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LIGHT REFLECTIONS

Good morning, Marcello. How are you this morning?

It's even worse.

That's something, especially considering your level of your level of optimism.

Maybe it's my way of defending myself, don't you think?

Rome, July 18, 1987

My dear Lorenzo.

Come on, Marcello, please, but why do you do you always have to defend someone?

In my opinion, you're making trouble for nothing.

And if it is true that in life everything is relative, you have deceived my friend from the beginning.

A wonderful day, isn't it?

Yes, it is very hot.

I'm going to change. See you later.

I want to write to you again...

A loud silence oppresses me.

Everything flows in and out of me.

but no one can offer them.

Not even you.

However, what terrifies me... the worst is the fear.

Hello dad!

I'd like to go for a walk in the city. Will you come with me?

No Marcello, I prefer to be alone.

Come on, it's a beautiful day!

Let's go !

I told you I wanted to be alone. Stop the bullshit!

You can't refuse me every time.

Daddy!

Fear...the certainty behind my love finds only mercy.

my own life, the power to love,

to hope for something special,

pity, I'm convinced.

I cannot accept this love.

Stop it! What are you doing? Have you gone crazy?

What are you doing, Giorgia? Stop it!

Just relax! It's just a game.

Don't get yourself into this state, it's no use.

It is futile!

It's been almost three years, you're not going to torment your soul endlessly.

Let me go!

Please take the time to compose again. You can do it!

Everything is so easy for you, isn't it?

- Staying close to you is not easy. - Then, no!

I'm not looking for pity from anyone.

- What kind of pity are you talking about? - Your pity.

I don't know what to do with her.

And now leave me alone!

- Marta! - Yes!

Nothing...

Nothing.

- I love you! - I love you too!

- I want to have sex. - I want to have sex too.

But first you have to catch me.

Hey! Where are you?

Aegon is strong, you know.

I'm willing to bet that he will win the grand prize,

or if it doesn't happen to you it will have a very good place,

because Marcello does an exceptional job.

These are just dreams.

Of course, and if that were the case, why not?

You are all so young and naive, that I won't say more.

What do you think you'll get, tell him?

Answer!

Come on, I want to know. I'm very curious.

A goal. In this world, dreamers have nothing to look for.

Much less than the losers.

I'm sorry dad, I didn't mean to.

You're really hard on him.

Don't wonder why he reacts like that.

Be closer, he needs you.

No one needs it.

You say that because it's easier for you to believe it.

And is it easier for you to pretend?

Pretending in what sense?

Let's just say... Accept me, for example?

Now you don't have to answer me because I want to make love.

No, Federico! No, please! I don't want to !

Why is that? You decided to stop fucking!

You have to do your job as a wife, whether you like it or not!

- Shut up! - No, no!

Leave me alone! You don't have to treat me like a child.

You're annoying me, go away!

You have done your duty!

A nervous friend, isn't he?

- Why does he behave like that with me? - Because he is a man.

If you promise not to snore, not to kick, we can sleep together. kicking, we can sleep together.

Come on, come with me.

Come on, my darling!

My little one!

Don't do that anymore! There's no point in crying.

In fact, Federico is right.

Dreamers have no place in this world.

And you know it very well.

Come on, Marta, don't do that anymore.

I am with you to offer you all the love you need,

provided that you want to.

Your only fault is to following the myth of true love.

But you and Chiara can be alone.

You have to take what you need from life

and treat him as he deserves.

No, stop!

It's okay, be good!

- Hi, Marcello! - Hi, Marcello!

How is your friend doing?

To tell the truth,

he is really a friend.

I heard you arguing last night.

Could I know... the reason?

What's up?

You know your father.

You know he has something with me.

I'm taking Aegon for a ride. Do you want to come with us?

Hello! Marcello...

When your mother was here... everything was fine, wasn't it?

Calm down Aegon!

Holy shit! Fucking hell!

Hey, I'm talking to you!

Holy shit!

What do you think?

Stop it, you fool! Stop it!

I'm sorry.

I said, sorry.

You want me to lie at your feet and whip my back?

Shit, do something! Scream, be angry, Threaten me, but do something!

Do you have a particular preference?

Are you okay?

I felt better before.

- Gaia! - Marcello, nice to meet you!

So you're still mugging people?

On a motorcycle, I mean.

- Not every time. - So, how are you doing?

It depends... It depends on the meeting.

And... what do you think of this meeting?

