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That's my mother.

I hate my mother.

She took something from me no one should ever lose.

So I took away the only thing she truly loves.

Me.

Why do you do that every time? What did I do? That's the problem. You don't even

see it.

Why can't I have my own car?

He is so embarrassing.

Frank, what's going on?

You know Lily.

First one.

Is that what you think of me?

Sarah, don't start. I've had a day.

So have I.

Oh, yeah.

The shrink.

Therapist, if you can't respect me, at least respect a professional.

That's what he's filling your head with? I don't respect you?

He's not filling my head full of anything.

We just talk.

It's more than I can say we do these days.

Cheap wine.

For a cheap woman.

I'm going to Ralphie's.

Oh, I can take you. No.

You sure?

Will you be home for dinner?

Have fun.

Does she seem different to you?

I'll be in the basement for a bit.

What do you want for dinner?

Cheers to dinner.

Took you long enough.

Sorry.

You okay?

Oh, I hear that Travis guy is gonna ask a certain someone to prom.

Come on, Lily. He seems like a nice guy.

I don't disagree.

It's just... Just what?

Is it the dropping out thing?

I don't like guys like that.

I had him in algebra.

He's kind of smart.

Have at him.

Lily, get in the car.

I'm hanging out with Katie.

But you didn't ask me.

I told you and Mom.

Exactly. You told me.

But you didn't ask me.

Mr. McNeil, it's my... It's none of your business.

I don't care. It's time to go.

Dad! I don't like being made a fool of, Lily.

Phone by ten.

Sorry Katie.

What's going on?

Are you okay?

What do you care?

I'm your mother.

And once, not too long ago, I was a teenage girl.

Let me start playing guitar.

It's a bass.

And I don't really...

Mom?

Damn it, Sarah.

We talked about this. She isn't mature enough to drive a car.

No, we didn't.

You decided and told us what the golden rule was.

She is too young.

I was 15 when I got my first car.

You didn't have a choice.

Whose fault was that?

what she'll do with a car.

Besides, what makes you think we can even afford a third car?

It's paid for.

Where'd you get that kind of money?

You may work in that building, Frank, but my father's name is on that sign.

She's old enough that she needs more responsibility.

She's a good girl.

Can I go out with Katie?

And?

Can I have a ride?

You have a car.

Dad has the keys.

Have fun.

Be home by 11.

Be home by 10.

Home by 10.

That's when I knew I had him.

You had him.

Do you see your marriage as a competition?

No. Nothing like that.

See, Frank has control issues.

He likes to dominate everyone and everything in his life.

Is that why you made the unilateral decision to buy the car?

I didn't buy the car.

It came from my father's company.

My father gave it to me.

I was of the impression that you weren't speaking to your parents.

I speak to them every once in a while.

They really hate Frank.

I see.

No, you don't see.

My father hates my husband.

I think it's because he sees himself in Frank.

And that terrifies him.

Expand on that.

What did your father do that makes him so afraid that Frank is going to mirror

such a behavior?

Are you okay?

We're not there yet.

Sarah, what do you hope to get from our sessions?

To know what I want and who I am.

Interesting.

Lily Grace McNeil.

Where have you been?

Come here now!

Sorry, Mommy.

Are you drunk?

Aren't you?

This is completely... That's new.

I'm sorry.

Is that what you're learning at therapy?

What do you call it?

You know, when you hit the stress pillow.

Were you with someone?

Of course not.

Look at me! Don't touch me!

Do not touch me!

Lily? Go to your

room! Mom, I'm sorry.

Get away from me.

What do you like being touched?

It's a flyer for a gardener.

You're a gardener.

I do a little bit of everything.

How old are you?

I'm 17.

Shouldn't you be in school?

Well, I don't go to school anymore.

I had to drop out because I couldn't afford it.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Do you know Lily McNeil?

Yeah, I know Lily.

Well, more like I know of, really.

That sounds like a story.

No story, really.

So, you do a little bit of everything, huh?

What I don't know, I Google.

Resourceful. I like that.

Do you have any construction skills?

No, I don't know how to build anything.

Can you at least climb a ladder?

Oh, yeah.

All day.

Tell you what. I've got an old brush pile at back.

It's been there for probably three years. I thought it would rot by now,

hasn't.

Do you have bags and snips?

Of course. In the basement.

How does $12 an hour sound?

I typically ask $15.

Especially with the heat and all.

I'll give you 14.

And I'll provide lemonade and lunches.

And no weekend work.

Yeah.

That'd be real nice.

And maybe you can tell me a little bit about Lily.

She's a good girl.

Aloof.

Aloof.

Okay. You start tomorrow and don't be here before 8 a .m.

