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"I may not be the fastest.

"I may not be the tallest
or the strongest.

"I may not be the best
or the brightest.

"But one thing I can do
better than anyone else,

that is to be me,"
which is a poem that you wrote.

Well, finally that's all
you can do, isn't it?

You can do a good
job of doing that.

Do a good job of being me,
being yourself.

That's really all
I ask of myself.

Because as I said,
I wasn't the fastest,

and I wasn't the brightest,
and whatever, you know.

This morning we are
remembering a beloved actor

who became an enduring fixture
in pop culture, Leonard Nimoy.

- Leonard Nimoy.
- Leonard Nimoy.

Leonard Nimoy.

- Leonard Nimoy.
- Leonard Nimoy.

Leonard Nimoy has died
at the age of 83.

When word came out today that
actor Leonard Nimoy had died,

the President said,
"I loved Spock."

I have been and always
shall be... your friend.

Live long...

and prosper.

Listen to this.

I just received an email
from Wil Wheaton.

Leonard Nimoy's son is
working on a documentary

that he started
with his father
before he passed away.

It's about Mr. Spock
and his impact
on our culture.

"For the Love of Spock,"
Adam Nimoy. Mark.

We wanted to do
something to celebrate

the 50th anniversary
of "Star Trek"

which was coming up in 2016.

And a documentary
about Spock had never
really been produced before.

I thought it was
an interesting idea

to create a film just
focused on Spock,

who he is, how he came about,

and why he has continued
to resonate for 50 years,

all as a part of the celebration

of the anniversary
of "The Original Series."

And the minute
I suggested this
to Dad, he was in.

Although my father had
a long and prosperous life
and hadn't smoked in years,

he died from chronic
obstructive pulmonary disease

from over 30 years
of cigarette smoking.

After Dad died, it became clear

that the film needed
to include his life

as well as the
life of Mr. Spock.

And that in turn led me
on a journey of discovery

about my relationship
with my father.

Well, I'm from
Boston originally.

I've been in Los Angeles
working in films off and on
for about 17 years.

I started acting
when I was a little boy,
about eight years old

in neighborhood
settlement houses
in Boston.

And kind of grew up into it.

I just kept doing it
because I liked it.

And then suddenly just decided
that I liked it enough

to want to make a career of it.

So I came to California in 1949

and started acting
in films then.

Now my parents
were extremely diligent,
responsible, practical people.

I grew up during the Depression.

When I told them at age 17

that I was going
to study drama
at the Pasadena Playhouse

and become an actor,
they were grief stricken.

They tried to dissuade me
by refusing to give me
the tuition, saying,

"You'll have to do it
without any help from us."

They were totally against it...

because they were certainly...

Hoped he would work
into another profession
of some kind.

But he wasn't suited
for all that.

He wanted to do what
he wanted to do.

Being stubborn,

I saved some money
by selling vacuum cleaners.

I bought a train ticket,
and I headed west to California.

So I'm walking down
the streets of Pasadena

on a hot September day,
sweat pouring.

I'm wearing a wool suit,
a hand-painted tie,
and suede shoes.

I must have looked like
somebody that just arrived

from off the boat
from Transylvania.

My mom was an aspiring actress,

and she met my dad backstage
at a theater in Hollywood.

But she gave all that up
to become a housewife.

My sister was born '55.

My dad was in the service then.

Then my parents came back
to Los Angeles,

and I was born in '56.

My mother told me that
when my sister Julie
and I were young,

my father was very involved
in helping her take care of us.

* Now and then
when we fall in place *

* It makes me feel all right

* Makes me feel all right

* Back and forth
we will win this race *

* To find out what it's like

* In time, I'll be all right

* In time, I'll be just fine

* Now and then
when we fall in place *

* It makes me feel all right

One of my favorite
memories of my dad was

he hustled his ass
during the early '60s,

doing all kinds of jobs.

He was servicing fish tanks.

He set them up in
doctors' offices.

It was like sort of
a fad in the '60s,

and Dad had a corner
on that market.

We knew that dad sold freezers.

You know, he worked
in a pet store.

He drove a cab.

He took care of aquariums.

He had vending machines
at one point,

so he had all these little
trinkets kept in boxes.

He worked at Wil Wright's
Ice Cream Parlor.

He was managing
an apartment building.

He was not around.

And even when Dad was at home,

it was all these
home improvement projects.

My father was truly
a renaissance man.

He could do just about anything.

Like build that massive
brick wall in our backyard.

He was trying so hard
to get this career going,

to make his life,
to do what he wanted to do,

which was be
in the arts,
be an actor.

One of my idols was Lon Chaney,

who was called
the man of a thousand
faces in movies,

because he'd change
characters so drastically

from one performance to another.

And I consider myself
that kind of a person.

I go to the makeup department
or the wardrobe department,

and get something together
and find a character.

- What you looking at?
- Nothing.

- What's that for?
- For nothing.

Next time you wanna look at me,
line forms to the right.
Two bits admission.

If they see water in the desert
where there is no water,

it's their eyes that lie,
not my mouth.

Just having any of those
coins in your possession

is liable to lead you
to a lot more trouble
than you bargain for.

Have no fear from me, Marshal.

No man kills the bee.

He only wants
to follow him
to the honey.

He was a fine man.
Hasn't had a decent
break in 20 years.

Now he's been built
up a little bit.

He's got a little dignity,
a little stature.

You're not going to deny
he was a good Marine
and a good officer.

No, no, he was both.

Then why crucify him?

You don't get it,
do you, Sanders?

I don't have any choice.

- Hello?
- I'm not going to let you do it.

It's for you, Lieutenant.

I did this job in an episode
of "The Lieutenant" series.

A few weeks
after I finished the job,
my agent called me and said,

"Gene Roddenberry
saw the footage,

"was interested in you,
liked what you did,

"and said that he has
in mind for you a role

in a pilot that he's developing
for a science fiction series."

Period.

I really didn't give it
a lot of thought.

You hear that kind of thing,
and you're a long way
from getting a job.

What about some of
the characters on the show?

Did you create them with
certain actors in mind?

Leonard Nimoy was the one actor

I definitely had in mind.

And I thought to myself,

"If I ever do
this science fiction
that I want to do,

"he'd make a great alien.

And with those cheekbones,
some sort of a pointed ear
might go well."

I simply made one
phone call to Leonard,

and he came in, and that was it.

So I went to this meeting
expecting to be auditioned,

or to read for him,
or... whatever.

He was very congenial
and said, "Let's take a walk."

And he walked me over to
the scenic design department.

He showed me the plans
of the sets that were
being built,

introduced me to
the scenic designer.

Walked me over to
the prop department.

Showed me
some of the props
that were being made.

Wardrobe department, same thing.

"Here's some sketches
of the clothes."

I thought, "This is interesting."

"It's like he's telling me
I'm doing this job.

If I keep my mouth shut,
I might have a job here,"
you know?

Prior to "Star Trek,"
I never had a job that
lasted longer than two weeks

in any television show
or movie, never. Two weeks.

Mr. Spock here.
We're intercepting...

I didn't have a cool look
in mind at first.

I had this jagged haircut
and bushy eyebrows,

and we went through
a struggle with the ears.

The studio had contracted
with a company

to do special effects
for the show.

Not film special effects,

but items like
suits for creatures,

creature outfits,
and that kind of thing.

And included
in the contract
was the ears.

They were supposed
to do the ears.

Now, they were very good
at creating creatures,

and we used them
throughout the series,
this particular company.

But they were not
really specialists

in the very fine, delicate
kind of appliance work

that's necessary
to add something
to a person's features

and make it really look like
it's part of that person.

We came right down within
about three or four days
of shooting the series,

and I said to Gene Roddenberry,

"This is not going to work,
and maybe we'd just better
forget about the ears."

Well, he insisted
he wanted the ears
to be part of the character.

And he said, "You try it,
and let's work it out.
Let's solve the problem."

"And at the end of 13 shows
if you're not satisfied
with the ears,

I'll write a script
where Spock gets an ear job."

So we went ahead
and worked on the problem,

and Fred Phillips,
who was the actual
makeup man

who was going to do my makeup
each day on the series,

knew what the problem was.

And a couple of days
before we started shooting,

he called in
an appliance specialist,

and we very quickly went to him.

Got the ears done
in about 24 hours.

And they were ready,
and they were perfect,
and that solved the problem.

Freddie Phillips always said

that Leonard Nimoy
reported for work at 6:30 a.m.,

and Mr. Spock could always
be counted on to arrive
somewhere around 7:15.

Definitely something out there,
Captain, headed this way.

Our tests indicate
the planet's surface

without considerably more
vegetation or some animals,

simply too barren
to support life.

The first time, it did not sell.

