All language subtitles for Greys Anatomy S22E05 - Sometimes I Feel Like a Motherless Child

There comes a point
in every surgeon's career

where the novelty wears
off and monotony sets in.

Dr. Wilson?

Mrs. Salazar with
chorio needs to see an OB.

Oh, yeah.

-Okay. Yeah, on my way.
-Okay.

Whoo.

-Oh, no. This way.
-Yeah.

You go to work. You perform the
same procedures over and over.

You get home late. Eat leftovers
straight out of the fridge. Go to sleep.

Could you stop that? I'm trying
to buy a new mini fridge.

No, I have to make it to ten.

This place is like
an abandoned gold rush town.

With condoms.

That one was on purpose.

Then you wake
up and do it all over again.

The second you get lulled into
the routine, that's when it happens.

-She's coding.
-Again?

That's when you meet
the patient who changes your life.

Starting compressions.

Quite a pair, aren't we?

Me and my sling, and
you and your 30-week... glow.

-Awesomeness. Awesome glow.
-I'm almost done here.

Take your time.
I'll work on notes.

Have Scout and Luna ran
your parents out of town yet?

No, I hope not. We're gonna
need all the help we can get.

Though I will be glad
when my mom stops badgering me

about getting the twins baptized.

I already told her we should
wait until they're at least

-eight weeks.
-Eighteen.

-Are you serious?
-Uh...

Can you take a look
at our new admission?

I'm off.
Just have Dr. Marcus do it.

There was an incident.
She threw a water pitcher at him.

Well, can you blame her?

Um, do you want to just
work in here? I won't be long.

-Yeah.
-Great. Okay.

It's the moment of truth.

Millin is down to the line.
This shot will win all the marbles.

Hey! Foul!

It's a made-up game.

Where do you think you're going?
-Home.

We should be in the OR,
not wasting time on Bailey's pet project.

Dr. Kwan.

Which is providing people
with the care they so desperately need.

Uh, you look fancy. Big plans?

Uh, if you mean dinner
with my husband and no children, then yes.

Uh, today's no-shows, follow up.

Try to reschedule.

Mercedes Hernandez? Again?

But her prescription for PCOS
and diabetes expired months ago.

She was hospitalized for
diabetic ketoacidosis back in March.

You cannot force
a patient to come and see you.

-All you can do is...
-Follow up.

Good. Don't forget to restock
the beds before you close,

and if you need anything,
call someone else.

-And, Millin.
-Yeah. Yes?

Condoms are not a toy.

-Yeah.
-I'll get started on the beds.

-What, Adams still isn't here?
-Negative.

My mother always said, "Early is
on time, on time is late, and late is..."

"Unacceptable." My dad says that too.

Uh, and I'm about to
be late for a hernia repair.

Can you do the workup on
a new transfer from Vashon?

Of course.

Thanks. And tell Adams
he owes you one.

Yeah.

Oh, great. First Doogie Howser,
now pregnant Barbie.

Amy, I am Dr. Wilson and I am here to
check your cervix. Is that okay with you?

Are you a real doctor?
Or a rookie like the other guy?

I'm an OB resident,
a board-certified general surgeon,

and your only
other option right now.

-Okay.
-Fine.

I want an unmedicated
vaginal birth.

It's probably
a foreign concept around here,

but women have been
doing it for millennia.

Okay. You are four centimeters
dilated. Let's take a look.

Right...

Okay, your baby is breech.
It's coming feet first.

I know. She's supposed to turn
by now, but she's being difficult.

Okay, we can try to turn
her with a procedure called

external cephalic version,
but if that doesn't work,

you will need a C-section.

I read online you can still
deliver a breech baby vaginally.

It is possible, but unfortunately,
it is high risk for the baby,

so we tend to...

A C-section
isn't in my birth plan.

Okay. I will try to turn
her by pushing on your belly.

It's more likely to be successful
if you have an epidural in place.

Also not in my birth plan.

When I say I'm
having an unmedicated birth,

I am having
an unmedicated birth, okay?

I understand.
I will, um, give you a minute

and then I will be back
to do the version.

