All language subtitles for The.Diary.1999

June 14th, 1936.

I'm in a terrible situation.

I'll do all I can to make my husband
happy, and stay by his side until he's

cured. But he won't even touch me, and
my body starts to betray me.

Should desire guide my life?

I had such high moral principles.

I have to finally be honest with myself,
and understand if I stood by them.

Everything started on my 18th birthday
at university.

My cousin Alice prepared a surprise for
me. Happy birthday to you. Thank

you.

18, can you believe it? My baby cousin.

Her baby?

Not anymore.

She's a woman.

I don't feel any different.

Today feels just the same as yesterday.

Yes, but 17 is the last door to
childhood. 18 is the door of delight.

she's ready to experience all of life's
pleasures.

Justine, you're always on fire.

There you go. You don't dare put into
practice what you're dreaming about

night. Hey, it's my cousin's birthday,
and I think her present's arriving.

What is it? Come on, tell me.

Look, there they are.

Who is it?

Oh, come on. You didn't dare.

I know. We only invited them for your
birthday.

And after all, you have been dreaming
about them for two weeks. Oh, Alexander

so gorgeous.

Oh, I prefer Oscar.

He's got really sexy eyes.

Oh, what about Alexander? How could you
resist that firm bottom?

Where did you see his firm bottom?

Well, I haven't seen it yet, but I will
before tonight.

I felt Oscar stood apart from the rest.

I went with him, leaving my friends to
their game.

I'm glad you came here with me.

Do you think they did it?

I don't know.

I don't understand these silly games.

So you wouldn't do something like that?

Certainly not.

Shall we go for a walk?

Yeah.

And they did it.

Justine read the bet with Alexander, who
of course fell for it completely.

God, he's a dick.

Yeah, he'll do.

Sex and romance were my friend's only
preoccupations at the time.

Anna doesn't know what she's missing.

But I must admit I wasn't much
different.

And neither was Oscar.

But Anna, what's the harm in a kiss?

It's not that.

It's what it leads to.

Men are just like children.

You give them one sweet and they want
the whole shop.

They have to have it all.

Not all.

Just a taste of things to come.

I left on summer break the next day,
without having seen Oscar again.

But I remembered my first sexual
encounter with guilt.

We had been taught that we had to remain
chaste.

I didn't realize that I was in love.

I was ashamed at having let myself be
carried away with the strength of my

pleasure.

A feeling of fear and disgust grew in me
over the summer, towards Oscar, and

towards men in general.

Did you have a good holiday?

Yeah, it was okay.

What did you get up to? I went down to
Brighton, to my dad, onto the beach.

Very much, really.

Anything special?

Nothing fun?

Well, a few drives.

I don't love him anymore.

He can't be free. He's too emotional for
me.

He's there.

He was so cute, you wouldn't believe it.
You know, French boys.

Although, I prefer Italian.

You prefer Italian?

Yeah. I promise you, I went to a party
every day.

Students, please be quiet.

Silence, I said.

Who are you happy to tell me?

Of course I'm happy to see you.

I thought about you for the whole
summer.

I thought about you sometimes too.

Did you get my letters?

Yeah, of course I got your letters.

Did you like them?

Yeah, I liked them.

Look, let's talk about something else.

You don't look very happy.

You don't look particularly relaxed
either.

And why are you being so cold with me?

I'm sorry.

Let's not fight.

I'm really glad to be back here with all
of you.

With all of you?

What do you mean, with all of you?

Well, with all of you.

You know, with all of you.

Friends. With all of you, my friends?

Like I'm just one of the crowd?

Like I'm nothing special to you?

I mean, all that time we spent together,
does that not mean anything to you?

Leave me alone.

Anna, what's wrong? Miss McConnell,
where do you think you're going?

I wandered alone for hours.

I was confused by so many conflicting
emotions.

I couldn't admit to myself that I might
be in love with Oscar.

Turn around.

Miss McCombs.

Late again.

Go to the bar.

