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Previously on "Braxton Family Values"...

I was always very passive-aggressive

when it came to my sisters.

So you want them to respect your choices?

Yes, and have boundaries with those choices.

So you be comin' to California, you Secret Squirrel.

Well...

You workin' on something, I can tell.

Trina, do not tell your other sisters.

We're going to an acting institute.

'Cause, you know, this has been my passion

- for a very long time. - Mm-hmm.

I would prefer to act than sing.

This is it from the thoracic outlet syndrome?

That's correct. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- I'm, like, healed. - You are.

- I can sing now, right? - Absolutely.

- Yeah, you can do everything. - I want everything.

♪ We are the Braxtons and you'll see ♪

♪ That we are not like an ordinary family ♪

♪ Toni, Traci, Towanda, Trina ♪

♪ Tamar and Miss E will ♪

♪ Teach you a thing or two ♪

♪ On "Braxton Family Values." ♪

I like when there's mirrors, like, behind somebody

because you can act like you're looking at somebody,

but you can really just check out yourself.

We're back in Atlanta

and I invited all my sisters to dinner,

'cause I've been keeping a little secret,

and I think it's time to tell 'em.

Well, I had an audition

for this prestigious acting school in L.A.

So what happened?

- I got in! -Yay!

I mean, so this is what she been

so secretive about,

and that's why she's been to L.A. so often?

'Kay.

It was really, really good.

So you actually have to audition

to get into this school.

I'm just happy that you're finally seeing it

- come together. - Yeah.

- You know what I mean? - Yeah, and I'm finally doing

something that I really wanna do.

- Yeah, that you want to do. - Not the family.

What is wrong with being with the family?

No. That's just a term of "the family"--

I'm just trying to figure out-- I don't even know where that came from.

- What, "the family wants you to do"? - Yeah.

Because sometimes you just go--

if you go-- you don't go against the grain,

and you're thinking, okay, this is our family business--

because singing wasn't my first love.

That has never been my first love.

I've always had a passion for acting.

I just think it's time to get an agent

to really pursue the things that I really wanna pursue.

It's just time.

-Hey, girls. -Hey.

Where am I sitting? Where my seat?

- Wherever you want. - I'ma sit here.

Hey. What is this...

- What's goin' on, divas? -Towanda has some news.

Tell me.

I got into the Lee Strasberg Acting School.

- You did? - I did.

- Congratulations. - Thank you.

I think Towanda's a natural at acting.

I think that's her thing.

I'm really excited about her doing it.

I mean, she didn't have to keep it a secret for so long, though.

She could've just told us "I'm taking acting lessons,

I'm trying to get into this acting school."

We would've been her cheerleaders.

- So you gonna move to L.A.? - No.

Right, Toni. I didn't even think about that.

- Look at God. - I didn't say that.

Why you gonna go to school in L.A.

if-- if you gonna go--

how are you gonna do that, you're living in Atlanta?

I'm just gonna have to be bi-coastal for a while

until I finish my courses.

So you're moving to L.A. for a while?

Yeah.

You held that back, didn't ya?

I don't like that word "move."

What-- what you wanna-- you relocate.

You know what word I don't like? Denial.

Come on, now. Come on, Jesus.

I mean, to be honest about it, she ain't gotta keep it from me,

because, you know, I ain't the mouth of the South.

That's Toni Braxton, living legend, not me.

So if she's in school, more power to you.

Get your life.

Mm!

I've been really clumsy lately.

No, you've always been clumsy with food.

I think I have been clumsy with food.

I'm working on eating better, so when I go out on dates.

That's a good idea.

I'm trying to go on a date tonight.

We'll let you go on a date.

Well, let's go on that date.

And God is good!

Well, this one guy, he's a really nice guy

I really like him-- maybe.

You really like him?!

Did you hear that?

- I think I might like him. - No, no! You just said!

"I really like him"!

Toni got her daddy.

Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy!

- Daddy, daddy, daddy. -♪ I like a man ♪

♪ I can rely on ♪

- ♪ Uh-huh, uh-huh... ♪ - ♪ That I rely on ♪

- ♪ What, what, wha-what? ♪ - ♪ That's what she got ♪

- ♪ That's what she got! ♪ - ♪ She said, what, daddy, daddy, daddy. ♪

♪ What? That song is daddy ♪

♪ Yup, that song is daddy. ♪

♪ Toni Braxton got a daddy. ♪

- Hey! - Damn.

- ♪ Da-Daddy, daddy... ♪ - She ain't denying it, neither. Wait.