Ms. Evans, hi,
I'm Dr. Griffith. How are you feeling?

Ready to party.

Glad to hear it. Meade?

Yeah, one sec.

Regina Evans, 51, presents
with congestive heart failure,

renal failure, and
a hospital-acquired pneumonia

in the setting of
polyarteritis nodosa, or PAN.

-Which is?
-A rare form of vasculitis.

-Mmm.
-In other words,

I got one foot in the grave
and the other on a banana peel.

She's on four liters nasal
cannula and a Bumex strip.

Mmm. Welcome to Grey-Sloan.

-Mmm.
-What's the plan?

Oh. Uh, call an attending?

She needs a CBC,
CMP, coags, blood cultures,

an EKG and a CT of
the chest and abdomen.

Right. Yeah. On it.

I'll be back to check on you.

There's some photos in
that bag there.

Would you be a dear
and grab them for me?

Sure.

Oh, yeah.

I've seen a lot of hospital
rooms. Photos help make it homey.

I've always wanted to go to Paris.
-Greatest city on Earth.

You're a chef.

Retired, but I still
throw a hell of a dinner party.

Why do you have
a photo of my mom?

Hi, um... Ms. Hernandez. This is Dr. Kwan
calling about your appointment today.

We wanted to check on your diabetes.
Give us a call back to reschedule.

Huh. She missed
three appointments.

I know she has childcare
issues sometimes, but she usually calls.

I'm gonna miss my bus. You want
to give me a ride home?

You live on
the other side of town.

What if I bribe you with cake?

It's from Max
and Irvin's tasting last week,

but the red
velvet is still good.

-Is that a no?
-Uh... I will give you a ride home,

but we're making a stop
on the way.

Isn't your car outside?

I need a few things.

You're Niecy and
Wayne's baby girl?

Simone. You were
friends with my mom?

Friends? Girl,
we were attached at the hip.

Grew up around
the corner from each other.

I can't believe this.
Simone Griffith, all grown up and a doctor.

Surgeon actually.

Mama Joyce must be so proud.

-You know Granny?
-She was basically my surrogate mom.

You still talk to her or my dad?

Well, we fell out of touch.
I think after your mom...

I brought up painful memories.

Is there someone I can call for you?
-No.

My mom's on
a senior cruise in Antarctica.

Sounds cold if you ask me,
but she's my only family.

This might be a little cold.

Remind me never to leave
Amelia's during rush hour.

Not my responsibility.

Hey. Hi, I'm Dr. Adams.
I'll be taking over your care.

Once Dr. Griffith gets me up
to speed, we'll head to CT, all right?

-Sounds good.
-Griffith?

Yeah, I'll be right there.
I'm just gonna finish her echo.

It's colder in here
than on my mom's cruise.

I'll have the nurse
bring you another blanket.

I wasn't talking about me.

Hey, I'm gonna be a while.

My patient is in active
labor and her baby is breech.

Sounds great.

Hey, when did you talk to my
mom about baptizing the twins?

Um...

Two days ago?

She told me that you didn't
want to talk about it.

I thought I was
doing you a favor.

I thought you weren't religious.

Did I ever say that I wasn't?

Have you been going to
church and I haven't noticed?

No, but that doesn't mean
that I don't believe in God.

Oh, okay.

Um...

-Define God.
-What?

I just want to
know what God is to you.

God is, um...

God, I don't... I don't know.

It's like porn.
You know it when you see it.

Okay, did you just
compare God to porn?

It felt wrong coming out of my mouth...

...but, um, the principle
still applies.

Have you ever been to church?

Yeah, in high school I would
hit up the Korean church

for free meals all the time.

Not helping your case.

Why are you cross-examining me?
-I...

I'm just trying to understand.

Okay.

Um...

Talking to your mom reminded me

of the nights that I would
eat in the church courtyard

and peek in at the youth group

or the senior Bible study,

and it was this community
that I never had that I want for our kids.

-So my mother got to you.
-It's not ritual sacrifice.

It's pouring
water on their heads.

And initiating them into
a religion I don't believe in.

