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There were 8 ,700 hits on the website and 175 applications.

I chose seven women and two men because that was the gender ratio of the

applicants.

I wish we had more of a support team for you.

But with the new grant and everything, we do what we have to do.

You know, for years, researchers have been tracking and observing animals in

their natural habitats, and that's what I'm doing in this study.

They look fine. Great.

These new protocols, they remind me of some of Masters and Johnson's early

Is that good?

It's very good.

What excites me most about this study is these new protocols could potentially

open up a whole new area of research for us.

I can't thank you enough for your unconditional support.

I mean, I just, I owe you everything.

You're going to do great.

Thanks.

This is research tape number one, dated 129, of my exhibitionism

study for human response associates.

I think the thing that I'm most excited about this project is that I am maturing

as a researcher.

I'm taking chances. I'm not just standing still. I'm getting out in the

I'm observing.

I'm pushing the envelope.

I'm not sure what the precise observation will entail. That'll depend

comfort level of each subject.

I'm nervous.

Thought I was going to slide right through this.

Okay, we're just going to use your first name.

So why don't you just start by telling me who you are? Sure.

My name's Erin. I'm 26, single, creative director for an advertising agency here

in Los Angeles.

It's a pretty good job.

I volunteered to be a subject on this

research on being an exhibitionist because I believe that I am one.

Why do you think that?

What gets me most excited, makes me most excited about having sex, is

having people watch me while having sex.

Can you articulate what you mean by showing yourself?

I want people, preferably people I don't know, to see me.

See my naked body.

Watch me having sex.

other sex acts.

When this happens, which isn't very often, I mean, the climax, the

orgasm, it is absolutely amazing.

Is there a downside to your exhibitionism?

Sure.

There's been so many close calls, times I've almost been caught.

It's all scary, but it's kind of exciting too.

Can you remember the first time that you started showing yourself?

Um, well, it's, uh, you don't think this is kind of wild,

but, um, I was with my boyfriend at the time, Brad, and

we just left the DMV.

It crossed my mind to seduce him.

And I could feel my body get hot.

My nipples get hard.

My whole body just got flushed.

It must be the best orgasm that I have ever had. I mean, I was

gushing and cumming all over Brad and his car.

It's an amazing, amazing feeling.

How often do you do this kind of thing?

I don't know.

Once a month.

But I think about it all the time.

Oh, too much. It starts building.

And when you're doing this, what are you feeling?

I'm scared, excited, wet. It's like a roller coaster, but

with sex.

Erin, as I mentioned in our first interview as part of the research

might want to observe your exhibitionism in the field as it takes place.

You want to watch?

Yes.

Ryan's going to die.

Now, we can save him.

But only by bringing him into this life.

If you say that's all I have to make of you.

Oh, no.

When I saw that you were going to die, my darling, I

couldn't deny myself all your passions, all your pleasures.

I did it because...

Look at me.

Look

around

you. You expected me to live like this?

The name's Robert.

I'm a ceramicist, a potter, a teacher. I travel around. I give seminars about

art.

I'm a widower.

I have a daughter.

And generally, I think I'm a pretty happy soul.

I'm here because I thought it would be a great place to meet chicks.

And what is the real reason, Robert?

Well, um...

All my life, well, as long as I can remember anyway, I've had this

thing, like this voice, not literally, in my head, telling

me to... telling me to

take off my clothes in front of people.

I know it sounds nuts, but I mean, I never did it.

All those years growing up, I guess I was too afraid or something.

But until

now,

for some reason, I...

I'm letting myself do it.

And what is that behavior?

Okay, I've started... I've started

modeling for art classes.

I like them looking at me.

I mean, it's all I can do to keep from getting excited.

That's what it's like for me up there.

Don't get erect.

The tension of having to constantly keep myself under control.

You're doing great.

I guess I... It makes me feel good when I do it.

I don't know why exactly, but it does.

And... I mean, I guess people

watching me, studying me.

Really don't know why it makes me feel so good Well, that's my big

story It's not too weird is it

Weird isn't

how we look at things here.

