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Look, Mitch, we'll look after you and
that. Don't worry about that. But I'm

going to let you go, Mitch.

What I wanted to say was... Don't try
and make us come to the party, Mandy,

please. You've got to come. He's your
son.

I can't go.

I look like death.

He's dying.

He's dying?

Is he?

He wanted to see Tenby one last time.

Got a car from Justin, which was nice.

I think we should be able to talk about
it. Why? What do you want to do, upset

everyone? He's my brother.

What's a Spanish kiss?

Well, it's like a French kiss, only
further south.

Go on, then.

He wouldn't dare.

All bunny and all.

Don't you know?

Don't you know?

You've been at it again, haven't you?

I'll show you, you bitch!

What are you talking about?

Rachel!

If you made me to come.

In the chilly hours and minutes of
uncertainty, I

want to be in the warm heart of your
loving mind.

To feel you all around me and to take
your hand

along the sand.

Well, try and catch the wind.

When sundown pales the sky, I want to
hide a while

behind your smile. And everywhere I
look, your eyes are

fine.

For me to love you now would be the
sweetest thing.

Dad?

Dad?

What are you doing, Dad?

Hiya, mate.

What are you doing here?

Resting.

Why?

You know, you know that time we went
camping with the Brownies?

Yeah. Yeah, I've just been enjoying
another night under the stars, that's

Have you been here all night?

I'm hopeless, aren't I?

I hope there's left a building.

Come on.

Let's get you looking presentable.

Usually, man.

Just lying on the bloody bench on the
station.

I was on the 802 train when I clocked
him, so I couldn't actually ask him what

was going on.

I think I might walk to work today.

It's about 15 miles.

I suddenly feel this need to walk.

Look, we'll get the next train.

That's cool.

I'll come with you.

I feel like I should...

Keep walking and never stop.

Please, Dad.

He's all right.

Who? Your old dad. Really?

Dad, wait!

All right, Alice.

So you've got to say to me, Alice.

Look, Alice. What about sorry, Alice?

We just had a baby. Yes, I know you
have.

excuse of a husband no he's all right my
mitchell titty don't want you i don't

want him i've got my mitchell and we're
happy

I'm too old.

You can do anything.

You've got it all in front of you.

What? The future.

You're just sad because your mum has a
fight.

I've got absolutely nothing to show for
my life.

What are you doing, Mother?

Look, stay in bed. Don't get up. Did I
disturb you?

I was having a... Oh, just flicking,
really.

How do you... You don't have to.

What?

You don't have to.

Maybe you shouldn't.

I...

Maybe I should go to a hospice and just
fade.

We've never spent a night apart.

We've got a plan and we're sticking to
it.

It's what we always said.

Yes, but if you got ill first... We
always said we'd go together.

It's what we wanted.

You won't be going with me.

You'll be ending with me.

We won't be going to some lovely,
eternal picnic area in the sky.

We'll be rotting.

Flesh rotting.

But we'll be rotting together.

I'm walking.

What, yeah.

Nick told me that you were.

Will you stop and talk to me, Mitch? I
can't.

Why can't you?

I've got to keep walking.

Mitchell, will you please just get in
the car? Leave me alone!

Mitchell!

Mitchell!

How do we manage to find each other?

God. Oh.

I'm joking.

Don't bloody bring him into the
equation.

I sometimes forget we're atheists.

Your little lines here are like waves.

We could easily have not found each
other.

Would we have married other people?

Would we have had other families than
that?

Yeah, we did find each other.

It's going to have to be soon.

I can feel it winning.

I know.

Mitch! Mitch, we'll do whatever you
want.

We could move.

We could go away and start a new life
anyway.

I don't care.

All I want is for us to be happy again.

We were happy, weren't we?

When was our last happy?

Before Dad, you know.

I'm worried about you.

I'm worried about you.

Why?

I don't know who you are.

I'm keeping myself alive so that I can
kill myself.

It's worth taking them, you never know.

I want to go before it eats my brains.

You look as beautiful as you were the
first day I met you.

Got your eyes already, then.

Death makes everyone sentimental.

You've always been sentimental.

Shall we go back to bed?

You tired?

I think I've got an erection.

Shall we do it one last time?

Leave it Shall we?

Who do we want to see?

I walk here.

Oh, I'm sorry your dad was taking his
medication.

Is he all right?