And up until a few minutes ago,
I thought you didn't believe in either.

Well...

-Where are you going?
-To flip a stubborn baby. Go figure.

This is weird.

You know we could get fired
for this? Or sued? Or both?

It looks like no one's home anyways.

-Let's go.
-Great.

Hola. ¿Quién es?

Buenas noches.
Disculpe la molestia.

Somos doctores
de la clínica Elena Bailey

y buscamos a Mercedes
Hernandez. Está disponible?

Son doctores?

Sí. Mercedes es mi paciente.

Mercedes es
mi hija. Está muy enferma.

Por favor, pasen por aquí.

Do you speak Spanish?

Uh, I took a couple of years
in high school, but it never really stuck.

-Are you a doctor?
-Yes. Yes, I am.

Do you want to meet
Benito? He's a velociraptor.

Yes.

I meant to call.

It's okay. It's okay.

I forgot today
was a half day at Javi's school

and my mom couldn't watch him.

Do you always
come to people's houses?

My colleague, Dr. Millin, and I just
wanted to make sure you were all right.

I'm a little run
down, but what else is new?

Where are my manners? Let me
get you something to drink.

-No, no. Don't get up.
-No need.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Don't move.

It's okay.

Did Adams leave you alone?

Ms. Sims arrested.

He said to page him when scans were up...
-Get out.

How are you holding up in there?

Simone, is that you?

It's me. Your scans
will just take another minute.

-Why'd you kick out my intern?
-You left him to do your work.

We used to get left
like that all the time.

Will you just let me do my job?
-I...

Okay, she has an aneurysm in
her superior mesenteric artery.

That would explain
her vague abdominal pain.

Yeah, she needs a stent.
I'll call Webber.

All right, you want her?
She's all yours.

I'll go see my 20 other patients.
-I...

Temp's 102. Do you have
any abdominal pain or a cough?

-No.
-It's not hypoglycemia.

Blood sugar is high, 349.

Okay, have
you been taking your insulin?

My prescription ran out.

I've been taking supplements,
trying to eat better.

Mm-hmm. Can we
give you an insulin shot?

Yeah.

-This is Benito.
-Uh...

It's nice to meet you, Benito.

He's eight like me,
and this is his friend Josh.

Did you know velociraptors
are the smartest dinosaurs?

They can run 24 miles per hour.

Javi, please.

Can I go outside? I'm bored.

Vamos para tu cuarto.

Okay, a little poke.

Sorry. I'm sorry.

I... I stubbed my toe
a while ago. It's not healing.

Um... Can we take a look?

Mm-hmm.

Oh. Mercedes,
you need to go to the hospital.

We're between insurance plans.

Grey-Sloan has
programs that can help with that.

Javi would throw a fit
if I'm not here at bedtime.

This is a serious infection.

I can come to the clinic
tomorrow. Please.

Okay, how about
we give you an IV antibiotic,

and then we try to clean
out the infected tissue now?

Baby won't budge
and Mom is refusing meds.

What are you doing?

I'm making a list of all the reasons
baptizing our kids makes no sense.

No matter which room I walk into
tonight, nobody cares what I think.

Number one. You perform
abortions for a living.

How is that an issue?

Sends a mixed message.

Plenty of Christians believe
in a woman's right to choose.

Number 2, Scout and
Luna are not baptized,

and for that matter,
neither are you.

Well, I was thinking that we
could do Luna at the same time.

You'd have to talk to
Amelia about Scout, but...

You'd have to talk to me about
Scout, and I would say no way in hell.

Well, now you're resorting to puns.
-Number three...

Okay, you know, I am... I am
so tired and very over this.

Organized religion is not
the only community out there.

You want community,
let them play sports.

I was talking about
a spiritual community.

So am I. Look, just give me one reason
why this makes even a little bit of sense.

I'll give you seven of them,
one for every month

I've been carrying not
one but two of your babies.

I spoke with the attending.

We're gonna try and wean you
off some of these drips tonight

and plan to take care of
the aneurysm in the morning.

I still can't believe
that Denise Ward's daughter is my doctor.

