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I've never really been
the kind of person to

open up to anyone...

And it was really hard after
what happened at school.

I developed
feelings for a girl.

And, word got out to the girl
through a friend of mine.

And, the girl said that
I was bullying her.

And, the school
found out,

and I didn't feel like I could
stand up for myself.

So I felt really scared,

and I didn't want to
tell my parents.

Like, I didn't know
how to tell them

without coming out to them,

'cause I wasn't
ready to do that yet.

The school asked me,
"We can either tell your parents

or suspend you," and I
just told the school

straight up to suspend me,

'cause I didn't want my
parents to know yet.

And, they called
my mom anyways,

and told my mom
the whole story

while I was in
the other room.

There are days where I'm,
you know,

big, tough, and strong,

and I come home,
when I'm in my bed,

and I kind of go- I just...

want to go back...

like, seven years or
something and just...

be a kid again.

And I remember saying, like,

I've always wanted to grow up,

but now that I'm growing up...

I want to go back
and be a kid again.

I don't think I
have been in a space

where it's all queer people.

Not yet, at least.

What shoes are
you gonna bring?

You gotta have
something for hiking.

It just says
"outdoor footwear".

Insect repellent.

Five shirts?

Yeah, I would take five,
just to so you have extra.

Setting off,
it's about 7AM.

We're gonna go get some fuel,
we're gonna hit the road.

And we are on our way
to Camp fYrefly 2022.

Yeah, hell yeah.

In southern Alberta, there is a
really strong religious and

socially conservative
community.

So, being queer, it's not
often you get to see

someone who is
like yourself.

- A hawk.
- Oh, yeah.

To have camp,

it's a time to let that
weight off your shoulders.

I am so excited.

Just to be surrounded
by people who

I don't have to
explain myself to.

A camp like this,
it's important because

I get to see people
who are like me,

and I know that
I'm not alone.

Okay...

Mwah!

I'm a trans girl.

And, I've been out
for about a year.

I'm just...

I'm just a
goth chick.

I was,
I think I was 8.

I think that's the
first time I actually

told everybody I
felt like a girl.

And that was
only my family.

My name is Ren.
My pronouns are

he/they, and I am
trans masc non-binary.

Um, I think the
biggest part is

meeting other people
like me 'cause...

I don't get to see
that every day.

It was a bit of a process.

At first I thought
I was a lesbian,

which turned out to
be vastly incorrect.

I was a transphobe,
a homophobe.

I was like a stereotypical
high school bully because

I didn't want to
accept who I was...

because I was scared.

My parents think I'm going
to this camp because

I'm bisexual,
and I am.

But I identify as
a trans man,

or just a man.

But my parents
don't know,

and I haven't told
them or anything.

Hand me that screwdriver.

Mark the drywall where the
little anchor has to go.

Yeah.

It's such a big
conversation to explain...

that it just feels like
it's easier to just

not talk about it.

Hanging some sort of Ikea
shelf that she got somewhere.

My parents misgender me,
but it's not a situation

where I can be mad at
them because...

I haven't given them
anything, so they stick with-

my parents stick
with what they know.

I have no idea what
the shelf is for.

- Whatever she decides-
- Trinkets.

Trinkets.

Like, I'm more, I'm more
close with my mom.

But, my dad's
always been...

he's like a tough dad,
man kind of thing.

Oh, come here, have fun.

I'm just trying not to read
the back of your shirt.

- Yeah...
- Kiddo.

Bye.
Get out of here.

Have fun,
be safe, don't die.

- Yes. Bye... bye.
- Bye.

It's a bigger
conversation than

I want to have
with them...

but, what feels
good for me...

just giving me the space
to be able to, like,

find out who
I am, myself.

Hi, what's your name?

Hi, ah, either
Kingston or-

Kingston... Kingston...

At this camp, I hope
I don't have to

carry around two identities
and two names,

and I'm able to just
feel more like myself.

- Hi, nice to meet you.
- What's your name?

- Uh, Kingston.
- Kingston? Awesome.

Okay, I will be with
you in just a second.

Sure.

Uh, can I please
ask your name?

- Um, Manessa.
- Cool.

- Are you under 18?
- Yeah.

Sure.

I'm like a little bit
nervous to do this.

But, I'm excited
as well.

I'm part of the adoption
community because I'm adopted.

And I'm also part of the
skateboard community.

At least, I hope.

And then, also the
queer community.

And then, the Black
community as well.

Maybe put your other
hand near Stella's head.

Yeah, like that.
There you go.

But I'm one of the only Black
kids in my neighbourhood.

I think there's maybe one
other family that lives

a little bit over there,
but you know,

it can be really
hard sometimes.

I brought jorts,
and I brought...

my athletic black shorts
'cause they're really nice.

I wore them hiking,
and they're nice 'cause

they're not too heavy.

- Yeah, perfect.
- Yeah.

Yeah, it would be nice
if there were more

Black, queer people
like, in Calgary.

It would be nice to
see more of that.

- Here we are.
- Hell, yeah.

Let's do it.

Yeah, me and the boys
have been to camp before,

but last time we were
just scrawny little 13,

14-year-olds.

But now we're like on the
higher end of the

age spectrum at camp.

I guess you could say
we're like the

cool kids on campus now.

This is my first time at camp.

There's a lot of
cool people here.

I don't know.

- Yeah.
- Definitely.

For sure, yeah.

Could either be
a boy or a girl.

I don't really
mind either which.

Well, dating hasn't
been great,

if I'm gonna be honest,
but I think if

I were to ever have a
relationship again, then...

I'd pick a,
pick better people.

Yeah, it's really nice seeing
people from last camp and

meeting all the new people.

Now we're in the
big kid cabin.

Now we have to like
pay taxes and stuff.

I got an email about taxes
just a couple months ago too.

Oh, man.

I'm not even 18 yet,
and they're like,

"Hey, what about taxes?"

Oh, no!

This is Ren.

The first time I
realized that, oh,

people can be queer,
it was just because

I read a book and there
was a queer couple in it.

So, I learned as much
as I could so that

I could always defend
my right to exist.

- Mhm
- Oh, that's gonna be fun.

Yeah, they're Wren is
W-R-E-N.

- Oh!
- Yeah, so...

You can definitely hear the
difference when you say it.

I hope you enjoy.

I'm very extroverted so,

I will read your face if
maybe I'm a bit too much.

Yeah, we can help
you move in.

- Okay.
- Cool, see you later.

Okay.

Ah!

I love your hair.
How do you style it?

Um, I like 70's style it.

I would like to
make some friends...

who are queer, and who can-

I can like talk to things
like gender about to.

But, I kept asking
my mom, like,

"Hey, what should I do?

I don't know how
to talk to people."

And she kept saying,
"Oh, make sure

you make eye contact."
And I hate doing it.

It makes me uncomfortable,

so I don't understand why
it's a necessity.

- I'm Ren.
- Nice to meet ya.

Apparently there is
more than one Ren,

but the other one
is the one with the W.