But, uh, NBC...

NBC thought it
was too "cerebral"
was the term they used.

The network found
the first pilot
too "cerebral," they said.

Not a straight
lined story enough.

And unusual in that
they decided to try
a second pilot.

NBC told Gene to fire

almost the entire cast,
including me.

Well, Gene felt very strongly
that the bulk of the character
that I was to portray,

that every time I was on screen

you'd be reminded
that we have a mixed crew.

So he stuck to his guns
fortunately for me.

The original pilot even
had a different captain,

Jeff Hunter.

The only actor that stayed over

was Leonard Nimoy.

And then, I had a shock.

I opened up my mail,
and here was a,
here was a pamphlet

from the NBC Sales
and Promotion Department.

And it was a pamphlet
about "Star Trek,"

this new series that was
going to be on the air

coming in the fall,

I saw this photograph
of myself as Spock,

and it didn't look right.

Something struck me as strange.

And the closer I looked,
the more I realized that

they had straightened
out my eyebrows,
made them look normal,

and they had taken off
the tips off the ears.

The network said,

"We are very dependent on
the numbers in the Bible Belt,

"and they will not accept
in their homes a character

who looks devilish
with these pointed ears."

Are you casting me
in the role of Satan?

Not at all, Captain.

Is there anyone on this ship

who even remotely...
looks like Satan?

I am not aware of anyone
who fits that description,
Captain.

No, Mr. Spock,
I didn't think you were.

Dr. Dehner feels
he isn't that dangerous.

What makes you right,
and a trained
psychiatrist wrong?

Because she feels. I don't.

All I know is logic.

In my opinion, we'd be lucky
if we can repair this ship
and get away in time.

One of the reasons for the shift

in the Spock character
when you came on-board

was because
when I was working
with Jeffrey Hunter...

Jeffrey Hunter was
a very internalized actor.

Very fine actor.
This was his style of work.

There's an old joke
about two actors
preparing to play a scene.

And one says to the other,
"What are you going
to play in this scene?"

And the one says,
"I'm playing nothing."

The other one says, "No, no, no",

- you can't play nothing.
I'm playing nothing."

So here's Jeffrey Hunter
playing this quiet,
internalized performance,

Ah!

And I felt
the need to help drive
something in opposition to it.

Right, right.

- Otherwise, we're both playing nothing.
- -Right.

And when you came on-board
with your energy,

and a sense of humor,
and a twinkle in the eye,

I was able to then become
the cooler Spock.

Has it occurred to you
that there's a certain...
inefficiency

in constantly questioning me
on things you've already
made up your mind about?

It gives me emotional security.

Leonard bouncing off of me
could now dramatically
be internal

allowing me to be external,

and the two forces made
an interesting combination.

I prefer the concrete,
the graspable, the provable.

You'd make a splendid computer,
Mr. Spock.

That is very kind
of you, Captain.

You know, I don't know
if I had played Kirk

that it would have
dawned on me to have
a sense of humor with Spock.

I don't know that I would
have thought of that,

but Shatner's take on it was,
"I can fuck with Spock."

I mean, you know...

Without being offensive
to the character.

"I can play with him."

Certain you don't know
what irritation is?

The fact one of my ancestors
married a human female...

Terrible having
bad blood like that.

Those two characters
are the yin and yang.

They are that in front
of the camera,

and it works beautifully,
magnificently.

There must be some intelligent
form of life on Thasus.

He could not possibly
have survived alone.

The ship's food concentrates
would have been exhausted
in a year or so.

By which time he would
have been eating fruits,
vegetables, and nuts.

Probes of Thasus indicate
very little edible plant life.

And probes have been
known to be wrong.

Doctor, are you speaking
scientifically or emotionally?

I thought the character
McCoy played by D. Kelley

made that,
as the fans call it,
the triumvirate,

because he was the common man.

Certainly a brilliant doctor,

but he had all
of the irritations,
frustrations,

the reactions that
most people would have.

I for one could use a good
non-reconstituted meal.

Doctor, you are a sensualist.

You bet your pointed ears I am.

It's actually
an interesting sort
of triumvirate

between Spock, Bones, and Kirk.

And for Kirk, Spock is his...

You know, they're like
the devil and the angel
on his shoulder, really.

Spock is his intelligence,
and his logic, and his sense,

and you know, McCoy
is more his sort of
slightly more emotional,

slightly more, you know,
knee-jerk kind of side.

The banter between McCoy
and Spock was, you know,

often some of the most
fun elements in the show

and indeed in the movies.

What's the matter, Spock?

There's something disquieting
about these creatures.

I don't know too much about
these little Tribbles yet,

but there is one thing
that I have discovered.

What is that, doctor?

I like them
better than I like you.

Doctor, they do indeed have
one redeeming characteristic.

What's that?

They do not talk too much.

When you have the kind of
cynical wit of McCoy,

and you have the swagger
and braggadocio of Kirk,

and then you have the intellect
and cold reason of Spock,

he's like the perfect human
being all wrapped up in one.

The following
program is brought to you
in living color on NBC.

That first night of the premiere

we had to actually go
to some friends' house,

because they had a color TV,
a big console color TV.

We did not.

We had a big console
black and white.

Why don't you tell me
I'm an attractive young lady

or ask me if I've
ever been in love?

Tell me how your planet Vulcan
looks on a lazy evening
when the moon is full.

Vulcan has no moon, Miss Uhura.

I'm not surprised, Mr. Spock.

Dad in his costume,
Vulcan costume,

it was like,
"Wow, this is really cool."

I remember it was just such
an exciting night for us.

This is not Nancy.

If she were Nancy,
could she take this?

Stop it! Stop it, Spock!

Stop it!

Do you read?

Frequency open, Mr. Spock.

Spock here, Captain.

Hi, Daddy.

When I came to visit the set...

They started shooting
that first season

at the end of May
and early June in 1966.

I was nine, almost 10 years old,

and I was off
for summer vacation.

And this is why Dad would
take me to work with him.

I would get up early
in the morning,

and we would drive
to Desilu right next
to the Paramount lot,

and I'd be there all day.

So I went out to California,
and of course, Leonard
took care of...

I stayed at Leonard's home.

And he said, "Guess what.
I've got this new show."

This is 1966.

I said, "What is it?" He said,
"It's called 'Star Trek.'"

He said, "You've gotta
come on the set."
I said, "Of course."

You know, I'm in the theater,

and this is my first
time in Hollywood.

And I'm out there,
and I walk on the set,

and I see Leonard.

He came out
from the dressing room,

and I see this hair.

I see these eyebrows up to here.

And I see these ears on him,

and I said,
"Jeez, what is this?"

And he did a scene,
and he was terrific
in the scene.

But I said...
I got him to the side.
I couldn't believe it.

I said, "Leonard,
Leonard, come here.
I've got talk to you."

I said, "No matter what you do,
you've got to get out of this
as soon as you possibly can."

This is a treadmill
to oblivion."

The review that
"Variety" gave us

when we first went on the air
in September of 1966.

And I thought you'd enjoy
hearing what our show business
Bible said about us

the first week
we went on the air.

This is dated September...

It appeared on
September 14th, 1966,
just a little over 25 years ago.

It said, "'Star Trek'
with William Shatner,
Leonard Nomoid..."

"'Star Trek' won't work."

That's the opening line.

Then it says, "An incredible
and dreary mess of confusion..."

"trudged on for a long hour..."

"with hardly any relief
from violence, killings,
hypnotic stuff,

and a distasteful,
ugly monster."

"William Shatner..." Shush!

"William Shatner
appears wooden," it says.

I didn't say it.
It says it here, right?

I never heard him
accused of being,

accused of being wooden
before, you know.

"Spock!"

"Scotty!"

"I need warp speed
in four minutes,
or we're all dead!"

Then it says, "The same
goes for Leonard Nimoy."

There are 500 or 1,000
who could play our characters
effectively.

There's only one person
who could play Mr. Spock.

Spock called
for exactly the kind of work
I was prepared to do.

He was a character with a rich
and dynamic inner life,

half human, half Vulcan.

He was the embodiment
of the outsider,

like the immigrants
who surrounded me
in Boston in my early years.

How do you find your way

as the alien
in a foreign culture?

Keep your Vulcan hands off me.

Just keep away.

Your feelings might be hurt,
you green-blooded half breed.

May I say that I have
not thoroughly enjoyed
serving with humans.

I find their illogic
and foolish emotions
a constant irritant.

Then transfer out, freak.

Most everyone,
and there are exceptions,

but most everyone feels
a little bit like an outsider.

I would argue the most
interesting people seem to.

So, there's something
wonderfully comforting

and relatable to know that
Spock felt that way himself.

I grew up as a skinny,
nerdy, gay kid in the south,

you know, in the 70's.

