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English Subtitles by yavass September 2018

Hi, I'm Brian,

Hi.

Hey Dom....

Play the song....

You're killing me, honey.

Come on.

Why do you always want to listen to those weepy, sad songs ?

Sad songs make me happy,

Okay, one time, alright ?

We're not playing it 20 times in a row like we did in the last time, okay?

Thanks

- Hey ! - Hey !

- Hello. - Hi !

Just a beer.... tap ?

What kind, honey ? I'm not a mind reader

Ok....that one

This is like my favorite song.

Yeah, mine too.

Shit, you take cards?

ATM right over there

I got that

Thanks man

Come here.

- Chris. - Brian.

So, what... did you break your piggy bank ?

Yes, this is kinda my last hurrah !!

....my "Goodbye, money"

As in "Goodbye, money" !!

But you go and buy me this.

I've never been in one of these before....

Yes, it's a pretty scary place.

Are you....?

Gay ?

I do not know, I suck cock. Does that make me gay?

You know what? Fuck "gay", okay?

"Gay" is a comforting myth. Ain't that right, Dom ?

Hmm, comforting myth.

It's just, you know I think I might be too

Gay, queer, I do not know.

Not gay, I think I'm bi.... ....maybe.

I got this old lady...

We live together in Upper Darby.

She's pretty OK, but I do not know....

I get these like... "urges" you know ?

Sometimes I just got... I just need ...

Hot man on man action ?

Basically....

So...

So...

You live around here?

Yeah, come on in

.....watch your step. I'm a little bit of a pig

Oh fuck, is it okay?

Go ahead, man, sit

Bottoms up !

Stop ! Here !

What's all that?

This? I'm a writer,

Yes, I know, I write,

What, like books and stuff?

Yes, I got one out there, actually....

....published.

It is poetry, so yeah, it's kinda "fruity"

Take off your jacket, stay a while,

Can I use the bathroom?

Yeah man, it is through there,

What?

I like you !

You took your clothes off !

Yeah

Can I put these somewhere?

Yes, anywhere

Hit that light,

Come here.

Dude, not so hard

Sorry.

- It's Ok -I'm not really good at this.

Okay, just relax your mouth.

- OK ? - Yes.

- Better ! - Kiss Me !

- Wait, let me get a condom. - I need it.

Fuck ......!

Yes !

No....wait !

Not too fast, I'm gonna come

Dude, you feel so good inside me !

You feel so fucking good !

I want you to fuck me.

Dude, I kinda am....

No, I want you to really fuck me !

Fuck me !!!

Harder !!

I'm gonna come !!

Do it, do it !

You're intense.

I just want to hold you,

....like this forever.

Look.....

What's wrong ?

What's up ?

What's wrong ?

Man, come on, what's up ?

- Hey ? - Stop, stop !

Come on dude ! Are you wigging out ?

Hey man, come on ? What did I do ?

Come on.

Dude, just tell me what was it ! Was it me ?

Come on, what's up, man?

I should have my fucking head examined.

Come on, talk to me, wait !

Jesus, just tell me what did I do ? Was it me?

It's nothing. I shouldn't have, I'm not ...!!

I am sorry !

Drew.

Drew!

What you're yelling my name for, like that ?

Hey Beautiful !

Say my name again.

- Drew. - Slower, slower.

Drew.

Look at you in this light.

You look so beautiful,

.....so perfect.

Say it again,

Drew.

I'll taste your lips.

I love you.

Hug me.

Hey, say my name.

Drew.

- Say it again - Drew.

Say it again, slower.

Drew.

Take this off !

Say my name !

Drew.

Say it again,

Drew.

Say my name,

Fuck, Drew,

Say it !

Drew, Drew, oh fuck !

Drew, Drew, Drew, Drew,

Fuck !

Fuck !!

- Say my name. - Drew.

Oh fuck !!

What is my name?

Drew

Here, pull over here.

Hey, hotshot !

Yes, you, come here a minute

What's up man?

- Hi there ! - Hello !

- What is your name ? - Scotty.

Hey, Scotty, I'm Bob.

Hello Bob.

What are you up to ?

What I'm up to ?

Yes, what are you up to ?

I saw you standing over there, is that your friend ?

Yes, just you know hangin' out...

You know... Seeing where the night takes us.

Cool ride, Bob

- Like the car? - Yeah....

This boat is like a shark attack, you know?

"The great white of the streets".

I wanted a black one, but they were all out

Yes, life is bitch, huh?

You get high, Scotty ?