I'm not the one
with the W.

Okay, cool.

Well,
welcome to camp.

I can tell by just
looking out...

there's a lot of fear.

There's a lot of excitement.

And what I hope is deep in
your hearts is a knowledge

that you're gonna be
well taken care of.

And the whole goal this
week is for us to

help you to
create community.

So, welcome,
and thanks to all of you

for spending time with us.

Marshall, can we have you
come up and speak as well?

Hello, everybody.

Really excited to be
back here at camp.

Camp, for me, has always
been a place where

I felt I could thrive.

I'm really excited to
assist with anything artistic

that you might
need help with,

including lip syncing 101.

Thanks for having me.

Okay, thank you,
Marshall!

Part of
my job here

is to really
bring these kids-

who have to think so much
about the outside world,

and how they're
being perceived-

and get them to just
let go, have fun,

and be themselves.

Our job is to get them
to be kids again.

Okay, let's do some
community camp guidelines.

I feel like the best way to
make rules that

we can all agree on,
and like

vibe with
is to do it together.

So, I think respect
privacy is a big one.

Confidentiality is a big one.

If you ever want to
pass for anything,

you don't want
to do something,

you want to skip
the conversation...

you could either touch your
left shoulder or say "fiddle".

Well, I think what's
unique about these spaces,

especially with Camp fYrefly,

is that we establish those
safer space agreements.

So, we know right off the
bat that this is gonna be

a safer space for everyone

to express their
gender identity.

I don't know what
I identify as.

Was a trans man, but then
I was like, wait, no.

That's not right either.

And, I think that's one of
the big challenges outside of

camp is that they don't
necessarily know

what is going to be a
safe space for them.

They don't necessarily
know if everyone

in the space will be
accepting of their identity,

or if they need to
hide a bit of it.

Um, so that's
what's so special.

Can we say what respect
looks like to us?

Any suggestions?

If my hair is unstyled,
do not look at me.

If you end up seeing
someone from fYrefly,

out in the community,
in your city...

try to be casual 'cause
not everyone's out,

so instead of being
like, "Oh hey,

I know you from gay camp,"

be like, "I think I know you
from somewhere."

There is a potential for
triggering conversations,

so as a pod, I kind of want us
to maybe choose a safe word.

No, that's so unreasonable.

Hm, like, what do
you mean by that?

♪ DON'T TELL ME
WHAT TO DO ♪

So, I'm autistic,

and I have quite a
few special interests.

♪ DON'T TELL ME
WHAT TO DO ♪

I collect stuffed
animals, and also dolls.

If you couldn't
tell by my room.

So, this is my craft room.

I make spikes,
I customize things.

That's my Rapunzel wig.

I like to make stuff.

If you'll look around
you'll see...

doll body parts everywhere.

But that's fine,
that's normal.

Um, I came out as a...

non-binary person,
and then a trans man,

at like 13.

And, at the time,
there were no...

other trans people
at my school...

...which meant I had to take
a lot of the um, bullying.

I told the school counsellors.
They were like,

"Well, maybe
you should just be

less open about
your identity."

And that hit.

So, I had to drop out.

I don't get gender.

I don't understand any of
the social constructs

that come with it.

I don't get why pink is for
girls and blue is for boys.

And all that-
I've never understood it.

And so, being trans masc
and very feminine,

a lot of people
may question that,

but I don't get
how I'm feminine,

I just wear what I love.

I don't feel like...

I should hide anymore.

I feel like gay people just
kind of find each other

and stick together.
It's like a magnet thing.

Just shut up.

No, no, I know,
I know my magnets.

I... I might be
a high school drop out!

But you know your magnets!

I know my magnets.

Community means so
many different things,

like a space where I feel,
like, at home, and like...

just shared experience
is really important.

It's important to have people
who are like you around

because...

then you can
share experiences,

you can share stories,
and they can relate, or...

they can
give you advice.

There is, like, a thing
when I meet someone

who's just like me.

Like, it's just,
we get each other.

We don't have to
specifically talk about...

who we are or what we are.

You know, we kind of just
get along, and we're like,

okay, let's go
have a good time.

I'm Wren.
I use he/they pronouns.

I really like cats.

I have three.

I'm, I'm also Ren,
but without a 'W'.

Um...

My pronouns are also
he/they, somehow.

And...

I, I don't know, man.

- That's perfect.
- I don't know what's happening.

Every month, my friends and
I re-come out to each other.

All of my
friends are gay.

I also want to maybe learn
more about the community

that we have
here in Alberta.

Like, maybe some more
places that I can go to,

to like talk about these
things that aren't my

high school GSA that's
full of 14-year-olds.

I have nothing against them.
They're wonderful, but...

just... more.

Do I get to sit
in the tire stump?

- Oh, boy.
- Oh...

Oh, boy!

I wonder how many spiders
are in that thing.

Isaiah!

Okay, in this bag,

we have pink hair dye
and brushes.

You're gonna be so smooth
after this is done.

The um, oils in the cream
I'm putting on will...

stop the skin
from getting dyed.

This is for
distressed skin types.

- Same?
- Are you distressed?

How do you feel right
now as I'm rubbing my-

This feels like a
social experiment.

Do you feel less distressed?

Rub the cream on the head.

On my head,
not "the" head.

It's my head, excuse me,
it's my head.

Thank you very much.

No, there's just a community
head that we rub things on.

It's lather time.

Attention, campers.

Today's activities are
going to be arts and crafts,

a nature walk,
the clothing swap,

archery, and the
bonfire later tonight.

And also, a reminder,

dying your hair is
not permitted so,

no more hair dying.

Oh, this is archery?

I shouldn't have worn heels,
but also, they look nice.

I, I knew I...

I always knew
I wasn't a guy.

I never enjoyed
being called a guy.

The trans femme
community,

we were
raised as "men".

Looks like sushi
from the back.

We were told all
those like...

stupid things about,
"boys don't cry."

So, I panicked, and
did something bad...

turning to the
bullies at school,

because they
were all guys.

So, I wanted to know how
to be a guy because

I didn't want to
accept who I was.

Um...

- Sure.
- Great.

Middle schoolers have this
incredible ability to tell

even before you can
whether or not

you're gay or
neurodivergent.

- Does that seem okay?
- Yeah.

Woo! Nice job!

Not a bad first shot,
you got this!

Um, and they broke me,

badly, a lot.

Like, and none of it
was physical,

which almost
hurts more.

Jesus.

I, uh, I had
problems with, um...

self-hatred.

I had problems with, um...

I had problems with...

wanting to harm myself.

I actively participated
in things that I knew

would cause me pain.

Like, one of my favourite
games in elementary school

was throw yourself down
the hill and do as much

damage to your
body as possible.

I have noticed
that ever since

I did start
transitioning, um...

my anxiety and like stress
about everything

has significantly dropped.

Like, I was...

in a very bad,
emotional mental state.

And then, I finally
realized who I was.

Now I'm not in that state,
and it's allowed me to relax.

Yeah...

