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I WANTED

I WANTED YOU

I WANTED YOU GUYS

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE HERE

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE HERE WHEN

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE HERE WHEN HE

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE HERE WHEN HE WOKE

I WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE HERE WHEN HE WOKE UP.

Y'ALL WASN'T THERE.

I'M NERVOUS-- I'M NOT GONNA LIE.

FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER,

MAKE SOME NOISE FOR TRINA BRAXTON.

- SHOULD I TELL YA? - YES.

- WELL... - WHAT?

MOMMY WANTS TO TALK TO US. - GUESS WHAT?

WHAT?

- WHAT? - THIS IS FOR REAL.

WE ARE THE BRAXTONS AND YOU'LL SEE THAT

WE ARE NOT LIKE AN ORDINARY FAMILY

TONI TRACI TOWANDA TRINA TAMAR AND MISS E

WILL TEACH YOU A THING OR TWO

ON BRAXTON FAMILY VALUES

WELL, YOU A-ALREADY HAVE MY STUFF FIXED.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! - YOU WANT-YOU SAID

YOU WANTED SOME WATER. - YEAH-- WATER, WATER.

OH, BOY-- I'M TIRED.

- WHAT ARE YOU TIRED FROM? - LONG DAY TODAY.

- YOU KIDDIN' ME? - WHAT'D YOU DO?

WELL, I MET DOC FOR LUNCH.

TIRED, MOMMY, FROM A LITTLE LUNCH?

MMM-HMM-- WHAT YOU BEEN DOING LATELY?

UH-HUH-- PUT YOUR BACK INTO IT.

- SHOULD I TELL YA? - YES.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU, GIRL.

JUST COME OUT AND SAY IT.

I HAVE BIG, HUGE NEWS TO TELL TOWANDA TODAY.

HOWEVER, IT'S GONNA CAUSE A BIG CHANGE IN OUR FAMILY.

WHAT-- YOU AND DOC GETTING SERIOUS?

- YEAH! - WELL, THAT'S GOOD.

REALLY SERIOUS, MATTER OF FACT.

HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM. - WHAT?

MY HEART NEARLY STOPPED.

AFTER TEN YEARS, YOU GONNA GET MARRIED TO DOC?

I'M NOT SURE IF MOMMY'S READY TO GET MARRIED,

TO DOC, OR ANYBODY ELSE.

WELL, WHAT DID YOU SAY?

I SAID, UH, "WELL, OKAY."

- YOU SAID, "WELL, OKAY?" - IT SOUND GOOD TO ME.

WAIT A MINUTE-- "IT SOUNDS GOOD TO ME?"

YOU DIDN'T SAY "YES"-- DID YOU ANSWER THE MAN?

WELL, THAT'S THE SAME THING.

HE GOT THE POINT-- HE WAS HAPPY.

MOMMY, WHO SAYS "THAT SOUNDS ALL RIGHT WITH ME?"

WHO SAYS THAT? - I SAY THAT.

HE-HE WOULD TAKE A "YES," ANY KIND OF WAY HE COULD.

SO, HE'S THE ONE-- DOC'S THE ONE?

HE IS THE GUY.

SO, DON'T SET ME UP WITH ANYBODY ELSE.

- HOW YOU DOIN'? - FINE-- HOW ARE YOU?

OH, THE FINGER SNAP, HUH?

HOW OLD ARE YOU? - I'M 27.

ALL RIGHTY, THEN!

I REALLY LIKE THAT HAIR.

YOU ARE JUST TOO MUCH.

I MEAN, REALLY.

SO, DO YOU WANT A BIG WEDDING?

- YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO? - HMM?

I'M GONNA LEAVE THAT UP TO YOU GUYS.

NO, BUT YOU ALSO HAVE TO, UM,

FIGURE OUT HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU WANT THERE,

'CAUSE THESE ARE YOUR FRIENDS, BOO-BOO.

WE DON'T KNOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS, HONEY BUN.

I DON'T ALL OF MY FRIENDS, FAR AS THAT CONCERNED!

THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYIN'.

SO, HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW, IF YOU DON'T KNOW?

- I'LL GIVE YOU A LIST. - EVERYBODY NEED A LIST.

OKAY, YOU WANT A LONG DRESS, SHORT DRESS,

ROUND DRESS, STRAIGHT DRESS?

HE JUST ASKED ME, FOR GOD SAKES!

I HAVEN'T THOUGHT ABOUT ALL OF THAT.

I MEAN, 'CAUSE, AS A BRIDE,

THOSE ARE THINGS THAT WE THINK ABOUT.

I'M AT THE AGE NOW, I MEAN, OKAY.

"I DO-- LET'S GO."

IT'S OVER.

I CAN ALREADY SEE WHO'S GONNA BE PLANNING MOMMY'S WEDDING.

ME AND MY SISTERS-- THAT'S WHO.

WHEN YOU GONNA TELL EVERYBODY ELSE?

AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, BUT DON'T YOU TELL IT.

YOU KNOW I'M NOT GONNA TELL NOTHIN'.

- I'LL DO IT. - I'M NOT GONNA SAY NOTHIN'.

I'M GONNA GET EVERYBODY TOGETHER...

AND I WILL PRETEND THAT YOU DIDN'T TELL ME A THING.

- YEAH, BECAUSE-- - YOU KNOW THEY WILL HAVE A FIT.

PLEASE, DON'T.

AND THE ONLY REASON WHY I'M TELLING YOU FIRST

IS BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME.

TRUST ME-- I'M OKAY. - I KNOW, MOTHER.

TRUST ME.

YOU KNOW, THANKFULLY, WE ARE ALL HEADING UP TO NEW YORK,

TO CHECK ON TAMAR AND VINCE TOMORROW.

SO, I ONLY HAVE TO KEEP THIS LITTLE SECRET

JUST FOR A FEW MORE DAYS.

AND I'M PRETTY GOOD AT KEEPING SECRETS,

BUT THIS ONE IS HUGE!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO TELL EVERYBODY.

AND, NOW, THE DOCTOR IS JOINING THE FAMILY.

THE FAMILY-- HE'S GOOD PEOPLE.

- IS HE READY? - HE KNOW WHAT HE'S IN FOR.

A CRAZY BATCH OF PEOPLE.

HE KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HE'S IN FOR.

TRUST ME. - WHOO!

- I CAN'T-I CAN'T DO THE COLD. - HERE IT IS, GUYS.

SO, IT'S BEEN FOUR WEEKS

SINCE VINCE HAD HIS PULMONARY EMBOLISM,

AND THANK GOD HE'S WOKEN UP FROM HIS COMA.

AND, HE'S OUT OF THE HOSPITAL,

BUT HE STILL HAVE, LIKE, A LONG, LONG WAY TO GO.

HE'S HAVING A LOT OF TROUBLE WALKING,

AND THE DOCTORS ARE REALLY WORRIED

ABOUT HIS FUTURE COMPLICATIONS.

SO, WE KINDA HAVE TO STAY IN NEW YORK, FOR THE TIME BEING.

YOU KNOW, I WOULD INDULGE IF YOU GUYS--

LIKE, SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME.

LIKE, WITH ALL THE STRESS THAT I'M UNDER,

I TRIED TO GO RELAX AND HAVE A DRINK,

AND IT DID THE OPPOSITE EFFECT, AND MADE MY ANXIETY WORSE.

THAT IS THE MOST FRIGHTENED I'VE EVER BEEN, IN MY LIFE.

IT WAS A WAKE UP CALL FOR ME, 'CAUSE LIFE IS REAL SHORT,

AND YOU NEVER KNOW.

WE WAS GETTING READY TO GO OUT TO DINNER,

ON DATE NIGHT, AND WE NEVER MADE IT.

