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- ♪ I'm not waving ♪

♪ I'm drowning ♪

- [crying] Devon, I'm so sorry.

- ♪ I'm not flying ♪

- Look, I know-- I know you trust me.

- ♪ Just falling ♪

- [sobbing]

- ♪ Catch me ♪

- I just--

I just hate myself.

Everything that I've done to everyone, and...

to myself and I'm...

- ♪ Asked you a question ♪

♪ Would you throw me a line ♪

- I didn't mean to hurt you, too.

I just can't live with myself anymore.

[sobbing]

I just want to die.

- ♪ I wanted to drift away ♪

♪ ♪

- What did you do?

- I told Scott about you.

I was just so scared.

Tell me you're not mad at me, Devon.

Okay?

Look, I can't lose you, too.

Not now, I just--I can't.

[sobbing]

I hate myself.

I just-- I just wish I could die.

- Well, then die then, Grace.

- ♪ I'm not waving ♪

♪ I'm drowning ♪

[somber rock music]

- ♪ What they talking about? ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Every time I pull up, they say "I see misbehaving" ♪

♪ Look at the mess I've been making ♪

♪ Trying, I'm crazy, check for me--deal with it ♪

♪ I'm trying to learn ♪

♪ 365, I say, "Get in there, kill it" ♪

♪ 24/7 ♪

♪ No, your money can't buy it so don't even try ♪

♪ Telling me to be quiet, telling me to be quiet ♪

♪ But I'ma keep running, keep running, keep running ♪

♪ Keep running, my back out ♪

♪ My out ♪

♪ My ♪

♪ ♪

- I just wish the stupid divorce was done.

Mom won't even get out of bed.

What?

It's not like she ever did.

I mean, that's why he left in the first place.

- Stop blaming her.

- Faith, can you just please stay?

- It's hard on the whole family.

- Mom's fine, okay?

And Dad just needed his own place for a little while.

It's temporary. - It's not temporary.

And I miss him.

He's the only one in that house that actually liked me.

- Are you feeling abandoned?

- Why didn't he take me with him?

- You're making a scene.

- Let your sister have her feelings.

- Oh, don't worry.

Nothing stops her from having her feelings

all over the place.

- Faith, keeping everything bottled up,

it's not healthy.

- This is not how we handle things.

[door closes]

- You see this?

- What is it?

- Grace's parents talked to the cops.

Published ten minutes ago,

and apparently it's going in tomorrow's paper.

I'm already getting calls from parents.

This thing is spreading like wildfire.

- I thought we'd have a day to regroup.

- Yeah, well, we don't have a day.

So what's the new plan?

- I called the crisis team last night.

We're setting up emergency counseling

in the student lounge.

- The cops want to talk to Devon.

See what he knows.

- Did they name him in the article?

- No, but it won't take long for the rumors to fly

once the cops show up.

- This is horrible.

How did I miss this?

- We all did.

- After their parents got divorced,

I was worried about Faith.

Not Grace.

I'm never gonna be able to forgive myself.

- You will.

But you won't forget.

And that'll make the difference the next time.

- I'll get the group started

and then go find Devon.

- Okay.

I'll go talk to the cops.

- [sighs]

- Larry. - Yeah?

- We need to get ahead of this.

Suicide can be contagious.

[somber music]

- Yeah.

♪ ♪

- You shoulda told me.

- About what?

- About the video that Grace sent you,

the one where she said she wanted to kill herself.

- How do you know about that?

- I saw it and Faith saw it.

And now her family has questions and so do I.

- Is that why my parents are freaking?

- Yeah, Devon, and they're not the only ones.

You need to go to my office and wait for me.

- Uh, Miss Howard. - I'll be right here.

♪ ♪

[phone buzzes]

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

- She killed herself over you.

- Whoa, that's not what happened.

- Then what did happen? - I don't know.

- Did she send you a video or not?

- Yes. - What did she say in it?

- It's her own story, Navi. It's not mine to tell.

- Did you dump her?

Did you tell her you'd dump me

and then just string her along instead?

- We weren't like that. - I've had it with your lies!

You broke Grace in two,

just like you're doing to me.

- I did not mean to hurt you.

Or her.

I didn't think she was gonna kill herself.

If I thought that, I woulda done something.

I thought she was drunk.

[indistinct whispering]

- You're a monster.

- That is enough.

This isn't a show! - What are you looking at?

[indistinct whispering]

- You two need to stop playing out

your personal problems in the hallway.

- I didn't do that. Navi did that.

- She has a legitimate reason to be upset.

We all do.

- Grace was devastated in that video.

What was she apologizing for?

- I don't know.

Grace sent me crazy stuff all the time.

- Crazy stuff? - She'd get wasted

and cry or dance, or whatever.

I didn't think this was any different.

- So you ignored it?

You shoulda told someone.

Even if you didn't think it was important at the time,

things changed when she died.

I want an explanation.

Why didn't you say anything?

- If you die in an accident, everybody cries.

If you commit suicide, everybody just...disappears.

She deserved to be cried over.

- But her parents deserved to know what happened that night.

