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Mom, dad, hi. I'm very excited today.

I have a surprise for you.

Ali.

He has a good heart.

When I first heard his voice, I could tell.

I wish you could have known him.

ONLY YOU

Where have you been, Ali? What time is it?

If you don't want to watch the parking lot I can find a replacement for you.

-No need. -Alright, I'm leaving.

Take care of yourself.

You...

You too.

PARKING LOT OPEN 24 HOURS

I'm here! Show your hands.

Nuts.

Apricots.

Chocolate.

I bought this for myself, it upsets your stomach. But...

I made a cake for you. It's your favorite, raisin cake.

It came out in a bad shape, you'll have to make do.

And finally, our sodas. The apple one is mine.

So? Do you like it?

Uncle Ziya?

Uncle Ziya quit.

Who are you? What do you mean he quit?

Did something bad happen? Is he ill?

He had to return to his hometown.

Oh, gosh!

I wonder why he didn't tell me.

He probably didn't want me to be sad.

We would watch TV shows together.

If that's the case, why did you take my stuff?

You handed them to me.

Thank you.

Sorry about that.

Look...

Watch the show if you want

The rain will have stopped by then.

You're not bored, are you?

-No, it's a change of pace for me. -Thank you.

In case you get hungry at night. It tastes good.

Don't worry, it won't poison you.

Has the impatiens blossomed?

Over here. The flower.

No.

Don't you kill it. Watering once a week is enough.

And don't change its location. It's important for it to have the sun.

Bye.

You were not at your home address so the product has been returned to us.

I'm redirecting it to your business address.

Is there anything else I can help you with?

Thank you, have a good day.

Hazal?

I know I promised, but I can't make it to the concert with you.

Keep the tickets though, you can go with someone else, okay?

Sure.

-Banu, would you like to come? -I can't come.

It's my husband's birthday this weekend, we made plans in advance.

Ladies, please gossip while you're out of working hours.

Understood?

Miss Hazal? You worked overtime again yesterday.

Yes, but it's fine, Mr. Kenan.

Your hard work will be rewarded. You can be sure.

I'm just doing my job, Mr. Kenan.

Stay behind for a while, Selim.

You deliver the water.

Why should I do it?

What the hell are you doing here?

Aren't you ashamed to come here?

Ali!

Get out of my sight. Get out of here!

Where have you been, man?

Come on, come with me.

Coach? For my sake, listen to Ali.

What are you doing, coach? Maybe the guy had a valid reason.

What valid reason could there be? I kept him off the streets.

I treated him as my own son. I spent my soul, my mind on him.

I wanted him to be a good boxer. And what did he do in return?

What did he do? He was ungrateful.

He could never accept that you quit boxing.

That's why he's angry.

You leave now, I'll talk to him and take care of this. Okay?

Ali!

You're carrying water now? Your strength is wasted here.

Do you enjoy suffering?

"If you need a job, call me, your job is ready." I said.

That job is not for me anymore.

You'll come to your senses one day.

You know my number, call me.

No, I don't.

Can you open the window a little?

My nose is a bit sensitive.

I guess you worked out today.

Tell me about the clothes.

I'm wearing a t-shirt and a sweatshirt.

Not you, the woman in the show.

A dress.

What about her shoes?

-Yes? The shoes? -She has shoes.

-Of course she does, but what kind? -Women's shoes, I guess.

You mean high heels.

Hey.

Here's your food container.

So you dared to eat it! Did you like it?

Yes. I'm still alive.

It's a peach.

Did you wash it?

-Yes. -Did you wash it well?

-What? -If you wash it well

but don't eat right away, it goes off.

By the way, it's not "hey", it's Hazal.

Didn't they teach you to shake hands when you meet someone?

Why are your palms so rough?

Anyways.

I should go. Bye.

Don't wait for me. There's already someone to wait for me.

-Don't go. -What?

The man says that he wants to go.

-Is he crying now? -Yes.

He's in so much pain, I feel it.

Is he handsome?

They become actors because they are handsome.

How about you?

Come on. You can tell me the truth, I can't see anyway.

I don't know.

If you don't know, then you're not handsome

Our show is over again. I'm going to go now.

See you later.

Don't move.

I'm fine.

-My ankle. -Let me see it.

Where's my cane?

-Cemal! Fill in for me. -Okay.

I still don't know your name.

It's Ali.

Ali.

Ali, my ankle feels better. We can leave if you want.

I'm exhausted. Could we stop for a bit?

-I can carry you if you want. -You'll regret it.

Get on my back.

You are serious.

There is a green house in front of us.

The road leads left and right. Which way?

