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Hi, Dad. I've missed you so much.

Why did you stop talking to me?

Someone was gonna give me a ride tomorrow,

and they can't anymore. Would you be able to do it?

Yeah, of course.

We successfully removed the tumor,

but it was more complicated than we expected.

So, then, what next?

Possibly another surgery.

Okay, you're kinda cute, Walter!

I love this job.

And here I am, learning from the best.

I feel like everyone around me is pregnant.

I should be happy for them.

Aria?

Oh my God.

Loneliness is multiplied

when we keep ourselves closed off.

-Hey. -Hi.

Hey.

The people who love you see you suffering.

Sorry, don't mind the mess.

She's just in the bedroom.

Okay.

And seeing you suffer hurts them too.

Baby…

We have to let them help us, I think.

Got a visitor.

Nobody likes to admit

they can't handle life alone.

But maybe we shouldn't try to.

-You okay? -Mm-hm.

It's kind of…

What it means to be human.

Tada!

Filling my prescription for anxiety meds

consistently gives me anxiety.

Is that how they get you?

"They"?

Big pharma. The app said Bremmen Way.

And all I see is this poster for a farmers' market

that says "shiitake happens."

Are you on Bremmen Street,

or Bremmen Way, or Bremmen Place…?

How did you know?

I'm your sister.

I know details aren't your strong point.

Rude!

Thank you.

Especially when you're stressed.

Who's stressed?

I'm just unemployed, broke, and unmedicated.

Sorry.

I'm whining.

How are you? How is she?

Oh…

I'm the same, she's the same.

Please get back to whining about your miseries.

I need the distraction.

Well, if you want more distraction,

a guy on the train today said I reminded him

of his middle-school math teacher,

who was, and I quote,

"A vision in Argyle."

Yeah, I told you that cardigan is heinous!

Thank you. I needed a laugh.

Here to serve.

Excuse me, know where Bremmen Way is?

Nope.

Here you go.

I'm gonna call you back.

Okay, bye.

I'm so sorry I didn't call you back.

Stop.

My dumb music snippets aren't as important as your dad.

Well, still, I could have said something.

I was just… underwater.

I can't stop thinking about what I did…

To cause it.

You didn't do anything to cause it, though.

I did listen to your clips.

It's all there.

When you're ready, just… keep going.

Completing your first original is no easy feat.

It is for some people.

Taylor Swift writes, like, five albums at a time.

-Aria. -What? It's true.

Maybe it's me.

I can't seem to cross any finish lines.

What's that?

Oh, that's…

It can wait for another time.

Um, but my face is on it.

You have to show me.

I'm chuffed about you performing,

but there's no rush.

I'll... I'll talk to Nate.

Are you two okay?

Oh, I'm not sure.

Oh, we haven't seen each other since I sped off to the UK.

Well, he understands, though.

He can't. He doesn't know why I left.

He has more important things going on.

But no, he has other things going on.

He cares about you.

A lot.

I suppose.

You know he does.

Pfft.

If you don't give someone the opportunity to fail you,

then they can't fail you.

I think that's why I didn't reach out to my dad

for all those years.

I couldn't… face the risk

that he wouldn't welcome me back with open arms.

That's why we stopped trying to get pregnant.

The fear.

Now there's… this.

It's okay not to be okay.

Good.

Because these reality TV shows aren't gonna watch themselves.

There you go.

I do worry about you being alone, though.

Um, I'm…

Seeing Dr. Anderson today.

Okay.

Are you gonna call Nate?

Yes.

It's his birthday tomorrow.

He's probably off celebrating somewhere.

Hm.

I just don't really feel like celebrating.

Well, your daughter considers birthdays

a month-long event,

and she's making you a very delicious-looking pancake

right now, so let's take a break, okay?

Okay.

Oh, wow!

Wow!

Is that mine?

Thank you, sweetie.

Great job.

Mmm!

Oh…

Wow.

You're not hungry?

Oh yeah! So hungry.

-Yeah. -Mmm, mmm.

All right…

Mmm.

Mmm!

Okay…

Mmm.

Mmm!

Time for the park?

Yeah! Yeah, let's go.

Okay. Okay, hey…

Remember…

Daddy needs to take it slow right now, okay?

Shoes, please.

Hey…

You're about to start treatment again,

so I just think...

Oh, I know. I get it, but…

I'm gonna talk to her, just…

Not today.

Okay. Maybe…

Also talk to your parents?

Let them know that you have cancer

before they jet off to Mumbai and bring you back a hookah.

They know me so well.

Hey, are you seriously gonna run around the city all day

with a six-year-old hopped up on sugar?