Now, let's take the next exercise.

Bend back.

Arm above the head.

Stretch to the cove.

Straighten up.

and bend back arms above the head
stretch the toes

up and lean back arm above the head

stretch to the toe up and lean back

arm above the head stretch to the toe up

and lean back

Arms above the head.

All right, girls.

You may go.

Cheer up, Hannah.

I've learnt something terribly exciting
from my grandmother.

Really? And you won't believe it.

What?

Please tell us.

A virile man gives off a certain scent.

It oozes all over his body.

Oh, it doesn't wash.

We didn't need your grandmother to tell
us that.

No, no, that's not what I meant.

There's something invisible.

A magic scent.

Something that draws you to an essential
man.

So you instinctively know when he wants
you?

That's what puts you in charge.

How?

Well... When you know he wants you, you
can play with him. Like

he's just a puppet on a string.

You'd better stop playing with puppets
and go for the real thing.

Shut up.

Oh, she's been in a romantic mood ever
since her birthday.

What's wrong, Anna? Don't you like men?

Maybe not.

Go.

Oh, you two little bitches.

I felt sad and desperate.

I found comfort in Terenza's arms.

Weeks passed, and I held good.

When I saw Oscar with another girl, my
confidence vanished, and I realized that

I loved him.

He was bold and ambitious.

Any means would be good to get him back.

I'm not.

Oh, just a minute. I'm coming.

I have to admit that I used Cynthia.

Was I really conscious of it at the
time?

In any case, I liked her, and I did
enjoy those moments we spent together.

I told Alice how crazy I was about
Oscar, and she reminded me of my vow to

remain a virgin until my wedding day.

In the meantime, the trick had worked.

Oscar had taken the bait and was
following me again.

Are you

sure?

I want to see him.

Look, you go ahead.

I'll catch up with you next time.

Heart's beating.

So it's true that love makes the heart
beat faster.

Idiot.

Anna, why do you hate me?

I don't hate you.

I'm sorry I said that.

I was upset.

And I felt insecure.

I don't want to be tied to anyone.

This modern twaddle about the
independence of women and all these

ideas.

It's just a fashion.

It has no future.

Anna, the point is you don't trust me.

I don't trust men.

You don't know men yet.

Anna, I love you. I'd do anything for
you.

Anything?

Yes, anything.

Just have to ask.

Well, Oscar, I've never seen a man, you

know, I want to see.

So come on.

Show me.

Stay.

Go to the tractor at the same time.

Oh, not here.

Not now.

I was still hesitating.

I wanted to be sure about Oscar's
intentions.

The thought of him caused me many
sleepless nights.

We were all going crazy.

The shower rooms sparked off many
passions.

What are you doing?

I missed you this summer.

Again? I would play again.

That's a... That's a stupid game with no
boys around.

Who needs a man?

The tears of your eyes are burning
through to my very soul.

That's what all the boys say.

And the girls lower their panties.

You know you're a man.

Oh, Christine, you excite me.

Oscar loved me. I loved him. He had
asked me to marry him and I had said

He had warned me that he had to first
leave for the colonies on a journey of

and discovery.

I had accepted without hesitation.

What the hell do you think you're doing,
you stupid old fool?

Some people call me a stupid old fool,
but some people call me... Come here,

my darling.

I'm so sorry, sir.

My father had sent something with
cooking and one day paid us a surprise

Before we indulge in intercourse. He
said, can I ask you, do you smoke

after intercourse?

And do you know what he said?

Do you know?

I've never looked.

Oh, you don't get it. Oh, well.

Did you like it, my darling?

I loved it.

Well... What I understood.

Yeah, well, shall we have another one?

Daddy, I thought you brought that case
back from France to give to the

ambassador. Yeah.

So, my young chap, you look a bit too
frail to satisfy my daughter.

She's not common, lady. Sir, this is
enough.

I protest.

Such impetuousness. England is safe. Sit
down, young man. Sit down.

