All language subtitles for Beyond.the.Gates.S01E167.1080p.WEB.h264-EDITH_track3_[eng]

You looking for a game, kid?

That depends. You looking
to lose some money, old man?

You should watch that mouth.

Might write a check
you can't cash.

Been cashing them just fine.

Plus, an OG once taught me,
you can lose the game...

BOTH:
But don't ever lose the lesson.

Oh, look at you.

-It's good to see you, son.
-Mm. It's been too long.

I declare war.

All right, as fun as this is,
I got to find my phone.

What's the rush, baby?

Pamela needs to know you finally
agreed to that photoshoot.

-She's gonna lose her mind.
-No. Ah-ah-ah-ah.

Don't play with me.
I got model strength.

Okay, and as of tonight,
so do I.

-You're not the only one.
-I'm serious.

Forrester needs to know
we're on board,

so they don't go
with another couple.

It's late.

This is our time together,

and Pamela's probably sipping
wine in a hot tub right now.

-Plotting world domination.
-How do you know her so well?

And I know you, too.

I know as soon as you
hit that call button,

you two are gonna be
chatting all night,

and then that's gonna make me
look like a houseplant

with all the attention
that I'm gonna get.

I thought you liked
being invisible.

I'm still uncomfortable
being out front, but...

if it means being seen with you,
I guess I'm okay with it.

You are getting harder
and harder to resist.

Hey, life's all
about choices, Dani.

You want this phone or...?

Mmm...

[laughs]

-Your choice.
-Phone.

Ooh!

Enjoy your Pinot, Pamela.

♪ ♪

Look at my baby
coming through in the clutch.

I know you had those
corporate lawyers shook.

All I did was convince
the judge to let my client

have her day in court.
It is no big deal.

No, see, that's
where you're wrong.

Life's way too short
not to celebrate

the milestones along the way.

Excuse me, Your Honor.

My client here would like to
submit one strawberry margarita

into evidence and keep
a second one on deck.

Thanks.

I see what you're trying to do.

You are trying
to get me tipsy, hmm?

No. I'm just trying
to give you your flowers, babe.

And if the night happens to end
with you taking advantage

of your very willing husband...

Look.

Something must be wrong.

But where is Ashley?

I don't understand.

He claims
he wanted to surprise me.

He thought it would be romantic
to keep me in the dark

and then spring it on me
on the day of the wedding.

What exactly was he planning?

Mom, picture it, okay?

Me walking down the aisle

in the white dress.

Emotional because it's me.

And then, surprise,

Derek can miraculously stand,
and he joins me at the altar.

That would make
for quite the spectacle.

If I saw that online,
I'd certainly stop scrolling.

That's exactly
what I'm talking about.

Any random stranger
who saw this video online

would be like, "Oh, how sweet."

They would never know
that it was built on months

of deception and lies.

God. I feel like such a fool.

♪ ♪

Diego, just the man
I was hoping to run into.

Miss McBride.

I see that you kept up
with your fitness routine,

especially the legs.

Thanks for noticing. What does
your evening look like?

My last client just canceled.

I'm completely yours
till tomorrow's yoga.

Perfect. I'll text you a name
and an address. Be punctual.

Mm. Let me guess, you're
slipping back into character.

The lonely French heiress
who daydreams

-about her new English tutor.
-Mm. Non, monsieur.

I should have been more clear.

I'm actually sending you
on a date with someone else.

The golden couple.

We were just sliding through
for dinner when we saw you.

Derek, is everything okay?

Peachy keen. Couldn't be better.

Derek, listen,
I know I came at you hard

for rushing Ashley
to set a wedding date.

That wasn't fair.

I was going through
my own stuff,

and I took it out on you.

Wait, is that
what this is about?

That's old news.

Ash has all new reasons
to hate me now.

Oh, come on. I'm sure
she doesn't hate you.

Unless something happened.

Ash came home early,
caught me standing.

Standing? As in on your feet?
Are you saying...

