

He's a board-certified
urologist.

You know, that actually seems
doable with some lidocaine
and a mirror.

OR's ready. I'm out.

How come women in their 20s
have to shell out big bucks

to preserve their fertility,

but men in their 60s
are so worried about pregnancy,

they are giving
themselves vasectomies?

Evolution failed us.

Do it with me. Our future
and less fertile selves
will thank us.

So we can both be hormonal
at the same time?

It's a hard pass,
but I will do your shots.

I am very good
at giving injections.

Don't ask why.

You can have the other half
of my sandwich
if you're hungry.

-I brought it from home.
-Yeah, I'm good.

Did you email me the results

for the immunotherapy study
from San Francisco?

I included it
in the Chicago study,
at the bottom.

-Okay.
-I like to cook.

Do you? It-It makes me happy
following directions and--

I wonder if we could file
a compassionate use application
for her meds.

Or maybe we could
get it off-label directly
from the manufacturer.

Why is this particular
patient's research
so important?

I just meant,
weren't there others
in the trial?

What about them?

Look, I-I-I care about all
the patients. I do. I just...

I don't know. Katie... She's in
her late twenties just like us.

She feels like a classmate
or more like a friend.

We've just spent
a lot of time together,
so she is now kind of a friend.

I get it.

It's like when you meet someone
and you feel like
you've already met them before,

like they're supposed to be
in your life.

Oh, no, it's-it's Wendy.

Hey, may I come in?

She wanted me to apologize.

Unbelievable.

It's okay.

Can we have a minute?

Sure.

Don't say anything stupid.

You're stressing me
and the baby out enough.

If you want Dr. Ndugu
to replace your aorta,

I won't stand in your way,
but I do need you
to hear me out first.

Okay, talk.

Okay.

We have done this once
on a person with very,
very different anatomy

who could have a complication
at any moment.

So it's not just a risk,
it's a complete unknown.

There is no way to know
what will happen
if we staple your aorta shut.

And it is irreversible.

If the staples don't hold
and you hemorrhage, you'll die.

I don't want to do
this surgery on you
because I want you to be able

to meet your nephew
and see your sister
become a mom

and go running again
and visit your friends.

And I know the idea
of going through this again
is infuriating,

but at least...
at least you'll still be alive.

I'll give you more time.

Thanks.

Oh. Nice.
You didn't skive at all.

And now I will lift
the scalp flap
to expose the face.

- Hold up.
What have you got there?
- A beaver blade.

What, are you trying
to keep us here all day?

Plastic surgeons use this
to make delicate incisions.

Yeah, sure,
if we're working on a cleft lip

or somewhere where
every millimeter counts.

The scalp's robust.
Get him the 15 blade.

Make sure to stay
in the same plane.

Good.

Oh, there's some fluid.

Give me a specimen tube.

Paper towel?

- It's a halo sign.
- -Damn it, she's leaking CSF.

We need neuro, now.

What happened?

She was fine.
I started the trickle feeds
and her sats dropped.

What's wrong?

Hold on, we're gonna find out.
Just don't move.

The tube is in her lung.
Wait, you didn't see that
on the X-ray?

-What X-ray?
-Let me see.

Look, you have to get an X-ray
after you insert a Dobhoff

and most importantly,
before you start feeds.

- Okay, let's pull it out,
quickly now.

I'm s-sorry,
this is my first one.
I-I didn't know.

It's okay, and we can fix this.

Uh, prepare for a bronchoscopy
to suction the feeds out.

Okay.

- Suction.
- Okay.

Is it...
Is it weird operating on your friend's scrotum?

My dear,
you've seen one testicle,
you've seen them all.

But ask me if I think the man
has a screw loose, ooh, mmm.

He must
really not want kids.

Of course not, he's a grandfather.
That's when all the fun starts.

Raising a child is hard,

this coming from the chairwoman
of a national hospital system.

I don't know
how you did it.

Me neither,
but I will tell you this.

As proud as I am
of all my accomplishments,

the best job I've ever had
is being Jackson's mom.

And the biggest surprise,
I didn't think I wanted
to be a parent.

I... I just never
had that pull.

But life is full of surprises.

Yeah, just ask Kimmy.

Oh.
She better make sure that lawyer's looking over that prenup.

Okay, let us finish
this vasectomy
in the right way.

I've palpated the vas deferens
and isolated it.
Now, what is next?

Exteriorize,
ligate both ends,
then divide and send path.

Mm-hmm.

After you.

Uh, 4-0 VICRYL.

All right, what happened?
- She has a CSF leak.

Can you show me
where the fluid's coming from?

Do you think it's
from the cranial base?

I can't see.
Let's light it up.
Dilute fluorescein, please.

Inject it into the EVD
and clamp it.

Injecting now.

All right, now we wait.
Lights please.

For what?

The drain is in her ventricle
which is filled with CSF.