Not exactly
a comfortable existence.

There's a lot of
internal conflict.

So the character of Spock
from the very beginning...

And you know,
when I was five,
I didn't know why,

or seven, I didn't know why,

but I was captivated

by this character that was
based on internal conflict.

Spock, I think people
recognize themselves in him.

He is, um, an outsider.

He is the alien.

I think everyone feels
like an outsider sometimes.

And since he's
a nonhuman outsider,

it's an otherness that
everybody can relate to
in their own way.

People sometimes think
they don't belong in a group.

And really that's what
I've found, you know...

I was very tall from
when I was young,

and I felt apart
from other people.

And I really associated
with that character.

I think it
was the very first episode

we were filming after the pilot
when we started into production.

There was a scene in which
the ship was being threatened

by some outside problems,
outside dangerous force,

and there was a lot
of activity on the ship.

The captain was saying,
"Do such and such.

Press this button. Do this.
Warp three. Get us out of here,"
and so forth.

And Spock had one word to say,
and the word was, "Fascinating."

And we're looking at this thing
on the screen, you know,

and everyone else is reacting,
"Oh, look at it. Blah, blah."

And I got caught up
in that energy,

and I said, "Fascinating."

And the director gave me
a brilliant note, and he said,

"Be different.
Be the scientist.
Be detached.

See it as something
that's a curiosity
rather than a threat."

Fascinating.

Well... a big chunk of the
character was born right there.

If I seem insensitive to what
you're going through, Captain,

understand... it's the way I am.

A lesser actor would say,
"Why would I want to play him?
He doesn't have any emotions."

But he has so many emotions.

But he also has
emotional control.

Expresses very little
of what he's feeling,

and I think it's fun
for the audience to watch

to see if there's a glimmer
of something that pops through.

I had a very interesting
conversation

with your father about Spock,

because we were
talking about him
as a cold, unemotional guy.

And Leonard said, "I never
played him that way."

I always played him
as a guy trying to keep
his emotions in check."

And I thought that was a subtle
and ingenious choice,

because it lent
a dynamic tension
to what you saw on the screen,

particularly in the closeups,

of a guy trying
to keep a lid on it.

That thing must be destroyed.

You tried to destroy it
once before, Commodore.

The result was a wrecked
ship and a dead crew.

I am officially notifying you
that I am exercising my option

under regulations
as a Star Fleet Commodore,

and that I am assuming
command of the Enterprise.

You can't let him
do this, Spock.

Doctor, you are out of line.

So are you... sir.

Well, Spock?

Unfortunately, Star Fleet
Order 104, Section B
leaves me no alternative.

Mr. Spock, I order you
to assume command

on my personal authority
as captain of the Enterprise.

Commodore Decker,
you are relieved of command.

I don't recognize
your authority
to relieve me.

Commodore, I do not wish
to place you under arrest.

You're bluffing.

Vulcans never bluff.

I talked about it at the time
being heavily influenced

by what I saw Harry Belafonte
do on stage one night.

He came out on stage,
and a spotlight came up on him,

and he was there.
He just stood there
very quietly.

Applause. Next song,
stood there quietly and sang.

Now he must have been
on stage 10 or 15 minutes.

He was just standing there
with his hands on his thighs,

and sang,
and when he made a gesture,

it was like
the whole place shook.

It was like, "Wow!" You know?

It was gigantic.

Wow, what a lesson.

If you are minimal,
then that becomes a big deal.

If you are minimal,
that becomes a big deal.

He's gone.

You make a comment
with an eyebrow,

that's just as powerful
as throwing punches.

He didn't wield the human side
frivolously for effect.

Most of the time,
it would be contained,

but occasionally,

you know, most notably
at the end of 'Amok Time, '

when he realizes that
he didn't kill Kirk,

there's a sweet moment
of like, "Jim!"

Which is just so...
It's so earned.

There can be no excuse
for the crime of which
I'm guilty.

I intend to offer no defense.

Furthermore,
I shall order Mr. Scott

to take immediate command
of this vessel.

Don't you think
you'd better check
with me first?

Captain!

Jim!

I'm... pleased
to see you, Captain.

You seem... uninjured.

What is the purpose of a toy?

To be played with.

Therefore, to not play
with it would be...

Illogical.

Damn it, Spock, you're right.

You can look at a lot
of progenitor characters
for Sheldon,

but absolutely, absolutely
one of them is Spock.
Absolutely.

And in fact, in the episode

in which Sheldon is interviewed
for this very documentary

that I am currently
speaking to you in,

one of the things
Sheldon talks about

is his desire to be Spock.

And that's not a new invention.

That's something that has
existed for that character
from the very beginning.

When I was eight years old,
Billy sparks cornered me
in the playground.

I asked myself,
"What would Spock do?"

Then I grabbed Billy
on his shoulder

and performed
my first Vulcan
nerve pinch.

Did it work?

Oh, no, he broke my collarbone.

So the script was written then
that Spock comes up behind,

sneaks up behind the mean Kirk,

and hits him on the head
with the butt of a gun.

That's what was
written in the script.

So I said to the director,
"I think we should do
something different than that."

He said, "What do you...
What do you mean?
What do you have in mind?"

And I said,
"Well, Spock is a graduate

of the Vulcan Institute
of Technology..."

"where he took
a number of courses
in human anatomy."

And the Vulcans have
a kind of energy that
comes off their fingertips,

which if properly applied
to the appropriate
pressure points

on the human anatomy,
will render a human
unconscious.

- And the guy didn't know
what I was talking about.

But I told him,
and he knew exactly
what I was talking about.

And when I came up behind him,
and I put my hand on his neck,
he...

He's the one that sold it.

He went like like that
and dropped like a rock.

There's a multi-legged creature
crawling on your shoulder.

I'd like you to teach
me that some time.

Our minds are merging, Doctor.

Our minds are one.

I feel what you feel.

I know what you know.

I like the fact that Spock
could communicate
with other species

through thoughts rather
than through words.
Brilliant.

What in the name of...

The man talked to a rock
for goodness sake
and heard it.

"Oh, she's pregnant."

It's a rock, okay.

That was good, because
the rock is not going
to speak English to you.

Think of how many science
fiction stories in that decade
and the decades preceding

where you'd meet aliens,
and the aliens spoke English.

We didn't think to think
that that would not happen.

You've got to crawl
before you walk.
I get that.

But "Star Trek" not only
knew how to crawl,
and knew how to walk.

It was running.

The Vulcan greeting is
a wonderful sentiment,

"Live long and prosper."

And this too is something
that was contributed
by your father on the set.

We had a wonderful script

by Theodore Sturgeon
called 'Amok Time.'

We arrive on the planet,

and a procession comes out
from the city to greet us.

I said to the director,

"I think we should
have some kind of
a special greeting.

"Asian people bow to each other.

"Military people
salute each other.

I think Vulcans should have
some kind of a greeting."

And he said, "What would
you like to do?"

And I said, "How about this?"

Where it came from was
from my childhood of going

to synagogue
on the High Holidays
with my family.

There's a moment
where a group of men
get up before the congregation,

cover their heads
with their prayer shawls,
chant a prayer.

My father said, "Don't look."

I'm about eight
or nine years old,
so I snuck a peek.

And what I saw were
these gentleman out there
who were doing the shouting

had their hands out towards
the congregation like that,
both hands.

I found out later this is
the shape of a letter shin
in the Hebrew alphabet.

The letter shin is
the first letter
in the word Shaddai,

the name of God.

Well, I survived.
I peeked, and I survived.

But I was so intrigued
with that gesture,

and I suggested that
we do that as Vulcans.

Within days after
that episode
was on the air,

I started getting that gesture
back on the streets.

You know, a lot of times
people ask me what it was
like living with Spock,

and for the most part,
during that period,

Dad was not home much at all.
I didn't see him.

He was really focused
on what he was doing
at the studio

and for the show.

His usual routine
during the week was
he would get up very early.

He'd come home at 7:00
or 8:00 at night,

eat his dinner,
memorize his lines.

He'd run the lines
with my mother

and then just go to sleep
and start all over again.

So during the week,
he wasn't around hardly at all.

We spent a lot of, you know,
our, quite a few years...

Actually, from "Star Trek"
to "Mission,"

with him not being home
during the weekdays.

Even when Dad was
around at home,

oftentimes, he was
very quiet and remote.

He was still kind of
in his Spock bag,

because he liked
to stay in character.

You play a character
like that...

What? Eight, 10,
12 hours a day,
five days a week,

-most of your waking life then
is in that character.
-Mm-hmm.

And I'd find it very difficult
to turn it on and turn it off.

So stepping out of the set
and into a chair waiting
for the next setup,

I couldn't shift out of it.

