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[Episode 21]

Sorry, I was on the phone with my dad.

Old Hu, how is it? You've been looking all day.

Give an assessment.

It's not bad. There's a soul to it. The style is unique.

Zi Xuan, I don't have any problems with it.

Your friend's name is Chu...

- Chu Jun. - Chu Jun?

That's a good name.

That can just be your pen name. You don't have to pick a pseudonym.

I really like your drawings.

I'm about to start a new project. I already decided the subject matter.

I think you'll definitely be up for the task.

That's great! You two are really hitting it off.

- Thank you, Chief Editor Hu. - You're welcome.

For this project

we're doing a three-month serial in the first installment.

If it turns out well, we'll add another five.

Then we'll release an animation, figures, a movie, the whole package.

It could even be turned into a television series.

If you're interested, we can discuss the contract right now.

Don't worry, compensation will definitely be generous.

Old Hu, my good man! I owe you one.

What does this have to do with you? I admire Chu Jun's talent.

Thank you, Chief Editor Hu.

I just want to ask how much of my time per week would this project require?

If going by two new submissions a week

it'll probably take up about four full days

and one day for discussion, and one for editing.

You only get one day of rest.

Then... wouldn't my whole week be full?

Pretty much.

I don't know how fast you work yet

so I'm guessing it'll be a bit slow in the beginning as you adjust.

I'm afraid you won't get much free time in the first three months.

You should be prepared.

- That's... - That's not a problem!

There's a problem.

If it takes up so much of my time, how will I still work at the hospital?

You're still going to work at the hospital?

Yang Zi Xuan, didn't you say she was quitting?

- I... - Who says I'm quitting?

I may have mentioned it.

- You shouldn't have! - You shouldn't have!

Listen, I did a lot to get you this job.

Old Hu is my good friend.

Normally, he wouldn't give a newbie such a big project.

Chu Jun, you'd get a salary three times higher than at Renhe

as well as other benefits.

If you find it too tiring, I can talk to him to get someone to help you.

Why did you say I was quitting?

Wouldn't that be good?

You're not happy training at Renhe.

You want to be a graphic novel artist. Why not try to achieve it?

Have you been abroad too long? Why do you act on impulse?

Is changing jobs something to be done on impulse?

How long do you need to think about it?

I don't know either.

I have to go to work.

230 meters. Not bad.

You're here to relax. Why am I the only one playing?

Come, give it a try.

I don't have gloves.

If I'd known, I would've brought sterile gloves from the hospital.

Here, use mine. They're a bit big, but just make do.

This is a driver. Most people start off using this.

Here.

Don't be scared. Nobody will laugh at you.

Play without any inhibitions.

I've gotten rusty, or else it would've been 270.

I can't believe you.

When I said I was bringing you here to golf

why didn't you say you knew how to play?

You didn't ask me.

You're so cunning. I'm not playing anymore.

No, no, no. Don't go.

You can't compare yourself to me on this. I've played with my dad since I was kid.

My dad used to do business in the south. This sport was very popular.

He played with clients.

I could already shoot a 78 when I was 18 years old.

I've never broken into the seventies.

The problem with you when you golf is that your grip is too tight.

On your downswing, you're nearly swinging your whole body around.

That's why you lose some of your strength.

Understand?

Don't just drink water. Here, play.

I... I'm not playing anymore. I'm a bit tired.

Come on, nobody's laughing at you. Play without fear. Here.

You need to have an even grip.

Your ball always veers left.

That means you're swinging too hard with your right hand.

On the downswing, move with your hips and then follow through with your arms.

Here, get into position.

Feet shoulder width apart.

Okay, keep your back straight and squat down a little.

Don't be nervous. Relax, relax.

Relax, but that doesn't mean not using any strength, okay?

Do you not work out?

Arms, back, waist, butt.

How come you're sweating so much? It's not hot today.

I'm a little weak. I need to work out.

Let's have a competition. Whoever loses pays for dinner.

Why don't you just say it? What do you want to eat?

Smart. Keep playing. I'll watch.

Come on, Professor Zhuang.

Hit it!

- Leaving? - Yes.

- Bye. - Bye.

Yang Yu? I'll be going your way. Why don't I give you a ride?

No need, Head Nurse.

I'm having dinner with a friend before going home.

All right. We're taking off then.

- Okay, see you tomorrow. - Bye.

Still haven't left yet?

Not going home to make dinner for your mom?

Who are you waiting for?

Don't you know?

What's going on?

He was still very enthusiastic a while ago.

He bought me breakfast, drove me home after work.

Ever since working on the mobile platform with you

he's been growing colder by the day.

He said he was going to go home with me today to fix the water pipe

but now I can't even get him to leave work.

Who the hell did that?

Chief?

- What are you doing? - What are you doing?

I'm working on that consultation website. I'm learning how to do it.

