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Last night, something very sad happened.

Charlotte and Iris and Emily may not be with us anymore.

But they're all together with their mummy now.

Was it depression...or anxiety?

A combination.

Come on! Don't be a prick! Kate!

Come on, kids.

I mean, it's Tom that matters.

-He freakin' adores you. -Is that right?

I don't care.

Just give it to her! Give it to her now!

Kate!

They're not answering!

See here?

They've all been injected with something.

And look at this.

Pine needles.

In Emily's pajamas and her feet.

What did she do?

Yeah!

We met on a bus.

Uh, number 19. Pissing down with rain.

I was in a shitty mood, and there she was.

Top deck. Left-hand side.

I saw her there every morning for --

It must've been weeks before I talked to her.

Sorry to -- Uh, am I --

Is this going back too far or is this --

You can tell us whatever you like.

Whatever you think is relevant.

I asked her out. We went to some real divey bar.

You know sometimes when you're with someone

and you have to work at it and it's awkward...

and you run out of things to say?

We never ran out of things to say.

It was easy with Kate.

Tell us about the girls.

They were beautiful.

She loved them. Please don't think she didn't.

She had issues after Charlotte was born.

I got her help -- counseling and antidepressants.

My mum moved in for a bit, so...

As Charlotte got older, Kate got better.

She was...

Could you tell us about the car crash?

She was only just over the limit.

Yeah, but the thought of going to court

must have been weighing heavy.

She knew it was only a fine.

And a one-year ban.

Yeah. It wasn't great, but it wasn't...

Even on the day, she was good, wasn't she?

You wouldn't have known.

We do bath time together normally,

um, then read a story or whatever.

But it was late, so Kate said we'd skip the bath

and she'd put them to bed.

So how long before you went upstairs?

Ten minutes, maybe. Fifteen.

I unloaded the dishwasher, locked up.

Switched out the lights.

We can stop whenever you want, Tom.

No, no.

She'd closed their eyes.

Tucked them up with their teddies and everything.

They were already dead.

D-Did she say anything to you?

And there was nothing that sparked it?

An argument?

I've been going over and over it, but t-there's nothing.

There's...

There's nothing.

You know, if you want to see the girls,

w-we can arrange that.

No. I don't think I...

Ruth, it's fine. You stay there.

Stay there.

Has he said why?

No. I don't -- I don't think he knows.

Sorry.

Did she say anything... at the end, Tom?

I have to look my best for her, don't I?

Yeah.

According to the multitudes of Your tender mercies,

blot out my transgressions.

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity

and cleanse me from my sin.

For I acknowledge my transgressions,

and my sin is ever before me.

In sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life

through our Lord Jesus Christ,

who will transform our frail bodies

that they may be conformed to his glorious body,

who died, was buried, and rose again for us.

To him be glory forever.

Amen.

Thank you.

Bye.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I'm just gonna talk to this lady.

Aye.

Hi.

You okay?

Not really.

I'm, um, I'm Jess, one of Kate's friends.

I'm Sasha.

Sasha?

From teacher training?

Uh, yeah. That's right.

Yeah. She talked about you.

Did she?

Yeah. She'd have been glad you came.

Thanks.

Listen. Did you, um...

Did you see she had it in her?

To do something like this.

No.

Did you?

It's okay. It's all right.

Puts on a good show, doesn't he?

In you go. Come on, then.

In we go.

It was nice to meet you.

Yeah. You too.

Do they always come to funerals?

Yeah. It's just protocol.

Tom, I'm so sorry.

-Such a baby!

Elliot, pack it in.

What are you meant to do?

Oh, Christ.

Who's that with Sandra?

Fuck knows.

She really picks her moments, eh?

Come on.

I'm not sure it's possible to sum up three lives.

Three beautiful, vibrant... smiley little lives.

I didn't know how to do it. I didn't know where to start.

So I, um, I wrote a list. Sorry.

"Oh, dear."

Those were Emily's first words.

I think probably, um, because we were trying so desperately

not to swear in front of her.

And when you have a baby for the first time,

it gives you an awful lot to swear about.

Iris...

...knew all the words to "The Greatest Showman."

And after watching it for the hundredth time,

so, unfortunately, did we.

If Charlotte ever saw a bee -- a sleepy bee, she'd call it...

...she'd insist that we saved it.

And she wasn't satisfied until she saw it fly away.

She always had to watch them fly away.

Come on, son. Come on.

-Say hi. -Hi.

Go ask Dad to film it. He'll take it.

Okay! Can I film it?

Yeah. Course you can. Just give me a sec.

Jess, this is, um, Luke.

-Hi. -All right.

And, uh, this is -- this is Steve.

-Hi. -All right.

Nice service.

Aye. Nice.

Yeah. It was lovely.

Hi, Tom. How are you?

Hi. I'm fine.

