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♪You are the sun in my life♪

♪You're the light of my love♪

♪When I'm lost in the dark♪

♪Every shadow fades away♪

♪You are the sun in my life♪

♪You're the light of my love♪

♪When I'm lost in the dark♪

♪Every shadow fades away♪

[Shine On Me]

[Adapted from Gu Man's novel, Shine On Me]

[Episode 18]

You are back.

Finally, I feel like a human again.

It is absolutely freezing out there.

What took you guys so long?

Ask Jiang Rui.

He insisted on taking me

to the shopping street for snacks.

We even hit up two different spots.

Hey, I was just trying to keep you happy.

What's all this for?

We are hitting the slopes tomorrow too.

Hu helped us rent some gear.

Are these all skis?

Perfect. Since I don't know how,

I guess I'm off the hook for teaching you.

We've got Hu. Who needs you anyway?

Exactly.

Out of the four of you,

three are total rookies,

and one who's "okay-ish."

How's Hu

supposed to manage everyone?

I think we should really

have Hu

find another instructor.

Don't you worry your little head about it.

Stop being such a smart aleck.

Go upstairs and hop in the shower.

Get yourself warmed up.

Let's go. I'm freezing my butt off.

We're heading up.

Why did you ask Zhuang Xu

to take photos for us?

I didn't really think it through.

I just figured, why should we be

the only ones freezing our hands off?

He should have to feel the chill too.

I was just hoping

a handsome guy would take a photo for us,

and Mr. Zhuang happened to be right there.

Wait, since when did you change how you address him?

I just feel like

if you don't like someone,

that's not a crime.

But you can't just

keep leading them on one minute,

and then acting all cold and distant the next.

It's totally messing with their head.

So, it turns out,

the feelings he showed

were just

a total misunderstanding.

Right?

Even I got the wrong idea again.

It's not your fault.

Wait, "again"?

Slip of the tongue.

Just finish it off

so we can hit the skewer place.

[To Lin: Just wrapped up. Jiang Rui dragged me out for a late-night snack.]

Unbelievable.

Is he ghosting me?

I think this is it.

♪Never felt this way before♪

♪Oh, will it stay the same?♪

♪Though the seasons change♪

♪And life gets in the way♪

What's with all the racket?

♪All this time you're in my mind♪

♪I dream of when I'll hold you every day♪

♪When it won't be a scene that fades away♪

♪We'll find our way back to when♪

♪Through all the times we were getting through♪

♪And learned we're meant to be♪

♪Will we ever be close, you and me?♪

♪Oh, wherever you are, whatever you want♪

♪Don't hesitate to call me, just let me know♪

♪I hope you'll never forget♪

♪My heart has only you♪

♪Every moment of every day♪

♪Our love's gonna find a way♪

♪Oh, can you feel my heart's with you?♪

♪If you ever wanna know♪

♪I have never felt this before♪

♪Will we ever be close, you and me?♪

What are you doing here?

♪Oh, wherever you are, whatever you want♪

Isn't it obvious? ♪Oh, wherever you are, whatever you want♪

Isn't it obvious?

I followed you all the way here

to Changbai Mountain.

♪I hope you'll never forget♪

♪My heart has only you♪

♪Every moment of every day♪

♪Our love's gonna find a way♪

Well... ♪Our love's gonna find a way♪

Well...

thanks for the hard work.

Good thing

you let your coordinates slip,

so I didn't have to rack my brains

to track you down.

No wonder you said

thanks to me yesterday.

So, you had this all planned out.

Xiguang,

who's this?

Your cousin?

Yeah.

Xiguang,

why is someone coming to see you

at this hour?

Didn't you say

Hu wouldn't be able to handle

all four of us tomorrow,

and that I should find someone else?

Well, here's the instructor I found.

He's here for his interview.

What?

Since when are you this efficient?

That's right.

I'm a ski instructor.

You can just call me Lin.

My instructor?

Why does that make me feel like I'm losing out?

So, what's

with the little snowman?

It's my signature move

to win over my clients.

You want one?

I can whip one up for you right now.

I'm good.

Thanks.

Alright, it's a deal then.

