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=Crush=

=Episode 23=

I'm exhausted.

Okay, bye bye.

Who were you talking to on the phone?

Cheng Yin.

Is she still alone in Tongcheng County?

I asked her to come over to write her paper, but she won't come.

Are you feeling a little lonely without Cheng Yin here?

I am. But she still doesn't seem to want to see you now.

What's the matter? She sees me as a love rival?

(Outpatient Building)

Mr. Su, it means she doesn't actually want to avoid you.

It's just that this Cheng Yin is paranoid of you.

I've only noticed this recently.

I wonder if it's a coincidence.

I don't think it is.

Judging by the current situation, I hope you can make more time for her.

The best situation for her is if you're with her, Cheng Yin won't be there.

The less Cheng Yin appears, indicates that her condition is improving.

But would it really be alright if I don't bring her in for treatment?

Treatment is a double-edged blade.

Although the current treatment will delay the healing process,

it will minimize the mental impact...

and damage she will have to bear in the future.

In your expert opinion, which approach should I take?

Actually, you've already made a decision deep down,

haven't you, Mr. Su?

Boss, Ms. Sang just called.

Madam just called.

What are you doing now? Why aren't you home yet?

I'm having a business dinner.

Are you drinking again? Don't you dare drink.

Sometimes, I can't turn down these invitations.

Anyway, I'm going to check you when you get home.

Okay.

Sir, you're back.

I'd better be going then.

Goodbye.

No smell of alcohol.

But why do you smell like the hospital?

The perfume Qin put on lately is a little weird.

Really?

If you don't believe me,

you can come closer and examine me thoroughly.

Sure.

What do you think?

It's alright.

Do we have any food? I'm starving.

We do. What's more, I made them myself.

This is certainly not made by Aunt, right?

Is it bad?

What else did you make?

I only made the meatballs.

What do you mean by this?

Make your own food next time.

Wu Yan.

Sang Wu Yan.

Sang Wu Yan,

didn't you hear me calling you?

I'm not your pet. Why should I rush over to you whenever you call?

I don't treat you like a pet.

You do.

Be reasonable, okay?

What kind of pet can be this adorable?

Stop bluffing.

Good girl.

Come here.

I called you because I really wanted to apologize to you.

Your tone was really mean, okay?

Let's make some ground rules.

Don't be mean to me, don't drink and don't smoke.

Okay.

I'll punish you if you break the rules.

What's the punishment?

You tell me. What's the punishment?

No talking for three days.

Okay.

Su Nian Qin, not talking is exactly what you want, isn't it?

Su Nian Qin, you don't even have the courtesy to repent.

Wu Yan,

I think there's something you forgot to do.

What is it?

Think about it.

Something that you must do after you finish the meal.

Gargling?

Wash the dishes.

Hello, is this Ms. Sang?

I am Yu Wei Lan.

Hello.

If you're looking for Nian Qin, he is...

No.

I'm actually looking for you.

Me?

Ms. Sang, you don't seem to want to talk to me?

No, I'm not.

That's okay.

As a stepmother who was once hated by Nian Qin,

I've become very thick-skinned now.

Wu Yan,

can I address you the same way Nian Qin and Xiao Lu do?

In the past,

Nian Qin and I had a difficult relationship.

For a long time,

he didn't talk nicely to me even once.

But that has changed.

You know, Wu Yan, it's all because of you.

You changed him.

I didn't really do anything.

You made him fall in love with you, didn't you?

I think, for a while,

Nian Qin had lost the ability to love.

Then he met you.

You brought light to his eyes.

You made him understand that if we work together,

every family will find happiness in their own way.

That's all we need.

Thank you.

There is nothing to thank me for.

This is just me, as a mother, trying to convince my son's lover for him.

I hope that you can marry him in peace.

You can say I'm doing it for selfish reasons.

Where is Nian Qin?

He's sleeping.

That's what I thought.

I was wondering why he didn't come to stop me...

after we're talking on the phone for so long.

