All language subtitles for Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman S02e19 Life and Death

Wow, The Adventures of Gunslinger Gus.

Ma, look.

Can I have this?

Ryan, I'm not sure I like you reading
this kind of rubbish.

That's not rubbish.

I read it myself.

It's a fine story about a brave man.

And it's only a dime.

Well, Till, I don't know that it's
appropriate reading for a young man. Oh,

boys like this kind of thing. It's their
nature.

Well, I suppose any kind of reading
should be encouraged.

Thanks.

Can you spare anything for a veteran, ma
'am?

I'll see if I can... Oh!

Oh, Tommy!

Oh, Tommy!

I missed you.

Lauren, good to have you back, Tommy.

Thanks, but it's Tom now.

Of course it is.

Oh, let me look at you.

Oh, it's so good to...

This is my son, Tom.

Tom, I'd like you to meet Dr.

Quinn. It's nice to meet you, Tom.

Ma wrote me about you.

Sounded kind of strange at first.

A lady doc.

Then I got to thinking, women are always
nursing and healing folks.

I think they got a natural talent for
it.

These are my children, Colleen and
Brian.

Hey, were you in the war?

Of course he was.

He got a medal for bravery.

Tom took a mini ball in the leg.

Running back into the line of fire to
save two comrades.

Never met a real war hero before.

I'm just glad to be home.

Why, you're still wearing that old scarf
I knit you. Wouldn't let it go?

What's the matter, son? Your leg's still
bothering you?

Now and again.

Oh, Dr. Mike, would you mind taking a
look at it for him?

I'd be happy to.

Well, there's no swelling.

No sign of further injury. When did you
say this happened?

Four years ago this August.

That's right.

It seems to heal quite nicely.

It shouldn't be giving you any pain.

I'm afraid it still does.

Michaela, he's clearly in pain. Isn't
there anything you can do?

Well, some morphine will relieve the
pain.

Their docs gave me that after they
worked on my leg.

It was pills, though. I never had it
like that.

This is a new, more effective way of
administering it.

Gets into the system more quickly.

I don't know.

It'll just sting for a moment, and then
it'll be over.

I owe my life to Dr. Mike.

She's seen me through some terrible
times.

You can trust her.

Feeling better?

Much better.

Good at doctoring and cooking. You are
quite a lady, Dr. Quinn.

Thank you, but I can't take credit for
the pie.

That was Colleen.

Colleen.

You remind me of some of the young
ladies I met down in New Orleans.

They were talented and pretty.

You been to New Orleans?

What's it like?

I'd love to see it someday.

They got some beautiful old houses with
the iron balconies.

And they talk different.

Kind of musical.

Old town's full of music.

You should see the place.

A girl like you should see the whole
world.

I want to.

So you've been traveling since the war
ended?

Yep. Thought I'd see me some of the
country.

And I was in the hospital for quite a
while.

Which battle was it that hurt your leg?

Atlanta. Uncle Bill.

Who's Uncle Bill?

General Sherman.

That's right.

Rebs didn't want to give up the town
even after we set it afire.

We thought we had them cleared out of
one quarter, but they was lying low. And

when we come in, they let us have it. An
ambush?

Mini balls from three sides.

Uncle Bill himself gave the order to
pull back, but two of my friends was

and I couldn't just leave them there,
so... That's when he caught the mini

in his leg.

Lucky you still have it.

Lucky to have them doctors.

They're the ones that should have got
medals.

Standing at the operating table for days
on end, saving my leg when it might

have been easier just to cut it off.

God bless him.

Tom. You don't happen to remember the
name of any of your doctors, do you?

No, ma 'am.

I was pretty well out of my head. But I
remember what they did for me.

I always will.

Well, it's getting late.

We'd best be off.

I want to hear more stories. Oh,
there'll be plenty of time for that.

Don't want to tire him out on his first
night at home.

Tom.

Got something.

Dr.

Mike's medicine got me feeling so good,
I didn't even need it.

Thank you, Sally.

Good night, everybody.

Thank you, Michaela. It's our pleasure.
Good night.

Good night.

Good night, folks. Good night.

It's wonderful to see Dorothy so happy.

What a nice young man.

I liked him.

Really? We couldn't tell.

Last night you said you were feeling
better. I was. I started acting up again

after we left.

Death just ain't used to this cold.

But sometimes old injuries are sensitive
to the weather.

Couldn't I have another one of them
injections instead?

Sure worked good on me yesterday.

Unfortunately, that's all that's left of
my morphine.

Don't need much.

Well, I ordered some more.

I need to set this aside in case of
emergency.

