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When I was seven,

I finished up my brother's summer homework,

and that painting won first place in the prefectural contest.

My father who was an art instructor was very elated.

He said my brother had artistic talent.

Even after that, I continued to paint for him as he asked.

In grade school, middle school, high school, and after college.

Didn't it upset you that your brother

was taking all the credit for your paintings?

I was strongly offended by my father's

open favoritism towards my brother.

He would show signs of disappointment towards me.

I mocked him inside, for not knowing the truth.

Then one day,

my brother introduced me to a woman.

Was that Chihiro?

Then I...

Fell in love?

Yeah.

I decided to tell you the whole truth

in the short time that was left with you.

I wanted you to do the same.

I adored Shu.

I was willing to do anything for Shu.

Shu said he was going to marry me.

One day, we went shopping together hand in hand.

On the slope, an apple fell out of the bag, and rolled.

Shu let go of my hand to chase after it.

Then...

We all have moments in life in which we have to lie.

We shouldn't be told things that we needn't know.

But lies and secrets are meaningless to us now.

I forgot to give you this.

I just received news from the police.

What is it?

Ikawa Masshiro died.

Because we will never see each other again.

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What about the microscope?

He's such a blabbermouth.

Tell me.

It happened when I was in the 8th grade.

A few of us were fooling around in the bathroom

during homeroom period, masturbating.

We were observing our sperm under a microscope.

And you?

That's when I realized.

I'm asexual.

In other words, I can't have my own children.

You must have received a great shock.

Shocked?

I was left behind in the life reproduction cycle.

I'll have no descendants.

I found that out when I was only 14!

Is that what changed you?

I tried not to let the shock overtake me,

so I started reasoning everything out.

You tried to think the body is meaningless.

I wanted to prove humans were different from animals.

Human beings... who are the lords of creations,

should be bonded at a higher place in life.

In mind?

I felt alone.

Is that why you brainwashed Anna?

Do you want to write this down?

Will it be to my favor in court?

Cut it out!

Tadokoro!

Please wait!

It's my fault! I slipped and...

Is it true?

It isn't true, is it?

That Masshiro died...

It's a lie, right?

It's the truth.

Hey.

According to the police reports, she died about 5:20 a.m.

It can't be true.

I don't believe it.

Where?

She jumped off the sixth floor of

a building in construction in Daizawa.

A yellow curtain was covering her.

That's where we all slept.

That's...

That's my curtain.

She died instantly.

Masshiro...

She wanted to go home to her mother so badly.

She was so happy to be able to live with her.

Today is the wake, and tomorrow is the funeral.

Can I attend?

No, you can't.

Please!

If she really is dead...

Isn't she being cremated?

If we go to see her after we're released from here...

we won't be able to see her face.

Tadokoro, please reconsider.

Fool, I can't decide that on my own free will.

I can't believe she's dead until I see it for myself.

I won't believe it!

Masshiro always had a sunny smile on,

and was kind to all of her friends.

We're going to miss her very much.

Everyone here, was her friends.

Poppo is here, too.

You're strong, aren't you? Pain, fly away!

Pain, fly away!

- Pain, fly away! - Pain, fly away!

Don't say that. Poppo just likes to keep clean.

You'll make a good mom.

She'll do just fine. She promised to write to me.

I'm going to the reformatory. It's only for two years.

Don't act tough. We can't leave here alone.

What is it?

My mom's not getting a divorce.

Sunflower stands for togetherness.

What do you know!

All you experienced was puppy love!

So is yours.

Only weaklings choose to die.

Let's always be friends.

Shall we go clubbing?

I want to go!

I want to go to all kinds of places.

It'll be fun, with all of you!

Tell me, when you can think of me as a friend.

It should be easy to open up to a friend, right?

Hayakawa Ai.

Ai as in love?

Oh, Ai as in indigo.

Everyone is hiding my baby from me.

- Please... - It's not here!

No.

I...

I have nowhere to go.

Thanks for coming.

Masshiro must be happy.

Yes, in heaven.

Let go.

He's the one that killed Masshiro.

I said, let go.

I'm going to the reformatory anyway.

What's with you?

What have you done?!

If you're going to have a child...

Forget being a woman and just be a mother!

Dear.

Ai.

Why?

You okay?

I heard that you haven't been eating.

I heard you're quitting.

Is it because of Masshiro's incident?

I knew the situation.

And about what happened with her stepfather.

She wanted to go home.

But as a result, I made her die.

And I made Hayakawa Ai resort to violence.

I used to think perfect human beings were scary,

because they look down on others.

I'm glad you aren't like that.

Everyone has a part of them breaking down.

For most, it's the mind.

When I was yet 20, I had breast cancer.

I had a boyfriend then.

I showed him my surgical wounds. I didn't want to hide it.

Whenever I had a lover, I'd show him my scars.

Even if it meant being disliked.

If you fear what's before you,

then you won't be loved when you're old.

I'm a human being, before I'm a woman.

A lord of creation.

Besides, that'll lead me to the right person,

who'll love me, irregardless.

The right person?

Yes.

I'm sure you'll find that person, too.

What if you don't find that person?

I'll still believe the person existed somewhere.

Is she the one?

Ai!

I don't believe it! I can go home!

I'm sure you will be sent home, too.

Hang in there! Keep up the spirit!

Hang in there!

After today's hearing, I'm quitting my job as an officer.

I don't know how long it will take,

but I plan to make amends to Chihiro.

And I'll come looking for you someday.

So until then...

We're ready.

While in the care of the detention center,

Hayakawa caused another injury incident.

The court can't allow her to return to society

when she shows no signs of reflection.

Hayakawa Ai shall therefore be sent to the reformatory.

Your ride is here.