I Appreciate you sharing this with me.

Thank you.

I I really have to thank you. I mean, being able to download this stuff

to someone, someone sympathetic.

I mean, really, for the first time ever.

Maybe you'd like to have dinner tonight.

We'll see you next week.

This has never happened before.

But one of my subjects, he really is very charming.

And unfortunately, I think I may have communicated that to him.

And though it's strictly chemical, I'm sure, I just feel so unprofessional.

I'm sure it wasn't as noticeable as you think.

Well, nonetheless, I'm worried that it's just going to cloud the study.

I think you're right to take notice of it, but I wouldn't worry about it.

You're so on top of it.

I don't think it's an issue.

Are you okay with this?

Yeah, I'm okay. Okay.

Thanks. I'll see you later. Okay.

Okay, this is where we do the interview.

Come on in.

Are you ready?

I guess.

Let's grab that little mic there.

And... Okay, and... Just put it right on... Yeah.

Right here?

Okay.

Right here?

First, we'll start by just saying your first name and how old you are and tell

me why you're here.

I'm Candy.

I'm 22, and I saw a notice on the Internet.

And straight up, I'm an exhibitionist. I mean, I'm an actress in the adult

entertainment business.

I'm a porn star, baby.

Walk tall and be proud.

So what's your life like as an exhibitionist?

It's fucking blazing. I do whatever the fuck I want to whoever the fuck I want.

I mean, guys go nuts over my body, my tits, my ass.

It's fucking unreal.

And that's a positive?

Are you shitting me? Of course it's a positive.

I mean, it makes me feel great.

I mean, I was this gangly -ass little kid, and now guys would fucking kill to

climb on me.

And the rest of your life?

As an exhibitionist, I fucking flaunt it. I fucking rub their faces into it.

I mean, I leave my shirt unbuttoned.

I fucking lean over when I know someone can see down and let them see a little

nipple.

I really dig when guys fucking go nuts over it. I love to get them all hot and

bothered.

In my opinion, that's what they're good for.

I mean, I never wear panties. What's the point?

It just gets in the way, actually.

I flash people in doctor's offices and the waiting rooms and my classes

to show them a little pink.

And on the bus, actually.

On the bus, too, because there's this one bus driver who looks at my skirt

damn day, and I give it to him wide open.

Let him see everything. And I can see him getting crazy hard as he looks in

mirror. Such a fucking freak.

But there's something about it, I don't know. It just feels natural to me when

I'm showing my stuff to people like you or at work or wherever.

It just feels normal, like it's something that I should totally be

I'm beginning to think that some people are biologically predisposed to being an

exhibitionist. I think it also might have to do with the way some of us are

wired in our brains. I don't think it has to do with just those two things.

I think some people, because their early sexual experiences were secret and

taboo, they associate the danger they felt with those...

Early acts with the sex acts that excite them later in life.

For them, sexual satisfaction and danger are linked.

All right, so remember, we haven't caught a thing all day, right? Okay, so

snagged this tuna, right? And I'm pulling her in, right?

And the next thing I know, there's a jerk on the line. I'm almost pulled out

the boat. I mean, there's a seal that has chomped down on my tuna and is

lunch. I mean, so I'm pulling both of them in now, right? So finally, after

about half an hour of struggling with these guys, the seal lets go. And I

finally pull in the tuna, and I land it on the deck.

There is maybe enough tuna left on this thing to make a freaking sandwich.

We should get back to the interview.

What?

it's clearly mine and not yours.

You see, the study is a priority and I'm finding myself not looking at you

as a subject, strictly as a subject.

Yeah, I know.

I've been feeling the same thing.

Well, the problem that I'm having is that I can't take the chance of

jeopardizing the study by tainting the research.

Are you saying you think it's best if I withdraw from the study?

Well, I think... I really think it's the only choice that I have.

I'm sorry.

Yeah.

Well, um... Hey, maybe we can have that date now.

Thank you for volunteering.

Thank you very much.

The most exhibitionist thing I do is I leave dirty photos of myself in the

street.

So how many times have you done this?