I'M SO HAPPY MY FAMILY HAS FLOWN

ALL THE WAY BACK TO NEW YORK TO CHECK UP ON VINCE,

AND ME.

THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS, THEY WERE BARELY THERE

WHILE HE WAS STILL IN THE HOSPITAL.

IN FACT, NOBODY WAS THERE WHEN HE WOKE UP FROM HIS COMA.

I HAD TO DEAL WITH ALL THIS STRESS COMPLETELY BY MYSELF,

FOR OVER A MONTH.

VINCE HAS BEEN A BROTHER TO, LIKE, EVERYBODY.

I BELIEVE HE FEELS A LITTLE HURT THAT,

WHEN HE WOKE UP, HE DIDN'T SEE HIS SISTERS.

HE'S THE ONLY BROTHER-IN-LAW THAT, AT ONE POINT,

EVERYBODY GOT ALONG WITH.

SO, YOU KNOW, I JUST THOUGHT MAYBE THAT MEANT

JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE, BUT THAT'S OKAY.

NOW, I'M IN A POSITION OF, WHAT DO I SAY, BECAUSE--

YOU SAY THAT THEY WERE THERE FOR YOU.

AS SOON AS THEY FOUND OUT, THEY DROPPED EVERYTHING

AND FLEW TO NEW YORK, TO SEE ABOUT US.

TAMAR IS BEING BEYOND HER USUAL LEVEL OF RIDICULOUSNESS.

SHE'S UPSET BECAUSE WE WEREN'T THERE WHEN VINCE WOKE UP?

WE STILL ALL HAVE OUR OWN LIVES TO LEAD.

YOU ACT LIKE NO ONE CAME AT ALL.

WE CAN'T ALWAYS BE THERE, EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY SECOND,

FOR EACH OTHER-- WE CAN'T.

IT DOESN'T TAKE AWAY FROM HOW WE ALL FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER.

BUT, SOMETIMES, WHAT WE WANT AND WHAT WE NEED FROM SOMEONE,

THEY CAN'T GIVE AT THAT TIME.

VINCE WILL HAVE TO UNDERSTAND,

BECAUSE YOUR SISTERS STILL HAVE A FAMILY AND CHILDREN.

THEY CANNOT,

AND I'M JUST BEING HONEST-- - MOM, BUT YOU STILL DON'T--

YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO WHAT I'M SAYING.

MA, I DON'T WANNA GET IN AN ARGUMENT.

I DON'T-THAT'S WHY I SAID-- - YOU THINK THIS IS AN ARGUMENT?

NO, I SAID, "I DON'T WANT TO GET IN AN ARGUMENT."

THAT'S WHY I JUST-- - OH, OKAY.

AND I'M SAYING IT AS RESPECTFUL AS I CAN.

YOU KNOW, I-I THINK TAMAR NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND,

WHILE WE LOVE VIN,

THAT VIN IS NOT THE CENTER OF THE GIRLS' WORLD,

LIKE HE IS WITH HER.

WELL, THAT'S ONE GREAT THING ABOUT OUR FAMILY IS,

I DON'T CARE HOW UPSET WE MAY GET WITH ONE ANOTHER,

WHEN IT COMES TO A CRISIS, WE WILL COME IMMEDIATELY.

WE ALL FLEW UP HERE TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU WERE OKAY.

OF COURSE, WE WANTED TO MAKE SURE VINCENT WAS OKAY, TOO.

BUT YOU'RE OUR SISTER AND WE LOVE YOU.

WE WANNA-WE WANTED TO SUPPORT YOU.

YEAH, BUT I'M NOT SAYIN' "COULDA-SHOULDA-WOULDA'S,"

BUT I WISH YOU GUYS WERE THERE WITH ME WHEN HE WOKE UP.

HE'S GONNA LOOK AT ME, LIKE, YOU KNOW,

"THEY WASN'T EVEN THERE WHEN I WOKE UP,

AND THEY CAME A WEEK LATER," AND DA-DA-DA-DA-DA,

AND THAT'S HURTFUL!

SOMETHING IS REALLY, REALLY WRONG WITH TAMAR.

I MEAN, SHE'S REALLY OVER THE TOP,

EVEN FOR TAMAR, AND I THINK THAT,

IF EVERYONE LEAVES AT ONE TIME, TO GO HOME,

AND BY LEAVING HER BY HERSELF, IN NEW YORK,

I'M A LITTLE BIT WORRIED ABOUT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO HER.

SO, I'M GONNA STICK AROUND JUST A FEW MORE DAYS,

TO KEEP AN EYE ON TAMAR.

- ALL RIGHT, SWEETIE. - SEE YA.

- YOU OKAY? - I'M GREAT.

SO, EVERYBODY ELSE IS GOING SHOPPING WITHOUT ME,

BECAUSE I GOTTA TAKE VINCE TO THIS DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT,

ALONE.

THANKS EVERYBODY FOR Y'ALL SUPPORT.

I MEAN, LIKE, WHY DID I JUST WASTE MY BREATH

TELLIN' 'EM FOR AN HOUR HOW I FELT?

LIKE, I JUST POURED MY HEART OUT

AND THEY JUST WENT TO THE MALL.

- COME IN. - WHAT'S GOING ON?

GETTING READY FOR MY TRIP.

I COULD ONLY STAY IN NEW YORK FOR A DAY OR SO,

BECAUSE I HAD TO GET BACK TO ATLANTA

AND PACK FOR MY TRIP TO NEW ORLEANS WITH THE BAND.

UNFORTUNATELY, MY SHOWCASE GOT RESCHEDULED,

BUT WE ARE STILL GOING TO BE PERFORMING MY SOLO MATERIAL

FOR THE FIRST TIME, EVER!

- YOU EXCITED? - I THINK I'M MORE NERVOUS,

THAN ANYTHING.

I'VE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE, JUST ME, BY MYSELF.

NOT WITH MY SISTERS, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

WITH THE BAND, I'VE DONE COVER SONGS.

- OH, OKAY. - I HAVEN'T DONE

ANY OF MY ORIGINAL STUFF IN FRONT OF PEOPLE BEFORE.

- SO, WHERE Y'ALL STAYIN' AT? - WHY?

'CAUSE YOU NEED THE HOTEL NUMBER,

SO YOU CAN CALL ME LIKE YOU USED TO?

YOU USED TO WANT ME TO CALL YOU.

BUT I HAVE A CELL PHONE.

I KNOW I'VE MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES,

AND THERE'S A LOT OF MAKING UP TO DO,

BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE I SHOULD STILL BE ABLE

TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT HER.

I DON'T KNOW.

I WISH YOU WOULD KEEP ME MORE INFORMED

AND GIVE ME MORE DETAILS ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON.

YOU USED TO ALWAYS DO THAT.

YOU WOULD ACTUALLY FORWARD THE ITINERARY TO ME,

AFTER YOU GOT THE ITINERARY.

THIS WAS BEFORE-- - YOU CHEATED,

AND I FOUND OUT ABOUT IT. - BEFORE I CHEATED,

OKAY, YOU USED TO DO THAT.

BUT YOU CAN'T TELL ME HOW I USED TO DO THINGS

BEFORE YOU WERE UNFAITHFUL, GABE.

OKAY.

YOU'VE CHANGED THE DYNAMIC OF OUR RELATIONSHIP.

THAT'S NOT FAIR.

I REALLY HOPE GABE'S CHEATERIZATION

DOES NOT THROW ME OFF MY GAME FOR THIS PERFORMANCE.