From time to time

Why? You got any party supplies ?

I'm a drunk, son.

I don't do nothing else.

Well, you know, I like to get drunk

Did you wanna take a ride or something?

I think I'll pass.

But it's been nice talking to you.

Wait, wait, I thought you wanted somebody to have a party with, yeah ?

I do not know what I want.

But I'll know when I find it.

What ever !

Drive on, sir. Drive on !

He'll be dead in a year.

(Romeo and Juliet, Act 3, Scene 3) 'tis torture, not mercy !

Heaven is here where Juliet lives.

And every cat and dog and little mouse

every unworthy thing...

Live here in heaven and may look on her,

But Romeo may not.

More validity, more courtship lives in carrion flies than Romeo

Fuck !! (He missed lines.......)

Fuck, shit !!

Fuck Romeo, fuck fucking Juliet !

Banished !

Bani-shed

Ba-ni-shed

Bani- la-la-la-la-la-la-la,

Banished !

Banished !

Banished !

(The flies) They may seize on the white wonder of dear Juliet's hand

and steal immortal blessings from her lips,

Who even in pure and vestal modesty,

Still blush, as thinking their own kisses sin.

Though Romeo may not.

He is banished !!

What the hell is this?

Sorry Sorry.

Gene said I could practice here.

Well, nobody told me nothing

Ok, I'm sorry.

I'll go, I'll go.

Shit.

Hey Dan.

Brian, what time is it?

I have no earthly idea.

Jesus !

You know, I have a door.

Window !

Damn, I was having a killer dream.

Yeah ? What was it about ?

I can't remember now.

You know, I wrote this in two weeks. The initial poems.

Editing took longer, but for two weeks man, I was "on fire"

Is that why you woke me up?

To see if I still had your book?

These ain't poems, you know,

Okay, what are they then?

Remember the first time we fooled around ?

Of course.

Remember the morning?

The next morning, in bed ?

Man, I was so happy. It was killer sex all night long

And then we just talked, you know,

The light coming through the windowpane

And I told you my favorite thing to do was to be kissed.

Do you remember what you did?

Yeah...

You kissed me !

It was amazing, we made out for like an hour.

Soul to soul.

You remember that ? Did you feel that?

Yeah...

Yeah...

How many times we fooled around that summer ?

I don't know man, we were drunk half the time.

Three times, it was three times.

Man, you were amazing !!

You were curious and playful,

passionate and hot.

Shut up !

There was love in that room,

You could feel that, couldn't you ?

And those other times you were the one....

....you came knocking on my door

My straight roommate wanted me.....

Yeah ?

Why did you stop?

Brian.

No, come on man, tell me.

Why did you stop wanting me ? What did I do ?

What did you do ?

You didn't do anything.

Then why, tell me ?

I don't know.

- Tell me. - I don't know man.

Jesus, you wake me in the middle of the night.....

- Just tell me. - I do not know, okay?

- I tried it with guys.... - Guys?

I tried it with you and you were "guys" for me.

Okay, so... was I some experiment ?

Something to do between girlfriends ?

No, no, man.

Look, being with you, meant so much to me.

It did........

But, I like girls, man.

I do and I got this thing with Sandra and ...

And you love her.....

"The days were bright red and every time we kissed,"

"....there was another apple to slice into pieces,"

"Look at the light through the windowpane"

"That means it's noon,"

"That means we're inconsolable"

"Tell me how all this and love too, will ruin us."

"These, our bodies possessed by light"

"Tell me we'll never get used to it". Poem "Scheherazade" by Richard Siken

It's my favoured one

I wrote it for you

The whole book is for you !!

For you, because of you, because I fell in love with you !!

And that sucks for me 'cause my love is a sickness, it's a disease !

And I'm wiped out ! I'm gone !!

I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't write !

I can't do anything but look for you !

I thought you said your new book was going great.....

OK, well I lied !!

I am a one-year-wonder and I'm going down

My savings are gone and the advance is gone

You know, my dad is gonna be so happy about that

Stupid faggot artist son fucks up again !!

Hey, your dad is gonna be upset...

...because his son is broke, OK ?

You didn't fail, Brian, OK ?

You made a choice.....

...you took a risk and I respect the hell outta ya for that

In this book.....

Do you have any....?

This book means the world to me. OK ?

And then, it gets published and you win all those awards,

and you go off and you travel and you do all these readings,

I mean, if you don't feel pride or gratitude for that.....

I'm gonna smack you up in the head,

I was arrogant !