- There.
- Nice!

You call it really bad
at archery.

I call it freestyle acupuncture.

I don't have scissors.

So, I'm just gonna
tie a really large-

You could probably
just chew it off?

- You wanna chew it off?
- I can chew it off.

Why didn't we grab scissors?

I actually want to see
if he can chew it off.

Oh, easy.

Having trans masc friends,
it's very affirming.

Oh, wow,
good job.

It's a very specific
experience that

very few other people
go through.

Ah!

Lovely, smooth moves.

Honestly, it's been
way too long.

We need to hang out
more often.

I missed you guys a lot.

I think we've grown as
individuals quite a bit

since we've last
seen each other.

Well, the most notable
would definitely be

the years of testosterone.

- Oh, God. Yeah.
- Both of us.

Yeah, both of us
hadn't even started.

Even back then,
you looked like a frat boy.

I did, I had like the
sweatpants shorts

and everything.

How do you guys think
you've changed, emotionally?

Like, camp was the first
time that I ever actually

openly expressed
myself as a guy,

and the first time I
actually felt comfortable

in any of that.

I know it really helped me
going forward because I have

no idea what I would have
done without having camp

to even figure anything out.

It would have been even more
of a gong show than it was.

What are you
considering, like...

down the line?

Well, I want to get a...
I want to get my own place.

I want to move.
Maybe even come here,

do some counselling.

Without a way
to connect with

other trans masc people,

life would be just
that bit more...

isolated.

Sorry, that just made me
remember a joke

kind of about camp.

Knock-knock?

When I first told my
friends about this,

they thought I meant
a conversion camp.

Ah, so they were
concerned for a bit.

And then,
I just told them,

it was an anti-
conversion camp.

That works.

Yeah, I mean,
it pretty much is.

- Mhm.
- Sorry, ah...

It's probably not as
funny as I think it is.

Oh, that's so cute.

It's a nice,
communal exchange...

where, if you transition and
you used to wear this dress,

but you don't anymore, then
someone else who will have it.

That's so cool!

This is something you'd wear
with Converse in 2002.

Yeah, maybe.

Um, I think this is a purse.
These are also swim trunks.

That's underwear.

That's what I feel
uncomfortable touching.

- It's just such a cute shirt.
- I mean, it stretches.

I mean, maybe.

- What are you guys doing?
- Stretching it!

- Ooh! Is that...?
- Fishnets.

That's so cool!

I mean, if you get bored you
can just chop the feet off...

- Okay, what else?
- ...and wear it as a shirt.

Absolutely.

There's gowns in here.

There's full-on gowns.
I love gowns.

I want just like a big ole-

One of my friends found
a 3-piece suit in here.

I was thinking of
wearing a dress to grad,

and this could totally be a
good grad dress because, like,

I present more
masculine at school...

'cause, like, I feel like...

there's like kind of a
disparity between like...

Fem- feminine clothing can
be like either feminine

or masculine,
you know.

But like, masculine
clothing is just masculine.

I like some feminine
things, like, or like,

"feminine" things,
like makeup,

or cosplaying as
female characters,

which lots of people
don't understand.

It's like people think that
because you are transgender,

you can't like things
of different genders,

like, you have to stick
in a straight, square box.

I have a thing
for turtlenecks.

It's a really
pretty turtleneck.

Yeah, it's so nice!

And like, the
material's nice too.

And it would look so
good with these jeans.

And the hat,
oh, my God.

It doesn't make sense to want
someone to only like one thing

just because it's
been set that way...

when you can like
whatever you want,

whether it's
masculine or feminine,

whether or not you are
masculine or feminine.

Like, I want to
look like a cowboy.

I want to date a cowboy.

I want to be a cowboy,
all of it.

I want everything
related to cowboys.

- I keep coming back to this.
- It's really pretty.

- It's so pretty.
- Yeah.

Ah, there's binders
just over there.

And honestly, whole
vibe rainbow one.

I think it's too
big for me though.

I have obtained a binder.

- I've also obtained a binder.
- Nice.

I, historically, have never
been comfortable with the

changes that my body went
through during puberty.

I think binding is a really
good resource for people

who experience a lot of
discomfort and dysphoria

in relation to their chest.

I know I love my binder.

I- it gives me...

a real sense of,
like, being myself.

Lots of gender euphoria.

First time I wore it,
I'm pretty sure I cried...

'Cause I was just
so happy with

the way that my body looked.

Didn't you see that
they have rainbow ones?

- I did not.
- They have rainbow ones.

They're a size too large
for me, but like...

I want to get one
for my friend, too.

- They have rainbow whats?
- Binders.

I know it's bad to
put two binders on...

Extra large though.

...but I kind of
want to do it.

And, I know that I have
to be careful with it.

After a while of wearing it,
your ribs do start to hurt.

So, I know it's not-

it's absolutely
not a permanent fix,

and you have to be
really careful with it.

But, the binder
really boosted

my self-confidence a lot.

Like, wow, I like how my body
looks again. That's cool.

I would like,
someday,

to be able to
get top surgery,

but that's not an option
for me at the moment.

I have talked to my
mom about it, and...

That that's a no.

That's a no for them
while I'm living here.

In all fairness, there's no
not-cringe-y way to come out.

It's always cringe-y.

I mean, I feel
like it's less cringe-y

when it's an accident.

- You know?
- Yeah.

It's like, oops.

I identify as a man.

Ah, but my parents don't know.

They think this camp is
just an LGBTQ, like,

safe space, like a
camp for all people

of the LGBTQ community,
which it is.

But they think I'm just
going because I'm bisexual.

I'm gonna come out to my
mom in the way that

gives me less conversation.

I didn't even come
out as bisexual.

I got outed 'cause my
parents searched my phone,

and I was talking about it
with a partner at the time.

And I was like...

And I'm sitting at the
kitchen table, sobbing,

and I'm like-

And they're like, "Did you
think we didn't know?"

And I was like...

Just gender, and just the
whole basis of like

who I am...

I prefer to keep it
like briefer so,

just keeping brief
conversation to let them know

who I am.

I haven't, yet.

It's just because of the
way things are normalized,

and the way society is,

it is a big conversation,
and it feels like

it has to be a big
conversation.

But, um...

It's just like I just want
to be able to be who I am

without having to have

a super long
conversation about it,

or have an awkward
conversation about it because...

it's not a big,
huge topic.

It's just me.

Yeah, she's knows it's like a
big, queer camp.

But like, she thinks I'm just
here 'cause I'm bisexual,

and I was like...
- "And".

"There's something
you don't know." Yes!

"And..." I was like...

She was just like,
"How's your first day been?"

And then, like a
smiley face emoji.

So, I'm just gonna say,
"Good, I came out as trans."

Smiley face emoji.
I was like-

And she's probably
gonna be like, "What?"

Yeah, it's just chilling.

Your mom thinks you're typing
this really long paragraph.

She's like,
"Oh, my gosh!"

Do it, do it, do it!

- Alright...
- Do it, do it!