Yes. I can walk.

Well, stumble,
but the legs work.

Derek, that's incredible,
but why hasn't Ashley called me?

-This is huge.
-Because it wasn't
a celebration.

It was a betrayal.

She said she could never
trust me again.

What do you mean she caught you?
Were you hiding this?

I wanted it to be perfect
when I showed her.

Hey, you called it, man.

I should've listened when you
told me to come clean weeks ago.

I'm sorry. What?

You knew?

You're really not angry
with him?

No, I didn't say that.

-I'm still processing.
-Mom.

No, just hear me out.

I see a man who wanted to give
you something unforgettable.

A moment you could tell
your children about.

A moment built on lies.

It was a guilt trip. I...

He weaponized my sympathy.

Now that's... that's
a hell of an accusation.

So I have to ask, was there
something to feel guilty about?

God, no. Mom, no.

I thought we were building
our future together.

But now that he's walking again,
that's changed?

This is what Derek does, Mom.

He puts pressure on me to get
what he wants when he wants it.

Do you remember the ultimatum?
"Marry me or we're through."

But he admitted he was wrong.

He told me how ashamed he was.

Then why did he return
to the same playbook?

Look at what he did earlier.

He used my friends
as emotional leverage

to shame me
into setting a wedding date.

But I spoke with him about that.
He seemed genuinely remorseful.

I know you have always
been rooting for him,

but he was going to let
this charade continue

until the day of the wedding,

then spring it on me
when I would be too mortified

to do anything
but smile for the camera.

-Okay...
-That is not romance,

that's manipulation.

Okay, I hear
what you're saying, but

where's all this insecurity
coming from?

I think I know.

This.

Andre made this for you.

But nothing has happened
between us since the engagement.

But Derek still knows
that you had feelings for him.

He can't get past it,
no matter what I say or do.

But Andre's married now,
to Naomi's mother no less.

That chapter is closed.

It is closed, right?

I-I don't know where
Andre's head is these days.

He told me that his...

...marriage isn't
what it looks like.

So he's been telling you
that his marriage

isn't something
you need to take seriously?

-Did Derek know about
these conversations?
-Of course not.

I-I-I didn't want to give him
anything else to worry about.

Or you didn't want to confirm
what he already suspected.

Because deep down, you knew
he wasn't entirely wrong.

It seems Derek wasn't
the only one keeping secrets.

Something's different now.

-Snuck up on us, didn't it?
-Yeah.

How did this happen?

Don't question it.

You're sending me on a date
with someone else?

You heard that correctly.

-Is it a ménage à trois?
-I don't do ménages.

I do management. Joey,

or as you so charmingly
called him, "the old head,"

apparently forgot to tell you.

I run his escort service now.

-You?
-Yes, Diego.

Me. I'm fully aware
you're a longtime employee.

Brilliant strategy, by the way,

taking this job to be around
wealthy, bored women

with all the free time
and money in the world.

Please tell me you haven't
told Joey about us.

I may have let it slip.

He wasn't thrilled to hear
his revenue had taken a hit,

but I assured him we'd recover
the loss with interest.

Just so you know,
it was never business with you.

-Aw... Yeah.
-Not for me.

Now that I sign the checks,
it is all about business.

-Mm.
-My goal's to maximize
your profit potential,

and that means
no more free samples.

But as my supervisor,
aren't you supposed to conduct

a performance review?

I don't sample
inventory anymore.

So you're not a little jealous
with sending me off?

I'll find a way
to console myself.

Maybe the old head can help.

Since when has one man
been enough to satisfy you?

I know you haven't forgotten
how hot we were together.

The way you dig your nails
into my back.

I am loving all this passion,

but save it for the clients.

Oh. You may want
to get in a good pump.

We wouldn't want you
to disappoint.

You think I deserve this?

-That-that I somehow invited it?
-Of course not, sweetheart.

Nobody deserves to be lied to.