Of course I'm bloody all right.

Hi, Dad.

God, your estate.

Why aren't you at work?

I must be trying.

Yes, sorry, Irene.

She's not feeling too well. Look, I'll
take her on a nance, all right? It's not

exactly ambient.

Get something sorted before the guests
start arriving.

Nicola, Nicola, can you go into school?
It doesn't matter. You're not going to

be too late. Mandy, they don't seem to
know anything about the seven veggies.

Mum, there's something I need to tell
you.

I told them about the seven veggies last
week.

Lovely.

Lovely.

In some ways, it looks so normal,
doesn't it?

Have you told him, Mother?

I did.

We had a chat after last night.

I'm like that peach, aren't I, Mother?

What peach, Dad?

It was fine on the outside, but when we
cut into it, an insect

had eaten away the inside, cut me open
and I'm brown and festering.

I loved you just as much as Justin did.

I know he had more personality. He had
bad personality.

Bad. He lost us all our money, Mitchell.

And the house.

It hadn't been for you.

This is an investment for him.

This place.

I'm just trying to... I

don't

understand why Mitchell didn't tell me
he had an interview at Kingslake.

He's probably forgotten.

You don't know anyone here, do you,
darling? Please don't call me darling

Mum.

Once you've seen the head, the director
of ICT is keen to link up with you.

Obviously.

Clearly one of Nick's many strengths.

We've read all your Year 8 reports.
You've been doing very well.

Thank you.

If all goes well, your father will be
our third commodity broker.

Oh?

And you'll be our first party organiser,
whatever that might be.

Oh, sorry. Sorry, I meant to turn that
off.

Give it a stand.

Hello?

Sheila.

Is what?

Is he?

No, no, Sheila, I can't deal with it
right now.

Yeah, I'll... Yeah, I'll come over
later.

Sorry. Sorry, Sheila.

Bye. Dad's had a little bump in the car.
Sorry.

That's why he's not here.

He's waiting for the AA.

Mitch, they just don't want you there at
the moment.

Why?

They need me. Why don't they want me?

They just want to be by themselves for a
bit. Well, I wouldn't, would I?

I'd want Nick with me.

I wouldn't exclude everyone from
anything. No, I know you wouldn't.

Why don't they want me with them?

She's got a smart clue. Yeah, she's been
to...

Kingslake, remember?

Yeah, they really loved her.

It seems really nice, really, to... You
know?

I think we should go and have a talk
with Dr Roberts.

Me?

Well, you.

That's not a bad idea.

Really?

Well, I can't really go and see Dad's
doctor, can I?

No, I meant about you.

What about me?

Well, I think you should...

You know, go and talk to him about how
you're feeling about things.

What can he do about how I feel about
things? I don't want you, you know,

because of losing your job and
everything, I don't want you getting any

depressed.

How many more depressed?

Look, Mitch, whatever you think, I care
about you.

So much.

I don't like the idea of you sleeping on
a bench.

I don't like the idea of you sucking
another man's cock.

Oh, well.

I guess we both have to live with life's
little disappointments.

So, tell me how you're feeling.

You're like in one of those cowboy
films.

He's shot, winces, and walks on. He's
shot again, and again, and again, but

still he staggers on. His face,
contorted in agony, but he stumbles on.

That's what I feel like.

Like that cowboy.

I've had a little chat with your wife on
the phone.

She's worried about you.

Oh, is she now?

I know about your father.

Did she tell you what she did, my wife,
with the man from opposite's cock?

Why don't I sign you off work for a week
or so? Work?

Work?

No, I've already retired.

I wonder if we should, um... Nothing you
can do, you see.

Why do you say that?

Because for the first time ever, it's
all clear.

That's good.

I can see it all for what it is.

You see, for you, you can be very happy,
but it's all muddied for you. But for

me, everything's crystal clear.

And rubbish.

What's rubbish?

It's where we live our lives.

We've got it wrong.

Who? But they can't let us know how much
bollocks everything is, otherwise

there'd be chaos in the street.

Why do you think there'd be chaos? Well,
because we all live for the family, the

job, the house. I mean, we stumble on so
blinkered. If we were to rip those

blinkers off, we'd burn the world down.

I think medication could settle you down
a little.

If only it was as simple as an insect.

What? Well, if it was an insect, cancer,
we could kill it!

You know, like the peach.

Peach?

