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Big day.

For those of you new
To the group,

Every year I ask members
To fill out

Evaluations to share ways
That I might improve

As a group leader.

I am a custodian
Of your emotional well-being,

You put your life
In my hands.

Your feedback could not be
More critical.

Which section do we use
To complain about the snacks?

Oh, I'm not in charge of that.
You guys bring the snacks.

Yeah, but you let us
Bring the snacks.

Thank god we're finally
Talking about snacks.

The next time you bring
Those bone-dry pretzels,

You bring some juice!

Benjamin.

If you weren't here.

Sorry.

Okay, you will evaluate
My performance

On a scale from one to five,
And there's an essay.

In order to insure anonymity,
I would appreciate it

If you would all please type
Your answers.

Can I use
Cut-up magazine letters?

I do it as fast
As typing.

- no.
- would it be fun

If we wrote it
From the perspective of a cat?

- no.
- even if it's typed,

When you read fausta's,
Language-wise,

It'll be fairly obvious
Who it's from.

This from the guy
Who just ended a sentence

With a preposition.
- okay, fine.

Everybody type them
And use spanglish, okay?

I don't have a computer,
So I'll just do mine now.

Five, five, five, five.

Five, five, five.

Lauren, you are a woman.

I'm a man.

Though I've never seen
Your face,

I like your style.

You have what you think
Is a man.

If that changes,
I'm waiting.

Oh.

We have a few candidates
To fill in for carrie

While she's away.

Varying levels of experience.

There is
One outside-the-box idea.

And the outside-the-box one
Is...?

- terrell owens, yes.
- yeah.

I know what you're thinking.

Why would a future hall of fame
Wide receiver

Want to work at kbal?

I want to get
Into the broadcasting business,

And I want to learn
From the best.

But bob costas said no.

So here I am.

Well, I'm sorry.
There's no room

In this company
For this guy,

Because you, sir,
Have got the job.

Oh, you did it just like
On american idol!

- yeah.
- yeah. Yeah!

Act like you've been there
Before, terrell.

Oh.
Ryan king's office.

May I place you
On a brief hold?

It's simone.
Are you here?

Oh, yeah.
Hey.

Oh, yeah, great.

I'll see you soon.

Okay, simone's coming here.

She's never been here before,
So I need you

To get everything out of here
That makes me

Seem dumb or shallow.

- so everything?
- yeah.

And bring in some smart stuff,
Like a book

Or the bust of that crazy guy
That sits at the end

Of schroeder's little piano
There.

Wow, somebody is desperate
To impress a girl.

Hey, this is not
Just some girl.

She is incredibly special

And incredibly smart.

I want her to see
The best version of me.

Hot girl gonna see me
Where I'm awesome.

♪ gonna see him
Where he's awesome ♪

Hey, carrie was always too
Self-conscious to use falsetto.

This is gonna work.

♪ this is gonna work ♪

♪ work it out ♪

And there's the booth
Where I do my show.

It's 20% bigger
Than anyone else's.

Does that mean
I'm 20% more talented?

I'll let other people
Answer that with a yes.

Hey, jerry.
I learned his name.

Not everybody does that,
But what does it cost me?

And it made his day.

Oh, simone,

This is my assistant carrie

And her temporary replacement
Terrell owens.

Oh, I get a similar energy
From you two.

Yes, we are often mistaken
For each other.

Sarcasm--it's funny,
But at what cost?

Ryan, I've got news.
I just got a call

From the big cheese.

Ah, the boss.
He's a fan.

He is loving the show,

And he thanks you in advance
For being a team player

And reading the live ads.

Reading live ads?

I'm an artist.
I'm not a corporate shill.

Cheese knows
You're an artist.

That said, it is pretty standard
In the industry,

And he'd consider it
A personal favor.

Yes, I would consider
Promoting a product

If it was
In the ryan king brand--

Mercedes,
Global literacy.

The l.A. Philharmonic.

That sounds
Much more like me.

