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(SIGHING)

So the fourth dimension... Is time.

Right. I knew that.

You explained that a lot.

So do you get it now? No.

(SCOFFS)

I mean, how is that a dimension?

Space I get because, you know, it's space.

Dude, the test is tomorrow.

(SIGHS) And tomorrow is a dimension.

What does that even mean?

I don't know.

I don't know, but I have to ace this test, okay?

Will you please, please just come over and help me study?

This will help us.

(PEOPLE CHATTERING)

Is this gonna be weird?

No. We're fine.

People break up all the time and they stay friends.

Right?

(CLEARING THROAT)

You are so not fine.

Hi.

I just got a call from Michael at work,

and I think I'm getting a promotion.

Mazel tov, dude. Thank you.

Cool. We were, um, kind of studying.

Would it be weird if I joined you guys?

Uh, it's the only time I have to...

It would. Obviously it's too soon for that.

Well, we could study tonight...

I have work.

You know what? Forget it.

I'm fine.

What's her problem?

You're not seriously asking me that, are you, dude?

Whatever.

Hey. Sims 2. It's arriving this afternoon.

You wanna help me install it?

Do you want a piece of me, too? Huh?

I am one person, okay? Just one. Uno.

So why don't you and everyone else just take care of yourselves?

Virtual reality is looking good.

Awesome pattern, don't you think, Joan?

God knits?

It's a great way to center yourself when you have to pass the time alone.

Oh.

Subtle reminder that I don't have a boyfriend anymore.

Cute.

So, you want me to be Spinster Joan,

knitting her way to the grave.

Knitting is the new yoga. Very meditative.

I knitted this top.

No. Yeah.

That is seriously nice.

But you're God. I could never do that.

You used to love knitting, remember?

When you were eight

and reading those Little House on the Prairie books.

Yeah. I tried to make a scarf by myself,

but the yarn kept getting all knotted up,

and I couldn't hold the needles right,

so the whole thing just unraveled.

You can't put too much tension on the arm.

That was your problem.

You have to relax, get into the groove.

That's the meditative part.

I'm gonna look like a total dork knitting, no offense.

You have important work ahead of you.

It requires focus and understanding.

What work?

JOAN: It was a simple question.

Finish the scarf, Joan.

But I don't even know where it is anymore.

(GROANING)

♪ What if God was one of us?

♪ Just a slob like one of us

♪ Just a stranger on the bus

♪ Trying to make his way home

♪ Just trying to make his way home

♪ Just trying to make his way home

♪ Just trying to make his way home ♪

(SCOFFS)

(GROANS)

What next? Do I make my own car?

Do you need to be medicated? What? No.

I'm just knitting.

It's very hip right now, very meditative.

Damn!

Mmm. Looks fun. Got to try it sometime when I'm 100.

Look, I came by to cut you in on something.

I hate my life.

Why?

Well, let's see.

Iraq, corporate corruption, and you and Rove.

It's just really awkward being around him, that's all.

I mean, he-he walks up all excited about his big promotion,

and I know he's just waiting for me to get excited for him

because I can feel it.

What does he expect?

I came to talk about me.

He's very needy.

I know he's artistic and sensitive and everything,

but he can use that to, you know, manipulate people.

Just like, you know, he used you... Dude, I won't do this.

Won't do what? I won't talk trash about Rove.

We've been friends since the second grade.

I can't believe you're taking his side.

He slept with Bonnie while he was still with me!

I'm not taking anybody's side!

Don't you get it? I don't want there to be sides!

Maybe we should all break up.

Grace.

(PEOPLE CHATTERING)

Mrs. Girardi?

Father Payne.

I'm sorry. I went to Catholic high school

and that was our nickname for the principal.

(CHUCKLES) Then why don't you call me Father Dave?

Okay.

His real name was Angelini.

He's probably still out there somewhere

whacking kids with the board of education.

Sorry. I'm rambling. It's okay.

Uh, you said that there was something we shouldn't discuss on the phone.

Sorry for being so cryptic.

As I said, I work at St. Vincent's Hospice in Hamilton.

There's no easy way to say this.