I don't know.

I tried to think about that.

What do you mean?

I mean, I do the shit.

It's not like I want to think about it all the time.

It's enough to fucking do it, you know what I mean?

This was actually really fucking weird, though.

Usually, the photography is me thinking about what's going to happen,

fantasizing about it, about the guys and the photos.

But with you here, it changed things because what was going through my head

thinking about you watching me doing that.

And?

And it was really weird and hot at the same time.

But it's all right.

I think it's cool.

Now I need to place the photos.

The idea is to put the pictures in places where they'll catch someone's

know?

Here's a good spot.

I like to put them in different places sometimes.

I like to double back and see if I can freak out the same guy twice.

It's only happened once, but it was slipping the fuck out.

And here.

All right, here we go.

topside.

I'm thinking about him taking this picture home and stroking his big dick,

jacking off to it.

Thinking about him getting all hard inside of his sweatpants thing.

Getting all hot and thick.

Maybe a little pretty.

I did my second field observation today with subject candy.

She took photographs of herself in provocative poses.

And, well, it was definitely one of the most

erotic things that I've ever heard before.

The subject was, she was in her car and I was imagining as she described

everything to me.

did you get my number oh well i yeah i

mean i we both knew it was happening that's kind of why it was a problem

where okay well how about i just how

about i meet you okay okay great i'll see you in 15 minutes okay bye

That was amazing dinner, don't you think?

I mean, did I tell you?

Did I tell you? It was fantastic.

You were right. I mean, my pasta was just really good.

Yeah, really good.

And what about my gnocchi?

Oh, God, I don't like gnocchi. But it was fantastic, wasn't it? Well, I didn't

taste it. No, I'm telling you, they don't make it.

your place of weakness.

It's so you.

It's perfect.

So how did you get my number?

When someone's worth finding, it's easy.

And I wasn't about to wait as long as it was going to take for you to call me.

And you were going to call me.

No curtains, huh?

God, this is amazing.

Are you thinking what I'm thinking?

God,

you're beautiful.

What? I want to make love to you right here.

It's okay.

I've never done this either.

Robert.

What a great evening.

It's a little odd knowing Robert's an exhibitionist.

Knowing that, that is what he was doing.

What I was doing.

It was exciting.

It was very exciting.

Last year I studied voyeurism and became a

voyeur.

Am I going to become everything I study?

Okay, this is where we do it. Go ahead and have a seat.

Right here? Yeah.

I will just put this mic on you.

Excuse me.

There you go.

Okay, let's start with your first name only and

then tell me why you're here.

My name's Della, and you have a website. You were looking for exhibitionists,

and I am one.

Why do you think that?

I pick up guys, parties, airport waiting rooms.

I travel a lot. I'm a sales rep.

Denim.

And then what happens?

I'll pick a guy and do a little strip for him, like his own private show.

How far did you take that?

Be specific and take your time.

Well, there was this time I was taking the train up to San Francisco.

It was one night late.

I was in the parlor car.

There was a steward behind the bar, a couple of other people.

I was having coffee, watching it all go by.

And I saw this guy.

He was sitting across from me in a chair like mine.

And our eyes met.

My hand went to my blouse.

Showed him my breast.

He watched.

He watched my nipple get hard.

And then it got weird.

He, uh...

He showed me his penis.

It was just.

pulled my panties aside, and showed him.

I touched myself.

And we had orgasms.

I think all across the history of evolution, exhibitionism has had its

We've learned women show themselves to display their genetic and biological

fitness to procreate.

Advertise the goods, evolutionarily speaking.

The display of the woman's body is a proven reliable predictor of a woman's

pool. It's something women in almost every culture have done throughout time.

The challenge today is to harness that exhibitionist gene, or whatever you want

to call it, into appropriate behavior that fits into society.

This thing with Robert is getting quite interesting.

I mean, he's not part of the study anymore, but at the same time, he's very

a part of the research.

I'm with an exhibitionist, which means I'm experiencing it firsthand.

I don't think there's ever been such a diversified and comprehensive approach

this material.

