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Previously on The Real Housewives of Atlanta.

Hi, Quinn!

I just want to welcome you to the Pampered by Portia event.

Are we ambassadors for Pampered by Portia now?

Because I know my go naked contract was terminated.

We shouldn't include our family in the dynamic of our marriage. Charles started

really well with my mom and my sister, but it started shifting.

Sometimes when we tried to help, it backfired.

Our court date today is to finally get Ralph to move out and contribute child

support to his children. But I just really want our case to stay sealed.

It's a money grab.

It's a money grab.

That's exactly what I was saying.

The judge's ruling was to unseal our divorce case.

Ralph did not turn over all of his financial documents.

Is this a joke?

I know you and Shamia are super close. She may feel that this is...

Kind of like a lopsided friendship.

I'm good.

You ready?

Basically, everything that you told Angela, Angela went back into a portion.

You went on to say every time Shamia brings you something, she puts a thought

it. I've never allowed anybody to talk down about my friendship.

I really hate when the circle breaks up friendships.

What you think?

I'll see when the food come out.

That's a nice little vibe, a little rooftop vibe.

My name is Johnson. I'll be your server today.

Do you want something to drink?

I'll have an apple martini. You got a Stella beer?

Stella? Yeah. I'll have the chicken tacos and the same thing with steak.

Okay. So who are y 'all playing next week?

We play Power, I think.

That's Joe Johnson's team.

Charles currently is a retired.

Pension earning.

NBA player. He owns multiple car washes in the state of New York. My husband is

also the coach of the Killer Threes for the Big Three Basketball League.

He's been doing that since 2017.

He does a lot. He doesn't like to sit down. He likes to go wherever the money

is. Joe Johnson with power now?

He's always been on power.

Joe Johnson?

Yeah. He's been with Trilogy, y 'all.

Okay. That's bad.

I ain't going to tell me. I just watch them play.

At least the Leslie team.

Yeah. That's not true, is it? Triplets.

OK.

This is our love language.

This back and forth.

That's not true. No, it's not.

I'm giving him an out. He don't even understand that I'm giving him an out. I

don't want no out. Listen to what I'm saying. I listen to you. Listen to what

I'm saying. I don't need an out.

Give me a kiss.

Give me a kiss.

Why do you need a kiss?

Really?

I don't want no kiss.

She don't want people to think you don't love me.

Make questions then.

So what's going on?

Everything. Oh, yeah?

So I think I need to probably talk to him.

Yes, sir.

Yeah. I feel like it really hit the head when she got into it with Amari that

time. I went to grandma to use the car that you provided for her, but they

wanted money.

Her sister told everybody in the house, all because I wanted to use a car that

wasn't hers.

Nobody needs you.

My sister and I have been avoiding one another to not cause further problems

between us.

But for my daughter to be in this situation under a roof which I provided,

feel as though it's a slap in the face.

She don't appreciate anything I did, I've done for her, or the efforts that I

put in to try to make sure that I set them up for success.

The tax businesses, the houses, you know, teaching her how to further her

giving her skills.

I've been through something similar to that.

And how do you handle it?

Keep walking on the way.

And you keep giving, giving.

It's going to get worse. You got to draw the line.

They got to hit the wall and learn.

It's your sister.

It don't matter.

I like to go the light route.

Charles goes straight for the juggler.

What?

I'm just listening.

Do you think I can hold my own?

I mean, with a female, yeah.

Who else?

Okay. Charles, have my back.

I can sit behind you.

Oh, gosh. And you're going to have your back.

But do things right.

But for my mother's sake, I'm going to make a date to hang out with my mother.

And we're going to talk about everything that's going on.

I just hope that it's peace in my family.

I do have peace.

I'm a long way from her, so I haven't seen a lot. My family was Tyler Perry

before Tyler Perry.

I have peace.

Can I call you out for something, Marguerite?

Absolutely.

I've had a night. Let me just get the regular.

House Marguerite? Yes, please. Okay.

And my girlfriend should be here shortly.

Here's your Marguerite. I made sure it was strong.

Thank you, friend. You're welcome.

Hey, hey.

Hi.

How are you, beautiful?

I'm good.

Oh, man. Your extra hugs. No.

I need all the hugs I can get, girl. I know.

Craziness. Last night was a lot. But anyway, I want to jump right into it. I

just want to know, how are you doing? You know, I'm doing OK.