Oh.
Ah.

Yeah, you have a
Responsibility to your audience.

People are looking for meaning.

Right. Well,
We have been doing some research

On our audience and what exactly
They are looking for.

See, the average ryan king show
Listener

Is 47 years old,
He lives at home

With his parents,
He is bald,

His idea of a joke

Is to repeat something he heard
Once in a commercial,

He drinks too much,

And he has
Sexual reliability issues.

The big cheese
Wants me to read ads for...

It's a boner cream, ryan.

With apologies to milady.

Devil's advocate.

I think that,
With herbal supplements,

Exercise,
And time spent in nature,

This can become this.

She's--she's drawing
On my guy.

Well, maybe she's right.

I don't want to read ads about
Some male enhancement junk.

That's not what I'm about.

It's your job.

Your job is your life.

You have to do this.

- maybe there's more to him.
- yeah.

Maybe I'm not
Just some trained monkey

Who spins insights
About sports,

And maybe I will leave

Until this show
Becomes something

That I am morally and ethically
Comfortable doing.

I'm just putting
My books away here.

Where's my violin?
- okay, buddy, I get it.

It's a nice, pretty lady.
You want to impress her.

But it's getting
A little yoko ono.

Oh, the conceptual artist.
I love her.

You're making a big mistake.

And you're misunderstanding what
I mean by yoko ono on purpose.

Everybody, I'm leaving.

- don't do this.
- I am doing it.

I have standards.

I love this place,
But it does not own me.

♪ it doesn't own him ♪

♪ so he's walking ♪

When he caves
And I come back,

You and I
Are gonna have fun, man.

- anne, was it you?
- hmm?

- you can tell me.
- was what me?

The evaluation.
I got all fives,

But somebody gave me a two
For listening,

And they referenced it
In the anonymous essay section.

"Is loving, is smart,

But is sometimes not hear
My problem."

Sweetie, I gave you all fives,
And I wrote,

"Is always very helps."

Thank you.
Now who did it?

I need to know.
- not me.

I wrote that you were a...
Both: "Healer, sister,

Mother, friend, role model,
Hero, virgin unicorn."

Oh, classic lauren.
Straight "A"S,

And the only thing I can think
About is the "B."

You got straight "A"S,
And you're doing this?

Good thing
"Lives up to potential"

Wasn't on the evaluation.

And ryan told steven no.

I'm so proud of him.

He wouldn't compromise.

He didn't believe
In the product.

You know, I tried that cream
Last week.

I can't say if it works or not,
But it burns.

Whazzup?

George, I'm offering you
A high five.

Oh, I know.

Well, I am really hearing
A lot today.

Ryan refuses to compromise,

And danny rubs a poisonous cream
On his man region.

Thank you, ears,
For helping me listen.

They're gonna cave.

The big cheese
Will not let this stand.

And in the meantime ryan's
Gonna take this opportunity

To improve himself.

We're going on a week-long
Meditation retreat.

Oh, great.

Group vegetarian b.O.
Pass.

The old ryan
Would have agreed with you.

He would have seen this trip
As some kind

Of hippie fart fest,

But simone is broadening
My horizons.

There have been people
In my life who have lifted me up

To new heights, like
My junior high hockey coach.

He thought I should be
On the first line.

And he ended up
All-conference, simone.

He brings this up a lot
Because apparently

This is a support group
For people

Who played hockey
Pretty well.

Yeah, ryan's coach.

Coach spence.

I remember that
'cause I listen.

Do you doubt that, sonia?

Danny?

Fausta?
- what?

Ryan has a lot of depth
That's waiting to be accessed.

Wait, you think
Ryan is deep?

Are you so pretty that
I didn't realize you're dumb?

Ryan, may I join you
On your quest

To deepen
And better yourself?

Oh, mr. K, you want to be
A better person?

Perhaps you've been
A little overly critical

Of someone lately?

Maybe someone who no make
Good listen?

- mm?
- oh.