Tomorrow,

I'll pick you guys up and head to the slopes.

What time are we leaving?

Hold on.

Wait,

I was just messing with Jiang Rui.

How did this get so out of hand?

Did I just shoot myself

in the foot?

Um...

About that interview...

I didn't make the cut?

Not really.

So, what time then?

9 AM.

Got it.

Good night.

See you tomorrow.

Is he really an instructor?

Something just feels off.

Like what?

Since when are instructors this hot?

I thought you were actually going to say something important.

Plus, he doesn't really have

that typical local accent.

He doesn't sound like a local.

Well, maybe he's from out of town,

looking for a gig up here.

Hey, how come this little snowman

looks exactly like you in that photo

I took for you?

Well, isn't that just the look around here?

There's a pretty cool restaurant

up at the summit.

We can grab a coffee over there

when we need a break,

and just soak in the view for a bit.

Great idea.

You're back.

You couldn't wait to dash out the second

we checked in, huh?

So, what were you up to?

Oh, just picked up a part-time gig.

A gig?

Do tell.

Ski instructing.

Just showing people the ropes on the snow.

What's the hourly rate around here?

Thanks for the reminder, Mr. Luo.

I totally blanked on the pay.

You really think he's actually there to teach?

So,

you've already met her parents?

No.

That's why tomorrow,

I'm showing up

as a ski instructor.

I knew you were up to something

for this trip.

I just didn't want to blow your cover.

But the last thing I expected

was for you to be so lame.

Alright, can I finally see

the photo of this girl?

Forget it.

Maybe when I'm not so "lame."

Not gonna show me?

But the slopes aren't that big.

If we run into each other,

I can't guarantee

how I'll react.

Given my student's level,

I'll mostly be sticking

to the blue runs.

I won't bump into you pros

on the black runs.

Alright.

What's the rush?

We'll meet her sooner or later anyway.

Tell me about it.

Nie Xiguang, hurry up.

Hu and that instructor you hired

are already downstairs waiting.

Coming!

They're here.

It's so beautiful.

Let me take that for you.

Alright.

Careful.

I must have been out of my mind yesterday

to actually let my mom

meet Lin Yusen just like that.

Has everyone had breakfast yet?

Yeah.

Alright,

we're heading to the slopes today.

Since the three of you

don't have much experience,

let's start at the beginner area

for some practice.

And you guys hired an instructor,

right?

That's great.

Good morning.

It's safer with one instructor

for every two of you.

We hired him?

Xiguang lined this guy up

last night, totally last-minute.

I thought

she found him through Hu.

Nope.

She never asked me.

I...

found him online,

on, uh, Weibo.

Yeah, Weibo.

Actually, I'm not from around here.

I'm just visiting and picking up a gig.

That's right.

Time to roll.

Okay.

Let's get everyone in the minivan

and head to the ski center

to drop our bags off.

Thanks.

Here, let me take that.

It's okay.

Thanks.

Take it easy, Aunt.

Xiguang,

where on earth did you find

such a handsome instructor?

On Weibo.

I knew that.

Did he post photos?

I mean, how else would you have picked him out?

Does a hottie like him

charge extra per hour?

Do you really need to know every little detail?

He only posted a side profile.

Show me his Weibo.

Aunt,

Uncle is giving you the death stare.

I just want to know

if our new instructor

is staying with us all day

and what his rate is.

I already settled it with Nie online.

You only pay if you find my instructing up to par.

Otherwise, it's on me.

Xiguang,

you are such a shark.

What if my mom and the guys

are just hopeless?

You can't pin that on the instructor.

I...

I mean,

I did say that.

It is a bit much, isn't it?

But I...

That hustler streak has nothing to do with me.

I never taught her to be like that.

We can't do that.

We should still pay by the hour.

Let's just stick to Hu's rate.

Oh, right.

Sir,

how should we address you?

Ma'am,

you can just call me Lin.

Lin.

Got it.

Okay,

let's start

with the basics.

Since

it's your first time,

I'll take the lead.

Sounds good.

Nie already knows how to ski,

so she'll pair up with Mr. Lin.

No problem.