People write articles all the time about
how they've defeated cancer.

Do you have any voices inside your head?

No.

I want to try you on antidepressants.

Maybe Dad's thrown the towel in too
early.

Mitchell? He needs me. Of course he
needs me.

Your mother will need you too.

She wore a herringbone coat when they
first met.

I can't see her in my coat now without
wanting to cry.

You know, in my painting of God, the
Austin A -40 is right up there.

Hello, love.

We've gone to bed.

He's dead asleep.

I wanted to show him all his memories,
get him better.

Ah.

Right, let him sleep. We'll start in the
morning.

Start what?

Getting him better.

Conservative effort, Mum.

Are you wanting to... Why aren't you at
home?

I was in the garden the other day, and I
picked up this lumber wood, and there

was all these ants, little black and red
ants. They started fighting.

Because that's all the world they knew,
you see.

They didn't know what was on the other
side of the fence. Can you imagine that?

Mitchell.

Maybe we're like that. Maybe our world's
like that. Maybe we're just under

someone's love of wood.

It's late, Mitchell.

It's not too late, though.

Red ants defeating black ants. That's
what we're on tomorrow.

I'm going to sleep on the sofa tonight
to be on hand to help.

Oh, I'm not sure your father will want
it. Mum!

We must help him regain control of his
body.

There's a world out there he doesn't
know about. I'm going to send the red

in to defeat the black ants, and then
I'm going to teach you how to drive.

Night -night, Mum.

Along the sand, I may as well try and
catch the wind.

When sundown fills the sky, I want to
hide a while

behind your smile.

And every time that your eyes are blind.

Get him to go, Mum.

I will do. Don't worry.

He's trying.

He's only trying to be helpful.

How's he being helpful?

He's trying to be useful.

Get him to go.

It's not five o 'clock in the morning
yet, Mitchell.

We've got so much to do. We've got the
mixed herbs.

What's that?

Big hearty breakfast.

Then we're off to get you a car.

I can't drive.

Exactly. That's why I'm going to get you
an automatic.

You like red, don't you, Mum?

Nice little red automatic. You can nip
it out doing your stuff.

Well, I'm making Dad better.

Sonny, you're going to miss your train.

Nick!

Look, I've got a train.

What, it's not 3 ,100 per 10?

Miss your dad.

Hello?

Yes?

Oh, yes, hello.

Yes.

it to us for a day.

I don't know, I don't really like it.
Yes, come and practice, Mum.

Let's drive the car for a day and see if
it'll suit you.

It'll suit you, Mum.

I don't think it'll suit me at all.

Simple as that. Go, stop, voila, Bob's
your uncle.

Don't make me have driving lessons,
Mitchell.

Go and get Dad.

Why? I want him to see your mean
machine.

I don't know whether he's well enough
to... Get him to come to the window,

We're only borrowing it, aren't we? All
those things you were signing, it's

going back tomorrow, isn't it? Go and
tell him you can watch him have your

ever drive.

I dropped drops.

I couldn't get up.

I'm back.

I'm back.

I do want to help.

Of course I want to help, but it just
doesn't stop it being a bit of a pain,

that's all.

For whom?

Oh, do be quiet. You like a bit of a
turmoil, a bit of a crisis.

I like things to be normal.

Why do you think I like a crisis?

Well, all women love a bit of a palaver.

How do they do anyhow?

Nothing else to do. I've got plenty to
bloody do.

I just happen to like them.

They are our best friends.

I mean, what's the point in me just
playing you?

Sorry.

I just wanted to... It's Nick.

No problem.

So you don't reckon... I don't think
he's remembered, has he?

Mitchell. He's forgotten about the
baddest.

Oh, come on, love.

Oh, no, don't.

Don't. Set me off again.

It'll be fine.

I'm going to have a word.

I think it's more than just having a bit
of a word, Bernard.

No, you leave Mitchell to me.

Yeah, Bernard reckoned he'd thought him
out.

Walking? I've got to walk.

I've got to walk.

I'll mention to Bernard.

Who does he think he is all of a sudden?

Forrest Gump?

When she'll be back.

He's just making a point.

I'm going to have a word with him.

Old skin?

No, it's my mum's skin. It's lovely
skin.

It's gone like chicken skin.

Do you remember?

Remember I used to say I wanted to keep
your hand with me at night? I wanted to

be able to unscrew it and hold it all
night. I know you had to go to dad.