I'm just trying to reconcile
what you've told me

with the man
that I thought Derek was.

Well, think about
how this is for me.

I mean, the Derek that I loved,

he-he sacrifices himself
for strangers.

The guy that's been living
in this apartment,

he watched as-as I dressed
and bathed him

and-and did his laundry
and just lied to me

as he stared
straight through me.

Maybe the accident affected him
more than we realized.

I mean, to go
from being a rescuer

to someone who needs rescuing?

-Well...
-That can, that can break
something deep inside.

That might explain
his mood swings.

That doesn't explain
months of lying.

Well, I can't pretend
to understand that.

But I do know that fear...

that makes people
do terrible things.

And shame?

Even worse.

He didn't lie to me
out of shame.

He lied to me to keep me.

Because deep down,
he didn't believe that I'd stay

if I had the choice.

So are you saying
he doesn't trust you?

Well, good,

'cause now I know
I can't trust him either.

Ashley.

I want you to think
long and hard about this.

If Derek had been honest,

not just about his legs,
but about everything,

if he had said...

"I think you're
in love with Andre,

and you're regretting the
decision to come back to me,"

what would you have said?

That it's ridiculous.

I didn't even let myself
go there, okay?

Maybe not out loud.

-Mom.
-You're hurt.

You're angry,
and you have every right to be.

But from where I'm sitting,

it seems
the bigger issue is that

you might still be lying
to yourself.

Look, all I knew
was that he was getting

the feeling back in his legs.

I didn't know he could
stand on his feet.

But you got to admit,
it's still a miracle, right?

It is, and we would've
celebrated it together

if you hadn't kept it
a damn secret, Derek.

What possessed you
to hide something like this?

I thought it'd be romantic.

Standing at the altar,
seeing her face

as I rise up to meet her.

I-I thought she'd be speechless.

Oh, she's speechless, all right.

Babe, don't blow up
on him again, all right?

It looks like Ashley
already lit him up.

Yeah, not only that,
she gave me my ring back.

Damn.

What did you expect?

Ashley just found out
she's been living a lie.

That woman has been
waiting on you hand and foot,

preparing meals,
helping you into the shower,

taking care of the apartment.

She rearranged her life for you

while you sat there
and watched her struggle.

Meanwhile, you knew
you were getting better.

I don't see how either of you
could think this is okay.

Look, don't put this
on him. He...

he's been on me for weeks
to tell the truth.

Honestly,
it wasn't my story to tell.

What is this?
Some sort of bro code?

The women don't need any info

because the men
make all the decisions?

All right, look, how about
we all just take a breath,

all right? At the end
of the day, my boy can walk.

That still
means something, right?

I'm gonna go check on Ashley.

You make sure your boy

has someplace
to lay his head tonight

because it won't be
under our roof.

I really screwed this one up.

Cognac still your poison?

You're behind, old man.

I'm more of a mezcal man now,
but I'll rock with it.

So, I assume you're here
to visit your folks,

make a cameo appearance,
and then ghost them

before the holidays
so you don't have to sit through

that awkward
Thanksgiving dinner?

Not this time.
I'm back, for real.

Back? As in staying?

So what happened?
Did you blow all your crypto?

Get hustled
by some college cutie?

You got jokes.
But no, I didn't catch a case.

No scandals or secret babies.
Nothing like that.

I just thought once you left
here, you'd never look back.

That was the plan.

You know, Izaiah,
if you ever need anything,

you can always come to me.

No, there's no crisis.
I don't need rescuing.

But I do appreciate knowing
you'd be there for me if I did.

You're a real one, Joey.
Always have been.

So if things were so sweet
out west, why'd you leave?

Truth? Not everything was sweet.
I needed a fresh start.

And, yeah, a woman was involved.

I knew it was
something like that.

It's not what you think.

Let's just say
I wore out my welcome.

Happens to the best of us.

Heard you got divorced.
Sorry, man.

Water under the bridge.