- ♪ A kiss from Daddy. ♪ - She's dancing to it.

- She's dancing to it! -What is that?

Who? Who you datin'?

I'm gonna have to find out who this man is, okay?

- You kiss him yet? - I'm not telling.

She ain't got to answer. She said she really like him.

- She know she did. - Did you let him smell it?

- What? No! - She-- she kissed him.

I'm just, like, it's about time

that Toni Braxton is datin' right now.

She needs to get it on.

I don't think Toni been on a date since Desert Storm.

I don't know. I'm not really sure.

So it's been dry.

It's time to get those cobwebs swept out, Tone.

I have something I want all of us

to go to with me, please?

- I'm-- I have an appointment... - About what?

...and I want all you guys to go with me.

- I wanna go. -You wanna go?

Wait, hold-hold-hold it. What kind of appointment?

- I'll go. I don't care where it is. -I care.

- Thank you, Toni. - Where?

- Will you go? - I don't know what it is.

Why you gotta know what it is?

Towanda, I ain't here for your surprises.

Last time we was talkin' about the birds and the bees.

That was for Brooke.

Did it hurt when you had sex?

Yes, it did.

It was not enjoyable. Matter of fact, I want it back.

I just feel like Towanda

set us up and tried my life

by, you know, giving us the "birds and the bees" jeopardy.

I'm not here for that.

Where you going, Towanda?

- To the doctor's. -Which one? OBGYN?

- To get what? - Yeah.

-I will tentatively go. - Okay.

- I will go. -I will go.

I think you should tell us something.

Yeah, that's so damn stupid.

Just tell us. Just tell us what it is.

What's wrong with-- what's wrong with just goin' and supportin' me?

Such a Secret Squirrel all the time. Jeez.

Why are you driving?

'Cause you are not driving me.

Wait a minute. Hold up. I was driving.

Traci and I decided that, you know, we love our life

and... we're not willing

- to put our lives in jeopardy. - No. That's Trina.

'Cause your phone is ringin' or you had a text message.

I don't text and drive. I don't play that.

I do not play text and driving. That's dangerous.

And you want to put music on and-- oh, God.

We're on the way to Towanda's mystery appointment.

Towanda's been keeping secrets

since she came out of my mama's womb.

So what's goin' on? What's really goin' on?

- I should be driving. - The lies of life.

- You have your seat belt on? - Oh, yeah.

- I'm the driver. - Lies.

What? I am Jeff Gordon, baby.

- No. -Really?

- I'm Miss Patrick. - You're "Miss Don't Drive."

Hey, hon, but we on our way.

I'll see you guys soon. Bye.

Where-- where do I go now?

In 950 feet, please exit

Peachtree Industrial Boulevard.

Which one, north or south?

31-A 141.

You sure it's south?

That's what it says. Look.

"North." Sorry.

North.

Now, where the hell we going to?

- That's the question. - North.

- North. - Oh (bleep)! He's in front of me!

Oh, help!

Help!

Sorry.

Oh, my God!

- Wait a minute here. - What...?

Tamar can't drive. She scared the hell out of me.

I mean, how do you just get over like that

at the last minute? You're on the exit

and you decide to get back on the highway? It was so dangerous.

- I made it happen. - You was on the grass, you was on the grass.

It's okay, you did that before.

I never did that.

- Traci did that before. - Yes, I have.

My nerves are shot.

What was I supposed to say?

Turn right here.

You're getting off on the wrong exit.

Hell, I ain't gonna tell you no mo'!

Oh, my God.

- Hi! - How are you?

- Good. - You ladies excited?

- I'm excited. - I don't know what it is.

I didn't tell them exactly.

We're gonna sit for a second. Thank you.

What is this, Towanda?

I've got this appointment,

and I didn't tell my sisters what it was.

I just asked for them to come and support me.

- Is it a facial place? - She does everything.

She does dermo and all that stuff.

She does tummy tucks, too. And she does this procedure

that makes your va-jay-jay look really small.

You're having something to do with your vagina?

- Yes! - No!

Ding ding ding ding ding ding!

Wait a minute, hold on. We drove a whole hour

to come sit here

and play with your vagina? This is crazy.

Don't play with your coochie. You only got one.

Hi.

- This is Dr. Myla. - Hi.

So you the "coochie doctor"?

Uh, sort of.

So can you explain to us what in the world

is she gonna have done?

It is vaginal laser tightening.

You wanna put a laser to your vagina?!

Towanda, you're gonna get laser

vaginal rejuvenation?

Ooh, I didn't know my sister was a freak.