It's amazing.

I thought I should talk to you about this.

Since the last time in the theater with Dave and everything, I have had this

uncontrollable urge to show myself to

one of the young guys who works for me.

He's a copywriter. His name is Darren.

It's like I've been totally stuck on it.

Every time I see him, I can't think of anything else.

It's really starting to affect my work.

And I know me and this.

It starts to build and build and it gets a little bigger and then

it gets more uncontrollable until I can't control it anymore and I have to

it.

I have to thank you.

Somehow, in some way, it seems that...

Being here with you and talking has helped open the door to me

experiencing some of those feelings a little bit more.

Thank you so much.

I'm concerned.

That your on -site protocols are motivating your subjects?

Exactly. I'm afraid that the credibility of the data in the face of the research

protocols are potentially affecting the behavior of my subjects.

We are learning that the act of observing changes what's being observed.

Incorporate it into your study. This is as much about research protocols as

exhibitionism. It's why this is such an important study for us.

Okay.

Hey, Darren. How are we doing on the JR account?

We are right on target with a new media buy.

Have a seat.

You know, the new campaign is about...

Uh, it's about three days away.

Have you seen it?

It's extraordinary.

Great. Can you give me a preview of the new creative approach?

I, uh... It stresses the new young look.

I think you're gonna go crazy.

Do you love it?

Uh, I do.

I do.

Well, thanks, Darren.

I'll see you at the 2 .30 staff meeting.

Thanks again.

Uh, sure.

Can you close the door?

Sure.

Oh, man.

What?

That was amazing. If you weren't here, I'd probably be touching myself.

What was it like for you watching me?

Didn't feel anything special.

Messages. Message 1, Thursday, 3, 29 p .m.

Hey, Lisa, it's Robert.

Thinking about you. You know the number.

Message 2, Thursday, 4, 30 p .m.

Hi, it's Robert.

I've been calling and calling.

The number is 555 -2124.

Message 3, Thursday, 7, 15 p .m. Hi, it's Robert. I was at your place all

last night looking for you. I was there again most of the day today.

I don't understand where you are. I miss you.

You're so beautiful.

555 -212 -FOOT.

Give me a call.

Bye. And, uh, messages.

I'm Jess.

I'm 25.

I've had, um, a webcam in my apartment for the last seven months.

And I've made a great deal of money doing it.

So I'm here.

I said to someone that I was doing this as a way to give back.

But to tell you the truth, I don't really know why I'm here.

What do you do on your webcam?

I live a normal life. I mean, I eat, I sleep, I go to the bathroom.

But then I listen to that something inside myself.

That something that's dirty.

And so I let people see me be dirty.

And I don't know exactly where it comes from, but I tell my subscribers all

about it.

And they start to email me like crazy, asking me to do all sorts of different

things.

So I'll strip and show my rear end or, you know, my breasts.

Mostly, my subscribers like to see me masturbate.

So I do.

Let's see. I've done it with carrots,

dildos, cucumbers, a flashlight.

That was a big, big favorite.

Special effects, you know.

Ice cubes.

What else?

I don't know.

Yo, Lisa.

Hi. Great minds, huh?

I think about you too much.

You know that, don't you?

I think about you too, Robert.

Lisa, let's make love right here, right now. No, not here. Robert, stop it.

So, what do you want me to do here?

Well...

I will just observe, and you just do what you do. Okay.

I'll see what's going on in the chat room.

Okay.

All right.

We have an SW from Los Angeles.

How about a flash of your famous rack?

I have fans from all over the world who are in love with my titties.

It's really sweet.

Here it is.

My friend, little Missy Nipple.

She feels so good.

We love that.

You know, some guys want to buy my underwear.

Ones that I've worn that are unwashed.

So I send them out in sealed plastic bags.

And when they get them and open them, they see the aroma.

They can smell me.

Some of them wait till they're masturbating.

And when they're just about to climax, they open the bag.

All right, well, this is what they're paying for.

mind when you're doing this?

Well, I have this picture in my mind.

And it's probably unnatural or something.