I'm here on behalf of Edmond Dodd.

Should I know who that is?

He's the man who assaulted you in 1980.

You mean the man who raped me.

Yes.

Edmond has advanced pancreatic cancer.

His doctors say he could die at any time now.

He wants to apologize to you for what he did.

He wanted me to ask if you'd come see him.

FREIDMAN: Dude, Sims rule.

So what do we do? We're out of money,

uh, we're down to our last happiness and we've got flies.

Go in the hot tub.

That always perks up the Sims, you know.

We can't do that. We're gonna have another baby.

Forget the baby, man.

If you neglect it long enough,

a social worker comes and takes it away.

(IMITATING BABY COOING)

Oh, dude, these are like, Doritos. uber-

A platonic ideal for Dorito-ness.

Que pasa, mon ami?

You're stoned.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah. (CHUCKLES) Yeah.

Freid, my mom is downstairs.

Chill, dude. I didn't smoke here.

I swiped it from my Uncle Herb.

He has glaucoma.

Dude, focus. The social worker's coming. He's here.

When I see him, it just makes me remember how hurt I was.

Am.

I know it's time to move on,

but all that old stuff is still there, you know?

(CLEARS THROAT) You want some brotherly advice?

Uh, no thanks, Sir Dumped-A-Lot.

Exes can't be friends.

You have to cut the cord.

Oh? What about Brad and Jen?

What about Ben and Jen?

What about Ben and the other Jen?

What about the other Jen...

What about shutting up for one minute?

All done protecting and serving.

Arcadia is on its own.

(WHISPERING) Watch it.

Ooh, coleslaw and cheese grits.

To what do we owe this culinary delight?

I felt like comfort food.

If you wanna order Chinese, go right ahead.

Told you.

Me? I love down-home cooking.

(MAN CHATTERING ON T.V.)

Are you okay?

It's the onions, Will.

I have work. See you.

You're chopping that onion as if it ran the school board.

I said I'm fine. Stop playing detective.

Damn it! Hey, you okay?

Stop asking that.

I got it.

Uh, so it wasn't the onions.

I got that.

Uh...

The guy in art school...

The man who raped me...

They found him?

No.

He found me.

Through a priest.

He wants to see me.

He wants to apologize to me before he dies.

Sick bastard.

What are you doing? I'm calling the DA.

He has pancreatic cancer.

He's in a hospice.

He'll-He'll be dead before it'd even get to trial.

Yeah, well, he's not dead yet.

Are you actually thinking of going?

(SIGHING)

I don't know.

I-I think maybe this was brought to me like some kind of test.

No.

Don't. This is not some mission from God.

This is the man who raped you.

(BELLS RINGING)

Are you going to give me a sticker that says, "Inspected by God"?

Just admiring.

Yeah, well, I really messed up this part.

(SCOFFS)

I dropped a stitch and purled when I should've knitted.

It's hard starting over, isn't it?

Yeah, but the book said it's okay to drop a stitch every now and then.

Well, it's the imperfections that make it unique.

Then I'm definitely unique.

The Persians make the most beautiful rugs in the world,

not that I play favorites,

but on each rug, no matter how intricate and exquisite,

the artist makes sure there's some small defect.

It's called a Persian flaw.

It's-It's a recognition that perfection exists only in me,

an acceptance that life can never really be lived

exactly the way you expect.

I love the colors.

Good night.

(BELLS RINGING)

If you're looking for Grace, she's at her house.

I'm not looking for Grace.

You okay?

Michael fired me.

What?

He, uh...

He said my work's been sloppy for the last month,

and, um...

You know, I've been coming in late.

And then what's really sad is that he's right.

You know, I totally have been doing a lame-ass job.

I mean, with everything that's been going on...

Oh.

So, now I'm involved in this?

I just... I just meant. I know what you meant, okay?

But I can't stand here

and listen to you talk about how you were so wrapped up cheating on me

that you screwed up your job.

It's not my problem, not anymore.

I thought we were gonna be friends.

I know how you'd like things to be,

but life can never be exactly what you expect, okay?

Fine.

FREIDMAN: Dude, it's not heroin.