One stupid little book ....

and I ditched school and quit our job because...

....I am a real writer now

I'm so stupid !!

Now they want another book and I cannot write !

My life depends on it, and I can't !

So get a job ! OK ?

Get a job, just like the rest of us.

Yeah !

You wrote this book while you were bussing tables, you douchebag !

And screw you, by the way

Do you know how lucky you are?

You got a gift, man.

You got a gift, I would kill for something like that !

- It is not a gift. - Shut up !!

Everybody leaves !!

No !! They don't !!

Not everybody !

I do love you man ! I do !

You know that, right?

Come here, come here.....

Hey !

No, dogboy !!

Go home, Brian,

You live here ?

Not for long...

Wait here one second, okay ?

What ? We can't go inside ?

Just one second.

Drew ?

Drew ?

Drew ?

Hey.....

What are you doing staring out of the window?

You look so beautiful in this light.

I'm making a decision.

About what?

Stuff....

Stuff....

I'm not lunch, you know?

You can't just fuck me every time you want a fucking break.

Hmm, fuckbreak, I like that !

Hey look at you ! Stay right there !

You look so beautiful.

My beautiful, gentle..... beautiful boy

I'm moving to New York.

What ?

NY ?

Okay, baby, talk to me !

- What are you doin' ? Come here ! - Let me go !

Let me fucking go !!

OK ! When did you decide this ?

A few days ago.

- A few days ago ? - Today !!

- Today? - Whatever!

- So when ? - Whatever ! It doesn't.....

Wait, I told you I was gonna be working on this piece for the next three....

....or four months and you said it was fine

-Fuck that fucking statue! -I've been working on that.....

When you're through with it, are you gonna throw me out ?

I'm not gonna throw you out !

I love you, I'd never do that.

I'd do anything for you... You know that

Yes, you would do anything for me.

Yes, I would do anything for you.

Fine, destroy it !

Break it into a million fucking pieces !

Are you serious ?

- Is that what you want ? - Yes Yes !

So, that's gonna prove my love for you ?

That's what I fucking want! I want you to fucking destroy the fucking thing!

You're a fucking liar.

I love you, but I ain't doing that.

No, you don't love me !

You fucking.... You just use me.

Baby, let's calm down.

Shut up, I'm not your human sacrifice!

Human sacrifice ? What the fuck are you talking about?

Don't fucking touch me !

What the fuck just happened ?

Got a smoke ?

What are you doing sitting here on the curve ?

Waiting for a friend, he's coming right out

Yeah ? What's your friend's name ?

I don't know, we just met.

What's my name, yo ?

How the fuck should I know ? Sal Mineo ?

Close...... Sergio.

Yeah ?

I'm Brian.

Brian ?

Cool

- You smoke pot ? - I guess....

'cause I got this killer stuff but I ain't got no pipe.

You got one ?

Yes, I think so. It's back, in my house.

You live around here ?

I have no idea.

It would be fun to get high with you.

You'd be funny high

Thanks ?

Isn't this where that famous sculpture artist lives ?

- Is it ? - Yeah

Famous sculptor artist, big shot !

You model for him ?

Me ? No !

Big fucking moon, yo !

Yeah, big fucking moon.

Well, have fun with your imaginary friend.

He is not imaginary.

If I was an artist, you could model for me anytime you want.

Fuck !

Hey man, are you okay?

Wow, that was hot.

Yeah

What's your name?

- What difference does it make ? - What's your name?

Jim.

I'm Brian.

Cool

Alright, I'll see you later

Wait a minute !

I mean....what are you up to ?

Wanna get a drink or something ?

No, I got to go meet my friends

- Hello ! - Hi !

Where do you come from ?

A cold and lonely night !

Poor baby ! You're by yourself, huh ?

Can I buy you a drink ?

- Certainly - What'd you have ?

Whisky...

....and a beer chaser.

Two whiskys and a beer chaser for my friend

I know he wants to chase something....

- Tony. - Gus.

You are fucking fine !

I'd love to take you home and let you fuck me !

- Fuck me all fucking night - That's hot !

Fucking loony hot !

- Cheers ! - Cheers !

- To tonight ! - Fuck yeah !

Two more !

I've been looking for you all evening

And I have found you.

Hey, I'm Brian!

- Hey ! - I'm Jim's boyfriend.

- Tony. - Yeah, sure you are...

Yeah....

You like my boyfriend ?

No, it's OK, everybody does !!

Look at him, he's gorgeous, right ?

We've only been dating like two or three months.

Wow!