Your drunken behavior shouldn't waste police time.

Would you like one?

Apologize to Steve.

-For what, Dad? I've not done -- -For being a pain in the arse.

Sorry, Jess.

It's okay.

It's the fire.

No. Bollocks. He's been like it since birth.

Thank you.

Thank you.

-Oh, my God. -It's unbelievable.

I heard she put a lock on their bedroom door.

Jesus.

God. As a mother, you just can't imagine it.

-Jess. -'Cause do you know what?

As a non-mother, I can totally imagine it.

That's not what I meant. Come on.

How old is he?

He's 28.

In a few months.

Why? Is Steve pissed off?

He'll get over it.

Yeah. Wait till he hears he's moving in.

Don't be drinking it.

You okay?

Didn't even get a mention at her own children's funeral.

Now they're cutting her out.

Like a cancer.

Fucking bastards.

Take your bag off.

Hi. Uh, Jessica Milner.

M-I-L-N-E-R.

I had it first. I don't know what you're --

Give it back.

Lovely. Please take a seat.

Yeah. Thank you.

Uh, boys. Boys!

Quietly. It's a doctor's -- Don't fight.

-Don't fight. -Get off me!

Shh!

-Jessica? -Yeah.

Um, Elliot, I'm not gonna be long, all right?

Just watch your brother.

My partner's gonna join us.

My friend died.

Three going back in today.

Watch for the flash.

And that...is them all in.

All right?

Yeah.

What round is this for you?

Uh, second.

Best of luck.

-Thank you. -Thanks.

Have a little lie-down for 10 minutes.

-Cup of tea? -I'm fine, thanks

She'll have a milk, no sugar. Thanks.

-Hey.

Shit.

I'm so sorry.

Oh, I was expecting it.

We both were.

You know, it's just the f-first time.

Oh.

Come here.

I'm gonna get snot on you.

It's okay.

Three of them, Steve.

I think you just need to focus on all the positive things.

-Like?

Like...

...your carbon footprint?

-Wow. -No kids. No emissions.

You're really scraping the barrel there.

And you have full control of your bladder.

-Not always. -A vagina that doesn't look like

it's been mauled by a pit bull.

You've got it so good.

I don't know what you're moaning about.

Cheers. Thanks for that.

Kate?

You -- You know what I mean.

Girls are asking for you.

Yeah. Thank you, Carol.

Enjoy it while it lasts.

Kate!

What are we supposed to do with this?

Stick it on the fridge?

It's the second time this week, Dylan.

Steve-o!

He lost his bike.

I lost my bike, Steve-o.

Lost a lot more than that by the looks of it.

When did you lose it?

Lose what?

The bike, Dyl--

Jesus.

Nice kicks.

C-Can I keep 'em?

You know what, mate? You have 'em.

My treat.

Are you not getting a bit old for boozing in the forest?

Says who?

Dylan, please just put the trackies on.

I'm doing it.

When was the last time you saw her?

I saw her, um...

I saw -- I saw her on that night.

What was she like?

Was she well liked at school?

Yeah. She was loved.

You and Kate -- You were close?

Yeah. She was my best friend.

So you would've talked quite a lot?

All the time.

What about?

Work. The kids.

Charlotte?

Yeah.

Yeah. I was there through all of that.

Her cerebral palsy diagnosis. Everything.

Did Kate talk about her marriage at all?

Just...normal stuff.

You know, like she's messy, Tom's tidy.

-That kind of thing. -But nothing big?

Not really.

They seemed happy?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I can't lift you.

Come on.

-Do you need help? -No.

Okay.

I'm sorry!

-I'm sorry!

It's fine. It's okay.

I love you.

-I love you too. -No. I mean it.

I mean it.

Are you gonna be sick?

Maybe.

Mm.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. For sure.

Okay. Wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait.

Look. This is gonna be right here.

I don't want to feel like this anymore.

Oh, dear God. Look at the state of this.

Piss off!

See what I have to put up with?

All right. Sleep it off.

Night-night.

So, on the night of the Ceilidh...

-Here you go. -Thanks.

Look. Here's one.

-Oh, my gosh.

Is that her?

Ah. We were off our faces all the time.

Couple of pills, couple of pints.

You could do a night out on a tenner.

Yeah.

That was Kate.

What did she say when she talked about me?

Uh, that you were best mates.

-You shared a flat, right? -Mm.

That was the last time I saw her.

We fell out.

Oh. I didn't know that.

Yeah.

About what?

-Um -- -Sorry.

No. Uh, it's none of my business.

Uh, no. No. It's fine.

Uh...

I'd -- I'd split up with my boyfriend.

First boyfriend.

He was an arsehole, but I was heartbroken.

Kate was out one night.

Tom was there. And, uh...

How are you?

I'll be fine.

I know. But how are you?

I'm really fucking depressed.