I didn't really sleep last night.

I don't even know if I slept at all last night. Yeah, it was heavy. It was

heavy. Yesterday, before I even arrived, I had sent my mom this text. I felt so

much sadness now, and I don't even know why.

I just wanted you to pray over me. Wow. She said, I'll pray for you now, baby.

I was a little blindsided, honestly.

I would never give these ladies an opportunity to put my friendship with

on the line. I'm sorry, Shamia. I didn't even know what I was walking into.

The fact that she was questioning me in front of these girls, it's like they're

the jury.

I would think with us being decades in on our friendship, that she would

things in private with me.

So was this heartening?

Well, first of all, I don't even know what happened to get you guys where you

guys are now.

It sounded like...

Just the conversations that I've had with the girls got taken back to Portia

a weird way.

You went on to say that you had this conversation with Shamia. Would you say

that I didn't come to her wedding?

All of these case in points were to basically say, I'm a bad friend.

Was it not brought back the way that you said it? No, because I would never go

and sit with Angela and have a conversation about Portia. But what did

them talking to me about how she's not my friend and not a good friend. And I

was like, well, no, we are friends. And I know sometimes it could look a certain

way. I mean, everybody in this group has come to me and said, you sure you're a

real friend? Are you sure y 'all friends?

She don't support you.

Okay, here we go.

Is this you?

No, that's not her. That's Drew.

You got to listen.

Yeah.

Even when I was at the lowest with one of the ladies in the group, No matter

what she did, no matter how she dragged me, I always escaped her love. Because

that's what I do. And I think that's the problem with this group. They don't

understand that. They don't understand good friendships.

When I think about Shemaine Portia's relationship, I see similarities of my

friendship with Nene. It's hard to have those conversations.

It's hard to ask your friend, are you my friend?

It's hard to, like, see your friend that you're used to.

you know, talking on the phone with all day, and then you see them in the friend

circle, and you guys are not even speaking.

That's, like, one of the hardest things that I had to go through with some of

the ladies that I was super close to.

But honestly, it's not just us, right? There are other components.

Like, she shared with me that even my mom doesn't really know, like, how to

accept you because of the history with our parents.

So I just feel like it's hard to be her friend because she's always like, be

careful around her and, you know, you can't trust her and the apple don't fly

from her tree. And I'm like, that's hurtful shit to say. I talked to Shamia

she was like, the girls was just talking about me the whole time. I know you

don't want to hear you and Shamia been friends since y 'all was in high school,

but you got to watch the dog that brings the bone.

I was in what?

Elementary, middle school, when I got introduced to Auntie Diane.

Mom and Diane were like two peas in a pod.

Or at least my mom considered her mom to be her best friend.

Our parents have had their ups and downs in our friendship, but it doesn't have

anything to do with Forrest and I.

Yeah, I don't want to deny that.

You guys will get to some place of resolve.

But I'm glad I've got a one -on -one with you. I mean, I hate that it's under

these circumstances.

Yeah, well, you should. I know, like, every friendship has its internal

But you guys genuinely seem so freaking happy when you are together.

Absolutely. She brings me so much joy.

I know. When I tell you I will laugh and slap you in my pants, we will laugh at

each other. We don't. No, like, she's the answer to your thing.

There you go.

I would love to have a Portia Shamia relationship with someone.

Well, I might be up for grabs if you want to take me in.

Coming up next. I don't live my life for these cameras. I want the Portia that's

not on camera.

This is a lie, Shamia. Please.

Please stop.

The kitchen looking pretty good.

What's going on?

Cooking up a little something. Oh, the food looks good.

Hey, baby.

Hey, baby, what are you doing? I'm going to pick out some looks, and you let me

know what you think. Right now, let me see. Okay.

Ladies, today's the day I get to pick my singles.

Oh, my goodness. Yeah, I'm excited.

I'm excited.

But it's like bittersweet because sports is not here.

I appreciate you. You've been working really hard. I'm proud of you, too.

Another new location coming?

Yeah, we're going to do our thing.

We're going to handshake on that? We're going to do the real handshake like

that. They're going to lock in here.

Something simple, like a little red, or like a little... One of my best

friends is getting married in Napa Valley.

Mike and I promised we wouldn't miss it, and so we're going to be there to

support our friend. Like a little... Bubby, you good, princess?

