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Woo!

My favorite color is blue.

My favorite number is five.

I'm a good boy. I don't talk back.

I like to read and go to school, and I'm smart.

One day, I'd like to become a famous explorer like Christopher Columbus,

and I'd like to walk on the moon and fly a hot

air balloon.

Matthew, I'm shaking.

But my arm hurts.

Just hold on. I'm almost done.

Next stop, Kenyon Road.

Can I help you?

Hello.

My name's Elliot. I received a letter.

Please come in.

Matthew, look at me.

What's your name?

Matthew. How old are you?

Five.

My birthday is in December.

What's your favorite color?

Red. That's the color of my mom's hair. You can't say that. Why?

Because they don't want to hear about your real mom. We're trying to get you a

new mom.

I don't want a new mom. I want my mom.

I want to go home.

Thank you for coming.

Of course.

It's been a long time.

You've got a nice place here, though.

It's been good.

Better than when we were kids.

I heard you ran out of a halfway house.

It was a long time ago, Matt.

You know, I went to a few different homes after you left, but, you know,

worked.

When I was 16, I ended up in this real shithole, so I left.

You know, I met some people.

Ended up down in North Carolina.

I've been there for a while.

It's okay.

How long have you been sick?

A few months.

Everything's been real good for me.

I went to a good high school.

I played soccer for the team.

I saw all your trophies, ribbons.

Yeah, she still thinks I'm a little boy.

I went to college, graduated in journalism.

I've been to France, Italy, Germany, Spain, and Japan.

Yeah, that's pretty cool.

They've given me everything.

But they don't know where I come from.

What I went through.

I mean, they've been told, but they can never know.

You know what we went through.

You took care of me.

You were like my fucking brother.

I'm dying, Elliot, and all I can think of is my path, where I came from,

my birth parents.

I feel like, I feel like I'm going crazy.

I'm scared.

You still have your video camera?

I'm not very good at this.

I have lived a good life.

That was one of my favorites, too.

Don't worry, I won't tell anyone.

Sad, though, wasn't it? Oh, it's so sad.

Well, you know, I mean, everyone's getting sick.

I mean, really.

Every time you turn around, some family, there's not a family that hasn't gotten

something. Well, and all of this human gene cloning and all the toxins, what

we doing to ourselves?

I thought you were gonna ignore me all day.

I see.

I'm the asshole.

It's bullshit, but... Of course, I'm the crazy bitch ex

-girlfriend.

Shunned by the family.

It's not like it's my fault.

It's not like I killed him.

I'm taking Matt to Mexico.

There's a vase in the downstairs bathroom.

I'm going to pour some of the ashes into it, leave the rest of the ashes in the

urn for his parents.

I'm going to hide the vase inside my jacket, walk to my car.

I could be in Mexico in five days.

There's this place down there.

We need to talk about it.

You should take all of them.

What?

You should take all the ashes.

Otherwise, what part are you taking?

If you're going to take them, you should take all of Matt.

Hi, I'm Elliot.

Hi, Elliot. It's nice to meet you.

Sorry, I just wanted to talk to you for a second. I can't. I'm going to Mexico.

What's in Mexico?

Who the fuck is this?

Elliot.

Whoa, whoa, whoa.

What's that? Get in the car, please.

Are those his ashes?

You're taking Matt's ashes to Mexico. Get out of here.

All right, look. I have to come with you, okay?

I said get the fuck out of here.

I'll pay for everything. I got credit cards. I'll pay for hotel, food,

On top of that, I'll give you $5 ,000 when we get there.

Why?

I just have to go, okay? You wouldn't under... You're right. I would...

Give

me a cigarette.

I think we should go back.

I think you should give me a cigarette. I think we should pick him up. You have

no idea what you're talking about. We don't even know this guy. He seemed like

he knew Matt really well.

He seemed really upset, Gray.

Yeah, it's a funeral, Lily. People tend to look upset.

Shit, Gray. What if he told on us? He's the only one who knows. He's not... I

think we should go back. I really do.

Do you have any money?

I don't have any money, Gray.

$5 ,000.

Do you have $5 ,000?

What?

This is such a bad idea. Come on, Gray. This is such a bad idea.

Okay, this is how it's going to be.

You pay for all expenses.

You don't talk.

You follow my rules.

I'm the boss.

Any objections, I leave you on the side of the road without a moment's thought.

You got it?

You got it?

Yeah, got it.

22 .53.

High.

Like these and a peg of reds. Yeah.

I've only ever been to the middle of nowhere.