Still can't
believe you knew my mom.

Does your granny
still have that old hooptie?

-The Chevy?
-Mm-hmm.

-Sold it a few years ago.
-Oh. That is a shame.

We used to steal that... I mean,
borrow that thing all the time.

She's in a home now.
Alzheimer's disease.

It's been hard to watch. She
had a mind like a steel trap.

Ooh. No joke.

One time, me and your mom
poured Mama Joyce's liquor into thermoses

and then refilled the bottles
with water and Kool-Aid.

We thought we were so slick.

So when we went to sneak out,
thermoses were empty.

You couldn't get
anything past her.

You and my mom did that?

Tip of the iceberg.

My dad said my mom never
partied. She was too focused on school.

So he's still a buzzkill.

My dad's an amazing father.

Who clearly didn't
give you the full story.

I brought another bag of Bumex.
Or I can come back later.

No, go ahead. I should let
you rest. I'll be back to check on you.

Okay, IV is in and
starting antibiotics.

How's the toe?

Necrotic, but I'm trying
to debride as much as I can.

-Do you feel this?
-Not really.

Okay, good.

I should've come to the clinic today. I
should've found a friend to watch Javi.

No, it's okay.
Really, we get it.

You're doing
the best that you can.

Javi's lucky to have a mother
who cares as much as you do.

He's my whole world.

Can you move the toe
a little bit to the left?

-Yeah, of course.
-Yeah, there you go.

What is that? Is that my... Is that...
-Uh...

You're doing great. You're
doing great. Deep breath.

No, stop,
I can't take it anymore.

Are you sure I can't give you something
to help the contractions or an epidural...

What part of "no" do you not understand?
-It'll help with the pain.

I-I've heard
about the domino effect.

You do this, I have a complication,
and one thing leads to the next,

and suddenly I'm
having an emergency C-section.

If I can't turn the baby,
then you might have no choice.

This must be why our maternal
mortality rate is off the charts.

You don't have
to like or respect me,

but I am a doctor and I am
trained to take care of you and your baby,

and you are
making it impossible.

So you can either suffer
through the pain while I do this procedure

or let me give
you some freaking medicine.

-I...
-I need my husband.

Okay. We'll call him for you.

You can't.

He died three months ago.

We didn't come here
to amputate a toe.

I wasn't trying to amputate it.
It just fell off.

She has a diabetic foot infection, which
is probably spreading, which means...

Probably have to take
off way more than just her toe.

She could lose her whole leg.

Hey, Mercedes. Um...

Your infection is getting
worse. I have to call an ambulance.

No, please, I'm begging you.

We'll alert the financial
assistance program the second we admit you.

It's not about the money.

If you don't go, you could die.

Look, and we want to help you.

People saw
immigration by the hospital.

If I go, they could get me.
My status was revoked a few months ago.

And my friend's brother, last
week, ICE surrounded his car,

broke all his windows, and
dragged him out by his feet.

We still don't
know where they took him.

I... I'm so sorry.

Our whole life is here.

My son's school,
his soccer team, our church.

We can't be taken away
from that. I can't be taken away from him.

I know you're scared,

but you need more help
than we can give you here.

And we will do everything
we can to keep you safe.

We'll even drive you ourselves.
-Yeah.

I can't. It's too risky. Please.

We need to take her to the hospital.
-I know.

Do you?
Because a couple of hours ago,

you thought it was a brilliant
idea to take care of her here.

Please! Please don't call 911.

I'm not. But I am calling for help.

Now, your numbers are improving,
so we're stopping some of your drips.

You look better.

I look like death and
you know it.

I didn't mean to come for
your father. He's a good man.

Yeah, he's the best.

And I don't blame him for
putting your mom on a pedestal.

All my life I've heard she was a
straight-A student, volleyball champion.

She was, but she was
also the life of the party.

We once went to this
Tribe Called Quest show

with joints hidden in her shoes.
-Stop.

She got us
into the VIP after-party too.

By the time we got home,
the sun was up

and Mama Joyce was waiting
for us on the front lawn.