Bubby's always good.

This friendship is hard.

And it should not be. We can see it. And we're like, you know, this has been

going sideways for a long time.

And I'm the only one I feel like is working.

Hey, this is cute.

You bowl?

I bowl.

Okay, oh, wow. Am I good at bowling?

No. Take it easy, homie. But, you know, I can be hit or miss.

Literally hit or miss.

Have you seen Portia's ass?

That ass is not to be contained.

That ass needs to be free.

Sometimes I gotta bend the rules.

I'm like, wait a minute.

Cynthia literally acts like she's so innocent.

I'm trying to keep my eye on the ball, not y 'all's behind.

You will be all right. Just pay attention to the buns and the balls, OK?

Now, do you mind if I bring up the bumpers?

What you talking about the bumpers? You know, the bumpers. You talking about the

kitty things?

That's what it is?

OK,

we put you on the Pee Willie.

Let's do this.

What? Not the head in the middle.

Wow. There you go.

Integrity. Go out like a G.

See?

Can you add the bumpers?

OK, no.

Oh, my God. Just lay one of your arms down and then bowl with the other one,

You don't need no bumper, girl. You're too big for that.

Got my bumpers. Girl, you needed them bumpers.

You know what? Sherri got bumpers. The bumpers on her ass.

Don't try to give me no old balls.

But you like old balls.

When I say I need to just get out and just do something silly like.

I know.

I know.

I was just playing with y 'all. Y 'all know that, right? I'm really like a pro.

Wait, how is DJ?

I thought it was really just.

The divorce, like, affecting her. But then I thought about it, too. I was

wait.

Then she keeps saying, mommy, you know, where you going? And always, like, so

attached like that. I was like, oh, it's because I'm working, you know, out of

the house more.

She's so not used to that. And it's just a huge change. And I just know, like,

she's very, very sensitive right now.

The other day we were in my bed and she said, where's my papa?

Wow. And so I said, oh, yeah, remember I told you he's working. She said, he's

been gone too long. He's been gone too long. And I said, I know. I said, you'll

talk to him soon.

Oof. Yeah.

Damn. Wow.

Just the fact that she even brought him up, I didn't know where to take that,

where to deal with those feelings.

And so I texted him, and he left us on read.

But it's just like at this point, he wakes up every day to figure out a way

wreck my life or whatever. So this is just...

One of the many things that I have to deal with during this divorce.

We had a real family. Like, I don't want it to look like I'm trying to replace

everybody.

You got to do what's right. It's just painful. And I know it's hard.

Like, honestly, like, when we get together, we usually just have fun and

everything. Yeah, I don't talk about that. But you don't have to. Like, it's

okay. to have your moments and you don't have to be strong one all the time but

i understand why you feel like you have to i've been to through two divorces i

absolutely get it take a moment and just keep going because you have a lot going

on this is why i said the other day with the whole shamia thing i can admit that

i'm not strong enough to take it on i know that i'm so fragile right now Well,

was actually telling Shamia that I feel like, you know, a little space, a little

time is probably good for you. Yeah. I will say this. Peace is a progress.

Like, you got a work score for you. Like, I genuinely wanted for my event,

Pampered by Portia event, to be a celebration of us individually as women.

And then for us to have peace and come together at the end. But why does the

narrative seem like I'm just this horrible friend?

You're loyal to me to a fault. I'm like this person who's putting you in the

shadows.

How did that make you feel? Did it catch you off guard?

I try to be the best Portia I can be. But right now, going through divorce, am

really 100 % of what my friends need? Maybe not.

And I'm normally not seen as fragile because I'm like the strong friend, the

funny friend, you know.

But I know right now, mentally, I just can't. Can't take anything else.

I just don't have the capacity.

to divorce my best friend right now. I'm already going through one.

So she and I just need to sit down and talk it through.

I'm just hoping that the friendship and truth that I know we have, we can just

lean on that.

At the end of the day, that's my friend, OK?

Coming up next.

The court didn't take the kids into consideration.

They're not even listening to me anymore.

When I can't control a kid, there is a problem.

OK, OK, OK.

I'm sorry. I didn't know that. My kids are not the same.

Can you hear me?

Something happened.

Your connection.

Wait, what is happening?

You got to turn one of them off.

I love my mommy. Like, you would never know that she's almost 80 years old. She

is social media aficionado. She has, like, multiple devices.

