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[singer] ♪ Ooh, this feel like summertime ♪

♪ I been up in the clouds number nine ♪

♪ Came fresh to impress like...

[Camille] This is Black joy.

History books, television, the media

prefer to lean into the idea of Black pain,

showing our bodies suffering and in states of struggle.

But what is missed in this telling

is the weapon that supports our survival: joy.

For me, joy is about being seen, not blending in,

not apologizing, and not just in the big ways,

although big ways are fun. [laughs]

What do you mean I got it?

I got it like I'm cast?

And like I'm not going away cast?

And I get to act opposite Jennifer Lewis?

[screaming]

I got the lead!

- [pans banging] - Lead!

I got the... oh, shit, what happened to his cat?

There are also quiet ways to be seen.

[knock at door]

[vocalizing]

I'm so happy for you, baby!

[Angie] And sometimes, the most joy comes from

just being seen by your girls.

To our leading lady, Angie.

To Camille and her Black Joy exhibit.

To an amazing opening reception.

Thank you.

Oh, gosh.

I invited so many schools, so it has to be perfect,

and someone has to be impressed and offer me

the perfect high-paying job.

And to getting our Quinn back.

Aww. Thank you, guys.

Although I will say that much of the credit

goes to the meds.

- To the meds. - [laughter]

You know something?

I really thought that I would feel drugged or sedated

while I was on them, but it's been a few weeks, and I don't.

I mean, I seem like me, right?

- Yeah, you're perfect. - Oh, totally.

I have decided today that mimosas are a waste of time.

Oh, hey, can I have a Bloody Mary,

hold everything but the vodka?

Thank you.

You know, I hate all that celery tomato nonsense.

Daytime liquor don't need fixings.

And I take it that means that you're happy

for me, too, Angie?

I'm so happy for you that I'm not

bringing Mike to the reception.

I'm bringing Eric.

I thought he was in Europe on that tour.

They sent him back early, said that his tea cup portrayal

- was a little too "urban." - [Tye laughs]

Well, it's good to know that racism

isn't just an American delicacy.

Founded overseas, perfected in America.

[Tye] Come on.

So are the roomies back together?

[both] No.

Do we need to talk about this?

[both] No.

There's nothing to talk about.

She thinks that I'm upset about Michael,

and I'm telling her that I'm glad that they met.

It just feels to me like you're jealous.

Of what? I am with Keith!

Which makes it extra fucked up

that you still can't stand the sight of me

hitting my groove with Mike.

Okay, Stella!

Hit your groove, girl! Do your thang.

But the next time that you want to hit your group with,

I don't know, some Uber driver...

- [coughs] - I will smile and not say

that I told you so.

- Mm! - What?

Angie!

Your vodka arrived!

I want you to remember how I smiled

through all of your love bullshit.

Angie, I was... it was a joke.

[Angie] You sure you don't want me to film my thing

for your project again?

No, you were perfect.

Of course I was.

I mean, even when I'm raging, I remain, after all, me.

[gasps] Oh, wow!

Oh, I remember this picture!

[Camille] That afternoon was so much fun.

I miss day parties!

Why did people stop having them?

I don't think they stopped having them.

I think we stopped getting invited.

Mm, this was the day I met that DJ

and the Haitian FedEx guy!

My first time in a devil's three-way.

- Mm! - I am afraid to ask.

Two guys and a woman.

But doesn't "devil" sound a little homophobic?

The name is!

But the three-way definitely was not.

- [both] Oh. - [laughter]

Maybe Quinn is right.

Ugh.

Maybe I am just the girl who should stick

to three-ways and foolishness.

No.

You can change.

And if you miss the threesomes and foolishness,

you can change back.

I mean, life and love, it's...

it's not just one thing.

Quinn and I are.

Like, for all of our codependency,

one thing is for sure.

Quinn and I, we don't cross-pollinate.

We each fuck on our own sides of the block.

I mean, how would you feel if I fucked Jameson?

Well, that's different.

Good, because I fucked him last week,

and it was horrible.

- I'm kidding. - Oh.

He was fine.

Okay, let's just... let's stay in the real.

Uh, you were just kidding, right, though?