Don't forget you're still under custodial care.

That sounds so administrative.

You think?

My phone number... is in my records.

Give me yours, too.

You seem to be under a misunderstanding.

I was only doing my job as an officer.

I have no personal feelings for you.

That doesn't sound like you.

Do you clench thumbtacks for the sake of your job?

Yes, I do.

I will gladly do that,

if the children that comes in here will learn to adapt to society.

You're lying.

Forget this place.

Forget what you did, and about Makimura Koki.

Forget about me, too.

Well...

Your sister is waiting for you.

Go on.

Go!

Can I ask you one last time?

Would you...

Would you have clenched the thumbtacks for someone else, too?

Yes.

I see.

Not as many, though.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

Watch me from there.

I will.

Thanks for everything.

Wait...

Do you by chance... have feelings for Hayakawa Ai?

I think you were a very good officer.

Thank you for teaching me a lot of things!

How did the fire start?

Makimura.

It's too late.

What?

He's a free soul that came and went as he pleased.

What if he does something to Anna!

- He left on a journey. - What journey?

To find the right person.

I had something to tell you before my brother's grave.

You're the topic of conver- sation in the artists circle.

As you said before,

the media are quick to jump to conclusions.

The debut of the younger brother of

the rising artist that committed suicide.

He didn't commit suicide.

- I killed him. - No, you didn't.

He told me the whole truth some time ago.

He said that he didn't have the talent.

That it was you that was painting for him.

He...

I rejected him.

I don't believe it!

I told him that I was annulling the engagement!

I threw him into despair, and cornered him to die.

I guess I wasn't in love with him...

I only loved his supposedly existing talent.

When I met you again, it brought me pain.

Chihiro, I...

It's all right.

Don't you need that girl?

She's the puzzle piece you were looking for.

Chihiro, you...

I'm sorry.

I lied about losing my sight.

I'll be all right.

You must have loved my brother.

Every time I kissed you, you were emotionless like a doll.

Even if what you say is true, I'm sure he wasn't unhappy.

He died by you, whom he loved dearly.

I'm back.

Why, you are...

It's been a long time.

I was asking by letter.

From Ai?

She wanted me to adopt Shu.

She didn't want any memories of you.

Hold it.

I'm staying here until she returns...

She's not coming back.

This is a letter for you.

Her dad gave it to me.

It was probably after she wrote that...

When she died.

I can't eat anything. I'm not a bit sleepy.

What's happened to me?

But strangely,

I don't feel any pain, sadness, or loneliness.

I feel like I'm floating in air.

Will I be able to join Shu and Masshiro soon?

The people I love.

I know that you'll surely wait for me.

But I love you very much. I can't kill you.

I'm the blazing sun.

If you stay close, I'll end up burning you.

I'll envelop you in fire.

That's why I'm leaving your side, forever.

I'm going to sink deep, so that I can't see you.

It's going to be cloudy tomorrow.

I can't see you anymore.

I wrote a letter to my mom and dad,

apologizing for not being a good girl.

I asked them not to cremate me, but I wonder if they'll listen.

I want to be a part of the food cycle.

I want to be eaten up by bacteria,

and surrounded by the grass and flowers.

Then I'll send out oxygen.

Beloved. My beloved.

Please inhale me.

Ai.

Shu.

Name?

What is your name?

I can't tell you.

You're like the rest.

You make me feel alone.

I promise to forget all about you.

Can I be in love with you?

Look at me.

I'll really fall deeply in love with you.

Do you believe in eternity?

Eternity gives you freedom.

I won't be able to see you anymore.

I won't be able to see you.

You don't understand.

With you gone...

There's no meaning in my life.

A sunflower...

always blooms besides you.

You, yourself, can bloom like a sunflower.

You can always start over in life.

Even in your old age.

I know there is a sunflower blooming

right next to you in this detention center.

I know you can all become sunflowers, too.

Sunflowers love sunlight.

But they won't fight with one another.

They all face the eastern skies, where the sun rises.

This isn't a place to judge you,

but a place for you to take a second look at yourself.

Did you try to take someone's sunlight?

Did your timidness stop you from blooming?

I know that you've sought sunflowers called friends.

I also know that you can all become sunflowers.

Sunflowers stand for...

Togetherness always.

Another thing, if you can tell the person next to you:

"You're wonderful." You'll be told the same.

You are wonderful.

It's Ikawa Masshiro's memorial day today.

Is it?

Yes.

How is he?

He's gotten much better.

When he was first taken to the hospital,

I honestly thought he wouldn't make it.

Did he regain consciousness?

Yes...

But I don't know if you'd call that conscious.

He's become a true artist.

But in exchange, he's fallen apart.

Every so often, he mumbles the name of the dead girl.

Who?

Ai.

She's...

Hayakawa Ai is alive.

Were you still up?

Masshiro...

You came again?

Why?

Why is today the last?

Come with me.

Don't suffer anymore.

Save him, and you will be saved, too.

Goodbye... to my other self.

Is it you, Shu?

A mouth that can't relay my love for you, is meaningless.

These ears that can't hear your voice are useless.

If I can't see you, then these eyes are also...

Did you think... I'd come to see you?

Did you think that I would still be alive?

What made you think so?

Because...

I'm still alive.

I want to meet the right person.

I want to meet the only person for me on earth.

The only thing that doesn't change

for thousands and thousands of years.

Take a look.

This world only consists of blue, white, and green.

The simple fact that lies therein, is like a picture drawn by a child.

It's stunningly beautiful.

I'm Hayakawa Ai.

And you are...

Yu.

Ariake Yu.

Thank you for watching.

Translation: Nippon Golden Network

Transcriber/editor/timer: keiko1981 Also thanks to Avallac'h