- You got it.
- Yeah.

Alright...
alright, alright, alright!

Done!

- Wait. Did it go through?
- Let's check.

Yes.

Oh, my God.

Okay, how do you feel?

I don't know.

I don't want her to respond.

Yeah, you're like...

Ugh!

Ugh.

Perfect.

Marshall! Marshall!

The power of
my friends.

I was able to, to
burst this flame.

Yes!

You're welcome.

Welcome to the
Camp fYrefly fire.

What I would love to
start our night with...

is a spooky,
spooky story.

Does anyone have a
spooky, spooky story

they want to share?
- Me!

Yes? Okay,
come on down.

So, after Googling "DIY
top surgery" on Wiki-How...

- No!
- I did, it was a dark time.

I decided, I must
obtain a binder.

I have no perception of
what my body looks like.

So, I just picked a size,

and it immediately
gets stuck, like this.

No!

And so, I'm like, well,
this is really awkward,

but it's fine. I'm just
gonna go get my mom.

So, I step out of
the stall, awkwardly,

and I walk to the door,
and I'm like, "Mom! Help!"

And she doesn't respond
because she's left me there.

Thank you.

I didn't know transitioning
was an option.

There's a trans
support community,

and they helped me
find things out.

They helped me about
all my gender dysphoria.

And, they got me
on hormone therapy.

Medically transitioning
is my personal preference,

but nobody else has to
medically transition

unless they want to.

They don't have to
do it because

they feel like
they have to.

It's all what somebody
is comfortable with.

When trans people
encounter cis people,

cis people will
always ask about,

"Oh, how does it feel to be
in a different body?"

Or surgeries, or whatever,
and it's always

about the trans person
in a bubble,

when I find the vast
majority of my discomfort

as a trans person is
from cis people.

Guys, can we do a little,
maybe like a check in

on how the day went?

People have been really nice
today, so that was good.

- Aw.
- Who wants to go next?

We found my bracelet.

It takes me a while to get
comfortable with a group.

So, I just try to stay, like,
quiet for a bit until I,

'til I get comfortable.

Supper was really good,
I'm gonna be honest.

I've met people who
are adopted, are Black,

are Queer, or Haitian.

But, I've just, I've never
really met that

whole package
together, I guess.

It feels kind of like no one
can understand

some things about you.
I mean, obviously,

there's a lot of stuff that
my friends and I

have in common,
but I feel like there is

a lot of stuff that
they don't get.

And sometimes, like,

they just don't try
to understand.

Okay, guys! Maybe let's
stop the chatting!

Let's turn off our lights,
and let's go to bed.

No!

It would be nice to
meet somebody who can

understand me on
another level.

Okay, guys, go to bed!

No! No!

I'm signing up for
the drag one, I think.

Welcome, I know you folks
have had lots of time to

get to know
each other, but...

I would love to get
to know you folks as well.

I can start-
my name is Marshall.

My pronouns are they/them,

and something that makes me
feel fierce is lip syncing.

You saw that coming,
yeah, yeah.

I just want to get to know
you and how you move,

so I'm gonna play a song,

and you can all find any
space in this area.

Feel free to jam, do whatever
you have to do just to get

all of that fierceness
out of you, okay?

♪ STANDING WHERE
I AM NOW. ♪

♪ STANDING UP
AT ALL. ♪

You have all of these tools.
You can move with your hips,

you can move with
your shoulders.

♪ ...FEELING LIKE I WAS
NEVER GONNA SEE MYSELF. ♪

♪ AT THE FINISH LINE. ♪

Now I'd love for us to focus on
some facial expressions.

♪ HANGING ON
TO PARTS OF ME. ♪

Love it!

I feel like it's very
important to kids growing up,

and anyone in the community,
to see that there is...

a place where people can
come together and

don't have to worry
about being judged.

♪ SEND ALL THOSE
VILLAINS AFTER ME. ♪

I felt that I need
to act up, act tough.

And, act a certain way
so people can like me.

But now, it's just
lots of fun

getting to know new people,

and getting away from home
for a bit, and just...

being able to, again,
let my guard down and

just be myself.

You're beautiful butterflies!

When you're a part of that
community of being queer,

you know,
we're very different...

for something that
we can't control,

but, like, that's just
kind of how it is.

But, I just feel like we
forget there's little things,

that sometimes people
can be hurtful.

I don't know how
to explain it, but

I just find
that kind of hard.

I don't know, a lot of people
seem, like, to be closer,

and I'm kind of just there.

But it'll only get
better, I'm just...

Yeah, been really anxious,
but it'll get better.

I'm really happy
to be here though.

Let's see
your surprised face!

Like, I don't know,
everyone in my group,

they got close really quickly.

Even if I was there,
like, at the start.

And so, that kind of like...

I don't know, terrifies me
'cause I feel like

I'm not gonna get
close to them.

I remember,
in grade 4,

I went to a private school
where we had uniforms.

And, I had to wear a skirt.

- Oh, yeah.
- And I was like...

"I absolutely love this."

My mom just kind of,
like, brought me, like,

the dresses and skirts,
and I just like...

like, at first I
was fine with it,

but then I just
started to, like...

I don't know, it just
didn't sit right.

- It wasn't you.
- Yeah.

In grade 4 is when
I first, like...

questioned my sexuality.

And then...

and then I came out to
my mom, I was a lesbian.

And then I came out
to her as bisexual.

And then, I came
out to her as trans.

And then, I came out to
her as bisexual again.

And then I came out to
everyone as bisexual.

And then, later on,
I came out as a lesbian,

and then I just...
now don't label it as much.

Yeah, that's fair.

Kind of grade 5 is when
I kind of questioned it,

or realized I started
to like this girl.

And I didn't really think
about it much at first.

So, I was like, okay.

And then, I kind of
realized it, and then...

I didn't get to
tell my parents.

They found, they found out
a different way, but...

Oh, really?
Oh, I'm sorry.

It's okay.

But, they're supportive
and everything,

but I kind of just wish I
could have told them, myself.

Yeah, yeah,
that sucks.

Oh, yeah, yeah,
I skateboard.

What about you?

I can, I can skateboard.
I'm not very good at it.

We can
skate sometime, then.

Yeah, that'd be really fun.

You have to teach
me some things.

Alrighty! Oh, I'm seeing
so many beautiful looks!

Ooh, I love this.

I love it.

Now, does anybody
need any help?

Let's see yours.

Wow...

Do you mind if I help you out?

Honestly, I've never done
my makeup.

This is your first
time doing makeup?

Really?

Open your eyes.

Perfect, okay, I'm just,
just gonna go in there with

a different colour and
blend them together.

- Okay.
- Yeah.

Is this your first
time at camp?

Yes.

How did you hear
about Camp fYrefly?

Um...

I heard about it
a few years ago.

Ah, when I turned
transgender.

Yeah.

I was about...

10.

Yeah, so how long
have you been out?

Well, you could
say that I was,

I was acting like a
girl since I was 3.