You nasty.

She wants to show you guys.

Yeah, I can show you. You guys can come back.

I gotta see that.

Wait a minute. Laser puss.

- I'm gonna sit right here. - This a big ol' examining room.

Sit back, we'll get your legs in the stirrups,

and then I put the laser in

- and just fire it-- - Fire it?!

It doesn't really feel like much.

I'm sorry. You about to really do it right now?

- That's big! -No, it's not.

For a procedure. You just stickin' something in there

just to-- that's big!

- Towanda; That's not. - That's bigger than a tampon.

- Dr. Myla: It's bigger than a tampon. -Thank you.

- What are the glasses for? - For us?

That's for you. Yes, to protect your eyes.

- Okay. - Wait.

If we need something to protect our eyes,

what is gonna protect your vagina?

- All right. - How long does the process take?

It's quick. Once she's all set up,

it takes about five minutes.

I just know that I'm gonna smell vagina,

and I don't know how I feel about it.

You are not gonna smell vagina.

I'm talking about burnt up, laser vagina.

It's not-- it's not bad at all. Seriously.

- Does it take layer away? - It's like laser hair removal?

It resurfaces the layer so it makes your body

make more collagen in those areas.

The good cells are rejuvenated.

It's really a pretty set procedure.

Oh, I have a quick question.

How soon after can you...?

- 72 hours. - Okay.

Is she-- she's really gonna get it done, like, right now?

Mm-hmm.

I'ma watch.

Coming up on "Braxton Family Values"...

- Why you bein' all secretive? - I'm not being secretive.

I can't tell them. They'll tease me about it and make me uncomfortable.

I don't know how to do that.

You don't know how to do nothin'.

We have to have a "Traci and Trina" conversation.

- Okay. - But I don't want

that opinionated portion of it.

Opinions is like (bleep). Either you like it or you don't.

Yes, uh-huh!

Dr. Myla: It's really a pretty safe fast procedure.

Is she-- she's really gonna get it done, like, right now?

- Mm-hmm. -I'ma watch.

Girl, come on and fry your-- your puss.

In boots.

So, you'll feel me touch.

Oh! She just stuck it in there, like, whoa.

I'm in the wrong seat. Scoot over, Trina.

Mine is pretty.

Why you wanna mess with it? It is pretty!

I told you it was pretty!

I thought it looked like "Monsters Inc."

No, I told you, it's very pretty!

You can model your vagina.

I can.

Tamar, stop looking at it. Now, that's enough!

Your butt cute, too.

- Stop it! - No, you invited us.

You wanted us to come.

Now, open your legs and lay back.

I cannot believe my sisters

are sticking their heads down there

looking at my "pocketbook."

Come on. Give me some sort of privacy.

Maybe I shouldn't have asked them to come.

- Move the cloth. -I wanna see it.

- - Ooh.

It's like a semi-truck.

I just wanted to see

how the doctor was fixin' to, you know,

burn up her vagina, you know?

'Cause I expected it to smell like

some synthetic hair burning on a curling iron.

I wanted to see firsthand what was goin' on.

All right, love, you're-- you're done.

Ooh.

- Trina, really? -Can I smell it?

- See if it smells like woman? - You're gonna smell your sister's va-jay-jay?

Smell it so you can tell me what it smell like.

It smells awesome!

I can't believe we have the same parents.

It smells like nothing.

Towanda will try things. She's the adventurous one of all of us.

I personally don't need it

because my vagina hasn't been used

in a very, very long time.

That's probably way too much information.

Well, thanks, girls, for coming with me!

You need help up or anything like that?

You don't feel anything?

Just a lot of breeze 'cause I don't have anything on.

- You shouldn't wear those panties. - I have 'em in my hand.

- I'll take them. - I got 'em.

I don't want you to hold my panties.

I'm your sister. I don't care.

Thank you, Toni. Trina smelled it.

You smelled her underwear?

No, I smelled her cooter. And it smells amazing.

- More sustenance. - Ooh, cupcakes.

Mm-wah, mm-wah. You look pretty.

The charity organization, MusiCares, is hosting a concert

to honor the legendary Grammy-winning singer-songwriter

my idol, Smokey Robinson.

And I feel so humble to be asked to be

a part of this amazing event.

I couldn't ask for a better way

to give back and singing.

- What you been up to? - Girl, layin' up

from rehearsing so much.

I'm sorry you're not feeling good, Tay.

I look like I don't feel good, huh?

I can tell you don't feel well.