Speaking of, what's your plan?
You out here looking for work?

Already locked in. Got a gig
at Banneker University.

Academic advisor.

Wait. Little Izaiah Hawthorne,

who used to boost cars
and hustle dime bags,

is working at a university.

My, my.

I'm gonna help kids
figure out their future,

what classes to take,
careers that fit them,

making sure they don't
fall through the cracks

like I almost did.

And no, it doesn't come with
a corner office or six figures.

From running streets
to building futures.

That's the best come-up
I've ever heard.

You're the only one
who didn't treat me

like another statistic
waiting to happen.

You saw something in me when
no one else did, not even me.

I like to think
I'm paying it forward.

I always thought you were better

than what your old man thought
you were capable of.

That's still not
how my father sees it.

Elon has a limited view
of success.

He wanted you to toe the line
like your brothers.

I was never gonna be a cop.

You made sure of that,
with all the hell you raised.

I did do a lot of dumb stuff,

but if you hadn't pulled me
off the ledge,

I wouldn't be standing here now.

Might not be standing anywhere.

No, you always would've
landed on your feet.

I just showed you
to see the ground

a little more clearly.

So, I want you to let me know
how things are going.

Keep in touch, all right?

Absolutely.

Who's your mysterious friend?

There's something familiar
about him.

Oh, he's from out of town.
I don't think you know him.

That was one
of the Hawthorne brothers.

He was at Naomi's wedding.

Thanks for texting me back.

Thanks for coming.

You okay?

Uh, honestly, no.

I'm a nurse, Naomi.

I am trained to notice

even the most subtle changes
in patients,

but I couldn't even see
this huge lie

that was happening
under my own roof.

Did you know?

If I had, I swear on everything

I would've been at your door
the second I found out.

Okay.

But, um...

But what?

Jacob knew.

-Jacob...
-I just found out,

and I promise
we will have our own

"come to Jesus" talk about it.

He said he kept pushing Derek
to tell you,

but he didn't want
to betray his trust.

I'm so sorry, Ash.

No, it is not Jacob's fault
because...

Derek is a coward.

Oh, my God.
Am I being too harsh?

Please, too harsh?

Is that possible
in this situation?

And you see?
That's why you're my girl.

My mom thinks
I'm being too hard on him.

That... he wasn't
completely wrong to think

that I only stayed with him
out of pity.

Isn't that what I asked you
after his accident?

You did.

And I remember
how certain you were.

You said getting back
with Derek was fate.

Maybe I was only
telling myself that because...

...I'm the real coward.

Maybe I was too afraid to...

...admit what I actually wanted.

You're talking about Andre.

You know what we should do
when we're in L.A.?

More of this?
A whole lot more of this.

I mean, that's a given.

But in addition,
we should do something

about these naked ring fingers.

I have a friend
in Beverly Hills.

I know him
from my modeling days.

We could go to his studio
and he can make us

something from scratch.

-From scratch?
-Mm-hmm.

One-of-a-kind rings for our
one-of-a-kind relationship.

Okay.

I don't know. I've kind of
gotten real used to

the ones we already have.

The cigar bands
that we can never wear

because they might fall apart?

Yeah, that is a downside.

Well, Gerry could replicate
the cigar band in platinum

and throw some diamonds on,
if it makes you happy.

What makes you happy?

-You already know the answer.
-Yeah?

Tell me anyway.
I want to hear you say it.

You make me happy, Andre.

Yeah?

[whispers]:
Come here.

I remember Jacob's brother
from Naomi's wedding.

He caused quite the scene.

Got into it with his father
and stormed out.

The gossip gals dined
on that story for a week.

-How do you know him?
-I don't.

And it wouldn't be good
for his old man to catch wind

of any ties
between me and his boy.

I can relate.

I've been having
my own difficulties

explaining our relationship.

Then you get why
this needs to stay between us.

-Does he work for you?
-No, not in years.

There was a time, though.

So, he was one
of your investments.