I still don't know. I haven't evaluated it properly yet.

And to properly evaluate it, what would you need?

This depends on several factors.

Are you always so enigmatic after you stop riding?

- Now you're being unsympathetic. - I'm not, I apologize.

The Lord forgives you.

What if I don't accept the apology?

I can't imagine such a prospect.

The defendant leaves the court.

See you next time!

Don't even know where I live.

- Will is power. - I have no doubt about that.

Anyway, I apologize again. Bye!

Marcello, our doctor is waiting, have you forgotten?

Let's go !

Let's give money To the one who guides me to be green and dry.

These men say my condition is improving.

and that I could walk again.

It's up to me, they say.

Only clowns. They are all clowns.

Hi, Marta. I brought you the phone.

Thank you.

And then I have to tell you something important.

Federico can't understand.

He doesn't want to understand.

You are just for him a lady's companion, nothing more, nothing less.

Nothing else.

Not Giorgia, no! Please! I do not want!

You still need to love Marta and I can give you a lot of love.

Calm down, I just want you to to the sweetness of my lips.

- That's what you're missing. - No, Giorgia, no!

Come on, my love, relax!

Bravo !

- I suppose you are Gaia. - Marta. Very happy.

Marcello, in the curves you lose time, come on!

- Does it always work? - Sometimes it loves it, it's even worse.

- No, I mean, every day he does this? - He's training for the Grand Prix. Go for it, Marcello!

He has the possibility to finish in the top six, that would be extraordinary.

Go ahead, Marcello!

Insist on it!

Marcello told me about you.

- Good or bad? - Let's just say he talked about it.

Bravo Aegon!

Hi Marcello!

- So you found me... - It seems so.

Okay, that's enough for today!

Give me that. I'll take care of him.

I leave you with your host. Hi Gaia!

Hi!

I bet you never thought you'd see me again.

- Well, here you are. - Have you seen what I can do?

Behind you, and around you immersed in a luxuriant vegetation,

you can admire the large park.

On the right, this modest building is our house.

Who is playing?

My father.

I wouldn't want to bother you.

I was passing the time and nothing else.

- Please continue! - No, I'm tired.

You know, Federico, I wanted to talk to you, but...

I think we've lost that. That was the habit for a long time.

I grew up.

You think we're not talking about what it means to grow up?

What about you?

- No, I don't. - I don't either.

- But I would like that. - We never talk anymore.

No, let's create.

- I have to go. - Already?

I just came to say hi.

- And the archaeological research through the meanders of the city? - Another time.

Will there be a next time?

Why not?

I think there are some very good opportunities.

The net starts to tighten. The game is very close to being captured.

And how do you find the fisherman?

Blonde, beautiful and soft.

-If you knew how happy I was when I saw you! - So I want to be always, even if I can't.

Do you accept or do you give up?

How will you see me as a grandfather?

I've seen grandparents much worse.

- And where do I stand in your special rankings? - In the middle with prospects of ascending.

Then, if it suits you, I'll be waiting for you tomorrow at 10 o'clock.

You're not bullshitting me, are you?

And why would I do that?

Thank you.

See you tomorrow, 10 am, don't forget!

Thank you.

Of what?

For this beautiful moment.

- I wish time would stand still! - Let's not be pathetic!

Let's enjoy the moment and that's it.

- I would like to kiss you. - You may!

- Do you like it here? - Yes!

Good evening, Marcello!

- Here, we eat very well. - Any preferences? - Take care of us.

- May I serve? - Of course Pierrini.

Are you looking for me?

I heard you playing again today.

It seems that these few notes have aroused interest in the house.

But it fills us all with joy.

I haven't started composing if you ask me.

You must know something.

What?

Having failed to fill my position as secretary, because of your inability to work...

I took Marta and we made love.

And we will do it again. - This is not true!

You always said it was not a dream world.

But now the dreamer is you.

What have you been giving him all these years?

Think about it!

Marta doesn't need you. All this happened in the bathroom.

You were out with Marcello.

I kissed her all over.

I cuddled her and felt how her body wriggled,

was burning with pleasure.

I gave her the love to which every woman has the right.

You've never been able to do it.

Marta let go of me.

You only thought about your pleasure every time.

It didn't mean anything, and even in those moments...

Marta does not need you.

And you don't react as usual.

What do you want me to do?

Let's take it like the pustules of a mangy dog.

If this is what you think, I assure you that you have not understood anything.