I ALREADY TOLD MY MOM ABOUT IT,

AND I'M NOT TELLING MY SISTERS

UNTIL I FIGURE OUT WHAT COMES NEXT,

BECAUSE I HAVE A WHOLE LOT TO FIGURE OUT ABOUT MY FUTURE,

RIGHT NOW.

BUT, THIS WEEKEND IS NOT THE TIME TO DWELL ON IT.

Y'ALL TAKIN' A TOUR BUS?

YEAH, WE'RE TAKING THE TOUR BUS.

SO, Y'ALL GONNA SLEEP IN THE BUS?

YEAH, WE'LL SLEEP ON THE BUS.

YOU KNOW, I'M REALLY NOT COMFORTABLE WITH TRINA

SLEEPING ON THE BUS,

WITH THE SAME MAN THAT SHE HAD AN AFFAIR WITH.

TRINA FEELS LIKE THE MARRIAGE IS OVER, BUT, TO ME,

I STILL FEEL LIKE THERE'S A LOT OF STUFF LEFT TO DO,

AND I STILL WANNA FIGHT FOR MY MARRIAGE.

I-I DON'T KNOW.

TO ME, I GUESS, IF I WAS A WOMAN,

IF I WAS SLEEPING IN A BUNK, I WOULD BE THINKING,

"DAMN, YOU KNOW WHAT?

"IF I DRINK TOO MUCH ON THIS BUS,

"ONE OF THESE MEN MIGHT TRY TO SLIP A FINGER."

- SLIP A FINGER? - YES.

IT'S NOT LIKE THAT.

THERE AREN'T HOLES IN THE BOTTOM,

WHERE THEY CAN JUST POKE AROUND.

THAT'S ASININE. - I'M NOT DUMB.

YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY NOT SMART, EITHER,

'CAUSE YOU'RE NOT THERE.

I'M SURE HE IS FREAKED OUT ABOUT ME BEING ON A BUS

WITH CHRISTIAN, FOR EIGHT HOURS.

BUT, WHO CARES?

GABE WAS UNFAITHFUL FIRST, AND UNFAITHFUL AGAIN.

SO, YOU KNOW WHAT?

I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT HE THINKS RIGHT NOW.

OH, MY GOSH-- YOU'RE RATHER INQUISITIVE.

DO YOU THINK I HAVE ANY REASON TO BE INQUISITIVE?

DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE REASON TO BE INQUISITIVE?

NO COMMENT.

MY NERVES ARE ALL THE WAY INSIDE OF MY THROAT.

I'M GETTING STINKY.

'CAUSE I'M NERVOUS.

I'M ABOUT TO PASS OUT, RIGHT NOW.

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TAMAR HAS BEEN ACTING AND TALKING LIKE A CRAZY PERSON,

BECAUSE HER HUSBAND ALMOST DIED.

YOU KNOW, AND SHE'S BEEN JUST STUCK IN NEW YORK BY HERSELF.

SHE'S A LITTLE STRESSED OUT.

SO, I FIGURED THAT SHE AND I SHOULD JUST GO OUT TO LUNCH,

SO THAT I CAN GET HER MIND OFF OF WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON

WITH VINCE.

SO, NOW THAT VINCENT IS OUT OF THE HOSPITAL,

ARE YOU MORE STRESSED?

- YES. - WHY?

- DOESN'T THAT SEEM BACKWARDS? - YES!

OKAY, BUT-- 'CAUSE I THINK, NOW,

THE RESPONSIBILITY OF LIFE IS, WHERE YOU GONNA LIVE?

WHERE YOU GONNA GO?

ARE WE GONNA STAY HERE-- NOW? - WHAT DID THE DOCTOR SAY?

WELL, WE HAVE A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT LATER ON.

ONE OF THE BIGGEST THINGS THAT'S STRESSING ME OUT RIGHT NOW

IS THAT, WE CAN'T FLY BACK HOME TO L.A.,

BECAUSE OF VIN'S HEALTH.

AND NOW THAT HE'S OUT OF THE HOSPITAL,

WE'RE IN THIS APARTMENT UNTIL HE'S ABLE TO FLY BACK HOME,

WHICH COULD BE WEEKS, OR EVEN ANOTHER MONTH,

STUCK HERE IN MISERABLE ASS NEW YORK CITY.

LET'S TALK ABOUT YOUR APARTMENT.

- WHICH ONE? - YOU HAVE TWO?

- YEAH. - WHY?

OVER THE LAST COUPLE MONTHS,

I HAVE ACCUMULATED SO MUCH STUFF THAT,

IN THE HOTEL, THE STUFF DOES NOT FIT...

WITH US IN IT, TOO. - WOW, TAMAR!

I WAS REALLY STRESSED OUT,

SO VINCE TOLD ME TO GO ON ABOUT MY BUSINESS AND GO SHOP,

TO RELIEVE SOME OF MY STRESS.

BUT NOW, I HAVE ALL THIS STUFF,

AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT.

EVEN BOUGHT FURNITURE.

I BOUGHT THREE FLAT SCREENS, I MEAN--

MY HEART GENUINELY GOES OUT TO TAMAR,

SINCE HER HUSBAND, VINCE, HAS BEEN SICK.

BUT WHEN SHE STARTS COMPLAINING

ABOUT HER FLAT SCREEN TELEVISIONS,

YOU KNOW, I'M KINDA LIKE, "TAMAR, FOR REAL?

"LIKE, REALLY?"

NUMBER ONE-- TAKE-TAKE BACK ALL THAT STUFF

THAT YOU DON'T NEED. - WILL YOU HELP ME?

- SURE, TAMAR. - FOR REAL?

- FOR REAL-- I'LL HELP YOU. - WILL YOU DO IT FOR ME?

NO, I DIDN'T SAY I'D DO IT FOR YOU.

I WILL HELP YOU. - WELL, 'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,

I HAVE TO GO TAKE VINCE TO THE DOCTORS.

- YOU NEED AN ASSISTANT. - I-I CAN'T GET AN ASSISTANT,

BECAUSE I'M SO HANDS-ON WITH EVERYTHING,

AND I NEED SOMEBODY TO READ MY MIND.

DO YOU KNOW ANY MIND READERS? - I DO.

- YOU DO? - YEAH, MISS CLEO.

I HAVEN'T SEEN TAMAR LAUGH OR HAVE FUN IN A WHILE.

SO, I FEEL THAT, IF I'M HELPING HER,

BY BEING HER PERSONAL ASSISTANT,

THAT I DON'T WANNA BE ANYMORE,

THAT, YOU KNOW, IT KINDA--

IT ALLEVIATES A LOT OF THE STRESS FOR HER.

SO, OKAY, I WILL HELP YOU, TAMAR,

GET RID OF ALL THESE TV's-- I'LL TAKE 'EM.

TOWANDA, WHAT'S GOING ON ON THE HOMEFRONT?

- WITH WHO? - TOWANDA AND ANDRE

IS GETTING IT ON

SO WHY DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE TO KEEP PUTTING IT ON

'CAUSE YOU LOVE HIM-- SING "YOU LOVE HIM."

YOU LOVE HIM AND YOU NEED HIM

AND YOU-- EW.

EVER SINCE TAMAR HAS SEEN ANDRE'S CLOTHES IN MY CLOSET,

SHE HAS, LITERALLY, BEEN OBSESSED WITH SAYING,

"OKAY, SOMETHING'S GOING ON WITH YOU AND ANDRE."

YOU GUYS HAVE A "HIS AND HER" CLOSET?"

NO, IT'S A "HER" CLOSET.

- IT'S HIS AND HERS! - IT'S A "HER" CLOSET!

ANDRE'S CLOTHES ARE IN THE CLOSET

BECAUSE HE'S HERE TAKING CARE OF MY KIDS.

