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- Oh you're here. - Hi, Dr. Fitzwell.

I'm Violet, nice to meet you. [door closes]

Hi, Violet! It's a pleasure to finally meet you.

- Yes, you too. - Please have a seat.

Okay, thank you.

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So ...

Why don't you tell me why you're here today?

So, I've been a part of the Amish community

my whole life.

Okay.

Uuummm ... They allow you to kind of go

out into the world for a year so that way you can

decide if you want to go back into the community

after. So I started college and I really liked

it. I'm just starting to get into the community

and I'm starting to like see and experience

things that I didn't even know existed.

That's normal.

Yeah, like a major culture shock.

I can imagine. And I think the main issue is like

we're not really around like other genders as

much where I'm from and so I'm starting to feel

a lot towards the other gender and I don't really

know how to control that or what to do about it.

Okay. I ... your ...

So describe to me just a little bit more detail about feeling towards other gender.

There's this guy in my class and like he sits

right in front of me and like when I look at him

the things I want him to do to me like I don't even know how they got into my head.

Okay, so I think I understand. So is it

specifically directed towards one person or is it just

now the males in general?

I think he was the first person that I ever even thought

like that for so now it could be for just guys in general.

Okay.

But I think to have these thoughts like I direct it

towards him because it just helps with the imagination of it.

Okay. Well, first let me explain to you. It's

absolutely perfectly normal to feel this way.

Okay.

We are sexualized.

We are sexual creatures as humans and we're given these urges to help us procreate.

So it's completely natural and completely normal.

To suppress these feelings are what's unnatural.

Yeah.

So I just want to reassure you that what you're

going through is completely and totally normal.

And it's something that you should honestly embrace.

Okay.

So if you don't mind.

Do you want to?

Okay.

Do you want to expound upon the nature of these urges?

What are some of the things that you're thinking about?

I mean, I saw in a movie clip one time of this girl sucking a guy's penis.

Okay.

And that's been in my head a lot of what I would want him to do to me.

Okay.

So this is something you've never experienced before?

No.

Okay.

And I just think about going back to his dorm

room and him like kind of choking me a little.

Really?

Yeah.

That's very progressive.

Kissing me and I heard someone say fucking, fucking me.

Okay. So having, engaging in sexual intercourse.

Yeah.

All right.

But have you ever experienced or with any kind of like self pleasure?

Recently.

Okay.

But I could not like, that doesn't happen where I'm from.

You don't do that.

And so that's why I feel like I am doing something really wrong.

Oh, well, I can assure you, you're not doing anything wrong.

You're just doing what is.

What is in our human nature to do.

Okay.

So during these episodes of self pleasure,

were you able to actually pleasure yourself

or bring yourself to an orgasmic state or was it just.

What's that?

Female orgasm is where you're, you're

building up this sexual energy into where it gets to

a point where it just overcomes you and

explodes and, and, and unbelievably euphoric feeling.

Explodes.

Oh yeah.

Oh yeah.

So you haven't been able to achieve this euphoria at any time, any point?

No.

Okay.

All right.

So, so what I would like to do is one thing

that I have to, have to, you know, let you

know, we audio and video record everything in my office.

Um, it's strictly for my own note taking later on.

To be able to check out your body language, to be able to see, you know, how it just,

you know, how, how you're responding.

It's just a detailed, um, documentary of our session.

You know, nobody else sees it stays

right here for me, but it's just a vital tool that

I use for, for out there.

Um, I would like to do a little, uh, experiment with you now to where you can.

Just close your eyes, go to your little happy

place and really truly start to explore your

own body and your own sexuality.

Uh, do you think that's something that you could be able to allow yourself to do?

I mean, I could try.

I've never done that in front of somebody before.

Oh, well just, just understand that I'm

your, I'm your doctor and it's perfectly fine.

So just close your eyes.

Close my eyes and imagine what I've been imagining.

Exactly.

