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Hey guys.

Hi.

Hey.

Oscar feeling?

Yeah, I guess.

Seems like the right place.

What's up man?

Hey.

Should we check it out?

Did any of you guys get like a key or something?

Because this store is locked.

This store is locked?

Here's another one down here.

After you?

Oh yeah.

Hey, how's it going guys?

I'm Miguel.

Man, check out all that snow.

Hey.

Alright, feel me.

I see you.

Hello?

Anybody home?

Oh, that's weird.

Yeah, it's a nice place.

It's gorgeous.

Hey guys, check this out.

Welcome Cole, Miguel, Riley, Spree, Molly and Richard.

Welcome to my cabin.

It's where I work, my getaway.

You may be familiar with some of my books or documentaries.

Okay, let me explain.

I'm a member of the church and I want to discover who you are.

I want to write a book about you, the millennials.

Maybe, let's see, maybe make a documentary.

So, I sent out the email you got.

Thank you for responding.

And I selected you.

Not sure why, just a gut feeling.

Talk to me about whatever comes to mind, what makes you tick.

Your thoughts, your passions, your dreams, fears,

hopes, your outlook on love, life, intimacy.

Intimacy?

That won't take long.

The church, God, eternity, that kind of stuff.

I've left a camera on the counter.

Please record your stories.

Tell me who you are.

Have fun.

You're on your own.

The girls can sleep in the bedroom above the garage.

The guys can sleep in the house.

I really appreciate your help and I look forward to learning more about you.

I ordered a few pizzas for you.

And please, put away your phones.

You can get them back when you go to bed tonight.

Oscar Fielding, come on.

Guys, really?

The phones?

Yeah, we gotta put the phones away.

Oh, okay.

Empty bowl.

I'm down.

Let's do it.

Okay.

Why not?

You're not gonna die without them.

Oh my gosh.

It's not funny.

Come on, man.

So, who's gonna do the video?

Looks pretty complicated.

Nah, I got it.

I'm a film major.

I actually played around with this camera my last semester.

I think we're missing someone.

Cole?

Here.

Miguel?

Yo.

Riley?

He's not here yet.

Does anybody else think that this is a little crazy?

Like, weird?

You betcha.

I thought he'd be here at least.

Yeah, a little weird.

A little strange?

I don't know.

I left something in my truck.

I'll be right back.

Don't bail on us.

Of course.

Have fun.

Hey, is this Fielding's place?

It is, if your name's Riley.

Yeah, I'm Riley.

Really?

Really Riley.

Okay.

Well, I'm Cole.

Really Cole?

Yeah.

Anyway, come on in.

So, yeah, I guess we're on our own.

Okay.

Oh, uh, I need your phone.

Seriously.

I know.

Hey guys, this is Riley.

Hi.

Hey, there she is.

There she is.

Welcome.

Welcome.

Welcome, lady.

So, uh, let's introduce ourselves.

Okay.

Talk to me.

Um, hi, I'm Spree.

I'm from Whitefish, Montana.

I am a dance major at Utah Valley University.

And I've been dancing all my life.

So, yeah, that's me.

Wait, wait, wait.

You have to make a funny face at the end.

Why?

Those are the rules.

Really?

The rules?

Okay, come on.

Okay, fine.

No, no, no.

Do the whole thing over and then make the funny face.

No.

Come on, dude.

Okay.

You just make it, you know.

Uh, okay.

Hi, I'm Spree.

I'm from Whitefish, Montana.

I go to UVU.

I'm a dance major.

I have danced all my life because I am a dancer.

Okay.

All right.

You're up, Miguel.

Give me the camera.

Okay.

Miguel here.

Uh, from West Valley.

Film major at Salt Lake Community College.

Spielberg and Embryo.

So, why slick?

Because they have a great film program.

Really?

Yeah.

They do.

Oh, my gosh.

Oh, my gosh.

Well, all right then.

Oh.

Okay.

Your turn.

Oh.

Uh, hi.

I'm Molly.

I'm from Boston.

English major at the U.

Love, love, love Shakespeare.

Now, how about a quote?

This above all, to thine own self be true.

And it must follow as the night, the day.

Thou canst not then be false to any man.

Chapter and verse?

Hamlet.

Act one.

Scene two.

Scene three.

Nice.

Dang.

All right.

All right.

Molly.

Impressive.

Uh.

Yeah.

I'm Cole.

Just coming back from taking some time off, history major at the U.

Cool.

Cool Cole.

You gonna make a funny face or what?

Oh.

Yeah, that was hilarious.

Okay.

Oh.

Riley.

Poly-sci major at BYU.

Transferred from University of Virginia, UVA.

And, uh, went on a mission to Brazil.

So.

Beautiful.

Fancy.

Wow.

She's fancy.

Aw.

Nice.

All right.

You're up.

Richard.

Getting my master's in physics at the U.

Um.

Plan to go back east to get my doctorate.

MIT, hopefully.

Wow.

Oh, yeah.

Cool.

How about that funny face, though?

Hmm?

Yeah.

Come on.

Come on.

Lame.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on, smarty-pan.

We all did it.

Guys.

Just.

You gotta play.

Okay.

All right.

Um.

Well, that's a start.

So what are we really doing here?

Like, why does this fielding guy want us to talk about ourselves?

That was in the email he sent us.

He's writing a book.

Uh, maybe doing a documentary.

Some research.

I don't know.

Yeah.

Well.

We're here.

Let's go do something.

Yeah.

Uh, yeah.

I mean.

I could eat.

Oh!

Oh!

Yes!

Yes!

I'm down the rope.

I'm frozen.

All right.

I'm done.

I've been so tired.

I just don't like it because snow gets in and melts.

Yeah.

But nothing's so bad about that.

So, Spielberg.

How'd you get your name?

Um.

My parents?

I mean.

Do you have any middle names?

No.

I mean, Mexicans like to give their kids a lot of names.

Oh.

Dude.

Well, first of all, my family's not from Mexico.

They're from Peru.

Not everything south of the border is Mexico, Richard.

And, yeah.

My full name is Miguel Xavier Fernando Matias Pablo Rivera.

Thomas.

You can call me any of those.

I'll go with Spielberg.

I'm down with that.

Here you go.

Yeah.

Right there is fine.

Here you go.

Thank you.

That was fun, dude.

Yeah.

So.

So.

So.

Anybody here married?

Yeah.

Been married?

Not a chance.

Hey.

I'm just asking.

Okay.

Well, then.

Who's not a virgin?

Yeah.

Right.

No one believes that.

I was kidding, guys.

Obviously.

But seriously.

Who's not?

Alright.

It's a bit inappropriate.

Be nice.

It's a little bit personal.

Isn't that what we're doing here?

Getting personal?

Yeah.

Let's move on.

Come on.

Let's answer the question.

Who's not a virgin?

Shut up, Richard.

That's not very nice.

Chill.

Okay.

Anyone been engaged?

Why are you all looking at me?

You look like you might have been engaged.

Really?

Yeah.

So.

Have you?

Alright.

Well, uh.

Let's go inside.

My God.

I bet he was hot.

Anybody ever held hands?

What does it matter?

Shut up, man.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

What's up, Cole?

What's your story?

No story.

Just me.

Not buying that.

Me neither.

Okay.

Just the normal Provo, Utah kid.

Nothing special.

Did all the right things, you know?

Duty to God award.

Eagle Scouts.

I'll bet he never missed a day of seminary.

Into sports.

Baseball, mainly.

Yeah.

Go Red Sox.

Keep going.

Senior class president.

Look.

This is pretty boring stuff, guys.

We interrupt this to say we've just found a good little Mormon book.

Now go on.

Alright.