Yolanda, you know that thing
We were talking about earlier?

I may need your help
Figuring that out.

Would you meet me
For coffee?

That would be lovely.
I'll pick the place.

- okay, great.
- excuse me a moment.

Yes! It's finally happening.
Be cool, yolanda.

Don't let her know
How much this means to you.

Don't screw this up like you
Screw up everything else.

- hey.
- hey.

My meditation gown,

This is--
I mean, it's freeing,

But it's gonna take
Some getting used to.

You know you're supposed

To be wearing underwear,
Right?

Well, that
Could have been clearer.

Welcome.

Hey, how you doing?

The purpose
Of vipassana meditation

Is to purify our...
Minds.

He's talking really slowly
And pausing in weird places.

That's fun.
- ryan.

Right, right.

Once we quiet our minds

And heighten our...
Awareness,

We will achieve

Insight...

And peace.

And you will find
This experience to be...

Fun?
Easy? Hard?

- rewarding.
- rewarding.

Has anyone here

Had a transformative
Meditative experience before?

Oh.

You in the...

Weird glasses,
Green scarf,

Middle of a divorce?

Center of the room.

I heard music.
It was like wind chimes.

I saw a white void,
And in that emptiness,

I understood for the first time
What truly matters--

Peace, beauty, and love.

Beautiful.

Let's all get comfortable.

Oh, sorry I'm late.
Can you start over?

Oh, no, don't start over.

We're just about to meditate

And find truth
And the meaning of life.

Don't start over.

Let's all just
Close our eyes,

Block out all sound,

And quiet our minds.

Oh, my god, my mind's so loud.
I can't do this.

Ryan, it's all right.

The path to enlightenment
Can take years.

Decades.

Got it.
So much beauty.

All the answers.

I no longer fear death.

After mine,
I no longer fear death.

Epiphany buddies.

Ryan, I see everything,
And it's beautiful.

Yeah, I get it.
You transcended.

No, your pants,
They're see-through.

Wow, yolanda, when we talked
About getting together,

I thought it'd be more
Of a starbucks kind of a thing.

Mm, this felt more us.

Mm-hmm.
I'm sorry.

I just don't get a lot
Of alone time with you,

And I wanted to make
The most of it.

So, if I cross a line,
Let me know.

Okay.

I just really wanted to know
Who in the group

Is unhappy
With my performance.

Lauren, slow down,

Have a drink.

Then we'll go up
To our suite

And enjoy our couples' massage.
- line crossed.

- really?
- yeah.

- already?
- mm-hmm.

I gotta cancel
Some stuff.

Is there anybody
In the group

Who seems
Particularly disgruntled?

It might be helpful
To check the tapes.

- tapes?
- yeah.

I record every session
On my phone.

No, yolanda,
That's horrible.

It's not okay to record

Other people's conversations
Without their consent.

With all due respect,
That's kind of liberal crap.

Yolanda.

Oh, god,
I'm ruining everything.

You never talk politics
On a date.

I mean on a coffee
To help you?

Okay, I get it.
I'll destroy the tapes.

Yes.
After we listen to all of them.

Oh, my god.

Ryan.
I think he's transcending.

- ryan.
- he's finally seeing the truth.

I can almost hear
His wind chimes.

Wow.

Coach spence?

What are you doing here
In my great white void?

Give me a knee, king.

So you're quitting
The sports talk radio show

For something deeper?
- that's right.

Are you some kind
Of a [bleep] Idiot?

You have no talent,

So they pay you
All this money

To talk
About those who do.

And then you meet some chick,
And you go prancing around

Dressed like the guy
Who fought darth baber.

Actually, it's--okay.

You want depth?
Hold on.

Depth? Bad news.

You don't have any.

You better get back to work

Before you lose
Everything you got.

Okay.
How do I get out of here?

Are you serious?

I hate this thing.

Come on, kids.

Let's shame him up the rope.

Ow.
It hurts my hands.