- All Grace ever wanted was for her parents to be proud of her.

For her dad to come back home.

For her mom to get out of bed and smile and mean it.

She wouldn't have wanted them to be ashamed of her.

Any more.

- I understand that you wanted to protect Grace's memory.

But you have to understand that this looks bad.

I want to help you,

but I don't know if I can protect you.

- I don't need your protection.

- Don't be naive.

Outside of this school, the world is the world,

and it's not your intentions that will be judged.

It is your actions.

- My skin?

- Yeah.

It's gonna look like you lied because you were involved.

- I didn't lie.

- Omission is a form of lying.

At least the police will think so.

- Police? - Yes, Devon.

The police.

A hit-and-run is a criminal investigation.

You had critical information that you didn't share.

- Oh, God. - Are you getting this now?

- We are held to a higher standard.

And this time, you slipped.

We just have to try not to let this turn into

a full freefall.

- How?

[phone buzzes]

- I have to get this. We are not done.

[phone chimes]

Hi, Faith. [door closes]

How you doing, honey?

- Mom wants to cancel the school memorial.

- Is that what you want?

- I mean, it's what has to be done.

- I think it's really important.

I think it could be healing for everyone.

Maybe I could speak to your mom.

- No, she doesn't want to talk about it.

She just wants it cancelled.

- Okay.

But I still want to sit down with all of you.

Suicide can bring up questions

that seem impossible to answer.

- Faith? - I gotta go.

- Okay.

[somber music]

♪ ♪

- I know this sounds weird,

but knowing she jumped,

it doesn't feel as random.

It feels like there's finally an answer.

Like something's settled.

I don't feel--

I don't feel as scared anymore.

- That's good, Laurin.

- Is it true you saw the video?

- Scott, I can't get into that.

- Did she actually say she killed herself over Devon?

That's what people are saying. Even Navi thinks so.

- Well, Navi's upset. - So am I.

- Honey, I can see that.

And we should have a session later today.

But there's something else

I need to talk to you about right now.

With everything that's happened,

Grace's family wants to cancel the memorial.

They don't want anything done at the school.

- Nothing? Not even the mural?

- Truth is, student council didn't think

it was an appropriate gesture.

- 'Cause Devon was trying to hide.

- Please don't make this worse.

- But he's the one who shot it down.

This is bullshit.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Look at the bleed here. - We're gonna lose two heads.

- Okay.

[typing]

- Can you go print that out for me, please?

- Yeah.

- What do you want?

- I--I just want to say

that I'm really sorry you're going through all of this.

- Are we suddenly friends?

[soft music]

♪ ♪

- You think that I knew about Devon and Grace.

- Grace was your best friend. So yeah, you knew.

- I didn't. I swear.

- Please.

- I feel just as betrayed as you do.

- Not possible.

- Grace was my best friend.

I thought we told each other everything.

And then for her to do this, with him...

- What do you care what she did with Devon?

- Girls should stick together.

They shouldn't sleep with each other's boyfriends.

Grace knew how I felt about that.

I would never cover for her for something like this.

Grace had a lot of secrets.

She kept things from Faith. She kept things from me.

If we didn't know, there's no way you could have known.

You're not the only one that got played.

- [scoffs]

I don't know what to believe anymore.

- Neither do I.

I'm just so angry at her.

She was so selfish,

to hurt us all like that and then just leave.

- To kill herself,

she must have been going through stuff we didn't know about.

- Just 'cause your life is hard

doesn't mean you get to bail and ruin everybody else's.

- Well, at least she didn't steal your boyfriend

behind your back.

- Yeah. Right.

[dramatic music]

- So what's gonna happen to him now?

- The police will ask him some questions

about where he was when she called--

- Wait. What? The police?

- Yeah.

- He told he was at the park, playing basketball.

There were other guys there,

so that means that there were witnesses.

I can talk to them if they need to hear it from me.

- Honey...I know you want to help,

but there's nothing we can do now.

Devon kept that video from Grace's family.

They have the right to know why.

- Well, what did he say?

- He said he didn't want her parents to be ashamed.

- He was trying to protect her.

- That's what he said.

- I know in my heart he's a good guy.

I just don't understand why all of this is happening to us.

How could everything have been a lie?

- I don't know.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Oh, I feel like I did this.

I caused this by making that scene.

- No, honey, you didn't.

- But he's in trouble, isn't he?

This is big.

- God, I hope not.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

[sobs]

♪ ♪

[clock ticking]

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

Bad day?

- Really bad.

Scott is so distant.

He doesn't talk.

He's got his face in that notebook constantly.

I'm scared I'm losing him.

- Scott was really disappointed

that he doesn't get to paint that mural for Grace.

Scott's an artist.

The way he expresses himself through his drawings,

it's different than how you and I grieve.

We're criers, right?

- Yeah.

- Feels good to cry.

[suspenseful music]

But not everyone handles it that way.

And Scott's way is to create.

Scott will handle this the way that he needs to.

Just give him time.

Anytime you need to cry, you can come to me.

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

["Attention" by Sophie Rose plays]

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