Yes, we're sickly in love, right?

Yeah, sick....

That's great, I'm really happy for you.

Nice meeting you

Don't go ! No !

That's alright.... I'm not into fucking dramas !

He's the best fucking fuck I've ever had.

Fuck !!

Come on.

I'm leaving, okay?

Can you hear me ?

I'm leaving !

Don't fucking follow me !!

OK ?

Hey, you're a real dick, you know that ?

Anybody ever tell you that ?

Hey ! I'm talking to you !

At least be a man and look me in the eye !

Look, I don't know you, OK ?

Just because we fucked, it doesn't mean that we're friends !

Go home, you're drunk, stay away from me !

Do whatever the fuck you wanna do, stay away from me!

Wait, don't walk way from me

Fuck man ! Never touch me again you fucking psycho !

Look, just ...

Go home, okay?

Just go home.

You're a soulless fucking dick and I hate you !

I wish I'd never met you !

Female companionship.....

Excuse me ?

Only one thing can put a puss on a man like that !

And that's females !

Jealousy and lover's contempt, something like that.

- Am I right ? -Yes, something like that.

I thought so.

What's her name?

Maryanne

Maryanne, sweet Maryanne

A name that's hung like a bell in my heart,

And when it swings, it rings: "Maryanne,Maryanne,Maryanne"

Well, fuck her if she can't take a joke, right?

- Right - Am I right ?

You're right.

- Hey, - What?

What do you think of my ride ?

- It's awesome. - Damn right, it is !!

Have you ever been inside one of those things? It's like the Titanic.

A fucking ocean liner !!

Yeah, once in high school prom

Well, you're not in high school anymore

Are you ?

No, I'm not in high school anymore

So, hop in ! Yeah, hop in !

We'll drink like men and cruise around in style

The envy of everyone around us !

Yeah ! Sure, why not ?

That's it. Grab life by the balls !!

Take it !!

Help me up here ! I'm an old man

You're not that old but you probably should slow down on that stuff

Blaspheme !! Speak not as the gods will hear !!

- In you go ! -After you !!

No, no, I insist !

I'll tell you something kid. Girls ruin everything

Here, have a drink

Too weak for you, kid ?

It's really strong !!

Then, better to get you drunk with

You got to catch up with me, right ?

Apparently....

So, what do you do exactly ?

I'm an agent, son. Agent to the stars...

Agent, like..... Like a talent agent ?

Yeah, known around the world !

My name is Bob. But you may call me "Bob".

What do they call you around here, son ?

What....who... Who are you agent for ?

Don't be a starfucker, kid. It's unattractive.

Tonight, you get to be the star.

Now, tell me your name, or I will pick one for you.

And you won't like it, but that will be tough shit for you

Because it will be your name for the rest of the night.

How would you like that ?

No, no.

I'm Jim,

Oh, that's too bad !

I was hoping for "Mike"

I like that name...."Mike".

You're Mike and Mike was a car mechanic,

And he had his old lady and two girlfriends at the side

and they all chased you around.

I'm sorry, I'm just Jim.

Then I'll call "James," and you shall be a prince....

...and henceforth, you shall be "Prince James".

So, what do you do, rock star James ?

Well, it's funny you should mention that because....

Just don't tell me you're another fucking actor!

Because if you're a god damn fucking actor....

...just get the hell out of my car !!

I've had enough of god damn actors in my god damn life.

If you're an actor, there's the door, beat it !

Because tonight, I'm on vacation.

I'm sorry, what were you saying ?

Yes, what you do, Mike ?

I'm sorry, Jim.

James.

I'm an car mechanic.

- Get the fuck out....! - No, really, a car mechanic,

- It's funny how you knew, huh ? - Unbelievable !

Yeah, I work over on 5th street with my buddy Al.

We're friends since high school.

I used to bang his sister.

Yeah. And now she has a kid....

...with some bon from Pittsburgh, a real dick

Oh yeah ?

Yeah, he's a soulless dick !

I give up ! I give up !

I surrender, OK ?

I did it, I confess.

Do with me what you will !

It was me,

Oh my soul, be with me now, all things shining (film "The Thin Red Line" 1998 by Terrence Malik)

Chris.

Your name is Chris and we made sweet love right there....

...tonight, years ago

You are Dan

And I love you and that's OK. That's okay,

Chris, Jim, after meeting Sergio,

Tyrell, Andre, Tim, Michael, Phil, Dave.

Andre, Cameron, Frankie.

Inhuman sacrifice

Human sacrifice.