You are a millennial. You are such a millennial.

Even though my mom has been going through one of the most challenging

her life, you know, losing my dad, she will drop everything to show up for me.

just left a meeting with Tanya. We had to have an emergency meeting because

Ralph and his attorney are trying to get Tanya recused from my case.

Sounds like Ralph is trying to get her removed from the case.

And he's trying to claim being a rightful owner to Juicidor LLC.

That's crazy to me. At the last trial, the court had set another date for us to

turn over all our financials.

Ralph had not turned over his financials. So Tanya just told me that

filing a motion to recuse because she created another company since he was

trying to come from my other company.

So he now is saying, well, I want both of them. He wants 40 % of Juicidor LLC

that I incorporated, what, in 2005?

And then he wants 40 % of my new entity.

And we're like, no, absolutely not.

Ralph coming after my company truly caught me off guard because Ralph does

well. He works very hard. I don't know the details of Ralph's finances.

We have separate accounts.

But it's definitely raising an eyebrow.

I don't understand why he would want to drain me dry.

I am providing for the kids 100%. He's not even paying child support.

He's not giving you a dime.

We here are helping you out.

to take care of these kids. No matter what happens with us, we still have to

have a level of respect for each other because we still have to parent our

children. In the long run, it hurts our kids.

You won't believe, I even didn't tell you this, but he literally took the

away from me on our security system.

So when I got to the house, my code did not work on the doors and I was

completely locked out of the house.

What? Yeah, I had to go to a hotel and this was like one in the morning.

And then he magically gets to the house, and he's able to walk down in the

basement door and get in.

And then he comes upstairs and lets me in the house.

All I know is he better stay in that basement.

That's how I feel when I came home. He better stay in that basement. I don't

want to run into him in the garage. I don't want to run into him in the

driveway. You just want to run over him at your house.

Oops.

No.

All of the stuff that Ralph is creating and the drama that...

I just want to move on. I really do. Because this is draining.

Keep praying, Mommy.

Keep praying for everybody.

Even my enemies and the people that want to see my downfall. Pray for them, too.

Angie? Ma?

You're getting ready to storm out there, girl.

Hey, you look cute. Thank you.

It's good seeing you, pumpkin.

Guys, I love you.

Let's go have a seat.

Okay. My mom and I have always been close.

She knows how to make you laugh.

You know, a lot of my sense of humor comes from my mom.

Growing up, I definitely had dreams of taking care of my mom and her living a

certain way.

So I bought my mom a house in Atlanta.

It's an honor to take care of her.

What's going on?

Nothing. We just got the keys today.

Keys? Keys to the new house.

So what about the old house? What about the house that I got for you?

I appreciate you doing it and stuff, but it's just like I want to be a little,

Self -reliant. I don't want to be worried. You got to lift stuff on your

The house that my mom and my sister lived in, we paid about $490 ,000.

I feel like my efforts were in vain.

In the long run, it's going to work out. You can handle your other business. You

don't have to be worried about us and, you know.

I'm happy because I no longer have the added responsibility of taking care of

them.

You know, it's sad because I definitely had dreams of taking care of my mom. And

so for that not to continue to happen, it's painful.

I'm getting a lot of new information.

You just got me with that.

But I feel like I needed to talk to you.

Lately, with everything I've been going through with you and the whole Amari

situation, I didn't know I got into her face, Mom.

And when Amari told me you didn't say anything, that just...

Reminded me all the time that you didn't never say anything.

Okay, because I was shocked when she said it.

Okay? Okay.

We need to get this out, Mike.

And I don't talk, even still.

And I know you're in the middle of it, but I always feel like you don't think I

need you to be, like, in the paint for me, just standing up for me.

Now, I know.

You did it that time with Charles.

And I stand up for you again.

What happened?

He said something on the lines of, your daughter need to clean up or something.

And that was it.

At that day, I was not scared.

I was not scared because I was walking up on him. Then what was you going to

blow? I don't know what it was, but I mean, he was talking about my child.

You don't do that.

But that has turned into three years of me not talking to him.

He's not funny, but... I want to write him a letter and just explain to him

I'm sorry that that happened. But you know what? I love him so much. That's my

fun and love, even though we're the same age almost.

What? Are we doing the age thing?

I'm sorry.

You will not talk about my husband at his age.