It's not heroin. It's just a little recreational ganja.

I've only done it a few times.

Dude, you had to call Child Protective Services for a Sims baby.

I mean, if you can't handle virtual reality...

I'm a scientist, not a father, okay?

I'm expanding my neural frontier,

exploring inner space.

Where is your spirit of discovery, Doctor?

Tetrahydrocannabinol affects the potassium

and calcium channels to your cerebral cortex,

which reduces the levels of the neurotransmitter anandamide.

Yeah. Somebody's been doing some reading. Intrigued, are we?

It slows down your brain. Why would you want that?

Because it also releases that sweet nectar dopamine,

which heightens perception of music,

food, sex,

which, when I start having it, will be remarkable.

If you like getting stoned, that's fine.

But experimenting with drugs is not a genuine scientific pursuit.

Oh. So there's a limit on self-discovery?

Deviating from the norm is precisely what generates

our most extraordinary advances in science.

Plus, you laugh your ass off, dude.

I, um, fantasized about bringing a gun today.

My husband's a cop. He would have happily given me his.

I didn't.

M-Mrs. Girardi, if it's too painful...

No, no, no. I want to. I do.

Forgiveness is an important part of faith.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

(CLEARING THROAT)

Thank you for coming.

I don't know how to do this.

I'm just so sorry.

Every day, I think about what I did.

Did you work on campus?

Did I know you from somewhere? I mean...

Why me?

I don't know.

I'd never done anything like that before, I swear,

and I never did again.

The next morning when I woke up,

I hoped it was a dream.

But I saw all the scratch marks.

Is that your family?

Do they know?

When I met Father Payne,

he helped me find God.

I wanna repent.

(SOBBING) Please, I wanna repent.

When? When did you find God?

When you came in here?

(SIGHS) That's pretty convenient.

I know that Christ is with me.

Well, then you don't need my forgiveness, do you?

Mrs. Girardi, perhaps... No.

You grabbed me.

You held me down,

your hand on my throat

so that I couldn't breathe.

And then you...

You left me there.

Do you know how long it took before I could get through one day

without being terrified, without thinking of you?

To let myself be touched again

by someone who loved me?

Twenty five years I lived with that,

and now you have a deathbed conversion

and you want me to spare you the guilt

for your last couple of weeks? No.

Please.

You feel every bit of this agony,

every single moment until it ends you,

and then maybe you'll begin to understand what you did to me.

You're getting exactly what you deserve.

I hope you rot in hell.

(EDMOND SOBBING) Please, no.

(SOBBING)

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

Hey.

Hi, honey.

How's your finger?

It's fine. It was just a little cut.

I've already forgotten about it.

It's kind of oozing.

Look, I hate to sound like you, but if you need to talk...

Your knitting looks good.

(LAUGHING) Yeah, if Ray Charles did it.

Mom, you just seem a little...

I'm fine, honey.

Okay. Sorry.

(DOORBELL RINGING) Oh.

I'm up.

Hi, Mr. Girardi. Is Joan here?

Yeah. Come on in, Grace.

She's in the den. Do you want a towel? I'm cool.

Rove isn't here, is he?

No. Why?

He went hiking this morning up Mount Nashman.

He hasn't come back.

(THUNDER CRASHING)

Nothing.

I don't... I don't feel a thing.

Nothing, nada, niente,

zippo, goose egg.

Dude, dude, dude, dude, chill out, man.

Let the mellow enter your soul.

I'm telling you, it's a waste of time.

My CB1 receptors are obviously too strong

to be overwhelmed by a little THC.

(GIGGLING)

Dude, these are amazing.

SunChips. Best kept secret in the chip aisle.

They're like the filet mignon of the genus chipium, dude.

(STAMMERING) So, like, crisp and-and crunchy

and yet with the optimal sweet-spice ratio.

I could cry, dude.

I-I am crying.

(LAUGHING)

Dude, CB1 receptor shields weakening.

Taking a nap, maybe.

You just don't know how hard your neurons have been working

until you-you give them a little downtime.

Soak it up, man. Soak it up.

(SIGHING)

Are you sure... Are you sure your parents won't smell this?