Thank you. Yes, ma 'am.

McNeil? Yes, this is her. Did you cancel for Dr. Fuller?

No, I didn't cancel that appointment with Dr. Fuller.

You want to reschedule it?

Your husband canceled it.

Yes, please reschedule that appointment.

So you will be there tomorrow?

Yes, I will be there tomorrow afternoon as planned.

Okay, see you then.

Okay, thank you. You're welcome. Bye.

Right. What's this?

Well, it was dinner an hour ago.

It's probably cold now

Have you heard from Lily?

She's at Ralphie's again with her friends.

Good. I like those girls.

Oh.

I don't trust them.

Too boy drunk.

It's natural.

It's natural that I don't like it.

Where were you?

Oh, you know, running some errands.

Running errands? Mm -hmm.

I'm the one that runs the errands.

It's one of the only things that I do for the family.

Yeah, well, work, you know?

No, Frank, I don't know.

Because you never talk to me about work, or anything else for that matter.

You just come in, eat dinner, and go to the basement.

Unless you're out chauffeuring Lily around like some bodyguard.

How did you know where Lily was?

Um, she called me.

She called you.

You know, this would be amazing if it was hot.

How would it work?

Oh, you know.

It would work.

I hired a yard boy today.

What?

I hired a yard boy today.

A yard boy.

Why?

Because you don't take care of it.

You've got a basement full of tools that you never use.

I don't want anyone in my basement.

He needs the tools.

Well, then I will set the tools out for him, but you keep him out of there.

I have projects.

Delicate woodwork. I don't want to get messed up.

Speaking of woodwork... Why did you cancel my appointment with Dr. Fuller

Did I?

They called.

And I reset it.

Sarah? It seems that Dr. Fuller and I have a lot to talk about.

Oh, and have fun with your delicate woodwork.

Oh my gosh, I totally forgot.

Do you need anything?

I found the tools, but there were no bags.

I'm so sorry. Come in here and I'll get you some.

If you need anything else, just let me know.

Okay. I think that's all.

Thanks. Thank you.

Okay.

Sarah, please sit down.

I can't. Something happened today.

Yesterday.

Yesterday, your husband tried to cancel your appointment.

Yeah. And today?

I ran into someone.

With your car?

No.

With my body.

With your body?

Yes, I heard someone to work around the house, and this morning we

kind of bumped into one another.

And this has you worked up? Yes, I know it's weird.

Why do you let it have so much power over you?

Because the way he looked at me.

It's been a really long time since anyone looked at me like that.

Like how?

Like he desired me.

Like he...

Wanted me.

And for the first time in a really long time,

I wanted to be wanted.

When's the last time you and Frank were intimate?

Oh, a while.

Days? Weeks?

since Lily was about 11.

And how old is she now?

15.

Let's try something.

You can come in, Frank.

Welcome home.

Where's Lily?

Bowling.

You can come closer.

Closer.

What is this?

Something that's long overdue.

Kate, tell all of the news.

Oh, it's nothing really.

I tried out for cheer captain.

Woo!

So, what does a captain really get?

I don't know really.

What real responsibility is there in cheer anyways?

Rah! Rah! Go big sweaty boys! I just want to get in my panties!

Woo!

You're so dumb.

That sucks.

But, anyways, how are you doing?

Yeah, you've been in your own little world lately.

What's that supposed to mean?

It mean... It's my turn.

Can't avoid the question forever, though.

She sure is gonna try.

Maybe she has something else on her mind.

Really?

Bowling, no.

It's been a long time since you touched me.

Why?

I don't know.

You gotta get good at this someday.

Trust me.

I try.

Barely.

I gotta run. Wanna walk me out?

Yeah.

I'll see you guys later. I'm gonna bowl. See ya. Bye.

Bye.

You're not coming with?

No, I'm waiting for... Yeah, who?

Well, have fun.

Text me when you get home.

Okay.

Draft that bully!

Bitch!

You cheated! You can't do that! Stop being a troll!

It's not trolling to say the fact.

I didn't cheat, you just suck.

You would know about sucking, right? You're an asshole!

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Just my sister being, well, herself.

Are you gonna be okay?

Yeah, it's not the first time she's hit me.

Thank you.

I really appreciate that.

Daddy, please!

Let go.

What? Let go of me. What did I do?

Don't touch me. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm

sorry.

I can't.

I just can't.

Jesse!

Lily, I have to show you something. It's so funny.

Oh, my God.

Did you hear about what happened at Ralphie's the other night?

No.

Something bad?

Oh, yeah.

That little boy? What happened?

They think she... That's the news.

He must have just left.

But they are reopened, just no laser tag.