But I wanted your hand. I wanted to...

Hold your hand.

I wanted to hold you all night, too.

I know you did, Mum.

But now, I want to say goodnight.

And I need you to be big and brave and
let me go.

I love you, Mitchell.

I love you, Mum.

I'm going inside now, and I don't want
to hear any more fuss.

And if you're ever frightened, just
close your eyes and pretend we're

holding hats.

I can't go round there again.

Bernard will go.

What now?

Thanks. Poor Sheila's tearing her hair
out. Well, I can't go tonight.

Fucking hell, Bernard. I'll tell him to
crack up at a time that's more

convenient for you, shall I?

He'll go and get him. Of course he will.
Won't you, Bernard?

We're all doing all we can, Mandy.

Yes. Sorry.

Bye. Bye.

father took to singing there is a happy
land

just before you do you think there is a
happy land

we've had our happy land here together

do you think mitchell the only way
mitchell can sort himself

out is if we're not here to burden him

It's the only way he's going to grow up.

I called Mandy.

She'll be round in a minute to take him
away.

I told her we were sleeping.

She said I sounded tired.

What are you doing, Mitchell?

Mitchell!

What she done was stupid, you know?

I know where you're coming from. I'd
feel the same as you.

My mum and dad won't let me in.

No, I know.

They called Mandy and she called me.
They've gone to sleep, mate. They're

They're elderly, you know.

I've come to get you.

I want dad to pay the car.

Open the door, Mitchell.

I don't want to go home. I ain't taking
you home.

I'm taking you out.

I don't want to go out. Open the door,
mate.

Open the door.

Good.

Right. Now, come on.

Out you get.

I'm feeling a bit tired, actually. I
might just... No, no, no. Come on. Come

Out.

I'll tell you what.

Look, we're going to Jag.

What? I'm so pleased with it.

What do you mean?

The Jag.

We'll put the CD player on random.

You'll love every song and you'll sing
along.

What? Watch your head, Mitch. Watch your
head.

All right?

Look at the CD. Look at it. Look.

Have a look at that, Mitchell.

What do you want to hear?

I love you.

I said, I love you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I love you too, Sidney.

Then everything's all right.

You were the first person who loved me.

And the first person I loved.

The first and last, I hope.

It's been worth it, hasn't it?

I'd do it differently.

But we don't get a second crack at it,
do we?

I love you.

I know you do.

Don't try and hit the ball too hard.
Just sort of go through the ball.

You've got to go with the ball.

Create a pendulum motion. Now, can you
feel me? Breathe with me, Mitchell.

Breathe with me.

Feel the flow. Let it go.

The sweet spot.

You beauty.

Swing out your system, mate.

Hello?

I feel warm.

Glowy.

Peaceful. There is a happy land far, far
away.

My mum used to say, when

you sneezed, it was your soul coming
out. That's why you had to say, God

you.

I wish I'd been laid off.

I play golf all day, me.

You want to look at your sucking as a
golden opportunity to get your handicap

down.

It never stops, does it?

It never stops.

Speak.

Hello, Mum. How are you, me old
sweetheart?

You haven't been on a sherry again, have
you?

No, only having a steppy grah.

No, that's a lark, Mum.

A laugh.

What would I say are you going with the
giraffe?

There is a happy land far, far away

where saints in glory stand bright,

bright as day.

Hello, Doctor.

You said I could leave a message on your
answer phone.

We're sorry, Doctor.

The lady at number six has a key.

We're sorry, Doctor.

This is the way it had to be.

Don't worry about us.

We're happy.

I'm sorry, Doctor.

You will come in on your own, won't you?

And explain to Mitchell and say

sorry to everyone.

Well, that's alright.

It's a fine pulse.

Suggest a song.

And that's him, is it?

Ian?

Okay. Fine pulse.

It's all right, I'm their doctor.

I knew this was her.

She left the message on the answer
service explaining. What?

She's Sheila, Mrs. Greenfield. She's on
the answer.

Is there anything I can do?

Some. Maybe you could... Yeah, my
inspector won't listen.

He won't listen to the lady saying it.

Hi, Mitchell.

I'm Dr. Bright. There's a faint pulse on
Dad.

It's all right, Mitchell. I'm here now.

You weren't supposed to find them. Your
mum, she met them. There's a faint pulse

on Dad.