I can handle cupcakes and the playground.

What I can't handle is disappointing her.

It's good. I'm gonna be good.

All right!

Shoe time.

I'm done!

I wish you were, babe.

The sooner we start your session...

No, I'm done being a pin cushion!

She's having a tough week.

BRITISH You guys are disgusting.

I think you're disgusting.

How dare you do this to someone?

You can't even look me in the eye.

Hi, Dr. Anderson.

Hi, Aria.

Listen, I am so sorry to do this last minute,

but I had an emergency come up,

so do you mind if we reschedule for the same time next week?

Yeah. No problem.

Fantastic. Thank you so much.

We'll talk soon.

BRITISH You saw me crying,

and you're now in his bed!

Ah!

Is that supposed to hurt?

Well, your arches are probably tight.

Have you been using the golf ball?

Well, they only had 'em in multi-packs.

And who needs a dozen golf balls, right?

Ah!

I'll... I'll get it.

-Hello! -Hey.

Hi! I, uh I forgot it was Nate's birthday

until I looked at my calendar.

And then when I asked him what he was doing,

he said nothing.

So, we obviously have to throw him a party.

Yeah, well, does he want a party?

Want? No, he hates attention.

-Babe -But he deserves it.

He needs, like, a surprise birthday

slash cancer warrior party.

I have been buried,

so I was wondering if you two could help me out,

tomorrow afternoon-ish?

Yeah, of course.

Yeah, sure.

I could probably rope in the others.

I am quite charming.

Oh, I know. I, uh...

Would you mind picking up the cheesecake for me?

It's his favorite,

and, like, the only day of the year

he allows himself a little treat.

-Okay. -Thank you!

Oh?

Tell me you ordered from Veniero's.

Oh my God, who you think I am? Of course!

-Ooh! -Come on.

-See you guys later. -Come on.

Yeah, nice try.

Wow, okay. So high!

Catch me!

Well, why don't you go down the slide?

No, catch me!

Okay.

All right, Daddy's got you.

Oh!

Again!

Sorry, I… I can't.

I can't.

♪ Here… ♪

♪ In a familiar place ♪

♪ We got our heads down ♪

♪ And then we pretend it's 'cause… ♪

♪ The night is dark ♪

♪ And running out of space ♪

♪ For us to run around ♪

♪ But it's a dead end and money's tight ♪

♪ And it's been a long time of this ♪

♪ It's been a hard year and I only know ♪

♪ From down this low ♪

♪ It's only up… up we go ♪

TEEN Mom, come here!

I finally got the chorus figured out!

♪ I'm still stuck in bed ♪

♪ Haven't moved, no, not one bit ♪

♪ Since solitude and I met ♪

♪ Hey… ♪

♪ He told me no one could save me ♪

♪ And I thought that he might be crazy ♪

♪ My lonely's pushing the daisies ♪

♪ And I think that maybe he may be right ♪

Thank you!

It's good.

Just don't cramp up those piano fingers.

So… you don't like it?

Hobbies are fine,

so long as you spend the bulk of your time

on things that matter.

Okay.

Hey…

Classical piano gives you a chance at a real career,

if you're serious about it.

I am serious.

Good.

'Cause I have news.

Juilliard.

You got the audition.

Yeah!

-Wow! -Yeah!

Yay!

Okay.

Is she around?

She's right there.

Okay!

Thanks.

Hi!

Hi.

Finn's having a hard time.

Might not be in the mood for company today, I'm sorry.

Oh, no problem. I understand.

Even tough girls have bad days, right?

Yeah.

Um…

I... I brought her a few bits and bobs

from London, though…

A gift?

That is so sweet of you, but let's maybe try another day.

All right, then. I'll just hang on to these.

I guess I'll… come back another time.

Neither of you starlets should quit your day job.

What do you got?

Hm! Well…

Right…

There you go.

Whoa!

This is so cool!

You got these from actual London?

Yeah.

Actual London.

Ah, that was mine.

Do you like it?

I love it.

Oh, good.

Thanks.

It's therapeutic music day.

What is therapeutic about that dreadful racket?

I know. They're never on the beat.

Mm…

Hey, keep it down!

We're trying to beat cancer over here!

Happy birthday.

Thanks.

Um, I won't keep you,

uh, but I owe you an explanation.

That… would be quite the birthday present.

Are you free today?

I'm… not, actually.

What about tomorrow?

Uh… maybe.

Okay, we'll figure something out.

Um, I actually gotta go.

-Okay, bye. -Uh, bye.

Bye.

Have we been found out?

