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Salt Lake City.

Monica was saying guys have bragged
about hooking up with Sean like it was

big deal.

Nobody has ever once said that. She's
not your friend.

I'm kind of creeping back into this sad,
lonely, and to see your wedding ring in

the drawer every day, that hurts me.

It's just sad.

Why do you care about Jack's mission?

Because if you're sending your kid out
into the wilderness for two years, you

should know the good and the bad of it.

Don't be cold -ish with me when you
don't have my back.

Is this funny to you? It is funny to me.
You can find your own right home.

Deadass. Mariana, let's go.

Let's go.

We're leaving.

What's going on?

I just got off the phone with Mary.

I would just really love the opportunity
to talk. If I don't feel it, I'm not

showing up.

Why are you talking to Mary Cosby?

Like, we never got to clear the air.

Okay. I thought I was going to get the
chance to talk to her at Greek Easter,

but she wasn't there.

So I reached out to her, and she agreed
to go to dinner.

I just don't want you to have an
expectation.

I fully realize that it's completely
random.

that I want to meet up with Mary.
Because honestly, she's not that nice to

However, it keeps coming up in my
meditation, in my therapy, with my

healer. And so clearly for me, I need to
find some sort of resolve

with Mary to move on.

Like, speaking of awkward relationships,
Heather invited me to go cross -country

skiing, and Meredith is going to be
there.

How are things with you and Meredith?

I wouldn't say they're bad, but they're
not good.

Okay. Yeah, I want to invite her to
Bobby's birthday.

Yeah. I hate not including people, even
if they're being a little, you know.

What day are we doing our party?

We're doing it on her birthday.

You know that's the conference that I
have with work, right?

On her birthday? Yeah.

You're not going to be here?

No.

That's why I thought we were doing it
the weekend before.

No, I said that we're doing it on her
birthday. I thought we talked about

No, we didn't.

Well, that's a bummer.

I have to do this event. This is like
our kickoff event for the company.

Yeah, I get that.

I mean, I won't be gone the entire day.
I can definitely reach out and talk to

her on her birthday. I'm just not going
to be there in person.

The problem is I can move it to the
weekend before, but I have a prism event

too.

So that means I'm going to be throwing
two large events back to back. So I'm

going to need help.

I'll absolutely pitch in and help where
I can.

And then one other thing.

Have you made a therapy appointment yet?

Okay.

Talk to him now.

Let me know.

Send me what times he has available.

All right. All right. Love you, Jay.

Love you, too.

welcome to why such excursion what's the
name on your reservation heather gay

checking in you must be friends with her
it looks so cool oh my god

just the appropriate amount of literally
we like got the memo let's go oh those

look sick yeah who gets which one either
pick one i'll go in the middle okay all

right snowmobile sandwich we're ready to
ride

I picked a perfect day to snowmobile.
This is so pretty.

Okay, let's take a selfie. One, two,
three, big smiles, bigger.

There it is.

Nice.

This is beautiful, Heather.

Ladies, let's mount up.

We're going to ride out of here.

This is so cute. I feel like we're in a
Hallmark movie. I know.

Thank you so much for calling me. That
meant a lot, and I really, really need

it, though.

Yesterday was hard.

Because when I saw you leaving with your
kids just in your arms and no shoes,

and I couldn't get it out of my mind to
have your mom there but not helping you.

You know, it just completely reminded me
of the way I feel about my own mom, you

know.

My mom was a stay -at -home mom. She had
six kids, three boys, three girls.

She was the ultimate homemaker.

She was, like, smart and creative and
fun. And, like, she taught me.

Like how to be a great mom.

We just grew apart once I got divorced.
It was really hard for everybody to

accept the divorce. It was hard for them
to understand how to navigate defending

me. It just didn't feel like anybody had
my back, you know? Here's the thing. My

mom and I, our relationship is so
volatile.

I think it dates back to my whole
childhood.

When I turned 12, my mom...

She decided that she wanted to chase her
dream, so she dropped me off with a

family in Pennsylvania and went and
lived in New York.

My dad left me when I was four, and then
my mom left me.