So the Music Heritage event is the first time

that I'm gonna be singing since all of my hospitalizations

and all of the surgeries.

And I'm just feeling overwhelmed, a little nervous.

Oh, child, I was comfortable. Uh!

- Both feet? - If you keep massaging my feet,

I'm gonna be sleep.

I did have to put down, you know, music for a while

because really, to be honest,

I couldn't sing for a while.

You're gonna feel bad for about three to six months.

You've had the surgery, and you're a singer,

and there's a rib removed. How can you sing?

We use our rib cage to expand our lungs to sing.

You won't be able to do that.

- I won't be able to sing? - You can't do no concerts. I'm sorry.

I'm trying to get you to relax.

I can't relax until I find my sister a husband.

I am not a charity case.

Well, why you being all secretive?

I'm not being secretive.

I'm not-- I mean, I'm getting out there again.

I can't tell them. They'll tease me about it,

make me uncomfortable. "Who's the guy?

What he's about, what does he do?

Is he good enough for you?" Which is great,

that's what family's supposed to do,

but for someone like me who's trying to get back out there,

it can be jarring.

I think you need an Anglo.

It can be any color for me. I don't care.

Don't have to be light-skinned, he can be chocolate.

They could be Caucasian.

I've dated lots of beautiful, gorgeous men in my life.

Why do you like gorgeous men?

Oh, my God, it's so much work.

- Yeah. - I'm not gonna--

You need you a nice, little ugly dude

who's not gonna take a long time getting ready.

You got to stop with these fine, little lollipops, honey.

Toni, listen, you gotta find you a guy

whose self-esteem ain't too high.

Because if he got a little low self-esteem, right?

he gonna always be on his toes to keep

Toni Braxton, living legend. Take it from me.

First of all I'm a alpha woman.

What's that mean, alphabet?

I'm like a "dude" girl.

I don't know how to do the soft stuff to make a guy...

Toni, you're supposed to be a little damsel in distress.

Okay. You have to show me how to do that

because I don't know how to do that.

You don't know how to do nothing.

I mean, look, it's very important

for you to be "damsel in distress" on a date.

You can't act like you have it all the way together, right?

Because men like to fix things.

And so if they feel like they can't fix you up a little bit

or fix you up till they like it, they don't want no part.

You can't be like, "I'm a strong black wo--"

no, they don't want that, mm-kay?

They act like they want that, but they really don't want that.

- Then you help me. Just help me. - Yes.

So I'm you and you the guy.

"Oh, my God, I can't get my TV to work.

Can you help me fix my TV?"

Guys like that?

"Sure, baby, I'll fix your TV."

And then you make the man some pork skins,

and y'all live happily ever after. It's amazing.

- Hi, Tray-ray. - Hi, Tri-tri.

Mm-wah.

I've decided to meet with each of my sisters, one-on-one,

to discuss how they've all been making me feel recently.

Dr. Harwick: When you meet with them together,

it's more difficult to get your message across.

What about one-on-one?

Just one-on-one with each of them?

Do I have this four different times?

That can be difficult.

And it's gonna take time.

I'm hoping they can learn

that I don't want them to be critical of me.

Instead, be more supportive.

And if they can do that,

then maybe I'll feel more comfortable

talking to them about another recent decision I've made.

I'm sure they may not agree,

but they should accept my choices.

- But you look fantastic-ola. - Thank you.

What's goin' on with you?

- Girl... - Y-O-U.

- I have to talk to you. - What?

We have to have a "Traci and Trina" conversation.

Okay.

Traci has always been the most nonjudgmental

and the most willing to listen.

So I'm very at ease starting with her.

I feel like my sisters, as a whole--

they're like a "can't" brigade,

telling me everything that I "can't" do--

"Trina can't dance, Trina can't cook,

Trina can't drive. Trina can't, can't, can't."

- You can't drive. - Yes, uh-huh. Yes, uh-huh.

Guess what, you know what? According to the DMV, yes, I can,

because if I couldn't drive, I wouldn't have been an administrative driver.

Trina, but your sense of direction.

Can I talk to you seriously for just one second, though?

Yeah, but that was serious, though.

"Trina can't shoot a firearm, Trina can't do this."

I mean, it's like so many can'ts in my life.

I'm like, you know what? I need to be able to

accentuate the positives.

You know, I'm-- I'm behind you.

I appreciate it more than you know

because no matter what my life decisions are

with a significant other,

or anybody, if you really wanna know the truth.

You're that go with the flow person,

and I appreciate that about you.

Traci is always a great person to talk to.