No, I think we're good.

Oh, okay.

I'll get it. Thank you.

Here you are.

Walter, you're either helping out

or drinking wine, but not both.

This is not for me.

Okay.

What was his name?

Uh, Rees.

Rees.

Well, to Rees,

who raised an amazing daughter and friend.

Aw, thank you, Walter.

Mm.

Oh, hey.

-Hey. -Where's Sylvie?

At my apartment.

Oh, did you and your girlfriend move in together already?

No, we did not.

While you were gone, Sylvie's apartment flooded,

and now Tara has a new roommate.

It's good, it's good.

Yeah, that was convincing.

I thought it was only gonna be for a couple of nights,

but it's been a couple of weeks.

I do like having her there.

It's just… I'm not used to it anymore.

It's a lot when you're used to your routine

and then someone's in your space.

Exactly! Like…

Sylvie made quiche the other night for dinner, right?

After she cracked the eggs,

she put the slimy, broken shells back in the carton.

Okay, bring 'em to me.

I'll crush 'em up and mix 'em in my plant soil.

Yeah, eggshells are very nutrient-dense.

My point is that it's gross.

She's not gross.

Right.

You know what I mean.

Now, look, the only thing I heard was

Sylvie made a quiche and you ate it.

Yeah, it was a pretty good quiche.

-Hey. -Oh, hey.

Where's Anna?

Uh… well, I had the brilliant idea

of doing this blanket fort today,

but then she had a meltdown when I told her

that I couldn't get down and crawl inside of it with her,

so I gave up.

And now she's taking her first solo ride on the subway.

Think she's probably halfway to Queens by now.

Uhhuh.

She's in her bedroom watching unboxing videos.

Why is the energy level of a six-year-old, like,

toxic to adults?

-Radioactive. -I know.

Yeah, I mean, you can't fix everything, Nate.

Feels more like any thing.

Oh… Ellis wants me to come in and sign some vendor checks.

Something I can actually manage to do.

Okay, here we go.

There you go.

I don't remember what my life was like

without you. Will you marry me?

Oh my God, is this real?

Yes, I will be your wife!

Yes!

Connection lost…?

No…

No, no.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

No, no, no, no, no.

No, no, no, no…

Wha…?

Thank you for calling Sky Chart.

Your call is important to us.

Please hold,

and a representative will be with you shortly.

Honey, stop hiding behind that sustain pedal.

You're not fooling anyone with that tempo!

You have one week to get it right

before your audition.

Focus.

Feet up, Aria…

Still off!

A tick more!

Go again!

Augh!

What happened?

Oh my God!

Oh…

Wait, Mom, Mom, Mom, don't call the doctor!

I'm not!

I'm seeing if we can reschedule the audition!

Good afternoon.

This is Mo with Sky Chart Internet.

Who do I have the pleasure of speaking with today?

Oh my God, finally.

Uh, Aria Navarro. My internet's out.

I am so sorry about that, Aria.

And I'm in a highrise in Manhattan,

so my cell signal is crap, too.

That sounds distressing, Aria.

Can you stop saying my name?

Yes, ma'am.

No, no, no, no. No, "ma'am."

Just, just… You know, "Aria" is fine.

Thank you, Aria.

Now, let me check to see if there's any reported outages

near you…

Bear with me a bit longer.

Our system is running slower than usual.

Can't you just send someone out here to fix it?

Let's try a few troubleshooting techniques first.

I'm confident.

Just send someone out here to fix it!

Please!

Are you… okay?

Not really.

Is someone there with you?

No.

I'm alone.

You're not alone.

I'm here.

Do you wanna talk about it?

Sorry, I… I know that's weird.

You don't even know me.

I had a miscarriage.

And I didn't even know I was pregnant,

so I didn't get the chance to be excited.

I only got to be devastated.

And I'm so sick of being devastated.

I'm sorry.

Thanks.

It's stupid.

But I just... I just want to watch my shows.

This is probably your weirdest call today, no?

Not quite.

I don't know if you know this,

but people kinda suck.

Can I tell you something?

Uh… yeah.

Thirteen months ago,

when the third fertility specialist in a row

told me that I was never gonna be able to have a baby…

My husband left me.

The first month,…

I could barely breathe.

The second month, I just watched The Office,

morning, noon, and night.

Took me 11 more months just to find this job.

I couldn't make myself show up.

Yeah, I… I get that.

I read something this morning. It said, um…

"Loneliness is multiplied when we keep ourselves closed off."

The people who love you, they see you suffering,

and seeing you suffer hurts them too, so…

We have to…

let them help us.

I think.