So I have, like, major, major, like,
abandonment issues because of that.

And you were 12?

Mm -hmm.

Like, I had, I started junior high there
in Pennsylvania. Mm -hmm.

With these, like, people. They weren't
even family. Who were they?

They were, like, friends that my mom and
I knew, and they had moved to

Pennsylvania, and she called and asked
them if, like, she could leave me there.

And so yesterday got so intense because,
again, in that moment, I felt so

abandoned by her.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Like... I mean, it's... I've... I've
been there.

I think you and I...

actually have way more in common than i
would have ever thought i really am so

grateful heather that you did this with
me today because i wouldn't have even

left my bed today truly that's not a
joke you have a village

you're creating a new village too thank
you you're gonna be okay thanks

Hey, Jack.

Yeah. Going down some memory lanes,
tripping out. Is that all your mission

stuff? Yeah.

Your mom was surprised I even had these
anymore.

These are so funny.

Milking a cow right there.

Yeah, I had never milked a cow in my
life, and of all places, that was, like,

Vegas. With Jack making his decision, I
wasn't as impacted as

Lisa was. He actually told me two weeks
before he told Lisa.

When he told me, he's like, don't tell
mom.

I'm like, you're kidding, right?

Were you afraid of Lisa's reaction when
she found out?

She'd beat the shit out of me, probably.

The mission president had us write down
like a neat experience.

So this is titled The Most Spiritual
Experience.

Do you want me to read it to you?

Yeah. So this was in August. This is
1993, a long time ago.

Testimony of God answering prayers just
increased 100 times over tonight.

And I've been praying specifically to
find a family of four to baptize this

month. If I hadn't gone on my mission,
there's a chance that I may never have

met Lisa.

Lisa's older sister was a missionary in
Las Vegas.

And she brought Lisa to actually hang
out with one of my roommates.

And, you know, the rest is history.

Hey, what are you guys up to?

Oh, you broke out the vintage album.

I was telling Jack that you were
surprised that I even still had this. I

can't believe it.

Oh my gosh, you look so young.

Look how cute you are. You look like
Henry.

Oh my gosh, three days and you know
where you're going. Are you freaking

No. How did that work?

Like, you get an email?

I get an email. It's like, hey, now
you're going to get your call that

Okay, so what if we have this huge party
and your call doesn't come?

I'm realizing that Jack does not, like,
have any value in anything I say or

feel. For your mission, like, reveal,
like, what do you want there? You have

tell me.

Liquid depth charcuterie.

That's it?

But I feel like it's, like... Okay.

We're in Jack's world right now.

It's all, like, Jack's doing what Jack's
doing.

Like, Jack just got this, like, vibe
that he needed frosted tips. I don't get

it.

Why are we reliving the 90s?

We're proud that you're doing this, even
though you didn't tell us for a while.

But growing up Mormon, a lot of times
it's expected.

I had friends whose parents borderline
threatened them that if they didn't go

a mission, that they were going to kind
of be kicked out of the family.

Words can't describe how I feel about
Jack.

He's progressed so far.

Yeah.

I proud of Jack doesn't even cover it.

Just so you know, if you get out there
and you want to come home, the door is

open. Yeah, there are days I wanted to
come home.

I had a roommate in college who
literally was like so crazy weird. And

to tell you the story for a reason.

I came home and she was in my room
wearing all my clothes and like sitting

bed. I'm like, what are you doing? And
she's like, oh, I just want to see what

it felt like to be you for a day. And it
was really creepy.

You're going to have companions that
you're going to not like.

And you're stuck with them in close
quarters.

If it doesn't feel right and you feel
like I need to be back home, that's fine

too. Yeah.

Oh, for sure.

Why don't you go get him going so you
guys can go to lunch and everything.

Yeah, I'm going to wake him up.

Okay, love you. Thanks for, thanks for.

Oh, I'm nervous. I'm excited. I'm
nervous. I'm nervous. I love you. I love

I love you. I love you.

Soak up the sun and the snow while we
can. Such a good combo, sun and snow.

Love it. Hi, how are you?