Said I was better than my ex, I was gorgeous.

Like he knew everything I needed to hear.

It's an entirely one-sided process.

All Steve's got to do is wank into a cup.

Biggest problem he's got is aiming straight.

For you, it's all drugs and scans and...

-Yeah. It messes with you. -Of course it does.

I look back, and...it's so obvious.

I should have seen through it.

Talk to Steve.

-How? -Exactly like this.

Just exactly like we're doing now.

Tell him what you're feeling. Tell him what you want.

He just -- He didn't like us being friends.

I keep thinking...if I hadn't let him get in my head,

if...if I'd have been a better friend.

Easy to look back now, I suppose.

Yeah.

Sandra tell you about Luke?

Yeah.

He's a personal trainer, apparently.

Course he is.

Wanker.

Does she even think about the boys?

Even once?

Does she not think they've been through a lot recently?

I had sex with Tom.

I was drunk.

And it was just once.

Fuck.

When?

After the first IVF.

I was angry.

You were angry?

-Not angry. -With who?

-No. I didn't mean that. -Well, that's what you said.

Sad. I meant sad.

-I was sad. -I know.

-I was fucking sad too. -I know. I'm sorry.

But everyone's saying this is Kate.

And I know her. She wouldn't do this.

And I...

It was c-- It was controlling or...

The sex. It was controlling.

I felt like he manipulated me.

And I don't know. I...

I haven't told the police, but I think I should.

Shouldn't I?

'Cause it might be relevant, mightn't it?

And...

Steve, you have to tell me what to do.

Yeah.

We think he did it.

We think Tom killed them.

So...

Did you drive?

Remember I told you this might sting a little bit, Lew.

Okay? You're so brave.

Just a little... It's only gonna sting a little.

Just a little bit.

Oh. Okay. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Look. Done. Done, done, done, done, done.

Good boy. You're so brave.

Now we're just gonna put the jungle plaster on.

That wasn't so bad, was it?

So brave.

Ready?

Okay.

Okay.

Okay. Right.

Ready. Steady.

Go.

You were so brave! You were so brave!

All right. Go get cereal.

Go. Go find your brother.

Tell him he can get some for you, okay?

Did you wait till the embryos went in before you told me?

Steve.

"We had sex on or about

the 15th of September 2018."

There was a domineering element to the sex which unnerved me.

He pushed my face against the door.

There was never any discussion about it afterwards,

and it never happened again.

I didn't discuss it with my partner or anyone else.

Although from some things she said,

"I felt that Kate may have known."

You happy with that?

Yeah.

If you'd just have a quick scan through and sign it for me.

Sure.

We'll have to let Steve know.

I've already told him, so...

Rough day, eh?

What the fuck I done now?

Found your bike over near the Kendricks' house.

Didn't find my Nikes, did you?

Any idea how it got there?

Fuck knows.

Were you having a party?

Eighty quid those Nikes cost.

All your little pals on the nox, were they?

What night was that?

No comment.

Look. This isn't an interview.

You don't have to say "no comment."

Here.

Was it the night of the fire?

Did you see something?

I don't want to get anyone in the shit, Steve-o.

I don't want to feel like this anymore.

-Hello, Jess. -Hi.

Hello, love.

It's Carol. Sorry to be a pest.

Tom's been struggling to get hold of you.

Are you still okay to collect him from Callum and Ruth's?

Let me know.

Bye.

-You warm enough? -I'm fine.

Have you told the police...

...about what happened with us that time?

Why would I tell them that?

Don't you think it might matter?

Have youtold them?

No.

Do you want the electric blanket on?

Don't fuss, Mum.

Carol?

Oh.

I knew a bit of what Kate went through.

You know, with Charlotte.

Baby blues and...

It was different back then, though.

No one really talked about it.

Well, we don't know that's what it's about.

Not for sure.

Do we?

I don't know what to say to him.

Can I smoke?

Uh, not in here. Sorry, Dylan.

Do you mind if we call you Dylan?

It's my name, so...

We'd like to record this if it's all right with you.

Whatever.

How far away were you?

Eight meters, maybe.

And it was dark.

Yeah, but there was light from our fire, so...

It's, um, it's hot.

Thanks.

Which one of the girls was it?

Did you see?

Emily.

You're absolutely sure about that?

My little cousin's in her class at school.

She must've said something at the end, Tom.

S-She was running.

She fell.

And he caught up with her.

What do you want, Jess?

Who did?

Her dad.

Hi.

It's him.

We have a witness.

Jess?

Yeah.

Where are you?

I'm, um...I'm in the car.

I'll call you back.

You off?

I just need to pick the boys up.

She loved you so much. You know that?

She wasn't in her right mind at the end.

That's all I can think.

She wouldn't have done this to us

if she was in her right mind.

Yeah.

Love to the boys!

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

Mummy, no! No!