I'm curious, is there a place around here my business associate can buy us a

meal? Well, there's a diner a mile or two west of here.

A diner it is.

That's 37 .22.

Morning, sunshine.

Morning.

Nice glasses.

Nice to be.

I can try.

How about you're not going to smoke them like that?

Andrew Jackson was from South Carolina.

He was born in Lancaster.

He was a president, right?

Yeah, yeah, he was our seventh president.

Vanna White is also from South Carolina.

No kidding.

Yeah. That's cool.

Yeah.

So, like, how long were you with Matthew?

Five years.

Did you see him when he was sick?

No.

We haven't spoken in three years.

Did you?

Uh, no.

I was sort of busy.

How long did you know Matt?

I mean, we were friends when we were kids.

sex within a car.

There was.

We parked near the golf course.

Nighttime.

I don't remember why we were there.

That was the first time I saw his car.

I thought it was his car.

I thought it kinda looked like Texas.

He ran through the glass door.

That's how he got the spot.

Oh, he's back there.

Can we pull over? I need to take a piss.

Yeah, I need to get gas.

Hello, you've reached Frank and Janet. Please leave a message.

Hey, Mom.

It's Lily.

I was just calling to say hello.

I know I haven't called in a while.

I've been really, really busy working hard.

School's going really well.

But we have some exams coming up, so, um... Yeah, this is Colin. Say hi.

Uh, give me a call if you get a sec.

I hope all is well with you.

Okay. Talk to you soon. Bye.

What, can't I see my sister?

Come on in. Little Miss Maggie, want some OJ?

Thanks, Gwen.

Did you have breakfast?

Yes, I ate at home, Mrs. Cooper.

Please leave the orange juice, Gwen.

Yes, Mr. Cooper.

So, Gray, where's Amanda?

Well, Gregor, she's in Seattle.

So, Elliot, where are you from?

Originally, just outside of D .C.

Oh. You two didn't know each other growing up, did you?

No.

Here we are.

The Barker clan.

Make the Kennedys look like fucking saints.

And there he is.

Puppet master himself.

My father.

When was the last time you spoke to him?

A few weeks ago, he called.

I heard a man had gotten pregnant, so he cut me off, told me, son, it's time you

become a man.

Take some responsibility for your actions. Take some pride.

Clean up your fucking act.

Fucking hypocrite.

I was raised by nannies.

What a joke.

So you got your girlfriend pregnant?

Yeah.

Hey Spielberg, let's go.

What do you do, Lily?

Um, nothing steady right now.

I dance.

It'll take some time to figure it out.

She's very beautiful.

Thanks.

She's a handful.

Gregor's not too much help with her.

I mean, don't get me wrong, he's a good dad.

He works a lot.

But I like being a mother.

Sometimes it doesn't feel like she's my daughter. It's more like we're best

friends, you know?

It's definitely different than my mom and me.

I hate that.

Do you want to go to Sandcastle?

Sure.

Oh, no.

We can't use that.

Why? What's in it?

It's, uh... It's my friend's dance.

What's your friend's name?

It's Matthew.

Careful, Greg.

She's a sexy young thing.

I'm tempted.

Yeah.

And she's definitely into me, but I'm not going to do anything about it.

You're so fucked up.

I talked to Amanda.

Good to you, Gray.

Love talking about this.

You got nothing to say.

And maybe it's time you start thinking of this instead of this, huh?

You're so much like Dad. It's pitiful.

He's so scared.

Go swimming?

I don't know how.

Did Paris never tell you?

Take care of Matthew's fan.

I will.

Alright.

See you a little later. See you ladies later.

Bye. Have a good trip.

That you cannot be found Under all the broken

skull I will lay down I will lay down

I can be found Beneath the road

Beneath the road

What? I'm sorry.

It's been out here like 20 minutes.

Yeah, when I'm ready.

Janet, please leave a message.

Hey, Mom.

It's me.

Just checking in.

Everything's good down here.

Going to work soon, so, you know, just call me if you get a chance.

To Matt. To Matty.

To Matt.

You look

pretty.

What?

You look pretty.

Thanks.

Hi, you've reached Amanda.

Leave a message and if you're lucky, I'll call you back.

No, no, no. No, no, you'll like it. Trust me.

And for you.

Come on.

Come on, come on.

Rest.

Grant. What?

I'm gonna find Lily, man.

What? I can't find Lily.

Are you fucking rolling, man?

What? No, no, no, no, no. What are you saying to me right now?

I think she might be in trouble.

I'm gonna find Lily, all right? I'm gonna find her.