Well, see, I would never talk about his age to his face. Oh, gosh.

You know what? You know what? It's okay.

It's okay because... It's going to be all right.

It's going to be all right.

I love you, Mom. I love you, too.

I love you, baby.

Coming up next... You need to put your blinker on. It's on.

Put your blinker... Sorry, sorry, sorry.

Do you see this big thing right here?

I see it! Move over, move over!

I am.

Chloe, are you nervous? Because I'm nervous.

Not okay.

I'm not.

The light's yellow. Stop.

Chloe, I'm not playing with you. I swear to God.

Do you see this big thing right here?

I see it. Move over. Move over.

Y 'all know I haven't even had wine today. I can't do this. I needed Jesus,

Mary, and Joseph to all take the wheel because I'm damn near about to.

Chloe, move over. And I hadn't had enough wine. I clearly, at this point, I

probably should have done some other things, too, before getting in the car

her. My anxiety right now is... Oh, my God, you give me anxiety.

Mom, everything gives you anxiety. You got to, like, man up.

I don't want to be a man.

Okay, woman up.

Going through a divorce, trying to get this restaurant open, having to take

of four kids plus a dog plus myself.

It's hard.

By the time I get back home from carpool, I'm exhausted.

I thought that you were going to get a Jeep for a first car possibly, but it's

looking like you need a Honda Civic hatchback like I did. Can you just give

small BMW? We can call it a day. I don't know if you can afford a BMW. No, you

can. Oh, no, no.

Where we go wrong, right? Because I take care of me, and you're going to take

care of you. I'll value the car, but you still have to maintain the car. I know

what I'm going to be doing, which is helping and running the restaurant.

Okay, good.

You know, I'm trying to get this restaurant open.

Sandy Springs. Second one.

I can tell that it's going to be very, very, very, very nice once it's

completely finished.

The infamous Sandy Springs location has definitely given me a run for my money.

You're going to put a row here, or you're not?

No. So I took this down, but we have these two big tables. Just needs a

tender, tender loving care. That's it.

Boom. The price of everything has went up.

And she's been really, really hard.

Sandy's raise is super important. I have to get it open. I have so many

responsibilities. And financially, I just want to make sure that me and the

girls are OK.

I still need your help. So I'm going to figure out a day soon that we can at

least start the hiring process or at least the interviewing process.

And I really would love for your input.

What is wrong with you? Did you just see that car about to hit us? Chloe, move

over. Mom, where?

It wasn't even my fault. The thing with driving, you have to drive for everyone.

You have to drive for everyone.

You can't just drive for yourself.

Chloe, stop.

Teaching you driving is not for me. You're so dramatic.

Oh, there she is.

We can go over here and sit down.

You may need a forklift to get me up.

You know, the kids, they do their gymnastics here.

Yeah, this is trampoline.

When you guys were little, I would not allow you to do what you allow your kids

to do on this trampoline.

But you know, it's a new day now.

Yeah.

This is very good.

Just something to you.

To me and to you. Because you have the big responsibilities.

Divorce attorney bills.

Do you realize it's been two years?

Going through even the court process, it just gets lower and lower every year.

Like when you feel like we can't get any lower, then he hits rock bottom.

Everything is so overwhelming right now. My mom just jumped on a flight because

she felt like she needed.

to be here. Just to be able to help me navigate time with my children, work, my

mental health, everything.

Let's be honest, Ralph and I are at war.

Every time we go to court, it's a new fight.

I'm in constant prayer because I want you to be whole.

I want it to be over.

I do too, but I don't know.

Because if my attorney gets recused, I have to find a whole new lawyer.

And in actuality, it will kind of start over.

You know? For me, I just... want it to come to an end. Because honestly, I feel

like Ralph and I have been better co -parents than we were as a married

So that's the little good that I have to hold on to. Is he fighting me in court?

Yes. Is he trying to get my attorney refused?

But that's the part that's conflicting to me.

Because I feel that if you have any compassion or any love for me

as the mother of your children,

You would not be trying to bash me and put me in a financial situation where it

makes me fail.

Did you ever talk to him about that? The only thing I told Well since I've been

here, I did tell him that I thought that the courts made a dumb decision.

The way you guys live.

Him downstairs, you upstairs.

Because the courts didn't take the kids.

into consideration.