Lin,

you're not teaching us?

We could swap.

No way.

He's an online hire.

I'm worried he's too green for this.

I think it's okay.

She's right.

Hu is fine

for us.

Come on.

Alright.

Let's begin.

First,

we'll learn

how to strap into these boards.

See

this binding

here?

What's with you?

"We could swap"?

If I'm looking to level up our relationship,

I've got to play nice

with your family.

I have an idea.

Why don't you say

you have an emergency

in an hour

and vanish

into the snow forever?

What, am I getting buried alive?

Of course not.

I mean, I could.

I'm not getting paid anyway.

But your mom just said

she'd pay me by the hour.

Now I'm not so sure I want to leave.

Nie, let's get started.

Take a run

so I can see your form.

♪The second you got close♪

♪Even the breeze felt sweet♪

♪I acted like I didn't care♪

♪But you saw right through me♪

♪The coffee's getting cold♪

Were your calves a bit sore

when you woke up this morning?

How did you know?

You need to adjust your form.

You're driving from your calves.

Plus, you're leaning back too much.

♪Yet I'm just lost in the way you smile♪

You're right. ♪Yet I'm just lost in the way you smile♪

You're right.

I think I am.

I'm a bit scared of falling.

So I end up leaning back unconsciously.

♪I wonder if the feeling lingers for you too♪

Say cheese! ♪I wonder if the feeling lingers for you too♪

Say cheese!

- Cheese! - Cheese!

Finger heart!

Make a heart like this.

♪Yet I'm still waiting, on and on♪

Look at that pose.

Like they just conquered the Himalayas.

♪You've been on my mind all day♪

♪Just a little closer to you♪

♪Before every goodnight♪

Looks like I'm not needed here,

huh?

Fine, I'll just go

ski alone.

Just go.

Bye.

Choosing a hot guy over your own cousin?

I'm hot too, you know.

Honestly.

Be careful.

Let's go.

♪The coffee's getting cold♪

♪My heartbeat becomes impossible to ignore♪

♪You said you loved summer♪

♪Yet I'm just lost in the way you smile♪

♪You've been on my mind all day♪

♪Just a little closer to you♪

♪Before every goodnight♪

♪I whisper your name again and again♪

I think I'm getting the hang of it.

It feels like flying on a sword.

Let's try the green runs then.

Maybe I should do a few more runs here.

I don't want to be a human torpedo.

It's been forever since I hit the green runs.

I'm super rusty now.

And I remember

that I always wipe out

getting off the lift.

I haven't tried the green runs here yet.

I'll go check the pitch and the snow.

You take a break here

for a bit.

Okay.

Be careful.

Hu, come over here.

Easy now.

Slow down.

This is the last day

I'm babysitting you guys.

Tomorrow, you're on your own.

Don't! We're lost without you.

Zhuang Xu,

your student's cousin is up there.

The girl who took

our photos yesterday.

She's a real cutie.

Why is she alone?

Should we invite her to join us?

Give it up.

She's taken.

Right, Zhuang Xu?

Yeah.

You okay?

So much for not being a torpedo, huh?

I didn't do any damage, did I?

Crashing into me is one thing,

but why the personal attack?

With your mass and that velocity,

you're not strong enough to dent me.

What a weird flex.

So, how was it?

Is the green run steep?

It's pretty mellow.

You can totally handle it.

Let's go.

See?

She's got her boyfriend with her.

And he's hot.

Hey, you make it sound

like I have ulterior motives.

But

I don't think they look like a couple.

Look at other couples.

They're all hand-in-hand,

like they're literally

attached at the hip.

How so?

Ask Zhuang Xu.

Do couples have to

be so lovey-dovey?

I don't know.

That catch just now

was so romantic.

It's like a scene

straight out of my dreams.

Too bad

for now, I'm the only one

here to catch you.

Let's move.

We're heading to the green runs too.

Let's go.

I'm heading to the blue runs.

Lean your weight forward.

Just glide forward naturally.

Don't be afraid.

I'll be right here watching you.

Wait!

See?

Told you I'd wipe out.

You'll get it with a bit more practice.

I can't let him

catch me every time.