Will you stay with me?

Ray?

Just go to sleep.

Will you lie down next to me?

What the fuck? Ray, stop.

Get the fuck off of me. Stop it.

What? What the fuck are you doing? I said stop.

I asked you to lay down next to me. I don't want to have sex with you.

Are you serious?

You're such a cocky. What the fuck is that supposed to mean? You wanted me

you were with Matt.

How dare you? How dare you bring Matt into this? Listen to me, you pompous

of shit. I never would have fucked you. I never would have done that to Matt.

What, because I didn't pay you?

Well, you want money?

So what'd you want?

Huh? How much do I have to pay to get a stripper in the back room, huh? What do

I have to pay, huh?

Huh? $20?

Get out!

Get out!

Get out of here!

Matt was right. You are fucking crazy!

I should have never brought you on the trip! Get out!

Good to go.

You want me to drive?

No, I got it.

Sure? Yeah.

Maybe we'll find something.

I thought you checked the fucking car, man. I did.

Then why are we, like, totally out of coolant? What the fuck is that?

Maybe it sprung a leak. Yeah, or maybe you're a fucking idiot.

Watch your mouth.

Well, fuck you!

Guys! And I don't even know why you're on this fucking trip, man.

You act like you're all fucking important, like you're the only one

to Matt. Whatever. Fuck you, Gray. I mean, just because you can't take

responsibility for your own life doesn't mean you have to take it out on other

people. What the fuck does that mean? I don't know. Why don't you ask your

pregnant girlfriend?

Now, fuck you.

Oh, what, you're going to kick my ass, Gray? Yeah, that'd be a real fucking

shocker. You know why you're pitiful, man?

Your girlfriend's pregnant, you're sleeping with Lily, and you're trying to

anyone you can. You can.

Come on.

Guys, stop it. Gray, get off him.

Gray, get out of it.

Yeah, looks like you got yourself a leak.

I can get a part.

Have a Reddit for you by tomorrow.

Is there a motel or a campground or anything like that? Are you looking at

I live down the road a bit.

You're more than welcome to camp up there and back.

Dinner's at six.

I'll have Rachel, my wife, make a little extra.

Come if you like.

No skin off my back How

old

are you gray wait 28 You

remind me a bit of my oldest son

He's younger than you.

They've got the same kind of energy.

What's in the container?

Um, that's for a friend.

Like a gift?

Yeah. Yeah, like a gift.

We're thankful for the food we're about to eat, thankful for our health and good

spirits, and for the company we have tonight.

God bless America. Amen.

Amen. Thank you.

Well, now, y 'all don't be shy. I mean, being polite don't fill your belly, does

it?

Amen. So are you going to show our guest your karate video?

Hell yeah.

It's a green belt, karate.

It's like 20 kids punching and kicking each other until they fall down. It's

really hilarious.

I mean, it's really cool.

So, um, Katie showed me a photo of your oldest son?

Eric, yeah.

He's serving in a rack.

He should be home by Christmas.

From one desert to another.

So, Gray, where are you from?

D .C.

My dad's a congressman.

Fancy wines.

I think there was a plan.

See, President Kennedy's assassination was a mean to an end. Like, is it really

so strange that the main people in power in Nixon's cabinet are the same people

in power today?

This man speaks the truth.

You know, it saddens me how things are right now.

Our country is so lost.

Hell, it's been hijacked.

Our sons and daughters kidnapped.

I hope you boys know how lucky you are.

Our son sent pictures.

It was just kids with guns. It's bullshit.

Dave.

Sorry.

So, is that why you moved out here?

You're, like, taking it to the man?

No. No, we moved here so our kids could grow up normal.

Normal. You're like in the middle of nowhere, yeah.

Don't disrespect me.

You're a guest in my house sitting at my table eating my food.

I know you, Gray.

I know what you're about.

What do you really know about me?

I got a beautiful family, my own house. I live life on my own terms.

And I'm not searching anymore, which is more than I can say for you.

Well, you're not my father.

And I'm not your son, so thanks for the meal.

I think Matthew would have really liked it here.

He called me, asked me to take him to Mexico like we always talked about when

were kids.

And I never called him back.

It's so fucked.

You know, like, here I am, this rich asshole kid who said everything in his

life handed to him.

Matthew dies this horrible death, and here I am.

Looking at the...

What

are you so angry about anyway?

My father.

I'm so scared I'm going to end up like him.

You're scared you're going to end up like your father?

I don't want to be the same type of father.

No one's saying you have to be.

My mother drowned when I was seven years old.