Went to the U straight out of high school.

Baseball scholarship?

Yeah.

Nice.

Way to go, Cole.

Did you go on a mission?

I did.

Where?

Uh.

South Africa.

Johannesburg.

Wow.

That must have been cool.

So how was South Africa?

It was... challenging.

I mean, it was great, but... but what?

I got in a car accident.

What happened?

Did anybody get hurt?

Yeah.

I did.

My right leg got pretty jacked up, so they sent me home.

They sent me home to have surgery.

That sucks.

I'm sorry.

My whole thing sucked.

How'd the surgery go?

Pedometal rod, a bunch of screws in my thigh, fixed a few things in my knee.

I mean, the leg's alright, but no more scholarship.

Right.

Other than that, it's all good.

Seems like there's more to the story.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So, Spielberg, give me the camera.

How'd you get into this whole, uh, film thing?

Um, ever since I was a kid, I've wanted to make movies.

What was the first movie you saw that made a real impression on you?

Napoleon Dynamite.

You're kidding!

Oh, dude.

I was nine years old and I loved it.

My parents had no idea what the movie was about, so... Love that movie.

Yeah.

At Christmas that year, actually, my mom got me a video camera.

I've been doing it ever since.

Okay, so what other movies do you like?

Oh, wow.

Love all kinds.

The classics of the 50s, musicals, comedies, dramas, pretty much everything.

Favorite directors?

Easy.

Spielberg, of course.

Hitchcock, Scorsese, Coppola, Woody Allen, James Cameron.

Hated Titanic, though.

What?

That's a classic.

Yeah.

Ron Howard.

Tarantino is cool, but too far out for me.

Then there's the old school.

Fellini, Ingar Bergman.

You gotta love Orson Welles.

Yeah.

Rosebud.

Citizen Kane.

I have no idea.

Wow.

Okay.

Seriously, guys?

So, Spree.

You're a dancer, right?

Yes.

Been dancing since I was four.

Catherine's Dance Studio.

Wow.

So how'd you get the name Spree?

My dad served a mission in Germany, and there

was a river there named Spree, and he liked it.

So now there's a girl here named Spree.

And he likes you.

Yeah.

What else?

Um...

I like to eat peanut butter pickle and onion sandwiches.

That's... No.

Guys.

It's actually way good.

I'm gonna make you one, and you're gonna love it.

No.

I'm not gonna try it.

It's not gonna work.

I'm not gonna love it.

I'm not gonna try it.

Thanks.

Oh, my gosh.

All right.

Keep going.

Keep going.

Um... Well, most people think I'm just this shallow cheerleader type from Montana,

and hey, there is some truth to that.

So, yeah.

That's me.

Oh my gosh!

Loser!

So sneaky.

Oh, that's good.

I love this game!

Alright, Richard.

Richard, the man of mystery.

You've been awfully quiet.

What's your deal?

Not really in the mood.

Don't have anything to say.

Yeah, you do.

I can see it.

Really?

Yep.

What do you see?

Someone who's confused.

Angry.

Sad.

Handsome.

Really?

Yeah.

A sweet guy.

Is that a compliment?

Of course.

So, do you have anyone significant in your life?

Nope.

Well, my family.

Ever had anyone significant?

No, not really.

What does that mean?

It means I've never had anyone significant.

I've had lots of significant.

There it is.

Oh, thank you.

At the same time.

Hey-oh!

Oh!

Hey-oh!

Oh, that's the way you do, huh?

Sweet.

Okay, guys.

How about we step this up a notch?

Ultimate spoons.

Yes!

Okay, let's get to your audience.

I am so much better at that game.

You've never played this before?

Oh, I'm so...

We can see your cards right here.

I'm gonna get it going.

Who has three?

So close, so close.

Oh, oh, oh!

Oh!

Ah!

Ah!

Yes!

We got it!

Oh my god!

Sorry.

I'm sorry, did I?

Yeah.

Okay.

You're good.

So, Molly!

Yeah.

You're from Boston.

Went to BC.

How'd you end up here?

Oh, well uh, these missionaries seemed like they were everywhere.

Cute guys.

Oh, yeah.

That's good.

And one day they saw me.

It was raining and I was standing underneath an awning outside a Starbucks

on Beacon Street, sipping a midnight mint mocha frappuccino.

Gosh, I miss that.

Anyway, I was hoping the rain would stop and they came

over and stood next to me and started talking about Jesus.

So, how Irish Catholic were you?

I don't know.

We only went to Mass a couple of times a year.

Christmas, Easter.

I did the Holy Communion thing when I was eight.

Interesting.

Yeah, it was weird.

I was all dressed in white.

My family was super excited.

I had no idea what was going on.

I did my first penance when I was seven.

What the heck is that?

It's where you go to the priest and you confess all your sins.

Wait, wait.

You had sins to confess when you were seven?

I'm from Boston.

Of course I did.

Oh, nice.

I'm just kidding.

I can't remember.

But the missionaries got to talking and it kept raining.

The more it rained, the more interesting they got.

Pretty soon, right there on Beacon Street, we were

talking about Joseph Smith and the Book of Mormon.

What was your reaction?

First, I thought they were talking about the Broadway musical

and that some guy named Joseph Smith was starring in it.

I had no idea.

But I don't know.

I thought it was interesting.

I wasn't looking for anything.

God, you know.

I hadn't really thought about it.

But...

all of a sudden, I was...

thinking about it.

Is Oscar Fielding here?

No.

You're not Mr. Fielding?

Nope.

Is this his house?

Yeah.

You sure I'm at the right place?

We're pretty hungry, pizza guy.

Can we have the pizzas?

Okay.

Thanks, pizza guy.

Thank you.

Drinks.

Bye.

Did you see this?

Hi!

I told you.

I know this.

Oh my gosh.

Wow.

Special stresses.

Hey, I want to see this.

You're so healthy.

Okay, bye.

Yeah, yeah.

See you later.

I don't know.

You want some?

I feel like this is awesome.

So, Riley, you were, weren't you?

What?

Engaged.

Gee, drop it.

Actually, yeah, I was.

What happened?

Who dumped who?

He didn't dump me.

So, you dumped him?

Kinda.

Kinda?

You either did or you didn't.

Right, right, fine.

I dumped him.

Why?

Why?

Oh.

We're just being honest here, Riley.

Open.

Look, um...

He and I had been dating since high school.

He was a couple years older.

Anyway, he went to college, it was nearby, so we lived at home.

We were in the same ward.

I used to like to see him bless the sacrament on Sundays.

Did he go on a mission?

Yeah.

Did you date while he was gone?

Kinda.

Kinda.

Yes.

Yes, I did.

But not...

You know, seriously.

What happened when he got back?

That's a big no.

We're shut down.

So, Molly.

It's your turn.

Wildest thing that's ever happened to you?

Not going there.

No, I want to hear this.

I know you have good stories.

No!

I am from Boston.

Boston.

That should pretty much cover it.

No, it's not easy.

Molly, more.

Please.

This is one story.

Okay.

Okay.

All right.

It's not the wildest thing that ever happened to

me, but I got pepper sprayed my freshman year.

No.

Did you really?

Why?

How?

It's a long story.

No.

Okay.

What happened?

Come on.

Golly.

Okay, so Molly.

What's with all the Shakespeare stuff?

Oh, I just love Shakespeare.

I studied him all through high school, was in a couple of plays, and then I was

an English major at BC with a Shakespeare emphasis.

Did you ever play Juliet?

No.

Lady Macbeth.

Oh.

Yes.

This seems so weird.

You have heard of Shakespeare, right?

Yeah.

But I don't... I just love the guy.

Okay?

Well, my parents were going through their divorce.