AND, YOU KNOW, I-I CAN'T THINK OF A BETTER PERSON

TO TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS, BUT THEIR OWN FATHER.

WELL, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST, LIKE,

GO ON A DATE WITH SOMEBODY?

I-I DO GOT SOMEBODY IN MIND, TO BE HONEST.

WHO-WHAT'S HIS NAME?

GIVE ME AN INITIAL. - NOT GONNA TELL YOU,

'CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HIM. - I DON'T LIKE 'EM REAL THICK.

YEAH, BUT YOU DON'T KNOW NOTHIN' ABOUT THAT--

I DON'T WANT NO HUMPS IN THE BUMP.

CAN YOU IMAGINE ME UNDERNEATH A HUMPS AND A BUMP?

I'M JUST SAYIN', I CAN'T.

I LIKE A MAN WHO'S A LITTLE MORE ATHLETIC.

YOU KNOW, A LITTLE MORE MUSCULAR.

LITTLE WASHBOARD ABS.

I LIKE THE LITTLE CLINK-CLINK-A-CLINK THING

GOING ON.

MY QUESTION IS TO YOU, WHAT KIND OF BOYS YOU LIKE?

CUTE AND SMART-- THEY HAVE TO BE SMART.

- WITH A JOB. - AND SMART.

WITH A JOB-- WHAT ABOUT A LITTLE WHITE BOY?

I CAN DO WHITE-- I CAN'T DO THE TRINA THING.

WE DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TRINA'S DOING, THOUGH.

- YEAH, WE DO. - WELL, WHAT'S SHE DOIN'?

WHY YOU GOT ALL THE INFORMATION?

TAMAR, I DON'T TELL NOBO--

I DON'T TELL EVERYBODY'S BUSINESS.

WELL, LET ME GET YOU SOME MORE DRINKS,

SO YOU CAN TELL ME EVERYTHING I NEED TO KNOW.

I'M NOT GONNA DO-- I DON'T CARE HOW MANY DRINKS I HAVE.

I'M NOT TELLIN' NOTHIN'-- I DON'T DO THAT.

I'M NERVOUS-- I'M NOT GONNA LIE.

WHY YOU NERVOUS?

'CAUSE IT'S MY FIRST TIME EVER DOING THESE.

YOU'RE USED TO IT, BY NOW.

IT'S JUST ME AND THE BAND,

AN EIGHT HOUR RIDE TO NEW ORLEANS,

AND THEN, 48 HOURS OF PARTYING AND PERFORMING

IN THE BIG EASY, BABY.

I CAN'T DO NOTHIN'.

I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING, I CAN'T DRINK ANYTHING.

NOTHIN'.

IT'S A NERVOUS EXCITEMENT. - GETS YOUR BODY GOING.

- YEAH. - ADRENALINE IN YOUR BODY.

GONNA FEEL LIKE YOU'RE DOING A BUNGEE JUMP.

YES.

I PROMISE, I'M DOING CARTWHEELS INSIDE MY BODY.

- AND IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY. - I KNOW.

I'M 25 TODAY... AGAIN.

IT'S ALSO MY BIRTHDAY.

SO, AFTER THE SHOW,

WE ARE GOING TO GO ON BOURBON STREET

AND DRINK OURSELVES SILLY.

ALL RIGHT, GUYS, WE JUST OFFICIALLY ENTERED LOUISIANA.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

OH, 'CAUSE NEW ORLEANS IS IN LOUISIANA!

YOU KNOW I'M DIRECTIONALLY CHALLENGED.

SHE JUST GOT TOO MUCH JUNK IN HERE!

I WALKED INTO TAMAR'S TEMPORARY APARTMENT,

AND I PROMISE, IT LOOKS LIKE AN EPISODE FROM "HOARDERS."

IT'S A MESS.

HELLO? - WHAT SHE WANNA KNOW?

SHE NEEDS A SIGNATURE.

YOU AIN'T GETTING NO SIGNATURE-- GOODBYE.

THE LADY FROM THE APARTMENT COMPLEX CALLED TAMAR,

JUST TO ASK ONE SIMPLE QUESTION,

AND TAMAR IMMEDIATELY HANGS UP ON HER.

I'M LIKE, "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?"

WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS, THE PLACE HAD EXPIRED.

YOU KNOW I HAD TO HANG UP ON THAT HEIFER AT THE HOTEL,

BECAUSE THEY WAS TRYING TO CHARGE ME TWICE

FOR THE APARTMENT I WAS STAYING IN,

AND THEY WANTED MY SIGNATURE ON SOME CONTRACT,

THAT I ALREADY SIGNED,

AND I TRIED TO EXPLAIN IT TO TOWANDA,

AND SHE JUST DID NOT, YOU KNOW, UNDERSTAND.

SO, THE LITTLE SMART ASS CHICK, WHO JUST GOT CAUGHT IN A LIE,

AT THE FRONT DESK, TALKIN' 'BOUT,

"WELL, NO, YOU CAN'T DO THAT.

"THIS IS NOT EASIER!

"YOU CAN'T USE YOUR HUSBAND'S...

"SITUATION!"

TAMAR HAS OFFICIALLY LOST HER MIND.

SHE IS JUST RAMBLING LIKE A CRAZY PERSON.

YOU KNOW, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON,

BUT TAMAR'S GOIN' CRAZY.

MY HUSBAND HAS A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT IN 20 MINUTES,

AND I'M OVER HERE ARGUING WITH GUADALUPE

ABOUT A CREDIT CARD,

THAT SHE AIN'T GOT NO VALUE TO!

I'M LIKE, HUH, WHAT, WHO?

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TAMAR'S TALKING ABOUT.

I'M JUST TRYING TO BE A GOOD WIFE,

AND I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY LIFE

RIGHT NOW.

I JUST WENT TO T.J. MAXX AND ALL THESE STORES

TO BUY, LIKE, HOMEGOODS .

AND, YOU KNOW, AND-AND WE DON'T HAVE A HOME.

LIKE, FOR REAL, MY HUSBAND ALMOST DIED.

I'VE BEEN LIVING OUT OF A PLASTIC BAG FOR OVER A MONTH,

AND NOW I SPEND MY DAYS RUNNING BACK AND FORTH

TO DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENTS, ALL OVER NEW YORK CITY.

AND, OKAY, YES-- OKAY, FINE.

I WILL SAY IT-- I AM ACTING A BIT INSANE.

HOWEVER, I HAVE EVERY RIGHT,

CONSIDERING WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH.

CAN YOU LOOK FOR MY NECKLACE

WHILE I TAKE VINCE TO THE DOCTORS?

- SURE. - I HAVE A BLACK CHANEL BAG

IN HERE SOMEWHERE, AND-- - IT'S A BACK-BLACK--

IT'S IN THE BLACK CHANEL BAG? - I-I DON'T KNOW.

I JUST GOT DONE BEING TONI BRAXTON'S ASSISTANT,

AND I AM NOT ABOUT TO BE TAMAR BRAXTON'S ASSISTANT.

HELL, NO.

BUT I AM GONNA GO AHEAD AND HELP HER WITH A FEW THINGS.

AND THEN, I'M GONNA TAKE ME A TRIP

TO A GALAXY FAR, FAR AWAY FROM THIS MESS.

NOPE.

OH, SHE WOULD HAVE A FIT IF SOMEBODY HIT HER.

DID YOU SEE WHAT YOU DID WITH YOUR BIRKIN BAG?

HAVE YOU SEE WHAT I'VE DONE TO MY LIFE?

LOOK AROUND YOU. - YEAH, I MEAN, YOU GOT A LOT--

I TRANSFORMED IT INTO 1,000 SQUARE FOOT.

...A LOT OF STUFF.