So, my young chap, I'm proud of you.

You must excuse me, sir. I must go to my
class.

At last, you've opened your mouth.
Please, please, please, sit down, sit

sit down. You learn more with me than
all the rubbish they teach you here.

I'll tell you another story.

Daddy, not again.

All right, but it is my duty to warn
you. Young man, I heard you were a

on his way to save the world.

You're brave enough to fight the typhus,
the malaria, and the African warriors.

But there is something worse.

What, then?

African brothers!

Sir,

this is not a subject to joke about.

Yeah, you've got a point. You're
certainly going to need some courage,

hope you come back to my daughter's side
soon.

Can we go for a ride in your car?

Oh, with you?

All the way to Venice?

I love him.

I wouldn't say that, but... Now, let me
tell you another story.

So there was this Parisian gentleman.

was in this brothel.

So, burn the candle at both ends.

Make the most of your youth.

Anna, this young fellow is a gentleman.

You have my blessing, darling.

You're wonderful, Daddy.

Now, be good, girls.

As we would.

What is it?

They're my boarding papers. They arrived
this morning.

I've been waiting so long for this. I
can't miss this opportunity.

Tomorrow I'll be on the boat.

Tomorrow?

So soon?

I'm afraid so, Anna.

Let me look at you.

I want to remember you like this
tonight.

I want to remember you like this always.

You're frightening me.

I need something to remember you by.

You have no photograph.

Your photograph?

A photograph is just an image.

I want to take a part of you with me.

A photograph doesn't capture your warmth
and your passion.

What else can I give you?

Something special.

Your love.

Oscar, you know I love you.

Annie, you know I want to marry you when
I come back.

I want to be your first man.

I know, but... I'm not sure I'm ready.

I'm frightened.

So am I.

Who knows where I'll be tomorrow?

I don't want to face you.

Come to me.

Make love to me.

I was the happiest woman on earth.

My dream had come true.

I was going to wait as long as necessary
for Oscar.

Whatever the temptations might be.

Elizabeth.

Yes? Don't drink too much. Oh, no.

Can you believe she's still a virgin?

At her age?

I can't believe that.

She is.

Look, Alice has found a new flirt.

It's this maniac now. What are you doing
with him?

I'm going to... Oh, here's Winston.

He looks like a bellboy.

Good evening, Alice. Hello, Winston. How
are you? Very well, thank you. James,

this is my good friend, Winston.

Healing, sir.

We had organized the party in honor of
my

friend Winston.

He was off to the military academy.

Geoffrey Lloyd Hillier arrived.

Everybody said he was strange.

He was a rich heir who had refused a
marriage arranged by his family.

People held it against him.

However, I quite liked him.

Good evening, Anna.

Good evening, Geoffrey. May I say you're
looking splendid.

I'd like you to meet Mary.

How do you do?

It's a pleasure.

Good evening.

Hello, Winston.

Hello, Geoffrey.

Of course, Justine had jumped on the
occasion to organise one of her silly

games. The winner would have the
privilege to kiss the innocent Winston

It fell on Elizabeth, the shyest and
most innocent of us all.

Or so we thought.

He's all yours now.

Here, let me help you.

Christine, what are you doing?

What a beauty.

Go on. Go ahead.

Go on.

Let me show you What are you doing

No

You obviously don't need me around
anymore.

Have fun.

At that time, my friends had gradually
given up their resolutions and thrown

themselves wholeheartedly into a world
of debauchery.

Life had become one big orgy in which I
didn't want to participate.

I held back, strengthened by the thought
that Oscar would return to me.

Even Alice had finally succumbed to her
desires.

Come, let's make love again. It was so
good and you drive me so crazy.

Again? Yes.

What if somebody comes?

Nobody's going to come.

And I've gone horseback riding.

On the one hand, I was happy to see Ella
so fulfilled.

On the other, I felt jealous.

Jealous because finding her like that
reminded me how much I missed Oscar.

But I was ready to wait until the day I
received this letter from him.