If this is a leak,
we should see... Oh.

Yeah, the fluorescence
is coming from the location
of the dural tear.

Is it weird
that I think that's beautiful?

Not at all.

All right, let's sew this up.
5-0 nylon.

Actually, the dura is friable.
It's not gonna hold a stitch.

And the pericranium
is too scarred to harvest
for a patch.

You want some fascia lata?

I think that might be our only option.
Prep the thigh.

Not the only option.

Instead of another incision,
I can harvest fascia
from the existing field.

You think it'll have
enough bite to hold the dura?

Give me three minutes,
I'll show you.

- Mm-hmm.
- Scalpel.

Okay, Mom. Whatever.

I'll let you know
when I know what he's decided.

Hey. Everything okay?

Everything's fine.
I'm just a terrible person.

I have a hard time
believing that.

You're spending
your third trimester
with your brother in the CCU.

My mom's a wreck
because her son is having
another big surgery

- while she's recovering
from pneumonia.

And I just yelled at her
because she didn't
have an opinion

on the paint color
for the nursery.

Hey, you want your mom's help.
That doesn't make you terrible.

I'm just overwhelmed.

Yeah. Of course you are.
There's a lot going on.

It's so stupid.

I am 36 years old.
I'm about to have a kid...

but I still just want my mom.

I know the feeling.

I should call her
and apologize.

I'll see you up there.

Hey, Corban made his decision.
He wants a TEVAR.

Okay.

I'd page someone else,
but we're down residents today.

I'm good.

Do you need a minute?

Not at all. I'll go prep him.

Okay.

Dr. Bailey, I am so sorry.

I take full responsibility.

I should have told Spencer
to check the KUB
before starting feeds--

Yeah. Damn right.
And you better have
a good reason you didn't.

Yeah, a pharmaceutical company
called with a lead on
Katie's infusion. So I just--

No, the last time I checked,
I asked you to focus
on your patients

admitted in the hospital.

I only picked up long enough
to let them know
that I was serious.

Wendy could have died
of chemical pneumonitis
or pneumonia.

She didn't, and Katie could die
if we don't fight for her.

I know.
I am fighting for her too.

Are you?

Because what options
have you found?
What research have you done?

Have you exhausted
your contact list? Because
it feels like you've given up.

Oh, so you think
after Katie sobbed in my arms,

I shrugged
and said, "Good luck"?

That I gave her a goody bag
and sent her on her way?

-She's dying, okay? We--
-And I think about it
every single day.

And I also think
about my 65-year-old
with decompensated cirrhosis,

who's treatment resistant

and-and the 17-year-old
that's septic
and I can't figure out why.

Don't forget about John Doe
in the ICU whose abdomen
I had to leave open.

Yeah, he's also
keeping me up at night.

And now I guess you can
add Wendy to my list.

See, I haven't given up
on Katie,

but I also haven't given up
on the rest of my patients,

and that is where
you and I are different.

Get it together.

Dr. Brooks to oncology.
Dr. Brooks to oncology.

Hi. Randall did great.

He is recovering now,
and they will call you
when he's ready for visitors.

Is it bad
if I don't answer?

No one would hold it
against you.

I really do love him.

That's what makes this hurt
so much.

I mean, it's his body
and he can do
whatever he wants.

But if I want
to stay married to him,

I don't get a say
in whether I have a baby.

Well, you could always ask him
to reverse it.

What's the point?

He obviously doesn't want
to have kids with me.

Uh...

Well, can you get a puppy?

I'm allergic.

That's unfortunate.

Yeah.

Hey.

Hey.

I did Corban's TEVAR.
He did great.

His numbers are improving.

Okay.

I'm-I'm sorry if I came across
as harsh earlier.

I-I still maintain that
the ventral aorta

wasn't the right call
for this patient.

What about the next one?

You were more than happy
to talk about this surgery
on podcasts

and publish abstracts,
present it.

You were the one
who came up with it.

What's the point
if you never do it again?

It's a break-the-glass-
in-case-of-emergency surgery.

But does it have to be?

Think of the number of people
suffering from aortic disease
with no options.

We might have something
that could help them.

Why don't you want to use it?

She looks terrible.

She'll look more like herself
when the swelling goes down.

And we'll keep monitoring
her brain function
to see what's intact.

Her intracranial pressure
is stable

and she's not re-leaking
any fluid from her nose.

And that's good.

I think I have to
drop out of school.

I can't leave her like this.
It's always been me and her.

Have you thought about
contacting the school?

Maybe take a leave of absence?
Or do your coursework remotely.

You think they'd do that?

Yeah, you've worked
really hard.

And if you stop now,
then it's gonna be a lot harder
to start back up again.

Never hurts to ask.

Um, excuse me.

Uh, Dr. Wright, uh, I ordered
Teresa's post-op imaging,

but it probably
won't happen overnight,

so I'll make sure it's done
for first thing tomorrow.