YOU KNOW WHAT, I MUST BE LOSING MY MIND,

BECAUSE I JUST LEFT MY KLEPTOMANIAC SISTER,

TOWANDA BRAXTON, IN MY APARTMENT,

WITH ALL SORTS OF STUFF SHE CAN BORROW FROM ME.

AFTER A LONG EIGHT HOUR RIDE TO NEW ORLEANS,

THE BAND AND I DECIDED THAT WE WERE GONNA REST FOR THE DAY,

TO GET READY FOR THE GIG TONIGHT.

NOW, IT'S NOT THE SHOWCASE THAT I WAS HOPING FOR,

BUT A WEDDING RECEPTION WILL DO JUST FINE, FOR NOW.

IT MIGHT SEEM SILLY, BECAUSE IT'S JUST A WEDDING,

BUT THIS IS MY VERY, VERY FIRST TIME

EVER DOING MY SOLO MATERIAL IN PUBLIC.

SO, WHETHER IT'S 300 PEOPLE, OR 300,00 PEOPLE,

IT'S JUST GOTTA BE PERFECT, PERIOD.

I'M SO NERVOUS, MY KNEES ARE LITERALLY SHAKING.

HEY, WE GOT YA-- THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW.

I KNOW Y'ALL HAVE ME, BUT I'M TRYING TO HAVE ME, TOO,

'CAUSE--

ALL RIGHT, BUST IT, JAMAL.

ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT.

DEAR GOD, WE THANK YOU FOR THIS DAY.

WE THANK YOU FOR BRINGING US ALL HERE SAFE AND SOUND.

GOD, THIS IS A DAY THAT YOU HAVE MADE.

MY BAND IS SO AMAZING.

NOT ONLY ARE THEY TALENTED,

BUT THEY'RE LIKE A SECOND FAMILY TO ME.

I'M NOT WORRIED AT ALL ABOUT THEM MESSING UP.

THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN SCREW THIS UP TONIGHT, IS ME,

AND THAT IS A WHOLE LOT OF PRESSURE.

DON'T BE NERVOUS, GIRL.

YOU-YOU'RE A SUPERSTAR... NATURALLY.

- I'M GETTING STINKY. - WHY?

'CAUSE I'M NERVOUS.

YES, I DO.

IT'S LIKE SUPERSTAR.

MY NERVES ARE ALL THE WAY INSIDE OF MY THROAT.

IT'S JUST A REGULAR SHOW.

I KNOW-- IT'S NOT THE SAME, THOUGH!

- IT IS-- IT IS. - IT IS.

WHERE THE OTHER COLOR?

NO, I WANT SOME MORE.

I THINK I GOTTA PEE.

I AM AN ABSOLUTE WRECK.

I FEEL LIKE I'M ABOUT TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.

I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR TONI RIGHT NOW,

AS A LEAD ACT.

I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA PAST THIS.

THIS-IT'S JUST NOT HAPPENING-- IT'S NOT HAPPENING.

I'M ABOUT TO PASS OUT, RIGHT HERE.

COMING UP, ON "BRAXTON FAMILY VALUES"...

MAKE SOME NOISE FOR TRINA BRAXTON.

THIS IS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, IN THE WORLD,

SHE'S PERFORMING HER OWN MATERIAL.

HOW

HOW YA'LL

HOW YA'LL FEELIN'

HOW YA'LL FEELIN' OUT

HOW YA'LL FEELIN' OUT THERE?

I CAN'T HEAR YOU-- HOW YOU FEELIN' OUT THERE?

WHOO!

YA'LL READY FOR SOME MORE MUSIC?

I AM PREMIERING MY SOLO WORK

FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME TONIGHT AND I AM SO NERVOUS.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO GET ON THE STAGE

MUCH LESS, SING WELL.

SO CHECK THIS OUT, WE GOT SOMETHING EXTRA,

EXTRA, EXTRA, EXTRA SPECIAL FOR YA'LL TONIGHT.

MAKE SOME NOISE FOR TRINA BRAXTON!

WHOO!

- AND-AND IT'S HER BIRTHDAY. - HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TRINA!

SPECIAL DAY, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

SO, TONIGHT, WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO...

THIS IS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER IN THE WORLD,

SHE'S PERFORMING HER OWN MATERIAL...

WHOO!

...AND WE'RE INTRODUCING IT RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW, TONIGHT!

LET ME KNOW HOW YOU LIKE IT.

BE HONEST!

SO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, WITHOUT FURTHER ADO,

MAKE SOME NOISE FOR MISS TRINA BRAXTON.

I WAS UP THERE ON THE STAGE,

AND THE BAND WAS HOT,

THE PEOPLE WERE DANCIN' LIKE CRAZY,

BUT 275 UNCOORDINATED WHITE PEOPLE IN THE CROWD,

I THINK IT JUST REALLY JUST THREW ME OFF.

I FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE DONE A BETTER JOB.

TRINA BRAXTON, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

THANK YOU, EVERYBODY.

I APPRECIATE IT.

WELL... THAT SUCKED.

SO WE GONNA KEEP THE PARTY GOING.

YA'LL READY FOR SOME MORE MUSIC?

YEAH!

I CAN'T HEAR YOU-- YOU READY FOR SOME MORE MUSIC?

THE REST OF THE SHOW WAS USUAL WEDDING BAND STUFF.

YOU KNOW, DO A FEW HOURS OF COVER SONGS...

BUT THE WHOLE TIME I'M STANDING THERE,

I WAS THINKING, "WOW, I SHOULD HAVE REALLY DONE

"A BETTER JOB FOR MY SOLO DEBUT."

I MEAN, THERE WERE PROBLEMS

THAT ONLY I REALIZED WERE THERE

BUT KNOWING THAT I MESSED UP,

IT JUST REALLY GETS MY GEARS,

'CAUSE I KNOW IT COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER.

YEAH, TRINA!

DON'T LEAVE ME HANGIN'.

UGH-UGH-UGH!

I'M BUYING YOUR CD!

I'M BUYING YOUR CD.

WHEN'S IT COMING OUT?

I THINK I NEED A DRINK.

GO AHEAD, GET YOU ONE.

THANK YOU, DARLING-- SALUD!

THE BAND WAS HAPPY, THE AUDIENCE LOVED IT,

BUT IT NEEDED TO BE AT 100%

AND TONIGHT, IT WAS ONLY AT LIKE 83%,

AND I KNOW THAT I NEED TO UP MY GAME

IF I'M GONNA BE A SUPERSTAR IN THE MAKING.

THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT, BABY.

THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.

I AM STILL NERVOUS.

I NEVER GET THIS MUCH SUPPORT FROM MY FAMILY.

MY SISTERS ARE ALL BUSY WITH THEIR OWN FAMILIES

AND THEIR OWN CAREERS, GABE AND I ARE SPLITTING UP,

SO I REALLY FEEL LIKE THE BAND IS THE ONLY SAFETY NET

THAT I HAVE IN MY LIFE, RIGHT NOW.

I THANK GOD FOR YOU GUYS.

- WHATEVER YOU NEED. - EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.

THAT WAS YOUR NUMBER ONE.

I KNOW, I WAS SO NERVOUS!

THAT I HAD A HERPES ON MY LIP AND EVERYTHING.

GETTING SO WORKED UP ABOUT PERFORMING AT A WEDDING

AND THINGS NOT GOING AS WELL AS I ANTICIPATED,

I DON'T THINK I'M GOING TO TELL MY SISTERS

ABOUT THIS PERFORMANCE-- ESPECIALLY NOT TAMAR.

I'M NOT TRYIN' TO BE NO BACKGROUND DO-WOP-BOP-BOP,

BACKGROUND SINGER!