My love, my life is here. I can't see
myself living in England anymore.

And this is not the place all the time
to raise a family.

I won't come back.

Do not wait for me.

Please forgive me.

Oscar. Oscar's letter had destroyed me.

I wandered around for endless months,
where my only distraction was Jeffrey's

relentless courting.

Here's a charming surprise, Anna.

Hello, Jeffrey.

Why insist?

I thought I'd given you my answer.

You know that I love you.

That's all.

How could I accept to marry you? I still
love Oscar.

I understand.

But maybe one day.

Until then, be happy.

Jeffrey, wait.

Talk to me for a bit.

I'm flattered.

But why would you want to marry me?

I told you, Anna.

I refused a marriage arranged by my
family, because I am waiting for the

of my life.

And that woman is you.

I know it.

Of course you think you love this Oscar.

But he's gone, and you can't live alone.

I want your happiness.

In time you'll learn to love me.

If he ever comes back, I'd even accept
you to let you leave.

You're crazy, Geoffrey, but I like that.

Let's get married.

Be mine.

Now and forever.

I did not understand Geoffrey very well.
But his bold and picturesque character

seduced me.

Unhappy Beth describes my feelings.

I beg your pardon?

He's happy you're getting married.

And she's pretty enough, but...
Victoria?

Do you think she's ready for our
lifestyle, Geoffrey?

Being a Lloyd Hillier holds a lot of
responsibility.

The modern times' father.

She's beautiful.

She's educated.

She... Oh, anyway, you entertain her
father for dinner.

Marriage is a bigger commitment than a
four -course meal and a glass or two of

wine, Geoffrey.

But I love her. Love?

Love is a firefly, Geoffrey.

It sparks brightly and then dies. It's
not enough.

A marriage needs firmer foundations than
a...

Fleeting fancy.

Shut up, Mary. What do you know about
love?

Can't you stop her, Father?

Geoffrey, you are of an age to be
married, but Mary is right, and she

the good name of our family.

I really don't care what either of you
think.

I've grown out of this narrow
-mindedness and snobbery. It disgusts

This is intolerable.

We shall marry, with or without your
blessing.

We got married quickly.

Geoffrey was so seductive.

And he looked like he wouldn't betray
his word.

Congratulations, sir, your ladyship.
Thank you.

Anna, this is Claire.

Are you happy?

Glitterly.

You make me feel very happy, my love.

I hope I'll always make you happy.

First, let me look at you.

I want to feast on your beauty.

I want to kiss you with my eyes.

I want to explore you with my mind.

I want to see what no man has seen
before.

I was happy.

At least, I felt I was.

Geoffrey was a passionate lover and a
good husband.

I believed I loved him.

Until one fateful day, Oscar returned to
England.

Winston, make sure you deliver this
letter to Anna personally.

Oscar, you know she's married. It could
cause trouble.

I know.

I don't care.

Now I know I can't live without her.

Very well.

I'll see you next week.

Okay. Take care. Bye. Bye -bye.

Is the lady sick, Pear?

I'm actually waiting for her myself,
though.

I don't know.

What's your name?

Winston. Winston?

I'm Liz.

Hello. So, what do you do?

I'm in the army.

In the army?

Are you an officer?

Yeah.

So, there mustn't be many...

Girls in the army.

Not many, no. Not many.

An officer.

Liz,

what are you doing?

Winston! I can see you met Liz.

Oscar was begging me for forgiveness and
asked me to return to him.

But Winston was so embarrassed that he
forgot to tell me about the letter and

left.

Anna? Yes?

I've decided to go away and travel for
some time.

Jeffrey, I thought... Don't ask
questions.

I must travel and meditate.

I must go.

When are you going?

I'm leaving tomorrow morning.

Let's enjoy our last moments together.

Thank you, my love.

I felt something was wrong.

This was reminiscent of my last
heartbreak.

Jeffrey made love to me all night.

You have the audacity to write a letter
to my wife?