Right.

But, I officially came out,
I think when I was 8.

So, when I decided
I was a girl,

I was only 8 years old.

And, my mom
suggested that

we waited until the
summer because

she was like,
it would be kind of-

it would be interesting to
finish off the year,

and then transition
to a girl.

Are you okay with lashes?

- I'm okay.
- Yeah? Okay.

Perfect...

That whole summer,
I went as a girl.

We went to this place in
Banff, and nobody knew...

what my actual gender was.

And, it was,
it was really nice.

Let's see?
Oh, my- okay, wait.

No, we need to
do another one.

Let's see.

Perfect!
I'm just gonna dry it up.

It felt very cool.

It was exciting.

I could say that I was Jane,
and no one would even...

say the opposite thing.

And, it was, it was exciting!

It was happy-
I was happy.

And, how do you feel
about lip, lipstick?

Ah, I don't mind.

It was easy to be me.

Are you ready to see
what you look like?

- Yes.
- Are you excited?

- Yes.
- Are you sure?

- Yes!
- Okay, great.

I'm so nervous.

Okay...

Oh, my goodness!

She's beautiful!

I've never seen this before.

You look beautiful.

- What do you think?
- Really nice.

- You like it?
- Mhm.

Good.

Welcome to the
corrals, everybody.

My name is Morgan.

I am one of the
wranglers here.

These are our horses,
or 8 of them.

So, we're gonna
start over here,

with this lovely lady
right here at the fence.

Her name is Zephyr.

And then,
on this side,

in the really pretty pink
halter, is Eddie.

Horses can feel your
centre of energy.

They can feel if you're calm.

They can feel if you're
stressed, scared,

anxious, any of that.

So, we want to make sure
that we're giving off

a nice, calm energy.

I don't like labels.

I don't like being labeled,
but if I had to,

it would be gender fluid.

I've put those labels on me
just because I think

it's what other people
will understand.

Everyone asks,
"What's your gender?

Like, what do
you identify as?"

I'm just Ghoul, I'm...

a little creature.

Alright, I'm gonna
teach you how to

safely approach them now,

and then we'll
get into partners,

and we'll go meet a horse.
Sound good?

Hi, Bandit.

You can come up and
say hi now, if you'd like.

I'm scared of horses.

Oh...

That's about as close
as I can get right now.

They take some adjusting,
that's for sure.

Yeah, they're very big.

And I feel like this
one's judging me.

At school, it was really
easy for me to feel judged

by the people around me.

I didn't look
like anybody else.

I didn't dress
like anybody else.

I didn't act like
anybody else.

So, to get around our horses-
once we've done that-

is we just do
a nice bum hug.

Just like this.

I tend to disengage
when I feel like

people are judging me.

Warm.

It's just easier that way,
instead of...

actually dealing with it.

Feels really soft.

It feels, sort of like

rug that I have at my house.

My whole life,
I've felt like

I was pushed to
pretend I was okay.

And I kept pushing myself

until there was that
breaking point.

And then, at that point,
I had to accept that

I was different,
you know?

I'm gonna keep getting up
and get better and

get back at it,
no matter what.

You are terrifying,
but hey.

Coming to this
realization made me realize

I am a force to be
reckoned with,

and I can do anything.

Also, I'm overheating
because it's hot and

I'm wearing all black.
- It's really hot.

Thank you for the shade.

Thank you, good sir,
thank you.

Sir, madam?
Horses don't have gender.

Sir? Ma'am?

I'm so scared of hitting
you with my crutch.

Look at this glitter glue,
it's like...

It's beautiful.

Manessa, have you done
your happy box yet?

I have not.

So, basically,
your happy box is,

people can put notes in it.

You can put notes in other
people's happy boxes.

You can decorate it.
Put your name on it.

And I said, "Astrid
thinks you're cute."

When I came out,
the family I was living with-

so they have like a whole
bunch of younger children-

I came out as bi.

I was like, "Hey,
there's this girl I like.

I want her to come over."

And they're like, "Okay,
yeah, like we support you.

But, don't kiss her
in front of my kids."

I wish that they would've
been more understanding,

and be like, "Yeah, we can
explain it to our kids."

It felt like so sad
to not be supported.

And then it feels like,
oh, I did something wrong.

My mom is just like lacking
in some of that understanding.

So, I think it's
just like the more-

- She learns.
- She learns!

And she's growing,
and she has grown.

So, it's like those
people who, like,

don't necessarily
understand it...

all, but like, are looking
for more information,

and aren't fully there yet,

but those are like the
best kind of people.

Yeah!

I'm like a month
clean from self-harm.

Like, as soon as something
goes wrong, it was my go-to.

It's getting better.

And, any time I was
struggling with it,

I always covered up 'cause I
didn't want people to know.

But then, as soon as I wore
like a t-shirt or a tank top,

everyone was like,
"What's that on your arm?"

My thing is that I just had
to learn to be kind to myself.

Like, especially when I
was trying to get clean.

It was like, when I failed,
I felt so horrible.

And then the second I was
able to, like, progress,

and get to that
one-month mark,

that two-month mark,
was when I stopped being

mad at myself for doing it.

I was like, this is a
stress response

that is out of my control.

I am trying to make
myself feel better.

I do get comments about it,
about my scars,

'cause I do have healed...

self-harm scars in
multiple places on my body.

But I, I don't hate
my scars,

and I don't dislike them.

I love my scars because
when I look at them,

I see that they're healed.

And they're done, and I can
look at them and remember,

I don't need to
do that anymore.

I love your pants, honestly.

I'd pay you for
pants like that.

Oh, I got shorts from
the clothing swap,

and I'm gonna do
that to them.

Yes, do it,
it's so much fun.

Reminder, on the
first day when

your pods made community
guidelines together,

a gentle reminder around
romantic relationships

being built at camp.

After the camp,
for sure.

Woohoo!

Because of what
happened at my school,

I feel like my trust has gone
down for a lot of people.

Opening up to someone new
who comes in my life

is really difficult for me.

Nice!

But, the more
time that passes,

just having that connection
makes it a lot easier

to open up and to
trust that person.

I'm so
happy right now.

If you guys could have
an ideal dream planet,

what would it be?

- Gay.
- Dream planet?

- It would be gay.
- Gay?

It would be full
of the queers,

and we would have
the best time.

Oh, I just remember,
like I was so...

Even though this
is a queer camp,

I was so scared to come here.

Just because I was like,
what if they don't accept me?

What if I'm not,
like, trans enough?

And then, to get here,
like, day one,

and have you ripping off my
bind in the washroom

'cause I was wearing
the wrong size-

just judgemental for
all the good reasons.

That sounds violent-
I helped you, aggressively.

It was very stuck.
I was wearing like three.

Oh, my gosh!

You were wearing two,
and I was very angry.

I didn't know you could
wear more than one binder.

- You don't.
- You don't!

- It'ss very bad for you.
- Don't do it.

I had a feeling that
was a bad thing.

- You end up wheezing.
- I was wheezing so bad.