I WANT MY OWN STUFF!

I'M A SOLO ARTIST.

I DIDN'T MAKE IT NO SECRET

THAT I WAS TRYIN' TO HAVE MY OWN PROJECT.

I AM NOT CAPTAIN SAVE A BACKGROUND SINGER, HO!

DOT LIFE!

THAT WAS GREAT!

THAT WAS GOOD.

I DIDN'T PULL IT ALL THE WAY UP.

THE SHOW DID NOT GO AS WELL AS I HAD HOPED IT WOULD.

BUT I AM NOT GONNA LET THIS RUIN MY BIRTHDAY.

ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M GONNA GET A DRINK IN MY CUP,

TAKIN' ME TO MY ZONE.

WHAT?

I'M GONNA HAVE A BLAST TONIGHT

AND I'M NOT GONNA LET IT BOTHER ME.

OKAY, WHO HAS DRINK?

LET'S SEE WHO CAN DRINK THEIRS DOWN THE FASTEST.

OH, NO!

WOW.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

- IT'S SHOT TIME. - WAIT A MINUTE, GUYS!

TO ME!

TO YOU!

WAIT-WAIT-WAIT-WAIT!

I'M NOT DONE.

I'M NOT DONE!

WELL TALK ABOUT IT THEN.

- TO ME! - UH-HUH.

- AND MY BIRTHDAY. - UH-HUH.

YEP-- AND YOUR GREAT SHOW.

- I-I'M NOT DONE. - I'M SORRY.

TONIGHT, IS THE FIRST OF MANY...

E PLURIBUS UNUM.

- UH-HUH. - WHAT-- WHAT?

E PLURIBUS UNUM-- ONE OF MANY.

- OKAY. - I'M GONNA GO WITH YOU.

I FORESEE IT, IN OUR VERY NEAR FUTURE...

- UH-HUH. - ...MAYBE A WORLD TOUR?

SALUD!

IT'S NASTY AS HELL.

NO MATTER WHAT HAS GONE WRONG THIS WEEKEND,

I REALIZE THAT I HAVE MORE FUN

WHEN GABE IS NOT AROUND.

- WHAT-- THE RING? - THAT'S A NICE JACKET.

I DON'T BELIEVE THAT I'VE MADE IT ANY SECRET

THAT I'M PURSUING OTHER THINGS IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW

AND IT MIGHT INVOLVE OTHER MEN.

GIVE ME MY DRINK.

I'M KEEPING MY OPTIONS OPEN.

I'M TAKING APPLICATIONS.

HA!

WHAT'D I DO?

YOU'RE JUST HILARIOUS.

YOU NERVOUS?

LITTLE BIT.

IT'S TIME FOR VINCE'S CHECK UP WITH THE DOCTOR,

SO WE'RE REALLY HOPING SHE'LL CLEAR HIM RIGHT NOW

ON THE FLY-- WE WANNA GET BACK TO L.A. SO BAD!

GONNA START FROM HEAD-TO-TOE.

FROM HEAD-TO-TOE?

- ANY HEADACHES? - NO HEADACHES.

- GOOD-- SHORTNESS OF BREATH? - NO SHORTNESS OF BREATH.

- CHEST PAIN? - NO CHEST PAIN.

HOW FAST CAN YOU WALK NOW?

COULD YOU, UH, COULD YOU DO A LAP AROUND.

OKAY, LET'S SEE.

HE'S GONNA SHOW OFF!

SO SINCE VINCE WAS BED RIDDEN FOR SO LONG,

HE LOST A LOT OF MUSCLE MEMORY

AND YOU PRETTY MUCH HAVE TO LEARN

HOW TO WALK ALL OVER AGAIN.

OH, MY GOD!

YES!

I'M NOT GONNA CRY.

I'M GONNA HOLD IT IN.

PANTS ARE FALLIN' DOWN.

YES.

TWO MORE WEEKS AT LEAST.

- TWO MORE WEEKS? - YEAH.

TWO MORE WEEKS?

UH-UH!

VINCE AIN'T GONNA BE HAPPY WITH THAT!

LIKE, I'M GONNA HAVE TO HAVE HIM CHILL OUT

AND FOLLOW WHATEVER THE DOCTOR SAY.

'CAUSE HE IS READY TO GO!

WE'RE IN A RUSH TO GET HOME 'CAUSE WE MISS IT,

BUT WE'RE NOT IN A RUSH TO GET HOME.

I WANNA MAKE SURE YOU'RE GOOD AND OKAY

AND THEN WE GO HOME.

I'M IN A RUSH TO GO HOME.

I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.

WELL, IT'S KIND OF IMPORTANT THOUGH.

I JUST DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.

WHAT YOU MEAN?

I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.

IT'S A MENTAL THING FOR ME RIGHT NOW.

AFTER 40 DAYS, I TRY TO EXPLAIN THAT TO YOU.

I UNDERSTAND.

SO SHOULD WE STAY HERE AND THEN WAIT

AND THEN NEXT MONTH COME BACK AND--

I DON'T KNOW.

I JUST KNOW I'M NOT GETTIN' ON NO PLANE

FOR THE NEXT SIX MONTHS.

A PART OF YOUR RECOVERY IS KNOWING WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU

AND ACCEPTING THAT--

- NO. - NO, LISTEN.

ACCEPTING THAT THESE ARE THE THINGS

THAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GO FORWARD.

I'M JUST SAYING.

ALSO, PART OF YOUR RECOVERY IS WHEN A PERSON GOING,

WHAT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH,

YOU GOTTA LET THEM GO THROUGH IT

BECAUSE THAT'S WHO'S GOING THROUGH.

VINCE JUST ABOUT DRIVES ME TO DRINK

WHEN HE'S SO STUBBORN ABOUT EVERYTHING.

I MEAN, THIS IS HIS HEALTH AND YOU KNOW, LIKE,

HE WAS JUST FOR REAL, FOR REAL, SUPER SICK

AND I'M NOT TRYING TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN.

OH, DON'T BE MAD-- OKAY.

- TAMAR, STOP. - OKAY, I'LL LEAVE.

- STOP-- YOU NEED TO STOP. - SERIOUSLY.

- OKAY. - GOSH!

- AND GUESS WHAT? - WHAT?

I HAVE GOOD NEWS FOR YOU GUYS!

WHAT?

WELL, DOC HAVE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM.

YOU

YOU AIN'T

YOU AIN'T DATIN'

YOU AIN'T DATIN' YOUR

YOU AIN'T DATIN' YOUR BABY

YOU AIN'T DATIN' YOUR BABY DADDY?

NOPE.

SO THAT MEANS, I CAN SET YOU UP

WITH ONE OF MY RAPPER HOMEBOYS.

- RAPPER? - OR BASKETBALL FRIEND.

UH-HUH.

AIN'T MARRIED.

FIX THAT... FIX THAT.

BUSTA RHYMES AIN'T MARRIED.

FIX THAT FACE!

YOUR TRACK RECORD.

WHAT YOU TALKIN' ABOUT MY TRACK--

MY TRACK RECORD IS FINE.

LOOK AT-- WHAT?

WHO AND WHAT?

WHAT!

SO

SO IT

SO IT SEEMS

SO IT SEEMS LIKE

SO IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE

SO IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE REALLY

SO IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE REALLY MOTIVATED

TO REALLY CHANGE

'CAUSE YOU WERE REALLY CLOSE TO LOOSING EVERYTHING.

WE NOW KNOW THAT YOU HAVE A GENETIC ABNORMALITY

THAT MAKES YOU FORM CLOTS MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE.

SO SINCE ALL OF THIS STUFF HAS BEEN HAPPENING,

WE'VE TALKIN' ABOUT STARTING OUR FAMILY.

