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=Crush=

=Episode 16=

Wu Yan, are you returning to your hometown?

Ms Xiao Lu, I know why you're here.

But please don't waste your energy any more.

Wu Yan.

Actually Nian Qin wanted to meet you immediately the other day.

But his father suddenly had an operation,

so he stayed over at the hospital.

But when the operation was over,

he immediately said he wanted to meet you.

After that day, he felt particularly sad.

He already made his decision...

That's his business.

It has nothing to do with me any more.

Ms Xiao Lu, everyone seeks benefits and avoids the disadvantages.

So do I.

Before this, I've tried my best to love him.

I really did my best.

So now, please let me go.

Hopefully...

Hopefully he'll find someone braver than me.

My ride is here.

I'll be off now.

The privet flowers have fallen completely.

I'm home.

What's the matter?

In the end, Wu Yan still went back to Tongcheng.

She was adamant on leaving.

When she texted me, she said she'd already boarded the train.

I don't know why all of the sudden...

I just got everyone to go perform at the night market.

It's because after the thing with Wu Yan happened,

honestly I feel very sad.

Mr Sang was the kindest person I've ever met.

He just left us suddenly.

When I think about it, I'll...

I don't want myself to feel so sad.

But after they came,

I realized that I wasn't the only one greatly impacted by Wu Yan's incident.

Surprisingly, everyone decided to go home.

But I guess it makes sense.

Ever since everyone graduated, so many things happened.

It's as if there's a growing distance between what we originally wanted...

and things that we liked before.

It happens to everyone.

Wu Yan...

Take her for an example.

She may seem like a child who grew up in a happy family,

but she faces hardships too.

She has to face reality as well, doesn't she?

It must be the same for Liu Lei and the rest.

They've got to make plans for their future after all.

Future?

It's about that again.

Of course.

Try to think about it.

Have you every wondered what everyone will be doing at the age of 30?

Will everyone still be playing in band?

What else could it be?

That's right.

I almost forgot.

You were the earliest to leave.

Right from the start, you'd always felt that this was unrealistic.

That's not how I feel.

It's just that I realised from the start that I can't afford to be like you.

It's still the same for me.

Not everyone gets to live a satisfactory life.

Everyone has just been making decisions based on their respective circumstances.

You don't have to feel uneasy simply because others...

have chosen a different path.

What then? Just go our separate ways like you said?

What about us then? Our decisions are different too.

Let's calm down and try this another time.

There you go again. Once we quarrel, you'll say that we should cool off.

-Then it never gets settled eventually. -What else can we do?

So I don't even have the rights to keep calm now?

Please.

I'm not like you.

I face reality every day by staying calm in order to resolve the problems.

What about you?

Can't you be more realistic?

Just a little will do.

Can't you?

Alright, I understand now.

I have to remind you again.

According to the detailed test report,

although you're considered very lucky,

but cases of patients accepting the operation after coming of age...

are really rare.

To be honest with you,

the operation success rate is extremely low.

Furthermore,

there is no saying about your recovery progress...

of your post-operation sight.

It can even cause other pathological changes...

after the undergoing the operation.

Are you sure of taking these risks?

I'm sure.

(Ophthalmology)

Actually from a medical standpoint,

your condition doesn't necessitate a treatment.

I understand.

In my own view,

I don't consider myself disabled and in need of treatment.

But do you know, doctor?

Someone once told me that she admired my eyes.

But she also said that it would be nice if she had someone...

to share that scenery together with.

Before this,

it's true that I never wanted to see, nor to be seen by others.

That was the only way for me to fend myself from everything else.

But right now,

I want to know how the world she sees looks like.

Although I may never see her again.

Doctor.

Please help me.

I never thought we'd be back here...

just after a couple of days.

I, too, wasn't expecting...

that they'd find a suitable cornea so swiftly.

(403 operation room)

That's because you didn't know how hard we've been looking for it.

Not long after you signed up for the waiting list,

your father got to know about it.

When he realized you haven't found a donor while his days were short,

so he quickly signed the donation form.

Surprisingly, the hospital informed us so soon that a match has been found.

Doctor, we'll go in now.

Thanks, senior.

You're welcome. We're from the same hometown.

Once you've settled down, don't forget to let me know about it.

I definitely will. Senior, when you're free another day I'll treat you to a meal.

Sure, maybe a few days later.

I've got quite a lot of work at the moment.

Alright, you don't have to see me off.

Okay, I'll contact you later.

Great.

Hello. Will you be getting off work early today?