I believed in making that
investment in the character.

Particularly, that kind of
character that was so boxed.

A lot of the time he wasn't
available to hang out with,

to... do things with.

He was... He was
sort of in his world.

He was occasionally
Leonard-like,

but mostly, he was Spock.

So I never really got
to know him very well.

I got to know Spock
a little bit better
than I got to know your dad.

I mean, he was totally dedicated
to playing that character

and to being that character,
and it showed.

If I stay in character
or kind of don't joke around,

it's more a function of me...

It's slightly closer
to being a panicked grip

than it is being an artist,
I'm afraid.

It's just, I don't
want to lose it.

You kind of have to get
into the character's head.

And if you come out of it,
and then they go, "Roll camera,"

if you're off by that much,

you could either
underplay a moment
or overplay a moment.

Fan mail started
arriving pretty regularly

in late '66,

and there was some issue
whether or not the studio
would handle the mail,

the network would
handle the mail.

They didn't want to do it.
They wanted, you know,
Leonard to handle the mail,

which he did
in his office
for a while.

There was an interview
in "16 Magazine,"

I think it was
the spring of '67,

and somehow, accidentally,
they published our home address

as the mailing address
for the fan mail.

Within days, the mailman
stopped coming.

It was a truck that arrived
with sacks of mail,

and we were answering it.

It came into our dining room.

We had the dining room
table all set up

with the mail that we opened,

and we stuffed envelopes
with this early Spock
promo picture.

It was one of
our "family activities,"

you know, was
answering fan mail.

Personal life was gone.

Yeah, it started
happening very fast.

And to show you how naive I was,

at that time,
I still had my phone
listed in the phone book,

and my address,
and it was all...

You know, I'd never dreamed
that there was going to be any,

that kind of impact, because
I'd been on television before
and done movies before,

and I was listed
in the phone book.
Didn't matter to me.

We started getting
a lot of fan mail,
not only fan mail,

but fans coming to our door,
knocking down the door.

We started getting people
driving by the house,
and parking,

and ripping at the shrubbery
to have a souvenir, you know,

and taking my grass,
and my leaves, and whatever.

Some of them would
knock on the door

and ask to be
invited in to visit.

It got really crazy. Yeah, yeah.

It got really crazy for a while.

What about when
you came back to Boston

during the "Star Trek" years?

Yeah, that was kind of exciting

and a little difficult.

People were following me
in the street,

and I didn't really want people
to know where I was living.

I was staying with my folks,
with your grandparents.

Right.

And they didn't have any idea
what "Star Trek" was.

They didn't get it.

All they knew was
something had happened.

How did they react
when they saw your haircut?

My dad actually thought
I was wearing a wig.

He had a picture of me
as Spock up on the wall
in the barbershop,

and kids would come in and say,
"I want a Spock haircut."

Once word filtered through
to network executives

about Spock's popularity,
they said to Roddenberry,

"Say, why aren't you doing more
with that Martian on the show?"

There's that element
of competition,

particularly the first season,

because, um...
the titular star
was Bill Shatner.

Leonard was
the secondary character.

But when the show
went on the air,

people were absolutely
magnetically attracted
to Spock.

So I'm asked to be the captain,

and it's the captain's show,
and that's great.

Quite frequently,
another character rises
to the top as well.

I go to Roddenberry,

who then says very wisely...

"If Spock is popular,
then Kirk is popular,

and the show is popular,
and that's what we all want."

And I thought,
"You know, he's right."

And from that moment on,

I encompassed
the popularity of Spock,

and, uh, was okay with it,
and, uh, enjoyed it.

Jim, I feel friendship for you.

I'm ashamed.

You've got to hear me!

Kirk is the physical
embodiment of the show,

and Spock is the spiritual
embodiment of the show.

And I think it's how
these two guys carved out

their specific spaces
in this little universe.

Kirk was always doing
wild and crazy things

and sleeping with aliens,

and Spock was always thoughtful,

and moving in
a very deliberate way,

and sort of putting the brakes

on some of
the more physical urges
that people had.

You can save it, girls.

This type can turn himself
off from any emotion.

I think that
his Vulcan side
prevents him

from allowing the testosterone
in his human side
to get the best of him.

And that is
very appealing
for women,

at least for women like me.

I don't... I don't...

Motorcycles, and car oils,
and, "Hey, baby..."

I just... I just...
It's not my thing.

I like more of
an intellectual, humble soul

that kind of blows your mind
in just a conversation,

and I feel like
Spock is that like.

So I wouldn't be surprised
why women found him
really appealing.

Bridge to Captain Kirk.

Kirk here.

I had no idea.

What?

He's so much more
handsome in person.

Those eyes.

Kirk had quite
the reputation
as a lady's man.

Not him.

Spock.

There was just
something about him
that women found attractive.

He himself was kind of flirty,

and women kind of
flirted with him.

You only take a mate
once every seven years?

The seven-year cycle...

is biologically inherent
in all Vulcans.

At that time,

the mating drive outweighs
all other motivations.

And is there nothing that can
disturb that cycle, Mr. Spock?

When did you get first
interested into fellas?

Uh...

Spock, yes.

What was it about him?

He was so repressed,
and you just wanted
to make him scream.

I'm, uh... I'm rather repressed.

I don't think
this is that different

from the which Beatle
do you love most, you know?

I like the less emotional,

more, you know, kind of
obtuse, bizarre type.

So I think there's always
going to be a Spock female
versus a Kirk female.

I was one of the first
to find them, the spores.

Spores?

Now...

Now, you belong to all of us...

and we to you.

There's no need to hide
your inner face any longer.

We understand.

I love you.

I can love you.

This is the perfect opportunity
for a love story for Spock,

because the spores release
all of those things

that hold in
his emotions,
his logic,

and will allow him to feel
like a real person.

And this is unusual for him.
It's unknown for him.

But we're happy here.

I can't lose you now,
Mr. Spock. I can't.

I have a responsibility...

to the ship...

and that man on the bridge.

I am what I am, Leila.

And if there are
self-made purgatories...

and we all have
to live in them...

mine can be no worse
than someone else's.

* Cotton candy on a summer day

* Green grass on a hillside

* Could they turn
my love around? *

* Could they bring her
back to my side? *

Well, he was
a better singer
than I was.

I mean, he could, uh...

He could sustain a note.

Uh, off-key, but sustain a note.

* His love is a merry-go-round

* He will drag you down

* A trip to nowhere

* A world without love

He was basically
keeping himself busy

by making hay
while the sun
was shining.

I mean, that was
his whole philosophy.

He knew he was
riding this wave,
and it was very exciting.

But he also knew
that it could be
over very quickly,

and we could be back into
the financial struggle
that we were in

before "Star Trek" came along.

I always told him,
"You can take the boy
out of the West End,

but you can't take
the West End
out of the boy."

I live with one.

What does that mean?

Well, uh, he developed
a very strong work ethic.

I rarely turned down
any paid engagement.

I'd seen many
of my actor friends

go to work
on a series
for a few years

and live up to the level
of their income,

and then when
the series was canceled,

they were once again
looking for work

with no steady income
and no money in the bank.

I made a private pact
with myself

that this would never happen
to me and my family.

So every time I was offered
a paid appearance, I took it.

This meant that I left
the studio at 5:00 or 6:00
on Friday night.

I took a red eye flight
to my destination.

I'd arrive on the East Coast
around 6:00 Saturday morning

and catch the last flight
out on Sunday night.

I can remember a time or two

when I got back to Los Angeles
at 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning
on Monday.

I'd go right to the studio,
stagger into my dressing room,

and catch
a few hours sleep
on the couch.

From there, I headed
right into makeup.

There were a number
of photographers

who showed up
to take our picture
in those early days,

'66, '67, and into '68,

and we were
happy to do it.
It was fun.

I've got to admit.
It was like a circus.

It was a joyride,
and it was really
a good time.

First, it was like novel.
It was great.

It was like, "Oh,
wow, we're getting
our picture taken."

We're going to be
in a magazine.
It's so cool."

But after a while,
it got tiresome.

It became sort of
an invasion of our life,

and us not really understanding,

you know,
"Why do we have to do this?
Why is this so important?"

We were young.

There was one time...
I believe it was 1970.

There was a photographer there,

and we were supposed
to come in and take pictures,

and Julie and I were like,
"Huh-uh."

We joined together,
we unionized,
and we said no.

You can't say no to Leonard.

I've got to tell you.
It's just...

I mean, we felt guilty.
We wanted to support him,

but we were really done
with the whole...

the whole publicity routine.

We took a really good
family portrait

which is emblematic,
I think, of where we were
at that time in our lives,

because no one is smiling.

