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People have mentioned seeing

a man in the woods behaving strangely.

I wouldn't know anything about that.

But, actually, now I think about it,

the doctor was really funny with me yesterday.

Something was definitely off with him.

He collared me in the hotel bar,

and there's one thing he said stayed with me.

There's an ordinary violence in all of us.

Sent chills down my spine.

He's the one you should be talking to.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING

Thinking deep thoughts?

The deepest.

Leave in ten?

Sure.

CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO

See you later. Hmm. Have a good time.

Just watch the clothes.

Capture the tension through the line.

It's really a sense of movement.

Well done.

Becoming quite epic. Beautiful.

Oh, I keep waiting for you to tell me what I'm doing wrong.

That's really interesting.

Oh, have I just outed myself as someone terribly under-confident?

Your lines are actually very confident.

Hm. But do you mind?

No. Go ahead.

See here how the tilt of the neck creates a line,

all the way across the torso...

...into the hips.

CHUCKLES

Don't me tell this is your first course.

Ah, I drew at school.

It was just a fun thing, I never took it seriously.

Well, you should have. You're good.

I never saw it as something I could do, I suppose.

Well, it's never too late to do the things that you want.

Is that actually true?

Yes.

My car's just there.

Give me your phone.

Unlock it.

TAPPING

KEYS JINGLING

Hi.

Bursting for the loo.

SIGHS

How was it?

Oh, I'm not Picasso just yet.

Well, I'm sure world renown is just round the corner.

SHE CHUCKLES AND SIGHS

TYPING

You can do it in the car, Annie. But I...

For goodness' sake, come on.

Be bloody dark by the time we get there.

PANTING

GASPS

BREATHING DEEPLY

EXHALES

WIND GUSTING

KNOCKING

CHUCKLES

No, thank you.

How did you find me?

Mum said you sleep in a car in the car park.

Sort of narrows it down. HE CHUCKLES

Does she know that you're here?

Probably for the best.

Are you still playing football?

Made the school team.

Have you got a position?

Wherever the coach wants me. Apparently I'm quite versatile.

It's actually quite annoying. But mainly on the left.

What, you're left-footed?

I can play with both, but aye.

I used to play on the left.

Couldn't kick for shite with my right though,

so defenders always worked me out.

You can come home some time.

Have a cup of tea or,

you know, use the shower or whatever.

Mum's not usually home till about six.

Do I smell? Be honest, not kind.

Not so you'd notice.

Yeah, the, er... burger place got a bit funny

with me using the washroom, so...

HE LAUGHS

Does your mum talk about me?

No.

Have you got good friends? Yeah.

I know this isn't the dream, this.

I've got to go. Yeah.

They give detentions if you're late, so... Wait. Will I, erm...

Will I see you again?

OK.

Maybe next time we can meet in an actual cafe or something.

I can pay. No. You don't have to do that.

It's OK, I...I'd like to.

CLATTERING

RUMBLING

PANTING

THUNDER RUMBLING

PANTING

What are you looking at?

Look at that.

It's like a clavicle.

I love what you do.

Very bold colours.

LAUGHING OK! Thank you!

Have you got everything?

LAUGHS Yeah, I have.

OK. Yeah.

Have you had an affair before?

No, but, er... David and I had a threesome once.

LAUGHS Man or woman?

Woman. My idea.

I'm sure it was.

David had just had a fling,

and I thought it might recharge us or something.

SIGHS

Oh, I was to blame too.

For his affair? Yeah.

We had young kids, and I was a stay at home mum,

which was sort of my choice, and I resented him for that.

So you should have.

Mm. So I withdrew from him. Emotionally, sexually.

I mean, what did I expect?

For your husband to keep it in his pants.

Course he's to blame, of course he didn't have to do what he did.

He's not a child. Neither am I.

I mean, it's all very well saying, "Oh! Oh, the man, the man," but...

...I'm an adult too, you know.

There's a point you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself and say...

...you know, "Do I want this to work or not?"

And, do you?

CHUCKLES

Tell me about this threesome of yours.

We have this holiday cabin by a loch.

There always used to be these parties with music,

dancing, and drinking.

Mm? And this woman, Celine, took a shine to us both.

Just seemed to happen.

Have you been with other women since?

I have not been with anyone since.

Apart from David.

Annie?

Annie? Come on. SHE GASPS

GASPING AND GRUNTING

SOBBING

Do you have a boyfriend? Er, girlfriend?

No.

Do you?

Have a girlfriend? Or a boyfriend?

I...don't think I'm ready for either.

BOTH CHUCKLE

Ask it. Whatever it is.