Back then, he was full
of fury and rebellion.

He would get himself locked up
just to make his old man sweat.

I'm sure the chief was thrilled.

Elon wanted him to enter
the family business.

Luke and Jacob suited up,

but Izaiah...

He was never cut out
to be a soldier.

Not even yours?

Sadly, no.

I thought, at first, it would be
a strategic advantage

to have the chief's son
in my orbit.

Maybe even poetic.

So, I gave him some small jobs,
nothing dangerous.

Let him work his way up.

That kid was smart.

Too smart for this life.

So, I did what his father
never could do.

I let him go.

How benevolent of you.

I pushed him to get his degree

somewhere far away
from his father.

Some place he could become
his own man.

And now,
he's an academic advisor.

Kid's done a full 180.

Just when I thought
I had you all figured out.

Who knew you had
a paternal streak?

I know that we've danced
around Andre before,

but that was a lifetime ago.

Before he became
your stepfather.

Ugh, don't remind me.

So, if this is crossing
some line for you...

Little too late for that.

And yeah, I'm in the middle.

But it's not like
Andre's feelings for you

were some state secret.

I even asked him about it.

You did?

W... Well, what did he say?

He said he wanted
whatever was best for you.

And when you chose Derek,
he respected it.

Did you ever talk to him
about marrying your mom?

I did.

And honestly, I didn't love
what he had to say.

He said it was situational,

and that it would last
as long as it lasted.

Yeah, that's pretty much
what he told me, too.

Still, however it started,

they found something,

and from what I can tell,
it's working for them.

Yeah, a-and I don't want
to assume

that he still
has feelings for me.

I mean, I'm not delusional.

Listen to me very carefully.

Okay.

Whatever happens next,
this cannot,

absolutely cannot be a repeat
of Hayley. I won't allow it.

How could you even think
that I would do that?

No, I'm not saying
that you would,

but I have watched my mother
get blindsided again and again

from the people she's trusted.

Now, if you and Andre
want a real shot, fine.

But no secrets, okay? No lies.

You owe her the truth
from the start.

I would never do something
like that,

and I know that Andre
wouldn't want to do that either.

[phone chimes]

It's Mom.

Okay, Naomi,
please don't say anything yet.

For all I know, there may never
even be anything to tell.

Pamela hit me back.

Apparently,
we are about to redefine

relationship goals
in high fashion.

Oh, she wants to move fast.

We all might need to travel
as soon as tomorrow.

-Wait, tomorrow?
-Mm-hmm.

I didn't even think Forrester
could put together

a full production that fast.

Well, the shoot
will be next week,

but Pamela and I like to
hit the West Coast early,

let jet lag do its thing,
get my skin all glowy.

But if you have business here,
you can catch a later flight.

No, no, no.
We can all go together.

Besides, it gives us a second
to link up with that jeweler.

Think of it as
a delayed honeymoon.

-I would love that.
-Mm-hmm.

Oh, I'll ask Pamela to book us
someplace romantic.

Maybe a spot where we can
fall asleep to the ocean.

Yeah, that sounds perfect.

Hey, and you tell Pamela to find
her own man. We'll be busy.

Not Pamela. Naomi.

I asked her to come by,
but I don't want her to know

exactly how much fun
we've been having in this bed,

-so I'm gonna go ahead
and jump downstairs.
-Okay.

-Hey, well, don't rush.
I'm gonna go grab a bite.
-Okay.

Yeah, you guys have fun
with your mother-daughter time.

[phone chimes]

That langoustine pasta
takes me back

to a little place I know
in Capri.

Mm.

You know, most women

would think it's a cardinal sin
to be thinking of someone else

while they're dining with me.

Most women
aren't running your business.

A good manager never takes
her eyes off the inventory.

Friend of yours?

Lolly Salinger.

Chair of the country club's
Cherry Blossom Committee.

They have an entire committee
devoted to flowers?

What must they vote on,

what shade of pink
is the most exclusive?