But that watery stuff just don't work as
well.

Sorry?

I'm sorry.

I appreciate everything you've done for
me.

Ink all over you.

Here, I mended this for you. Oh, thanks,
Ma.

You know, when I was lying in that field
hospital, I just kept on hanging on to

this and seeing your face.

Smiling.

War hero returns home.

How's that for a headline?

How's this for one?

Barbara gives war hero free haircut.

Oh, Jake, that's real nice of you.

Oh, no, thanks. Not today.

Well, I'm right next door if you're
changing mine.

I know what you're up to.

Trying to impress Dorothy.

Veterans are always welcome in my
establishment.

Well, you better get back over there,
then. Make sure you don't miss one of

them.

Tom. Where are you going with that?

With what, Uncle Lorne?

Lauren.

Buy this bottle right here.

How about that?

I was going to pay for that, Uncle
Lorne. I was just going upstairs to get

money. Tom, I'll be right up.

Lauren, his leg is still hurting.

I'll pay for the... That's not the
point.

The boy was trying to steal it. How can
you say that?

Why, I saw him.

Lauren, you know what a rough time he's
had trying to get home. Odd jobs here

and there.

Why, he could have asked me for it. He's
proud, Lauren.

Takes after his uncle that way.

That's no excuse for stealing.

Can't you show a little compassion?

He's been through a war, for God's sake.
He's still in pain.

All right, here, take it.

Thank you.

Come in.

Tommy.

I'm sorry, Ma.

Truly, I am. It's just... The pain got
so bad, I wasn't thinking right.

Didn't you go and see Dr. Mike today?

She wouldn't give me any of that
morphine.

Just some other medicine. It didn't help
much.

I hate to see you suffer this.

Next time, just ask.

Show me.

Let me go.

It's all right. It's all right. It's
over. I've got you now.

Brian. Matthew.

I got his gun.

Is he?

No. He's bleeding a lot.

I have to help him.

We'll need something for a tourniquet.

We're trying to get Dr. Mike's bag, and
he was hurting Colleen. What? She shot

him? No.

Dr. Mike did. Get him into the clinic,
quickly.

Grace, take Colleen and Brian upstairs.

I'm going to stay with you. No, Colleen,
not this time. Come on, come on now. I

love you. I love you, too.

Everything's going to be all right. Come
on.

Matthew. Don't worry, I'll get him.

He must have come here first looking for
it. Looking for what?

I should have realized the way he came
back asking for water.

I'm sorry.

I don't know how I could have done such
a thing.

Shh, don't talk now.

The leg's going to have to come off.

No!

Michaela, please.

I think I can save it.

We'll just do our best.

First we'll have to tie off the autos.

Then I'll try and set the bone.

Lorne, why don't you and Dorothy wait
outside?

We're going to stay here.

Oh, listen to Dr.

Mike. She's going to do her best.

Come on now.

Jake.

He's all right.

You can see him now.

He's fated.

Thanks for shooting there, Michaela.

Proud of you.

There's nothing to be proud of, Hank.

Nothing at all.

Matthew, will you check on the children?

I'll be back in a moment.

Sure.

I'm ready.

Matthew told me what happened.

So late and shot a man.

I didn't have any choice.

I keep going over it in my mind.

Maybe there was another way.

You did what you had to do to protect
your children. But I took an oath to

preserve life.

I want to think of how close I came to
taking one. You didn't.

You saved him.

Colleen?

Colleen, would you like some more cocoa?

Colleen?

You all right?

How's everyone doing?

Ma!

Now, if you need anything... Thank you,
Grace.

Are you all right?

Everyone gets acting like that.

Because he went through something bad
last night.

What happened to him?

I stitched up his leg. I think he'll
recover.

But he won't be moving around for a
while.

Sure you're okay, Cullen?

I'm fine.

We're all fine. Nobody got hurt.

Nothing to worry about.

Matthew, why don't you take them home to
bed?

What about school?

Aren't you tired?

No, neither am I.

But you're up half the night.

I don't feel like sleeping now.

Well, if you're up to it.

And he had clean just like this.

And then when me and Matthew opened the
door, he shot right at us.

Then I shot him. Bang!

What are you doing?

I have to get all the blood out.

Karina, you can stop now.

I'll take care of it.

I'll take care of it.

I told you I'm fine.

I thought you were at school.

I... I got a stomachache, so I went
home.

Why didn't you come here?

I didn't want to bother you.

You're never a bother.

I'll give you some bicarbonate.

Settle your stomach.

Dorothy,

wait.

I didn't know it was Tom.

It was dark. He had a gun.

He shot at Matthew.