Yeah, he was wonderful.

The real is, there a lot of reasons to be with Mike.

But Quinn is too big of a reason to not be.

We've barely spoken since our trip, and I don't want that.

She will always come first for me,

and I know I always come first for her.

Well, don't ever let anyone tell you

you don't choose love.

Every time.

I love my Quinny.

Did you really sleep with Jameson?

Black joy is about loving fully, loving my career...

[singer] ♪ So hard to find...

[Quinn] ...loving my culture.

[singer] ♪ But something just ain't feeling right ♪

♪ So happy since we met ♪

♪ I'm scared that I'm falling for you ♪

♪ Used to being lonely but now...

Absolutely perfect.

[gasps] Really?

So the anti-depressants are causing

a little weight gain, huh?

Oh, excuse me.

What... wait, what do you... what do you mean?

Loving my partner...

Happy two-week anniversary!

[laughs]

And don't worry.

I know your restrictions... no dairy, no nuts, no sugar.

This is essentially a salad with whipped air for frosting.

I never should have let you go.

Duh!

[laughs]

I so wish that you could come with me to Camille's thing,

especially after the Angie weirdness.

Yeah, and I tried.

I can't get out of this client dinner.

I'll meet you right after?

Yeah. In front of the old Water Club.

Oh, my gosh. I can't wait!

Why the, uh...

why the Water Club?

Okay, so it was my first real dress-up date with my parents.

My sister had the flu. She couldn't come.

She was so, so sick.

What a good day.

[laughs]

And I looked out on the water, feeling so grown up.

And I saw this yacht that floated by,

and it had two of the most stylish people

I had ever seen.

And I said to myself,

"Someday, my prince will come,

and I will do that with him."

[upbeat R music]

Some day's here.

[singer] ♪ Fine girl, we know a holla ♪

♪ I'm tryna make you my life ♪

♪ The way you look can't take it no more ♪

♪ I need you in my...

See, Trish? I told you!

It looks amazing on you!

And for the 12th time,

plaid is not cultural appropriation, okay?

Everyone can wear it, not just Scottish people.

Go get changed.

White guilt is exhausting.

And especially when it's about the wrong things.

- [Mike chuckles] - Michael.

Mike, hi.

Again, what brings you by?

And more importantly, how's Angie?

I was hoping that you could tell me.

I haven't spoken to her since she broke up with me.

- She what? - [Mike] Yeah.

She said that you come first.

And look, I just wanted to apologize

for getting in between the two of you.

I didn't even know that you knew each other,

much less were best friends.

Are best friends.

Wait, did she say that we weren't?

- Because we are... - [Mike] No.

Angie said that she would never hurt you.

So not hurt.

Noted, which is why it was weird.

Because when we first met, you didn't

seem like you were interested.

In fact, you literally said...

I'm not interested, like, at all.

In you? Like, not at all.

- Like, I'm not even... - Nice to hear again.

Sorry.

Yeah.

Look, it just sucks.

I suck. You're a great guy.

She really likes you and wants something real.

And maybe I was just scared that I might lose her.

All right, so what now?

Look, I'm in love with her.

Slow down, cowboy.

That's a little fast, don't you think?

And this is coming from someone who moves very, very fast.

Look, intellectually, I hear you.

But in my heart... I know she's the one.

Look, I used to be someone who was so desperate

to not be alone that my type was anyone who liked me.

It was pathetic.

Whoa, are you coming for me when I did not send for you?

[chuckles] And so I took a few years off

to be alone, get to know myself, and be cool with it.

If you don't love yourself, how in the hell

are you gonna love someone else?

That's brilliant.

RuPaul.

Drag Race?

Michael, come on! You gotta get into it.

That's one of Angie's faves. [laughs]

I'm sorry, but if she broke up with me for you,

and you're actually not upset...

...how do I get her back?

Oh, Trish, I'll see ya. [chuckles]

[singer] ♪ Goodness gracious ♪

♪ Take it right back...

And she's worried about the plaid.

Yikes.

For me, joy is power.

There is an indescribable feeling

of being a Black woman today

who is in control of her own life.

...which is why, after our record-breaking second quarter,

we are reaching out to the polyamorous community.