SO SINCE HE HAS LIKE A GENETIC SITUATION GOING ON,

IS THERE SOMETHING WE CAN DO,

SOMETHING WE CAN WATCH OUT FOR, OR?

DO WE MAKE THE CHILD AT RISK MORE

IF WE HAD POPSICLE BABIES?

I'M JUST ASKING.

SOMETIMES...

OKAY, A POPSICLE BABY

IS WHEN YOU FREEZE YOU KNOW, THE BABY.

AND THEN YOU PUT IT IN, LATER.

NO, TAMAR WANTS TO JUST GET TWO BABIES IN HER,

SO SHE CAN GET IT OVER WITH.

YEAH.

SHE WANTS TO BABIES AT ONE TIME.

WELL, THAT'S THE DEAL.

WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT, IT SOUNDS-- ALWAYS SOUNDS LIKE

IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT BUT WHEN YOU TALK TO PEOPLE

WHO DID IT, I MEAN, IT'S HARDER.

IT'S HARDER.

SO, JUST-JUST--

THAT MEANS THAT I HAVE TO WATCH TWO KIDS.

JUST RELAX AND WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

ONE MORE THING, AND I'M JUST TALKING ABOUT TAMAR

RIGHT NOW-- WE'RE TALKING ABOUT HER.

SHE IS GOING THROUGH, SORT OF,

ALMOST LIKE A POST TRAUMATIC STRESS, RIGHT NOW.

WHEN I HEARD THE DOCTOR SAY THAT,

MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS "NO WAY."

THAT'S WHAT LIKE, THE SOLDIERS GET.

I MEAN, BUT THAT AIN'T BAD

BUT THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT,

IT STARTED TO MAKE A LOT OF SENSE.

TAMAR'S ALWAYS GOING THROUGH A POST TRAUMATIC STRESS.

I AM NOT-- NO.

I MEAN, LET ME TELL YOU THE HONESTY ABOUT IT.

- OH, MY GOD... - LISTEN.

YOU KNOW WHEN YOU WERE IN ICU AND YOUR FAMILY WAS THERE

AND YOU WERE SICK.

IT'S LIKE, I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO CONCENTRATE ON MYSELF

BECAUSE I WANTED TO MAKE SURE YOU WERE OKAY

AND YOU KNOW EVERYBODY'S FALLING, ALL CRYING,

PASSING OUT, AND I WANTED TO MAKE SURE EVERYBODY ELSE

IS OKAY AND THEN-- NO, REALLY.

NO, FOR REAL!

IT'S A LOT.

BUT NOW THAT YOU ARE WELL,

IT'S LIKE SOMETHING ELSE IS GOING ON WITH ME.

I DEFINITELY THINK THAT I NEED TO GO SIT AND TALK TO SOMEBODY

ABOUT HOW TO DEAL WITH WHAT HAS HAPPENED

WITH VINCE AND I.

YOU KNOW, BECAUSE IT EFFECTS OUR RELATIONSHIP NOW

BECAUSE I HAVE A WHOLE 'NOTHER ROLE.

LIKE, I'M USED TO BEING A NURSE BUT NOT THAT KIND OF NURSE.

SO WHEN DO I COME BACK?

I KNOW YOU WANNA RUSH OUT OF HERE--

NO, WHEN DO I COME BACK TO SEE YOU?

I'M NOT EVEN TALKIN' ABOUT LEAVIN'.

- ALL RIGHT, OKAY. - THERE YOU GO.

I WASN'T EVEN SAYING THAT.

I SAID, WHEN DO I COME BACK.

- ONE WEEK. - OKAY.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.

WHOO!

A LITTLE COLD OUT HERE.

WE'RE ALL IN TOWN TO CHECK UP ON TAMAR AND VINCE

BUT MOMMY HAS ASKED US OUT FOR THIS SPECIAL DINNER

BECAUSE SHE HAS SOME BIG NEWS FOR US

AND MOMMY DOESN'T USUALLY EXAGGERATE,

SO IF SHE SAYS IT'S NEWS, IT'S PROBABLY HUGE.

I'LL HAVE A-A HOT TODDY FOR MY VOICE.

I HAVE THE WORST COLD I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE

AND MY VOICE IS COMPLETELY SHOT.

- WHERE IS TAMAR, MOMMY? - SHE'S ON HER WAY.

I'M NOT LATE TODAY-- I GET TO SING THE "TAMAR'S LATE" SONG.

- YEAH! - HELP ME OUT.

YOU SOUND LIKE BARRY... WHITE.

- PLEASE, HELP ME OUT. - NO.

SHOW YOU'RE RIGHT.

THAT WAS REALLY-- THAT SCARED ME.

THAT REALLY SCARED ME.

TAMAR!

SING THE SONG.

ONE, TWO, READY AND--

TAMAR'S ALWAYS LATE.

TAMAR'S ALWAYS LATE.

CAN'T SING THE SONG, "TONI'S ALWAYS LATE" ANYMORE.

THANK YA'LL FOR THE INTRODUCTION.

YOU KNOW, EVERY SUPERHERO HAS TO HAVE SOME THEME MUSIC.

NOW THAT TAMAR'S HERE, I HAVE GREAT NEWS TO TELL.

TRACI'S CALLED MICHAEL ON THE PHONE

AND I CAN TELL ALL OF MY KIDS TOGETHER.

- HEY, MIKEY! - HEY, MIKEY!

MOMMY WANTS TO TALK TO YOU.

HEY, GUESS WHAT?

I HAVE GOOD NEWS FOR YOU GUYS.

WHAT?

WELL...

LIFE GIVES US WAKE-UP CALLS.

AND I HAD A HUGE ONE.

YOU HAD A HUGE ONE-- YOU'RE A DIFFERENT YOU

THAN YOU WERE THREE MONTHS AGO, AREN'T YOU.

DEFINITELY.

DOC

DOC HAVE

DOC HAVE ASKED

DOC HAVE ASKED ME

DOC HAVE ASKED ME TO

DOC HAVE ASKED ME TO MARRY

DOC HAVE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM...

AND I HAVE ACCEPTED.

OH, MY!

- YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED? - YEAH!

WOW, CONGRATULATIONS.

- THE BRIDE AND GROOM. - THE BRIDE AND GROOM.

AND I WANT YOU TO TIE THAT KNOT.

I THINK THAT EVERYBODY NEEDS SOMEBODY

BUT I WAS KINDA HOPIN' SHE WOULD MARRY SOMEBODY

WHO WAS YOU KNOW...

HOW DID HE ASK YOU?

HOW DID HE PROPOSE?

- DOWN ON BOTH KNEES. - AT HIS AGE?

YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M TALKIN' TO MY SON.

I'M GONNA IGNORE YOU.

BUT MAMA, DO YOU THINK YOU ARE READY FOR MARRIAGE?

- FOR REAL? - READY-- AT MY AGE?

- CAN YOU WEAR WHITE? - NO, I'M NOT WEARIN' WHITE.

CHURCH WOULD BURN DOWN... TO THE GROUND!

I CAN'T WEAR WHITE 'CAUSE LOOK AT ALL OF YOU.

CAN'T WEAR EGGSHELL.

SHE'S MORE ONTO THE YELLOW SIDE, BABY.

DID HE PICK THE RIGHT CUT?

OH, HE PICKED THE RIGHT CUT.

I LIKE IT.

OKAY, 'CAUSE WRONG RING, WRONG MAN.

MAY BE WRONG FOR YOU BUT COULD BE RIGHT FOR ME.

OH!

"OH, YEAH, SO I'M ENGAGED TO DOC.

"YES, IT'S GOING TO BE DOCTOR AND MRS. BRAXTON."

