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Hi. Magenta, come on in. Hello.

Nice to meet you. Hi. Nice to meet you as well.

Have a seat.

Thank you.

So, before we get started, I just want to make sure that you're informed that I

do have several cameras running throughout the entire process.

Okay. It is for just our research purposes and for, you know...

referring back to the information that we speak about.

I just want to make sure you're okay with this. Yeah, okay. It's fine with

Okay, fantastic.

So, I guess, let's just get right to it.

What are you here for? What's wrong?

Talk to me. So, about a year ago, my boyfriend and I got into a really bad

motorcycle crash.

Like, I was riding on the back, and I don't remember anything after that.

Like, it was just a huge flash of light, and that's it.

And...

I've been in recovery from that for, like, a while, but what hasn't been,

recovering are my memories. Like, I forgot so much stuff from my past. I

remember, like, any of my birthdays.

I know my name and all of that, but, like, I just draw a blank when it comes

anything else.

Okay, well, basic information is pretty typical with something like this.

What is the last thing that you remember before the crash?

Before the crash?

I think...

We went, like, apple picking that morning or something.

So is this around the holidays?

It was, like, around my birthday last year, yeah.

Okay.

Apple picking.

Is that for cider or anything?

No, I just love apples. You just love apples?

Mm -hmm.

Very nice.

Okay, so that was the day. What was the weather like?

Do you remember anything about that? Any more specifics about the actual crash?

It was really rainy.

It was, like...

just after the sunset.

So it was, like, really wet outside.

It was getting dark.

It was kind of cold. I had, like, a jacket on.

And I think we were going down some, like, really curvy roads, like down a

but that's all I remember.

Okay. Now, have you sought any therapy before coming to see me? Yeah, I tried a

few other times. I tried acupuncture. I tried...

like just behavioral therapy, talk therapy, but just nothing really has

Okay. Yeah.

Well, I specialize in several different types of therapy.

I really feel that aromatherapy is going to really bring out the memories

from before the trauma.

Okay. Is that something you'd be interested in? Yeah. I mean, I'll try

at this point. Okay.

So what I'm going to do is I'm going to get a couple items, incense, candles,

and a couple other personal items.

And I'm basically, I'm going to have you blindfolded. Okay.

And I'm basically just going to have you smell.

And hopefully these specific items will jar some memories and help you bring

back your memory.

Okay. Yeah, let's try it.

Sounds good. All right. Give me a second. Okay.

All right, well, first I'm going to put on blindfolds for you.

Okay. That way you can't be cheating. We're going to be using your

olfactory sensors.

You're sure this is going to work?

We're going to find out very soon. Okay. I've had very strong success with it.

All right, so I'm going to get this lit right now.

And give me one second. As soon as they start going. Hold out your hand.

Like I'm going to hold you with a bowl of soup. There you go.

Okay. Now, you can get probably like another two inches closer. That's about

right there.

Now, just inhale.

And let me know anything that might come to mind.

Hmm.

There was this head shop I used to go to in high school.

But that's about it.

I can feel that.

Anything else? Any more specific memories that I might draw?

Nope.

Okay.

I really should have brought this over here as well, but let me grab one more

item and just hang tight for five seconds. Okay.

So, give me one second to light this.

There we go.

And I'm going to hold you an item.

Hold your hands up.

There we go. Thank you. So, right around there should be good.

And let me know if this jars any memories.

Maybe, like, my sixth birthday.

Oh. That's pretty specific. Anything more specific about that?

The cake.

The cake?

Yeah. Okay, that makes sense.

So you are smelling a very specific wax candle right now, so that would make

sense. Okay, but nothing other than that. No specific memories, happy, sad

memories of that cake and the birthday?

I think I wished for a bicycle on my sixth birthday. I did get it, but that's

it. Okay.

All right, well, I think we're making progress here.

I'm going to try one more item I think might really help out here.

Okay, I'm back.

There we go.

Perfect. All right, now, you said the accident was with your boyfriend,

And you remember the weather and all that stuff, like the circumstances of

accident.

I'm going to hold an item in front of your nose.

And just same as before, you're going to inhale.

And let me know what comes to mind.

Now, this is going to be a little bit more specific to your boyfriend.

And hopefully, being something more personal, we'll jar something and we'll

able to really crack and get in there.

Okay? Okay.

Go.

Lean forward a little bit.

Oh, my God.

What do you smell?

Well, I don't really know what I'm smelling, but I'm definitely

like, the first date I ever had with my boyfriend.

Okay. He took me to, like, this cute little restaurant.

and we went and walked on the beach afterwards. It was really sweet. I

forgot about that.

Those are some very specific memories, and that's fantastic.

So we're going to continue with this right now. We're making a breakthrough

right now. So I'm going to hand you these, and that way you can just smell

you wish and hopefully jar some more specific memories, and I'll be taking

notes.

Okay, so after we ate at the restaurant, We were walking on this beach and we

were, like, holding hands.