And I am launching Q's sister site, P.

Because sometimes, three isn't a crowd.

It's just the beginning.

[cheers and applause]

There is so much joy in knowing what you want

and unapologetically getting it.

There's also joy in changing what you want

and being vulnerable.

[Aimee] We're closing in five!

Oh, it's you.

Why do you always show up

when the plants and I are peopled out?

To keep you honest about your hours.

And because that's the only sign

that makes sense up in here.

Also, RIP to Mrs. Orchid.

It was inevitable.

How's your computer?

Hasn't frozen since.

So it's good to know you're better with electronics

than you are plants.

But just know that you are never, ever

getting another plant from me again.

That is a bad business move, plant lady!

Cut me off of my supply?

[laughter]

Well, I guess this is goodbye.

[Aimee] Or...

This is me...

...asking you out on a date.

[scoffs] Right.

You're serious?

With me? Why... why?

Well, I know you want to try to get into something real,

and you're in here all the time, and we vibe.

We do.

I mean, I thought it was just laughter,

you know, me giving you shit about your signs.

[soft heartfelt music]

Maybe the signs were the sign.

I've been vulnerable and real.

You get none of my bravado, and...

and you still like me.

Funny, mad beautiful Aimee likes me.

Damn, that was good timing.

[Aimee] Okay, dial it down.

I'm just asking you out on a date.

And I am just saying yes!

When?

- Now. - Oh, shit.

Fastest date ever.

Well, I'm older than the kids you usually date,

and I don't have time to put things off.

Okay, I'll make some phone calls,

get some restaurants up.

Maybe I'll buy our way into Bohemian.

Best chef, best food...

That's not a date.

That's you showing off.

So I will pick the venue.

Does it suck that she's bossing me around,

or is it hot?

Now!

Hot. Hoo!

Definitely hot!

So Famous Fish!

And no favors required.

It's not $8,000 sushi.

But it is damn good.

Amen.

And I missed it.

Ever since the ex-husband moved around the corner,

I stopped coming for risk of a run-in.

Shit. That ended badly?

Yeah, but to be fair,

the beginning wasn't great, either,

and the middle was a shit show.

But he's the reason that I have my daughter,

and she's the best person I know.

So did you find out you liked women after him or...

Uh... I, uh... always just did what felt right.

Nowadays, the kids call it pansexual.

'Cause you know they love a label.

But in my Gen X day, we just called it

"you like who you like."

I never liked anyone like you.

Yeah, I know. We've established that.

- Too old. - No.

Too together.

[laughter]

And here we are.

Just liking who we like.

[soft R music]

Joy, for me, was family.

Maybe not always the family I grew up in,

but the family I wanted, the family I found,

and the family that found me.

Hey! What's up, babe?

Ooh, you look good in this little brown number.

Now, I know you've been working on your project full of joy,

but I've been working on my own home project full of joy.

Here's what I came up with. I love these windows.

We're going to knock them out, replace it

with one big sliding glass door,

just so we can really feature the backyard.

I mean, it's gorgeous. We got to see it.

Yeah, yeah, but...

I mean, babe, can me afford that,

with the whole Mira wedding bill thing?

Oh, no, that's handled.

Yeah, I had a conversation with my parents earlier.

A really good one, actually, and, uh,

they're gonna take out a small home equity loan,

and month by month, I'll just pay them back.

- Okay. - Yeah, all right?

Big Daddy got this.

So look, one of the great things about

seeing clear through to the backyard

is that we can put in that garden or a patio,

or someday, we can keep an eye on little Langston and Zora.

- Right. - [Ian] You know, someday.

Well, speaking of the babies, I figured

we could just turn the guest room into the nursery, right?

Now, homegirl at the Home Depot said that all these colors

are gender-neutral, which means...

- Mm. - ...even if we pick... what?

What? What happened?

You got the face on like I said something wrong.

What'd I say? What was it? Uh, homegirl?

Was it supposed to be home-women, home-them?

No, no, I just...

I think that we should press pause and talk.

Baby, listen.

None of this is about pressuring you to have kids.

All right?

I'm just really excited. I'm sorry.

I mean, we can turn the guest room

into an office if you want.