ARE YA'LL GONNA HAVE KIDS?

WHAT?

OH!

TAMAR IS JUST FLOORED.

OKAY?

I DON'T THINK THAT SHE'S KINDA TAKING IT VERY WELL.

I THINK SHE STILL KINDA WANTS MOMMY AND DADDY

TO GET BACK TOGETHER.

SHH-- THAT'S OUR SECRET.

WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T GIVE THE RING BACK,

DON'T BREAK UP... WAIT TILL YOU'RE MARRIED.

THEN THE RING BECOMES YOURS.

YOU KNOW, I'M REALLY NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER.

I KNOW IT'S A SHOCK FOR MY KIDS

FOR ME TO GET REMARRIED

BUT WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT AND THE MAN IS RIGHT,

LET'S GO FOR IT.

I JUST WANNA ENJOY THE REST OF MY LIFE.

I WANNA DO THINGS, I WANNA GO PLACES,

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

MOMMY, BUT YOU DON'T FLY.

JUST DON'T GET THE RV AND GO TO FLORIDA.

DON'T DO THAT.

YOU'RE TOO CUTE FOR THAT.

STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT KIND OF DOCTOR HE IS.

NOT SURE... HE COULD BE A LOVE DOCTOR,

COULD BE A COMPUTER DOCTOR.

SO ARE YOU GUYS GONNA MOVE IN TOGETHER.

HEY!

I'M NOT THRILLED TO BE THE CENTER OF MY CHILDREN'S JOKES,

HOWEVER, THEY'RE NOT UPSET

THAT DOC IS GOING TO BE A PART OF OUR FAMILY.

- DID YOU KISS HIM? - DID I KISS HIM?

WHEN YOU SAID, "I GUESS."

- GIRL, DID I EVER! - YUCK!

I REALLY DON'T NEED TO BE VISUALIZING

MY MOM AND DOC KISSIN' BEFORE DESSERT.

- LIKE THIS? - I TONGUE KISSED HIM.

DON'T ASK THE QUESTION, IF YOU DON'T WANT THE ANSWER.

AND I'M A DESSERT EATER.

STOMACH IS TURNING.

I WANT NOTHING ELSE.

IT'S TIME TO GO.

I'M GONNA HAVE THE BREAD PUDDING.

- TAMAR, YOU MADE IT. - I DID.

- SO NICE TO MEET YOU, HONEY. - NICE MEETING YOU.

I'M MARCY-- HAVE A SEAT!

WHEN VINCE DOCTOR TOLD ME SHE THOUGHT I HAD PTSD,

LIKE IT REALLY HIT HOME FOR ME.

I ALMOST LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

AND I'VE BEEN SO BUSY DEALING WITH THE DAY-TO-DAY STUFF

THAT I HAVEN'T REALLY DEALT WITH MY FEELINGS ABOUT THAT.

SO TODAY, I'M GOING TO MEET WITH A PSYCHOTHERAPIST

TO TRY AND GET MY HEAD AROUND

LIKE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME.

HAVE YOU FELT MORE ANXIOUS OR JITTERY

OR QUICK TO STARTLE?

WELL, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN QUICK TO STARTLE.

OKAY, YEAH-YEAH.

BUT INSTEAD OF IT, UM, STARTING OFF AT A ZERO,

I START OFF AT A FIVE AND GO TO FIFTEEN.

YES, OKAY.

THERE'S A FEW DIFFERENT SUBCATEGORIES

OF POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER.

ONE IS WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU RE-EXPERIENCE THE TRAUMA.

THE SECOND CHARACTERISTIC IS WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO AVOID IT.

DING-DING-- THAT'S ME.

DING-- OKAY.

I REALLY HAVEN'T HAD TIME TO CONCENTRATE

ON, YOU KNOW, MY REAL EMOTIONAL FEELINGS.

I'M SURE UNDERNEATH THIS, IT'S PROBABLY "POW-POW."

MY BIGGEST FEAR WAS VINCE NOT EVER COMING HOME.

YOU CAN REALLY ONLY IMAGINE HOW I WAS FEELING,

LIKE I HAVEN'T-- I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.

I DIDN'T REALLY WANNA THINK ABOUT

WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.

SO, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING TO TRY TO TAKE CARE

OF YOURSELF DURING THIS TIME?

I HAVE NOT DONE ONE THING.

OKAY.

OH, MY GOD-- LIKE, SHE'S SO RIGHT!

USUALLY, SHE IS ALL ABOUT WHAT SHE NEEDS

BUT I HAVEN'T TAKEN ONE MOMENT FOR MYSELF

SINCE THIS WHOLE THING BEGAN.

NO WONDER I'M LOOSIN' MY MIND!

ONE THING I WOULD ENCOURAGE

IS TIME JUST FOR YOU, WITH A THERAPIST.

AND THIS IS ABOUT FEELING YOUR FEELINGS FULLY.

AND WHAT YOU'VE SHARED WITH ME

IS THAT YOU HAVEN'T FULLY ACCESSED YOUR FEELINGS YET.

I JUST FEEL SO BAD TALKIN' ABOUT I NEED TO DO THIS

FOR ME AND ME-ME-ME-ME-ME!

OKAY.

AND IT'S NOT ABOUT ME, I FEEL LIKE.

I CAN NOT TELL YOU HOW MANY PEOPLE SAY "WELL,

"IF I REALLY ATTEND TO MYSELF, THAT'S SELFISH."

OR, "IT'S WEAK IF I FEEL THESE FEELINGS."

THAT IS ABSOLUTELY AN ILLUSION.

THE MOST IMPORTANT COMMITMENT YOU CAN MAKE

TO ANYONE YOU LOVE IS TO BE COMMITTED TO YOURSELF FIRST.

NOT FROM A PLACE OF ENTITLEMENT,

BUT FROM A PLACE OF HONORING OURSELVES

AND STAYING CONNECTED AND GROUNDED IN WHO WE ARE,

SO THAT WE HAVE MORE LOVE TO SHARE

AND WE HAVE MORE LOVE TO GIVE.

- WOW, THAT'S DEEP. - YEAH.

MY FAMILY IS ALWAYS ON MY CASE

THAT I THINK ABOUT MYSELF TOO MUCH.

BUT NOW, I'VE GOT MEDICAL ORDERS

THAT I NEED TO FOCUS ON MYSELF.

I THINK THIS MIGHT BE MY FAVORITE DOCTORS VISIT EVER!

LET'S TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE-HAVE ALREADY EXPERIENCED.

WHAT HAVE BEEN SOME OF THE TAKEAWAYS FROM THE FACT

THAT THIS HAS HAPPENED THAT HAVE BEEN POSITIVE?

I THINK THE NUMBER ONE THING IS

I STOPPED BEING SO SELF-ABSORBED.

'CAUSE AT FIRST, I WAS LIKE, "OKAY,

"WE'RE NOT HAVING ANY KIDS UNTIL MY CAREER POPS OFF."

AND, NOW, IT'S LIKE WE NEED TO KIND OF

THINK ABOUT THAT CHAPTER BECAUSE WE NEVER KNOW.

OKAY, THAT'S PRETTY BIG.

LIFE GIVES US WAKE-UP CALLS.

- AND I HAD A HUGE ONE. - YOU HAD A HUGE ONE.

YOU'RE A DIFFERENT YOU

THAN YOU WERE THREE MONTHS AGO, AREN'T YOU?

- DEFINITELY. - YES.

I'M SO GLAD I CAME TODAY.

I GOT SO MUCH MORE OUT OF THIS

THAN WHAT I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD.

THANK YOU.

THANK YOU FOR BEING SO OPEN.

HAVING SUCH AN OPEN HEART.