His thoughts on love, life, fear, anger, grief,

it just kind of got me through the whole thing.

Right?

The bard was sort of my scripture before I found the real stuff.

That's cool.

Yeah.

That's awesome.

That's awesome.

Yeah.

It's pretty awesome.

Wait.

Four words.

Four words.

One.

First word.

First word.

First word.

First word.

Two.

Three.

Seven.

Eight.

12.

13.

20.

21.

23.

24.

25.

26.

27.

29.

30.

31.

32.

33.

35.

36.

38.

51.

52.

53.

57.

58.

59.

30.

35.

36.

37.

41.

43.

44.

44.

45.

46.

47.

57.

48.

59.

42.

43.

44.

45.

46.

46.

47.

48.

47.

This is for you.

Thank you.

Grazie.

So where did you grow up?

Everywhere.

My dad's a big shot in the Air Force, so...

Born in Germany, lived in California, Japan, Turkey.

Ended up at the Pentagon.

You?

Oh, just Montana.

And here.

I did spend a little bit of time in Colorado.

Colorado?

So, why'd you transfer from UVU?

Um, UVA.

Right, Virginia.

Uh, yeah, I just wanted to get away.

You can really dance, girl.

Thanks.

Good night, Spree.

Good night.

Wasn't sure you'd come.

Neither was I.

It's pretty.

Yeah, it is.

Can I show you something?

Sure.

Take a moment, breathe in the mountain air.

Listen to the wind blow through the trees.

Yeah, it's weird how you can't see the wind.

How you can only feel it.

Yeah.

Yeah, kinda like God.

Yeah, kinda.

Kinda.

Are you smiling, Cole?

Yeah, you make me smile.

Anyway, above the wind and trees you got the stars, planets, constellations,

galaxies.

And what else?

It's a new moon.

Saturn's the most visible planet this time of year, and when

it's dark like this in the mountains, you can see everything.

It's remarkable.

The whole Milky Way and more.

Keep going.

Mars and Mercury won't be visible for another month or so, but, well, there's.

..

Valeris.

The North Star.

The Big Dipper.

Orion.

Orion.

But, uh, well, Venus, the planet of love and

beauty, won't be visible for another few weeks.

So how do you know about all this stuff?

I spent some time on a ranch in New Mexico.

So you're a cowboy, Cole.

No, not really.

So did you, um, have anyone to look at the stars with in New Mexico?

No.

Why not?

I was there with a bunch of guys, sort of a work thing.

Oh, sorry.

I'm not.

That was good for me.

Besides, I had the stars to keep me company.

Oh.

Cole?

So who's that guy who dropped you off this morning?

You saw that?

I did.

Jealous?

Curious.

Hmm.

He's just a friend.

Cool.

Wow, what happened to you guys?

Shut up, Richard.

Wow.

Morning.

Really?

Hot.

Thanks, Richard.

Morning.

This looks amazing.

This looks so good.

This is beautiful.

Thanks, Richard.

Oh, shouldn't we say a blessing first?

Yeah.

I'll say it.

Yeah.

Our dear, kind, and gracious Heavenly Father, we are grateful for this beautiful

day, and for this breakfast, and for Richard who prepared it.

We pray that we will have a great day, and we love Thee, Father, and we say these

things in the name of Thy Son, Jesus Christ.

Amen.

Amen.

Amen.

What's up, Richard?

You a chef?

Nah.

You serve a mission to France, you learn a lot about cuisine.

Do you serve a mission to France, do you still speak French?

Of course.

Well, say something in French.

Really?

Yeah.

Okay.

Quelque chose en français.

Ooh, what's that mean?

Something in French.

No, really.

Say something.

No, I just did.

Quelque chose en français is something in French.

Yeah, but what?

Something in French.

Richard!

Oh, Spree.

Spree.

Spree.

Quelque chose en fr...

Whatever he said.

Yeah.

It means something in French that's on you.

Jerk!

Okay, we'll say some more.

Okay, I'm just going to interrupt you right there and say that that is really sexy.

I'm not like the first girl who's ever told you that, right?

No.

I'm tired.

We're the boys.

Yeah.

This is so beautiful.

What are you guys doing?

Just cooling off.

It's freezing out here.

It's beautiful though.

Yeah, it is.

How's your social life, Richard?

Non-existent.

When was your first kiss?

High school, yeah.

Was it electrifying?

Shut up.

Were there fireworks?

No, not really.

They must not have done it right.

No, that's a distinct possibility.

When was your last kiss?

It's been a while.

You're missing out, dude.

I think I see life a little differently than you guys do.

Differently?

So you don't connect with us?

I think you guys are great.

But no connection.

Well, what kind of connection are we talking about?

Connection.

Like Riley and Cole?

Yeah.

Like them.

I don't know.

Bummer.

I don't really want to be like Riley and Cole anyway.

Yeah, they're disgusting.

It's only been one day.

I mean, give me a break.

It's a lot of PDA for one day.

It's a lot.

No, no, no, no.

Ow!

No!

Are you kidding me?

Grow up, dude!

What the freak?

That was cold!

More grief to hide than hate to utter love.

It's beautiful, right?

It's gorgeous.

Do you even know what it means?

Not a clue.

Hey guys, come check this out.

Look who I found on Facebook.

It's Riley!

Oh my gosh, you're so cute!

You're so cute!

Hey, is this your ex?

Hey, what happened with him anyway?

Yeah, how did it go when he got back from his mission?

Well, it was like Disneyland, my birthday, and Christmas all rolled into one.

Dang.

Somehow it just didn't work out, did it?

Nope.

How long did it take for him to propose?

About a month.

Details?

Details, details.

Um, he rented a billboard on the freeway.

Yeah, one of the, um, electronic kinds.

And just, well, flashing really cute pictures of us.

Romantic.

Seems a bit much.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, he took us to a quiet place where we could see the billboard.

It was like at 10.30 at night.

And as we leaned against the front of his car, he

got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.

And were your parents okay with this?

Sort of.

Yeah, I don't, I don't know.

I was only 19 at the time.

Yeah.

Yeah, so my dad told me he thought I should just take it slow and, you know,

fast and pray about it.

The standard Mormon response to pretty much everything.

Did you?

No.

Not really.

I, um, I thought I knew what I was doing.

And, I mean, we'd been dating for, at that point, three years?

Yeah, three years.

So.

Just seemed like the logical next step.

Did he get you a ring?

A gorgeous ring.

Yeah.

And we started making plans.

And I couldn't stop staring at my hand, smiling.

But, um, well, now I have a CTR ring on that finger.

Just to remind me.

You know?

But, um, yeah, I had to, uh, tell that story about a million times.

So, engagement pictures?

Facebook?

Instagram?

Honeymoon plans?

All of the above.

Oh, gosh.

What happened?

Come on, guys.

Richard.

What's up?

Nothing.

Well, what do you like to do?

Into sports?

Nope.

Why not?

What's it to you?

I'm just making conversation, Richard.

You know.

Yeah.

Getting to know each other.

All right.

Uh, when I was about five, they found out I had a heart condition.

Uh, irregular rhythm thing.

I mean, it's fine now, but my parents were, uh, pretty conservative.

I wanted to play sports in high school, but they wouldn't sign off on it.

And what'd you do in high school?

You, you know that there's more to do in high school than just sports, Spielberg.

Did you not?

I, I studied a lot.

I, I got great grades.

Drama club.

Hey.

I was in, uh, Romeo and Juliet.

It was a disaster.

Did you play Romeo?

Juliet.

What?

That makes sense.

Like I said, it was a disaster.

But I was in the chess club.

That's really lame.

I know, I know, I know.

Oh, I was on one team.

Which one?