And, like, yeah, that was our first kiss, too. He, like, leaned in and

me. And then we were just, like, making out on the beach for, like, a really

long time. Yeah, it was, like, really hot.

Yeah.

Like, I don't know. Do you want me to go more specific?

Please, please, please. That's what we're here for.

Okay. Hopefully we can just keep opening these doors and keep going further and

further in your psyche. Yeah, totally.

So he was, like, we were just, like, making out, obviously, and then

he had me take off, like, his pants on the beach, and I gave him a floor job

just, like, in the sand.

Really?

Yeah.

And I remember we were really scared he would get caught because it was, like, a

public beach, obviously, so we were kind of, like, hiding.

Is that something that turns you on?

Yeah. Why do you ask?

Oh, no, it's just for my notes. It's just for my notes. Okay.

So, yeah, that was it. Continue.

So, yeah, I was, like, giving him a flow job, and then, you know, we were,

like, well, should we stay here? Should we go to the car?

But I really honestly didn't want to wait, so we just ended up, like, fucking

the sand for, like, hours. It was amazing.

Interesting. Yeah.

Very interesting.

Continue. Okay.

Let's see.

He, like, went down on me for a while, and it was, like, really

slow and sweet, and the sound of the waves was really nice. It was really

romantic. Okay.

I'm sorry, I'm like getting really wet.

Is that normal?

The sensory through the aromatherapy will generally

build up other senses.

You're perfectly fine experiencing this. This is what we're really trying to

break through with.

Okay. This is a safe space.

This is what we're here to accomplish.

Okay. So you pretend I am not even here except for when you're explaining.

your sensory and what you're remembering.

And just so we're clear, you don't need to stay with just this one memory.

Now the sensory, the senses will bring up other memories and past experiences.

Feel free to dive right into those as well.

And be as specific as possible. And again, feel free to continue your

movement and your actions however you see fit.

Okay. Um, sure.

Well, yeah, so I do remember that. I remember, I guess it was probably pretty

close after our first date. Like, um, we actually ended up having

sex, like, in a public, like, an abandoned parking garage thing.

I'm seeing this public, uh, these public activities as kind of a reoccurring

thing. Yeah, that does really do it for me. Okay.

Um, yeah, so we were just coming home from a party, and, like, I think I,

just wasn't wearing any panties or anything, and we just really wanted to

so we, like, ran into this parking garage.

Are you wearing, okay, you are wearing panties now.

Uh, yeah.

Um, and, yeah, he just, like, pushed me up against the wall and lifted up my

dress and started fucking me in this parking garage.

Oh, my God, I totally forgot about that, actually, until just now. Well, that's

what this therapy is for. I told you I'm very specific with it.

That's crazy.

I'm trying to remember more, but I don't know. I'm kind of drawing, like, a

blank again.

Well, just continue with your physical activity. That might draw up to more

memories as well. Wait, what are you?

Just continue doing what you're doing.

Oh, my God. I'm so sorry. I didn't even realize. Oh, it's absolutely nothing to

apologize for.

Okay.

I'm really not remembering anything else. All right.

I'll tell you what. I think it's time to take it to the next step.

Okay. We're going to push this to the next level and hopefully bring out some

more memories for you.

All right. So I'm going to have you stand up.

Okay.

You can use your

hands however you feel, but I'm going to be holding up the object right now to

your nose. Okay.

And this is a little bit more hands -on. Okay. Now I'm going to hopefully both

the sensation of the smell and the physical touch will bring out some more

memories. Okay. So that's what we're going for right now. So, again, do not

back. You can move around. You can feel, smell, talk, act however you feel

appropriate. Okay. I understand.

Anything in particular?

Yeah, actually.

I think, like, there was this one time I was out dancing with my boyfriend, and

I remember we were, like, in the very, like, back dark corner of the club, and

he just started rubbing up against me, like, just like this.

So it was a good memory?

Yeah, it was a really good memory.

And it's bringing back sexual sensations.

Definitely, yeah. I guess specifically very sexual.

Okay. Feel free to, again, let yourself go.

Mm -hmm.

I'm going to try to mimic as best this experience.

All right. Now, where did you go in the back of the club? Was it in a hallway?

Was it in a room?

It was, like, a giant warehouse.

So we were just, like, sort of in one of the darker corners.

Okay.

And, yeah, we were just dancing, and he just, like, started taking off my dress

at the time. It was crazy.

Kind of like this?

Just like this.

Okay.

Was it faster? Was it slower?

It was about as fast as he was doing it. This is, like, exactly what I remember,

actually.

He just started taking off my clothes, and I just kind of was, like, going with

it. Yeah.

And he ended up just, like, fucking me right there on the dance floor. It

It was like the hottest thing ever.

Oh, wow.

You are definitely getting a physical reaction here.

Really? Very much so.

Oh, wow.

Very good progress.

Yeah, that's like a really clear memory.

You should be very proud of yourself.

Definitely. Yes.

All right, I think we're definitely ready to take this to the next level,

one more stage of the aromatherapy to go.