And now, fuck you! Leave me alone!

Of course!

Ah, there you are! You could have at least bathed.

The door was open.

Normal doors are made to be opened and be opened and closed.

And when they are closed, we use them to hide something.

What profound reasoning!

If I were you, I wouldn't be so ironic.

But Federico, what's wrong with you?

What's wrong with me?

I want to have sex all the time.

No Federico, no! Please, don't!

And why not?

We have a door to hide. Now we'll shut it, stay calm!

Just relax! Or maybe it's the place that's embarrassing you.

I don't think a woman like you has problems like this.

And then you know what I mean.

Baths turn me on and I'm sure they have the same they have the same effect on you.

Tell me it's not true if you have the courage!

Tell me it's not true!

Tell me! Tell it to me!

Get out! Get out of here now!

- Lazy, I'm here! - Oh, mama mia!

Now I'm ready, yeah!

I want to see what you are capable of now. Come on, my lazy courage!

Is it wrong that I wanted to have sex?

Certainly.

Now I want to take a bath.

So we're not too far away, are we?

Do we have any real possibilities?

Enough to try.

- Daddy's coming, right? - I don't know.

Why wouldn't he come?

The mysteries of the human psyche.

Federico!

Federico, are you there?

existing between us, I write to you again now.

It's already been a year...

that I struggle every morning with this indestructible fear,

with the same infinite sadness.

The loss of Chiara is the thing that depresses me.

It took away my joy in life.

my own defeat, I know it well.

But reacting, coming back to life to me, those are empty words.

Now my life is just on continuous standby.

I don't know what I'm waiting for.

Something makes me fear that this vigil is only morbid.

A few days ago, I met Marta.

you would be fascinated.

totally indifferent to everything.

Also, I am surprised when I dream,

and after that, of course, reality is omnipotent.

from this nightmare of his mercy.

My dear Lorenzo...

I want to keep writing to you.

A persistent silence surrounds me.

Everything is silent, inside and outside of me.

give them to me, not even you.

Hi.

- What were you doing? - I was looking for you.

It's okay, you found me.

- As for the future... - And what exactly?

Marcello certainly doesn't need to be there.

And you know that I love to live, Federico.

Please come with us.

At least this time you can't refuse.

I see that my presence is necessary.

Is today the day of kindness?

Federico!

I've told you this before,

nobody asked you anything.

There are certain things that we don't always have the courage to ask them. the courage to ask them.

Some things are so important that if you are refused, you could die.

What do you mean?

Nothing. Marcello hopes you'll come.

Be with him! For him, this is a very important moment.

You can't leave it now.

It's nothing but a damn horse race.

You are wrong! It is much more than that.

Oh, yes, how I would have made sure not to forget.

The psychological realization, the supreme objective of his human career.

The main goal that urges you to self-sacrifice.

The meaning of his life and who knows how much other bullshit.

Don't you realize that you are deceiving yourself?

For you a simple horse race is banal and its worthless result...

This is the maximum to achieve in a man's life.

Federico, calm down!

I insist on telling you that for Marcello this is a very important day.

He needs you to be close to him.

it's the insistence.

Why are you behaving like this?

Because the people who compose, I never liked that.

Marcello is not like that.

He just wants to believe in something, to fight for something.

So for being a loser... I don't even want to hear about it anymore.

- I don't want you to be with me tomorrow. - Why not? - I don't want to!

I don't want to and that's it! Do you understand?

Marcello!

The horses are ready to go.

They're in the ordinance, they're gone!

Immediately we see arrive at the first place Zorro, one of the favorite horses,

mounted by Zebbiani, while Storrano another formidable competitor...

Penetrates with force inside.

In third place Shalanka ridden by Zenno.

This is followed by Ron and Gustav, and then everyone else.

Zorro is still in the lead, followed by Storrano by several lengths.

Together Albany and Ron are trying to to regain lost ground,

The horses are already in the big curve of the sea behind the track.

The group is as compact as ever.

Zorro leads the race with Storano glued to him.

None of the other positions have changed. The horses seem to want to hold their positions,

waiting for the right moment to attack in turn.

For now, young Marcello Brandi's Aegon is the last one.

Let's hope that this is just a well-chosen tactic,

by the bearer of our colors to finish the race honorably.

Now the horses are getting ready to go around the big curve again.

The pace is fairly steady, the positions remain unchanged for now,

It's still a very open race.