But it's a semen spurting out of the penis.

I mean, I know men subscribe, you know, to masturbate while they're watching me.

That's what they tell me.

That's what it is.

And it gets me really excited.

And they know that when I talk about sex,

I get really really turned on

I'm

soaking

And that's what it's all about.

So is there anything else you wanted to know?

I think that's great. Thank you very

much. You're welcome.

I miss you.

These are for you.

You look better looking than I remember.

Can I come in?

It is so great to see you. Robert, slow down.

No, there's no slowing down.

Some things in life you know in your heart are right.

And life's too short to pass them by.

Oh, I know this to be true. And what's true?

is there aren't many people who are sophisticated enough to play in Robert's

world.

You're one of them, Lisa.

You're one of them.

Robert, I'm not so sure that I'm really ready for... You're ready for this,

Lisa. You're ready. The higher the stakes, the bigger the turn on.

You studied this. You know the game.

My proposal is simple. We make love out where we can be seen by anyone.

Out there.

And because you're who you are, and the power that we have, we'll get away with

it.

I know we can do this, Lisa.

I know we can.

It's perfect.

Robert, I don't think that it's really smart what's happening between us.

No. We're a team, kiddo. You and I, we're...

We're the same person.

No, we're not, Robert.

And I think that you should leave.

Lisa, don't deny your power.

Don't. You have to. You know, I just feel really uncomfortable with us right

now. Robert, please.

It's late.

What are you talking about?

Good night.

I don't get you.

Wait, wait, oh, wait.

Is it something I said?

How's it going?

Lisa?

There's a... What?

I have this subject, and I interviewed him once. You remember I told you about

him. Well, I had to pull him from the study.

I think that was wise.

But since then...

We've seen each other outside of the office a couple of times.

And, well, it's sort of taken a very weird turn.

I don't even know why I'm telling you this.

I would have thought you knew better than involving yourself.

He wasn't part of the study.

I'm sure you'll do the right thing.

Message 1, Sunday, 5 .01 p .m.

I was just sitting here, thinking about us on your balcony, making each other

happy. So exciting.

Oh, God, I hope your mother isn't listening to these with you.

You're the best.

The best.

Message 2, Sunday, 6 .09 p .m. I know what it is.

You read in some magazine that this was the way to get a man.

You don't have to play hard to get with me.

How do you expect us to have a relationship if you don't return my

messages.

You look beautiful.

Here,

in the dappled light.

Like a dream, like a beautiful dream.

I'd like to sculpt you.

I wish I had a camera.

Robert, what are you doing here?

My heart was breaking without you.

I've got something for you.

I don't want... I made it.

I made it for you. I don't want it.

It's got your energy.

It's you.

Robert, I can't take that. Okay, I'm gone.

Goodbye.

Robert, I don't think... I love you.

I don't want you to come back here. Have a great lunch.

I'll see you real soon.

Okay.

So, I wanted to... Did you want to turn on the camera?

Yes. Maybe.

Yes. Good job.

I wanted to talk to you about how exhibitionism relates to your job as an

film actress.

That's such a stupid -ass question. I mean, I think dick up my ass on camera.

You think I'm not an exhibitionist? It relates completely.

I mean, it's a perfect fit.

There's so many girls who do what I do, but they don't like it. I mean, this is

the same fucking bitches you see drinking alcohol and doing drugs and all

this shit.

But I don't need that because I like it. I like getting fucked. I like getting

fucked on camera.

I like what I do.

What is it exactly that excites you about what you do?

I've actually thought about this shit a lot.

For me, it's not so much that it's video. You know, I know there's guys

off to me at home. You know, it's cool.

You know, but I don't get to watch them, you know, stroking their dicks or

anything. So it really doesn't do anything for me.

But it's the film crew. I like turning on the crew.

I like that I get to be there and see them watching me.

You know, let me explain so you understand because I know it sounds kind

weird. I mean, the people who are doing pornos.

Our kids fresh out of film school, okay? These kids have hardly even had pussy,

right? And then there's all these film geezers who couldn't tell a pussy from a

hole in a wall. You know, they're so jaded by the whole thing, it doesn't

matter.