The debate team.

That's not a team.

That does not count.

You get a letterman's jacket for that.

Is that real?

Hey, hey, whoa, whoa.

You can laugh, but it was cool.

I mean, we took state.

No one even came close.

Fair enough.

Yeah.

So I was in chess club, drama club, debate

team, physics club, and even the Latin club.

Thought it might come in handy if I, uh, went into medicine

or Roman mythology or if I wanted to be a botanist.

Okay.

I was a real social animal in high school.

Really?

No.

Uh, so you ever been engaged?

Is that a serious question?

Guess not.

So, Cole, did you finish your mission to South Africa?

Actually, no.

Why not?

The leg was okay?

True, but it took some time to heal.

Did you want to go back?

Too many memories?

Too many questions.

Still seems like there's more to the story.

Yeah.

Hey.

Hey.

You okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

You said there was more to the story.

I didn't tell you that.

Richard did.

Oh, okay.

Is there?

When I was in the hospital, an infection set in.

It was a lot of pain and I was taking all kinds of meds.

What kinds?

The normal kinds of painkillers they give you.

Heavy duty stuff?

Yeah, pretty much.

You got hooked on them, didn't you?

Yeah, I did.

So that's why you didn't go back to Johannesburg.

You could say that.

Spree, something personal.

Okay, most interesting thing that's ever happened to you?

Yeah, let's hear it.

Interesting, personal, uh... Hey, it's okay.

I mean, Riley was engaged and she totally screwed that up.

Richard has no idea who he is.

Cole did drugs.

Miguel's a wannabe film guy.

And I'm just a Shakespeare freak.

We're all just your average, everyday LDS millennials, honey.

Cheerleader, dancer, I have a gun in my backpack.

That isn't personal enough for you guys?

No way.

Come on.

Uh...

Personal, um...

I don't know.

You're thinking of something.

Yeah?

Okay, when was your first kiss?

Oh, wow.

How old were you?

Let's see... 14?

Wow.

Young.

You weren't even old enough to date yet.

Was he cute?

Yeah, he was my boyfriend.

Was it good?

I guess.

What else?

Uh...

I don't know.

Spit it out.

Um...

I had a baby when I was 15.

That's pretty personal.

Yeah, it is.

Same guy who kissed you?

Wow.

15.

Did you think about having an abortion?

Molly, don't... What?

Molly.

That's sensitive.

What?

It's a legit question.

Yeah, it is.

Guys.

My boyfriend's parents wanted me to.

You know, get an abortion.

Uh...

But that was never really an option.

You know?

How'd it happen?

Um...

We'd been dating for a while.

Kind of behind my parents' back.

And...

Then one night...

Did he...

rape you?

No.

No, he didn't.

You know, it's funny.

There's a period of time when you don't know if you're pregnant.

And it's just sort of this waiting game.

You didn't tell your parents?

No.

Not right away.

I went online asking questions.

I was just so young.

I didn't know anything.

We never really talked about that kind of stuff at home.

You must have freaked out.

Yeah.

You know...

You think there's very little chance that you could actually be pregnant.

But then...

You're late.

Late for what?

Seriously.

Late, Spielberg.

Right.

Got it.

Sorry.

Time went by.

I kept hoping.

What'd you do?

I finally rode my bike down to the drugstore.

It was an old pink bike with a basket in front and streamers on the handlebars.

These big fat tires.

I'd heard about pregnancy tests.

Never thought that I'd have to buy one.

I didn't want to go home, so I stopped at this old run-down gas station.

And...

I sat there on the toilet in this bathroom just staring at the thing.

I'd never been so scared in my life.

I can't even imagine.

I mean, what was I gonna do if I was pregnant?

I was only 15.

I just sat there and stared at the thing.

One line, not pregnant.

Two lines, pregnant.

And sure enough, two little red lines.

The kit came with two, so I tried it again.

And what'd you do?

I just sat there on the toilet in that disgusting bathroom.

Flies buzzing around.

It smelled so bad and the sink was filthy.

And I just cried.

Long and hard.

I think...

bald would be a better word.

Must have been pretty loud because the guy at the gas station he was really nice.

He knocked on the door to see if I was okay.

And...

I told him I was having a bad day.

Yeah.

I was having a bad day.

How'd your parents take it?

My mom was cool about it.

I...

I actually think she was pregnant with me when my parents got married.

I'm not sure.

Maybe not.

Um, but my dad just said something about

being more careful and walked out of the room.

Did you stay in school?

It was the summer after my sophomore year.

And my parents decided to send me to Colorado

to live with my grandparents and have my baby.

My grandparents were great.

Really cool.

Um, it was actually my grandma who introduced me

to the peanut butter pickle and onion sandwiches.

She said it was all she could eat when she was pregnant.

Where's the baby now?

Uh, he's in Montana.

So your mom's raising him.

That's good.

So you still get to see him.

Yeah.

Yeah, I see him.

I do.

Yeah.

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

I think you're amazing.

Thanks.

What do you think Oscar's gonna do with this video we're making?

Better not put it on YouTube.

Yeah, I'm sure he's not gonna do that.

No really, are we the normal millennials?

I'm not sure that's what Fielding wants.

You guys are making me feel more normal all the time.

Oh.

Do we really want to tell him our stories?

I mean, is that what we agreed to when we answered the email?

Yeah.

I think it is.

I don't know.

It just seems like all the fun's gone.

Like we're all a mess.

That's pure.

Is that what he's after?

The mess?

Are we sure that we want to share our stuff with the world?

Yeah.

I don't know.

Cause I thought it would be more political or religious, social.

Not personal.

Well, now it's pretty personal.

Are you failing on us, Richard?

Yeah.

Yeah, I think I am.

I just met you guys.

Now I'm talking about stuff I don't want to talk about.

Nobody's judging you.

We all have our issues.

Not like me, you don't.

Oh, poor Richard.

His story is just so hard to tell.

No, I'm not buying it.

You just don't trust us.

Yeah, why should I trust you?

That's a good question.

Let's put it out to the group.

Why do we trust?

Well, Hemingway said the best way to find out

if you can trust somebody is to trust them.

I'm good.

Same.

I'm in.

Alright, you know what?

Here's what I see when I look around the room.

I see a bunch of people trying to figure out life.

Trying to live a gospel that's challenging to live.

He's got a great retirement plan.

Yeah, but the benefits come at the end.

What about now?

I get payments along the way.

Okay, fine.

But the big benefits come at the very end.

And that's what we really want.

Isn't it?

It's sort of like this big fat juicy carrot dangling

out there enticing us with stuff we can't handle.

I can't really understand.

Like what?

Like mansions, eternity, living with God, and families are forever.

I just, anything about eternity, it sounds great,

but I honestly don't really know what it all means.

Do you?

For me, it means living each day the best that I

can and hoping that it all works out in the end.

I wish I could see it like that, Spree.

I really do.

I'm done with this.

Hey.

What?

Come on, you can't leave now.

You're part of us.

I don't really feel like a part of you.

So you're just gonna walk out, huh?

What are you afraid of, Richard?

That we're gonna peek into the corners of

your life, see something in you we don't like?

No, I think I might see things in me that I don't like.

That's what we're doing here, Richard.

No one's judging anybody.

Nobody's pointing fingers.

We have a chance to tell a story.

Our story.

A story that could actually make a difference.

Isn't that what our generation is all about?

To show our neighbors and the people that we go to church with that, yeah,

everybody sitting at church on Sunday mornings

has issues that nobody else is aware of.

And you want to walk out on that because of what?

You think no one else has the same issues as you do?

Well, trust me, Richard, they do.

Hey, we already talked about the trust thing.