Do you also feel that he was a little overprotective of you?

I mocked him over this too.

Actually, there's a lot of things he doesn't like about me.

He doesn't like me misplacing stuff.

And I don't know how to cook.

And he doesn't like me singing out of tune.

Looks like I failed to teach him well.

Don't worry, Wu Yan.

I'll correct his prejudice.

When you have time, come home with Nian Qin.

I'll have to see when he's free.

Okay.

It's a deal then.

Bye bye.

I was just being polite with her. And you really took time out.

What?

I mean when I see Xiao Lu's sister later,

what should I call her?

You've asked this question three times on our way here.

Madam Yu.

Yu Wei Lan.

Madam Su, Mrs. Su.

Sister of Xiao Lu. Anything you want.

What do you call her then?

Yu Wei Lan.

What about your dad?

Is he nice? Is he scary?

He's getting old now, so he has become a lot nicer.

As for his temper, it's as good as mine.

Let's go.

Hold on, hold on.

Let me check if my makeup is running.

I mean I just feel that your glasses look nice.

You look nice too.

Don't worry.

Let's go.

This is Nian Qin's mother's piano.

I've always thought that this piano's soundboard,

produced the best sound I've ever heard.

You can sit down and try it.

Can I?

I've asked my brother-in-law. He's fine with it.

Okay.

You've met her now. Don't walk over there.

She's timid. You will scare her.

I plan to get married with her after she gets her master's degree.

That's great. It's happening soon.

I'd better start preparing.

Preparing what?

What does she think about it?

From what I see, it's nice enough that she wants to marry you.

What... What are you doing here?

Your dad...

We'll just go there when it's time for dinner.

Okay.

What song did you just play?

How come I've never heard it before?

I think it's nice.

I was just noodling.

So.

You're feeling like composing a song, aren't you?

I just played a few random melodies.

If I really want to compose a song, melody is just the beginning.

The hardest part is the arrangement.

What mode should it be, what chords should I use,

everything has to be structured and precise.

Song composition is not that easy.

Is it that complicated?

I thought you could just compose one when you're in the mood.

It isn't complicated.

It's called logical.

What are the scale and chords you used in the song you wrote for me?

C major.

The simplest chord and the simplest scale.

The simplest?

So you're just not doing it from your heart.

Here's the thing.

Major keys sound brighter.

Minor keys sound more sombre.

So that means major chords are how you sound like when you are usually happy,

minor chords are how you sound like when you usually talk.

That's easy then.

Just use C major to compose one more song.

It's so simple. Isn't it easy to compose one?

It's been so long since I wrote a song.

You said it yourself just now.

Every new melody is a new beginning.

Your interpretation is always so...

Did I interpret it wrongly?

You know,

I think a lot of times,

we insist on doing something not because we really want to do it,

but because we have to do it.

Because we can't resist it.

That's why I've been working in the radio station.

Reason is telling me that I have to keep trying to leave,

yet I'm still hosting shows.

You're doing the same thing too, aren't you?

It's like you never stop playing piano.

Dinner time.

Coming.

I'll take it as a yes then.

What's next?

Nian Qin, why did we have to leave so early?

I didn't even get a chance to talk to your dad.

He's a bad conversationalist. There's nothing to talk about.

That's not true.

I think he's just like how you said he is. I think he's quite friendly.

What are you watching?

Just some film.

Nian Qin,

close your eyes. I'll tell you what the movie is about.

The movie is now at the part where the protagonist is searching high and low,

for his best friend, William.

However, no one knows who his friend is.

His name is not even on the student list.

The doctor...

tells him that...

everything that happened between him and William...

Boss, here's the information of the film.

This film is based on the real-life experiences of mathematician John Nash.

John Nash was awarded the Nobel Memorial Prize in Economic Sciences in 1994,

for his game theory.

But Nash and his wife had a lifelong battle with his paranoia.

He saw the world in a way that no one can ever imagine.

This sentence is special.