I like to get there and turn them on. I like to make them crazy. I like to show

them some pink. I want to know that when they go home, they're thinking about

sticking their dicks in my hot, wet cunt.

And I know that's what they're thinking about. I want to make them crazy.

And I do.

You can choose on me. I can choose on him.

Well, it's hot shit you chose me.

Awesome.

Beautiful.

Yeah.

Excellent. That's it, Candy.

That's right. Take a breath in the mouth.

Can you pull off your pants?

Moving to her legs now. Thank you.

I hope John heats again.

Touch her with your fingers.

Inside of her.

What it's like turning on, turning people on,

displaying your sexuality.

It's very exciting.

It's just, it's exciting just talking about it.

I can feel... I can feel my body.

I can feel it flush.

Just the thought that... that I'm being watched, that I'm showing,

displaying my sexuality.

When I went to see Jess's webcam,

When I went to see her sight, I really wanted to...

I wanted to touch myself.

When she asked me if I wanted to try, it was everything that I could do to

not... well, to control myself.

But now...

Exhibitionism is exciting.

I know I am.

It makes me feel excited It

makes me feel

dirty

Get me

It

makes me feel dirty

I can feel myself doing it.

Robert, no.

Robert.

Robert, you don't love me.

Robert, I don't want to talk.

No.

Okay, look. Okay, I'll listen.

No, I'm not going to say it.

Robert, I am not going to say it.

No, stop it.

Robert, I'm, I'm, Robert.

Goodbye.

Robert, goodbye.

Robert!

I know I'm taking a risk talking to you about this, but I'm

becoming affected by my work again.

I am...

Trying to take a more comprehensive look at things, I flirted with exhibitionism

a little just to see what the process is like. I'd like you to give me copies of

all your material to date.

But I'm not... What do you mean?

I want to take a good hard look at your study.

But I'm not ready to... I'd like that material by end of day.

It's completely unrealistic.

By Friday, then.

not out of control even rona knows that this is tough stuff i don't know what

her problem is i mean i i'm i'm dealing with things that no one else would go

near i'm doing fine thank you very much

my data shows it

we've been married a year and a half

And Mark, he's a structural engineer.

I work at a non -profit.

And we're very happy.

We really are.

Except... Except... I

think our lovemaking is a little... It's a little boring.

Can you explain to me what you're talking about?

little embarrassed about this.

And why is that?

It's what gets me off.

I have an orgasm, too, usually, when Mark does.

But the fact that it's the same every time.

And why is that?

Tell her.

That's what we're here for.

I used to live in Chicago.

We live in this apartment complex, and the woman across the air shaft,

I used to watch her.

She knew I was watching her, and I'd see her see me every once in a while.

She knew.

Fuck.

So what she would do is she would touch herself pretty

much the same way every time.

She was an exhibitionist, you know?

I mean, I know she was.

And I know she knew what I was doing because she would look at me as she

herself.

I could feel her eyes watching me.

And... We would come at the same time.

At least that's what I thought.

Or fantasized, you know, I... I don't really know anymore.

I don't think there's anything particularly wrong with all that.

I just don't think our lovemaking has to be the same every time.

How did it go?

We got the grant.

Yes. Bye. Bye.

the car over. Don't hurt me.

I've hurt you.

I would never do anything like that.

I just want to be with you.

Look, look, look. I can understand why you might be concerned, but there's no

reason to be.

I'm just a little outside the box.

You'll get used to it.

Please get out of the car, Robert.

Don't. Just make love with me. Don't you see?

It was amazing before, but now, out there with people watching.

I know this is good for you.

No.

Just make love with me. No. Just this once more.

It's... You know, it was... You're just... People

watching, mesmerized.

I'm going to call the police.

I'm going to call the police.

That you would feel the need to threaten me.

The person who's so important to you.

But you're not important to me.

Oh, I can tell what's in your heart, Lisa.

I can see it.

I can see your love for me.

Call up the police.

You're going to be with me, Lisa.