All right, so you sit back and watch Spree open up and spill her guts.

Riley, me.

You're not alone.

No, he needs to hear this.

You're not alone.

You're not the only one going through stuff, man.

And now you want to walk out on us and, most importantly, on yourself.

And to be honest, it's pathetic.

You're only shutting yourself down.

You're a coward who's afraid to really be honest, and that's what's going on here,

you selfish prick.

Go to hell, Cole.

Yeah, go ahead.

Walk out.

Nice job, Mr. Perfect.

The guy who hurt his leg and took a few pills is

suddenly a saint who knows what's best for everyone.

I didn't mean it that way.

Yeah?

It sure came across like that.

Look, I was only trying to help.

Your idea of help sucks.

Cole, I really think... Hey.

I guess I make Cole uncomfortable.

Do you do it on purpose?

No.

It just comes naturally.

I suppose.

I'm sorry about what happened in there.

I have no idea.

No, it's all right.

I hated what he said.

I hated the way he said it.

I...

I just hate the way it makes me feel.

How so?

That it...

In spite of the way it came across, he was right.

I...

I am afraid, Molly.

Of what?

Of what?

Did you really get pepper sprayed to fresh when you...

Uh, okay.

I was at a frat party and I lost a bet.

What?

What was the bet?

Uh... I had to choose between getting pepper sprayed

or taking off all my clothes and jumping in the pool.

Gosh.

I should have jumped in the pool.

Should have jumped in the pool, yeah.

Yeah.

Because getting pepper sprayed sucks.

Oh, yeah.

Hey.

I

thought I'd find you here.

I thought I'd find you here.

You taking off?

No, I'm not going anywhere.

I just...

I gotta get away from everyone.

Including me?

Molly was pretty harsh.

I'd like to say nice things to you, Cole.

Tell you she was out of line.

Yeah, but that...

That big speech you gave in there, like...

You know about hanging in there and being there for the group and...

Not giving up?

I...

And you're in your truck.

You're...

You're running away and feeling sorry for yourself.

If that's what you came here to say...

It's okay to not be perfect, you know?

I've never thought of myself as perfect.

So what do you think of yourself?

I don't know.

A guy who had everything going for him and then screwed it all up.

You thought you'd get through life without making any mistakes?

No.

Just not the ones I've made.

Look, we all make mistakes, Cole.

You know?

And we agreed to all this.

Yeah, I know we agreed to Fielding's email.

No, I'm...

I'm not talking about Fielding.

Okay?

Alright.

Okay.

I'm like, about last night... I'm sorry about that.

I...

I was a little... No.

I'm... I'm not.

You sure about that?

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Bye.

Thanks.

And, uh...

I... I know what really happened in South Africa.

We can talk about it?

.

Check it out, chopsticks.

Nice.

Oh, it's a baby unit.

Oh, hey.

Yes, hey.

Nice.

All good?

Yeah.

Hey, it's fine.

It's okay.

Ok.

Now is the winter of our discontent.

Richard III, Act 1, Scene 1.

I think we're all trying to figure out what we're doing here.

Or why we came here in the first place.

Maybe that's not important.

Maybe we just need to keep going.

Uh, Molly?

You met the missionaries at a Starbucks?

Waiting for the rain to stop.

And when it stopped?

We just kept talking.

Before I knew it, I had a Book of Mormon in my hand.

And I had missed my Shakespeare class.

Wow.

Had you ever heard of Mormons?

Everybody's heard of them, Spielberg.

But I had no idea what they were about.

I'd heard the usual stuff, like Utah, polygamy, something about your wonder wear.

My folks call them G's.

Garmies.

Yeah.

So the missionaries wandered around.

They wanted to meet again.

And I didn't think the sidewalk was the best place.

There was no way we were going to my mom's.

My dorm was out of the question.

So we decided to meet where we met.

Starbucks.

I guess you could say that's where I became a Mormon.

So you're a Molly Mormon.

Whoa, gee, Richard.

Never heard that one before.

I really don't think she's a Molly Mormon.

And your parents didn't like it?

Are you kidding?

I mean, joining another religion's one thing.

But I guess they would have been fine if I was a Hindu or a Buddhist or something.

Yeah.

Yeah, we are pretty weird.

Yeah.

My dad's a lawyer.

Felt like I was being cross-examined.

He started pulling all that anti-LDS stuff out.

Skeletons in the closet.

Like what?

Oh, you name it.

Polygamy, dead people getting baptized, blacks in the

priesthood, some stuff about Joseph Smith, gay marriage.

One of his favorites.

Got it all.

How'd you deal with all that?

Honestly, it was difficult.

At first I didn't believe it, but then the

missionaries told me that most of it was true.

And that didn't scare you away?

It did at first.

But, I mean, the missionaries were great.

Patient.

They answered all my questions and even called my dad.

Really?

How'd that go?

Not great.

I mean, it was okay.

Look, there's lots of weird stuff in the past.

Even stuff I don't understand now, but...

I'm here, ain't I?

Yeah.

It's beautiful.

It's really great.

Okay, I had a few boyfriends.

A few?

How many's that?

Uh, a lady never tells.

There might have been a red sock in there, though.

You were a little heartbreaker.

Speaking of heartbreaker...

Riley!

You dumped that fiancé of yours, or what?

Awkward.

Oh, um, I told you I don't like to look back.

Sometimes we do stuff we don't like.

Did you?

I did.

Why?

He had issues.

Like?

Um...

Okay, it's one thing if we're talking about us, ourselves.

When we start talking about someone who's not here... What issues?

Uh, mm-hmm.

Addiction issues.

Like Cole?

No.

Dude.

Addicted to what?

I'm guessing pornography?

Was that it?

Was he addicted to porn?

Sort of.

Sort of addicted to porn?

Okay, fine.

He was.

He was addicted to porn.

Addicted's a strong word.

Okay, fine.

Uh, then let's just say he was very...

Preoccupied.

Consumed.

Couldn't get enough of it.

Is that better?

What kinds?

What?

I mean... I mean, there's all kinds.

Like, some guys think a girl in a bikini is pornographic and then it kind of goes

from there.

Like, all kinds?

I don't know.

Molly, it's not like I watched it with him.

Did he want you to?

Were you mad at him?

I was furious.

Yeah.

Lost control.

I punched him.

Um... Screamed a lot.

I, um...

I said that to him.

I said things to him I'd never said to anyone before.

And...

Then I cried.

And... And he held me.

And he said he was sorry.

He said he wouldn't do it anymore.

So...

So who's hungry?

I mean, I can always eat.

So that sounds great to me.

Yeah.

Let's go.

Opened a can of worms on that one.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Anyone else want chips and salsa?

Yes.

Me.

I would like some chips and salsa, please.

Everyone wants a sandwich, right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Me too.

Can we do a double pita butter one?

And light on the jelly kind.

Molly.

Yeah.

Going from Irish Catholic to MDS.

It's quite the journey.

Was it tough?

Uh... What?

You think I didn't have to clean up some...

Uh... Change a few habits?

You ever get lonely?

Miss your family?

Or your friends?

Yeah.

I miss my friends.

Some of them.

Beer at Fenway, coffee at Starbucks, some other things.

When I first got to Utah, I think I cried myself to sleep for about a week.

Had some serious doubts.

About?

Everything.

Did your parents get remarried?

My dad did, and then he moved to California.

Do you see him very much?

Not really.

Get along with your stepmother?

Are you kidding?

She's practically my age and looks like a Barbie doll.

What do you call her?

Barbie.

And do you get along okay with your mom?

Can't say that I do.

So you're pretty much alone?

Yeah.

But hey, I got you guys now, right?

That's for sure.

Of course.

Yeah.