Ah, for you.

I thought it might be you. Come in.

What do you want?

I want to see if you deserve to live.

I want to see what you look like when I
kill you.

Anna doesn't love you.

She never will.

I'm going to take her back, you know.

Sorry, sir.

Everybody knows you're deranged.

You make me laugh.

You haven't got the guts.

Go on!

Do it!

Geoffrey Lord Hilliard, please.

Oh.

Civilian casualties.

At the end of the corridor.

Both men had survived.

The bullet had only brushed Geoffrey's
head.

Physically, there was by all accounts
nothing wrong with him.

But he had been affected mentally.

He found himself unable to move the
lower half of his body.

The doctor didn't know what to think.

He advised me to lavish all my care and
attention on my husband.

Jeffrey's convalescence dragged on for
months.

Milady, are you feeling well?

You should take care of yourself.

Alright Claire.

I'm not well.

Is that Miss Jefferies?

You must still take care of yourself.

To be beautiful and ready for him when
he comes back.

Have some fruit.

Hmm.

Not bad for a beginner.

Eh, Anna? You're so brave. How can you
be so brave?

You're the most handsome of them all,
Geoffrey.

And you still are.

And you're mine.

Half yours.

I'm only half a man.

And you will soon tire of me.

I weren't tired of loving you, Geoffrey.

We took a vow, in sickness and in
health, for better or for worse.

Geoffrey's condition was improving fast,
but he kept the wheelchair, wallowing

in his state.

He seemed to have regained a taste for
life, but his cheerfulness masked the

profound bitterness.

At the same time, I had been told of the
circumstances of his so -called

accident. His senseless attack on Oscar,
intended as a proof of love.

Oscar had been unfairly forced into
exile, under suspicion by the police.

My respect for my husband was gradually
slipping away.

Well, Anna, you ride that animal as if
it were a man, not a horse.

Who said I could find a proper man,
Jeffrey?

I'm sorry I said that.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

We could have been happy.

But we are happy.

We are happy.

Who is he?

of the Tedsbury. I'm a church -going
girl.

Me too, Lizzie.

Have you seen the bishop lately?

What's going on?

Kissing.

Go back and look.

It's kissing her here and here and here.

Really?

Go back and see. Go.

Thank you

Liz?

Liz! I'm here, sir.

Did you want something?

I need someone to take me back to the
house.

I also need someone to take my wife's
horse back to the stables.

Yes, sir.

I still think of Oscar, but Geoffrey is
my husband and my friend.

I'll do everything I can to help him
recover.

I have every intention of living life to
the full.

I'm going to shake my husband from his
apathy and make myself free once again.

And you.

Don't do this, Anna.

I was on fire last night.

We can't light a fire without a spark.

Are you afraid you'll burn yourself if
you touch me?

I don't want to arouse you and then not
be able to satisfy you. But you aroused

my desire.

I want to feel you inside me again.

I'm sorry I said that.

But I heard it.

I would have heard it even if I were
deaf.

Just like I would have seen it even if I
were blind.

Don't speak.

Touch me.

This only frustrates the both of us.

You don't want to touch me.

Of course I do.

But that's all I can ever do.

La Philosophie dans le Boudoir, by the
Marquis de Sade.

Maybe you should read it.

My father read it.

He said it was mediocre and
insignificant.

Remind me to thank your father for that.

Come in.

May I?

I've prepared your bath for you, Mom.

I'm sorry.

Go.

I don't know.

Whatever you say, man.

I know I've lost you.

Hey.

I saw you.

And her.

I love you, Jeffrey.

I've lost you.

If you don't believe in my love, kill
me.

I'm only human, Jeffrey.

I'm not betraying you.

I'm betraying myself.

Then go back there.

Yes, madam.

Have you seen him, please?

No, I did not. But may I be of any help?

Yes, you might be.

Can I dress for me, Claire?

Of course, madam.

It's already getting better, Jeffrey.

Don't ask me how, but I know it is.