Use you up and throw you

Hey !! I'm not a vampire!

I'm not gonna try suck your blood.....

...anything like that and then get rid of you.

You don't know me !

New York, New York, big city of dreams,

Go to New York.

Cool....

Do what you need to do.

Jim, do you hear me?

I'm not a vampire.

Jim.

Jimmy, what are you gonna do in New York anyway ?

Jim ?

Jimmy ?

Come on, what are you gonna do ?

Move to New York and get a little....

... shitty apartment on the Lower East Side ?

With about 40 hipster roommates ?

Is that what you wanna do ?

With no contacts, no money, no nothing ?

All right, big man, you're a grown man !

Do what you got to do.

NY!

Baby, it's the work.

It's the work.

That work takes everything

It takes all you got !

It takes your blood, your sweat, your tears,

...your heart, your fucking....

It takes everything man! You got to put it all in there

And sometimes you don't have time for...

I don't know..... The day to day....

...stuff.....

Jim ? Jim !

Jim !

Baby.

Baby.

You know, sometimes, it just hurts me...

....how beautiful you are.

I'm not talking aesthetics, I'm talking....

...of your innocence, your pure beauty.

That's what I see and sometimes, I guess....

I'm all over you because I just want to devour it.

I just want to be closer to it.

I just want to touch it and feel that beauty.

I don't know.

But hey, if you want to go, go.

I'm gonna go crazy here without you,

but a man has got to be free.

OK ?

I'll let you do what you got to do. Alright ?

That's my love talking, baby.

That's my love talking, right here.

You hear me, Jim ?

Jim ?

Jimmy ?

Jim, do you hear me ?

I am talking to you.

Jim.

Motherfucker !

Let me ask you something

Shoot

You're a ladies' man

That's right

You got a lot of girfriends ?

A few

How old are they?

Different ages

I go where my body takes me

Where the body takes you.

I like that.

Has your body ever made it with a guy before ?

As a matter of fact.... Yeah, once.

Tell me about

It was a couple of years ago,

It was summertime, hot, sweaty.

This guy drives by, does a U-turn, stops....

So I said, you know..... Fuck it !

I got into his car, went to his place...

- And ? - And what ?

What did you do?

We fucked, Bob !

What did you think ?

Yeah !

Suppose I was to tell you that I want to have sex with you.

What would you think about that ?

Yeah, I kinda put one and one together, Bob

I can pay.... good money

Is that what you meant when you said you were on vacation ?

Interesting.

You're right there ? You look a little woozy

Oh, just dizzy

I am an old man, son.

No, you're not that old. Come here.

Awfully nice of you to say it, but....

....the facts speak otherwise.

Keep dancing,

I like to watch you dance.

Take off your shirt.

You......

You're a beautiful something !!

You like it when people look at you ?

I do

Good.

Because I could look at you for the rest of my life.

You're not straight, are you ?

Yeah....No !

I thought so

Why didn't you say anything ?

Because we're having so much fun, right?

-Aren't you having fun ? - Yeah

Are you seeing somebody, right now?

I'm living with this guy... he is an artist.

He's kind of famous, actually

His name is Drew Tiger.

Your boyfriend is Drew Tiger?

Yeah

We met at this party.

I never thought I'd meet anyone like him.

He taught me a lot, you know ....about art

About lots of things,

He holds me and I get butterflies.

I get hard, you know ?

He just wraps me in those big arms, I could live there forever,

I just feel..........safe.

You swoon....

Yeah

And honestly, it's probably the best sex I've ever had.

Like.....fuck !

He sounds nice

Well, it doesn't matter anymore.

We are breaking up

Why ?

I don't know.

What's happening ?

Come on, tell me.

I'm one of his things, you know ?

Like his fuckboy or his art

You know, he tells me he loves me.

He tells me he loves me all the time.

But, you know, I...

I don't think he means it

Why do you say that?

Because all he cares about, is his art.

Well, he is an artist !

- So ? - So ?

Cut him some slack !

Do you think an artist like him has a choice ?

He is hardwired in !

He has to work, there is no choice there.

You can't be mad at him for that.

Maybe you don't know what it means to be an artist of his level.

For an artist like Drew Tiger, he'll die if he can't work.

You know, he tells me I'm his muse.

And you don't like that?

No, I never asked to be his fucking muse !

And when he's through with that fucking sculpture....!

...I'll be done, he'll throw me out

Is that what you really think ?

What does he say he loves about you ?

He just says he loves me and he would do anything for me.