-She must have been livid.
-Ooh.

Your mother was grounded for
weeks. Oh, but it was worth it.

Your life sounds so
much more exciting than mine.

Nothing you can't fix with a
concert and a pair of roomy sneakers.

Yeah, I don't have a lot of
free time, but my job's fulfilling.

Sounds like something a nun
says before she runs off with the gardener.

Is that what my mom said before
she ditched her first wedding?

She wasn't one
for hemming and hawing.

She knew exactly what she
wanted, and she went for it.

And thank God she did.
Because here you are.

I can't do this without him.

I think you can.

Is your baby's father alive?

Oh.

What, is something wrong?

Your baby needs to come out.

If you want a vaginal birth, I
need to try and turn her again.

What was his name?

Kevin.

This one really hurts.

What was he like?

-Why do you care?
-I just... I do.

He knew the names of all of
our neighbors and their dogs.

He gave the best hugs,
and he... he made me laugh.

He, um... He loaded the dishwasher
like a... like a raccoon on meth.

He was gonna be
the most amazing dad.

I can't imagine how
hard this has been for you,

but this baby,
she is a part of him too.

Doesn't that make you wanna meet
her? Because she really wants to meet you.

I don't think I can.

My mom had this whole life
I didn't know about, with friends and fun,

and then it ended.

I ended it.

You were a baby. You couldn't
even hold your own head up.

No, but I made her a statistic.
-No, no. I did.

I wanted to be a chef. Thought I'd
try to apprentice under someone here,

but your mom, she always
wanted me to live my life to the fullest.

She convinced me to apply to this
prestigious culinary institute in Paris.

I couldn't believe it
when I got accepted,

but then I found out that it started a few
weeks before she was due to have you.

I asked her if she wanted me
to stay, and of course, she said no.

I shouldn't
have listened to her.

But my dad was there.

He's too nice.

Me, I would have gone full
Rambo on those doctors' asses.

Oh, damn it, your O2
is dropping. Okay, just keep breathing.

Here you go. Deep breaths.
Just keep breathing.

Uh...

Order a chest X-ray, and put her
on a high-flow nasal cannula now.

That's it. Deep breaths.

-Where is she?
-We didn't know what else to do.

I can explain everything.
She's right in here.

Hi, I'm Dr. Bailey.

Elena Bailey, like the clinic?

That was my mother. It's named
for her. Do you mind if I take a look?

-Please.
-Okay.

Do you think you can fix my toe?

Hmm. Hmm.

Um...

Right.

Uh, so unfortunately, the infection
choked off its blood supply, so it's gone,

but right now, I am worried
about the rest of your foot,

which is also severely infected.

Now, we've got a shot at saving
it, but we have to move fast.

I told him.
I-I can't go to the hospital.

You don't have to.
I brought the hospital to you.

We have a fully-stocked
ambulance right outside.

Okay? We can debride there.

-Good? Okay.
-Yeah.

All right, come on.

Okay. That's good.

All right. Here we go.

Mommy?

-Where are you taking her?
-Don't worry. I'll be right outside.

No, you can't take her
like they took Tío Eddie. I won't let you.

I-I know you're scared, but we're
just taking your mom right outside,

and we're going to fix her up, okay?
-No. Mommy, don't leave me.

Um... Go. Go. I'll stay here.

Hi. You feeling any better?

I feel like I got picked up
by a tornado and dropped on my ass.

So a little.

There she is. You look
just like her when you smile.

You should smile more often.

Not you telling
me to smile more.

I said what I said.

Just gonna take
a quick listen. Deep breath.

I feel like I'm
finally getting to know her.

She sounds so
confident and full of life.

She was.

And I miss her more
than anything in the world.

Hey. Is everything okay in here?

Yeah, she was desatting,
so I put her on high flow,

started her on bronchodilators,
and I'm giving her steroids.

-Seems to be helping.
-Good.

Dr. Webber just
got out of surgery,

so I'll confirm Ms. Evans'
procedure for first thing tomorrow.

What's the story there?

Trust me, it's
not worth your time.