I mean, if that's the case, this, uh,

this symphony beige isn't gonna work.

'Cause I know you want some color on them walls, right?

[both laugh]

Yeah, burnt sienna would look really good up there.

Well, there it is... we'll just paint it

whatever the hell burnt sienna is.

[both laugh]

Listen, as long as we continue to build together,

that's all that matters to me.

There's no pressure on having kids anytime soon.

All right? You love me?

Yes.

I am not gonna lie, when you said

that you were gonna do the slideshow yourself,

I was a little bit nervous, but this looks great.

What? I told you I'm a wiz on Canva.

I even made us a little logo.

[Camille] Oh, that's so dope!

Okay, my turn. I'm not gonna lie.

When you called from a San Juan beach

in the middle of the night to see if we would still

get grant money if we suddenly shifted subjects,

I figured that you were so drunk,

you'd forget we even talked and this would not come together.

But look what we made.

Our baby.

I feel like I just made it weird.

No. [chuckles]

- I'm sorry, I... - [door opens]

Knock, knock!

And it is getting weirder!

Mrs. Joseph.

The door downstairs was prop open.

Oh, yeah, we were, um, loading the van

with the stuff for the project.

- Jameson, this is Quinn's mom. - Hello.

This is purely an objective observation,

but you're very handsome.

- Thank you. - You single?

Because I have three girlfriends at the club,

and they all have daughters... oh, and one son,

if you're so inclined.

I don't judge.

My daughter is bisexual, and I'm fine with it.

Congrats on your daughter and being fine with it.

But I'm good on the fix-ups. Cam, I'll meet you downstairs?

Yep, yep. Sure, I will...

- Great. - ...be there.

Excuse me.

Nice to meet you.

[clears throat]

I guess you're wondering why I'm here?

Well, yeah... yeah.

It's Quinny. Is she okay?

She is okay.

She's doing great, actually.

That's really sweet of you to ask.

Sweet? Darling, that is motherhood.

One day, you'll understand.

Maybe.

Oh, no.

You and Ian are breaking up every 15 minutes.

No, no, no, no, no.

We didn't... we didn't break up.

It's, um...[sighs]

My driver is double-parked, so brevity is our friend.

Uh... well, long story short...

[Patricia] Yes, thank you.

I want Ian, and I want our life together,

but we always said that that life would include kids.

And now I'm realizing that I am not even sure

that I want kids, you know?

How do I know?

How did you know?

Camille, kids are a lot.

Even when they're grown, they're still a lot.

You ever done a whippit?

A who-it?

Whippit.

Quinn got caught in high school doing it.

It's when you suck on a can of whipped cream

and you get a hit of nitrous oxide.

Was marijuana busy?

I mean, come on, teen Quinn. Do better.

Tell me about it!

I tried it once, you know. Alone.

I wanted to see what the big deal was, you know?

You breathe it in, and for seconds,

you are the happiest you've ever been.

It's a feeling you always want to be in, but it's fleeting.

That is motherhood.

I mean, who wouldn't want that feeling?

Oh, we all want it.

My sister, she gets it from meditation.

But she is insufferable, so don't try that.

- So maybe I could... - I'm gonna stop you.

I've given you enough wisdom, okay?

I must go and get some of my fillers taken out.

I like looking young, but now I look too young.

And I feel bad for my friends who can't keep up.

If it's motherhood, you will know.

Ciao.

[upbeat music]

Really, Aunt Tammy?

We had to meet at somebody else's restaurant?

Darling, you know I can't even risk

smelling the food in your place.

Well, hopefully, it's urgent for real,

because I'm getting slammed getting this food

together for Camille's event. What's up?

- Your mom called me. - Oh, shit, what happened?

- [Tammy] Yeah. - It's my dad?

- It's you! - [Ian] What?

You can't ask them to pay for your non-wedding!

It's just a loan. I'ma pay it back.

Unless something happens.

And drama follows you, nephew.

All right, well, it's none of your business,

to be honest with you, so I appreciate it,

but I got to go, Aunt Tammy. Love you.

Babe, you make it hard to want to help you.

- Help me? - Yes. Sit down.

I've been married four times, engaged six.