Look at the camera.

Three, two, one.

Not bad.

One more, one more.

Here we go.

Those who are in 422 come here.

Come. Let's get a picture.

Nice. Let's take one more.

Take a few more.

Three, two, one.

Look, he's so handsome.

Yes.

Wu Yan, congratulations on your graduation.

-Thank you. -Wu Yan, is this your mom?

She looks so elegant.

Hi.

Excuse me, I have to take my wife and mother-in-law,

to other places to take pictures.

You're calling me mother-in-law already?

Mrs. Sang, I've been planning to get married with Wu Yan after she graduates.

Since you're marrying my daughter, I should accept nothing less.

What other family's daughter has, my Wu Yan deserves nothing less.

You hear me?

Of course.

I'll give her the best of everything.

How do you want to get your makeup done tomorrow?

I want a natural look.

What about the groom?

He just needs to do his hair.

Can you make me look pretty and make him look ugly?

Why?

Because this way, others won't think I'm not good enough for him.

-Bye bye. See you tomorrow. -Bye bye.

Wu Yan, it's been a long time.

What are you doing here?

I've received Su Nian Qin's wedding invitation.

So I came here as soon as I could.

I asked Qin just now, and found out that you're here.

Wu Yan, you still have a chance to change your mind.

Change my mind about what?

Marrying him.

I can be a backup.

Whose backup are you planning to be?

Mine? You may not have a chance.

Or do you want to be his backup?

That's even impossible.

Nian Qin, let's go.

What's the matter?

I need to take you to buy something.

Buy what?

It is a very, very simple pink coloured men's shirt.

I have to prove that you look better than Peng Rui Xing in pink.

Otherwise, I'm not comfortable with simply marrying you.

I have one.

You're so forgetful.

You do?

The colour that only a truly handsome man can look good in.

That's true.

Only a truly handsome man can look good in this.

Are you happy now, my wife?

I am.

Can you sign this now, my wife?

Two families are brought together due to a marriage.

Our matrimony is a match made in heaven.

When the peach tree is in full bloom,

then comes the time for us to build a harmonious home.

May our home be fruitful and prosper.

I'm writing down my promise to grow old with you on paper.

The nuptials shall be announced on red leaves.

This will serve as proof. Su Nian Qin.

Who wrote this?

Me.

What's the matter?

(Sang Wu Yan)

(Marriage Certificate)

Why did you give it to me?

It's for you to keep it, of course.

You can use it to denounce me in the future.

Alright. I have to go now.

Where are you going?

Have you forgotten?

My family's tradition.

I have to go back to the old house tonight.

(Wu Yan: Nian Qin)

Nian Qin, why are you calling so soon?

I hear the notification of your message.

I was wondering if you couldn't sleep and wanted to talk to me.

You couldn't sleep either?

I was sleeping.

I put my phone under the pillow. I woke up when it vibrated.

What's wrong? Why aren't you sleeping?

I couldn't sleep.

Why are you able to sleep?

Wu Yan, rise and shine.

It's 6:30 a.m. Time to get up and get ready.

I don't want to get up.

You brat, it's your wedding day and you still won't get up?

Do you want the wedding to be cancelled?

Get out of your bed now.

Mom, just let her sleep a little longer.

Nian Qin?

I'm up, I'm up now.

You found out.

Now the surprise is gone.

Found out what?

What surprise?

Don't forget.

Blind people generally rely on sound or sunlight to tell direction.

When you walk later, just walk toward the light.

Why did you call me here?

Nothing.

Do you think my bow tie is too big?

Should I change to a different knot?

Are you getting nervous?

Of course not.

Since I proposed to you three years ago,

I've been preparing myself for today.

There's no way I'm nervous.

Wu Yan, it's almost time.

Okay.

Just walk toward the light.

I got it.