Last winter, I took my daughter's cross
-country skiing on a whim, and we had

this amazing time. It was like communing
with nature. It was quiet.

It was a great workout. And I thought,
this seems like good, cheap fun. We

should do it with my friend.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, Whitney!

It's a little blushy.

Wait, how do we stop if we need to stop?
You don't. I'm born and raised in Utah.

I grew up skiing, snowboarding, all of
the snow things.

But I have never been invited to go
cross -country skiing.

Monica's preferring to do a short pace,
which is fine. It's not as elegant.

I prefer a Meredith Marks pace.

Okay.

I always thought that cross -country
skiing was something I'd do when I was

older, like the elderly women in my
neighborhood.

Who knew I'd be such a natural?

So, Heather, we are nearing the top of
this little hill.

What happens after that?

Wait, how do we stop, though? We don't
stop. We got to wait until it pans out.

Just go.

Oh, my God.

Monica, go like the wind. I'm king of
the world.

I can't see.

What's wrong?

Did she fall?

You didn't know how to stop.

Monty, stop.

This is why I don't do this.

Guys, take one last look. The snow might
be gone next time we come up here.

You guys want to just stick your feet
right here and we can do a little

tailgate? Sure. Yeah.

Here's some blue cheese stuffed olives,
and there's some pitted kalamata olives.

Fancy, fancy.

So, Monica, what's going on with the
car? You got a new Range Rover. That is

rental. When I had to buy a new car, I
pay for everything, but it's in my mom's

name. So every time she gets mad at me,
she takes the car.

And she took my car after Angie's Easter
dinner and left me without a car and my

four kids.

Yeah.

So, I had to rent another car.

That's a nightmare.

How did she do this?

This is what she said. I want the car by
4 p .m. or I'm calling the police.

And saying it was stolen.

This is what she said. I want the car by
4 p .m. or I'm calling the police.

And saying it was stolen.

It's sick. You're paying for it. Oh,
yeah, no. But it's her credit.

It sounds like when she is angry,
there's no reasoning.

It's just because she's angry and it's a
control tactic and she's throwing a

tantrum and it's like, give me that.

But you should take your control back.
Yeah, exactly.

I agree with Meredith. When it's not
volatile, when it's calm, when it's not

angry. Could she go on this emotional
rollercoaster? You haven't met her mom

yet. No, I haven't. You met her mom at
Angie's Easter. Oh, yeah, that's true.

Would that not go over well?

No, she'd love you. You'd love her.
She's so nice and charming. It's like

Bundy, right?

No one ever thought he was a murderer
because he was so charismatic.

There's a lot of legends in Utah about
Ted Bundy. I didn't know Linda was one

them.

It's a mess.

I'm the only one that's absolutely not
talking to my mom at all.

I didn't talk to my mom for 13 years,
though, Heather. 13 years? 13 years.

Because you left the church?

Yeah. We just completely went our own
ways, and I had to watch her, like,

be there with my brothers and the other
grandkids, and it was hard.

That is actually so crazy that we all
have daughters and we all have these

insane relationships with our mothers.

It's like we've got to do so much better
for our kids. Because we all left the

church. Maybe that's why.

Don't be Judaism.

But I do speak to my mother all the
time.

So Bobby turns 13.

Wow. Teenager.

We're doing a birthday party for her.
Please come and bring your families.

Okay. And bring your mom.

Shut the.

Just kidding.

Meredith, I want you to come, and I have
to have this awkward conversation with

you, though.

Angie and her family are going to be
there, and it makes me feel

that, like you repeatedly said, that you
want to...

ruin her life. I have never said I would
ruin anybody's life. You said multiple

times that there are rumors that you
have heard about and you have

about her that could ruin her life.

God damn it, ladies.

There goes my tailgate party.

Bitches. Look back in the history of our
friendship.

It was the same thing with Jen, with
Lisa, with Mary, and now it's Angie. So

just saying, as your friend, I'm telling
you, this...

seems to be your pattern in what you do,
and I want you to be aware of it. As my

friend, I would like to understand how
you could see my car crash on the side

the road and not stop or call me for 48
hours to see that I'm okay.