Why'd you leave? HE SIGHS

I was drinking too much.

I lost a couple of jobs.

I was a mess.

And Mum grew sick of it.

She said you assaulted someone.

In a town centre.

She said it was quite bad.

Yeah, it was.

Why'd you do it?

This drunk guy in a bar.

I knew him from school.

He used to bully me to shite for being a reader.

He started saying things. Offensive stuff.

How the people that I was fighting deserved to die.

I told him to give it a rest,

and he turned on me.

Called me a baby killer.

So I snapped.

It was like I was outside of myself.

He deserved it though. For all the things he was saying.

They discharged me.

Dishonourably.

Happy birthday.

Oh!

I found it in a second-hand bookshop.

You chose this?

I liked the cover. Thought you might too.

Yeah... yeah, I really do.

See you next week? Aye.

HE CHUCKLES

LOW RUMBLING

PANTING

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. Sorry. Sorry.

Oh, no, no, no, no, no...

GASPING

The nearest one...

And, er, if I wanted to withdraw my half of the balance,

do I need my husband's permission to access the funds?

The day to day account is in your name,

but the savings account is jointly held and requires both signatures.

Yes, of course, yeah.

Thank you. OK.

Ahem.

SIGHS Erm... OK.

Oh...

Oh!

Annie? You home?

What you doing in the dark?

LOW RUMBLING

Hm?

And your executive function

and processing of information will be affected.

And spatial awareness, your ability to process names,

faces, carry out familiar tasks,

as well as coordination and general physical capability.

Er, there are also hallucinations.

SIGHS Hallucinations?

It's very common.

Erm...

have there been any new developments re, erm... Medication?

Well, there are new developments all the time.

I can send you links to the studies.

But I have to say

that the side-effects can be quite unpleasant for most people,

and they don't stop the symptoms long-term.

SIGHS How long will I live?

Erm, five to seven years is most common.

It could be more. Could be less.

But the cognitive and physical decline happens a lot earlier.

That's correct, yes.

That walk used to be easier.

Well, it's steep, that section of path.

Never used to struggle with it.

No, but...

Quite a drop, though.

Well, it's a good job I caught you.

CHUCKLES

SIGHS

I might say something to those, er, you know...

...the Poles in the cabin making the noise.

I just think it's not on.

Yeah, you said. Well, I'm saying it again.

You get so angry with me.

I'm not angry, how is that angry?

What do you call it, then?

Irritation. Well, you're irritated a lot.

SIGHS HEAVILY

I think you should go to Costa Rica.

You can't even get up a hill, how're you gonna manage that?

I didn't mean with me.

Well, what would be the point in that?

After I'm gone.

We always said we'd go. I'd like you to. When I'm gone.

We're not talking about that.

Well, I'm... I'm just saying. I said we're not talking about that.

Stupid conversation!

Shit! Now I've spilt this.

DISTORTED SLOW JAZZ SONG PLAYING

MUSIC CONTINUES CLEARLY ON RADIO

I'm just popping out.

Come here.

You were always so beautiful.

You still are.

Oh!

Silly boy.

CHUCKLES

Annie?

Annie?

What?

It's me, David. Your husband.

I know exactly who you are.

DOOR SLAMS

Oh, this one's for you.

Someone's got handwriting just like yours.

That's your signature across the seal. What is this?

Can I have it?

Why are you writing to yourself?

I need you to listen and not interrupt.

Will you do that?

OK. It's a letter laying out my wishes

while I still have the clarity to do that,

so that in the future, there's...

...there's no doubt as to my intentions.

Wha... what do you mean, intentions?

Annie.

I don't want to see things out. I don't want the decline.

SIGHS

I'll care for you. No, David.

SIGHS

Other people may want that, I don't.

Oh, no, no, it's not to open now.

No, David, please don't.

Dav-- SIGHS

Annie, this is absurd. It's a criminal act.

No, I'm not asking you to help.

You're fine. For how long, though?

No, you're not doing this. Oh, David. No!

No! Oh, no, no... We do not talk about this ever again.

Ever again! No... No!

WAILS David! David...

Go on! Walk away.

SIGHS Like you always do.

David...

GASPS

David? David?

HIGH-PITCHED ROARING

VEHICLE APPROACHING

CAR DOOR SLAMS

WIND GUSTING

I've been getting confused over simple things.

Getting lost. Small things, you know.

My balance is OK, but I have the odd moment.

I'm fine for now, but it... it'll get worse.

How long does it take to progress?

Er, year or two, possibly more, so...

But is there... is there a cure that you can try?