Camp has taught
me that, like,

I can just be
whatever I want to be.

Like, I can be like a trans
femme with hairy legs.

And I don't gotta, I don't
gotta apologize for that.

There's the Big Dipper.

I see a triangle,
which is pretty sick.

No, it's kind of
like sideways.

If you turn your
head diagonally,

then the Big Dicker-

- What's the Big Dipper?
- Big Dicker!

I said, "The Big Dicker!"

Oh, my gosh!

What?!

You know what's
kind of cool?

What?

If there were arguably
aliens on another planet,

and they had a
massive telescope,

and they looked
down at Earth,

they could probably still
see the dinosaurs being here

because the light would
be just reaching them.

Why am I jealous
of aliens now?

I want to see
Triceratops just vibing.

Yeah!

So, if we can give a warm
welcome to our Rainbow Elders

that have joined us today.

Hi.

We are the Rainbow
Elders Calgary.

What we do is, we try to
connect with young people

because we know that it's not
an easy journey, being gay.

I was raised in a...

fanatical Christian home.

There was no discussion
about sexual identity,

gender identity.

Not only was it
a closed subject,

but bringing it up would
get you in trouble.

It cost me everything
to transition.

Now, resilience comes
from surviving adversity.

But, you don't have to
actually give-

create your own
adversities.

And that happens from...

caving, caving to some...
somebody else's idea

of who you should be.

According to Aristotle,

the meaning of life is to
enjoy yourself.

If you stay honest to
the things you want,

your life will
feel much better.

I've gone on too long.

I'll pass the floor on.

Specifically in my community,
I don't have a lot of older

queer people to like
ask questions to, and...

rely on.

I would like to ask an older
queer person

what things were like when
they were younger,

how they dealt with it, and
how they managed to

persevere and find a life
that they love.

I was married for 10 years,
had two children,

when I realized that I was
also attracted to women.

And, I ran across a small
gay community at a little

hole in the wall gay bar
that was selling tickets

to straight people
to come down and

look at the queers.

So, we as a
community, boycotted.

And so, consequently,
they went bankrupt,

and we took over the lease.

And finally, we had a place
where the gay community

could, could meet
and enjoy themselves.

My youth was very isolated.

I grew up in a
very rural town,

so I can see you guys,
you know,

maybe having those sort
of same lived experiences,

and it's a difficult time,
but I have lived through it.

I've gone past it,

I've had a lot of positive
things in my life.

And I'm out here now, and
I'm out and I'm proud,

and I'm here, and I want to
make a difference

now that I'm older.

My main interest at this
point in my life is to

continue to meet as many
young people as I can,

to find out what their goals
are, what their vision are.

What do you see the gay
community, 20 years from now,

30 years from now?

And what are you going to
do about it to make sure

it continues to
move forward?

And you have to be
constantly vigilant because

there are some church
organizations,

and definitely
some politicians,

that would change the
law just like that.

Don't let it be taken
away from you

just by being complacent.

There's always
work to be done,

and if not right here
in our own backyard,

for other countries,
other gay people

throughout the world.
So, don't give up.

I am one of those kids from...

a rural town, who...

does not have any resources,

or help, or any
support, or any...

education about being
queer, being trans.

When I was trying to
figure myself out,

I felt so completely alone
because I had never met

a queer person
older than me.

I was the only person
that I knew who was

going through this and,

I know that a lot of people
have had similar experiences,

and it sucks, but
it doesn't have to

be like that anymore.

And I think that's really
awesome that we have the

chance to improve on that.

I've never felt more support
anywhere else in my life.

And, I'm so glad I'm making
connections because

making friends is
hard when you...

stand out as much as I do,

because people are
judging you often.

But here, it feels judgement
- free, it feels safe.

I feel like everyone else
here is just as weird

as I am, for lack
of a better term.

This place is the best for-
I've ever felt.

- Can we take a group picture?
- 1, 2, 3!

- Queer joy.
- Queer joy!

Thank you very much!
All done on my end.

♪ DARLING,
A MESSAGE TO DELIVER ♪

♪ I HOPE YOU'RE READY ♪

♪ FOR THE CALL,
I'LL BE... ♪

Okay, team, I would like you
to jump on the rope, okay...

Let's go and support
that climber.

I kept looking down.

I kept looking down
the whole time.

- Is my belay on?
- Yeah.

- Can I climb?
- Yes.

My mom texted me back.

She just kind of ignored it
and skipped over it.

Like, I said, "Good,
I came out as trans."

And then, she responds with:
"What activities did you do?

How many are at camp?

Being on film
put a kink in me,

wishing you a sincere
goodbye and

wishing you had
an amazing time.

Meet friends, get lots of
pictures, and have fun."

That's all she said.

And I was like,
okay, okay, alright.

That's like a big
moment in someone's life.

And you're just like...

"What activities
did you do?"

"How was camp?"

When you come out to your
parents without getting the

supportive response you
might have expected,

it kind of feels like
the floor falls out

from underneath you.

No, I'm not calling her,
no way!

It kind of just feels draining
to not have that support,

or like, just acceptance
in the basic topic of it.

Don't look down!

You're worse than me.

I'm nervous to see
how this plays out,

and how this conversation
goes at home.

I just want them
to see me,

and understand me
as who I am.

Go, King!
Don't fall.

Almost there.

At camp, you could
see that there was

one kid or
another who was

struggling with
something or other.

And, camp not only gives
you the opportunity

to be supported,
but it also gives you

the opportunity
to support.

You're pretty much
over that edge now.

There you go!
Now you're over the edge!

- You're almost at the bell!
- Woo!

Being able to
provide that support,

it almost gives you
a feeling of closure.

- You're all good.
- Yeah!

Oh, my God, you did it!
I had no faith in you.

What can I say?
Master, legend.

You're just made because you
could definitely not do it.

Oh, yeah, no, I'm...

gonna be honest,
I probably couldn't.

Hey- Oh!

Alright, I see how it is.

Do you know how to
make origami things?

I can teach you
how to make a frog.

It just needs to be
folded to make a square.

I went for the rock
climbing thing.

I love it, just 'cause...

you get to leave the earth.

I don't.

I just wish I could express
myself the same way

I do here, when I'm at
school, because...

Here, I don't have to worry
about the judgement

over the neurodiversities,

'cause I have to
mask that a lot.

But yeah, here, I feel
comfortable with the ticks.

People complain that
I talk too much, yeah.

So I don't talk
at school anymore.

But I talk here, a lot.

Because, I learned very
early on that not talking

about things leads to a
lot of problems.

Generally in the past, when
queer people have spoken

about their queerness
to people, face-to-face,

they have gotten
punched in the face...

for being queer.

But on the internet,
no one knows who you are

in real life
unless you tell them.

You can talk about being
queer if you don't get to

talk about being queer
with your family.

In like 6th grade,
I found

a bunch of trans masc
YouTubers.

I watched all of the T videos.

I watched all of
the top surgery.

I watched, like, everything.