So I know a little something about breakup drama

and how very expensive it can be.

But luckily for you, your Aunt Tammy

has always been on the receiving end of the money.

Here.

You're giving me the money?

Why? You hate me.

I don't hate, except anyone in Teva sandals.

Who goes out like that?

Those are not cute!

I'm gonna pay this back. I promise you.

No, I never loan money. I give it.

$68,000, no strings?

Now, I know I didn't say that.

There are so many strings.

Okay, nephew?

Starting with, when I ask for a chopped cheese,

that's what I want.

None of that bougie bullshit.

And for real, nephew, you have to grow up.

- I am. - [Tammy] No.

I am.

Because if you had been an adult,

you would have been honest with yourself about

still being in love with Camille.

And then you would have been honest with Mira

a long time ago and saved a lot of heartache

and my yacht money.

So the next time you know what you want, be a grownup,

be honest, and make it happen.

What if what I want makes me lose something else I want?

Welcome to life, nephew.

It gives a little, but it takes a lot.

But if you're honest with yourself,

it will all work out.

I promise.

Thanks, Aunt Tammy.

You're welcome, baby. I love you.

But if I catch you in them fucking Teva sandals,

I want every penny back, including interest.

You hear me?

Joy is about being seen.

For me, joy is family.

Black joy is about loving.

- [overlapping voices] - [all cheering]

[Quinn] Camille, your exhibit is perfection.

It's so amazing, Millie.

[Camille] So did you guys like it?

[Tye] Oh, my God.

I feel like I was the best part.

At least, that's what I hear the crowd saying.

[laughs] Bitch, please!

Yeah, by crowd, she means me.

Exactly.

[laughter]

And, uh, before we forget, Tye,

just want to let you know that we all took a vote,

and Aimee can stay.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah. She's a keeper.

Yeah, so it's been two whole nights.

I mean, is there a U-Haul coming or suttin'?

Okay, okay.

[laughter]

At least she gets to be happy.

Angie.

I'm good, I'm good.

Tension.

- [Eric] Uh, I'll deal with it. - Thank you.

- We did it! - We did it!

Congratulations!

- It is wonderful. - Congrats. No, this is dope.

Quinn, I met your mom, and she is very proud

of your sexuality.

Oh. Ms. Pat.

I'm gonna go talk to Angie.

Yes. You do that.

- Did I... - [Dr. Pruitt] Camille!

- I'll... I'll be back. - Okay. Yeah.

- You came! - [Dr. Pruitt] Yes.

And I'm so glad I did.

This was... this is perfect.

It was?

Now, don't do that.

You know it was.

Just own what you did.

I will.

And it doesn't hurt that the department heads

from Sarah Lawrence, Spelman, NYU, and Yale all came,

and they said they want to meet with me about teaching!

That's fantastic.

Oh, I'm so proud of you.

You are?

Yeah, I am.

I am too.

Mom!

You're here!

I had to come.

I love you, Camille.

I love you too.

Um, Mom, this is Dr. Pruitt.

Dr. Pruitt, this is my mom.

I am one of your daughter's colleagues at work.

She's special.

She is.

Angie, can we talk?

Look, Quinn, I am sorry that I made things awkward,

but let's not do this here.

It's Camille's event.

Which is the perfect place to do this,

because it is about Black joy.

Us, our friendship... Angie, that is Black joy.

You are the best friend that I will ever have.

And I think I was scared that if you might

get into a real relationship...

...I might lose you.

Girl, I was wrong.

I'm sorry.

Quinny, I love you.

I will never leave you.

I can love you and a man at the same time.

Hell, I can love you and a man and a man at the same time.

Remember my devil's three-way?

Girl! Do not talk about it here!

- [laughs] - Yeah! Sis.

[sighs]

I love you.

I love you too.

[clinking glass]

Can I have everyone's attention?

I just wanted to say thank you so much for being here.

Jameson and I are very proud of this exhibit

celebrating Black joy.

And I want to give a shout-out to Harlem...

Whoo!

...and everyone who has and continues

to contribute to the soul of this neighborhood.

Thank you for being my home.

Thank you for being my joy.

Cheers.