I drove past the car that was in the
snowbank, yes, and I later found out it

you, and that's when I texted you
because your post said you were in a

-fatal accident.

And I didn't connect that that was the
same thing until you posted that. And I

did reach out to you.

Okay.

Did her life really flash before her
eyes or did she see an opportunity to

out something that we can't challenge
her about?

Her putting out this big dramatic post,
it's like her thinking that people will

feel bad for her and no one's going to
want to bring up the fact that she

started these rumors about Angie.

Because she almost died.

I want you to come to the party, but I
want to get to a place where I can know

that it's going to be a safe space.

What I can tell you is this.

When I got into that accident, I did see
my life flashing before my eyes. I

thought I was going over a cliff.

And I thought that my last significant
interaction was what it was that day.

It's incomprehensible.

Truly. Truly.

I can tell you this. I don't threaten
people.

I'm not hurting people. I'm not
inflicting harm or even wishing ill

anyone.

Including Angie.

Yeah. Thank you.

Hey, how are you? Good to see you, Dad.
What's up?

Hey, you. Hi. You're good.

Fit as a fiddle?

Yeah, I brought some lemons.

Oh, nice.

Well, we're going to need those.

All right.

I'm going to put you to work.

Good. You ready to cook?

Yeah, I'm ready, yes.

All right. Let me take your coat.

Okay.

Thanks for bringing me. I love spending
time with my dad. I mean, he's the first

person that I call when I wake up. He's
my best friend.

I'm going to pour us a glass of wine.

It's very sweet because he's 86 years
old and he's still teaching me how to do

things.

You're going to do it for me.

There we go.

You're serving yourself here. Yeah.

To our health.

So this is your famous chicken lemon
rice soup. Yeah. People love this.

Yeah, so squeeze them in there, and then
we'll measure it in a cup. Okay.

Being with my dad just keeps me grounded
and always reminds me who I am. My

parents came from Crete, Greece, for a
better life.

They wanted to raise their children the
American way.

However, we were still very Greek.

We ate lamb.

We Greek danced. We were loud.

All the things that you didn't see in
Utah.

My dad, he's taught me to bring family
together through food, and cooking is

of my favorite things to do with him.

Where's Sean anyway?

Oh, you know, he went down to the salon
for a few minutes, but he'll be home.

Oh, then he's going to be here to eat
with us. He will. He will. He'll

be here in just a few minutes.

She's not.

If he's not here with you, we won't wait
up.

So we haven't been on a date, the two of
us, for a year and a half or two.

Because we're never alone anymore.

And I think that kind of happens, right?

Did you guys ever go on dates? I never
remember you guys leaving the house.

Unless it was a family thing.

Me and your mom, you mean?

Yeah. We had too many kids.

We couldn't do it.

Yeah.

Probably didn't even have the money
anyway.

Yeah, you're putting it all towards your
kids, right?

All seven of them. Because my mom died
at a young age, I don't really have a

of memories of her and my dad together
as a married couple.

For me, becoming a wife, I didn't really
have that example to know how to

navigate through different situations in
marriage.

Learn everything just as I went. You
know how this goes, because you put us

number one, that we put Electra first,
both of us. You know, then all of a

sudden you find that two years have gone
by and we haven't even gone out to

dinner or done anything, just the two of
us.

What do you think are the secrets, just
with all your years of wisdom and

raising a family?

The secret? The secret.

You have to be firm.

Shoot, kill, and pull the bosses.

Yeah. Right?

Yeah. Yeah, that's hard to do. Hey,
guys. Oh, hi.

How are you?

How's it going? How's it going,

Louie? Oh, my gosh, that looks good.

We didn't wait, but we saved you enough.

You want a bowl?

I'm going to go shower real quick.

Okay. I'm going to take my jacket off. I
served my dad. I should serve you, too,

right?

Take care, guys.

Okay, see you in a bit.

You want some fruit?

Coming up... You have to own it, too. I
used to sit there and call my husband

and my predators.

Hello. I have a table for two. For
Whitney.

Right this way? Thank you.

How are you? You look pretty.

Thank you. How are you doing?