Well, the short answer is no.

If I were to divorce David, then...

...yeah, I would be entitled to, erm...

I mean, I...I don't... I don't know how much, but...

I know we talked about being together.

But I won't hold you to that.

This doesn't change anything for me.

Don't say that. Course it does.

Not for me. SNIFFLES

I'm in it, with you.

All the way.

Whatever it takes.

You tell your girlfriend to butt out

when things don't involve her. WOMAN LAUGHS

What, because men should tell women what to do, is that it?

Oh, don't give me that shite.

CAR DOOR SLAMS

ENGINE STARTS

CAR PULLS AWAY

WIND GUSTING

DOOR OPENS

Hi.

That bloody roundabout's still closed. It's an absolute nightmare.

Can we talk?

Yeah, just let me get the rest of this stuff in.

Is everything OK? Yeah.

PHONE BUZZES

SNIFFLES

SIGHS

Can we sit? Yeah.

Let me just get this frozen stuff in the freezer.

PHONE BUZZES

You need to get that? Yeah.

Ahem.

Hello.

I've just been thinking...

Who is it? ..about everything, and I... Er, it's the, er, doctor.

Whatever, er, we... Oh. Do you want me to speak to them? I don't, no.

Hey. I need more time.

Well, I need to think this through.

I thought you already had.

I'm just saying hold off on any big conversations.

I understand.

I'm hanging up. I'll call you.

No, that's not going to be necessary.

Annie, I'm... I'm not saying. All well?

Er... yeah, yeah.

They were, erm... they were just offering me some free counselling.

I said no. Oh.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah.

Oh...

CHUCKLES

HE CHUCKLES

Oh!

Oh.

I remember that look from our wedding day.

Hopeful and frightened at the same time.

HE SIGHS

The promise we made to love each other.

To be faithful.

I regret my affair with every fibre of my being.

Do you, though?

Cos I don't regret mine.

The art class.

That guy with the facial stylings?

My teacher.

SHE SIGHS

Are you leaving me?

I would have done.

But then Deborah was not the person I thought she was.

SIGHS

I mean, I had no idea.

I know. And I felt quite offended by that.

You thought it was just you who has the big, complicated feelings,

that you were the one deciding if you were going to stay with me.

Never once occurred to you

that I have a life inside here you don't have access to.

I don't deserve you.

I don't care. Cos I'm what you've got.

Not your idea of me, not what you think I want.

Just what I actually want.

What do you want?

SNIFFLES

SIGHS

Is that what I think it is?

I take full responsibility.

I want it to be here.

With memories. With you.

Is that selfish?

WIND GUSTING

SNIFFLES No, I can't let you do this.

Oh, well.

Oh, if you don't, I'll find another way.

That'll be worse. You know I will.

SIGHS

No. No, wait.

No! Let me. Let me, please.

David, I can't. I don't want you to get in trouble.

Everything that I have ever done has been about me.

I'll be fine.

SHE SNIFFLES

I'll, erm...

Er...

I'll mix it in with some, er...

SNIFFS I'll mix it in with some hot tea.

SOBBING

BREATHING SHAKILY

THUNDER RUMBLING

Hi.

You OK?

What did you see in the bothy?

Why won't you tell me? Nothing. I didn't see anything.

Really? Well, what the fuck are you asking questions for anyway?

Huh? What're you even doing here?

Go! Go!

You can't be near me. Why?

Cos I'm dangerous. I'm not safe to be around.

Why can't you get that into your head?

RUMBLING

Don't come close to me.

Don't come close to me!

RUMBLING

SILENCE

Come here.

HE SIGHS

HE SIGHS

It was my daughter I saw in the bothy.

I was afraid of the love that she showed me,

what it might open in me.

So I left. Just like when she was little.

Twice now. Twice I've left her.

She'd still want to see you, if you explained.

HE SIGHS

I don't think people are as capable of change as you think they are.

HE SIGHS

A biscuit?

HE CHUCKLES

Wouldn't wanna get them mixed up now, eh?

HE LAUGHS

How much sugar? HE LAUGHS

HE SIGHS SHAKILY

The things that make up a life.

HE SNIFFLES

HE SIGHS

SHE SIGHS AND SNIFFLES

SIGHS

You're a good man.

I'm so sorry.

One minute, you're the centre of the universe.

And the next...

...you may as well not be there.

But nothing we do is ever lost.

There are places that hold memories.

So much pain.

But also so much joy.

THUNDER RUMBLING

Summerwater is one of those places.

WIND GUSTING

CREAKING

The scream that came from that poor woman.

I think I might hear that till I die.

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