How about this? I'll go to meet you.

There's something I want to tell you.

From today onwards, I'll be joining everyone else...

as a fellow worker.

As for those times in the band, I thank everyone for it.

Tonight's on me. Drink as much as you please.

I'll be in charge of your ride home.

I can't believe you actually got yourself a job.

Since you did this,

I can no longer brag to my colleagues that I know someone...

who is extremely stubborn and persistent on living his dreams.

Dude.

Do you have to dress up like him?

Like a computer repair guy.

I'll be repairing computers after all.

If that's the case, let's forget all about it.

It's not a bad idea.

Cheers.

May everyone have a bright future.

He said that he'll send us back but he ends up drunk instead.

We'll head home now.

Xu Qian, he did it all for you.

Should the day come when he can no longer keep up with you,

talk it through.

Try not to hurt him too much.

You drank a lot. Head home quick.

We had to drink that much in order to forget everything.

I'll get you a glass of water.

Xu Qian.

Come home with me, will you?

Wei Hao.

Why did you take that job?

You don't even like going to work.

Isn't that what you want?

What I want?

I never wanted you to change yourself for me.

Being yourself is enough.

There's no need for you to unwillingly make a change for me.

Am I not doing it for you after all?

You want stability. I work hard to become more stable.

The reason I want to go home is also because your grandma...

needs someone to look after her too, doesn't she?

Stop making decisions on your own.

I've never asked you to take care of my grandma.

Xu Qian.

Why won't you accept my heart?

Fine.

Tell me what you want.

It's not about what I want.

I've never wanted anything to happen.

You did those things solely based on your own decisions.

I should be the one asking you what you want.

Let's get married.

I can't get married,

nor return home.

You should know very well that I've always wanted to leave that place.

I spent so much effort graduating out of that place.

I can't go back there.

Wei Hao, stop being foolish.

Marriage or going back home...

can't resolve the issues between us.

What issues do we have?

I don't think we have any.

You're always so naive. You think that everything is simple.

But the world isn't like that.

Fine.

Do whatever you want.

I'll go home by myself.

I'm leaving now.

Once you're up, remember to have your breakfast.

♪Dreams of a light year♪

♪Is as vast as the sadness♪

♪The earth is quiet ♪

♪Like the eyes of the stars♪

♪I want to see clearly♪

♪Every expression on your face♪

♪This way it won't shatter♪

♪The heart♪

♪From one star♪

♪To another♪

♪Tears are like crystals♪

♪Submerged in the sea of stars♪

♪Continuing its trajectory♪

♪By taking your surname♪

♪I won't be all alone♪

♪By myself♪

♪Would you then♪

Leave me alone.

Can't you let me sleep a bit more?

No way. Finish breakfast before you sleep.

It's bad for your stomach if you always skip breakfast. Hurry up.

Quick. Over here.

Sit down.

♪Because I don't know♪

I'll do it.

♪My past is full of♪

♪Ups and downs♪

Where did you buy this? It's so salty.

I made it.

Didn't you say you're craving thick omelet your grandma used to make?

See? It is nice and thick.

I made it with five eggs.

Forget it.

In the future, don't trouble yourself. Just buy it.

Is it that bad?

♪Submerged in the sea of stars♪

♪Continuing its trajectory♪

♪By taking your surname♪

♪I won't be all alone♪

That's enough, stop eating. You wait here.

I'll go get one from the convenient store below.

It's... It's fine.

Seeing you run up and down is giving me a headache.

♪Notice me♪

Just wait and see. I'm going to make it.

I'll definitely able to make the kind that's sellable.

Then I'll make it for you every morning.

Spare me, please.

♪Because I don't know♪

♪How to express myself♪

♪My past is full of♪

♪Ups and downs♪

♪I won't hide from it♪

It's so salty.

I'll go out and see...

why Xiao Lu is taking so long with the doctor.

You two should catch up.

How does your eyes feel now?

They're fine.

Why did you suddenly decide to have the operation?

It has such a high risk,

yet you never discussed it with me.

I'll bear the risks as they're my own eyes.

How about you?

Are you feeling better?

It doesn't really matter.

The doctor said that I might be bed-ridden after this.

But don't worry.

I'm not going to force you to inherit the family business.

You can continue the life you're living now.

I'll come home.

I'll take charge of the company.

What makes you think that...

you can return home whenever you want?

Fine then. A dime a dozen.

Last time you said that...

you're bringing home someone you're marrying.

Where is she?

She doesn't want me anymore.