In "Star Trek", in the mid-60s,

creating this character
who would soon become
a pop culture icon...

My dad was never
really that in touch

with what was going on
in popular culture.

It's so interesting that
when he was at home
during leisure time,

he was listening
to records of guys
like Heath Mantan,

and Lou Rawls,
and Charles Aznavour.

Our mom was...
ahead of her time.

At first, when you look
back at pictures of her,

she was dressed
very, uh, 50's housewife

but still had style.

Dad stayed still very, you know,
in his dressing, conservative,

but Mom tried to, you know,
change his style up a bit.

So he started, you know,
wearing a little cooler clothes,

some jeans, the little scarf,
you know, around his neck.

And his hair was done
a little cooler.

Even though he had
the Spock haircut, you know,

somehow he could brush it
off to the side a little bit,

and he looked a little,
a little hipper, yeah.

NBC failed to renew "Star Trek"
for a fourth season.

A short time
after we finished
shooting for "Star Trek,"

I signed on with
"Mission Impossible."

Before he started on "Mission,"

there was
a press conference
in Honolulu

announcing that
he was joining the show.

It was a very exciting
experience for me

to be there
spending time
with Dad.

Although, by then,
sharing him with the fans
had become a part of my life.

My character, Paris The Great,

was a master of disguise.

Therefore, I got to play
a multitude of characters,

old men, Asians,
South American dictators,

blind men, Europeans.

But then, before I knew it,

I was playing
the South American
dictator again,

and the Asian,
and the old man,
and the blind guy.

It got boring.

A short while later,
I left the show.

After "Mission Impossible",

I played Tevye in
"Fiddler On The Roof."

It was only the first experience

in my extremely enjoyable
theatrical career.

In "Fiddler on the Roof",
he was magnificent.

He was very precise.

He avoided every cliche.

And as he grew into the role,
he was extravagant.

His portrayal of Tevye
in "Fiddler On The Roof"
was utterly fantastic.

Probably the best
of any I've seen.

- Because he was an actor.
- Like a real actor.

I think he realized that
what would make that work
in a non-Broadway setting

was it was about him,
and his wife, and his kids.

And it was
beautifully sculptured.

I went on
to appear as Fagin in "Oliver,"

Arthur in "Camelot",

and a one-man play
about Vincent Van Gogh.

In the early '70s,
Dad was in a play called

"Man in the Glass Booth,"
and it was a terrific play.

He really owned up to that role.

And as I watched him
night after night,

he was completely unrecognizable
to me as my own father.

He had to play a wealthy...

braggadocio, vain,
egocentric New York Jew.

Not a Jewish man, but a Jew.

And as the play develops,
when the Jew gets arrested

as being a concentration
camp commandant,

he then has to play
the meanest, most committed,

most devoted Nazi officer
you can imagine.

And he stands up in the booth.

Not supposed to do
that in Israeli court.

He stands up,
and he's in his regalia.

He's in his uniform,
but he doesn't have his hat on.

And when he put
that hat on,
he changed.

You didn't want to
go anywhere near him.

- Very quietly...
- And this was him.

He starts moving like this.

And he marches
to the last bit of dialogue.

And it gets louder,
and louder, and louder.

If a director had
come up with that,
he should get an award.

The actor came up with it,
and he should get an award.

It was chilling.

The times when your dad
was performing in New York,

and then we would see
each other very often,

and that's when they
started to go closer.

And then we became his groupies.

When he performed anyplace
east of the Mississippi,

we would fly out to be there.

One summer, he did two plays.

One in Michigan,
and one in Wisconsin.

And at that time,
he was flying his own
single engine airplane,

and I flew
a lot with him.
I love flying.

So, I plotted
the entire course out.

I took lessons,
and I got my little license.

Not a pilot's license. I got...
They call it a pinch hitter.

So that if anything
happened to him,

I could take over
without a problem.

And that was probably
one of the best times
I ever had with him.

The decade of the '70s
was kind of an interesting
period for my dad,

because he had done
so much theater work.

He was really kind of
proving himself

as the character actor
that he always wanted to be.

He also hosted multiple
seasons of "In Search Of."

underwritten in part
by a national...

And he was in
Philip Kaufman's remake

of "Invasion of the
Body Snatchers."

They were shooting
in San Francisco,

and I happened to be
in school at Berkeley,

and it was just a lot of fun
watching them make that film.

But what happens to us?

You'll be born again
into an untroubled world.

He was a multifaceted
individual that is for sure.

I knew that as a kid.
I used to watch "In Search Of,"

and I remember him in
the Kaufman "Body Snatchers"

and "Mission Impossible,"
you know.

Uh, he was never just Spock
to me even growing up.

We came here from a dying world.

We drift through the universe
from planet to planet

pushed on by the solar winds.

We adapt, and we survive.

Captain, I found this device
on my console.

It seems to serve
no useful function and...

Captain?

I'm sorry, Spock, It's your...

When they began casting,
we weren't... I wasn't called.

It was decided that
George in the show

would not appear on the series.

And I thought,
"What's happening?"

Uh, then it was announced

that Bill was cast
to do Captain Kirk.

Leonard was cast
to do Mr. Spock.

Jimmy Doohan was cast
to do Scotty

and all the other male voices,

and Majel was cast
to do Nurse Chapel

and all of the female voices.

But when Leonard learned
of that, he said,

"What Star Trek is about
is diversity, coming together,

and working in concert
as a team."

And he said, "The two people
that most personify
that diversity in our cast"

"are Nichelle Nichols
and George Takei.

"And if they're not going
to be a part of this,

then I'm not interested."

How many times does that happen
in this business, you know?

It says a lot about Leonard.

Tuesday, October 22nd, 1973.

"Dear Adam, this may turn
out to be a long letter.

"I'm very glad I could see you
and Julie on Sunday.

"It was good to be with you,

"but I think it might have
been especially useful

"in putting
our relationship,
you and me,

"in a new perspective.

"This came out of our argument.

"I discovered you and I were
having a terrible battle
on a verbal battleground.

"I felt very sad about it,
and all I could say was,
'I'm sorry.'

"It suddenly occurred to me
that it might be useful

"if I tell you some things
about my relationship
with my father.

"I always loved and feared him,

"but we had very little
real personal contact.

"He was not a demonstrative man.

"Most of my day-to-day
interaction was with my mother

"with my father
in the background
as a sort of weapon.

Neither of them was ever
very giving of approval."

You guys were at odds a lot

about some of the company
you were keeping

and some of the things
you were doing.

In the early '70s,
there was a slight lull
in Dad's work career,

and he was at home
for the first time,
hanging out,

and not really quite knowing
what to do with himself.

And it was also during this time

when he was taking a close look
at me and my life.

What he saw was, to him,
not that pretty.

Even though I was doing
very well in school...

I was a senior in high school,

and by this time, I was like
a full fledged Deadhead.

I mean... need I say more?

I mean, you know...

It was just
not a good time for us.

* In the middle of the earth
in the land of the shire *

* Lives a brave little hobbit
whom we all admire *

* With his long wooden pipe
Fuzzy, woolly toes *

* He lives in a hobbit hole
And everybody knows him *

* -Bilbo - Bilbo *

* Bilbo Baggins

* He's only three feet tall

* -Bilbo - Bilbo *

* Bilbo Baggins

* The bravest little hobbit
of them all *

Captain?

* One day,
Bilbo was asked to go... *

What in the name of...

* To the caves below

* To help some dwarfs
get back their gold *

Am I... seeing things?

Not unless I am too.

* -Bilbo - Bilbo *

* Bilbo Baggins

* He's only three feet tall

What is it, Mr. Spock?

* Bilbo Baggins

* The bravest little hobbit
of them all *

Having had only marginal success
on NBC for three years,

the show took on
new life in syndication.

Gradually, the show
and its audience
found each other.

By the mid '70s,
it was becoming
a media event.

Thousands and thousands
of new devotees

sat in front of their TV sets

memorizing each
episode's dialogue
word for word.

Risk... risk is our business.

"That's what this
starship is all about.

"That's why we're aboard her.

"Dr. McCoy is right to point out
the enormous risk involved

"with interaction between
any two alien species,

but the potential..."

There's something that
I became aware of in doing
my research very recently

called The Slash Fantasy,

the Kirk-Spock slash fantasy.

And there's a phenomenal
edited video on YouTube.

And some fan, somebody's
taken a lot of footage

of Kirk and Spock out of context
from "The Original Series"

to show this homo-erotic
relationship between them,

and it's pretty damn compelling.

At conventions,
I saw slash zines

with illustrations done
by very good artists

and they were much,
much more explicit
between Kirk and Spock.

It's a matter
of who is looking at it,

from what perspective,

and from the perspective
of gay people seeing that
is eye opening.