With Thor looking to, take the rope.

Always flanked by the omnipotent Cervolino, followed by our Aegon.

He's a finisher who could bring even the victory of our colors.

Now, the horses are about to enter the second major curve.

Something is changing. While Thor seems to be out of reach,

who is winning place by place.

And here is the entry into the final curve,

by the competitors.

Aegon continues to gain ground, getting closer and closer to the top horses,

I have to tell the audience. That this is a worthy end.

of the great race we are witnessing.

Thor has race almost won but the one who excites us is Aegon,

Look at this point, he's in second place!

Aegon is hot on the heels of Storrano who does not seem to accept the place he has,

Aegon is keeping the pace well and it seems he doesn't want to give up,

The horses are in the final sprint, just a few meters from the finish line.

Thor is still in the lead and not going to give up the top spot,

Storrano has a good rhythm but Aegon is holding out,

Thor! Big Winner Thor!

But Aegon finished second.

got the second place!

A beautiful day for the one who wears our colors.

If Thor's victory was expected, was almost certain, but the big surprise...

and above all a great joy for all of us,

is to see him triumph in second place, a very important place, for Aegon!

You did it, you did it! Bravo Marcello!

I'll be happy to know if my dad saw the race.

Of course, he saw it.

You promised me to celebrate, don't forget it!

- I was strong! - I sure did!

Why is she late, for God's sake?

- With Gaia, how is it going? - It's going well.

Why didn't you want her to come with you today? She would have liked that!

- But... - Aren't you telling me that you're not interested anymore?

- Marta, I think I'm afraid. - Afraid of what?

I don't want to suffer like you and dad...

It's often not love that makes you feel bad, but the way you live it.

But now it's good with these speeches. We have to celebrate!

You are a true friend.

Friendship is an alliance and even friends can suffer,

That's why if you feel something for Gaia, don't give up, don't be afraid.

Only then will you be able to say that you have really lived.

Hey, but we are in the middle of a melancholy. Is that wrong or should we celebrate?

- So let's celebrate! - Yes!

Sit down.

Don't you think it's time to go home?

You want to leave Romeo already? The day is still far away.

It was not the lark but the nightingale that whistled in my ear,

Bravo ! Bravo ! Encore!

It was the morning lark, not the nightingale!

He looked at love, the candles of the night disappeared,

and the day on the tip of your feet, she willingly bends over...

on the cloud-covered peaks of the mountains,

I have to go...

and life... stay or die...

Bravo !

It's shining there...

It's not daylight, I know that too well,

It is a meteorite... Yes, a meteorite

that came for you from the sun tonight,

The torch that lights your way to Mantua.

I will give you an offering to the dead but I'm happy if you want it.

And then I will say that this gray is not the look of the morning,

it is not the lark who knocks at the doors of the sky,

I want to stay, I don't want to leave anymore.

Come here, oh, death, you will be welcome.

Good! Well done!

I'm going to rest. Will you come with me, Marcello?

Surely, Dad!

- That was not our agreement. - What agreement?

- Marcello must not be involved in this. - What do you mean involved?

- Don't pretend you don't understand. - Leave me alone! You are hurting me!

- I want you next to me and I want it now. - You are wrong!

- You will do as I say. - What makes you think that?

The fact that if you don't, Federico might find out.

And you don't want that, do you?

Come on, courage!

I have to tell you something...

- Don't think you like it better than him. - Why not?

You ask me for affection and I do it. I give you everything for your body.

You have no choice.

- And then it seems to me that you are a good deal. - You are a bastard Giorgia!

I know.

- Gaia. - Do not say anything.

At times like this, it would just be nonsense.

It would be better elsewhere, right?

And you just got the idea?

- Get out of this house! - Marcello doesn't say that!

Go away, I tell you! Go away! Go away!

It's here! Stop it!

Marcello, what happened?

It's very serious but maybe it will survive, I mean live.

Can he still shop?

Let's say he has a 5% chance, not much more.

It will depend a lot on you.

You were right.

This world is not for dreamers.

I decided to give up.

- Hi, Marta! - Hi!

I wanted to know about Marcello.

You know, it's very bad, but the problem is different. You see Gaia ...

- No, you don't have to explain. - Thank you, you make it easier for me.

Marcello doesn't want to see me anymore, why?

Because of me, because of Federico. Because of bad examples.

But he loves you. I know he's always thinking about you.

And he needs you.