- ryan, just pull on the rope.
- ryan!

- use your teeth for god's sake.
- ryan, you suck!

Come on.
Let's go.

It was beautiful,
Peaceful.

Excuse me.

Don't transcend.

Transcending is bad.
It's bad.

I feel
As if we should make love.

- no.
- okay.

I've gone through
My collection of group photos

And found photographs
Of all the suspects

At their most disgruntled.

Why does fausta look so sexy
In her photo?

It's the only way
You can photograph her.

If the camera comes out,
She gets sexy.

Wow.

So I've gone
Through the audio tapes

And identified people
Who might be upset with you.

Here's the sonia file.

I'm bored.
This is stupid.

You look great today,
Yolanda.

Oh.
How'd that get in there?

I also flagged this
From mr. K.

- all right.
- where in this town

Can you get good eggplant pizza?
- hmm.

I know that sounds okay,

But listen to it
Played backwards.

Help me.
My mind is a prison.

- ooh.
- we have any good clues?

- you invited george?
- I thought he could be helpful.

He was a detective.

What? He never talked
About that in group.

- back on the force...
- oh.

Well, when I was
A detective...

- mm.
- there I was,

A million dollars' worth
Of cocaine and no witnesses...

Hmm?

I'm sorry.

I keep bringing up
How I was a detective.

Okay, he was a detective.
I missed it.

Here's what I know
About this group,

Based on years
Of profiling experience.

Simone doesn't have the guts
To give a two.

Fausta didn't do this,
But she's done something.

And ryan has a level
Of narcissism

That, if left unchecked,

Could lead to fascism
And loss of liberty.

I think maybe
We should just listen

To some more of the tapes.

This is stupid, lauren.

Is this supposed to help?

We're not getting anywhere.
Why do we come here?

Why are you disagreeing,
Lauren?

I think it.
George thinks it.

And he's a detective.

Oh, my god.
Please stop it.

Stop, stop, stop.

It could be anybody.

Everybody hates me.

You know what might help?

Wine and cheese
On a hot air balloon

Already paid for--
Mm.

While we're here,
I still haven't given up

On the zodiac killings.

Where was danny
During the '70s?

Uh--

Hey, I'm ready
To come back to work,

But I took a stand
In front of simone,

So I can't do the ad
For the cream.

Why are you dressed
Like my pillow?

Get the big cheese
On the phone.

You don't want
To talk to the big cheese.

Well, if you're not gonna call
The big cheese,

Then I'm gonna call
The big cheese.

Big cheese here.

Uh, why are you answering
The big cheese's phone?

What have you done
To the big cheese?

- ryan, there is no big cheese.
- what? That's impossible.

Ryan, why would a man
Call himself the big cheese?

Because he's comfortable
With who he is.

And he calls me when I need
Support with that deep...

You-ish-sounding voice.

The big cheese
Is my invention.

He lets you
Feel important,

And he allows me
To give you bad news

Without it affecting
Our friendship.

Well, who is
In charge here then?

Mr. James leopold.

He does not know your name.

We lose money.

There are two reasons mr.
Leopold does not shut us down.

He comes to los angeles
On business occasionally,

And he likes to have a place
In culver city to take dumps.

Blagh.

His son jerry works here
As an engineer.

Oh, good, good.

Okay, 'cause I think
That's the one I'm nice to.

You gotta make a decision.

Do you want the job,
Or do you want the girl?

I'm having a major crisis
At work.

This patient died,
And I'm being blamed.

No one cares.
I need some help.

So I went, I got myself
Into a transcendent state,

Turns out the only thing
I have inside me

Is a very angry
Hockey coach.

Meanwhile,
Steven still wants me to do

The stupid ads
For the cream.

Here's the plan--

I'll do the ads,

Simone doesn't listen
To the show,

So please, just don't say
Anything, okay,

All my avid fans.

Danny.
- I don't always listen

To sports radio,
But when I do...

Ugh, please, I hate myself
Enough already.

I gotta go.