Good, thank you.

Uh, all due respect, uh,
I don't want to be just good.

I want you to see me
as excellent. So I'm asking,
what would that take?

Tell me what you need me to do,
and I will do it.

There's your problem.

That I'm not anticipating you
well enough?

You're trying to anticipate me

when you should be trying
to anticipate the medicine.

Look, over the years
I've found that
the most successful residents

focus on patient care
and surgical technique.

-Mm-hmm.
-They're confident
in who they are,

which translates into them
being confident
in what they do.

And that is what leads
to excellence in plastics.

I didn't see that
from you today.

Maybe next time.

Hey. Did you update, uh,
Ms. Cahill's output for Baxter?

He's on tonight.

You okay?

Super.

Look, Bailey was mad at me,
not you,
and she was way out of line.

Bailey?

Bailey wasn't the problem.

Spencer.

I thought you were going
to apologize to me.

For what?

Look, you might have
taken the heat
because you're the second year,

but I fed the tube
into Wendy's lungs.

And if you had told me
to get a KUB,

I would have taken a damn X-ray
and not initiated feeds.

-Okay, but we managed it.
She's fine.
-She had food in her lungs!

Uh, okay. Thank you.

Thank you.

I wasn't cool.

Oh, you're being
hard on yourself.

Oh, she said
in no uncertain terms

that she did not see
excellence in me today.

I'm sorry.

You know what makes it worse?

She wasn't even mean about it.
She just said it
like it was a fact.

Huh.

What, you think it's a fact?

Oh, no, no, no.
I was... ...thinking
about how I yelled at Adams.

Oh. What did he do now?

Well, his concern
for one patient got in the way
of his care for other patients.

-Katie Rogers.
-Yeah.

I mean, truth is,
if she was our only patient,

his dedication
would be admirable.

-Mmm.
-I hope I wasn't too hard
on him.

Um, I guess we got to
have thick skin if we're going
to do this thing.

Want to go home?

Mmm, let's go home.

Hey.

Everything okay?

I haven't signed
the papers yet.

But getting a divorce
was your idea.

I know.

I know.

Are you having second thoughts?

No.

I keep taking the papers out
to sign and then I don't do it

and now they're just sitting
in my bag with crumbs
and crayon marks on them.

Just because it was
my idea doesn't mean
that I'm not scared.

- What are you scared of?
- I don't know.

That everything will just
explode and-and fall apart.

But hasn't that
happened already?

You don't
have to do them right now.

I mean, I'll-I'll-I'll take out
another retainer.
We don't have to rush this.

I have to do it sometime.

Okay.

My sixth-grade teacher said,

"Your actions plus your choices
equals your life."

This is mostly true.

I can do a whole
vasectomy, start to finish.

-It's pretty straightforward.
-Why you looking at me?

What? You changed your mind?

Yeah, today, looking at
questions about my mom,

thinking about being a mom
just brought up a lot
of old feelings

I don't have time to deal with.
I need to focus on work.

What if I did it with you?

I don't have to be here
for this, right?

No.

Thought you didn't want kids.

I don't think I do.

But I also don't want to
wake up one day and my eggs
are all shriveled and dusty

and realize that I do,
and it's too late.

And then if we...
if we do it together, I...

I could be there for you
if you think about your mom.

-You'd do that?
-Yeah, yeah.

And then I can tell you
about my mom, which would
make you feel better.

Fertility friends.

Don't call it that.

No, no.

But what it doesn't
account for is luck.

-What is going on?
-Leticia, you have
to wait outside.

-Someone tell me
what's going on.
-Get her out, please.

-It's gonna be okay.
It's gonna be okay.
-No.

-No, please.
-What happened?

I got him back
after one round of epi,

but he's still hypotensive
with a narrow pulse pressure.

-Did you get an X-ray?
-Uh, right here.

Good work.

Mediastinal widening.
The leak is expanding.

Page Altman.

We need to get him back
to the angio suite.

Let's move.

Sometimes we encounter
unexpected twists of fate.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Thanks for today.

You're the only neurosurgeon
that's ever responded
to my page in under an hour.

Yeah, well, it was
my first day back, so I didn't
have a lot going on.

Not... Not to say
that I'm not always prompt.

Right.

You need me again,
I will come just as fast.

Okay.

Uh...

-I... I made it weird.
-No.

I swear to you,
the crush is all in the past.

I've had many crushes
since then,

succeeded at several,

changed programs
when others have failed.

You used to laugh more.

I also had a crush on you.

I mean,
I didn't understand
what I was feeling, but,

you know, I wish I had known.

Sorry, that-that is...
this is...

I'm not hitting on you
in the attending's lounge.

Right.

This is work.

Do you wanna go somewhere,
get a coffee?

And the best things in life
fall out of thin air.

All you have to do is catch it.