So my dad decided it was time for me to pay my own way in life.

I couldn't afford BC tuition, so I thought I'd

come to Utah, really digging deep with the Mormons.

BYU?

Are you kidding?

I didn't want to dig in that deep.

Fair enough.

Let's eat some food.

Yep.

Yes!

Paul, I'll get the chips.

Almost forgot.

I want a cookie!

The cookies.

Yeah!

I start with dessert.

I'm going to start with dessert.

That was a sweet one.

You're my forever.

That is a really good year.

There you go, boo.

Good job.

Richard.

You ever had a girlfriend?

You mean one of my significance?

Yeah.

Did you connect with her?

Not in the way you're thinking.

Not in the way she's thinking.

Could you ever see yourself getting married?

I don't know.

I guess the real question is, could I see someone marrying me?

Why?

You're amazing.

Whatever.

Look at this weird one.

That's one.

If you guys have more brown pieces... Okay.

Hey, Cole.

Yeah?

What happened with the drugs?

Yeah, how'd you get hooked on them?

Oh, uh, the infection and pain got me hooked

on them, and then, well, I took it from there.

Anyone here ever had major surgery?

I had my tonsils out on S5.

Shut up, Spielberg.

It hurt.

Yeah, well, I thought sports were tough.

But nothing compared to a metal rod and screws put in your leg.

You still on painkillers?

No.

What kind of stuff did you take?

You name it.

Perks.

Reset, Oxycontin, Ativan, Vicodin.

Yikes.

Yeah.

The pills took away the pain.

And when the pain went away, I kept taking the pills.

Why?

Have you ever taken pills, Spielberg?

Not like those.

Well, if you ever do, you'll know the answer to that question.

How much were you taking?

I got up to about a thousand milligrams a day, sometimes more.

That sounds like a lot.

It is.

It's a lot.

How'd you pay for it?

Pfft.

The doctors.

They just kept prescribing the stuff to me.

And then... I mean, there were...

There were other times when I had to get it...

in other ways.

Did you ever get into the heavier stuff?

No.

Not really.

I finally told my parents.

I think they already knew, but...

Yeah, that was... that was the turning point.

What'd they do?

Were they upset?

No.

No, they...

They just hugged me.

Cried a lot.

They were the ones who got me into a rehab place in New Mexico.

Good parents.

The best.

How long were you there?

Six months.

Yeah, and then I stayed on to help around the place.

Ended up working with a few of the other guys.

Cleaning horse stalls, working in the kitchen.

Did a lot of stargazing.

Um, yeah, I did that for about a year.

That's cool.

It's quite a change.

Mission field to rehab.

Yeah.

How long have you been sober?

A little over two years now.

Hey.

Wow.

That's major.

Way to go, man.

Props.

Do you still think about... Every day.

What do you do?

I think about something else.

Do you ever sing a primary song in your head?

Yeah, I do.

My favorite is Popcorn Poppin' on the Apricot Tree.

Oh, a classic?

I looked out the window and what did I see?

Popcorn poppin' on the apricot tree.

Spring has... Miss Phil.

What was the hardest part?

Not finishing my mission.

I really loved South Africa.

The work.

The people.

The choices we make.

Choices.

I still need brown pieces.

I'm right here for you.

Not having much luck.

Like the dark group.

Shade.

Cones.

There's varying shades.

Yeah.

It was like wicked smile.

I want to go.

I've always wanted to go.

And then Fenway's singing.

My dad.

Fenway.

Yeah.

My dad has seen the tickets.

I've always wanted to go.

So they play Sweet Caroline.

Ba ba ba.

Da da da da.

Yeah.

I love it.

It's awesome.

So, really.

Molly.

Why did you join the Church?

I mean it seems so great in Boston.

You had a good life.

But you know.

I love it.

I mean you guys all grew up in the Church.

It's like this really cool amusement park.

Like.

Disney World.

Times ten.

But I don't think you guys see it.

I mean I don't even think you all go on all the rides.

But me.

I was on the outside.

And I said.

I said, I want in.

So I got my ticket and I started going on all the rides and yeah, I don't know,

maybe I'll go on a mission and tell everybody

I meet about this really cool amusement park.

Go for it mama, you'd be great.

That'd be awesome.

Will you guys support me?

Duh.

We'll send you a group email every Monday.

With super cute pictures of us having fun together.

You guys.

Alright Spielberg.

Craziest thing you've ever done.

Oh wow.

It is your turn.

I don't know.

Come on, you had to have done something.

Come on dude.

Okay.

Oh here it is.

Come on dude.

Yeah, I...

Oh my gosh, here we go.

I'm so excited.

Oh gosh, okay.

It was in high school and...

Come on man.

It was after a high school football game and... I mooned a car full of girls.

Okay.

Are... Yep.

Showed them my butt.

That's your craziest thing.

Oh man.

Nice Spielberg.

What?

Yeah.

Okay.

What...

What do you see through that camera of yours Spielberg?

I see...

some people who have... a...

bunch of stuff going on in their lives.

Yeah, but what's going on in yours?

Compared to you guys...

nothing.

Are you envious?

No, I...

confused.

About what?

I mean...

we all have the gospel, right?

And yet...

we still make stupid choices?

I mean, do stupid things?

So what's your stupid stuff?

Aside from the mooning.

That's just it.

I don't have anything.

I mean, I've always been a good kid.

My dad's a bishop.

My mom stays home with the kids.

I guess you guys just look at the gospel differently than I do.

How so?

I...

I like following the rules.

You know, I want to go on a mission.

And get married in the temple.

Have kids.

You know, raise them right.

And we don't want that?

You're saying I wasn't raised right?

No, man.

I just...

Well, I have a hard time...

I mean, I really like you guys.

But... Man, some of the stuff you've been through... Your time will come.

It always does.

I guess.

Maybe not.

Maybe the destroying angel will pass by him.

I don't think so.

You still have college, mission, marriage, kids, career.

Plenty of time to screw it up, Spielberg.

Thanks, Cole.

Riley.

How'd you find out?

About the porn?

Um...

We were doing homework.

Genealogy, of all things.

Um...

And as we sat there at the dining room table of my parents' home, no less,

on a Sunday night, our laptops right next to each

other, a website just popped up on the computer.

He quickly closed it.

He knew I saw it, and he didn't want to talk about it.

My dad talked to us.

Oof.

Awkward.

Oh.

Maybe it was a mistake.

Maybe that was his way of telling me he had a problem.

I don't know.

I was confused.

I couldn't figure out how he found that, I don't know, appealing.

He didn't say anything, even after he knew you'd seen it?

No.

No.

He pretty much shut down.

I did, too.

I didn't know what to say.

I don't think guys understand what that does to a girl.

Amen.

You didn't see it coming?

We didn't want to try and make it work?

Yeah, we did.

We did.

I mean, we talked to his bishop, a counselor, and we kept dating for a while.

I don't know, guys, I...

I don't know how to put it.

I felt rejected.

You know, like you'd been cheating on me.

I totally get that.

And I...

And then I thought, am I not enough?

You know, it really hit me hard.

Like, how could he choose pictures and videos of women he didn't even know over me?

You know, I was right there.

I loved him.

I...

I was willing to give him all of me.

Everything.

Things I'd never given to anyone.

Never would.

You know, like, why wasn't I enough?

What was I missing?

I don't see anything missing.

Thanks.

Yeah, and I just... I just...

I just kept wondering what he was thinking when... when he kissed me.

When he held me.

When he...

told me he loved me.

He just brushed it off.

Said a lot of guys were into it.

I mean, not just guys.

There were some girls at BC.

He couldn't stop?

Wouldn't.

Well, he tried.

Well, at least he said he did.