I feel like she's understanding

what I need from her and what I want from her,

especially when it comes to our sisterhood.

So I'm asking you what do you think

is the best approach for me to talk to the girls?

I don't think they need to know what's going on with your life, anyway,

until you get your life settled.

Because it's your life, it's your decisions.

Why you need somebody to validate what's goin' on with you?

You're right. And that's what I was telling my counselor

that sometimes I feel like

they want me to want their validation.

It's like it's not-- it's not viable

until I have that validation, and I don't like that feeling.

It's like a double-edged sword, though, Tray,

because sometimes I'm gonna wanna be able to talk to you.

Sometimes I wanna be able to get your opinion.

It doesn't mean that I am asking,

so I'm gonna do it-- whatever it is that you suggest.

It's just like sometimes I just wanna vent and I wanna talk,

and I don't wanna talk to the outside world about it.

I wanna talk to my sisters about it.

But I don't want that opinionated portion of it.

Do you understand what I'm saying?

Mm-hmm. I hate to say this.

They our sisters, I love them to death,

but opinions is like (bleep),

either you like it or you don't.

We are all very opinionated

because we got it from our mama.

Holding our tongues is a very hard thing to do.

But I will take that into account from now on, okay?

But I don't think that you need to

tell your sisters everything.

Well, I-I don't feel like I need to tell them

everything that's going on in my life,

but I would just like to talk to them

about the things-- individually, first--

that I would like to address

that affect me and make me feel bad.

Go ahead.

The conversation with Traci went really well.

Up next, I think I'm gonna talk to Towanda

as I work my way up to talking to

the most critical of the sisters.

But I appreciate it, I appreciate you

listening to me and talking to me.

All right. Clink-clink on it.

Clink, clink, clink, clink...

Ms. Evelyn: Tay, what's the face?

What is that, the mask?

It is, um-- it's called

a "Call to Worship" for your skin.

Oh, God...

And what does that do?

You know, you go before God,

and, you know, get your skin together.

Thank you, Jesus.

And it hydrates, right?

It hydrates, make your makeup stay on.

It's just, you know, makes everything...

- Okay. - Yeah.

Okay.

I was asked to perform at the MusiCares concert

honoring Smokey Robinson.

Of course, she had to come, honey.

He asked her!

- I don't know if this is mine. - That was mine, Mama.

- Oh, my God! - What?

Don't say stuff like that.

Ugh-hh!

'Cause you drank after me?

- You tryin' it. - Well, that's how you tried it today.

'Cause you didn't wanna-- you thought you were drinking after me.

No, but I asked everybody in the room.

- At least four of us. - It'll kill you, it'll kill me.

- How 'bout that? - Okay, Mommy.

I wanna change my outfit, this is how I'm looking at it.

As excited as I am,

as "nervouscited" as I am to perform,

because I haven't in, like, such a long time--

it's been like six months--

this is not like a typical Tamartian concert, you know?

This is to honor Smokey.

I just think if I'm gonna "dress up" dress up like that,

like, it takes away from the funkiness

and the edge and the "jeuje" that I'm putting on.

And so I don't feel like I have to put too much on,

I don't have to be dressed up like that.

Why can't I get on the stage and just be me

and sing my throat off?

I'm so nervous.

I can't get my mind together,

I can't get my thoughts together.

This is my first performance

since given a clean bill of health

from all of the surgeries and all of the issues

that I've been going through medically.

And, for me, this performance,

it kinda means whether or not

am I ready to perform again?

Can I go on tour?

Is singing even an option for me

at this point in my life?

So we'll see.

Coming up on "Braxton Family Values"...

I just thought you should've dressed a little more formal.

I mean, Toni Braxton tried it...

- That's like rehearsal. - Who goes to rehearsal like this?

Get up!

I feel like you pick on me on purpose.

I think it's ridiculous.

I don't know if I would define it

as "pick on Trina,"

I probably do, though, maybe.

And while we're on the subject,

there's another thing that I don't like.

This is like the first time I've been on stage

in, like, six months. How do I say this

without it coming across the way that I don't want it to come across?

Okay. "It's an honor

to sing for Smokey

and definitely sing his records.

But, for me, it's about

not really is it still there, but "is it really still there?"

- Yeah. - Does that make sense?

Listen, I have an uber amount of anxiety.

And I just feel like everything has to work out,

like, the outfit gotta be right.

You know, I just kinda wanna be dressed down.

didn't want the outfit to overpower the performance.

I have a denim trench coat coming.

So, I'm starting with...

These'll work. I can hold your hand.

