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I guess I just feel like I haven't been noticed my whole life.

I feel like everyone's always ignoring me.

There was some trauma when I was at the mall and it was around Halloween time

and I hung out at the Halloween store for a while until I realized that I had

make my way home.

And I just feel like it's been a series of me just being ignored all my life.

Yeah, I agree with that.

Did you, can you actually, I'm sorry, can you actually Repeat all that again.

spaced for a little bit. I was taking notes.

Can you just repeat that again?

Yeah.

I just feel like I've been ignored by everyone all my life, and I feel like

I have needs, and I need attention, but I feel like I just need to reach

out and take what I want, I guess, now.

Yeah.

That's understandable.

I have another patient coming in, so we'll work on those things, okay? Okay.

Thank you.

Hi. Hi, I'm here at 11 o 'clock. Perfect. Come on in. Come on in.

Well, ever since I dyed my hair blonde, I just keep getting bombarded by blonde

joke after blonde joke after blonde joke. I just can't take it anymore.

blonde jokes making you feel are people at least being disrespectful,

with negative attention.

Yeah, and I mean, people just assume I'm dumb, I'm a bimbo, that I can't

count to 10. I can count to 50.

Okay. So, I, it's just so frustrating.

I can see why you're frustrated.

Okay, let's, um, what have you done?

makes you feel, um, that helps with it?

Have you done,

have you, have you talked to them and told them your feelings and explained to

them like you're not done? You can count up to 50.

Um, so have you done those things or do you just let it go?

You know, it just, I guess I just can't formulate my words. You know, I say,

guys, please, it's just a hair color. I can change my hair, but

You have to defend yourself.

I'm totally with you on this and I'm sorry that you're experiencing this.

Would you, how would you feel if you changed your hair color, if you did dye

Wow. I mean, I just can't imagine myself anything other than blonde. It would be

too much. I don't think my psyche can handle something like that.

Okay. I think that's good because I don't think you should have to change

yourself.

To, you know, to make these people feel better about themselves. Because, you

know, the only reason why they're teasing you and doing all these things

because they feel very horrible about themselves. They have a bad outlook on

themselves. You know, low self -esteem. So everything that you're doing is

you're just showing them that you're smart,

independent, confident.

Yeah, I don't have to conform to social, you know.

You know, you keep being you. You want to be.

that self -confidence and just don't worry about them.

Fear is very insecure.

They have their own issues that they have to deal with.

So you are doing just fine. Keep doing what you're doing.

Wow. That's amazing advice. Thank you so much. I'm so glad you're really

listening to me and giving me the attention I deserve.

It's awesome.

But the real reason I'm here is I developed an

intense fear of the dark.

Of the dark?

Yeah, just thinking about being in the dark is giving me chills right now.

Oh, okay. Well, we're in a very bright room right now, so don't worry about it.

So what is it about the dark that, or actually, can you explain yourself?

what is your fear?

In the dark and not being able to see anything. The lack of sight.

Okay, so it's not knowing what's in the dark. Is it actually, like, you're

scared. I just need more and more.

Same thing with bananas.

Oh,

bananas are a good one as well.

I would agree.

I think cucumbers are really good. I love zucchinis. Clean them in the oven.

a healthier lifestyle to try and, you know, healthier living, functional

medicine, you know, just try to feel better about myself and, you know, take

some more.

Those are all really, really good steps to living a healthier

life. I definitely agree with you. Those more natural, well, it's Friday.

less fried food. You know, it tastes really, really good. It's very healthy.

you have a very positive outlook on life.

Wow, that means so much to me.

You know, it's really hard trying to eat healthy and stay the whole foods and

not, you know, succumb to the preservatives and processed

things. So, oh, I actually started a garden in my backyard.

Yeah. You know, it's been such a great hobby to do as well.

And, you know, I feel so connected to nature and so much more free

and just a lot more positive energy.

That's really, really good.

That really makes you feel a lot better.

Those are very positive hobbies.

Yeah. I believe that if you continue the gardening and the healthy lifestyle,

like those vegetables, less fried food, the different takes

on like the medicine and exercise, I definitely think that that's really

the dead, all of those different things that we've talked about.

You really think so?

Of course.

Everything affects your life. One thing affects the other. It's all just one

big, big cycle.

to make sure that you find something that you enjoy, something that you're

at, something that really, really excites you.

And it seems like gardening really, really, really excites you.

So that is really awesome. I'm so glad you found this hobby.

See? It will make things a little bit easier, I think, because it shows that

you're determined and that you pull through and that you're not going to

up. Yeah. So I really think that you

gardening is a really, really good sign that

you will be really good with overcoming the

debt issues, the dark issues, for sure, because, you know,

something that you will have to overcome and you will overcome.

So your determination.

You know, I believe in you. I definitely know you can do it.

Wow, Dr. Lane. I mean, wow. I mean, I wish I could see you like three times

a week, honestly.

Your advice is so awesome.

And yeah, gardening, it's been a great, great experience for me. What do you

enjoy about gardening?

Is it like being outdoors? Oh, I love just reaching my hands into the dirt,

getting dirty.

watching things, watching things grow.

Well,

I'm just trying to give you some, there's some doodles too, because, you

it's fun.

Yeah. But you're supposed to be able to let him know about how you feel.

It can't just be whatever you, you know, you want him to think.

It's, you know, it's, yeah.

just his you're there too and if he doesn't like that you're telling him

you're speaking up then you also need to just tell him you know what you're

gonna stop and you're just not gonna have sex with him or suck his dick until

like you know he does what you want yeah that's exactly the way it's gonna be

i'm gonna say that

Tell him exactly what turns you on, exactly what you like.

Really? That's the only way he's going to know what you like, is if you tell

him, if you speak up.

So if I tell him that I love getting my ass smacked with some black and blue?

Then that's what you taught me. Tell him.

your big cock right in between my legs and pound until you just come on me.

Exactly. That's what I would say. Yes. I want you to speak up and you tell them

everything you like. You tell them to pinch your nipples. Yeah. Or to bite you

or to bite your hair.

Yeah. With exactly everything that you enjoy, you need to let them know. You

need to let them know that you can get pleasure from it as well.

You're right.

Wow.

You definitely, that's definitely what you need to do. You have to let them

you need to speak up.

Okay. Well, let's do this. We're done. Our session's done for today.

Okay. I'm going to write down our notes for the things that you need to work on.

Okay. So these are, what was your name again? How did you spell it?

It's B -L -A -K -E,

right? That's what I got. Cool. So we got L -A -K -E.

Yes. What was the thing?

Dark. The blonde joke. Breathing.

Oh, yeah. Hold on. Breathing? Or the dark, right? Yeah, we're going to do

breathing exercises.

Blonde joke.

Daily payments, remember?

So daily payments.

And then last but not least is the sex with the boyfriend.

Yeah. So you need to tell him and you need to speak up.

Yeah.

See ya.

It is fucking merciless.