(Su Nian Qin and Sang Wu Yan)

♪Every time I thought I would cry♪

♪When the light fades away♪

♪I search everywhere for the familiar voice♪

♪Slowly penetrating the tides and raindrops♪

♪Even though I try to carry on♪

♪And I leave my past behind♪

♪I feel like I can hear your breathing♪

♪And the night turns translucent♪

♪Be it the city or forest♪

♪A gloomy tranquillity♪

♪Lost in the midst♪

♪I close my eyes♪

♪But I see your silhouette♪

In the past, I used to say...

♪Forever shine for me♪

move on,

look forward.

But Nian Qin has made me just like him.

I would unconsciously remember many moments.

♪Because you're the only thing I think about♪

For instance,

♪I only think about you♪

I still remember how I felt...

♪Forever shine for me♪

the first time I saw him.

The feeling that even though reason told me that...

our meeting would most probably not lead to anything,

♪Turns out I love you so♪

I still did not mind...

and gave my best to love.

♪All the loneliness of this world♪

♪Forever shine for me♪

♪Walking through the rain and burning fire♪

♪Can you hold me to the end?♪

♪Falling into the splendid, eternal summer♪

♪Still unable to see clearly♪

♪Be it the city or forest♪

♪So near yet so far♪

Wu Yan,

♪Waiting for the night♪

thank you for loving me.

♪Nothing much to say♪

♪I've been waiting for something♪

♪It's written in the stars♪

♪There's a voice in my ears♪

♪That has been keeping me company♪

♪Because of that, I'm no longer afraid of sunset♪

♪The sun shower deliberately falls♪

♪On my shoulders♪

♪I suddenly recall something♪

♪I think I heard it somewhere before♪

♪Subconsciously♪

♪I recognise you♪

♪By your astonishing voice♪

♪In the next second♪

♪You look up and smile at me♪

Do you want to...

♪You say the lyric is a tongue twister♪

♪I quench the galaxy♪

♪Naturally in the dark♪

♪We hug and hold hands♪

♪I've never spoken my mind♪

♪Since I met you♪

♪Everything has changed♪

♪Since I met you♪

♪The starry sky has always been behind us♪

♪Since I met you♪

♪I learned how to love carefreely♪

♪I want you to know♪

♪You're the only thing I need♪

♪Even in exchange for the entire universe♪

♪I'll never trade in your red beans♪

Hurry, hurry.

Nian Qin?

Nian Qin?

Nian Qin?

Why aren't you coming in?

Close the door.

We will start over.

Wu Yan, I'm home.

What is he doing?

Wu Yan, I'm home.

Wu Yan, I'm home.

What's his problem?

Is he a Japanese man?

He has to make me stand at the front door and say welcome back,

you've had a hard day.

Is he happy now?

Stop laughing, okay? I'm really upset now.

What did he say?

He didn't say a word.

What about other times?

Except for this, he's usually normal.

No matter what,

even if I stood at the door and the door was wide open,

he wouldn't give in.

He had to make me go over the process.

He's too unreasonable.

Just leave him at the door and let him wait for the whole night.

If I really ignored him,

he might have stood there until the next day.

Serves him right.

But it would make me feel bad.

I just don't get him.

I mean, before we got married, we lived together for a while too, right?

How come this has never happened before?

Because women aren't the only ones who are ritualistic.

For him, this is like a ritual of a man.

Before marriage, you two were boyfriend and girlfriend.

After marriage, he wants a ritual...

to show that you're his wife and that you're part of his life.

But why did he have to choose this way?

Maybe he doesn't want you to neglect him.

And me welcoming him home intimately every day,

means I'm not neglecting him?

Is he that lovey-dovey?

Yes. He just likes to express himself in very specific ways.

Such as putting the ring on your finger to affirm your status.

Writing the marriage vow for you to make a commitment.

He hopes to express that you're his number one priority.

Maybe he also hopes that you can use the same way,

to express that he's your number one priority too.

This is his ritual.

Can I interpret this as he loves me too much?

Of course.

So that means unless we divorce,

I have to put up with him like this for the rest of our lives.