They see the gay passion,
the gay attraction,

and the gay anguish
depicted in those scenes.

At my first convention in 1972,

I walked into a hall so crowded

the thunderous
wall of noise
that greeted me

took me completely by surprise.

For several seconds,
I literally could not speak
because of the emotion.

One of the things that I really
respect about your dad was,

I guess, his love
and affection for the fans

and how he always
had time and energy.

You know, going to conventions
and meeting people...

You know, I'm blown away

by how much love
there is for your father.

It was an entirely new concept,

this gathering of fans
to celebrate "Trek"
for a weekend.

The organizers crossed
their fingers

and hoped for 500 attendees.

They got 3,000.

We went
to one "Star Trek" convention.

I think it was in LA,
but I'm not sure.

I think you're right.

Yeah, it was a wild place.

I remember them having
to get us out the back door.

Right.

Oh, okay. What was that like?

Wild.

I think "Star Trek" fans have
sort of pioneered

the whole cos-play culture
which now exists

where, you know, you go
to any convention,

and people are dressed up
as a multitude of things

from the most obscure
to the most popular.

I've been blown away going
to now these conventions
for a number of years,

seeing what people are able,
and willing, and, you know,

what they commit
to dress up as and do,

and it's unbelievable.

We thought they were crazy.

I'm here.
I'm really here.
I can't believe it.

My first "Star Trek" convention.
Watch your back. Here we go.

So much stuff.

Really cool.

Whoa.

Wow.

Spock, status report?

Pollux IV, class M type planet,
oxygen-nitrogen atmosphere.

Sensors indicate no life forms.

In all respects,
quite ordinary, Captain.

Bobak, I want you to tell me
a little bit about your history
with "Star Trek",

how it's affected your life.

I would say it's probably
one of the biggest reasons
why I work at NASA.

I mean, honestly,
like, you know, seeing
this "Star Trek,"

you know, this vision
of the future

is one of the reasons
why I work there today.

Seeing a future where people
from all different cultures
and backgrounds

were working together.

You know,
the betterment of humanity.

I think that was a vision
of the future that I wanted
to help create.

If "Star Trek" was the vision
of the future that I wanted
to create,

Spock was the internalization
of the kind of person
that I felt like I was.

You know, as someone
who was from two cultures,

you know, Iranian father,
an American mother,

I saw in Spock, you know,
that same conflict, I guess,

of, "Which one am I? Am I both?"

Is there
a happy medium
of the two?"

But also at the same time,
I saw that he was accepted

by his, you know, colleagues.

Spock stood for a lot
of different things.

He stood
for intelligence,
integrity.

He stood for the idea of
really searching for truth,

for figuring out
how things really work.

That is the underpinning
of science, really.

So I think for a lot of people,
Spock was representative
of science itself,

of using the human mind
to overcome kind of
the forces of chaos

and make sense of things.

That really resonates
with a lot of people here,
I would say.

It certainly did with me.

And I knew the minute
I read "Star Trek" books,

that was the character
I most wanted to emulate
with my career.

Spock was a scientist.

Now, for me, I knew
I liked science
before "Star Trek."

So Spock and I resonated,
I think, uh...

in a way that surely helped,
but didn't initiate my interest.

But I wonder if the slow
but real appreciation

for what science is
and why it matters

that I see manifesting today,

whether it owes its origin

to that series,
to that character.

- Are you a "Star Trek" fan?
- Yes.

- How long have you been a fan?
- A hundred years.

A hundred years
"Star Trek" fan, okay.

You've had your own
connection to "Star Trek."

You've directed
"Star Trek" episodes.

But before that, you were
an entertainment attorney.

What was that all about?
What got you into that
in the first place?

You know, it's very difficult
when you are the son
of a celebrity

and somebody who becomes
a pop culture icon,

to try to create
your own identity,

to find out
who you are
in essence.

And so, this was my way of
really creating my own path.

He was very proud of the fact
that I went to law school,

and I started practicing law.

But after seven years
of practicing,

it became very clear to me
that this was not something

I wanted to do
for the rest of my life.

I didn't have the passion for it
that I thought was important.

That was really Dad's
whole philosophy was

you have to have a passion
for what you do.

Otherwise, it's just work,
and it's not fulfilling.

My dad was very sympathetic
about my desire to make
a career change

and even helped me,
trained me as a director.

He and I actually
made an episode

of "The Outer Limits" together.

We were remaking an episode
that he was originally in
in the early '60s

in which he had
a supporting role.

Your design
and your construction
are nothing short of genius,

but even you must understand
that you're basically a takeoff

on the thoughts and feelings
that Dr. Link programmed
into you.

A man suffers, a man bleeds,
a man has a soul.

I could snap your neck
as if it were a toothpick.

In that sense, you're right.
I'm not like most men.

But like most men,
I choose not to.

Let me go.

"The Motion Picture"

rightly begins in London
where my wife and I were
vacationing in 1975.

We went to see Henry Fonda
who was performing on stage
in "Darrow."

After the performance,
we joined him and his wife
for dinner.

At some point during
the conversation, Henry said,

"You know, Leonard,
I hope you're being paid

for all those billboards
around town."

"What billboards, Henry?"

"Do you mean to tell me
you don't know about
all those Heineken billboards?"

Now, I'd seen my Spock image
used commercially before,

such as on a box of
Kellogg's Corn Flakes.

I'd been amused by it,
finding it campy
and even flattering.

Once "Star Trek" was canceled,

Paramount had no legal right
to license my likeness
from that time on.

So not only had Paramount
been marketing me as Spock

for almost 10 years
without the right to do so,

for the last five of those 10,
they hadn't sent me
any of the proceeds.

I wound up having
to file a lawsuit.

They wanted to make this movie.

And Bob Weiss had it
in his contract

that they would make
their best efforts to get me
in the movie.

And my agent would
call me and say,

"They wanna talk to you
about the 'Star Trek' movie."
And I would say...

"When we settle the lawsuit,
I'll talk about acting
in their movie,"

because I thought
that's my leverage.

So that went on for some time.

And... finally, I got a call

from a guy
who introduced
himself to me.

He said, "My name
is Jeff Katzenberg",

and I've just
gone to work
for Paramount."

And I was acting in "Equus"
on Broadway at the time
in New York.

So there goes little Jeffrey
off trotting to New York...

to say to him,
"You've got to put
the ears back on."

So I went, and I saw the show,

and after the show,
we went to Joe Allen's.

I said to him, "We're going
to make the movie."

"Those ears are going on.

"They're either going on you,
or they're actually going
to go on somebody else,

"but they are going to go on.

And how badly will you feel
when you didn't put them on?"

The big leverage that
he always had beginning
with these movies

was that Paramount Pictures
needed him,

and they couldn't make
a "Star Trek" movie
without him.

Finally, my lawyer called.

"Look, Paramount is actually
showing some willingness
to reach an agreement."

"Will you read the script
if they settle the lawsuit?"

"Yes."

Four days later,
on a Friday evening,
the lawsuit settled.

My lawyer came
to my house
with a check.

An hour later,
the script arrived.

I sat down
and read it through
that night.

Leonard Nimoy was
the last person

to join the movie cast
and was asked why
he was a hold out.

I don't think it was
a question of hold out.

We've had a long and...
complicated relationship,

I mean, Paramount and myself,
for the last couple of years.

And probably the thing
that took the most time

is the fact that
the mail service

between here and Vulcan
is still pretty slow.

Spock.

Making that first movie was
very, very dis-spiriting,

very depressing.

We had a bad script, bad script.

It just never worked.
It was always a struggle

to try to figure out
how to bring some life
to this... project.

And, um, we did our best,
but I never...

The pendulum swung completely
when that first movie came along

from being an actor
and character-oriented
"Star Trek"

to an effects-oriented
"Star Trek."

And the feeling was, "Oh, we
didn't have the money before."

Now we've got the money,
we've got to give them
a big effects movie."

So it was all about the ship,
the ship, and this effect,
and that effect,

and we're going
through this thing.

Now, we're going
through that thing.

Nothing about the characters.

So it was frustrating,
and depressing,
and, uh, very painful.

Khan.

Khan!

In "Star Trek II," the lure that
Harve Bennett gave him was,

"You're going to have
the greatest death scene
of all time."

Spock, no!

I thought that was
the final "Star Trek" movie,

and when they said to me,
"How about a death scene?"

I thought, "Why not?
If this is the end
of 'Star Trek, '"

"let's get out
in a blaze of glory
saving the Enterprise.

You know, be a hero and die."

Live long...

and prosper.

Sooner than I realized,
it was over.

No.

I stripped off the ears,
the makeup, the uniform,

and so Spock
gradually disappeared,

leaving behind
only Leonard Nimoy.