The HEPA filter, dude.

It's for my allergies.

There could be a biological attack

and the HEPA would save the Freidmans.

You think there will be?

A bi... A biological attack, I mean, someday?

(CELL PHONE RINGING) Dude, dude.

Oh.

Who, who, who, who?

It's Grace.

Buzz kill. Let it ring.

Dude, I mean, it won't stop. I mean, I have to...

It's Grace. You might as well give the Feds a jingle.

She hung up, dude. She must know.

What? Dude, chill out.

Let's put some music on, man.

All righty, then. Snoop Dogg, huh? Hmm?

No. Too many words.

Dude, your computer's on.

Power save.

Pink Floyd.

Too obvious.

Dude, your camera's pointed at us.

Dude, we could be mass broadcasting all over the Internet.

It's not online, okay? Bjork. All right...

No. Too Nordic.

No, dude, it could be mass broadcasting all over the Internet!

Dude, stop saying, "It could be mass broadcasting all over the Internet"!

(POLICE SIRENS WAILING)

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

He was pretty upset, wasn't he? Yeah.

How upset? I don't know. I didn't wanna talk to him.

Me, neither.

This is important. There's a family history of suicide.

Yeah, we know that, Dad.

Have you tried calling him again?

No. I keep getting his voice mail.

There. That's the trail we used to take.

Oh, God.

GRACE: Adam's truck.

JOAN: Oh, my God.

(THUNDER CLAPPING)

Adam!

Adam!

Adam!

JOAN: Adam!

Adam!

Adam!

He said he'd be back by 6:00.

He was gonna pick me up at work.

He always calls.

No suicide note.

I-I'm sorry, Mr. Rove. It's very important that we, uh...

I understand. We should head back to the station,

organize a search team.

He's got to be on the trail. Why can't we just go...

'Cause the trail is washed out around mile three

and we've had some loose boulders coming down.

Well, we can't just leave him out there!

We've already lost three people on the mountain so far this year.

We don't want to lose anymore.

All right, guys. Come on down off the hill.

Meet back at the station. MAN ON RADIO: Roger.

Why did he do this?

Adam! Damn it!

MAN: Nothing up here.

Come on, dude. Let's go wait back in the car.

(CELL PHONE RINGING)

Uh...

Oh, it's Grace again, dude.

Dude, answer your phone.

She definitely knows. She saw the broadcast.

Dude, there was no broadcast.

Who do you think... Who else do you think knows?

Oh, man, my heart is beating like it's trying to get out of my chest, dude.

(BREATHING HEAVILY)

Maybe there was something in that stuff, man. Maybe it was laced.

There was nothing in it, okay.

I'm fine. My Uncle Herb, he's fine.

His sight even improved.

No, no, I'm telling you, dude, it's beating too hard.

Listen.

A-dub, a-dub, a-duh...

Oh, my God, I think it skipped a "dub."

Dude, you're totally flipping out, man.

FREIDMAN: You need to chill, breathe.

People have been smoking weed forever, you know.

Breathe.

Neurotransmitters shutting down. Brain in revolt!

What do you like about this, Freidman?

Nothing anymore.

I'm still not fit to go out.

FEMALE COP: It'll warm you up. I'm gonna go check on the vehicles.

Sam, hold up. I'll walk you guys out. All right.

So we just have to sit here until morning?

I don't understand why we can't go look for him.

It's too dangerous for them to send anyone out.

But isn't that what they do?

It's dark. The rain is too heavy.

The helicopters can't fly.

So what's gonna happen to Adam?

As soon as it gets light or the rain lets up,

they'll start looking.

(SIGHS)

(THUNDER CLAPPING)

(WHEELCHAIR ROLLING)

Hey, any news?

Um, no. Dad and Joan went up there.

(SIGHING)

How could he be so stupid?

Maybe he doesn't care.

That's what I'm worried about.

So, uh, how'd it go today?

Did you see him?

Dad told me.

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

Well, he had no right.

Well, I was worried about you.

Let's not do this, Kevin.

Talk?

About this?

Yes.

So what happened to me is open season, but...

I-I said let's drop it, Kevin.