I feel like this is all a bad dream.

Like I'm going to wake up and it'll all
be over.

Dorothy, more than anything, I wish this
had never happened. I just don't

understand why Tom would do such a
thing.

I believe he was looking for morphine.

What do you mean?

He knew I had the last vial in my bag.
He came here looking for some and must

have been in such pain to be so
desperate.

That's the point, Dorothy. I don't think
he had any pain.

What are you saying?

Tom didn't have a cane when he came to
the homestead.

I don't understand.

I didn't either.

So I searched my journals and I found an
article.

It says that morphine doesn't just
relieve pain.

It makes people feel happy, blissful.

Like nothing can trouble them.

Kind of like how people feel when
they're drinking?

Oh, so.

Apparently morphine makes you feel so
good you just want more and more of it.

They say too much can even be fatal.

The article said it's a disease called
morphinism.

You're saying that medicine is a
disease?

How can that be?

I'm not sure I understand it myself.
It's a new theory, but it seems to make

sense.

The article says that if a doctor gives
too much morphine to a patient, he

starts to feel that he has to have it
and he'll do anything to get it.

Perhaps that's what happened to Tom. Tom
would never do such a thing just to

feel good.

Then how do you explain his action? He
was in pain. His leg was killing him.

leg was healed.

Then you're saying he's a liar.

And I won't have you calling my son a
liar.

And what about my son?

He could have been killed.

Make it all the way through the war with
that leg

Can't you hurry some paint?

Matthew?

Hey, Sully.

You all right?

Yeah.

I was just wondering if I could have
gotten over there sooner.

I'm thinking the same thing.

I should have stayed closer, but there's
no looking back.

Do the best you can at the time, and
that's all you can do.

I gotta get to work.

Thanks for taking the kids to school for
me.

Let's do it.

Hold her right there, stranger.

Ben!

Stella, you're supposed to pretend you
were shot.

Come here, Brian.

I was just playing.

I know you were.

What you gotta understand is what
happened here the other night was not a

Guns aren't toys.

They can hurt people. Like Tom.

He wasn't playing.

And now?

Now. Tom lost his leg.

He's gonna have to live with that the
rest of his life.

Dr. Mike.

She's gonna have to live with what she
did the rest of hers.

I'm sorry, Sully.

All right.

Take your things, get in the wagon.

Where's your sister?

I don't know.

Talene!

Ready to go to school?

I'm not going.

You don't have to be afraid. I'm going
to go with you.

It's not that.

I'll make sure you're safe.

And I'll come for you after school, too.

I'm just too tired.

I'll go tomorrow.

I don't know. Dr. Mike said I should
take... Dr. Mike wouldn't make me go.

She'd want me to stay here and rest.

You all right by yourself?

Tom, it's looking fine.

You're a fast healer. You hear that,
son? You're gonna be better in no time.

Better?

With one leg?

At least you are alive.

Plenty of young fellas get along just
fine with one leg.

You're in pain. That's the trouble. He
needs that medicine.

If it's not time, I can wait.

If you're hurting, you should have it.
Shouldn't he, Michaela?

If it's hurting.

You're going to be all right now.

The army doctors got him started on
morphine.

Apparently, it became a habit even after
the pain had gone.

Heard about guys like him.

They go from town to town getting their
pills.

They beg, borrow, steal to pay for them.

I believed him when he said he had pain,
and I must have given him a stronger

dose than he'd ever had before.

You didn't know?

What do I do now?

He is hurting.

If I give him morphine, I'm afraid he'll
crave it even more.

I don't know.

I've always depended on morphine to help
people.

Maybe I've been wrong using it all this
time. Maybe I've been hurting people

without even realizing it.

Don't go doubting yourself now. You are
a good doctor.

Then how could this happen?

Maybe you want to talk to Cloud Dancing
about it.

Wait.

Something else.

The fact is, that's what I came here to
see you about.

What is it?

It's Kathleen.

She's real upset.

She said she's fine. But she's not.

Well, I think I'd noticed that something
was wrong.

That's just it.

You've been too caught up with what's
going on with Tom to have a chance to

notice.

And you forget, there were other people
in that cabin that night.

I haven't forgotten.

I relive it every waking moment.

He makes him do things that he'd never
do if he was well.

I feel like... I feel like I can't trust
anybody now.

I'm afraid all the time and everything
makes me jump.

I keep... I keep looking around,
expecting him to be there.

I know.

Please leave me alone.

Leave me alone, please.

I want... I want to always make sure
that someone's with you.

And in time, Colleen, in time you'll
learn again not

to be afraid.