I just…

Always feel like a burden.

I hate that.

Same.

My sister, who's going through unimaginable things,

is always telling me

that she wants to hear about my problems.

That helps her just as much as it helps me, but, um…

I have to fight the urge to isolate.

Mmhm.

Yeah, that's my comfort zone.

Nobody wants to hear that they can't handle life alone,

but, um…

Maybe we shouldn't try to.

It's kind of…

What it means to be human.

Hm…

You're right.

Mo?

Yeah?

I'm glad my internet went out.

Me, too.

No, he's coming around the corner…

He's coming, he's coming, he's coming.

Okay, okay!

Surprise!

-Wow. -Happy birthday!

Don't hate me.

I don't, but you are fired.

Sorry.

This isn't any other birthday.

This is a new, cancer-free beginning.

Come on, man.

Yeah, um, about that…

We should probably put that out.

Yeah

Cake for everyone!

Hey, who wants a slice? Come on.

Come on!

Okay…

Hi.

Hi.

♪ Do, do, do, do… ♪

So… there we go. Okay…

♪ I don't know what to say ♪

♪ And I don't… na-da-da-da-da… ♪

♪ I know that you wanna try to understand ♪

♪ Understand… ♪

♪ Da-da-na-na-na-na… ♪

♪ Try to put your world right in my head… ♪

♪ I'm still trying

♪ to learn from… ♪

♪ You, my… ♪

Hey!

I know you're not cleaning up at your own birthday party!

Well, I don't see any of you getting up.

No, you don't.

-You're not doing that. -No, no.

Are you sure we can't help?

It's fine. Yeah, yeah. It's my pleasure.

Okay!

I have to say…

He's fine. Don't worry.

Hold on, I'll help you.

Allow me, darling.

I'm good. I just... it slipped.

Stop faffing about.

You're just making up words now.

Show me where to put this.

Yeah, not so easy, is it?

Thank you.

Any time.

You doing okay?

Yeah. You?

Yeah.

I get it.

Get what?

This.

It's a lot.

I'm separated. I have a kid.

Can't even take out my own trash.

I... I understand why… why you ran away.

No, that's not what happened.

Well, where'd you go?

I mean, I know you went to the UK, but…

It's more than that.

I…

I lost my dad.

I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry. I wish…

I wish you could have told me.

I know. I…

I hadn't gone back since I moved to the States.

Since I… well, since I fled, honestly.

I…

I really wanna hug you.

Okay.

But I I can't.

-Oh, okay. -Sorry.

No, it's… the incisions.

-Oh. -Multiple incisions.

I see.

Hey, could you, uh…

let me be here for you?

You were here for me.

Minus that one time.

But… that's okay. That's all right.

So, um…

So, not a birthday person, huh?

Oh, you noticed?

Yeah.

We're all in there trying to celebrate you,

and you are picking rubbish.

Literal rubbish over joining us.

So, the surgery didn't go as planned.

They weren't able to get clear margins on my incisions,

so there are still active cells.

So more chemo?

More chemo, yeah.

It feels… it feels like…

The finish line was right there.

My foot was right there…

-Mm. -And just… it just got moved.

Like…

I'm really happy you're here.

Shall we?

Yeah.

The only way I know you won't run away again.

Mm.

Go on, then.

Oh my gosh…

Aria came.

Happy birthday!

Oh, hi!

I know you don't love sweets, so I got you a gift card

to my favorite ramen place on Amsterdam.

I feel like you're a ramen guy?

You you are correct.

Thank you. This is so thoughtful.

-Go. I'll get you a drink. -Okay. Thank you.

-Kris. -Yes?

I did it.

I wrote an entire song. Like A, B, A, B, C, B.

It's all there, fully formed.

You are practically vibrating.

Well, after you left,

I thought I was gonna be in bed for days.

And then…?

And then I talked to Mo.

Sorry. Long story.

Well, good job, Mo, and great job, Aria.

I... I can't wait to hear it.

Neither can I.

Can't wait to hear what?

Aria just finished composing her first original song.

-Wow, congratulations. -Thanks.

And you're here.

You should be out celebrating with your people.

Well…

I am.

-Thank you. -Mm-hm.

-Thank you. -Welcome.

John.

It's good to see you.

Hi.

And you must be John's wife?

I'm Desi.

Aria. You work at Kaplan?

I do.

Oh, well, nice to meet you.

Wow, that is such a beautiful bracelet.

Oh, yeah. It is.

John knows what I like.

Hey, John. Nice to see you.

-Hi. -How are you doing?

-Good, good. -Good.