Look, Mom...

I-I know what it's like to have something happen to you

that no one else can really understand.

You don't understand this!

I have never claimed to know what it's like to be in that chair,

so don't you patronize me!

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

(HELEN SOBBING)

I'm so sorry.

But it's been 25 years, and seeing him, I...

I am right back there,

and I just cannot talk about this with my children.

I-I just can't.

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

The really sick thing is I wanted to hurt him.

You know, when I cut him off,

he had this expression on his face

like he was gonna crumble or something.

And for a second,

it felt good.

I've seen him like that.

After his mom died.

He totally shut down. He stopped talking.

I don't think I heard more than ten words out of him.

Until you came along.

Why did he have to hook up with Bonnie?

Dude, it's... It's not just him.

So if I had slept with him,

then he wouldn't be out there right now?

It's not about sex.

It's...

Sometimes you're not the easiest person to connect with.

What do you mean?

All I'm saying is,

what Rove did, it was low, yeah.

But maybe he didn't know where he stood.

I loved him.

I mean, I still love him. He knows that.

Yeah, but it's...

It's like you always have something that you're keeping to yourself,

something you're hiding.

(THUNDER CLAPPING)

Oh, great.

Well, what do you think I'm hiding?

All the insane things you do, the clubs you have to join,

you never really let anyone in on all that.

Not really.

You just want us to go along with it.

I like to try stuff.

Like knitting? What's that about?

Somebody suggested it.

Who?

What... What difference...

What difference does it make?

People who keep secrets, Girardi...

I've been there.

It keeps people away.

(EXHALES)

I hate this. It's too stuffy in here.

(THUNDER CRASHES)

(TRUCK DOOR CLOSES)

How's the knitting going, Joan?

So God cares more about knitting than Adam?

I don't think we have much to talk about.

You're angry.

I understand.

You know, it's your fault all this happened.

This secret life we've been having has totally messed up everything.

You could share me with whoever you want.

Oh, yeah, yeah.

And wind up back in the funny farm.

No, no, no. You shouldn't tear all that up. That looks good.

You know, it's just a stupid scarf!

Unraveling it isn't gonna make it disappear.

It just changes form.

Am I ever gonna see him again?

And I don't mean in another form.

I mean here, now.

You feel how painful it is to try and sever a connection,

but they can never really be broken.

All of creation shares a common thread, like your scarf.

How you use that thread becomes the pattern of your life.

So, what's happening now, is it because

I-I knitted my life wrong?

I believe in you.

I've seen the ripples.

I've seen how it changes people's lives.

Even when I didn't see, I trusted you.

And you've developed strength

and understanding and faith.

New challenges are gonna make you even stronger.

For what?

Huh, for what?

How much stronger do I have to be?

ADAM: Hello?

Hello!

MAN: Anybody! Oh, God.

Adam!

Jane!

Adam!

Oh, Jane.

What happened? Are you okay? I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay.

Yeah, R-R-Ryan helped me out.

I was lost, too. Never should've been out here.

Adam!

Dad? Adam!

Dad!

I'm okay. I'm okay.

My son.

Grace! Adam.

So, you're Joan?

Oh, yeah.

I was wondering why he wanted me to go hiking on a day like this.

What? Who?

(THUNDER CRASHING)

Who are you?

Ryan Hunter.

See you around, Joan.

At least someone had an anxiety-free night.

Who?

You.

Oh, yeah.

Did you sleep okay last night? You seem a little slow.

No, I'm-I'm fine. I was just, you know,

just studying with Freidman.

You should take a break every now and then, unwind.

No, I-I actually like the-the winding better.

I-I got to go meet Grace. See you guys later.

I finished the Froot Loops.

Perfect. There go all my vitamins.

How you doing?

Fine. Everything worked out, right?

Did you talk to Adam?

Last night at the ranger's station.

He seemed fine.

You can't hold yourself responsible, you know?

Well, that's what they say.

Well, it's true, honey.

You two are going through a difficult break-up,

but if Adam makes a bad choice...

Yeah, but I had something to do with it, right?

I mean, we're all connected like the scarf.

(SIGHING) One piece of yarn.