You didn't want to give him a chance?

I gave him six months of chances.

It was sort of a crisis for me.

I was doubting myself.

I'd never done that before.

I thought about how I could change.

Compete with the computer.

What did you do?

Um...

Gosh, it's so stupid.

I sent him some snaps.

You know, one of those things that you do and...

you feel like a complete idiot.

What kind of snaps?

Snaps.

So he gave you up for porn?

Oh, God.

He gave up a lot more than just me.

You know, I was ready.

You know what every little girl dreams about?

You know, get married in the temple, have a family, kids.

Him serving in the bishopric.

Me teaching the young women.

Featured story in LDS.

Happiest living.

Happily forever after.

I was ready.

The course of true love never did run smooth.

I can always count on you, Molly.

It's in my nature.

Yeah, so, um...

You know, besides that, somehow he changed.

You know, he didn't want to talk about it and...

You know, it drove me crazy.

I can't be with someone who won't talk.

I know, right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So, then I said, I'll...

I'll go on a mission.

You know, I need some space.

And...

He said, go ahead.

And after I got back from my mission, he moved on.

Found a girl he was crazy about and...

She him.

They got married in the temple about a year ago.

How'd that make you feel?

Good.

Good.

He was the love of my youth, you know?

But, um...

After my mission, I... Were you mad at him?

No.

No, not at all.

I grew up a lot in Brazil.

And looking back, I...

I didn't handle the whole situation very well.

I was only 19.

And I...

I don't know.

My mission, I just... I saw a lot of people...

go through a lot of crap in their lives.

And I saw the hand of God work a lot of miracles.

Did he work a miracle with the love of your youth?

I don't know.

I hope so.

Well, I think you're beautiful.

Inside and out, for sure.

Okay, so... What happened to this gorgeous ring?

I gave it back.

I'd have kept it.

What?

That's like a whole semester of tuition.

Oh, shoot.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I went to Colorado to have my baby.

My son.

Did you go to school there?

Yeah.

That must have been weird, being pregnant in school.

It was.

I didn't talk to anybody.

Nobody talked to me.

I was fine with that.

I didn't make any friends.

I didn't really want to.

You were staying with your grandparents, right?

Uh-huh.

My grandparents were very cool.

Very loving.

By the time I was ready to have my baby, my dad

had arranged with a dentist back home to adopt him.

But I thought your mom was raising him.

Yeah.

No, sorry.

Me and her wanted to.

But my dad said no.

I don't know if I could do that.

Just give up my baby.

I hope you never have to make that choice.

After I had my son, I was still laying there.

And they were cleaning me up.

It was pretty messy.

I was just sitting there.

And my baby was lying on my tummy.

He was covered in blood.

My blood.

And I looked at him.

And his eyes were closed.

He never even saw me.

And then they cut the cord.

What happened then?

A nurse took him.

It's weird.

For most mothers, that moment is the beginning of a life.

Of a relationship that's supposed to last forever.

And for me...

That was the end.

So sorry.

You know when you're 15 and having a baby.

The hospital treats you like you are this slutty little teenager.

They have no idea how scared you are.

The lights.

The pain.

Everybody looking at you and poking your body.

There was nothing.

There was one nurse who was really nice, but...

You know...

Maybe it wasn't the hospital that made me feel slutty.

Anyway...

Your body keeps reminding you that you had a baby.

Even though there is no baby.

Your hormones are going crazy.

Your boobs get huge.

Hard to imagine, I know.

But...

They do.

They get huge and it's super painful.

Until...

Even they realize that...

There's no baby.

Looking back, are you...

Angry... About the adoption?

My dad's a good guy.

He is and...

And I love him.

But...

I think that when I told him I was pregnant...

It was really hard for him to deal with that.

Do I sometimes wonder what it would have been like...

To raise him with my mom?

Yeah.

And he's with the dentist now?

Yeah.

Do you ever see him?

Not really.

Kinda.

I mean...

The mother... The dentist's wife... She takes him out.

You know, to the grocery store.

Doing the mom-kid thing.

Um...

A burger joint.

Like I said, it's a... Small town.

Seeing your own kid...

With another mom.

Yeah.

And then there's the dad.

The dentist.

He's got these billboards all over town.

With these... Big pictures of him and the whole family.

All five of them.

They've adopted a couple other kids.

It's like... Who goes to a dentist just cause you've got kids?

You know?

It makes no sense.

Anyway, so... I see him.

I see him.

But he doesn't see me.

He doesn't even know that I exist.

But...

I'm not allowed to contact him.

Does anybody back home know you had a baby?

Your friends?

Anybody?

Just you guys?

And your family?

Just my parents.

They didn't want my brothers and sisters to know.

But I'm gonna tell them.

Someday.

Um...

I...

I have a picture of him.

It's about a year old.

I got it from the dentist's website.

How old is he now?

He's four.

Do you know his name?

Um... Adam.

I heard his mom call him that once.

Did you give him a name?

No.

No, I didn't want to do that.

Do you ever hope that when you're out shopping or something that you run into him?

Yeah.

Do you ever wish the whole thing never happened?

It's hard.

Um...

Knowing that...

there's a part of me out there...

that I can't be with.

Communicate with.

Spree...

you are Adam's mother.

You are.

And at some point, maybe...

maybe not in this life...

but...

at some point, I believe you will be a mother to him.

Maybe not the mother.

He already has that in someone else.

Right.

But... a mother.

I hope you're right.

So...

Richard...

Since you wanted an answer to your question...

me...

I'm not a virgin.

So, Spielberg...

You've seen a lot through that camera this weekend.

Yeah.

You know, it's kind of weird... knowing all this stuff about you guys.

I mean, I only met you yesterday.

I didn't even know you.

And then you started talking about all these things and...

Well, I thought you were sort of weird.

Strange.

That's not better.

We think you're the weird one, Spielberg.

Uh, yeah.

I'm beginning to think you're right.

You're awesome.

I know I say dumb stuff.

And sometimes I just don't get it.

And Molly...

This Shakespeare guy is way over my head, but...

I love you guys.

Hey, you're okay.

Come here.

So...

Where do we go from here?

I think it all just comes down to what we believe.

Yeah.

What do we believe?

Alright.

Yeah.

Yeah, let's go with that.

What are our core beliefs?

I mean, who are we, really?

Yeah, or... How do we know God loves us?

Or how do I know God loves me?

He loves us.

Right, yeah.

I... I guess I know that on one level.

Intellectually.

And that's great for the big picture.

I...

How about the little picture?

Right.

How do I know God has a place for me?

A plan?

Or...

Does he have a plan for me?

I think he does.

Absolutely.

Okay, then is my plan different from your plan?

You know, is God's plan of happiness an individual plan for each person?

Or this one big happy plan that we all buy into?

You know, one size fits all?

Heavenly Father has a plan for you, Richard.

I think it comes down to do we believe Christ?

I mean, do we really believe him?

I believe in him.

No, that's not what I mean.

I mean, do we believe him that he is who he says he is?

He can do what he says he can do?

I believe.

I mean, we gotta...

We have to figure out...

the atonement.

Right?

That's the core.

That one event.

I don't know what other word to use for event or happening.

But...

One event.

If...

Somehow...

I don't know how.

I don't think anyone does.

But...

If we let him... If we believe him...

He can fix all this.

So you're saying I need to be fixed?

No, Richard.

You don't need to be fixed.

What I mean is...

Whatever...

Issues we're going through...

That he can...

Give us peace.

He is the Prince of Peace.

I wasn't really honest with you guys earlier.

About not finishing my mission being the hardest part.

When I got in my accident, got banged up and...

Hooked on painkillers.

It was...

Pretty horrible, but...