Just close your eyes and imagine what you've

been imagining and feel free to express that

in a physical manner by maybe, you know,

uh, massaging yourself, you know, in your lower

vaginal area.

Why?

In front of you?

That's, it's perfectly fine.

It's, it's, it's, it's a purely medical.

I've never heard of anyone doing that in front of their doctor.

Oh.

But it happens all the time.

This is a slightly unconventional, but you know, it works tremendously well.

Have you had other people do this and it works?

All the time.

It's a hundred percent.

So less thought and more just letting yourself go.

I think you'll find it to be quite liberating.

Okay.

I'm going to pretend you're not here.

Okay.

That's exactly right.

You're going to watch?

No.

I'm just going to take notes.

Okay.

All right.

I just don't think I can really get into it with you.

Okay.

I do.

Let's do a little visualization.

Okay.

Let's do a little visualization exercise.

I want you to close your eyes.

Okay.

And I want you to pretend you're in class,

but you're not in class in the physical sense.

You're basically there in a spiritual sense

and you're watching the guy that you like.

What's, what's, what's this guy's name?

Chenille?

Chenille.

So you're watching him.

Your eyes are closed.

Okay.

And you're just visualizing what you and him would do together.

Okay.

While you're experimenting with yourself.

Okay?

I can do that.

Do that for me.

Just close your eyes and relax.

Just you and Chenille.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

Okay.

Could you spend some time with extra.

Yeah.

Okay.

close your eyes

close your eyes

close your eyes

what are you doing i was just adjusting adjusting my pants just please continue okay

there you go are you are you starting to experience the pleasurable euphoria that

i've been describing to you yeah honestly i've never really felt like so free before

right right exactly i mean this is a this is a

method of self-expression of self-pleasure

that every human being should get in touch with their own sexuality

in order to be able to fully truly experience the the joys and pleasure of intimacy

okay i'm very glad um what i would like to do

now is be able to take this up to another level

and really just be able to get you to to really

maybe incorporate um a toy in with it to really

kind of help you reach that next level that's why a little quick

a little easier oh yeah yeah yeah and um being

that you're very much in tune with the with the

earth and the environment and coming from a

much more simpler time and place i i think i have the

one that's that's going to be perfect for

you all right i'll be right back just a moment

okay here we go

so i want you to take this by the by the larger

end and just are you serious no this is going to

be this is going to be perfect it's exactly

exactly what you need and just insert it with

the smaller end give it a few twists and a little

moves and i i think you're going to find yourself

uh opening up to a spiritual enlightenment

that you have not experienced yet to this point

it's all part of the exercise i assure you it's it's it's the right thing to do

so just close your eyes visualize normally use

corn in this instance i think it is most appropriate

because i'm amish well it helped you become one with nature

where did you say you went to school to become a doctor

uh kelly into university it's one of the most prestigious she just swans around

i've never heard of that yeah it's okay please please proceed

okay like this right there you go just feel slow real gentle

there you go

just close your eyes and just visualize

oh

you

there you go

there you go

oh yeah

If It was someone else who rushed me

and my voice was她

because she was more confident

more confident

organizational

yeah

Hmm.

Ahh...

Hmm.

Ahh...

Mmm...

Mmm!

She's woth it!

Aww...

Hmm...

That's it, just visualize everything you feel is normal, quiet, natural.

I'll tell you what, why don't you take your shoes off,

and then it puts you,

a little bit more comfortable, a little bit more uninhibited, I think.

Okay.

So, take that free.

There you go.

Feel a little bit more free.

Uh-huh.

There you go.

Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh.

Ah.

Mm.

Ah.

Ah.

Mm.

Okay, okay, but you are making some tremendous progress here.

I could not be happier with your effort of, you know,

just being open and being able to get through this.

It says a lot. It says a lot about your character.

So what I would like to do now is, you know, it

appears to me that you've gone to the next level here.

And I just want to make sure that you feel completely uninhibited and

that you really truly allow yourself to get to, you know, that next level.