She thinks I'm on one
Of those enlightenment walks.

Don't do it, king.
I've been down this road.

When I first
Started seeing patty,

I led her to believe
That I was into...

The women's
Alternative rock scene.

Oh, blugh.

Come on,
It was important to her.

I wanted her to like me.

Sarah mclachlan
Has a couple of great songs.

Building a mystery
Is not bad.

Next thing you know,
I end up spending the weekend

At lilith fair.

I'm talking front row,

Me on patty's shoulders.

Totally out of control.

You don't believe me,
Google, "Lilith fair,

Stoned, muddy, flasher."

All: got it.

That's right.
Enjoy.

Wow.
That's a lot of white ladies.

Yeah. So, when I finally
Told her the truth,

I almost derailed
The whole relationship

Because I had lied.

So if you're just messing
Around with simone, fine.

But if you think this could end
Up being something real,

Do not go down this road.

Yeah, but she's special,

And she thinks
I'm special,

And I want her
To like me.

Well, then be you

And see if she does.

Wow, anne,
You're deep.

- and crazy hot.
- ew.

Group's started, honey.

Looked over the evidence.
It was sonia.

She gave you the two.

How'd you figure it out?

I was holding the bad
Evaluation when I sneezed.

I'm allergic
To cat dander.

So I knew
Who had written it.

Here's
Where it gets interesting.

I confronted sonia,
And she said she'd written it,

But on behalf of someone else
Who'd never write it herself.

Under questioning,
Yolanda admitted she was upset

About your inability
To contain a certain someone

Who has taken up
All of the oxygen

Since he joined the group.

This patient died,
And I'm being blamed.

No one cares.
I need some help.

So there's your answer.
Now you can move on.

It doesn't even matter, now
That I know what they all think.

Why did I dig?
I saw stuff I wish I hadn't.

You know,
Back on the force...

Ooh, you talk about it
All the time.

How did I not notice?

I saw a lot of stuff
I wish I hadn't seen.

But when you
Lose your sight,

You realize what a gift
It is to be able

To see anything
Because it's truth,

And truth is good.

Yeah, you're right.

I'm gonna use it,
And I'm gonna be better.

The woman I gave
All those fives to sure would.

Thanks, george.

Hey.
What are you guys doing here?

Not talking about you
For once.

- yeah.
- okay.

Excuse me, sir,
Can I have your pillow?

Just take an open...

Hey.
How you doing?

Ryan, where have you been?

I've been here
The whole time.

I managed to achieve
Complete invisibility.

Oh, my god.
Just like brother marcus.

Isn't that crazy?

I left.

I went back to work.

I'm gonna do the ads.

I want to be open
To new things,

But I hate them.

They're weird.
These clothes are weird.

These people are weird.

And I have to tell you that now
Before we're in nepal

In two years
Kneeling in front

Of some smelly,
Flip-flop-wearing freak show.

Ryan.

Sorry, brother marcus.

Come here.
Come here.

He didn't mean it.

You think you might be
With me in two years?

Well, it'd be nice,
But you're special,

And I am this.

I'm not that.

I'm not that either.

I may have exaggerated
My spiritual depth.

When I transcended, it was
A middling epiphany at best.

And I spend 60%
Of my energy

Trying to suppress...

The way I actually talk.

Is it a put-on?
Whatever.

Come on.
Who cares?

Oh, my god.
That's awful.

It's better you know now.

Stop it right now.

Oh, god,
Now you got me doing it.

Every great team

Has an identity, like
My sound engineer jerry leopold.

He knows who he is.
The best in the biz.

I love you, jerry.

When you get into trouble
Is when you start to play

Against your strengths.

When you're dennis rodman

And you start hoisting threes.

Know who you are

And be the best version
Of that.

That, my friends,

Is the zen of life.

Oh, and one more thing--

Are you looking for
That extra oomph in the bedroom?

Well, the good people at
Michael's male enhancement cream

Want to cork your bat.