It's not helping the kids mental at all, because I feel the kids are out of

control. Aniyah, damn, girl.

What can I say, Grace?

God. No, what is that?

I spend most of my time all day yelling, no, stop doing this. You can't do that.

They're not even listening to me anymore.

When I can't control a kid,

There is a problem.

I'm traveling with you. Okay, okay, okay.

I'm sorry. Because I didn't know that you felt this way.

I'm sorry. I didn't know that.

But my kids are not the same.

They're not. I didn't know that.

Hold on. I just need a moment. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I just... If I could change anything, I would.

I had not expected her to have to go through what she's going through.

When my mom tells me that she sees a change in my kids, that's like my worst

nightmare. They're kids.

You know, they didn't ask to be in this position. They didn't ask for this. And

I just feel like I'm failing them.

Mommy, mommy, I don't want my tears to make you sad.

The vibes in the house are not good, and I feel like the kids can sense it. I'm

working so hard to create some normalcy for them.

It's just a really tough reality, you know, that I have to figure out and

how to deal with.

At the end of the day, we're going to be connected for life. For life. He's

going to be the father of my grandkids forever until I make heaven my home. Oh,

God. You know me.

Well, we got to be realistic.

I can't.

I can't. You are going to live forever.

But that's what I said. I got the last word on this. I'll let you have the last

word. Thank you, Jesus.

Coming up next.

I would like moving forward. When you feel some kind of way, you're gone.

tired. Am I boring you?

How are you? Hey, I'm good.

Good. Oh, thank you.

Oh, ma 'am. Yeah? The table's a little small.

Can you bring another chair for our bags?

Absolutely. Yeah. Absolutely. Thank you. You're welcome. So we both wear cream.

Hey. We was on a vibe.

That's a good thing.

Okay, yes. Thank you. Thank you. You are welcome. Y 'all enjoy.

Sure. They have really good stuff, so we'll see.

Okay.

So how you been?

I've been good. Just been dealing with all my stuff.

Hey, let me call you right back.

She don't give me that face. She like.

Who, your mom?

Yeah.

What's been going on with you this week? Oh, this week?

Yeah. How's your week been?

I didn't really do anything. I just kind of like shut everything down. Well, you

had your event, so that was a big deal.

So what's going on? Let's talk. I feel like, I don't know.

You kind of have this little reserve energy.

This sit down with Shamia is kind of unbelievable for me. All the feelings

she has been feeling, she's been secretly expressing to other people. So

haven't been privy to them. Horsha's been my best friend for decades.

I don't want to be at odds with her. I'm not the hop. But I want to be heard

today. First, let me just apologize for maybe not being as open about my

feelings over the years.

There's been things in our friendship that have hurt my feelings, and a lot of

stuff I mask because I handle our friendship with care.

I think all I'm trying to say is I think I wouldn't have preferred it to have

come out in the group.

I didn't need them to tell me or tell you how to feel about what we got going

on. You had already discussed some of these things prior to me anyway. That's

how it even got to me. So the difference between you and I is when you do things

that bother me, like talk over my music.

I didn't go crazy about it right then and there. When you do little petty

like make posts or talk over me when I'm talking, all those things feel

dismissive to me, and they're hurtful.

So I would like moving forward is when you feel some kind of way.

You're tired?

Am I boring you?

I'm taking a breath. This is a little bit uncomfortable.

Okay. Why is it uncomfortable for me to express myself to you?

It's an uncomfortable situation.

To be honest, I am surprised by this energy I'm getting from Shamia. I'm

confused to why all these things are being brought back up that we've talked

about. The fact that Portia took the stuff that these ladies were saying and

with it, it's hurtful. They brought up all the rumors back in the day and the

reasons why she, quote unquote, wasn't a good friend to me.

And yes, I did admit that, yeah, some of that stuff happened.

But we're good now. We're in a good place.

So I'm sad.

Because these ladies have said some really distasteful and ugly things about

her, and I shut it down.

I'm here to try to honestly resolve and possibly salvage a friendship.

Possibly. Well, I would like to salvage our friendship. Yeah, because what

you're saying now, it feels like you're being dismissive. What is happening to

me? Okay, listen. It feels like everything I'm saying, you're

I'm trying to do is have a productive conversation, because I don't want to

argue with you. But look at how you respond.

If I did nonverbal communications like, okay, you would feel like I was

dismissing your feelings.