Don't be scared.

It's no different from the magic carpet.

Just think of it as "flying on a sword"

for just a little longer.

I'll be right by your side.

Go.

♪I'm inside my mind♪

♪Lost in how you shine♪

♪You left your light with mine♪

♪I can't get over the way that you♪

♪Leave me be♪

♪Don't leave it up to me♪

♪Oh it ain't hard to see♪

♪That you're everything I need♪

♪Baby, I don't wanna forget♪

♪You are breaking down my walls♪

♪And I'm about to risk it all for you♪

Stop filming me.

Jiang Rui says I look like

a scuttling crab.

♪I just wanna give my time♪

What's so funny?

It's only natural.

After all,

you're both from Jiangsu. [*Jiangsu is famous for its crabs.]

♪You chasing waterfalls♪

♪You chasing rainbows♪

♪Oh you girl, you have it all♪

See them anywhere?

We've been on the blue runs

for ages.

Did you spot Yusen?

Nope.

That brat definitely

played us.

Should we

look for them somewhere else?

Forget it.

I'll settle the score with him tonight.

Weiai?

I was on fire today.

I'm back

to my old self.

Too bad no one was there

to capture my best moves.

Lin,

did you take any photos of Xiguang?

I did,

but she took my phone and deleted them.

Xiguang, are you that bossy?

Just eat your meat

and mind your own business.

I'm totally wiped out today.

No more skiing for me tomorrow.

Anyway, I've got the photos.

Are you guys still going tomorrow?

Of course.

Just don't drag me

to see those tourist sights again.

Did I ask you?

We're not going.

Let's do something more relaxing.

Then tomorrow,

let's see if Tianchi Lake is open.

If it is, we'll head over there.

Otherwise, we'll just wander around Yanji.

Okay.

Sounds like a plan.

Alright.

Jiang Rui,

tomorrow, you and Xiguang

can go do your skiing.

We'll stick to our plan.

Hu will come with us,

and Lin, you stay with them.

We'll just split up.

It works out

better this way.

- Okay. - Okay.

Oh, by the way,

Lin, you mentioned this morning

that you're just here on vacation too?

That's right.

Where are you from?

I'm from Shanghai.

Shanghai?

That's really close to us.

We're from Nanjing and Wuxi.

What a coincidence.

I'm working in Suzhou.

Xiguang is in Suzhou too.

What are the odds?

So

what do you do?

Aunt,

have some meat.

It's way better

than the Northeast restaurants back home.

Give it a try.

Okay.

This juice is great.

Here, have some.

It's got real fruit pulp in it.

Stop prying

into his life.

It's not like you're conducting a background check.

Stewed Goose in Iron Pot!

It's ready. Enjoy your meal.

OK.

Thanks.

Okay.

Weiai,

check out that slide.

Go give it a try.

No,

I'm way too old for that.

What's age got to do with it?

That ice sculpture is great.

Let me take a photo of you.

Right here?

We need some proof we were here.

Go.

Strike a pose.

How's this?

That's it. Perfect.

One, two, three.

Switch it up.

One...

Luo,

see that person over there?

Well, well, look who we have here.

That little brat.

Finally caught you red-handed.

Take it easy.

Eat up, everyone.

Green beans from anywhere else

just don't have this texture.

They're really not as tender and starchy.

Here, have some more.

Alright.

This is delicious.

Mr. Lin?

It really is you!

What are you doing here?

Didn't you say you were leaving Changbai Mountain

and couldn't be my instructor anymore?

Don't tell me

you took another gig instead?

Lin Yusen isn't even a real instructor.

There's no way he'd take another gig.

Could this Madam...

be...?

Mr. Lin,

you have some explaining to do.

Are you getting a better offer

from someone else?

Mom.

Mr. Luo.

I can't help you out.

Your mom spent forever

looking for you on the blue runs.

Lin,

who are they?

Everyone,

this is my mom and Mr. Luo.

She's just joking around.

Okay.

I see.

Mom, Mr. Luo,

this is my colleague, Xiguang,

her mom,

and her uncle's family.

And this is their guide, Hu.

Hello.

