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Hey, stepmom.

I miss you.

I hope you're doing okay back at home while dad is on his business trip.

Christmas is coming up, and I know you've been expecting me, but I'm sorry

say I'm not coming home for the holidays this time.

Don't be mad.

Now that I'm 19, I feel like I'm old enough to decide if I want to come home.

Not that I haven't loved our time together.

I love you.

And don't think I forgot your Christmas present.

Look inside.

Yeah, come in.

Sweetie? Mom?

What are you doing?

I got your letter.

You've been avoiding me, haven't you?

No, no, I just... Honey, what is going on?

I mean, I thought it was weird when I didn't get a call back from you for

but... When your letter arrived, I knew something was off.

You've never shut me out like this before.

I don't know. I just haven't felt like myself.

Yeah?

I don't even know where to begin.

Well, I hate this place for one.

I hate my major. I don't know what I'm doing. I can't stand the kids.

I don't even know why I joined a fraternity. Everyone's...

Weird, wild, and mean.

The, uh, the big guy with the blonde, spiky hair hit on me on the way in.

I mean,

it seems like a sweet, sleepy town. It can't be that bad.

Oh, you have no idea.

There's not even a grocery store ten miles from here.

There's no cool restaurants to go to, or even any...

No girls?

There's girls.

None that catch your eye?

Not really, no.

I just don't even know why I came here.

Alex, are the guys here giving you a hard time?

Are you asleep?

I love you.

I love you too, baby.

You don't have to stay here, you know.

I don't?

No.

I mean, I would always love to have you back at the house.

I mean, I don't want you making any rushed decisions, you know, so maybe...

take until the end of the semester?

No, no, I can't. I just can't. You know, and then if you feel the same way, you

can stay at the house while you look at options for transferring to another

university or doing some of those online courses.

Think it over?

No, I'm ready. I can pack my stuff.

Are you sure?

I'm sure.

back up for my toothbrush in.

Honey, I am exhausted.

Give me a minute and I will help you look.

Sounds good.

Oh, you got the necklace I got you.

Did I get the right size?

I did get it.

Um, I actually...

have not tried it on yet.

such a good boy for mommy.

It's the least I could do.

I wish I could give you more, to be honest.

More?

Yeah, more.

This is more than I could ask for.

Sweetie. Oh, I'm sorry.

Today really took it out of me.

I'm gonna go to bed, okay?

Yeah, okay.

Good morning.

Hot cocoa?

Thanks.

What are you doing?

I've changed my mind. I should go back.

What do you mean?

It was a mistake for me to come back. I never should have.

Alex...

What do you mean?

I can't stay here.

But you don't want to stay there either?

No.

Sweetheart, yesterday you were just saying that you... Yes, but I should go

back. Even if I hate it.

Alex.

Sweetheart.

Why are you acting like this with me?

Like... What do you mean?

Why are you talking to me like... Like we've never touched?

You're talking to me like you've never kissed me.

Like your lips have never touched mine.

It's driving me fucking crazy.

Alex... Don't.

Isn't it obvious to you that I've fallen in love with you?

And being here is absolutely fucking killing me?

Or are you just going to pretend like what we did never happened?

Alex, that was a mistake, and I knew it was wrong, and I never should have... I

wanted it.

I wanted it more than anything.

Didn't you?

Alex, at least let me help you.

You know, sweetie, if you change your mind again, you always have a place at

home with me.

And, uh, you know, if you think this is what's best, then

I understand.

Yep.

Alex, I hope you know I love you so, so much.

I'm gonna miss you. And I'm proud of you for doing what's most

important.

This isn't it.

What?

This isn't what's most important.

Well, it has to be. Sometimes you have to walk away

from what you want most.

Is that what you're doing?

No.

Call me if you need anything.

If walking away is that easy for you, maybe this is the best thing.

I see the way you look at me.

Say what?

Say goodbye since it's so easy for you.

I want this.

I want you.

um um

Oh.

Fuck.

Oh fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

which I needed.

Inside me.

Oh, fuck.