Not on Mum. On Dad.

There's a faint pulse on Dad.

Mum. Hello, Doctor.

You said I could leave a message on your
answer phone.

Come on, mate.

I know how you feel when I lost my
granddad.

Enough to be very brave, me and you.

and if you had one chance

to take

Why is everybody crying?

I

don't

want to go to school today.

No, you don't have to.

Go and take your uniform off, get back
into bed, watch a video or something.

Which one?

Any one.

It doesn't seem right.

What?

I think it seems right.

Love you, Dad.

Love you.

I keep thinking it's all a dream.

A dream?

Yeah.

Hello.

What are you feeling?

Me? I'm fine, yeah. How are you feeling?

What have you got in the bag?

I've got croissants.

Pop to the baker's on the way round
here. You've got enough to worry about

without worrying about breakfast.

Oh, poor baby.

I've got you and chocolate.

Why don't you try another breakfast,
Mitch?

Then we'll go and see your dad, yeah?

I'm hungry.

Sir? You got my mother in there. Oh, I'm
sorry I wasn't here. Fila Greenfield.

Would it be easy if we made an
appointment for a little later?

I'm here now.

OK.

Hi mum What are you doing in this

little room eh?

What you in here for?

You used to... You used to strap my
hair.

Mum, do you remember?

When I was sleepy, you put me in your
lap and strapped my hair, and then one

you stopped.

I remember, see, Mum.

I can feel my head in your lap and your
hand on my head.

And you carry me to bed and...

Kissed my eyes, goodnight.

And one day he didn't do it no more.

He told me I had to be a big boy.

Mum,

I've got to be a big boy now, Mum.

I've got to be a big boy now.

I say...

Goodbye and let you go.

She's alive.

No, sir.

No, no, she just... No, sir.

I swear to you, she just said goodbye.

I lifted her up and she said... When
you, uh...

moved her, so what can sometimes happen
is air from the lungs.

But...

How much of a statement do you actually
need?

I mean, it's upsetting me. Goodness
knows what it's doing to him. You know

happened. So, where... Sheila went into
the kitchen.

She came back with her drinks.

The cocoa.

With her... You knew what was in the
cocoa.

You knew Sheila had put the tablets in
the cocoa. You knew that, did you, sir?

I just wanted me with my Sheila!

Oh, God.

Now you can stroke my hair for always

Greenfield

Hello

It's me again.

Sorry, but I have to ask you to open the
door, please.

Bernard, talk.

No,

no, she's tied up at the moment.

Can I help?

It's the Undertakers.

Guess what he's done now.

Mitchell?

Mitchell, it's me, Mandy.

Open the door.

Open the door, Mitchell.

No, I'm all right.

You go off and get on.

See you later.

No.

No, Mitch.

Please, please, will you open the door?

Come.

Why?

I love you, Mitchell.

Open the door.

It'll get better in time.

I promise that it will, Mitch.

I don't want things just to get better
in time without Mum.

Not without my Mum.

Mitch.

I

can

help things to get better, Mitch.

Please let me help things to get better.

She said goodbye to me, man.

That's good.

That's lovely.

Is it?

Yeah.

She loves you, Mitch. She loves you.

She said goodbye.

She wanted you to know that it's all
right.

You're so right.

So many things to do. When we get home,
I'm making lists. And then I'm ringing

everybody up and explaining everything.

I've got to get on. You're so right,
man.

Mitchell, we're all here to help.

I mean, the world is still here I drive.

Everything's so changed.

A list is important.

You still look the same. I look the
same.

There's hymns to choose, flowers to buy,
speeches to write.

The catering needs sorting.

A funeral. Mitchell, Mitchell.

I'm not the same.

Hiya,

mate.

You've cut all your hair off, Dad. Can
you fire up the computer for me, Nick?

Get up and organise.

I think you have a nice little bath,
Mitch.

Me? Yeah.

Just to... Well, you know, why don't
you... Planning?

Yeah. I'll bring you a nice cup of tea.

We've got to be on top dorm, you know.
You'll feel better, Dad. Go on.

It's my mum's funeral tomorrow.

I'm sorry.

Thank you.

Would you like me to arrange a bouquet?

How many did you get for £1 ,000?

£1 ,000?

£2 ,000. I don't mind. I just want a
lot. I want the whole place festooned. I

don't care about the cost.