And my father pretty much went

crazy after that, you know.

And I hated him for it. You know, I really blamed him.

I hated him after he died.

And all that anger.

It was exhausting.

Anyway, I think you'll be a good father.

I'll give you a Spanish word for it. Okay, okay, okay. Dan.

Oh, that's easy.

Bailar. Bailar. Bailar. Very good.

Very impressive.

Bailar.

You guys are retarded. Oh, wait, wait, wait. I got a good one.

Buck. Where is Buck?

Do you think Buck is in here?

Cabron is asshole. I know that one. Cabron.

Yeah.

Excuse me. Where is La Barra Cabron?

Here it is. Buck.

Chinga.

Chinga. Chinga. Chinga is fuck.

That's weird.

Chinga yuca, bro.

Very nice. Very nice.

I have a funny feeling we're going to make a lot of friends in Africa.

Alright, alright, alright.

New game, new game, new game. New game.

Favorite color?

Orange.

Great. I don't have a favorite color.

Come on, everybody has a favorite color. Dude, I'm named after a color. I hate

colors. I don't like colors.

You don't like colors? I don't like colors, man.

What was Matthew's favorite color? Green.

He always wore green.

He was like a fucking frog person or something.

Red.

Red was his favorite color.

You know that?

Yeah.

Yes, it changed that.

Some people know their place, their home.

For others, it's not so simple.

I want to go swimming in a lake.

Hmm. Big dream there.

Shut up. What do you want to do?

I want to see a real old -fashioned cowboy rodeo. Ooh.

Yeehaw. I was reading about this Native American ceremony they have in New

Mexico.

So they go on this 20 -mile journey up to the peak of this mountain barefoot

over rocks and dirt and all that. When they get to the top, they slaughter a

deer. Right?

After that, they give thanks to the deer. They pray for the deer.

And they have this great big feast.

Or we can go to, like, a monster truck rally. Yeah, that sounds good.

Oh, man.

Cowboys, Indians, and monster truck rallies. We're a patriotic group.

Let's go to the state fair.

We'll go to the state fair. Come on.

State fairs are cool.

Fine, we'll go to the deer slaughter.

So, how exactly did you know Matt?

we met in foster care.

When he first came in, you know, he's such a tiny little guy.

But tough.

Scared.

I mean, we all were, you know.

Yeah, it's like, we didn't even really know each other that long.

You know, only a couple months, really.

But when he came in, there was just something about him.

You know,

We just knew each other. We're like brothers or something, but he got lucky.

He got out quick.

He was still young and cute.

How long were you there for?

I don't even expect you to believe this.

I'm George Bush's third cousin.

You're my dad.

Elliot, get your camera out.

I want you to interview me.

I really want you to.

Where are you from?

What? Your accent.

I don't have an accent.

You have an accent.

Okay, so why don't you go ahead and give me your full name.

Lillian Sally Waters.

Okay. Is that good?

Yeah, that's good.

All right, so where is it that you're from?

D .C. area.

No, I mean, you know, like your family and stuff.

I don't want to talk about my family.

But you asked me to interview you.

What do you want to know?

Are you an only child?

No. I have an older brother in Florida, but we don't really talk.

And your parents, how's your relationship with them?

Uh, the relationship might be overstating it.

I am a child of divorce.

Do you ever feel like you weren't born to the right people?

That's how it kind of is with us. We just don't really...

Get each other.

Do they know what you do for a living?

The stripping? Yeah.

No.

I'm in school.

Okay,

now this is something I've been meaning to ask you. What's with the pills? Uh

-oh.

What's with the felt?

They help me sleep.

And that's it?

No, that's not all.

They, um... They make me feel better.

Sometimes.

It runs in the family.

Like mother, like daughter.

Did I tell you when my friend died?

Yes, you did.

Yeah, he was very sick.

How long were you friends for?

Since we were kids.

Were you two into trouble?

Breaking all the girls' hearts?

Yeah. Well, he did.

He always did.

Not me, man.

Always got my heart broken.

Where do you see yourself in ten years?

Jesus, I don't know.

Ten years.

I don't know. Do you want children?

I don't think so.

Marriage?

No, I don't know. You never know.

Kids and husbands and dogs.

I just don't know.

That's in my future.

So why do you strip?

Honestly? Yeah.

I like the attention.

I like the power.

And I love the money.

It gives me a lot of freedom to do whatever I want to do.

Does it?

Yeah, it does.

Okay, last question.

What happened between you and Matthew?

I left him.

I just left him one day.

We're going to get married.

And is there anything you would like to say to him, if you could?