There are many things that we cannot
know until the spirits believe we are

ready. Well, I do know that morphine
helps people. I've seen it take away

pain.

But it seems to have hurt Tom terribly,
far more than it's helped him. I see.

He's healing well, and the pain's
lessening every day, but...

That's not the point. How can I ever be
sure of my medicines again?

The bark of the willow takes away pain
and fever. I've seen this, and so have

you. Well, what's that got to do?

We didn't always know this.

Some of the things we tried been hard.

Some did good.

Your morphine is the cream.

You learned as you went along.

This is what you have done.

Where have you been?

I've been out looking for answers.

Why, you leave him here in pain?

Can't you hear him? He needs that
morphine. He needs it now.

I decided not to give Tom any more
morphine, Dorothy.

What?

I'm going to wean him off of it using a
pain remedy that cloud dancing gave me.

Indian medicine? He needs your medicine.
Don't you understand?

He'll only need it more and more until
it kills him. Why are you hurting me

this? I thought we were friends. We are.

hurting you, Dorothy. Tom is. You're the
one who shot him. You're the one who

took his leg.

You're the one who causes him his pain.

No.

No, Dorothy.

She's bringing you something.

Is that the bark tea?

Why won't you give me the morphine?

This will help the pain.

I don't want that.

Please, just drink it.

I can't take much more of this.

It's going to be all right.

Dr. Mike knows what she's doing.

What she's doing is hurting my son.

Oh, Dorothy.

Let me see him now.

I'll be all right, Ma. Of course you
will.

As soon as I get my medicine.

Now you get it for me, won't you, Ma?

Dr. Mike says it's not good for you. She
says the other medicine's better. Well,

she's a damn liar.

Please, Ma.

You're the only one who knows me.

The only one who can help me.

And try a little harder.

I've done everything I can.

You haven't done nothing!

You never did!

Pa was right. You're worthless.

I told you not to call me that! Now, if
you're not going to help me, get the

hell out of here!

You hear me? Get out!

You coming to school today?

Lewis is bringing his frog.

No, no, no.

Ryan.

Come on.

Colleen, it's been a week.

He's going home to Dorothy.

I'm so scared.

I know, I'm frightened about things too,
but... But just because you can't trust

one person doesn't mean you can't trust
anyone.

But what if something else happens?

We can't worry about what might happen.

Or we'd never set foot outside this
door.

I'd never pick up my medical bag again
and... And we'd miss so many things,

wonderful things, like...

Like seeing Louis's frog?

Dorothy, Tom has something he wants to
tell you.

Ma, I'm sorry.

You're looking well, son.

That fella, the one that said and did
those things, that wasn't me.

I know that, Tommy. Tom.

I know that better than anybody.

That fella's gone now.

Thanks to Dr. Mike.

If you don't got any plans, well, I
could use some help over at the store.

Oh, Lorne. Just for a while. You know,
till you get yourself situated.

Thanks, Uncle Lorne.

I'll work real hard for you.

Thank you for giving me my son back.

You have to understand, Dorothy, that
from what I've read, Tom may have a long

road ahead of him.

That's all right.

I'm going to be right beside him every
step of the way.

Thank you, ma 'am. Come again.

Thank you.

Can I help you with that? Oh, no, I've
got it. But, uh, thank you for asking.

I am so proud of you.

All I did was help a customer.

You are doing a fine job.

Isn't he, Lorne? Huh?

Oh, yes.

Colleen, you have to see him sometimes.

The disease he had that made him do
those things... I believe he's recovered

from it.

I'll be right there with you.

Tom.

Lauren, it's all right.

Hey, Colleen.

Please, I just... I just want to say how
sorry I am.

I know it's going to be hard, but
maybe... Maybe someday you'll

find it in your heart to forgive me.

Good morning, Lauren.

Good morning.

Dorothy? Hmm?

You been in the cash box?

No.

Then we've been robbed.

What? Robbed.

Where's Tom?

He's gone. Gone?

He took all our money and left.

I'm so sorry.

He was the sweetest of my kids.

The most gentle.

When Marcus got mean, Tommy'd wipe my
tears away and he'd say, Don't worry,

Mama. I love you.

When I grow up, I'm not going to let
anybody hurt you.

I called him my brave little soldier.

Just hold on to those memories, Dorothy.

No one can take those from you.

I failed him.

No, you didn't. I failed him. You
protected him from Marcus.

You raised a brave son, but you couldn't
protect him from everything.

From life.

None of it can.

I missed you, Michaela.

I missed you too, Dorothy.

Maybe he'll come back someday.

Boy, you knew.

Maybe.