Surviving this snowstorm.

I mean, it's a blizzard.

Thanks for coming out in it.

Mary and I have quite a bit of history.

You know, it hasn't always been the
easiest of friendships.

I 100 % know all the different versions
of Mary.

You can go.

You're not hearing me, Mary.

Stop it. I didn't know you baked.

I do. I love to bake.

I'm not your child, Mary.

Thank God you're not.

She's a tough nut to crack.

Hi there.

Hi. Welcome in. Hi. How are you? So
good. How are you? Good.

What can I grab you to drink?

I'm just going to have a chardonnay.

I'll do a cabernet.

Okay, perfect. And then do we know what
you would like to eat? I would like to

have the crispy duck roll.

Okay. And then I'll do the wedge salad
and the pappardelle. Okay, perfect.

Thank you. Choose the one. Thank you.

We missed you at Greek Easter.

I didn't miss it.

Here. Cheers.

Seven years left to our life.

I need that because I'm headed into
those seven years of teenagers.

That's why I went home and I said, now,
at some point you have to tell me. I am

so sorry. Let me grab you a new plate,
okay?

At some point you have to tell me. I am
so sorry.

No, I did not spill on me.

Oh, my gosh.

Why did she spill it on Whitney?

That's a sign.

You should not be here tonight.

Winnie, you better come with it. You
caught this shot.

You better shoot your shot.

I got caught up in a lot of bullshit
talking about you, and I'm so sorry.

You severed our future.

Severed it.

But, Mary, you have to own it, too. What
do you mean I have to own it? I have to

own you talking about me? You sent me
mean text messages, and it hurt my

feelings.

You think you're better than me? I can
tell you, you're not. I'm better than

you. I also know I look younger than
you. I don't need all the fake

in my face to make my face look like
whatever. I've never had plastic

never. I don't need it like you do.

Roll up, little girl, okay?

I'm done.

Have a good night. I'm not doing this
with you.

You're not wasting my, you waste enough
of my time.

Mary, please don't do this. Watch me
leave.

Mary, did you hear? I brought you here
to take accountability and talk through

it. Well, you're not doing it. You're
upset because I'm asking you to do the

same for the mean text message. And I'm
not sitting here with you for you to

tell me what I need to work on. You can
be mean, but I can't. And you sit there

and call my husband and my predators.

I know.

You have several. That was awful.

I can't believe Whitney is comparing my
text messages to calling me a predator

and my husband.

How is that even in comparison?

You can't just say anything about people
that's not true and think that it's

okay. Like, someone's going to backhand
you.

Like, seriously, it might be me.

Whitney, we're done, okay?

Goodbye.

Have a good night. I'm going to take my
shoes off.

You won't even have a conversation with
me? No.

I'm not wasting my time with you.

That's what you don't get.

Wake up, bobblehead.

Excuse me.

Can I get a to -go box?

Absolutely. Okay. Yeah.

you don't go for me yeah absolutely yeah
thank you be right back enjoy your

oysters hey you have a good night this
is gross and i really don't think this

how you want to leave it i promise you
watch me walk out the door hey it is

it is i feel like mary's always gonna
find something to be mad about when it

comes to me i didn't come for this i
didn't come to do this i Okay.

I don't know what you came for then. I
know better than to expect us to ever be

friends like we were again.

It's just not in the cards for us.

I do not need Jesus coming knocking at
my door.

I love all the stuff we're bringing in.

Look at that. That's going to make me
cry.

Oh, my God. Today is the day we are
going to find out where Jack is going to

spend two.

Sorry, sorry.

Yeah,

it's like you're one of the first people
to know. So now it's all unraveled.

Getting your mission call, it's a huge
thing in Utah, like a gender reveal

party. Hold on, I'm going to check in.

Hi, family.

What's up, everybody?

Jack's going to go off, leave us for two
years, and it's becoming so real.

I'm not a control freak, but I might
like things my way.

If I'm, like, waiting on my G -Wagon, I
know how to make it happen, where I get

the G -Wagon with the right colored
seats.

on time, and delivered to my door. But
this, I have zero control over. Like, I

have no say in where Jack goes, how he
lives, and it's really, really a lot.