The truth is that Matthew is a great friend.

Sounds good.

Yeah, but I hadn't seen him in a while.

I wasn't visiting home.

Wasn't around really I'm sure you understood

Do

you live around here?

Gonna be hot today.

Come on Elliot, come in!

No, I can't. No, it's nice. It's not that cold.

I can't swim.

You can't swim?

I mean, I can't even float. The minute my feet don't touch the ground, I go

right under.

Really? Yeah.

Floating's easy. I'll teach you how to float.

Can I stand on it?

Yeah.

It's not deep.

Come on, I'll teach you.

All right, you got me? I got you.

Okay. There we go.

And now what?

Relax.

Just relax.

Yeah, I'm relaxed. You don't look relaxed.

I'm relaxed.

You want to put your head back?

Yeah.

Okay, breathe.

There you go.

Don't lick them, don't lick them. I won't, I won't.

It's nice, isn't it?

Okay, and just a new one on him, okay?

Okay. When I got you.

Why does anyone want my meat? This is my meat. I want a carrot.

Okay, I'll bet you this carrot.

Okay.

Higher, lower, higher, lower, higher, lower. I say it, right?

High.

Oh.

So,

who are you, Ellie?

Come on.

I don't know. This is such a great idea.

What, you can give it, but you can't take it?

Okay, fine. What do you want to know?

Um, okay, I'll give you a different question.

Do you have a girlfriend?

No.

Boyfriend? No.

Why not?

Uh, I don't know.

Have you ever had sex?

Yeah.

Did you like it?

Yeah.

Okay. More serious.

Um, where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Um, somewhere different.

I don't know, maybe with like a family.

Is that what you want?

Yeah. I mean, don't we all?

Where are you from?

Originally, I'm from just outside of D .C., a town called Chantilly.

Do you know that song?

What song?

Chantilly Lake. Oh, yeah.

Had a pretty face.

And a ponytail hanging down.

Yeah, yeah.

Sort of it. That one.

Yeah, my mom used to sing that to me, like, all the time. She thought it was

very funny.

Where's your father?

He died when I was in the system.

I was at this group home in Baltimore.

I guess I was 10 years old.

And nasty old bitch.

That's what we used to call her.

She wouldn't let me go to the funeral. She said it cost too much, you know,

gas.

So I decided to take the bus.

But she found out.

Called the cops and they picked me up at the bus depot.

Where would you say you call home now?

I don't know.

I mean... Maybe that's what I'm looking for.

Maybe I'm already here.

Come on.

Yeah, I'm tired. I'm just going to watch TV and hang out.

Oh, boo.

You sure?

I'm sure. I'm sure. Go. Go have fun.

Don't get too crazy, though, kid.

Okay. Okay.

Mom, it's me. It's Lily.

Yeah, Lily. How are you? I'm good. I'm all right.

I've been trying to reach you.

I was out of town for a while.

Oh, cool.

Where'd you go?

I went on a trip, Lily.

What's with all the questions?

Sorry.

School's going really good.

You getting good grades?

Yeah, yeah.

Good? Yeah, it's been good.

So, um... Mom, I was, uh, I was thinking.

I was thinking, you know, and I was thinking about maybe... I was thinking

coming home.

Lily, it's not a good time right now.

I'm really busy.

Yeah, um... I was thinking about just maybe for a little bit.

what your father and I said.

Well, Frank is not my father.

Jesus, Lily, stop being so spoiled. We're sick of it. I don't want you doing

drugs and drinking in my house.

Mom, I want to come home.

Lily, you're too old for this.

Mom, I kind of need to come home.

Hey, guys.

You're probably right now wondering where I am.

Um, I had to move on.

I couldn't stay any longer.

But I wanted to say goodbye and thank you for everything.

Take care of Maddie for me, okay?

Maybe I'll see you on the road sometime.

It's beautiful here.

Are you afraid of being alone?

It's all I've ever known.

Well, what are you afraid of?

Water.

Oh, but like, like deeper.

Are you afraid of dying?

No.

I mean, it's the one thing we have in common, right?

Yeah.

This is a good way to say goodbye.

Let's pack up our stuff.

We're gonna move down there.

I think I'm going to leave tomorrow.

Where are you going to go?

Seattle.

To Amanda.

I don't want to lose her.

I think I'm going to stay here a while.

All right, man.

Cheers.

Thank you.

Hey, Elliot.

Welcome home.

Some people know their place, their home, their comfort.

For others, it's not so simple.

There is a home for each of us.

For some, it's just harder to find.