You want me to walk like Whoopi?

- Whoopi? - Yeah.

- Okay, well, Whoopi-- - On "Jumping Jack Flash."

- It's a mean tip. - I can't walk in those.

That's why they sittin' up in there.

All the rest of them are, like, sparkly and...

Is that how you're feelin'?

Sparkly shoes is different than

a sparkle from head to toe.

Well, here's the thing-- I don't wanna get onstage,

you know, singing Smokey Robinson songs,

looking like, you know... an old lady.

Okay, I said it. And the reason why I don't wanna do that

is because I've been gone for so long

and I just don't want to remind people

that I've been sick. And being sick is kinda being associated

with, like, being a little old.

And I won't put that out there.

Well, don't you think it'd be kinda cool

if I dressed down a little bit onstage

since I'm singing these "auntie" songs?

What you think about, like, jeans and, like,

a trench coat?

I don't know.

If I take off slow, you can't hear it.

But if I try to, you know, press accelerate

really hard, you hear

I already talked to Traci one-on-one, and that went well,

so now I want to sit down with Towanda

and talk about some of my issues.

I hope this time she's more receptive to what I have to say.

Okay, thank you. Okay.

Hey, Trini.

- You ordered me some wine? - I did!

What's going on, Trini-wini?

Girl, not a bunch of anything.

What is it? It has to be something, Trina.

Well, do you remember I attempted a conversation

- with you and Monster? - Which one?

When I said that I've been seeing a therapist?

Yes.

It makes me feel really bad

when you guys keep telling me what I can't do.

"Trina can't dance, Trina can't drive."

Can you drive?

Nothing got accomplished

except for me telling them how feel.

And it's like, "Oh. Oh, okay. I hear you."

But you're not hearing me.

And I feel like my conversation

wasn't being taken seriously.

- Really? - Yes!

I don't like it when sometimes

when I talk to you, I'm ganged on.

- I gang on you? - Yes.

Okay.

And then sometimes I feel like, with you,

I'm like Charlie Brown. I feel like you pick on me on purpose.

I don't know if I would define it as

"pick on" Trina. I probably do, though.

Maybe. Maybe.

You treat me like I'm slow.

- That's the best situation. - We do not...

- Everybody treats me like I'm a little bit slow. - treat you like you're slow.

- Who treats you like you're slow? - All of y'all.

- Treats you like you're slow? - Yes.

I'm a very capable person.

Okay. You know how, like, when you're so used to stuff,

and we just laugh and joke and pick on each other...

we have. That's just what we've done.

That's not fun for me to feel picked on. That's not fun for me.

Okay.

And while we're on the subject,

there is another thing that I don't like.

You give justificational laughs,

'cause you laugh at everything.

I do laugh at everything. I do.

But it's not always funny.

Especially when things make people feel bad.

It's not funny when people feel bad.

Now, we all know that I've been "thinners"

- for 98% of my life. - Yes.

When I was going through stressful problems

- in my life-- - Mm-hmm.

Do you remember our sister called Jenny Craig on me?

- Yes, I remember. - And you laughed.

Because I think it's ridiculous

'cause even at that time, I didn't think-- you were not big.

No, I wasn't. I wasn't.

And then after that, it just catapulted

and made it worse-- it made it worse.

When you laugh, it makes other people laugh.

Lifts up that heavy stuff.

But it doesn't always feel that way.

- I understand what you're trying to do. - Yeah.

- But I'm sorry. - And I understand the place

that it's coming from that you're telling me,

but sometimes it's just an inopportune time.

I'm sorry, Trina, and I'm gonna really work on it.

Honestly, I'ma work on it.

Okay.

Towanda is seemingly sincere

about changing her attitude and her behavior

when it comes to laughing at me.

And I really think

that it's gonna take a little bit of time,

but I really do believe that she's gonna work on the laughing part.

I can't promise you anything

because some of that stuff is funny,

but I'm gonna work on it.

You're not the "bunt" of everybody's joke,

just to let you know that.

- You're not. - I receive that.

And I know sometimes you feel that way, and it's so not true.

Yeah, I do.

Thank you for sharing and letting me know

how I was making you feel

because had you not told me, I would've never known.

And now that we can grow from it, because you told me.

Traci and Towanda seemed open to my feelings,

and I'm hopeful that they really wanna take

everything I said to heart.

- Oh, Trini-wini-wini. - Thank you.

- I love you. - I love you, too.

Stop treating me like Charlie Brown.

I'm not gonna do that anymore.

-How are you today? -Good. Hi.