Do you want to go the long way or the short way?

-Short. -Are you sure? You might regret it.

Well, you asked for it. Then, from back there.

I told you.

-Are you too tired? -No.

Then why am I slipping off?

Do you see the children?

Attack!

-Admit it, I'm too heavy, aren't I? -No, it's the stairs.

Could I ask for one more favor?

It's clogged, right?

What blocked it?

A pieace of cloth.

Oh, well. Couldn't remove it yesterday.

Wait, let me get you a towel right away.

What is broken?

-A trinket. -The angel?

Anyways.

I have a surprise for you.

You've helped me a lot today.

So, as a token of my gratitude, Concert tickets for two.

Maybe you'll go with someone you love.

I have no one to go with. I don't know much about music.

Maybe we can go together.

I mean, if you want to.

If you don't have other plans.

How shall we do your hair today?

Let's do something different and pretty. I'll give you curls.

-It'll go great with your pretty face. -Alright.

Do you have a date today? Tell me, who is this young man?

No, Hülya, he's just a friend. A friend.

How hard it is to describe

All that is going on inside me

As if a rainbow before me In the middle of the night

I forgot the questions

Answers missing anyway

I made a wish Sweeping away the darkness

There is only one thing I hear

There is only one thing I see

And it's you

I wish for a miracle to happen

I wish time would stop now

Could we be together

If realities disappear

Do you know of Rodin's statue, "The Thinker"?

His toenails are very short. On purpose.

I studied sculpture in college, I remember it from there.

I wish I could remember everything this clearly.

Because the things you see every day

you realize that you don't remember them after a while.

Think about it. What color are the flowers

that you pass by every day after leaving the house?

How many shades of blue are there in the sky? You don't know.

In fact, you look, but you don't see.

If I could rewind time, I would just look at everything for hours.

Because now I can only see what my memory allows me to.

So? You're in the garage at night, how about during the day?

I deliver water.

That's why you are so strong. Why didn't you study?

Didn't you have the time? Or perhaps you didn't want to.

Wait, let me guess. I think you were a very naughty boy.

You even may have done some bad things.

Do you have to ask so many questions about others?

Why are you angry now?

I'm just trying to learn some stuff about you.

I can see what you ate today without needing to ask.

Right.

I can't hide some things.

Thank you for dropping me home.

I'm 30 years old.

I'm a former boxer.

You are right, I did very bad things in the past.

My anger was not because of your questions.

I just didn't have a proper answer.

I'm sorry.

Come with me.

I didn't call you here to forgive you

because what you have done is unforgiveable.

Let's say you just went along with that jerk, Koray, and left.

But how many years has it been?

What kind of a person never even calls? Doesn't apologize?

You are right, coach.

Why?

Why?

-I was in prison for four years. -What?

You were in prison?

After quitting boxing

I did some other things with Koray's acquaintances.

I was collecting money for loan sharks.

My job was to beat people up.

Yet again one night, I was going after someone in debt.

I was just going to scare him.

I lost everything.

I lost my house, my job, my children.

You know, I never had a family.

You want to take my life?

Police! Open the door!

Stop!

I'm sorry, coach.

Ali? We never had anyone like you in the ring after you left.

You were like a hurricane. Come back. Let's pick up where we left off, huh?

I made a clean break.

Miss Hazal? Could you come to my office please?

Sure, Mr. Kenan. Right away.

Welcome, Hazal. Let's have a seat.

Be careful, there is a coffee table.

Please sit down.

-I got a present for you. -A present?

I was going to give it to you last week

if we could have gone out for dinner together.

-Anyway. I want to give it to you now. -Why did you bother? I...

Please, I insist. Please accept it, would you?

Thank you.

What are you doing tonight? Are you free?

I have plans for this evening. I'd made them much earlier.

-Oh? -I can't cancel now.

I should go and get back to work, Mr. Kenan.

Thank you.

Who's there?

So, this is where you live.

Mr. Kenan?

I see your plans were cancelled.

Well, now you can make me a cup of coffee.

Hot beverages are not easy for me to prepare, so I don't have any coffee.

I'm sorry, I forgot.

You had an accident in college, didn't you?

Something happened to your eyes.

Hazal. You are so beautiful.

You are drunk, Mr. Kenan. You'd better leave.

Your wife, your children will worry about you.

You didn't even open it.

If you showed even a little interest in me

you would know I divorced my wife.

If you allow me, can I put the necklace on you?

I knew it would look great on you. You are so beautiful.

-Don't you dare to touch me. Don't! -Okay.

Hazal, I'm sorry.