I should have to order them this morning
for tomorrow.

We can arrange them. She spoke to me, my
mum.

She said goodbye.

Is it just lilies that you want, sir?

It's OK.

She was dead.

She said goodbye.

I saw an angel at the end of my bed when
I had my hysterectomy.

to pop it up here for you, yeah?

Where's Mitchell?

He's still sorting, isn't he, Mum? Yeah,
he'll be here to pick you up tomorrow.

About three.

Your black tie's in your pocket.

I wanted to hold you all night, too.

I know you did, Mum.

I know you did.

I love you, Mitchell.

Hello, mate.

Something underhand?

Oh, you want to do this now?

Well, it's got to be done.

Well, why don't you just... I laid down
and saw what Mum saw.

What was that?

I wanted to see what she saw at the end.

What was the last thing Mum looked at
during her time on this earth?

Maybe it was the ceiling.

A swirly plaster.

Mitch, why don't we wait to do the big
clear -out?

Dad's never coming back here, is he?

We know that.

I don't want to pretend I don't know
that.

And I do know that.

He'll never come in and out of hospital.

Why don't you go and see him?

I will do.

When? I will do. I've got lots of things
to do. I've got loads of things to do.

Mitch, the funeral's tomorrow.

I don't think that you should... I've
got to sort everything out. I've got to

sort things out, you know.

Look.

I mean, it's natural, man. It's my lot,
you know.

Look.

Go on, you go off and get on, yeah?

Yeah.

I'll be flying.

Go on.

So, are you looking forward to this new
school, then?

I don't care anymore.

Oh, make me proud.

I don't want you to die.

Make me proud.

Would you like an apple?

Your Auntie Iris is clearly trying to do
for me. I couldn't even eat them when I

was well.

She made us loads of cakes.

Pink icing.

Eat an apple for me.

Such a

Long time since you've let me brush your
hair.

Sorry.

I used to do it when you were little.

Very little.

Then one day you woke up and you said
you wanted to do it yourself.

Kids say, take my prize, don't have any.

Can I do that for you?

Okay.

Then I'll have to have no kids for six.

Oh!

Are you... Has it not been very nice?

Being the only one?

Yeah.

I think maybe it's a good idea, you
getting into Kingslake.

I seem a bit irrelevant now.

Yeah, I know.

In a little while, you know, when we say
goodbye to Grandma,

then normal things will become important
again.

I've had a really lovely few days with
you.

It felt like you and me, you know.

I love you, Mum.

Yeah.

Well, you won't be very far away, will
you?

Your son coming at three, babe?

Well, you just sit there and relax.

You all right?

Yeah, fine, fine.

Yeah. Yeah, you?

Yeah, yeah.

Do you want to get off and get your dad?
The cars are going to be here in a

minute.

He'll be all right. He wants to see you.

I'll take Nick.

Can I take Nick?

Yeah, all right.

Great, yeah.

All right.

Yeah, see you in a bit.

All right.

Nick. Will you come and get your
granddad with me?

Yeah, yeah.

Get your coat.

Excuse me.

Yeah? Where's my dad?

Oh, I don't know. He was there. I got
him ready.

Excuse me.

What do you mean he's not there?

We can't have the funeral without him.

Well, they said they didn't see him go,
but he's gone, mind.

I don't know what to do.

We've got a plan, and we're sticking to
it.

We always said we'd go together.

Where have you been, Dad?

You're supposed to be waiting for us at
the hospital.

You never come to see me.

I was in there, but you never come to
see me.

I couldn't... Coward.

I've arranged a special... special
farewell for Mum.

I'm going to Temby.

Take me to Temby. Say goodbye to Mum.

Now, walk there, then.

I can't walk, Grandad. I'm going to
Tembley!

Any sign?

What's happened to them?

The thing is, if we don't make a start,
we'll lose our spot. Yeah, but we can't

just... Well, there's another one booked
in for five o 'clock. Well, can we just

give it, you know, five minutes or
something?

Maybe something's happened to them.

I mean, this is...

For Mitchell, you know. I mean, it's
Mitchell's.

Five minutes and we skip the laws of my
shepherd.

Yeah.

Come on,

Mitchell.

What is inside?

At the end.

What did she say?

Nothing.

About me? Nothing.

Amen.

Thank you.