You'll have to
come visit me on Vashon.

Oh.

I'll invite you to one
of my famous dinner parties.

I would love that.

And bring Ebony. How is she?

We're not close.

Why the hell not? She's
the only sister you've got.

She blames me, too, for Mom.

Your mother would
roll over in her grave

if she knew that you were
walking around carrying all this guilt.

I can't just snap my
fingers and make it go away.

-Then give it to me.
-What?

Give me your guilt.

Let me carry that burden
for the both of us.

And you go, and you live life
to the fullest.

Like she would have wanted.
I'm going to die soon anyway.

No. Stop it.

Listen, anytime you want to
talk to somebody who gets it,

and I mean, really gets it,

I'm a ferry ride away.

Tranquilo. Todo va a estar bien.

Is she really right outside?

Two steps away.

She'll be back before you can
say "velociraptor" three times fast.

Velociraptor,
velociraptor, velociraptor.

I thought that would be harder.

¡Oye! Quieres agüita?

Okay.

Uh, where did you get Benito?

My mom.
He's scary, so he protects us.

Did you know velociraptors
are the best hunters, and they can fly.

Sounds like someone
I'd like in my corner.

Is she going to be okay?

With Benito watching
over her, I like her odds.

We're going to need to extend the
incision to drain the whole abscess.

I drained it as much as I could.

Yeah, I can see that.
All right, hand me a scalpel.

Come on. I don't have all night.

I'm-I'm so sorry if
we interrupted your dinner.

You didn't. We're parents.
We don't have all night for a meal either.

So you're not mad?

Oh. I am mad. I'm outraged
that it's come to this.

People so scared to leave their
homes, they risk their lives.

No, it's cruel. It's inhumane,

and people are going to
lose their lives because of it.

All right, now. Get in there. Top
and bottom. Break up all loculations.

There. We are chasing
every bit of infection.

-Do we have to amputate?
-I don't know yet.

But I didn't come all
this way to not save a foot.

-Take it.
-Got it.

Okay, you probably hate me right
now, but deep breath. Okay, ready?

One, two. Blow it out.

Okay. Okay.

Baby's still having decels.

Her heart rate keeps dropping.
We need to move to a C-section.

-Prep the OR.
-No, no, no. Please.

I know you wish
Kevin was here right now.

If I could make that happen, I would,
but all I can do is try and help you.

So if he was here,
what would he do?

No matter how anxious or stressed
I was, this always calmed me down.

Okay.

Okay.

Is it working?

-Honestly?
-Yeah.

No. It's super weird.

Oh. It's the first time
I've laughed in three months.

I'm glad I could help.

All right. Let me try and turn her one
more time before your next contraction.

Okay? All right, deep breath.
All right, are you ready?

-Okay. Yeah.
-She's doing it.

She's moving. Isn't she?

Okay, okay.

Okay. Baby
looks good on the monitor.

She's getting comfortable
in her new position. Okay.

All right, let's, uh... Let's just take a
break before we start the hard part.

I officially hate you.

Ms. Evans procedure
is scheduled for 8 a.m. tomorrow morning.

I saw. Thank you
for taking care of that.

I'm just doing my job.

Regina Evans was
my mom's best friend.

They grew up together.

Why didn't you tell me that you knew her?
-I didn't until tonight.

Plus things have been so rough
between us. Didn't know how...

We need some help. She's coding.
-What?

-Starting compressions.
-Page Dr. Webber now.

Charging, 150. Clear.

Charging to 200. Clear.

Charging to 270. Come on.
I just found you. Clear.

Charging again. Clear.

-Simone.
-I said, "Clear."

No, no. Come
on, Regina. Come on.

Regina, please.

Come on, please.

How did you know that we should
check up on Mercedes?

Gut feeling, I guess.

My gut's usually full of pizza.

How's Javi?

He's glad to see his mom's okay.

Yeah, for now, and tomorrow,
he'll be terrified all over again.

Every time his mom
drops him off at school or gets pulled over

or leaves to go
to the grocery store.

Any time they're apart.