[applause]

I don't know if I'm ready to let her go.

Yeah. I don't know if I am, either.

[♪ Maze: "Before I Let Go"]

[Camille] Oh, this is my jam!

♪ You made me happy ♪

♪ ♪

♪ This, you can bet ♪

♪ ♪

♪ You stood right beside me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ And I won't forget ♪

♪ ♪

♪ And I really love you ♪

♪ You should know...

[Angie] Girl, you are wearing that wig!

- [both laugh] - So where we taking it to?

Food? More alcohol? Both?

Actually, neither, because I have to go home

and change and meet Keith.

We just made up, and we need to celebrate!

And more pressing, where the fuck are we walking to,

and why are we not doing it in a car?

I actually do have a car,

but you have another ride waiting.

I do?

[smooth R music]

♪ ♪

[whispering] What is he doing here?

He is waiting for his girlfriend.

Now, go get your man!

Go.

Hi.

I'm so sorry I broke up with you.

But you know, she's my girl, and I just...

It's okay.

We're here now.

Come here.

- These are for you. - Oh, thank you.

Now, listen, I know that you don't dig on bikes.

So get in. I got you.

Let's go. Come on.

Hold on.

Okay.

[laughs]

Okay, well, this is me.

That sounds like the night is over.

Only the part where we're together.

Ouch.

I don't have sex right away.

It just becomes sport without meaning.

Well, I am really, really good at sports.

Yes, I'm sure you are,

and you can show me when the time is right.

- Wow. - [both laugh]

Bye.

[Tye] Bye-bye.

[laughing softly]

[phone dings]

[thumping R music]

♪ ♪

Oh, Zoe.

[vibrator buzzing]

I'm gonna make you beg for it.

I'm gonna go so...

...slow.

[moaning]

[phone dings]

- [sighs] - [buzzing stops]

Off is too slow.

Sorry, text. It's an emergency.

You got to be fucking kidding me.

Uh, no kidding. No fucking.

I'm about to go hop in the shower.

You can let yourself out.

After you untie me.

Last time we were in a park, you taught me how to ride.

Last time we were in a park, I also realized

that you were the coolest, most beautiful woman

that I will ever meet.

Come. Sit down.

Now, I don't want you to get cold.

Cold?

Negro, it is August in Harlem.

- The mosquitoes are sweating. - [both chuckle]

This is mine.

My Aunt Niecey made this for me

after I did my first performance.

She said so you never forget who your people are

when you're a star.

[laughs] Where did you get this?

Thank you.

Is this champagne and pomegranate juice?

The first night I ever hung out with Quinn, Tye, and Camille,

we drank pomosas.

And fresh Funyuns!

- These are my... - Your favorite things.

- Quinn. - Quinn.

Oh, one last favorite thing before I forget.

[♪ Flwr Chyld James Tillman: "Luv 2 U"]

[gasps] A scratcher!

"Diamonds are forever.

Uncover three of anything and win a corresponding prize."

Okay.

A diamond.

Okay.

Second diamond.

Come on, third diamond.

"Will you marry me?"

♪ All I wanna do ♪

♪ Is give some of my love to you ♪

♪ Love to you in the sunshine...

Wow.

- Hey. - Hey.

Come here.

The cheek.

Cheek is never good.

We need to talk.

Even less good.

I have spent so much of my life

trying to be whoever someone interested in me

wanted me to be.

And I lost myself.

I'm beside the point in my own life.

And when it all caught up with me this year...

[scoffs]

...trust me, it was not pretty.

Meeting you this time around, it was wonderful.

But I need to figure out who I actually am

and then fall madly in love with that person...

...before I can know exactly who I want to be with.

If we ever run into each other again someday...

...I have to warn you, I'd do it again...

...and again and again.

I'm sorry.

But your dream date.

My dream date.

[mellow reggae music]

♪ ♪

So here we are.

I know you couldn't wait for all this.

Oh, no, no, no. This is not that.

Then what is it then?

I never did just nothing with someone before.

[Aimee] See?

This was nice.

This is exactly what I was afraid of.

But still, this is... joy.

I don't know how to say this...

but I have to pee.

[laughs] It's down the hall.