Like a broken record, over and over....

Maybe that's the only way he knows how to say it

Maybe he communicates better with his hands.

I do love his hands.

I swear, we fit like a glove.

And you feel safe.

Isn't that a kind of love ?

I guess so.

Have you ever been in love before ?

Yes, once.

- He killed me. - Well, shit happens.

You'll know more next time you fall in love.

So it gets easier ? The older you get ?

No, son, not at all.

It just gets a lot more complicated.

I was in love once, a long time ago.

You remind me of him,

Was his name Mike ?

You see how smart you are?

Best friends in love, the best kind of love.

We were beautiful then

Damn, I loved him

Where is this Mike of yours now ?

He died.

I am sorry.

- Aids ? - No.

This was way before that.

He died in the war

Fucking Vietnam

Yeah, dead and gone.

Your generation got it made

Holding hands in public. You take that for granted.

It didn't always used to be that way

Gay marriage.

I wish I could have married him.

I would have, but then I would be a widower by now

I think about him.... every day.

There's a part of me that is still there, somewhere with him

Wandering around.

Bob ?

Bob !?

Chemical names, Bird names

Names of fire and flight and snow,

baby names, paint names

delicate names like bones in the body,

names that no one has ever been able to figure out,

names of spells and names of hexes

names called out to fill the yard

calling you inside again, calling you home,

names called out across the water,

names I called you behind your back,

names of flowers that open only once,

shouted from rooftops muffled by pillows,

whispered in sleep

we are not traitors, but the lights go out,

his voice on tape, his name on the envelope,

the soft sound of a body falling off a bridge behind you

the body hardly makes a sound,

all night I stretched my arms across him

rivers of blood, the dark woods singing

with all my skin and bone, "Please keep him safe"

his lips at my neck... and yes I do believe his mouth is heaven,

his kisses falling all over me like stars,

names of heat and names of light

names of collision in the dark on the side of a bus,

in the bark of a tree, in ballpoint pen on jeans

and hands and the backs of matchboxes that then get lost,

Your name like a song I sing to myself,

Your name like a box where I keep my love,

Your name like a nest in the tree of love,

Your name like a boat in the sea of love

We are now in the sea of love

Your name like a detergent in the washing machine,

Your name like two Xes, like punched-in eyes

to mark the spots, to hold the place

to keep the treasure from becoming ever lost

I'm saying your name in the grocery store,

I'm saying your name on a bridge at dawn,

Your name like an animal covered with frost,

a suit of fur, a coat of mud, a kick in the pants,

a lungful of glass, the sails in wind and the slap of waves....

on the hull of a boat that's sinking.....

to the sound of mermaids singing songs of love

and the tug of a simple profound sadness

when it sounds so far away,

We laugh and it pits the world against us,

We laugh and our hearts turned red,

and the river rises like a barn on fire

It's a bed of straw darling, it sure as shit is

Say "Hallelujah" say "Goodnight"

Say it over the canned music and your feet won't stumble,

His face getting larger, the rest, blurring on every side

and angels knocking on your head,

A flash in the sky,

Here is my hand, my heart, my throat, my wrist,

Here are the illuminated cities at the center of me

and here is the center of me, which is a lake,

which is a well that we can drink from

but I can't go through with it

I can't go through with it

I just don't want to die anymore !!

Poem "Saying Your Names" by Richard Siken, Yale Prize of Younger Poets 2004

Every time I see you, you're all alone on the curve

That's how I find you. I sit on the curve and there you are !! Boom !

- It is like a bat-signal. - Then I'm a superhero

- Maybe this is your disguise - My disguise ?

Check you out !! That's a good one, yo

I got these when I was drunk and stupid

I like them. They tell my story

So what's up?

Still waiting for your imaginary friend ?

- No, I live here. - White boy found his house !!

Yes, I've found it

Hey I still got that stuff. You got that pipe ?

Yeah....

I don't really feel like getting high right now

I'm kinda high enough already, you know?

- It's cool, it's cool - No offense

No worries, no worries

It is just that...

Got to tell you, I'm torn, man

Torn about what ?

- I like you and want to invite you inside - Well invite me inside !!

I just want to talk, you know?

About what?

Anything, I just want to hear stories.

Your stories if you want

Alright

Under one condition.

Shoot.

You got to let me hold you.

I like to hold a guy....close

Spooning and all.

Make fun of me, all you want,

No, no, I won't make fun of you.

I'd give anything in the world for you to hold me right now.

English Subtitles by yavass September 2018