-How are you doing today? - Oh, amazing.

- Hi. -Can we get a still shot?

Yes, yes, yes. For sure, for sure.

- And then with me and Mommy. - Yeah, absolutely.

You look beautiful. What are you wearing tonight?

Oh, my God. Of course you asked me 'cause I just forgot.

- Okay. - Yeah. I know she's an Indian designer.

This is my first time singing in six months

since I got sick on "Dancing With the Stars."

How is your health? How are you doing?

I'm doing amazing. I feel amazing.

I feel like the old Tamar.

- Thank you, guys. -Thank you.

-Have a good night. Take care. -Thank you.

Why does it smell like ham?

I must be really hungry. All I smell is ham.

Hey, Tay.

It's Toni Braxton, living--

girl, you better work.

Well, my hair's so fuzzy. I had to do it myself.

Look at your outfit.

- Oh, don't you look-- - Mm-wah!

- Hey, everybody. - Makeup man: I got you.

We're about to leave right now.

So, listen, Toni, do you like my outfit?

So everybody's dressed kinda casual?

Casually cute.

So I'm gonna be dressed I'm going to the Golden Globes.

No, no. You good, you good.

What I just wore on the red carpet was a dress.

Okay. So now you can do performance clothes?

- Yes. - Okay.

I have to go so you have to do this one curl.

- You look cute, Mama. - Thank you.

I think so.

Tamar, do you mind? I'm just gonna be 20 seconds.

Do I mind if you beat? Get your life.

I gotta run some powder. Let me see.

Turn around. Let me see the back. Turn around.

Okay. Let me see the jacket.

- That's kinda fabulous, Toni. - It is, definitely.

See, I can't wear stuff like that.

I'm too short. No, it's too heavy for me.

I look like mini people.

Do I love it, though? Now you gave me doubt, Toni.

Why don't she have a belt?

No, no, no, no, no, no, no. no.

You don't want no belt with no one-piece.

- That's a one-piece? - Yeah.

- What do you think, Mama? - Let me see. Stand up.

I just thought you should've dressed a little more formal.

That's like rehearsal.

Who goes to rehearsal like this?

- Livin' people. - Get up!

Coming up on "Braxton Family Values"...

Some of Grammy's biggest artists

is in the audience staring at me.

And I'm just like,

"You better make this here count, child."

Coming up to the stage, Tamar Braxton.

I am really wondering

why my relationships always turn so sour.

I don't wanna say, oh, they all stem from daddy issues.

It still hurts you, and it's okay to say it hurts.

Come on, superstar. You wanna taste Mommy's tea?

- This is what happens. - Yuck!

Yuck? Okay.

Vince, how your son come to me talkin' about he wanna come see me sing,

but "psycho boy" just wanna lay on the bed and watch TV

- and order room service? - That sounds about right.

- Do I hear Logan? -Yep.

Logie!

Let me see your new pajamas.

- He got a blueberry. - You got a blueberry?

'Kay, put it right here for T, 'cause I'm gonna eat it later.

Put it right there. Thank you, nephew.

Such a good nephew. I love your pajamas.

- Toni! -

"Auntie Toni."

Who goes to rehearsal like this?

Livin' people.

Get up!

Talking 'bout I'm going to rehearsal!

I mean...

- Patti LaBelle go to rehearsal like that. - No, she don't.

I performed with Patti. She did not dress like that.

She had on some Loubotin flats.

Some-- she didn't even have on jeans.

She had on "slacks," is what Mommy and them call it.

I never said "slacks."

You know Mommy age group-- they call 'em "slacks."

Like, I wish you had, like, Mommy's jacket on with that.

You want this jacket?

- You wanna wear this? - I can't fit in that.

- You could probably fit this. - I can't fit that shirt.

I bet you you can. First of all, I got--

I'm 5' 7" right now,

with my dated Christian Louboutins.

You gotta be an artist, you gotta look like a star

whenever you're onstage. I don't think Tamar

should make it so... "take me out to the ballgame."

Wear this. This will fit you.

I mean, Toni Braxton tried it and told me

that my outfit look like I'm fixin' to go to rehearsal,

but she is Toni Braxton, living legend.

So I have to listen to her, and be like,

"Ooh, girl, that ain't right. Thanks for telling me, boo."

It's a little too long in the crotch, anyway.

I was faking it.

Try this on. Let's switch.

Let's switch right now. Let's switch.

Okay, let's see.

Okay, Toni decides she don't like my outfit.

She liked hers better, and we need to swap.

And she's right. Her outfit do look better on me.