Nice to meet you all.

- Colleague? - Colleague?

Xiguang, you lied to me?

You just sold me out

right to my face?

My family and I

are just here for the holidays too.

I bumped into Xiguang,

and just for fun,

I played a little prank.

Sorry about that.

It's fine.

You young folks always have your tricks.

Yusen,

take your time with the meal.

We'll leave you to it.

Ms. Sheng.

You're...

Jiang...

Jiang Yun.

Are you going to tell us yourself,

or do we have to ask?

What?

He's my boss

and he happened to come to Changbai Mountain for a trip,

and we just made a joke.

We already talked about it

at dinner.

He's the boss

you mentioned?

You knew that?

No, I don't.

Xiguang,

answer me.

Is he

chasing after you?

- Great! I agree... - Mom.

How can you say that?

You were just telling us

to be more careful in relationships

and to take things slow.

Now you've changed your tune.

Well, I just think

he's quite a catch.

He's

the total package

and very easygoing.

It's just his family

is a lot to deal with.

How so?

Isn't he just Sheng Xianmin's grandson?

It's not that simple.

Xiguang,

how much do you know about his family?

I only know

that his dad passed away long ago,

and his mom has lived abroad for years.

Beyond that, I'm in the dark.

You met Lin's dad before, didn't you?

Yes,

many years ago

at a business gala

in Shanghai.

Back then,

Xiguang's dad and I were just starting our business.

We had to pull some strings just to get in.

Someone introduced us

to Ms. Sheng and Mr. Lin.

We didn't stay in touch much after that.

A few years later,

I heard that something happened to Mr. Lin.

How come you've never mentioned this?

What exactly happened to Lin's dad?

That's a long story.

Normally,

I wouldn't gossip

about others' families.

But if Xiguang is seriously considering

a relationship with him,

there are some things she ought to know.

You all met

Ms. Sheng today.

She has a very unique name,

Sheng Weiai.

Just from her name,

you can tell

she was once

the apple

of everyone's eye.

The first time I met Jiang Yun and her husband

was at a gala.

I went with your dad.

They were

just starting out back then,

but they really stood out

in the crowd.

Nie Chengyuan.

That was his name, right?

Yeah.

He was

a striking man, sure.

But

he was overly eager and a total blowhard.

I wasn't exactly impressed.

Jiang Yun, on the other hand,

had the calm and composed air,

perfectly poised.

I couldn't help

but like her instantly.

But later,

Nie became close with your uncle, Bokai,

so naturally,

we drifted apart.

Who would've thought

that after all these years,

we'd be connected like this again.

Xiguang made

a great first impression on me.

Her eyes are so clear and full of spirit.

Don't let her slip away.

It's just

that Nie has deep ties

with Bokai,

I wonder if there will be some pushback.

Ms. Jiang and Mr. Nie are divorced.

So there's no need to worry about that.

Sharing the struggle is natural,

but sharing the success takes real effort.

That's nothing new.

There's something I need to tell you.

Mr. Luo and I went

to the blue runs today,

hoping to run into you.

But instead,

we ended up bumping into

some of your aunt's relatives.

It won't be long before your grandpa

finds out

I'm back.

He'll likely ask you something.

I just wanted to give you a heads-up.

I understand.

What did you tell him

before Chinese New Year?

He never asks much

before the holiday.

It's only afterwards that he'll check in

to see if everything is alright.

I tell him it is,

and he leaves it at that.

After the holiday,

it'll be time for his birthday banquet again, right?

Yes.

It looks like they're planning a grand celebration this year.

Do you think I'm heartless

for not visiting my own dad

all these years?

Of course not.

I told you that when I was a child.

Thank you, Yusen.

Sorry you had to grow up so fast.

You're finally settling into a relationship.

If all goes well,

soon enough,

you'll have a family of your own.

I can finally set down

this weight in my heart.

I'm doing just fine on my own.

You don't need to worry about me.

That's not the same thing.

Can't you feel it?

When you

have someone you love

by your side,

the whole world feels full of hope,

as if everything is brand new.

I don't think

I've ever told you

the story of your dad and me,

when we were young.

Want to hear it?