I am just so grateful you guys are all
here. With a show of hands, who knew

was going on their mission before us?

Oh my gosh, like the whole room!

It's such a major deal to give up two
years of your life to serve God, and...

I'm so grateful he made this decision.

I love you so much.

Okay.

Henry, get up here.

Why? Henry, come on. Because you're the
little man.

Okay. I'm nervous. I'm nervous. Okay. So
before I get into this, you know, I

want to thank you guys all for coming
out. It means so much. And I'm just so

blessed. I have great parents that have
been supportive with me no matter what.

Pre -mish, they were supportive. Post
-mish, they're even more supportive. And

so they're very loving.

I love Henry. He's been super supportive
along this whole ride, even though the

first thing he said when I told him was,
he goes, I go, Henry, I'm going on a

mission. He goes, that sucks.

But ever since, he's been super excited
and pumped for me, and so I'm blessed.

And so, you know, let's get into this.

Dear Elder Barlow, you are hereby called
to serve as a missionary of the Church

of Jesus Christ of Latter -day Saints.

You are assigned to labor in the
Columbia Bogota North Mission.

Oh, my gosh.

I cannot believe he's going to Colombia.

He'll probably be held up at gunpoint at
least once or twice on his mission. My

friend's son was just there. He was held
up at gunpoint like weekly.

So he carried like an extra few bucks in
his pocket and just like handed over.

He's like, OK, I see the gun. Here's the
cash.

I mean, overall, it's thrilling.

I was expecting, like, Europe or
something. Or New York, yeah.

Hi, how's it going?

I'm meeting someone here, and I think
she's already here.

Okay, you can follow me. It's going to
be your table right here. Perfect. Thank

you so much. And you can put your purse
right there. Okay, great. Thank you.

Enjoy, ladies.

Hello.

I'm so sorry. Can I get a straw?

Absolutely. Thank you.

Thank you so much.

Well, that just gave me a headache.

I watched a movie about an older lady in
Croatia who

had issues with her mom.

The mom died and they had to resolve
their issues.

And I don't want that to happen to us.

Do you want me to? feel bad for you but
when i was crying you didn't give a at

angie's dinner you made me feel

completely alone you picked everybody
else's side you were apologizing for me

those people that you just met don't
apologize don't you

are very sweet and it's okay so sorry

Can we have some fun? I'm ready for fun.

And then you expect me to sit here and
feel bad for you that you're crying

now. I'm not asking you to feel bad for
me.

I'm asking you to have a conversation
with me. Don't talk to me like this. I'm

not going to talk to you like some weak
-ass bitch either.

Evening, ladies. Welcome into Menarca.
How are we doing tonight?

Well, hey, what can I get you?

I'll have the lobster enchiladas.

Absolutely.

I'll do the guacamole appetizer. Yeah,
we'll get it going. Thank you.

Do you have any aspirin in your bag?

No, I do not.

When you were in Palm Springs, you said
that Angie was acting like a crazy

person. And as her friend, you were
trying to calm her down. You were trying

pull her aside.

I was just trying to do that for you.

I didn't get in Angie's face and
humiliate her like that.

You don't know half of it.

Nothing. But you instantly took her
side.

You instantly apologized to her for her.

How I was acting.

I don't understand that. I can't
comprehend that.

That must have skipped a couple
generations.

Because I don't have that in me. To
apologize to someone I've never met

For my child.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do
with this.

I know. You tried crying. You tried
yelling.

I didn't try crying.

Stop that. That was sincere.

Don't be disrespectful.

Mom. You're not going to scold me like
I'm a f***ing little child anymore. And

you're not going to disrespect me. I'm
still your mother. I'm not being

disrespectful. Yes, you are.

The only one losing it at this table
right now is you.

Don't mock my feelings. Like you did to
me? I don't care.

I don't care. You are so sick. I'm so
over it. I know you don't care.

That's the attitude. Let me talk. Go
ahead.

Did you just call me a f***er?

Motherf***er called you a motherf***er.

I called you a mother...

Look

at this pretty dessert.