I told Ms. Hernandez
her foot's going to make it

as long as she takes care of
the wound and maintains her blood sugar.

I left supplies and made her promise to
have someone pick up her prescriptions.

I'll follow up in a couple
of days. And Javi wanted you to have this.

Oh. I-I can't accept this.
This is Benito's friend.

And he said that's why
he wanted you to have him.

What you two did tonight was...

incredibly irresponsible.

You put yourselves
and the clinic at risk.

You also went above and beyond
the standard of care to save a life.

And I'm glad you did.

Go rogue again without telling
me first, and you're fired.

♪ I've been
standing in a flood ♪

♪ It could carry me away, like ♪

♪ Everything I thought I was ♪

♪ The whole world
changed and I ♪

♪ Slipped fast straight
back to the past now ♪

♪ That's life
sometimes What a letdown... ♪

Ms. Evans' D-dimer just came
back. It was through the roof.

It was probably a massive PE.

That's not surprising,
considering her comorbidities.

I guess not.

You did everything
you could. It was her time.

I'm gonna finish her death
note before I go home.

♪ I think I'm falling ♪

♪ Losing my mind ♪

♪ Even if it takes all night
It'll be enough time, tell me... ♪

Hey.

I just delivered my
patient's healthy baby girl,

eight pounds, four ounces.

Scarlett Kevin Ramsey.

"Kevin"?

After her husband who died.

Ah.

This whole baptism thing,
what's it really about?

Oh.

Uh... there was a, uh...

church group that used to come
visit us in the cancer ward.

And they brought us homemade
quilts and cookies and prayed for us,

and I couldn't stand them.

They were so sure
that God was watching over us,

but you know, if God was watching
over us, why were we stuck in the hospital?

Why were five and
ten-year-olds dying?

And now the planet's burning, children
are living in poverty, people are starving.

Where is God?

I guess now would be a bad
time to tell you that I prayed for you.

What? When?

After the explosion.
I didn't know what else to do.

I had a team of world-class
surgeons working on me,

but you think a higher power saved me?
-I don't know.

I just know
that I was terrified,

and it gave me comfort.

Ah.

Is there a world in which
we can table this for now?

I am so tired.

Yes. Something
we finally agree on.

I am here. I am here,

and I will remove
Mr. Levin's mediastinal tubes

and prep Mrs. Swanson
for her lobectomy.

You look...

Please don't complete that
sentence. Kwan had me up all night.

It was a house call for a patient.
-I don't need details.

-What's this for?
-Oh, um... Altman and I are presenting

our surgery on Nora Young
later to a group of high-level donors.

-Oh, no.
-Yeah.

You're famous. How awful.

No. You don't understand.
I hate public speaking, okay?

I hate it, ever
since I hyperventilated

leading the Pledge of Allegiance
at Harbor View Elementary School.

It was deeply traumatic for me.

Why... Why don't
you take this with you?

His name is Josh.

He is a velociraptor, and they
are the smartest dinosaurs.

-Okay. Thank you.
-Mm-hmm.

Uh, I don't think that a toy dinosaur
will help me sound less juvenile, though.

Okay, well, if you change
your mind, he's right here.

The patient
you remember on your deathbed

is almost never the one with
the most serious injuries,

nor is it the patient who made
the most miraculous recovery.

Hey, let me take you home.
Amelia's in Boston. I've got her car.

-I'm okay, but thanks.
-Are you sure?

We've been up for
the last 24 hours straight.

I already called
a rideshare, but thank you.

Yeah.

Hi, Joyce Ward's room, please.

Hi, Granny. It's me.

Yes, your daughter Denise.

Guess who I saw today?

Regina Evans.
Do you remember her?

She said the same about you.

It's the one who
made you ask tough questions,

who taught you something
about what you stand for.

What am I gonna tell my mom?

I thought we said
we were gonna table it.

Right.

-Wait.
-What is it?

-I think my water just broke.
-You think?

Well, it's not typical.
It's... I'm like... I'm leaking.

-We should probably... Okay.
-Yeah. Okay.

It's the patient
who held up a mirror

and helped you see the kind
of person you want to be.