You only think about work.

Are you not going to work on the serious business?

Work isn't serious business?

Besides, just stick to talking. Why are you hitting me?

Is work important or your wife?

She's still waiting. Are you going to fix that water pipe or not?

Yes, yes, yes.

If you are going to, then hurry up. Go on. I'll save it for you.

Thanks, Chief.

Chief.

Yang Yu isn't my wife yet. She hasn't agreed to date me yet.

Get out of here.

Hello?

Hello, Professor Zhuang?

Are you in your office?

I have two days off. Is something the matter?

I...

It's nothing. I won't bother you then.

Okay.

Sir, your tea is at your table.

- Okay, thank you. - You're welcome.

Who got married?

Why did you peek?

I just got a quick glance. There's a wedding dress.

It's a junior classmate. She had her wedding yesterday.

She didn't invite you?

She did. I didn't go.

Why?

No reason. I didn't want to go.

You're quite open-minded.

You're already at this age, but you're not in any hurry.

You're in no hurry. Why would I be?

In this age, people can get married if they want to.

Who still cares about age anymore?

Then how come I've heard your mom has been rushing you?

Who did you hear that from? Who's been so mouthy?

Chen Shao Cong?

Nonsense. Don't listen to his nonsense.

My parents are open-minded.

I'll get married when I want to. Not getting married is fine too.

I'll have children when I want to. Not having any is fine too.

But how come I heard your mom fought with you when you broke up with Xue Luan?

I've said too much.

That Chen Shao Cong. I'm going to sew his mouth shut.

Since the two of you fought

then that shows your mom thought Xue Luan wasn't a bad choice.

So how come you two still broke up?

He is quite a good person.

We were quite happy together.

We worked late together, had spicy hotpot together

and had surgery for 30 hours together.

Staying up all night didn't feel tiring either.

Later on, perhaps there were still some...

some issues with our opinions.

We couldn't stay together like that.

So...

Xue Luan knows you so well.

He was your classmate and coworker for so many years

but still couldn't stay with you.

Does that make it even harder for you to trust others?

Don't worry. I'll definitely get married.

I've just been at the hospital too much in the past two years.

Only at work do I feel like I exist.

Aren't you the same?

So your sense of existence has been especially poor in this past month.

Did you bring me here to relax?

I even taught you how to swing. I should take a swing at you instead.

Sorry, I turned this into a serious conversation.

Too late.

I was originally going to settle for ramen

but now, I want to eat roast duck.

- How about French cuisine? - Good, even more expensive.

And add a bottle of wine.

No problem.

Yang Yu, Auntie says she wants to eat tomatoes.

I've already cut up the vegetables. Should I cook them?

No, I can cook it myself later.

I've put the buns in the steamer. Watch the heat later.

All right.

You have a bit of a cold.

I brewed some cold remedy drink mix. Remember to drink it.

You're so long-winded. I'm a nurse, you know?

Your iron three-way valve is rusted. There's no fixing it.

I used waterproof tape so it won't leak.

I'll buy a stainless steel one later and change it out for you.

- When will you come by? - Tomorrow.

I'll do what needs to be done when it's not busy at work tomorrow

and then come by after work.

Chen Shao Cong.

- Come in to help me hold up my mom. - Hold on, let me finish clean--

You're calling for me?

Nonsense. Who else is there? Hurry up and get in here.

Why are you knocking? Hurry and get in here.

Okay, okay!

A... Auntie, good evening.

My name is Chen Shao Cong.

I am an attending doctor in the Emergency Department.

I'm 30 years old this year--

- Hurry over here and help. - Yes, okay! Coming!

These old houses all use iron pipes.

When you have time, you can actually do some remodeling.

Change the pipes to PPR or PVC.

It's just a bit troublesome. You'll have to open up your walls.

But don't worry. You can still use it after I install a stainless steel piece.

Your mom watches television all day. It looks quite boring.

I have an iPad at home I don't use.

I'll bring it over so she can surf the internet and play games.

Lu Chen Xi comes back to work in two days. Watch what you say to her.

She doesn't take things lightly.

She looks carefree, but she actually thinks a lot.

I'm going to speak with Director Yang about funding in a few days.

I've been rather busy lately.

Please don't take it to heart that I've been distant.

I'm going now. Bye.

Goodbye.

Is there something else?

When you're not so busy in a few days

you'll have to pick me up for work every morning.

Picking you up for work won't interfere with my work!

Don't worry! I'll come every day!

I think that was a scheme of yours just now.

I said to open a bottle of wine and you did it.

You're driving though.

You made me drink all the wine.

I treated you to such an expensive French meal. You're still not happy.

I'm not doing it again next time.

No way.

That wine was quite nice. We'll have to go again next time.

Fine.

Next time you teach me to play golf, I'll treat you to wine again.