That's not a dessert. That's guacamole.

Guacamole, whatever.

Appetizer.

Are you going to eat?

I don't feel like it right now.

We... We have had our issues in the
past, but we both have to be willing to

vulnerable with each other.

And when you're ready, we can sit down
and figure out where did this start?

Where did this start?

My childhood.

All right, let's start there.

You'll excuse me. I thought there has to
be some aspirin around here.

I thought I put aspirin in my bag.

I'm not saying any of that. What I'm
telling you is Easter at Angie's was

reliving my abandonment as a child.

I'm telling you, you want to get to the
root of this? You're going to have to

hear these hard things from me that you
don't like to hear.

I didn't abandon you. Yes, you did. I
did not abandon you. That's how I felt.

was 12 years old and it was so easy for
you to leave me with those people and

you go off and live your life in New
York.

my new job.

New York was far more expensive than I
thought. I was not prepared for New

How do we move past this?

You have trauma.

You have trauma. What's my trauma?

Your mother.

What's my trauma? The way that your
mother hated you and disliked you and

never there for you and abandoned you
and your dad abandoned you. I get you

through a lot of abuse. I'm over it. I'm
over it. You are not over it. I'm over

it. Because you treat me the same way.

that you hate how your mother treated
you.

I come from a long line of complicated
relationships between mothers and their

daughters. My grandmother never wanted
to have a daughter.

She kind of just closed off completely,
and it's kind of made it to where her

relationship with my mom has always been
completely damaged from the beginning.

She's always...

struggled with my mother and everything
my mom did was like a complete

disappointment. My mom got pregnant. My
mom became, you know, a member of the

LDS church and left Catholicism. My
mother moved out of Boston. My mother

got married. And, you know, there's all
these things that have made their

relationships so difficult.

And I think that my mom probably didn't
want to get pregnant when she got

pregnant. And I think it's just this.

line of resentment happening a little
bit.

Monica Darnell.

That's not... Why are you calling me
that? Because that's the name I gave

You haven't called me Monica Darnell in
decades.

I'm sorry.

I don't know what the f*** your name is.
You change every f***ing week.

You know why nothing is sour. You know
why you call me that? Because that's how

you treat me. You treat me like I'm...
still, that little tiny girl that you

sit on and leave here and leave there
and get your dream job and your dates.

I'll sit in the back of a trunk of a car
while you make out with one of your

f***ing boy toys.

That happened one time.

I'm sorry that I kissed a boy.

It has nothing to do with you kissing a
guy.

It has to do with the situation that I
was in while you were doing it. And

right now you don't give a f***.

No, I don't.

It's pretty disgusting.

I wish I could say that was the first
time that had happened or that that

normal, but that's very on par for my
mom.

I've dealt with emotional and mental
abuse my entire life, so I think I'm

completely fucked up.

All I can do is make sure my kids never
feel that and

break that.

cycle i guess of emotional and mental
abuse truly what was i supposed to do

monica what was i supposed to do i want
you to tell me are you looking at me for

answers as to why you abandoned me you
know what get over it when do i

get forgiven when do you get forgiven
you just told me you don't really feel

so not today i'm hungry you should eat

We're lost.

All I care about is that this is now
affecting my children, and that's where

drop the line.

The shit you do to me, you're doing to
them now. When you take our vehicle, I'm

done. Oh, so it's my fault.

That's exactly what I'm saying.

I can't fix this.

I don't have the tools.

But we need therapy. There's no other
way.

Okay. But I do need to get home to the
kids, so...

Next

time on The Real Housewives of Salt Lake
City... I just can't believe you're at

13. Whoa!

I have eyebrows!

Did you hear the good news that you're
going to Columbia?

For admission, Lisa did a whole
announcement yesterday in her little

Wait. Yeah?

Everyone, wait, she did an announcement?

I talked with Monica.

She's in a very abusive situation with
her mom. You can be abused and also be

abusive.

Lisa, listen, I want to enjoy the sound
bowl.

Old people need it.

Control yourself, Monica.

My glass from Deli.

This is a sound off. Please stop talking
to me.