Did you wanna grab a seat?

Yeah.

Yes.

Little something extra for you all.

Ooh, have to get that. I'll be right.

She, uh, kisses my cheek

almost every time she leaves the room.

I kinda love it.

-Mmhm? -Mm-hm.

But…?

Nothing.

It's just a lot.

Uh…

You know, we started seeing each other,

and suddenly we're sharing my space.

It's my space.

I'm not ready for it to become our space.

Is that terrible?

No, no.

It's fast.

I mean, even for lesbians.

Walter!

I'm sorry. Is that offensive?

No!

I'm proud you even knew to make that joke.

And now I feel much better.

I do.

Okay, okay.

And you're right.

We've been… kind of on fast-forward.

But once her apartment repairs are finally done,

we get to go back to getting to know each other slowly.

-Nice. -Mm-hm.

-Cheers. -Cheers.

Oh, one second.

Kris.

Carrie!

Hi! It's been so long.

Oh my goodness.

Oh, look at you.

I've been meaning to call you for weeks.

Things were so messy when you left.

Honestly, I was close to quitting.

Mm.

You were the main reason I loved that job.

Aw, that's sweet of you to say.

How are you?

How's the chef?

Ah. We broke up.

Ah… Oh.

He moved to the West Coast, and I couldn't go

'cause, um…

Vesey Street promoted me.

Oh!

Uh…

Um…

You know what?

You're a star.

I'm glad that they see that.

Should we have some bubbly to celebrate?

On it.

-Oh, thanks. -You're welcome.

-Cheers. -Cheers.

Cheers.

I'll see you later. It was good seeing you.

Yeah!

Can I get two cheesecakes?

Hey, how's it going?

Oh, I dunno.

Some days are just a lot.

Mmhm.

Felt like I was always the guy that was…

Keeping all the fires burning.

I was the dad.

I was the bar owner.

Estranged husband.

But now…

It's like I don't even know where those fires are.

Are there fires?

What is fire?

Yeah, right?

You know, earlier today, someone told me

you have to let people help you.

I think that's easier when you're paying those people.

Have you tried therapy?

Nah.

I... I've been avoiding that route for... for a while.

It might help.

I'm usually mad at my therapist for being right.

She's great.

Hm.

Well, maybe I should give it a shot.

Would you... would you mind sharing her name?

Of course.

Now I won't feel as bad for being late to your party.

Please. It's one less person

shouting "Happy Birthday" at me.

That's... that's the gift.

That's really interesting.

Well… that was my landlord.

The inspector found black mold in my apartment.

Oh my God.

Oh…

Well, I guess I'll be staying with you a little longer.

Ah…

Oh, wow.

I guess the next round's on me.

Hey!

More champagne?

Go for it.

It's a lot, isn't it?

Yeah. I'm pretty tired.

And I wish I could lay down.

Come on.

You making sure I don't jet this time?

Nah, you're too knackered to be a flight risk.

I present to you…

Your sofa.

Oh!

Best birthday gift ever.

Okay.

Oh… oh, wow.

What?

Yeah.

This is perfect.

Thank you.

And for you, sir.

Okay, who's next?

-Could I do a -Vodka soda and lime twist.

A vodka soda lime twist. And for you, Aria?

Sauvignon Blanc.

-Okay. -Thank you.

Is that you?

Yeah.

I'm Carrie.

-You're with Vesey. -Mm-hm.

I saw you talking to Kris.

I… didn't realize.

She was basically my mentor.

So, if Kris is a fan, you've gotta be special.

Hit me up.

Would love to chat.

Do you want another one, or are you good?

♪ I'm wanting to grow… ♪

Good morning.

-Hey. -Hi.

I made you coffee.

Wow.

Have you seen my wife?

Little thing, voice of an angel.

Never gets up before the crack of… 10:00,

if I'm being polite?

I don't want to take the chance.

I need to get these ideas down.

-Thank you. -You're welcome.

♪ Wanting to love… ♪

And just like that, Mom.

All right, now. Okay.

You know, Micah…

-Hm? -One of these days…

You're not gonna win.

Oh.

But today's not the day!

Today is not that day.

Oh, boy. Okay.

Let me show you.

Ooh.

♪ No, we won't define you ♪

♪ We live on and on ♪

♪ No, I ain't just… ♪

Huh.

♪ Surviving… ♪

Oh, hang on, hang on!

Just one second.

Hey!

How's it going?

Kinda awesome, actually.

You got a second?

Uh, yeah, yeah, I do,

uh, but first, someone wants to talk to you.

Hey, Aunty Mo.

Hey, Finn!