Nian Qin. I heard my sister say you're going home?

How was the chat just now?

Why did you suddenly agree to it?

Nothing much.

I just decided to go home.

If that's the case,

will you and your father...

No.

With the state that we're both in now, how can we possibly fight?

I've just confirmed with the doctor.

We can remove the bandage in three days.

Are you excited?

It's sunset now, isn't it?

Do you know why I like to listen to the broadcast?

It's because I hate sunsets.

Watching the sun disappear bit by bit,

a day is over again.

Things end up unfinished once more.

Closing my eyes,

putting on my earphones and listening to the broadcast.

I open my eyes after a while.

The sky has turned dark.

Another long night has arrived for me to waste again.

Mother came to visit once again.

I didn't need to raise my head up to know it was her.

Where there's sunlight,

brightness isn't the only important thing.

The warmth matters as well.

Do you feel it?

Continue ahead, go.

Alright, stop.

Get ready to turn right.

Let me see.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.

Walk about seven steps.

Go.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, stop.

Make a left turn.

Go forward.

Alright, stop, stop.

Okay, you can put it down now.

A little more to the left.

Alright.

What is in this photo?

It's something that I really like.

But you really can't see it.

It's such a pity.

I really like it.

What are you doing?

I...

It looks so nice. I really like it.

Only a really good looking man can put on such a nice colour.

I want to see it now.

Put it on for me, will you?

What colour did you get?

The kind that you usually wear.

White.

Then don't forget to label it for me.

I will, I will.

Nian Qin.

Xiao Lu.

Did you see any photos of Wu Yan?

I remember we took a picture together.

No, I didn't.

The last time I came, I found a broken frame...

but without picture.

Then have you seen a GoPro?

No.

I'm going out.

What about this feeling of the wind and the sunlight touching your face?

What's the matter?

Nothing.

It's just that...

it'd be great if such a beautiful scenery...

could be shared with someone.

I see it now too.

(Thesis by Professor Sang Jing De)

How is your mum doing?

She's fine.

She's tired after acting out. She's asleep now.

Wu Yan.

Your mum still seems to think that your dad is still around.

Are you sure she doesn't need a checkup at the hospital?

We'll see again after some time.

Maybe she's overwhelmed by sadness.

She needs time.

What about you? Are you okay?

I'm fine. How else could I be?

I'm a young healthy adult. I'm fine.

I almost forgot.

You're looking for a part time job at a radio station, right?

I happen to found one. How about this?

I'll forward the message to you.

He's a director for a small radio station here.

You'll just have to contact him yourself.

Thanks.

Luckily, the board of directors didn't give you a hard time.

Even if they did, it doesn't matter.

After all, I've returned and RD belongs to the Su Family.

So that's that.

Anyone can be ruthless like that.

You used to complain that I stink of money.

Now it's your turn.

Wei Lan has prepared a teacher for you to learn business from the beginning.

Learning that alone is enough to make you suffer.

Alright.

Nian Qin, I've something to tell you.

I heard that...

What?

(Tongcheng Music Broadcast)

(Office)

You want to work the night shift?

We're a small radio station.

We're seriously understaffed.

Usually the night shift is handled by just one person.

There won't be a radio director.

Plus, a lady working alone all night long, won't it be dangerous?

It won't be a problem.

I can manage it alone.

I have to take care of my mother during the day.

Well then... Next Monday.

You start work next Monday night then.

That's great. Thank you.

My goodness. Yi Jin is going to stop writing songs.

Where did you see that? On the internet?

Hold on, let me see.

There's no preview as well.

"Crush."

The song title this time sounds quite plain.

So this is his final song then?

I haven't got it wrong, have I?

Stop speculating. Let's see what the introduction says.

"The day you came, the privet flowers blossomed."

"Therefore, every day became like spring."

No matter where you left me,

I've been waiting since the day you left.

Only by you calling out my name,

shall time restart again for me.

It's on air now. Quickly.

♪Every time I thought I would cry♪

♪When the light fades away♪

♪I look for the familiar voice around me♪

♪Slowly penetrating the tides and raindrops♪

♪Even thought I try to carry on♪

♪And I leave my past behind♪

♪I feel like I can hear your breathing♪

(Tongcheng University)

♪And the night turns translucent♪

♪Be it the city or forest♪

♪A gloomy tranquillity♪

♪Lost in the midst♪

(RD GROUP LIMITED)

♪I close my eyes♪

♪But I see your silhouette♪

(President's Office)

♪Forever shine for me♪

♪Unafraid even when faced with the unknown future♪

♪Because you're the only thing I think about♪

♪I only think about you♪

♪Forever shine for me♪

♪Never doubting even when I continue on♪

♪Turns out I love you so♪

No man is an island.