I've played golf and had a feast.

This was the best day I've had in a while.

Take a nap if you're tired.

I'm not tired. It's just so comfortable.

So comfortable that I'm a little sleepy.

Then adjust the seat and take a nap. I'll wake you when we get home.

Do you think... Director Fu is considered a good doctor?

You haven't visited him?

No.

I'm afraid I won't know what to say when I see him.

Maybe he isn't as fragile as you think he is.

All these years, he was like a father to me at work.

Although he did some improper things

and he isn't so perfect in my eyes anymore

he still admitted to them in the end.

At least he is an honest person.

Unlike some people.

This is how unfair the world is.

Some people are careful and conscientious their whole lives

and only want to have a perfect ending

but this is what they end up with.

Some people shamelessly seek personal gain and vie with others

and get to take over in the end.

I can just imagine the pleased look on his face.

There are many things in this world that we can't see clearly.

Otherwise, the world would be too simple.

Am I too foolish?

Some things are so simple, but I can't figure them out.

Some people are so close

but in the end, I realize I don't know them.

I really miss those interning days when Sir Xiu and Dr. Fu taught us.

They taught us without holding anything back.

We learned in all seriousness

and looked forward to being able to be a good doctor one day.

Renhe back then

was so nice and happy.

Finally thought to come home?

Uncle Yang, my parents aren't home and I'm stuck outside.

Can you open the door for me?

Xiao Hui? Okay, I'll let you in.

- Is it open? - Yes, thank you, Uncle Yang.

Hello, Dad?

Zi Xuan, how come you're still not back yet?

Dad, I'm at a classmate reunion.

I'm not coming back tonight. You sleep soon.

No need to wait for me. Goodnight, Dad.

Do you like your sleeping face?

You're unbelievable.

You'd better not post them to WeChat Moments.

Then tell me why you brought me here.

I was going to show you the night view.

But seeing you sleeping so soundly, I didn't want to wake you up.

Is this considered therapy?

Do you find it effective?

All right, seeing as the result is pretty good

I won't post them to Moments.

Thank you, Dr. Lu.

Thank you, Dr. Zhuang.

Here, come down.

Don't move, don't move.

This is a really high elevation. I'm lightheaded.

You really are... the most troublesome doctor I've seen.

You're the most meddlesome doctor I've seen.

Let's go home.

Shower and change your clothes.

I'm going back to work tomorrow.

Let's have hotpot tonight to celebrate and invite Yang Yu and Chen Shao Cong.

Okay.

But I have to see an old friend in the afternoon.

I can't help you buy ingredients.

You have an old friend here?

One I haven't seen in a long time.

This place is very suitable for convalescence.

I was going to leave the city environment and be free of the stress.

I wasn't thinking of coming to such a nice place.

This place is run by an old friend of mine.

He insisted I stay here.

Fortunately, I can afford it.

Here.

Professor Zhuang, I'm very surprised.

You are the first person to visit me.

Because you feel that I am on Yang Fan's side, right?

Whose side you are on isn't important anymore.

I am already very grateful that you came.

I really admire your courage.

You were honest in front of the public about your health

and the truth of the lung transplantation.

You could say I was forced by the circumstances

or that I was facing my conscience.

There will be a few times in life when

one has to face their true selves.

I've just chosen to do so at the end of my career.

Very well said, Director Fu.

People seldom face their true selves.

Lu Chen Xi told me that no matter what you've done

you are still an elder who is honest and worthy of respect.

She has put me on a very high pedestal.

In fact, I have failed her trust in me.

Professor Zhuang.

There's a question I've been wanting to ask you.

You are a top thoracic surgery expert.

Why would you accept Yang Fan's offer to come to Renhe?

On one hand, Yang Fan invited me to the Thoracic Surgery department

to broaden my experiences as a doctor.

On on another hand, I wanted to come back to visit Renhe Hospital.

There are some personal matters I must wrap up here.

You have personal matters to take care of at Renhe?

Yes.

I was born here.

My mother was a nurse in Renhe's Thoracic Surgery department.

You probably still remember her.

Her name is Zhuang Shu Mei.

You are...

You are Xiao Bin?

It's been a long time, Uncle Fu.

Come in. No need to take off your shoes.

I thought you'd show up at dinnertime when you said you were coming by later.

I was going to go to the supermarket. Good thing I didn't leave yet.

Have a seat.

There are so many men's shoes here.

Chen Shao Cong and Zhuang Shu are renting rooms here.

Are you and Zhuang Shu dating?

No.

What are you staring at me for? What's the matter?

You like him.

You just don't know it yet or don't want to admit it.

Quit pretending like you know me so well.

You're surely going to say we've known each other for so long

had been dating for so long, and you know me so well.

Right?

Yes.

This way in which you're replying like you don't care

is very typical and indicates there's something wrong.