And, uh, be quiet.

I don't want to wake my kid.

Your kid?

Way to kill a lady boner for 400.

Oh, my God. Never say "lady boner."

[toilet flushing]

Tye?

Zoe?

What are you doing here?

Zoe, sorry we woke you. This is my friend.

[stammers] I know her.

But, Tye, how do you know my mom?

How do you know my daughter?

Fuck.

Everyone loved your bread pudding.

I know that's right.

You know how I know?

'Cause we ran out.

- [laughs] - Mm-hmm.

I was not expecting this kind of turnout.

[Ian] Girl, I am so proud of you.

Thank you for catering and for being here, always.

It means a lot to me.

Oh, baby, you mean a lot to me.

Look at you, you're glowing.

I am, I am.

You know what it is?

I feel like it's that thing that Mrs. Joseph

was describing, you know?

Like, what it feels like to be a mom,

but I feel like at about this.

Like something crystallized tonight.

My work is changing, and...

...this is the baby I want.

For now.

Maybe forever.

Hold on. Forever?

What happened?

- Did something happen? - No, no.

Talk to me.

Um...

...it's, um...

...it's what didn't happen.

When the doctor told me about my eggs...

...the sadness never hit.

You know, and when a woman wants kids

and she's told that that might not be a possibility,

sadness comes, right?

Or anger, or disappointment.

But to be honest, all I felt, and all I still feel...

...is relief.

And I'm so sorry, but I can't ignore that, Ian.

[sighs]

Please don't hate me.

I don't hate you, Camille.

I mean, I think it's beautiful you know what you want.

You know what I'm saying?

Even if it doesn't align with what I want.

[soft R music]

I mean, I owe it to you and to myself, really,

to just grow up.

You know what I'm saying? Be honest.

Having kids, being a father...

...I'm saying raising them, reading them a book...

that's my dream.

You know?

I ain't ready to give that up.

And you shouldn't.

You are going to be an amazing dad.

So what, this is it?

What, we came all this way, all this time,

to just say...

...goodbye?

♪ ♪

[doctor] I think it's very sweet you all came in

to support your girlfriend.

I always wanted girlfriends like that, you know?

Like you see on TV, like Sex and the City.

But mostly, I find other women to be petty, not fun.

But off topic.

I'm sure what happened was scary,

and you were smart to come to urgent care.

But you're totally fine...

and so is your baby.

[singer] Oh, shit!

[singer] ♪ This the finale but it ain't over ♪

♪ Wear my heart on my wrist ice cold, polar ♪

♪ A few pulling copycats it's a repeat ♪

♪ Buy the whole bar here's the receipt ♪

♪ Ho, ho, ho it's a freak-nique ♪

♪ Women wit' attitude like Eazy-E ♪

♪ Ayy, coffin style nails got 'em six deep ♪

♪ Swiping cards for that Fendi and the CC, ayy ♪

♪ Pull up to the club just because ♪

♪ All my girls' nails did and hair done ♪

♪ I drag a chick out the club just for fun ♪

♪ I thought you knew that you got the right one ♪

♪ With my girls, they my ride or die ♪

♪ We turning up on the IG Live ♪

♪ Get it back, put the fellas to the side ♪

♪ I'm a hustler so I always maximize ♪

♪ Turn your boo to my trick give me what I need ♪

♪ Buy me what I want but I never need ya ♪

♪ I will never tell better if I show ya ♪

♪ Built an empire we hit the quota ♪

♪ This the finale but it ain't over ♪

♪ Wear my heart on my wrist ice cold, polar ♪

♪ A few pulling copycats it's a repeat ♪

♪ Buy the whole bar here's the receipt ♪

♪ Ho, ho, ho it's a freak-nique ♪

♪ Women wit' attitude like Eazy-E ♪

♪ Ayy, coffin style nails got 'em six deep ♪

♪ Swiping cards for that Fendi and the CC, ayy ♪

♪ My girls, they my ride or die ♪

♪ We turning up on the IG Live ♪

♪ Get it back, put the fellas to the side ♪

♪ I'm a hustler so I always maximize ♪

[♪ DreamDoll: "Oh Shhh"]

♪ ♪