- - I did.

- That's what sisters do, huh? - Yeah.

I look like I work at Nordstrom's.

No, you look like you my sister. You killin' it.

Perfect. That's perfect.

Thank you. Thank you much.

-All right, girl. Love you. - Love you.

You got my "ears"?

They're right here.

Coming up to the stage, Tamar Braxton.

It's such an honor for me to be here tonight.

So tonight I'm performing my Mom's favorite song,

"Who's Loving You."

And I just hope I do it justice

because she used to sing the life

out of that record growing up.

♪ I treated you bad ♪

♪ Ooh... ♪

♪ And wrong, my dear... ♪

Some of Grammy's biggest artists

is in the audience staring at me,

and I'm just like,

"You better make this here count, child.

All right? You better remind these folks

why you are here."

♪ Gotta know ♪

♪ Who's loving you? ♪

♪ You ♪

So I do!

She killed it.

Thank you so much. Good night, everybody.

Hello!

So thanks for coming back in.

I know last time we talked about family dynamics.

How has that been for you?

Um, it's still a bit of a struggle.

You know, um-- when you're working on boundaries

it's never an easy thing.

But as I am rediscovering things about myself,

I am really wondering

why my relationships always turn so sour.

Mm-hmm.

And I honestly really feel like

I need some type of closure

for my last relationship.

It was so angry on both sides

to where we both didn't make great decisions.

I have to really sit and think about

- the role that I played... - Mm-hmm.

...in, you know, the demise of my relationships.

I don't wanna say, oh, they all stemmed from daddy issues.

My dad was always there. He was always a good provider.

And like up until, you know, their divorce,

he was always a very instrumental part of our lives.

How do you think that influenced

how you view other men in your life?

Um, I think the relationship

that I struggle with the most

is the one with my "was-band."

I still have some unanswered questions.

Coming up on "Braxton Family Values"...

What do you want?

There is a little part of me

that still misses the relationship with Gabe.

Hey, Gabe. It's Trini.

Um... I think the relationship

that I struggle with the most

is the one with my "was-band."

Gabe and I are divorced

and the last thing I wanna do

is drudge up old feelings.

But a lot of those things don't affect just me.

They affect the boys.

So there are some questions that I have even with Gabe

as to "Why don't you come around?"

Because they didn't do anything wrong.

I wanted to make sure that my kids

didn't suffer the same fate I did.

You put a lot of pressure on yourself.

I just cared more about our family unit

than I did the situation.

Even though they're not his biological children,

he raised them for 14 years.

So he was-- he was Dad for 14 years.

and now all of a sudden that's obsolete

and I don't want that for them.

What do you want to say to him?

Wow. One of the first things I wanna say to him was

"You did some really (bleep) stuff.

- Mm. - However,

it wasn't all you.

A lot of things happened.

There was some infidelity that went on.

Let me see, we've been married for eight years

and you admittedly cheated on me

for five out of eight years.

And then you follow me around,

then you put a phone tracker on my phone.

You can kiss my entire black behind.

And you want me to sleep with you and do all kinds of all regular stuff

like we're just regular married people with your diseased rhinoceros pizzle?

I don't want that.

That went on, and it wasn't on--

- it wasn't just one-sided. - Mm-hmm.

It was two-sided.

And I could always go and make that excuse

like, "Oh, well, he drew first blood, so..."

Wrong is wrong, and right is right.

Remember that guy in the band that I kept flirtin' with

- all the time I told you guys about? -Yeah.

We had an "oral transaction."

- What'd you say? - We had an "oral transaction."

I'm learning to have accountability

for my portion.

And I think if he and I have a conversation--

a real, adult conversation now--

I think it'll bring closure to not just us,

but it might open a door to where

open lines of communication can begin again with the boys.

What do you want...

...with his involvement in your life?

Um...

it's so stupid for it to still affect me,

but it does.

It's not stupid that it affects you.

It affects you.

There is a little part of me

that still misses the relationship with Gabe

since I was with him for 14 of my life.

This is still very emotional for me.

I forgive the situation now,

but I mean, it's still... internally hurtful.

- It still hurts you. - Yeah.

It still hurts you, and it's okay to say,

"It hurts."

I think if you're ready to have that conversation,

you can do it.

I have a lot of deep-seated issues on my heart.

Things that I have needed to say for a really long time,

but I haven't felt emotionally strong enough to do that.

Toady I'm gonna face my fears and prepare myself

for whatever fallout is coming next.

Hey, Gabe. It's Trini. We need to talk.