Can I see it?

No, not now, please believe me. You have to know how to wait.

So when?

Don't ask me, I don't know what to say.

- Marcello, I have to talk to you. - Go away!

I told you to disappear!

Please try to understand. I know it's not easy, but...

I just know that I lost everything, and it's all your fault.

Maybe, but at least if you listened to me.

You are the one who has to listen to me.

There is only one prostitute, and in this house there is no place for you.

I was stupid to believe you.

I put all my trust in you, all my esteem and what did I gain?

You're just a bitch.

An unworthy creature who should not even exist.

I hate you Marta! I hate you with all my heart!

- Marcello! - Shut up!

Don't say another word!

You are not allowed to open your mouth.

My father always knew what kind of woman you were.

You're just a bitch. And nothing else.

- No, it's not true! - Ah, it's not true, bitch!

Bitch! Bitch! Bitch!

That's enough!

- Tell me you're a dirty bitch! - It's not true! No !

- Yes, you are! - No, you're not!

Did you call me?

I'm waiting!

What's up?

Don't do that! I'll leave.

You can't go wrong. Don't be blind in the end!

I leave you in your narrow world.

I don't have what I'm looking for here. Continue to vegetate!

Continue to be fooled by everyone.

I think it's very hard for you, Dad.

A huge pity!

Thank God, I respect you a lot!

You will never see me again, I tell you!

Bye, Daddy!

Your failures are not my responsibility.

And then, the thing that comforts me the most,

and of which I am sure with the greatest certainty,

is that I owe you absolutely nothing.

Absolutely nothing!

Come on, lazybones, come on! This is great!

- I've worn you out! - What a fool!

A... Help me! Help me Federico, I'm drowning!

Just kidding!

You were scared, weren't you?

Help me, Federico! Help me, I'm drowning!

Chiara!

Chiara!

Chiara!

Where are you?

Where are you?

Chiara!

Chiara! No !

No !

Marcello, please, wait a moment!

- Have you really decided to leave? - I leave you in your mess!

Please do not judge.

I have made mistakes, and without a doubt, especially me.

I could talk about my anxiety about my fears, my loneliness,

but I didn't want to use you...

Because you... you didn't really want to listen to me.

So give up all your hate. Don't do that with your father.

He never cared about me.

He did it only out of shyness, only out of fear.

I just ask you one last favor. Read it! Read this letter!

It looks at you too!

- Who is Lorenzo? - He is a friend of hers.

The best...

Marcello...

sit down for a moment.

You know... I'm embarrassed.

We never talked to each other as we should have done,

I mean quietly ... with serenity.

Of course...

I must admit that I am not a father who has raised you through examples, through teachings.

But now I feel I have to tell you something.

Don't give up!

Don't go down to the larval stage like I did.

There is so much need for the dreamers of the world.

And I'd like you to be one of them!

This is the first time I've asked you for something. Please don't go.

I don't think I have the right to this pain.

It is not human and I am convinced that I could not that I could not overcome this.

I know you're going to find all this a little ridiculous.

Maybe even pathetic.

But please believe me, it's the truth.

No, Marcello doesn't have to go, you know.

You have to forget everything.

I never asked for anything and I never forced you to do anything.

Marcello, don't do this nonsense!

Your father is asking you. A desperate father.

Don't go!

Let's try to do it together like we did in the beginning. What do you think, isn't it a good idea?

Thank you for not turning me down!

Marcello! Marcello!

Marcello!

Looks like someone is looking for you!

A woman should not be left waiting.

Go for it!

Marcello!

Dear Lorenzo...

the one who decided to write.

about my mistakes in particular.

You can tell Federico what I do. I'm here and waiting for him if he wants me to.

We'll start growing together, sharing everything.

like this infinite fear of losing each other from each other and that is always around us.

My sweet love...

I love you...

Dear Lorenzo...

Here it is me writing again.

Everything seems hopeless at times and that stays the same forever.

But that's not the case!

Marcello has decided to stay.

is that it's starting to rise again.

He is encouraged by Aegon and even more so by a great friend...

his father.

And if it is true that a father can learn from a son,

then I learned to have hope.

One day, I might start composing again.

But now I want to start living.

I live for my son.

I live for a woman that I finally feel like my own.

Whatever it is, better than you do it, no one knows, my dear friend.

You know I'm not looking for illusions.

But one thing, I believe in it.

this is the last time I will write to you.

Don't be upset.