Mum. Mum, it's me. I'm not sure what's
happening. Can you come and help, Mum?

Can I say goodbye to Grandma?

What do you mean?

Grandad said it had to be at 10b. Oh,
Nick.

Nick, Nick, where are you? Where are you
now?

I don't know.

But can you bring Grandma down to 10b?

So we can say goodbye.

Belinda.

Be my best friend.

I am.

I've got to go somewhere.

Be my best friend and just don't ask.

I need to be with Mitchell. Can you just
hold the fort for me?

Mand!

Bernard. Bernard, she has to go.

Remember us.

Our family at Temby.

I'm peeling my own shit, son.

You're playing on the sands.

Your mum sat up top, watching me and
Justin digging.

You kept waving.

You were happy, you were smiling and
waving. I was waving at Justin, not you.

Mum was waving at me.

I was waving at Justin.

Why did you prefer him?

What did I do that was so wrong?

Mum loved me.

Whatever you say.

She just loved me behind your back.

She tried to warn me what your plan was.
She said goodbye on the doorstep of

your bungalow. She tried to warn me.
You're making it up.

You ruined everything then and you're
doing it again now.

She didn't want to die with you.

She wanted to live with me.

I wish she was alive and you were dead
and she could have a bit of a life, a

of a life without you.

Before you were born, me and Mum, we
were just fine.

Fantastic.

In love.

Happy. I've never been so happy.

And then you came along.

Mummy spent all her time.

You always had to be held.

She couldn't put you down.

I was a baby.

You weren't just a baby!

You became her life!

You were jealous of a baby.

I've ruined your life just by being
born.

Don't be stupid.

I am stupid!

Because I want you to lock me back!

You're my son.

Of course I love you.

But you're not like me.

Pardon?

I never knew what you were thinking.

I always understood everything that was
going on in Justin's head.

I was like Mum.

A bit of her I never understood.

You were a mystery to me.

A strange child in my house.

You're grown up!

Why do you bother with all this? Which
one was my favourite rubbish?

I don't know, Dad.

But I'm 44 years old.

And I could weep now thinking about it.

You should have had children.

I know.

I spy motor lights from the beginning
with S.

C.

Well, here we are again.

We're at Tenby, Dad.

Come on, now.

Time to say goodbye.

Out we come, now. Here we go.

Oh, I've got him. Come on, Dad. Out we
come.

Dad, it's cold, Dad.

Dad! Out we come.

Here we are. Come on, Dad. All right.

Got you.

It's a lovely bench.

Look, Dad.

Look. They're beautiful, eh?

Is it just as you remember, yeah?

You go and play in the sand, yeah? I'll
wave to you. We're just going to sit up

here a while.

Go on.

Can you smell the memories, eh, Dad?

The history in the air?

Nothing, nothing any good.

Nothing was good enough, was it? How you
doing?

Trying to make you happy.

I never could. I never, I never could.

I'll build a sandcastle.

Look at me, Dad.

I'll jump off the top board.

Look at me, Dad.

I'd work in the city. Look at me, Dad.
I'd buy you a new house. Look at me,

But you never could.

All useless.

Granddad's dead.

He's dead, Mum.

Dad keeps on talking to him. I don't
know what I'm supposed to do.

It's all right.

Can you look after this?

Okay.

Don't touch me.

Don't pretend.

I'm not pretending, Mitch. You're
pretending.

It's all been pretend, I know. No, no.

Mitchell. You can't change things, man.

For always, you were going to go.

We put it off.

Nick was always going to go.

We can't put it off anymore.

Come on, Nick, get in the car.

What about friends, then? Don't worry
about him.

Come on, Nick, get in the car now.

Come on.

You get it.

Sure. Just us now.

We're all just left.

Where are we going?

We're going together.

No. Mitchell.

Mitchell, stop this. You're not leaving
this.

Nick's not leaving me. Mitchell!

Mitchell! Mitchell, stop this!

I can't take any more leavings. Sam,
stop it! Mitchell, what are you doing?

You're my family. Mitchell! You're my
everything. I just can't let it happen.

Mitchell, don't! We'll be together.

I love you.

You and me, we'll always be together,
Mitch.

It's all right.

It's all right.

I love you.

I don't want you to die.

I don't want to.

I want to live.

I dream of fallen angels

touching,

touching me,

touching me,

touching me.

I dream of falling angels

touching