The Cherry Blossom Festival
is the social event of spring.

Lolly's signature
on an invitation

opens doors
money alone can't touch.

And what is Ms. Cherry Blossom
doing with our Diego?

Well, Lolly shared
some rather intimate details

about Mr. Cherry Blossom's
inability

to make anything bloom at home.

So you've prescribed
a dose of Diego?

She'll thank me later.

My bad about the time, bro.

I had to drop a friend off
at a motel.

No biggie.

I already put in our order.

What you mean? You didn't
even ask me what I wanted.

Bruh, it's Fried Chicken Night.

-Don't act like you forgot
our family tradition.
-That's right.

[chuckles] I half expected
to see Pops and Ma holding court

at their usual table
when I walked in.

Yeah, it's been a while
since they've done that.

That was the one night a week

Pops would leave the precinct
at a reasonable hour.

-Yeah.
-How he hasn't dropped
from a massive heart attack yet

with how he pushes himself
is beyond me.

[chuckles]

What?

Too dark?

Pops actually did have
a heart attack a few years back.

What?

-It wasn't severe. It was--
-Nobody thought to tell me?

You must have forgot--
you and Pops

weren't on speaking terms
back then.

So what?

[sighs]

I'm still his son.

-Mom?
-DANI: [humming] Mm, mm!

[gasps]
Perfect timing, as always.

Which one screams
California glamour

but still says
I'm not trying too hard?

You're not running away on us
now, are you?

Not an exit, darling.

A triumphant return.

Your mother is officially back

-in the game.
-[chuckles]

-M-Modeling?
-Mm-hmm!

Mom, that's incredible!

My first booking in years.

And, baby, it is
with Forrester Creations.

How did that happen?

Remember
that ridiculous Vegas photo

-with the Anita impersonator?
-[chuckling]

Ridge Forrester saw it.

The Ridge Forrester.

He said it's the exact energy
they're looking for.

And he asked Andre
and me to come together

to do a couples shoot.

How crazy is that?

They want you and Andre
to model together?

Mm-hmm. Oh, don't worry, honey.

Your stepfather may be new,
but he's insanely photogenic.

And worst-case scenario, we get
a proper honeymoon out of it.

-Honeymoon?
-Mm-hmm.

So, sounds like things
are going well.

Better than I
could have imagined.

After all those years
chasing what I thought was love

with your father,

who'd have thought that I'd find
the real thing with...

his exact opposite in every way?

♪ ♪

ASHLEY:
Look who landed.

The elusive Andre Richardson.

We haven't seen
much of you lately.

-Yeah, been keeping busy.
-I'm open.

Especially to suggestions
from the lovely Nurse Ashley.

ASHLEY:
This video

is incredible.

It's amazing.

You're amazing.

Andre.

-Were you about to kiss me?
-[chuckles]

Hey.

Ashley. What is it?

What's wrong?

[chuckles softly]

Bienvenue à Paris, ma chérie.

-Wow.
-Yeah.

[laughing]

♪ ♪

[knocking]

Hey. I got your text.

Is everything okay?

Nothing's okay, Andre.

I think I made a huge mistake.

I should've told you about
Pop's heart attack, all right?

That's on me.

When Naomi's dad had a stroke,

she dropped everything
and was there for him,

even though
they were barely talking.

I should've gave you
that same chance.

-So why didn't you?
-Because he wanted

to keep everything on the low.

Nobody outside the house
knew about it.

He was stressed that if word
got back to City Council--

They might force him
into early retirement.

[scoffs]
Badge first,

family second,

-even when death's knocking.
-He wasn't dying.

They caught it early
and put a stent in it.

Look, he was back to work
in a few weeks.

-That's not the point.
-Then what is the point, man?

Pops is proud
of his life's work.

-And if you expect that
to change--
-I stopped expecting

anything from that man
forever ago.

He made it clear how much
of a disappointment I am.

You act like it's one-sided.