Can I tell you what really hurts too?

You come to me and you say these things like, oh, well, yeah, you know, my mom

said don't trust you and the apple's on far, far from the tree. Do you know how

that makes me feel?

What I'm saying to you, Portia, is, but you did say that. That's the reason why

you push back and pull back for me sometimes. That's not true. But you said

that, and that is true. So if you're not going to be honest about things that

happen off camera, then why are we doing this?

I just told you the other day, I said, Portia, I wish we could be the way we

off camera, on camera. And you know what you said?

They would have to pay me more money for that.

Why can't we be that way? Why can't we be how we are off camera, on camera?

Yeah, I agree.

Ever since we started filming, there wasn't a lot of communication.

So the communication was already strained. To be honest with you, it's

hurtful because this is at a time where I need my friend. Like, I don't need you

coming at me about something from 10 years ago or something that you decided

were upset about and didn't tell me about. I would never, never, never do

to her. I wouldn't.

Let's be how we are off camera, on camera.

You can't put a dollar amount on that. I want you to do that because you love me

and you enjoy being around me. Not because you want to get paid to do it.

This is scary that the show has caused you to not be honest about your

I want the Portia that's not on camera.

I mean, it's not news. I'm a new peach holder.

This is uncharted territory for both of us. Like, it's always her on the camera.

But now that I'm able to share, it don't feel good when everybody can see both

sides.

I don't know.

So the fact that you have minimized my feelings to be about the show is really

unfortunate because it's not about the show for me.

This is the last year. Please, please stop.

I don't even know what I did wrong for you to say stop.

I'm just trying to express myself.

Oh, you want to get our food to go?

Oh, sure.

Ladies, how's everything?

We doing okay? Yes, we're good.

Can I get my food?

I think we want to take our food to go.

Yes, ma 'am. Can I take your plate? I'm going to box it for you.

Oh, sure. Is that okay? Thank you. No problem.

Excuse me.

Thank you, lovely. Thank you. We'll be right back.

Well, I really hate that you couldn't finish your food and we're leaving here

without resolve.

So I definitely came for that.

So I'll just continue to pray for us. I didn't know if you were ready to go. We

weren't talking anymore, so I didn't know.

And we aren't talking anymore because you just issued me a stop and started

crying. I can never read your mind. I'm asking what I did wrong in that moment.

I'm just human.

I'm just a little overwhelmed.

I'm just trying to do the best I can. That's all. And I think we both feel

way because I think we all have things going on in our lives. We both do.

Often I mask my feelings because I want to handle our pressure with care because

I know you often are in a fragile phase. I don't want to upset you or bring you

more grief, more drama.

But I also want you to find the bandwidth to care about things that hurt

And I don't want to feel like I'm being dismissed.

I don't want it to be a bigger thing or make it a moment or movie.

So tell me, like, what can I do?

If I'm pouring my heart out to you, like, don't tell me to stop.

I want to feel like you heard me and like you care and like you really

not like that felt this way.

I got it.

Check. We'll do it.

Okay?

I don't want to break up with you, Shalia.

Me either. I don't want... I want you to, like, get back with me.

I don't want this for us.

I'm sorry, okay?

Me too. I'm sorry. Okay.

We got this, okay?

And still, move forward if there's something else you want to talk about.

do it.

But just you and I. I agree. And I'll do the same thing. For sure. Yes, I'll do

the same thing. I love you. I love you, too. Give me a hug.

Let's put our hearts to each other's hearts. Okay. I do feel like I was truly

heard. Will we be able to move forward and, like, be real friends after? I

love that. I'm ready for it.

Let's get matching tattoos.

So draining to be mad at you and you mad at me. I don't like it.

Like, who am I going to call? I let it out for you today. So good. Oh, my God.

I've never begged so much in my life to stop a tornado, an argument, you

know, an ambush before.

Thank you. You're welcome. Thank you so much. But I'm just hoping that we can

get back to a better place and move on. This dress.

Oh. Be free now.

Popping open.

All that.

Next time on The Real Housewives of Atlanta.

I am pre -launching bare and naked shapewear.

Oh, we're going to do a little bit of golfing. What is happening right now?

Oh!

I'm not one of Pearl's whores. I don't mess with whores. Am I wearing pearls?

Because they need to be clutched.

I heard you were looking for me.

Here I go.

Yeah!