So, it was kind of like...

an, oh, I found
my community.

My parents never
talked about it.

I never learned about
anything like that in schools.

I... did all of the
research about

different identities
by myself,

and it was really
overwhelming,

but as I've learned
more about the community

and about myself,
I realize that there are

so many options, and I
could finally found one-

find one that fit me.
And I did.

Frog.

Wrong side-
you hop from the legs.

Okay...

I think everyone has a sheet
of paper in front of them.

So, let's read out what's
on the sheet of paper,

and then we can give you
sort of a definition.

Would anybody like
to talk about

what intersectionality is?

It's basically what
the word says,

it's how your identities
intersect with each other,

and whether you're a POC,
or disabled, or white,

or whatever, the different
queer experiences

within different
experiences.

- Mhm, wonderful.
- Well said.

Yeah!

I think that society
was drawn that way,

where the way you were
labeled, that's how you acted.

It's like you kind of...

I don't know, it's like a
character on a video game.

You have all these
things you can do and

things you can't do.

Gender identity...

Gender identity,
you often hear

of like, it's what's
in-between the ears.

Right, because it's
so innate in all of us.

And the other side
of that is why

pronouns are so, so,
so important!

But, I think the more
we grow into society,

people have to start to
learn that and to accept that,

that we're not gonna
necessarily act...

the way that our
label tells us to act.

How do we know what
someone's pronouns are?

- Ask them.
- Ask them.

Perfect! Perfect.
Basic stuff.

What do you do if you
accidentally use

the wrong pronouns?

- Correct yourself.
- Apologize quickly.

But, you don't spend
a lot of time on it.

You don't be like, "Oh,
I'm such a terrible person

'cause I messed it up."

You just correct yourself
and move on.

- Exactly.
- I love it, yes.

We're starting to learn
that whole idea of, like,

the freedom. The freedom
to do what you...

want to do,
and express yourself

the way you want to do.

And even I talked about
that with my mom, too,

just the way she was raised.

Things like LGBTQ or,
People of Colour,

it was never talked
about as a...

you know, feelings weren't
talked about very much

in the household.

Do you want to read out what
we have for identities and

ways of being?

Sure. Um...

There's "disabled"
and "neurodivergent".

And then there's
two ones that say,

"Haitian" and another
one that says "queer".

There's also "immigrant"
and "intersection".

Yeah.

- Try to remember the card.
- Okay.

- Okay, I got it.
- Okay, put it back in.

Is this your card?

Yeah!

Wow!

That was impressive.

I know you said that
you were also adopted.

When you said that,
I was like...

What?!
I was like-

What are the odds?

At first when you,
when you,

you said you were from
Haiti, I was like, okay.

And then when you said you
were adopted, too,

I was like, oh, okay!

No way.

I don't meet a lot of
other people from Haiti.

And, I meet even
fewer who are adopted.

And even fewer who were
adopted at a young age.

Yeah.

'Cause I was adopted
when I was just...

I think like over
two years old.

Yeah, we were around the same
age when we were adopted.

- Yeah.
- Which is cool.

Were you adopted with
siblings or by yourself?

Well, I have siblings.

I think they still
live in Haiti...

because they're
older than me, too.

Yeah, mine are older
than me as well.

But my parents
decided to adopt

when I was like one and a
half or something.

And my brother was
under a year old.

We were in the orphanage
maybe six months or something

before we were like matched.

But growing up, I think
my family kind of tried,

to like, have us have
cultural influences.

And it's hard when like
everyone you grow up with

looks different from you
and acts different from you,

like...

So, I think I was really
excited when you said

you were also adopted from
Haiti, 'cause I'm like...

I was too, and it was
nice because

you're also a queer person
who's like, you know,

in the same boat as me,
and it's like,

it's hard to find
a lot of, you know,

Black people who
are also, you know,

supportive sometimes.
I mean, there is obviously...

there, there are, but it's,

it's hard to find that
mix sometimes.

Can I ask, like...

I don't know if you feel
super connected

to your culture.

I feel really
separated from mine,

which makes me sad sometimes.

Like, it's hard, especially in
Calgary, to find, you know,

a lot of Haitian culture
and everything, and...

I don't think my mom,
like- I think...

I don't think she like tried
to push me away from it.

- I just think...
- Yeah.

I don't know,
their traditions are...

Yeah.

Their like,
I don't know,

some food they
eat or whatever.

I don't know, just things
like that would just be nice.

I feel like when families
adopt kids from

other cultures
and races, like,

it's hard to be prepared for,
like, connecting a kid.

Right, and then, when you're
not really growing up in it,

it's hard to... yeah.

Like, replicate that.
Like, how do you...

you know, like,
simulate that experience

of growing up in
Haiti when, like,

we're in Canada,
we're in Alberta?

Yeah.

I think meeting someone
who's in the same boat as me

gave me a lot more
confidence in myself.

It just feels good to be
around people

who like geneuinely get it.

I found like one, like...

like,
Jamaican restaurant.

That was the closest I found.

I think there is a good
Haitian restaurant in Calgary.

There definitely
is one in Edmonton.

I think there should
be a bit more.

I agree.
That'd be nice.

That'd be nice if we went to
something together

since I do know you
very well.

- That would be cool.
- Yeah.

And it made me just
more proud to

be all the stuff I am.

So, it was nice.

Another heart.

Nice, good job.
You're getting the hang of it.

- Hey!
- Ooh.

It's always dangerous
playing cards outside.

Okay...

You look really beautiful!

Yeah!

Hello, everybody!

Hi!

Welcome, and thank you so
much for joining us here at

the Camp fYrefly "gay-la".

We're gathered here in
the middle of the woods

to showcase our talent.

Please feel free
to sing along.

Yeah, okay.

"Truth Hurts" By Lizzo ♪

♪ I JUST TOOK A
DNA TEST. ♪

♪ TURNS OUT I'M
100% THAT BITCH ♪

♪ EVEN WHEN
I'M CRYING CRAZY ♪

♪ YEAH, I GOT
BOY PROBLEMS ♪

♪ THAT'S THE
HUMAN IN ME. ♪

♪ BLING BLING,
THEN I SOLVE 'EM ♪

♪ THAT'S THE
GODDESS IN ME ♪

♪ YOU COULDA HAD A BAD
BITCH, NON-COMMITTAL ♪

♪ ...HOLD ME DOWN ♪

♪ BUT YOU'RE
HOLDING ME BACK ♪

♪ AND THAT'S
THE SOUND ♪

♪ OF ME NOT
CALLING YOU BACK. ♪

♪ BOM BOM BI BOM
BI DUM DUM AY ♪

When it comes to my future,
I'm not 100% sure yet.

Hopefully, I will be
medically transitioned

to a point where
I'm comfortable.

I want to be a dad.

I want to have kids one day.

I want to pursue my
interests in fashion so,

I just hope that in 10 years

that I'll be more me than I,
than I am right now.

However that will
happen, it'll happen.

Oliver!