Of course.

Back then,

it was me

who pursued your dad.

I know.

How could you know?

I think, when I was very little,

Dad told me in secret.

I still kind of remember it.

He told you that?

Then he definitely didn't tell you

that at first,

he turned me down

again and again.

I was almost ready to give up.

But one day, it was pouring rain

and I tripped.

The rain was so heavy

that I couldn't see

anyone a few meters ahead.

But he was

about thirty meters out

and he just rushed over to me.

That was the moment I knew I could never let him go.

I confronted him:

"You like me,

so why do you keep shutting me out?"

He gave me

a cliché reason,

that he felt he wasn't good enough for me.

Of course,

I couldn't accept that.

I was so confident back then,

believing that as long as we loved each other,

nothing else mattered.

And things did go smoothly

for a while.

We fell in love,

got married,

and had you.

To prove himself,

your dad worked tirelessly, day and night.

But because he was too brilliant,

he stirred up jealousy in others.

In the end, they conspired against him

and set him up to make a mistake.

Your grandpa knew perfectly well he was innocent,

yet he still

exiled him

to a place so far away.

I always remember

what your dad told me before he left.

He told me not to be angry with your grandpa,

that he had his reasons.

Your grandpa told me

it was only temporary,

just to quiet the critics,

and that he'd send him back within a year.

But that one year

became three.

And in the end...

What could matter more

than your dad's life?

It was simply because your dad

was so capable and selfless

that he made your uncles'

greed and incompetence look even worse.

I blame them,

but I blame myself even more.

I insisted

on being with him.

I brought him to Shengyuan.

He could have had

a wonderful life.

He was always so healthy,

with a perfect medical record.

He should have lived a long life.

I changed his fate,

but I failed to protect him.

And so, at such a young age,

he met his end far from home,

utterly alone.

But

they are all my family.

What could I do?

All I could do was punish myself.

I can't just act

like nothing happened.

I can't pretend to be the "good daughter"

or the "good sister,"

acting like everything's fine,

or that I actually feel that "family warmth,"

while your grandparents,

already in their sixties,

faced the most devastating tragedy,

having to bury their own child.

Mom,

you shouldn't carry

all this guilt on your own.

At least Grandma and Grandpa

never once blamed you.

I know.

That's why, back then,

I just wanted to run away from it all

and take you with me,

but in the end,

I left you with them.

I let you down, too.

I wasn't strong enough to hold us together.

That's not true.

You called me every single day.

Honestly, it was getting a bit much.

And all those summer and winter breaks you spent

with me in Switzerland were annoying too?

No.

Those trips

were what kept me studying hard.

I only wished that you'd never have to

find out about any of those things.

That's why I never stopped you

from seeing my dad

when you were little.

Now that I think about it,

was I wrong again?

You found out anyway.

You must have suffered

so much.

Grandma and Grandpa never said a word either,

not even when they passed away.

You all just wanted me

to grow up without hatred

and have a childhood that felt whole.

Thank you, Yusen.

♪A patch of heavy clouds above♪

♪That winding, twisting road we walk♪

♪Stopping and going countless times♪

♪Love feels less rushed that way♪

♪The rain from yesterday has finally cleared♪

♪And today the sunshine feels so warm and bright♪

♪I used to hide away in the corner♪

♪But now I long to follow close behind you♪

♪How much longer must I keep missing out?♪

♪When it's only you who makes my heart race♪

♪I've rushed through the endless crowd♪

♪I'm holding your hand at this moment♪

♪Clutching tight, with tender arms♪

♪I just want to keep your gentle smile♪

♪I've made it past the endless trials♪

♪I'm gazing into your eyes at this moment♪

♪No turning back or fear of winter's chill♪

♪The sunlight shines like you♪

♪And like me♪

♪Dreams realized, broken and gone♪

♪Nothing more than a dream all along♪

♪Wake up to the bright lights on the streets♪

♪I'm here by your side♪

♪The sky dimmed, deepened and died♪

♪Nothing more than some rain inside♪

♪Open the window to boundless blue skies♪

♪Side by side, just you and I♪

♪Side by side, just you and I♪