So I want to free you of all your garments to where you can

just feel free to just go to the next level, completely uninhibited.

So are you okay with that?

What if someone comes in?

Oh, no, no, no.

The door's locked and everybody has been absolutely

instructed while I'm in here in my sessions not to disrupt me.

So you're perfectly safe.

This is a very, very safe place for you.

Okay?

So I'll just go ahead and set that down.

And then just go ahead and stand up.

Yeah, we're just going to help you out of this.

Okay.

So you can really truly...

open up and get yourself to that next level.

Okay.

Oh, all the way?

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, I mean, you don't want to be inhibited, do you?

I guess not.

No, of course not.

I don't want anything to block you from your physical enlightenment.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

These two?

Oh, yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

So now the exercise that I want to do with you is a little more physical.

I want you to basically get used to the human touch.

So if you just close your eyes,

go to your happy place and just feel the sensation

of someone just touching your body.

in maybe a way that you haven't necessarily experienced before or just

let yourself go and just enjoy

Is that nice? It's definitely something

So for the next part of this exercise I'm

going to need you to go ahead and just kneel

down all the way. Okay. And we're going to see how you

uh

interact with more of a live objects. Okay. So

go ahead and just grab a hold. There you go.

Like this? Yeah. And then just just just breathe on it heavily. Just put your mouth

just in the general vicinity you got it. You know. Yeah.

Oh there you go.

There you go.

You know if you could just go ahead and switch hands. Give me some other hands to

maybe you know go down and just just explore yourself

There you go yeah.

Oh yeah, oh yeah, mmm, oh yeah, mmm, oh

that's it, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

yeah, there you go, just let yourself go

and just explore, there you go, just visualize

that it's the guy in your class that you're

just really infatuated with, just close your

eyes, pretend like I'm him.

Oh yeah, just do all the things you've been

wanting to do, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

yeah.

Oh yeah, just do to me what you would love to do to him.

Oh yeah, just hold on to that thing in your

heart, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

All right, guys uh, you trust me?

Okay, let's do the next one.

Yeah.

. . . . ah, ah. , okay.

Oh, that's it.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah, that's it.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, that's it, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, that's it, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah, you're so good.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, God, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, oh, okay.

Oh, okay.

I'll tell you what, for the next exercise, I want

to take it a little bit further in your journey here.

Just go ahead and get up on the couch here.

Okay.

Use your hands here and your knees right here.

Okay.

There.

There.

There, good.

we'll sit down for a little bit later

why don't you just go ahead and lay back for me

okay

and

close your eyes

okay

and then

just

enjoy the experience

okay

okay

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know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

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I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

That's it. Just visualize for me.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah, that's it.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah, that's it.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, so, would you just go ahead and call his name out for me?

Oh, Genea.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Why don't you go ahead and just grab that little coin there.

Okay.

And just, you know, just, there you go.

Yeah, you're doing well.

Oh, that's it.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

That's it.

Oh, yeah

Uh huh.

Oh...

Did you just visualize any-

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

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Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

You're doing well.

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oh, yeah, oh, yeah very cool

oh, yeah, well done

Oh, yeah, you're doing so good, oh yeah, I

tell you what, let's exchange the power here,

okay? Okay. I'm just going to sit down, and

you're going to be in control for a while. Okay.

Oh, yeah. How does it feel to be in control? I like it. You like that? Uh-huh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

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I want you to

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Okay

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Now, let's see how you just do when you totally surrender yourself

Okay

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ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah,

oh yeah, alright, just experiment with that a little bit, oh yeah, it tastes good, oh

yeah, yeah, see, see what you've been missing,

oh, well, I would say this was extremely beneficial

for, mutually, for a therapy session, and

how about if I book you next Tuesday at three

o'clock, I think we have a lot more, I have

a lot more to learn, oh, you definitely have

a lot more to learn, I'll be here next Tuesday, alright.