Hazal, I'm sorry.

I said I was sorry! Look at me, listen to me!

Look at me!

I've had enough! Enough!

Do you think you will find someone better than me?

Listen to me. I can sleep with any woman if I want to.

I could be with much better looking women.

Who the hell do you think you are? What are you? Look at me!

Look into my eyes.

Look into my eyes!

If I ever see you around Hazal again

I'll kill you!

Enough!

Enough, stop! Please stop!

Hazal? Are you okay?

Why did you do such a thing?

What if he fires me?

You don't have to work at the same company with that guy.

I do. To make a living, to stand on my own legs.

I'll take care of you.

Are you going to find me a new job?

Or are you going to beat up everyone who treats me this way?

Who are you to take care of me?

You are making me pity myself right now.

Please leave.

When did you come?

A little while ago.

I quit my job.

Can you take me somewhere at the weekend?

Why don't you answer me?

I thought you said you'd take care of me.

Ali?

Who is this?

Are you a little puppy? Where did this come from?

From the shelter. It'll keep you company.

-When it grows up, it can guide you. -Does it have a name?

-Şimal? -Şimal.

I was thinking of stars. It means the Northern Star.

It's beautiful.

I grew up in an orphanage near here.

The only fun we had was this place.

We used to come here with the guys to fish.

Would you like to sit?

So, you have never met your family.

No.

Ali?

Could you give me two stones?

This one.

It reminds me of you.

You take this one. Maybe it will remind you of me.

Alright, it's my turn. I want to show you something.

Darling, are you bored? Come on, let's read together.

Can you feel the dots? What does it say there? Those are letters.

But you still seem to be bored.

Shall we take a walk?

Come on.

Hazal?

Maybe this is what you call love

It always hurts Always stabs in the back

Maybe this will be the last time

Maybe my heart will stop So will the suffering

My feelings aren't going anywhere

I will wait for you here

Don't deprive me of myself

This life will go sour without you

Hear me please Please come back to me

Love will eventually find a way

Don't deprive me of myself

This life will go sour without you

Hear me please Please come back to me

Love will eventually find a way

We're back home.

Come on.

Ali?

Don't move.

You've come home early.

I have a little surprise for you.

Come slowly.

Have you rounded the corners of the table?

And this is for little Simal.

My surprise for you isn't over yet.

You have removed the threshold too!

I also took off the boards of the windows.

This way, you'll feel the light better.

I can't believe it.

How can you be this way?

-Attack! -Attack!

We will always be very happy, you know?

How do you know?

I just do.

-Do you have pain? -No.

You do. Turn on your stomach. Come on!

Why?

I can feel it, your back is aching. Quickly, come on.

I took massage courses at the Association for the Visually Impaired

My tutor believed that I had healing hands.

I think I found where it is.

Does it hurt much?

How does it feel not to execute your profession?

I don't know.

I guess you get used to it after a while.

Or let's say that you accept it.

There are so many things that I want to do but can't.

But I'm very happy now.

I've got you.

What if we save money and we open a shop?

What shop?

You make bowls and pots, you are good with flowers.

I can collect money. What do you think?

Let's do it.

You are the air I breathe.

And you are the air I breathe.

Good morning. Did you sleep well?

If you're not busy after breakfast I want to take you somewhere.

Wherever you want.

You know, today is my birthday.

Happy birthday.

And 17, 18, 19. Here it is.

My mom and my dad.

Mom, dad, hi.

I'm very excited today. I have a surprise for you.

Daddy, you wanted to be the first to meet my boyfriend, when I have one.

Do you remember?

Now I can introduce him to you.

Ali.

So? What do you guys think?

What is it, mommy?

You say he's tall, but not handsome?

Not at all!

He has a good heart.

When I first heard his voice, I could tell.

I wish you could have known him.

How did they die?

Five years ago today, it was the last birthday I ever celebrated.

I insisted to go for a drive in the evening.

I was driving the car.

I feel that my mom and dad are always protecting me.

I think they sent you to me.

Hazal?

-Hazal Yıldırım? -Room number 422.

-Hazal? -Ali?

I lost my balance and fell. Don't worry, I'm fine now.

Don't worry, I'm fine.

-Where are you going? -I'll be right back.

The little bit of light she could see was helping her

but she's losing her ability to see more and more every day.

If she doesn't get surgery within a month

she is going to lose her sight completely.

We currently have a suitable donor available, but it is a bit costly.

-How much? -It's 20 thousand liras.

How much do you need for the surgery?

20 thousand liras.

That ain't hay. I have about 300 liras.

Don't they have a payment plan? We can pay in instalments.