Never again the raised eyebrow.

Never again
the delicious teasing
of the irascible doctor

or the offering of logic
to my impetuous friend
and captain.

Never again the mind meld,
the neck pinch,

or the Vulcan salute
and blessing,

live long and prosper.

I asked myself,
"What have I done?"

Well, of course, they put in
a little footage at the end
of the movie

that suggested that
this might not be
the end of Spock.

I'm sorry, Doctor.
I have no time
to discuss this logically.

Remember.

And they came to me,
sure enough,

after the picture opened
and did business,

and they called me
in for a meeting.

They said, "We'd like to know
if you'd like to be involved
in another 'Star Trek' movie?"

And I said,
"Yes, I'd like to direct it."

I remember distinctly one night
I got a phone call from him.

And he said
he'd been on the phone
with Michael Eisner,

and that Michael Eisner
was trying to talk him
out of directing,

making his directing debut

directing himself
in a feature film
and so forth.

And he was asking me...
He was soliciting my advice.

I said, "Well,
it's really very simple."

Are you prepared
to let this ship
sail without you?"

And he said, "Oh, absolutely."

I said, "Then sit tight
You're going to direct
the movie."

My Lord, the ship appears
to be deserted.

How can that be? They're hiding.

Yes, sir, but the bridge
seems to be run
by a computer.

It is the only thing speaking.

Speaking?

Let me hear.

Nine, eight, seven, six, five...

Get out!

Get out of there!

I got a call
before the movie opened
from Jeff Katzenberg,

who was head of production
at Paramount at the time,

and he said, "We want you
to make another one."

And I said, "You know,
this one that I just finished,
'Star Trek III',"

I said, "They had
a pretty tight
choke chain on me",

"controlling what I was doing,

"and making me answer
for everything,

and explain
everything that I was doing,
and justify everything."

And he said...
I'll never forget.
He was wonderful.

He said,
"The training wheels are off.

We want you to make
your 'Star Trek' movie."

Well, if it isn't Robin Hood
and Friar Tuck.

Where are you fellas heading?

Back to San Francisco.

Came all of the way down here
just to jump in and swim
with the kiddies, huh?

Very little point
in my trying to explain.

Well, yeah, I'll buy that.
What about him?

Him? He's harmless.

Back in the '60s, he was part
of the free speech movement
at Berkeley.

I think he did
a little too much LDS.

- LDS?
- Mm-hmm.

Come on. Why don't you
let me give you a lift?

We had our first read-through
at your house on Kashmir.

And there was...
He had the whales' song
playing for us.

And I knew then
how much this project
meant to him

on a personal level.

He was trying
to get us to get it,

which to me, transcends doing
another "Star Trek" film.

Although, in fact,
it actually is what "Star Trek"
has always been about,

which is meaningful issues
about how to live.

* Just where is our future?
The things we've done and said *

* Let's just push the button
We'd be better off dead *

* 'Cause I hate you

Excuse me.

* And I berate you

Excuse me.

Would you mind
stopping that noise?

* The only choice we're given
is how many megatons *

Excuse me.

Would you mind stopping
that damn noise?

* And I say screw you

* And I hope you're blue too

"Star Trek IV" was
one of the highlights
of Dad's career,

really part
of the pinnacle
of his career,

because immediately after that
came "Three Men and a Baby."

The making
of "Three Men and a Baby"

was a magical time
where everything
came together beautifully.

I felt enormously fortunate
to be involved with the project.

Nice job, Pete.

You know, the "LA Times"
came out with an article

when that movie came out,
and it was a hit

the winter season,
the holiday season of '87.

"LA Times" talked
about the fact that the hit
from the previous holiday season

was a feature film entitled
"Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home,"

and that both of those films
happened to be directed
by the same guy.

Then came "The Good Mother",

and my relationship
with my father hit
an all-time low.

And you've left her
alone with him?

Well, of course I have.
She likes him.
They have fun together, Brian.

Well, ask him about
the fun, Anna.

Well, what are you suggesting,
Brian, that he did something
wrong with Molly?

- He did, Anna.
- Well, he didn't.

She told me.
She's told the shrink.

- He did it, Anna!
- No, Brian, he didn't do it!

You ask him! And you let him!

By the time filming
of "The Good Mother" wrapped,

I felt the same way I had
at the end of shooting
"Three Men and a Baby."

I thought, "Boy, this could be
even more of a rocket ride
than 'Three Men.'"

And it was a rocket ride,
all right... straight down.

Box office was disappointing,

and the film soon disappeared
from the theaters.

I started drinking
regularly, ritually,

during probably the second year
or third year of our series.

The ritual became so ingrained
and so important to me,

because I looked forward
to that release at the end
of the pressure of the day

with the dialogue, and the pace,
and get 15 pages or 12 pages
done today,

and all of that sort of thing.

And the minute
we finished the last shot,
I would have a drink.

And then it became
a series of drinks.

And little by little,
before I knew it,
I was drinking more and more

because my addictive
personality was taking over.

It was the martinis,
you know, getting a drink
when he'd come home,

having a couple drinks.

And, uh... you know,
while it made him
more relaxed,

he also shut down.

The habit grew to the power
that it did in my later years

because I didn't have
that thought, "I'm young.
I still have a distance to go."

Which is a devilish part
of the disease.

The 1980's were
a very difficult time
for my dad.

His parents had recently died,
my grandparents,

within six months of each other.

My dad was going through
a very complicated

and difficult divorce
from my mother.

They had been married
for 32 years.

It was also about this time

that there was
a lot of head-banging
between the two of us.

There were a lot of old issues
that were coming up,

and there were
a number of fights
between us.

He was also drinking.
A lot of this was fueled
by alcohol.

And quite frankly,
I was still getting high
at the time,

and that was certainly not
helping matters between us.

"There's one major area
that I should touch on"

"before coming to a conclusion,"

"competition with my father."

"This was easy for me
in strangely painful way."

"My father never earned
more than a $150 a week."

"I realize that competition
with me is very tough."

"I am very loud and verbal."

"Also I have been very lucky,
made good money,
and I'm famous."

"That's a lot tougher
to deal with"

"than me competing
against 150-dollar
a week barber."

A lot of the problems
that I had with my dad
were not that dissimilar

from problems
that other fathers
and sons experience.

The difference is that
my dad was adored

by millions of fans
all over the world.

And oftentimes, I felt like
I was competing with them
for his love and attention.

And sometimes, I honestly felt
like I was losing the battle.

After we would have
one of these incredible
knock-down, drag-out fights,

I would go out into the world
and be confronted by images
of Spock everywhere.

* I want to know
what you're feeling *

* Tell me what's on your mind

Pure energy.

Pure energy.

In 1989,
Dad and Susan
got married,

and his domestic life
started to get much better.

She was a real
stabilizing force for him.

And he was very happy with her,
and they were very devoted
to each other.

It was at this period of time,
he told me later on,

that he was
really happy
with his life,

and yet didn't really understand
why he was still drinking.

And it was at that point
that he started to really,
seriously look

at what was happening
with his life.

And he made his decision
to go into his own recovery.

My first images
were photographed
with this camera

and enlarged with this camera

and with about 20 cents
worth of Kodak supplies.

And I just became fascinated
with the ability

to create an image,
something that you could hold,

an object you could
hold in your hand,
and there it is.

Something I shot this morning,

and tonight, I have
the picture in my hand.

I could hang it on my wall,
or give it to my family,
or whatever.

That was the beginning.

Although Dad
started taking pictures
at an early age,

he continued this hobby
throughout his life.

He would often take portraits
of me and Julie,

and some of those ended up
in the poetry books
he published.

James T. Kirk.

Along came J.J. Abrams

who found a way to crack it open

to an entirely new
and different audience.

Who the hell am I
to tell Leonard Nimoy
what Spock should do?

But it's my job,
so I'm doing the best I can.

But I was amazed
at how open he was.

Leonard was okay with the idea
of this new incarnation
of "Star Trek."

It set a tone on the set
even beyond the days
that Leonard was working.

You didn't have to know
all about "Star Trek."

You could come
and enjoy this movie

as a person who had
never seen anything
of "Star Trek" before.

- Fascinating.
- What?

Okay, I'm sure
you're just doing your job,

but could you not come
a wee bit sooner?

Six months I've been here
living off Star Fleet
protein nibs

and the promise of a good meal.

Myself, Leonard, and Chris
shared a trailer

when we were shooting the stuff
when they discover Scotty
on the planet.

And it was quite far
from the circus,
from the unit base,

so we had a trailer that
we just sat in, and we shared.

And we were shooting
really late at night.

It was, like, you know, 2:00
or 3:00 in the morning.

And Chris, Leonard, and I
were just sat in this...