Sooner or later.

And you're going to make love with me.

Give into it.

need a new lock yes and could you do me another favor mr phillips i need um

maybe you can keep an eye on the building uh yeah yeah he's he's about um

one caucasian uh dark brown hair he's got like um really blue eyes and he's

slender uh yeah and i need to lock as soon as possible thank you

my fault

so

stupid this

Robert is crazy he's fucking crazy

I mean Jesus

Thanks for seeing me.

Sure, is anything wrong?

I don't know if it's wrong, but a lot of shit's changed, you know, talking with

you about it.

Let me tell you what happened.

I was making an adult film, and the male actor did the show, so we started

filming without him. And you know how I like to make things interesting, so I

start teasing the sound guy.

We're doing our thing, you know, going down, getting nasty, whatever.

And I look over at him, the same guy, and he's looking back at me.

So I get even more turned on and I start kind of working him, you know, I'm

sticking my tongue out, you know, and all that stuff, stupid crap.

And he's smiling and he likes it. And I don't know, it was just

such a turn on. And so I started talking to him, you know, I mean, he's right

there again. I figure why the hell not?

It's so thick in here.

Come on, you're stitching in here quick.

Dan, go for it, dude.

into it so whatever and um it was just like the fantasy exactly like the

i mean turning on the film crew people watching it was such a turn on so hot so

fucking hot and um lean into him lean into his

mouth lean into his mouth

Do something.

Get in between her. Yeah, there you go.

I

don't

know. One thing led to another, and this guy had this huge fucking dick.

I mean, who the hell knew? It wound up fucking my brains out.

Just hours.

It was great.

You know how it made me feel?

It was the most satisfying thing ever. I mean, he pushed all my buttons.

It was the best, absolute best.

You know something? I'm going to do that again as soon as I possibly can.

It was great.

Maybe next time it'll be the director even.

But I have to tell you, talking about this

shit, you know, it makes me sad.

It kind of makes me too hip to what's going on, you know?

I mean, I don't know. I'd rather just do the shit than talk about it and think

about it so much.

I'm afraid that if I keep talking about it so much, it's really going to ruin it

for me.

You know?

I think I do.

Yeah. You know?

Thank you.

And I hope I didn't ruin anything by... No, no, you didn't ruin anything.

Okay. Thanks. Thank you.

Hey, it's Lisa.

I just wanted to let you know that I got your message and that I would love to

make it to your birthday party.

I will give you a call tomorrow and let you know what my schedule is to see if I

can make it, okay?

You scared me.

You scared me. I'm sorry.

Good night. Good night.

Robert, I've been thinking about you.

I've been thinking about you.

And watching you.

You're ready, aren't you?

If I do this one thing.

It'll all be over, right?

To live the dream.

To have sex in public.

Time suspended.

You promise you'll leave me alone?

I do, I promise.

I'll never see you again.

I feel it. I do. I feel it.

It's exciting.

Marina.

All the people in their boats watching.

We'll take my car. No, no.

I'll just meet you there.

No.

We'll go together.

No, I want to wear the right thing. I want to be ready for you and for them.

Show them more than they would ever expect.

Lisa.

That you're here.

That we're here.

Mama, I can't do it.

What did he do to me?

Police!

It's okay.

It's okay. It's over now. It's over now. You're all right.

Don't do this to me!

Don't do this to us!

We've got to do this, please!

This is the

last research tape.

I closed down the study today.

After this thing with Robert...

I just didn't sign on for this.

I know that I am a very, very sexual creature.

I know that about myself. It's no accident that I do what I do.

I mean, hello.

But I have to make a choice.

I can no longer continue personal...

Sexual experimentation.

I think it could potentially damage my reputation as a researcher.

And it's dangerous.

I put myself in a very dangerous position.

And I never want to be that frightened again.

What I did learn about myself Is that I like

I like to display myself I Like to

express my sexuality in front of the camera It's sexy

it feels right I just have to be careful

I can handle that

No big deal.

I'm a good researcher.

I'm good at what I do.

I'm a good person.