There's always a song that reaches your heart.

You're tuning in to tonight's Lone Island Playlist.

♪Forever shine for me♪

Unknowingly, another spring has arrived.

(Three years later)

(President's Office)

My apologies...

for having you to attend the interview at this hour.

He has a tight schedule during the day.

So he only has a free slot at this hour.

It's fine.

I understand.

Tongcheng Music Broadcast.

Alright, it's done. You may enter now.

(President's Office)

Hi.

Your surname is Sang?

My surname is Qin.

It does look similar to letter Sang.

My apologies.

Formerly, I used Braille more often.

Why do you know Braille?

My father is a blind person.

By birth or...

Acquired.

My father was a foreman.

When I was two years old, he had an accident at the workshop.

He went blind.

He's considered lucky then.

At least he has seen you and your mother's face before.

No, Mr Su.

A completely healthy adult who suddenly lost his sight...

would receive a greater blow than those who were born blind.

After that?

What happened to your father?

Later on,

they said the accident was due to his own mishandling.

After coming out of the hospital, he couldn't find a job for a long time.

He then started drinking.

When he was drunk, he would hit my mum.

After he sobered up,

only then he'd go down on his knees, begging my mum not to leave.

He'd repent every time,

but continued to do it.

And later on?

When I was almost ten years old,

my mum divorced him.

She remarried, bringing me along.

You start work next Monday.

You may go now.

Okay.

How about this, grandma?

You take a bite and I'll take one too.

Let's see who's eaten the most.

Here.

Here.

I'll take a bite too.

Look, grandma.

Xu Qian is back.

Didn't you complain that nothing tasted nice the other day?

I bought you your favourite canned yellow peaches in syrup.

Wu Yan, thank you.

You must be very busy. Yet you came all the way here.

It's fine.

The entrance exam is something pretty manageable for me.

Plus, I'm here to replace Wei Hao.

He's working overtime so he couldn't come.

How could he simply trouble others for this?

The both of us are close so there's nothing troublesome at all.

I understand.

But it's none of his business...

in the very first place.

The way things are now for you two is uncalled for.

I really don't get it.

Things turned out this way because he wanted to go home.

But from my perspective, it isn't really a big deal.

Just think for a moment.

Back then he said he wanted to marry me.

Wu Yan, let's get married.

For someone like me,

how can I possibly get married?

What should I tell his parents then?

The truth?

That I don't have a father...

and I have a mother who's following men around?

Plus I have a grandma to take care of?

You can see it yourself.

What of kind of situation this is.

A young lady like me sounds terrifying.

Doesn't it?

There you go,

saying stuff like this again.

Because that's the truth.

The truth that will follow me forever.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

I'm just a little unfamiliar with this.

If this happened back then,

you'd jumped at me and start giving me a lecture.

Back then...

Back then I was less matured.

Wu Yan.

Can I ask you a question?

Do you still...

think of him sometimes?

It's so cold.

Brain freeze.

Wu Yan.

Recently, I've been thinking of quitting and going back home.

Are you serious?

Yes.

Three years have passed.

I've worked hard.

As a human being,

there's no point in giving yourself a hard time.

If you want, then just come back.

I'm always here after all.

So is Wei Hao.

I'm already inside.

My dear Lady Cheng. Don't worry about me, okay?

Tongcheng is my hometown.

Just allow me to be a hospitable host and look after you, please?

If I were to wait for you,

I'd probably be done by the time you arrive.

So I'll talk to you later, alright?

I'm hanging up now, bye.

Mum, after moving in with Cheng Yin,

I probably won't be able to always come and visit you.

Plus for this semester,

the research project needs to be finalized and I'll have to start on my thesis paper.

But once I'm free, I'll definitely come home to visit you.

You just do you.

Why are you rambling so much?

Wu Yan, I really don't need you to look after me.

I feel free being on my own.

I don't need anyone to look after me.

Just go wherever you want to.

But I can't go back now.

This is my home.

If I don't come back here, where else can I go?

Why is this small old lady keep...

trying to kick her daughter out of her house?

My dear daughter.

You think I will want you to pay rent when you have a house to come back to?

I'm doing this to support young people like you.

Isn't this the life concept...

you wanted when you kept telling me that you wanted freedom in your life?

Okay, you're the best, the best of all.