And Leonard was in his
full Spock regalia, ears.

We had the big sort of like
winter coat on and stuff,

and he sat upright,
and he went to sleep.

And he, uh, was just sat there
just quietly snoring.

And Chris and I were just
looking at each other like,

"That's Spock, and he snores."

We were shooting a scene,
and Leonard was walking,

and he fell... and he landed,
and he cut and broke his nose.

Um...

So the feeling that,
you know, you have

when someone that you care
about as much as I did,
of course, gets hurt,

it's a horrible feeling.

When you've wounded Spock, uh...

you just wanna...
you know, kill yourself.

It's just... It was...
It was horrible.

And we're trying to figure
out what we're gonna do
for the rest of the day,

and I hear, like,
"Oh, no, no, no, no,
we're going to keep going."

And it was Leonard who was like,

"We're just gonna
keep shooting."

And I'm thinking,
"Is he out of his fucking mind?
He just broke his nose."

And Leonard was like,
"Let's keep going."

And we finished,
and no one ever
heard this story publicly

until you and I had
this conversation.

Speak your mind, Spock.

That would be unwise.

Mine is a very different
Spock than your dad's.

I was really fortunate
to be able to explore
even more than your dad,

because as entertainment
evolved,

as narration evolved,
as story-telling evolved

over the intervening decades

between when
he created the role
and when I assumed it,

I think that it opened up
a little bit more space

for us to get in
and play with that.

Mr. Spock.

Sharing that with him,
and discussing it,
and exploring it

through the context
of our personal relationship,

that was probably
one of the most creatively
satisfying aspects

of assuming a role
that had already been
established so firmly

and created so boldly.

No pun intended.

Should I choose to
complete the Vulcan
discipline of Kolinahr

and purge all emotion...

I trust you will not feel
it reflects judgment upon you.

Oh, Spock...

as always, whatever
you choose to be...

you will have a proud mother.

Every time he goes
into a negative place,

he starts being a little
bit of a pessimist,

um, he allows Uhura and Kirk
to snap him out of it.

And I really like that.

He's just... He's a man to me.
Like, Spock is really a man.

Even though
he's half alien, it's like...

He could have been...
I don't know, half anything,

but he's still
very much... natural.

What do you need? Tell me.

Tell me.

I thought that was
a perfect example

of the evolution
of the character,

of painting him
in a different light

and seeing that there is
this capacity for feeling,

for emotion,
for intimacy,
for connection.

It's still regulated.

It's still within
the boundaries
or the parameters

of what it means to be Vulcan.

Father.

I am not our father.

There are so few Vulcans left,

we cannot afford
to ignore each other.

Spock, in this case,
do yourself a favor.

Put aside logic.
Do what feels right.

Since my customary farewell
would appear oddly self-serving,

I shall simply say... good luck.

Dad was really happy

to be in the new incarnation
of "Star Trek."

It was a high point for him.

But much like
Spock's problems
with his father,

my relationship with my father
was still very troubled.

My first officer,
Commander Spock.

Vulcan honors us
with your presence.

We come to serve.

Your service honors us, Captain.

Thank you.

Around 2006, we were just
about completely estranged
from one another.

Old issues were flaring up.

And, um, I was
at a low point
in my life.

I had just ended
an 18-year marriage,

and I had decided to go
into my own 12-step recovery.

And it was
a real difficult time
for the two of us.

And basically,
for three or four years,

we had very, very
little communication.

By around 2008,
we started to talk again,
and reconnect again,

and really came back together
in our relationship
with each other.

I had met Martha
in a doctor's office,
and she was...

Uh, she was my age,

and she was very sweet,
fun, attractive woman,

and I started dating
her regularly.

And I mean, I was
so much happier having Martha

that I married her.

Four and a half months
after we were married,

Martha was diagnosed
with terminal cancer.

The weird thing was for me,

and I was really
kind of conscious of it
now in retrospect,

was that in 2004,
when I left my 18-year marriage,

and moved out of my house,
and left my kids behind
for one.

I mean, it was
a real low point in my life.

I didn't even call my dad.
He wasn't even on the list,
because of our period of,

you know, beginning of
the estrangement period.

But when I was able to
pull myself back together,

after I got that phone call
from the doctor,

the first phone call I made...

Was to your dad.

I just... It still.
It just overwhelms me now

that we could get to that point
where he could be my go-to guy.

Yeah.

And in the next 18 months
of my life with Martha,

which were, you know,
probably the most challenging
possibly in my entire life,

my dad and Susan were there
every step of the way

to support me and keep me going.

And after that,
my dad and I never
again... looked back

at the wreckage
from our past, ever.

"So here we are.
You're a man, an individual,

"very bright, talented,
goal-oriented, sensitive,

"and a lot of other good things.

"Above all, I want you to know
that you are priceless to me.

I'm proud of you,
and I deeply love you.
Your father."

My life has become much,
much more about family.

I used to... The way
I describe it now was

I used to major in career
and minor in family.

And now, I've turned it around.

I'm much more
majoring in family
and minoring in career.

I do an occasional pop-up thing
here and there for friends,

but mostly, I'm dealing
with my family.

With dad marrying
our step-mom, Susan,

she and Aaron became
a part of our family.

She was great in the fact
that she showed Dad

that being with your children
and your grandchildren,

it's very important.

You need to be a part
of their life.

And let's bring
everybody together.

Let's... Let's have
a big family unit,

and we have a big family.

In the last years of his life
were the times that

the family got together
at the house

for any variety of occasions
from birthdays to holidays.

Leonard was a very
even-keeled guy.

He didn't always show
a lot of emotion

but I'd say those times
at which he would toast
the family at those gatherings

were the times I maybe saw
him express the most emotion.

He was so grateful
to have everybody there.

He was grateful to feel
the love from everybody
that was there.

And he was grateful
to be able to love
the family the way that he did

and provide for the family
the way that he could.

The day Leonard died, I, uh...

He was in a coma,

and I, uh, leaned over
and said to him...

"You made the world
stand up and listen."

And I'd swear
he nodded his head.

What I admired about Leonard

was his willingness
to love his family,

and because I was
on the periphery of it,
I got that love.

It made him a wonderful actor
in the work we did.

And I think it
made him a mensch,

probably a word you're
going to hear a lot.

Mensch.

A mensch is someone
who's responsible,
and disciplined,

and you can count on.

He was just this
stable force in my life,

and I knew I could
always count on him.

He was the mensch of mensches.

He was loved and adored by,
I think, everybody on the set.

To create a character
who leaves a mark
on the society,

that strikes a chord
that resonates,

Leonard Nimoy did that.

If there was
a word you would use
to sum up or describe

either my dad as an individual
or as Spock, the character,

what would that be for you?

The first word
that springs to mind
for both of them actually

is, I would say, is noble.

There was something about...

There's definitely something
about Spock which is very noble.

He's obviously a man
of massive integrity
and conviction.

If I had to pick one word,
it would be dignity.

Artist.

Integrity.

Human.

He was a self-made
renaissance man,

but he had
a ubiquitous curiosity

about everything going on
in the world,

whether it was art,
photography, politics.

Logical.

Humble.

Hope.

Cool. Spock was cool.

I think a little bit of Spock
needs to be behind
every important decision

we make in our lives,
about ourselves,
or with regard to others.

The first word that does
come to mind is loving.

Love.

If it's free association,
then it's definitely just love.

What's yours?

All right. I got it.

* Didn't know what time it was
And the lights were low *

* I leaned back on my radio

* Some cat was laying
down some rock 'n' roll
"Lot of soul," he said *

* Then the loud sound
did seem to fade *

* Came back like a slow voice
on a wave of phase *

* That weren't no DJ
That was hazy cosmic jive *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He'd like to come
and meet us *

* But he thinks
he'd blow our minds *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He's told us not to blow it

* 'Cause he knows
it's all worthwhile *

* He told me,
"Let the children lose it *

* Let the children use it
Let all the children boogie" *

* I had to phone someone
so I picked on you *

* Hey, that's far out
So you heard him too? *

* Switch on the TV
We may pick him up
on Channel Two *

* Look out your window
I can see his light *

* If we can sparkle
he may land tonight *

* Don't tell your papa
or he'll get us locked up
in fright *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He'd like to come
and meet us *

* But he thinks
he'd blow our minds *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He's told us not to blow it

* 'Cause he knows
it's all worthwhile *

* He told me,
"Let the children lose it *

* Let the children use it
Let all the children boogie" *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He'd like to come
and meet us *

* But he thinks
he'd blow our minds *

* There's a starman
waiting in the sky *

* He's told us not to blow it

* 'Cause he knows
it's all worthwhile *

* He told me,
"Let the children lose it *

* Let the children use it,
let all the children boogie" *