If you cut it up into little pieces, it's useless.

Can't make anything out of it.

So I am responsible, partly.

We all are.

For everything that we touch and everything that touches us.

Where did this come from?

God.

Isn't that what God says, Mom?

Right, sorry. Probably just low blood sugar.

It was like I couldn't breathe, you know,

and my mind was like this separate being at war with my body.

Did you even notice that I tried to call you?

Yeah, but I was kind of in the middle of a neural nightmare.

And I was in the middle of a real one.

I didn't know if I'd ever see Rove again.

I really needed to talk to you.

It's nice to know how dependable you are.

Look,

I'm just a dumbass kid who did a dumbass thing,

had a panic attack and I thought I was gonna die, okay? That's it.

And you thought you were gonna get some sympathy from me?

Well, you bet the wrong hand, Cheech.

I already have to live with a drunk at home.

Look, I'm sorry, okay? I wanted to answer the phone, but...

I'm not dealing with another brain-dead person in my life.

I threw out Freidman's pot, okay?

And the Pink Floyd box set, all right? It-It's over.

(DOG BARKING)

Moron.

Agreed.

You okay? Your eyes look like tomatoes.

My head feels like it got hit with a shovel,

my mouth feels like I ate dirt,

which conceivably I did. But, yeah, I'm okay.

Not that I give a crap.

(PEOPLE CHATTERING)

(DOOR CLOSING)

Oh, I'm sorry.

They said that it was okay for us to use this room to fill these out.

I don't work here.

Oh.

You came to see Edmond?

He, um...

He passed away this morning.

He finally found some peace.

I'm Anne, and, um, this is our little girl Kimberly.

Hi.

Hi.

Oh, I'm Helen.

How-How did you know Edmond?

In school.

It was a long time ago. Um...

A friend told me that he was sick.

Daddy's in heaven now.

You can talk to him in your prayers.

Well, I'm sorry for your loss.

Oh, thank you. Thanks.

You okay?

Yeah.

(PEOPLE CHATTERING)

(SOFT ROCK MUSIC PLAYING)

♪ There's a world so big

♪ It makes you feel small

♪ There's a hole you dig...

Finish the scarf?

Oh, you know, it's never really finished, is it?

Trying to take my job?

No. But I do have a few suggestions,

like give Sean Penn a sense of humor.

I know how hard this was for you.

But now you know how much more you're capable of.

Why does that scare me?

'Cause you know that every day you'll face things that you can't foresee.

And you know you can't avoid 'em.

You just have to adapt, keep going.

Okay, who was that guy that brought Adam out of the woods?

Another connection.

To me? 'Cause I don't know him.

Connections exist long before we're aware of them.

They've always existed. Always will.

So you talk to him, too?

Come on, don't hang me out to dry here.

Does he know that I talk to you?

Because this is starting to feel really weird.

Don't worry.

Just take it one stitch at a time.

♪ Can one single person

♪ Make a change if they tried

♪ It's true all the martyrs... ♪

Hey.

Hi.

How are you doing?

I'm feeling kind of stupid.

You know, I was just trying to get some time to myself, you know?

I never thought about the rain.

I was really scared

'cause I thought...

You know.

No, no.

No, I could... I could never do that to you.

I'm sorry, Jane.

I didn't mean to drag you through a whole other mess, you know?

I know.

I'll stay out of your way, okay? I promise.

No, Adam, I...

(SIGHING)

It takes too much energy to pretend like we're not connected anymore.

We still are, just in a different way.

That's the hard part.

And the good part.

So you don't freeze

in case you ever get lost again.

(SIGHING)

What are you drawing?

That's that guy.

Yeah, Ryan.

You know, I just got him stuck in my head, you know?

Do you like it?

Yeah.

Sure.

♪ I've been around for a long, long year

♪ Stole many a man's soul to waste

♪ I was 'round when Jesus Christ

♪ Had his moment of doubt and pain

♪ Made damn sure that Pilate

♪ Washed his hands and sealed his fate

♪ Pleased to meet you

♪ Hope you guess my name

♪ But what's puzzling you

♪ Is the nature of my game ♪