Okay.

Well, it's working really well so far. I agree. We're making huge progress.

Step out with your right foot.

There you go.

Have a seat back.

Okay.

This is going to be

A little more personal, but again, don't hold back.

Okay.

Take a good breath.

Whoa.

Oh, my God.

What does that remind you of?

This is reminding me, oh, my gosh, yeah, of, like,

actually a lot of different things.

Okay.

There we go. Wow. I remember after prom.

Okay.

Yeah. Now, do you remember what you did on prom in specific?

Well, I was only there for like half an hour.

What about after prom? Well, then I ran and... Was there something that brings

back memories?

Mm -hmm.

Whoa. Okay.

Oh, my God.

Yes, you're making huge progress right now.

Oh, wow, that's crazy.

Now, let's talk about your prom experience.

Mm -hmm.

This is definitely a giant memory for you. Mm -hmm.

Yeah, like... Yeah, well, I went behind the

bleachers with my date.

And why don't you do to me what you remember doing to you today?

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

That was definitely on my knees.

Yeah? Mm -hmm.

This therapy is incredible.

I think so as well.

Making huge leaps and bounds with your progress right now.

Did you look up in your boyfriend's eyes at that time? Mm -hmm.

Yeah, why don't you do that for me?

There you go.

Were you able to do that back in high school?

Oh, yeah.

You were an early riser? Yes, that's what they said.

We'll continue whenever you remember.

There you go.

Stay right there.

Did you do this on your prom night too?

Definitely. Yeah?

Yeah. I think in his car or his dad's car technically.

Yeah? Mm -hmm. Do you remember what kind of car it was? Mm -hmm.

It was some kind of monster. He had like a cool car.

Okay.

Every cool dad had a cool monster. I agree.

Yeah.

Wow,

yeah. Really vivid.

Yeah? Mm -hmm.

Here you go.

Back over your shoulder.

grasp of that memory.

Oh, my God, yeah.

Yeah. It's, like, really clear.

Yeah. Uh -huh.

Oh, shit.

Oh, my God.

I'm remembering, like, a ton of stuff.

Yeah? Yeah.

Like, um, I just moved into a new apartment, like, like, a few months ago.

Oh, my God.

Three. Three beds? A huge apartment.

Nice. Oh, my God.

You signed a year lease on that?

I did.

And I can say that, like, with certainty. I know I did. I remember

I see this is working.

Fuck. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

For my mom's birthday, I got her, I think, a new necklace. Yeah.

Like, a really pretty necklace.

Yeah? Did it have any, uh, was it a cross or did it have anything?

Uh, it was like, uh, images.

Yeah. Okay.

Mm -hmm. Very specific. Oh, yeah. That's crazy.

Um, oh, fuck.

I, mm,

oh, wow.

Anything else? Oh, yeah.

Um, like, a week ago, I went grocery shopping and I found a new brand of

that I like. Yeah. Mm -hmm.

You are coming everything right now

Definitely think we'd do some groundbreaking work here. Yeah, I think

Ow.

Oh,

fuck.

Oh, my God.

That's crazy. I'm actually remembering.

Why I had to stop therapy last time I did try therapy.

Oh, my God.

Yeah, I remember my last therapist.

Yeah, we had to stop our sessions.

For something like this?

Yeah, I think he said it was like a conflict of interest.

Okay. Well, we are making groundbreaking progress here, so.

I don't see how this is a conflict of interest if we are... This is like the

most progress I've ever made.

Exactly.

Fuck you.

I don't know what I had for breakfast yesterday.

Yeah? Yeah.

Everything is coming back.

Yeah, absolutely everything.

It's like we got a few possessions gone. Yeah, I think so.

Oh my God, yeah.

Oh, this is crazy.

There you go.

Wow, you're a really good therapist.

You're a fantastic patient that is really learning to open up. Yeah, I

you, like, really click. It's like a very good therapeutic relationship.

This work is so much better than acupuncture.

God,

you're definitely the best therapist I've ever had. This is crazy.

This is definitely one of my better sessions.

Yes, yes, yes.

Oh, my God.

Fuck.

Oh, my God, yeah.

I remember, like, every date I've ever been on.

Oh, my God.

Ever? Yeah.

Every good date, right?

Good and bad. I remember literally everything.

I think it's time to come too close to the session here. Yeah?

Yeah. Okay.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, thank you so much. Oh, don't thank me yet.

Don't thank me yet. Okay.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, my God. Mm -hmm.

Oh, my God.

Oh, fuck.

Good doctor.

Oh, my God.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, my God.

Here, come on. Get out of here.

Oh, right there.

Oh, my God.

Oh, fuck.

Oh,

my God.

Oh, fuck.

Thank you, Pastor.

Wow,

that was a really productive appointment. Thank you so much.

That was actually a very productive one.

Definitely going to have to schedule for you next week. Definitely. I'll be

here, like, next week, however many days you want me.

Hopefully you could bring us more members. Mm -hmm.