You have nothing to feel guilty about.

No need to have a guilt trip.

It is my fault, coach.

Ali! Son!

Don't do anything crazy!

Wow, Ali!

You've finally come to your senses.

I need money.

-How much? -20 thousand liras.

-When do you need it? -It's urgent.

Ali, that's not a small amount.

Why should I lend you that much?

You know why.

I can help you earn even more in a short time.

It was amazing! Ali, let's get on another ride!

What do we have here? Is there a swing?

Let's get on the swing.

-Hazal? -Yes?

Have the surgery.

What?

There is a suitable donor for you.

You knew that. Why didn't you tell me?

I don't have that much money.

I have some in savings.

Ali, it agonizes me to think that my parents died because of me.

I don't deserve to live.

Not being able to see helps me endure the suffering.

That's why.

You'll never have another chance.

I'm very happy by your side.

I don't need anything else.

Don't you want to see me?

Our children.

Wouldn't you want to see our children?

Which ride would you like to go on?

-Zeki! -Yes, coach?

-Did Ali begin to train? -Yes, I'm very surprised too.

He says there is a fight, he'll get a lot.

What the hell are you talking about!

Don't you know what kind of fights those are?

And you allowed him?

There's no other way. How else can he earn that much money?

Are you crazy? Don't you know what kind of fights those are?

I know how those fights are! The kid will not get out alive!

What should he have done? Should he have stayed here like me?

I stayed. I always danced to your tune. And then what happened?

I only had 300 liras to give. How much did you have?

How much did we all have?

Without the money, the girl he loves will stay blind.

He will never stop feeling guilty for the death of her mom and dad!

It's not his fault! We told him that a million times!

They'll kill him!

He is not going to die, Coach Turan!

He is not going to die! Why don't you understand?

Enough is enough!

I'm so scared that something is going to happen to you.

Don't worry, I'm just working out. No one can hurt me.

And no one can hurt you as long as I'm here.

-Did you bring the money? -Hold on, what's the rush?

You don't want the money for yourself, right?

Do you have a girlfriend or something?

Alright, don't get mad.

It's for her safety.

A temporary phone. So that I can reach you when I want.

Take it.

Actually this is not that different from official competitions.

You give your consent. The responsibility is yours, you hear me?

Give me the money.

This is just the beginning. We'll make a lot more together.

No one else could have convinced me to have this surgery.

But you were right.

You know what I dream of?

I want to look at your face for 23 hours straight.

And for the remaining one hour, I will look at the sky and my flowers.

I will see how cute Simal is.

I will see how beautifully you have rearranged our home.

What if you are not as handsome as I imagined you to be?

Then what do we do?

Comparing to what you imagine, I'm ugly.

You may be disappointed.

You may not recognize me.

That's impossible.

Give me your hand.

You are having surgery tomorrow.

Get a good night's sleep.

I'm so nervous, I can't sleep.

-Come on, close your eyes. -Okay, give me your hand.

Nurse, can you give us a moment?

Ali.

Can you imagine?

I will go in, come out and be able to see you.

I'm so excited!

Don't forget, okay? You mean everything to me.

You, too.

-Don't go anywhere. -Where can I go?

I'm going now.

Nurse, I'm ready.

Ali!

Doğan Yılmaz. Not a bad name.

SOFIA - BULGARIA

You look nervous, what's wrong?

Don't be afraid of your opponent.

Don't even think about how to beat him.

Think about how to survive.

There are no rules here.

You fight till you're knocked out or dead.

If you want to survive, be on the alert.

Guess who I bet on.

Fight well. Don't humiliate yourself.

Hello?

Can I have information on the status of Hazal Yildirim?

Miss Hazal?

Miss Hazal?

I have to take off your bandages.

Is Ali here yet?

I must take off your bandages and examine you.

I told you, I will not do it before Ali arrives.

Mr. Ali will come, I'm sure.

-Now let me slowly... -No, I don't want it.

Miss Hazal, we can't wait anymore. Sit over here. Miss Hazal, please.

-Nurse, please help. -No, let go of my arm!

Sit down. Let's give you an examination. Look, the surgery went very well.

-I really need to take them off. -No, I don't want to do it.

-We can't wait any longer. -No, not before Ali arrives.

I won't do it before Ali is here! Get out of here, go. Go!

I've reached the end of love

I couldn't get to you

I couldn't catch you

I couldn't make myself understood

So cry now, my heart

Believe me, I waited for you every day

I couldn't make it without love I couldn't live without you

I couldn't make myself understood

So cry now, my heart

You wasted me more than you wasted yourself

I'm a mess every time you're gone

Even if months pass by Even if years pass by

Even if I spend an entire lifetime I can't forget about you

Miss Hazal?