You made it clear
how little you thought of him,

the badge, and everything
he dedicated his life to.

I'm trying to build
a bridge here, Izaiah.

This family feud y'all got
is breaking Mom's heart.

Y'all need to find peace.

If not for yourselves,
at least do it for Mom.

-How the hell
is that supposed to happen?
-You can start

by giving him some credit.

Pops is aware that there
are plenty of careers out there

that contribute to society
in the same way.

Whether he realizes it or not,

I have one of those careers,

and I'm damn proud of it.

I see myself in these kids.

Everybody else writes 'em off
as troublemakers

or lost causes,

but I'm showing them the way,

just like someone did for me.

JOEY: Now I know
why you suggested Uptown--

so you can keep an eye
on your protégé's performance.

Astute, as always.

This date needs to go well.

I'm counting
on Lolly's social influence

to drum up the kind of high-end
clientele we both want.

Word of mouth is everything,
and Lolly--

Knows everyone.

Yeah, I got it.

You were smart to put someone
in charge of the business

who understands it
from the customer's POV.

I can add that personal touch.

[chuckles]
Well, I have no problem

with your business acumen.

As long as your personal touch
is reserved for the clients

and not for the escorts.

That's the second time you've
made that particular comment.

If I didn't know better, Joey,

I might think
you felt threatened.

Poor attempt at humor
on my part.

You've no need to be jealous.

There were reasons
I had an open marriage.

Doug gave me affection,

stability, social standing,

but I had to look elsewhere
for excitement.

With you,

it's a one-stop shop.

Everything I need
wrapped in one sexy package.

Which one? Oh, never mind.

I'll bring both.

And I'll need something trashy
to read by the poolside.

Chelsea's always got that list
of scandalous beach reads.

I'll download that.

Baby, what is it?

[chuckles softly]

I love seeing
you like this, Mom.

I do.

I just want you to be careful.

Come here.

I know
I haven't given you much reason

to trust my judgment lately.

Falling apart after the divorce

and then racing
into this Vegas marriage

-without a warning.
-[sighs]

It's not your judgment
I'm worried about.

Andre's a good man, Naomi.

He's been patient and gentle.

He understands what
I went through with your father,

and he's never pushed
or demanded anything.

He's just... waited

for me to realize what was right
there in front of me all along.

I don't know
if I've ever felt this way.

I sincerely want you
to be happy for me.

Thank you, baby.

I've been thinking a lot about
what you told me a while ago,

when you came to me and told me

that you didn't believe I'd
be happy with Derek because...

he was just my comfort zone.

I shouldn't have gone there.

-That wasn't my place.
-No,

you told me the truth,

even knowing
it would make me angry. And...

it was exactly what I needed
to hear.

And after everything
that's happened,

I realize what a mistake I made
not being honest with you,

with myself.

But what I need to know is...

...is it too late for us?

[scoffs]

Ash, I'm about to head
to L.A. with Dani.

It's practically our honeymoon.

God, my timing
couldn't be worse.

Um, and I know I'm putting you
in an impossible position.

And I'm so sorry
that I couldn't have the courage

to do this earlier.

But all I can do now
is be honest with you

the way that you
have always been with me.

Derek betrayed me.

But...

...maybe it was for the best,
because...

...it made me realize
what I finally want,

and...
[shudders]

that's you, Andre.

If that's what
you still want, too.

I know what you're feeling.

You're hurting.

And it makes sense to reach out
to something familiar.

And I'm here for you but...

...not in that way.

I think I'm falling in love
with my wife.

You think?

Yeah.

That's what my heart
is telling me.

And I'm listening to it.

I'm sorry, Ash.

I understand.

I want you to be happy.

-Yeah.
-[sniffles]

I really do. I mean that.

Because you deserve
only good things in this world.

Um, yeah, I think--
I think you better go

because, uh...

-Yeah.
-Thanks for coming by.

[Andre clears throat]

[crying]

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