Or what?

How should I be acting?

You should mind very much.

Are you serious? Did you come to question me?

All right, put down what you're doing. I have something serious to talk about.

Cut the crap. Just spit it out.

Chen Xi, I'm going to America.

I hope you can resign and go to America with me.

Are you kidding?

I am serious.

I remember you were sent to the welfare agency

and then there was no more news of you later.

Does Lu Chen Xi know who you are?

I haven't told her yet.

That's true, that's true. It isn't necessary.

After all, it was the affairs of the previous generation.

In regards to my mother, how much did you know?

I still remember some things about Zhuang Shu Mei.

Her husband passed away early on and she raised two children by herself.

It wasn't easy.

Clinical work requires one to have no distractions at all.

In the situation she was in

her superiors should have transferred her to a non-clinical position.

Working in logistics would have been fine.

It would have been a more responsible decision to her and to the patients.

However, she was a very skilled nurse.

Everybody depended on her.

Who could have known...

Her negligence at work brought about serious repercussions

and resulted in two families' tragedies.

Negligence at work?

Yes.

She remembered incorrectly the medical instructions I gave her

and administered a shot of penicillin to

a patient with an explicitly recorded penicillin allergy

causing an allergic reaction, leading to the patient's death.

When meting out disciplinary measures

the hospital took into account your family's situation.

They did their best to make sympathetic and reasonable arrangements

and gave her a job at the library with an equivalent salary.

However, she was unwilling to accept these measures

and later on, she even...

My mother filed many appeals.

She stated that she followed your instructions strictly

and had retrieved lidocaine from the pharmacy.

When Lu Zhong He began to have frequent ventricular extrasystoles

she gave him an injection.

Her actions did not violate any rules

nor did she mistakenly take penicillin instead of lidocaine.

Even a nurse intern wouldn't commit such a rookie mistake.

How could it have happened to someone like her

a skilled nurse with 10 years of work experience?

But at the time

nobody would listen to her suggestions to reinvestigate.

Until two years later

she lost her mind and committed suicide.

Yes, I feel very sorry that this happened.

However, the results of the investigation were very clear.

Even if she was unwilling to accept it

it is a reality that cannot be changed.

Renhe Hospital has a new system now.

These mistakes that shouldn't happen won't happen again.

Was it really a mistake?

What do you mean?

Shouldn't it be called

an injustice, to be more accurate?

I've been busy with Ms. Zhu's funeral arrangements

and my company's work.

I haven't had time to see how you were doing.

I know this past month was very difficult for you.

This is too unfair.

Is it unfair?

Of course it's unfair.

You are the best doctor in Renhe's Thoracic Surgery.

Not only are they not giving you the position and treatment you deserve

they've even forced you to the E.R., away from your specialty.

Fine, even if you can accept all that

then what about the suspension and probation?

Are you going to keep tolerating this?

I was at fault in this to begin with.

After all, a life has been lost.

I can accept this punishment.

Liu Ling's incident was a tragic result of a combination of factors.

Even if you said some inappropriate words for the sake of saving the child

it was her own choice to commit suicide.

Why should you be blamed for it?

Six years ago, I gave up clinical practice for financial reasons

and you broke up with me.

I have been regretting it ever since.

But after what's happened to you now

I feel it was the right decision for me to stop being a useless doctor.

Lu Chen Xi, is it worth it?

Think back to beginning your internship junior year

and then to the following ten years.

In your life, other than reading, exams, clinics

surgeries, on-call shifts, and resuscitating people

what else is there?

When we were dating, all we ever discussed were each other's patients.

Even the reasons we fought were because we had differing views on treatment.

We studied more than other people.

The work we do is more tiring than other people's.

Others have gone abroad or earned tons of money.

Some show off their houses or vacations they go on.

What do we have to show?

Show off wounds or intestines? An enormous tumor?

So you gave up.

Xue Luan, that was your decision.

I also respect your decision.

But please don't interfere with my decision.

Even if I won't interfere with your decision

I still have to tell you what the end result of your decision will be.

Dr. Fu was careful and conscientious his whole life.

He operated in thousands of surgeries and saved so many people.

He never took a single monetary gift.

In the end, he even took down

his profile from the wall of experts of his own accord.

What do you think of this decision?

It's hard to be a doctor in China.

It's even all the more difficult to be a good doctor.

Come with me to America. I'll arrange everything for you.

Study for a license or switch over to pharmaceuticals.

No matter what you do, you'll be better at it than me.

I believe you're capable.

I'm not interested in pharmaceuticals.

As for being a doctor...

It's not easy to study for a medical license again at this age.

Then take a look at the position you're in now.

Yang Fan is director as well as chief of Thoracic Surgery.

Director Fu only protected your right to work.

You don't have your title or any managerial rights.

How will you continue with your job?

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