Miss Hazal, that's enough. How many times have we come here already?

You need to vacate. You have three days.

Get out of this house or I'll have to take legal action.

-Hello. Are you Miss Hazal? -Yes, I am.

-There's a letter for you. -Thanks.

"Hazal, I'm leaving.

I only have enough courage to tell you the truth in a letter.

I don't know if I could tell you all this, even if I could make it back.

I have already affected your fate so much. Now I'm leaving to write it from scratch.

I know, nothing can change the fact that I caused your accident

when that burning man slipped away from my hands.

Turns out I was your darkness."

ONE YEAR LATER

Mr. Kerem?

I want to show you these as well. Some of our customers were very satisfied.

Show them if you like, let's see what they think.

There's no need. These are great, exactly what I wanted.

Great.

I want 52 pieces of each of these.

-Can you make them on time? -Of course we can.

Hazal...

Would you have dinner with me? Just you and I.

-I'd say it's not possible. -I'd ask why.

I'm married.

Your husband is a very lucky man.

He has a beautiful and talented woman like you.

Thank you.

I want that order as soon as possible.

Of course, absolutely.

-You'll call me. -Okay.

-See you later. -Good-bye.

Hazal, why do you tell everyone that you're married?

I knew you would say that.

Mr. Kerem is a charming and decent guy. And he's really into you.

-I am satisfied with my life, Emin. -Okay, I will not interfere.

Are you going to the hospital?

Aren't you overexerting yourself?

I get tired when I have nothing to do.

You know what?

We'll go to dinner tomorrow night with Gamze.

-You should come with us. -This is embarrassing.

You're newlyweds. I'm always around you!

Don't be silly. Come, okay?

There's still time, we'll talk.

-Thank you. -Alright.

-Look after Simal. -Okay. Bye.

Bye-bye. See you.

-Hi, Meral. -Good morning.

Good morning.

Unlce Muzaffer?

Look what I brought for you.

-I planted it with my own hands. -Thank you.

How are you doing today?

I'm not good. My arm, my head, my back, my neck hurts.

Okay, understood. You've missed my massages.

Hazal? The flowers you have brought,

why not give them to a close girlfriend?

What is it, Uncle Muzaffer? Weren't you in love with Nurse Emine.

-I changed my mind. -Why?

She's not interested in me.

I hear that you've been very naughty.

You're exhausting yourself. You're like a child.

Forget it. I'll be resting a lot where I'm headed.

Who is that?

He was recently sent here from Bulgaria.

I suppose he's in a lot of pain, he moans every night.

I hope you'll get well soon.

Can he hear?

I think he can but won't answer.

I'll go check on him.

You've been taking physical therapy for a long time.

You've gone through a difficult process.

But you can walk now, right?

I'm going to give you a massage. Try to relax.

Can you lie face down?

Can I help you turn around?

Slowly.

You can turn towards me now.

Your muscles have weakened because you have been bedresting.

But you will heal in no time.

I hope you'll feel better soon.

Get well soon.

I kept telling you but forgot it myself. Come on, Simal.

Come.

Alright. Here's your new place.

I'll take you back home once you have recovered, don't worry.

Emin? My turtle got sick. I'll take it to the vet later.

-Okay, don't neglect it. -I'll take Simal out for a walk.

Tell the customers to wait, I'll be right back.

-Okay, don't worry. -See you.

Hazal? We are having dinner, right?

-I'll make reservations. -Okay, alright.

Şimal!

Welcome.

The impatiens. They are beautiful when they bloom.

Would you like to have it?

Simal? Simal!

Girl, are you crazy? Are you alright, sir? I'm so sorry.

Do you need help? Simal! Have you gone crazy?

I gave you a massage at the hospital. Do you remember?

Are you okay?

Simal, come here. We are going. Come.

-She drove me crazy. -Come on, you bad dog.

Are you being moody?

-Where is the turtle, Emin? -Didn't you put it over there?

-Did a man with a limp come here? -Yes, just now.

He bought the impatiens that was over there.

Hazal?

Yes?

It's the patient who was staying in the same room with Uncle Muzaffer.

He was discharged? Are you sure?

Thank you.

You said I might not recognize you.

I told you that it was impossible.

Do you remember?

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

The only face I ever dreamed of seeing was yours, Ali.

Being without you is where my real darkness lies.

Don't ever leave me again.

I couldn't bear it.

I cannot live without you.

I've missed you so much.

Me too.

I've missed you too.