Even though
camp is ending,

and we are, undoubtedly,
going to go our separate ways,

it's still just so nice to
know that at the very least,

we have each other now.

And, we'll have
these memories

for the rest of our lives.

Yeah, my dudes will
always have my back.

Um... This is a piece
called "Nevermore".

I played it in
school this year.

It's my favourite
piece that we played.

We're good to go.

I think being brave and
trusting myself

has been really hard.

I haven't played in a while,
so I might mess up.

You got this!

Yeah!

But, I feel like
I'm much more brave

to be myself a bit more.

That's it.

Give it up for Mia!

Really makes me feel
special because I know

that there are
people out there

who want to see that,
and who do care

about my true,
authentic self.

It feels like the weight
has been lifted off,

and I can like relax...

and do me.

♪ ...REACHING OUT
FOR YOU. ♪

♪ IN THE DARK. ♪

♪ I'M JUST NO GOOD
AT GIVING RELIEF. ♪

♪ IN THE DARK. ♪

♪ IT WON'T BE EASY
TO FIND RELIEF ♪

♪ AND I'M NOT PROUD ♪

♪ THAT NOTHING WILL SEEM
EASY ABOUT ME ♪

♪ BUT I PROMISE THIS ♪

♪ I WON'T GO
MY WHOLE LIFE ♪

♪ TELLING YOU I DON'T NEED ♪

In 10 years, I could maybe
see myself somewhere.

In a city, like
in an apartment.

Maybe I'm living with
somebody else, maybe I'm not.

I'd like to be able
to help people

like me when I was younger.

I'd like to be the
person that I needed.

I either want to be a
criminal justice lawyer,

or I would want to be
a film director.

Either way, I want to do
something to help people.

And like, make an
impact on the world.

I see myself probably
in a better place, very happy.

And, I see myself
being successful.

I think, I think I'm
going to be successful.

I can imagine that I'd be
in an apartment, definitely.

Being a hard worker...

trying her best to
do what she can.

Happy last day, campers.

After breakfast, we're gonna
have the closing ceremony.

And then, the bus
will be here by noon,

so please have your bags
ready to go by then.

Thank you!

Everyone in the world is
going to know that

you drink straight milk.

Milk is so good.

Good milk.

I'm really nervous
to see my parents

and kind of talk to them...

to see how this plays out,
and how this

conversation goes at home.

They're not gonna like throw
out all the milk, right?

- No.
- Okay.

- 'Cause I was like...
- The milk.

The milk can go back.

Good.

In my family, when we have
something to talk about,

we kind of just say it,
and it just sits there.

We don't really discuss it.

Kind of just left out on
the table, like cold dinner,

and just kind of cools down
until nobody really

wants to eat it.

It feels a lot worse because
this is literally who I am.

I love my parents, and
I know they love me,

but I wish they could
understand and see me,

as Kingston.

Have I ever told you
that I hate you?

Oh, yeah.

Marshall has a few words

to really bring this
all together.

- Go, Marshall!
- Thanks, everyone.

You don't have to
stop clapping

just 'cause up I'm here.

Growing up, I didn't
necessarily

have friends
who were queer.

The fear of being my true self,
it made me pretty weak,

as I'm sure a lot of
you can feel as well.

It's...
very hard

to be queer in this world.

Take a moment and
acknowledge, and,

and see how much
you shine,

and how much you've
allowed yourself

to shine here at camp.

And, please hold onto
that shine

for as long as you can.

It's so amazing just to see

how much you've grown
and thrived,

and I want to all remind you
all to just keep shining.

I was bullied for being
gay for three years,

at my old school,
and it really put me down.

And, coming here, like,
I just forgot about

everything that happened
at my old school,

and I just feel
so much better

to be here with all of you,

and feel like I have
a home with you guys.

I don't want to leave.

I will be back next year,
for sure.

I mean, the best thing about
being at camp has probably

been actually making friends
that are in a similar

community to me.

Where I'm from, it's a really
small town, and there's not-

dude, stop,
I'm gonna cry.

I'm trying not to!

And,
I really love you guys.

So...

I'm gonna cry.
I'm gonna get off now.

There's the things
that'll stick with me,

which are probably the bug
bites more than anything else.

But, also just the memories

of seeing queer
people having fun.

It's just nice to
see everyone happy.

And, this image is going
to stick with me forever.

One thing
I'm gonna leave with,

all the clothing from
the clothing swap.

♪ YOU SAID,
"YOU DON'T KNOW HER

♪ LIKE I DO" ♪

♪ DON'T BELIEVE YOU'RE
NO GOOD WHEN I INSIST ♪

♪ THAT WE ARE ALL
MADE OF STONE ♪

♪ ARE YOU READY
FOR LOVE ♪

♪ SHOULD I SAY
READY FOR ♪

♪ ANOTHER BROKEN HEART ♪

♪ I DON'T CARE ♪

♪ IF YOU DON'T
REALLY LOVE ME ♪

♪ AS LONG AS YOU
BLOW ME A KISS ♪

♪ WE ARE ALL
MADE OF STONE ♪

Queer joy! Queer joy!

Queer joy! Queer joy!

♪ STANDING WHERE
I AM NOW. ♪

♪ STANDING UP AT ALL. ♪

♪ I WAS USED TO FEELING
LIKE I WAS NEVER GONNA ♪

♪ SEE MYSELF,
AT THE FINISH LINE ♪

♪ HANGING ON
TWO PARTS OF ME ♪

♪ HANGING ON AT ALL ♪

♪ I WAS USED TO
SEEING NO FUTURE ♪

♪ IN MY SIGHT LINE ♪

♪ SOMETIMES IT
FEELS LIKE ♪

♪ THEY WANT TO
REMIND ME. ♪

♪ SEND ALL THOSE
VILLAINS AFTER ME. ♪

♪ FEELING LIKE I AM NOW. ♪

♪ LIGHTING UP THE HALL. ♪

♪ I WAS USED TO STANDING
IN THE SHADOW ♪

♪ OF A DAMAGED HEART ♪

♪ LEARNING ALL I KNOW NOW ♪

♪ LOSING ALL I DID ♪

♪ I NEVER USED
TO FEEL LIKE ♪

♪ I'D BE STANDING
SO FAR AHEAD. ♪

♪ SOMETIMES IT FEELS WHAT
I RECOVERED, YOU LOST. ♪

♪ SENDING YOUR
PEACEFUL LOSS ♪

♪ TO ME ♪

♪ I'M NOT THEIR HERO,
BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN ♪

♪ THAT I WASN'T BRAVE ♪

♪ I NEVER WALKED
THE PARTY LINE ♪

♪ DOESN'T MEAN THAT I
WAS NEVER AFRAID ♪

♪ I'M NOT YOUR HERO BUT
THAT DOESN'T MEAN ♪

♪ WE'RE NOT ONE
AND THE SAME. ♪

♪ OH, OH, OH. ♪

♪ AH-OH-OH. ♪

♪ AH-OH-OH-OH. ♪