Spielberg, he asked me...

Why I kept taking the pills.

Yeah, I remember.

I didn't really answer that very honestly.

I...

Didn't really answer it at all, actually.

See, the pills...

Took away the pain.

Or at least...

Made me forget it.

The accident happened because I looked away.

And I looked away...

Because my companion...

My companion was this...

Kid from a little town in Idaho.

Eden, Idaho.

Sounds perfect, doesn't it?

Yeah.

He was so...

Excited...

To be a missionary.

And here's this kid, this...

This 18-year-old kid.

Yeah, he was funny.

And smart, and...

He had a cute girlfriend back home.

A great family.

And...

There we were.

Just driving down the road.

He told me a joke.

Like I said, he was...

He was a funny kid.

And I laugh and...

And I look over to him.

He's laughing.

And that's the last sound he ever made.

I didn't see the red light.

I've never been able to forgive myself for that.

Accidents happen.

I'm well aware of that, Molly.

It really wasn't your fault, Cole.

Actually...

It was.

When I was in the hospital in Salt Lake...

I couldn't go to his funeral.

Two days after the funeral, his parents...

Brother and Sister Green came to visit me.

And what'd they say?

They forgave me.

They sat on my hospital bed...

And totally forgave me.

They said...

It was an accident.

And we know...

That Terry is in a good place.

And that he's okay.

And that he would want you to be okay.

He loved you very much.

How long ago was that?

Four years.

Anyway, that's what I didn't tell you guys before.

Cole, I'm so sorry for what I said.

It's okay, Molly.

It's okay.

I guess if I really believe...

I should let Christ take care of that.

Look for Christ and you will find him.

And with him...

Everything else.

C.F.

Lewis.

C.F.

Lewis.

Let's see.

It's for you, C, right?

Okay.

Yes, ma'am.

Is that my phone?

Hey, I have the best idea ever.

Here, it's your bag.

Okay, next weekend... Look at those notifications.

Next weekend, we get back together... and we go on a ski retreat.

Smart city, snowboard, wherever.

Guys, hey.

Look, I need to tell you something.

Does it seem kind of strange to you guys... that we are shooting this video?

I don't know.

Yeah, I guess it does in a way.

Why are we making this video?

You guys think it's about Fielding.

About his book, right?

It is.

Yeah.

It's...

It's not.

What?

What do you mean?

I want to get in the film program... at USC.

What?

What does that have to do with anything?

Well...

Um...

See... What?

Miguel, what are you... Where are you going with this?

Seriously.

Let me explain.

Look.

USC, they need a sample of my work.

You know, like a real.

And...

Well, I don't have one.

So... So... I thought I'd maybe...

do one about you guys.

And... I had no idea it would turn out like this.

I mean, I didn't have a clue.

As usual.

I mean, I thought that you guys would talk about it.

Like...

I don't know.

Different kinds of stuff.

Not the kinds of stuff that you guys talked about.

So... Wait.

You and Oscar Fielding...

What?

You set this up?

Yeah.

Sort of.

We... Um...

Actually...

No.

Kate, no.

Not exactly.

Not... Wait, wait, wait.

Who sent the email?

Yeah.

I did.

What?

No way.

Are you serious?

No way.

No.

Yeah.

I sent the email.

I set this whole thing up.

I...

So...

Do you even know Oscar Fielding?

Oh yeah.

I definitely know him.

He's...

He's my uncle.

Oh my gosh.

And he agreed to all this?

No.

No.

He didn't.

He doesn't know about any of this.

This whole thing was your idea?

Mm-hmm.

How many emails did you send?

I don't know.

About... 5,000.

Whoa.

What?

But...

Where'd you get them?

You don't wanna know.

We don't wanna know.

Okay.

Um... And you picked us?

Yeah.

Why?

Wow.

I can't believe we fell for this.

So the camera's yours?

Mm-hmm.

How'd you get this cabin?

It's my Uncle Oscar's.

I know the combination to the door.

Does he even know we're here?

No way.

That's crazy.

Hey, guys... I'm sorry.

I mean, look around.

We've all done crazy, stupid things in life.

But him who's without sin... Cast the first stone.

Any stone throwers?

Richard!

Yeah?

Hey, look at it this way.

I mean, it has been pretty amazing.

Yeah.

And if it weren't for Spielberg, we never would have met each other.

Thanks, guys.

Hold on.

Wait...

You're gonna take this video you've been making about us.

About me?

And use it to get into USC?

Oh come on, I thought if you knew what was going on you wouldn't do it.

You wouldn't help me.

Whoa, you didn't trust us?

Not at first.

Look, wouldn't it be cool if I edited it and showed it to you guys?

And I can take out whatever you don't like.

And hey, I'm good with whatever.

All those who can sustain Brother Spielberg's proposal, do so with the uplifted hand.

Guess the best.

Can we wait until I tell my parents?

No!

Fine, man, this is ridiculous.

Wow.

I can't believe you thought of that idea.

Classic, classic Spielberg.

You're an evil genius.

I cannot believe we were fooled by a child.

That's what I'm saying.

I'm going to hold you because I'm super klutzy.

Look at this.

No, it's so tall.

Yeah, I was just going to say.

It's over your head.

It really does.

I can't believe that you live right by me.

Oh yeah, all this time.

Yeah, it's like we're meant to be friends.

Yeah, watch my hat.

I'm going to hold my bag up for him.

Okay Riley, the best thing I ever thought you were going to do.

Oh boy.

That seems so long ago.

Riley's about to leave.

I don't know.

Oh man.

Well, Molly, you have one final quote for us?

God's goodness hath been great to us.

Let never day nor night unhallowed pass, but still remember what the Lord hath done.

Proverbs?

Henry the sixth, part two, act two, scene one.

Well guys, I guess that's a wrap.

Hey, before we split, we should get a group picture.

Oh yeah.

Yeah, please.

Okay, I got it.

Selfie.

Bring it in.

Okay.

All together.

Bring it in there.

Okay.

Throwing in?

Will, you got to get me in it.

I'm not in it.

Okay.

Ready?

And one, two, three.

Funny face.

Oh.

All right.

All right.

That was great.

Hey, I'll email it to you guys.

You are not allowed to email me ever again.

I'll see you.

We're fine.

Yes.

We're fine.

Come here, nugget.

Riley.

Riley's so nice.

You're crazy.

I love it.

You're nuts.

I can't believe you.

I know.

Come here, you beautiful boy.

See you, Riley.

See you.

Let's keep in touch.

Yeah.

Hey, you guys drive safe.

Hey, you too.

Ready?

Yeah.

Take care of yourself, man.

Yeah, you too.

Bye.

Bye.

Bye.

Yeah.

Go.

Yeah.

See you, Spielberg.

Peace out, guys.

So is your friend picking you up?

Yeah.

Yeah, he is.

But I told him not to come.

Wow.

So you're walking home?

See you.

Bye.

Like

sunshine and air To make you feel like you don't have a care There ain't no one else

around but you So here's exactly what you're gonna do Take your hands and dig

deep into your soul Let yourself lose control

It's a good day to have a good day.

So tighten up your laces and be on your way.

It's a good time to have a good day.

It's a good time to feel the beat down in your bones and smile.

Take your hands and dig deep into your soul.

Let yourself lose control.

Turn it around.

Too many days in the darkness.

Without a glimpse of the light.

Running tired and broken and scared.

But I swear I'll never give up.

I'll fight.

I see you're broken and beaten.

Head pulled down over your eyes.

Every part of you wants to surrender.

Darling, you were meant to survive.

With every smile.

We are born again.

Open your heart.

Spend this time in your head.

With every sigh.

We are born again.

Oh...