Tragic.

The boy, not the laser tag.

Lily, come on.

Come on. Let's go have some fun, please. Come on, let's go.

Come on.

Thank you.

Did you like it?

It reminded me of you.

The little bird growing up.

Not now.

You're not my little girl anymore, are you, Lily?

We used to be so close.

Let me go.

I like it.

Say you like it.

No!

What's wrong with you?

You broke your base.

I'm not buying you another one.

Fine.

Clean up your mess and go to bed.

Sarah, I feel like we've taken a step backwards.

You've become despondent, closed off.

You never said how the experiment went.

It went nowhere.

But you tried.

I tried everything.

Ivan took his hands and...

Why doesn't

my husband love me anymore?

I cannot begin to discern Frank's state of mind. Should I just leave him?

You know professionally I cannot tell you what to do.

I cannot make decisions for you.

My job is to help find a way for you to learn how to do it for yourself.

What about his friends?

Are we friends?

Sarah, you're going to be fine.

I don't know what I want.

Then that is what we begin to work on.

Work on what?

This week, I want you to find something that makes you happy.

One thing.

And then do what you need to do to make that happen.

What kind of thing?

This.

Hey, Travis.

Can you come inside and help me with something really quick?

Um, can I finish this first?

Um, sure. Just don't be long, okay?

Alright.

Finally. I need you to get something for me.

Can you get that box down for me, please?

Oh, I'm so embarrassed.

I totally forgot that that was still there.

It's okay.

It's my favorite color.

Is that all you need?

Mrs. McNeil?

Yeah. Yeah.

That's it.

Thank you.

This week, I want you to find something that makes you happy.

One thing.

And then do what you need to do to make that happen.

What kind of thing?

This.

Hey, girl, you got a jet. Leak time's about to start.

Do you hear me?

Keep your hands off me.

Watch it, girl.

Don't touch me. Or what?

Your pocket is dead, I'll get it on my own, ayy Get it, cause I'll throw it,

ayy, I'll get it on my own

with this royalty money.

No!

Someone's messing with me.

You're early.

He's still here.

Who?

My dad.

Oh, shit!

Should be leaving soon.

Just hang out.

Well...

Do you like my mom?

She's nice.

But Lily, I... No.

Do you like her?

I'm not sure what you mean.

Don't touch me.

I didn't.

Good work.

I haven't done anything yet.

One time.

You deserve to be happy.

One time.

That's it.

You're beautiful.

You're confident.

You're sexy.

I only think so.

Go get what you want.

It looks very nice.

Your husband is a lucky man.

It isn't for him.

Well, whoever, Mrs. McNeil.

I just want to thank you.

One time.

What?

Nothing.

Are you okay?

I've just never... What?

I've never been with anyone.

You're 17.

Yeah.

You're 17.

Yeah.

It's okay.

No.

It isn't.

Are you okay?

No.

And neither are you.

No, no, I'm okay.

You need to leave.

What?

Sweetheart, this isn't going to happen.

No matter how much some part of me wants it to, and a part of me really wants it

to, this is not who I am.

You need to go.

Fine.

I'll just go finish.

No.

Leave. Just leave now.

I'm not following.

I couldn't do it.

Why not?

I'm not him.

Him?

Frank.

How are you not like Frank?

He's only 17.

17. Frank?

No. Travis.

My one -time happiness.

I really wanted him.

Sarah, I think maybe you misunderstood.

I know. I know I deserve happiness.

You do, but... But...

I must rape that young man.

Just like...

I'm proud of you, Sarah.

How could I let him do that?

How old were you?

Fifteen.

It was a week after my 15th birthday.

You've said that your father dislikes Frank because he saw himself in

him.

Your father, was he abusive?

And Frank, do you feel he's abused Lily?

What are we doing?

It's Lily. I have to.

Lil?

Thought we might grab a lane in bowl?

Katie,

don't push.

Lily, I'm worried about you.

You're quiet, distant.

You don't even bowl. You just...

Is something going on?

Please, a little talk to me. I'm good.

Katie, here you go.

Okay, well, goodnight.

Lily, I'm always here.

Sorry, Lily.

Come find us if you want to play.

Need a ride?

No, I'm good.

Is everything okay?

You know, just stay away from me.

Seriously, I don't know who is worse, you or your slut of a fucking mother.

What did you just say?

I said your mother is a slut.

Did you have sex with her?

No.

Why not?

I got you that job.

Look, it was more than I was ready for. It was more than she was ready for.

I gave you every single opportunity.

Dave's alone with her.

This messes everything up.

What?

What's the matter, Trav?

Could you not get it up?

Lily, stop!

Mommy fantasy's not your thing.

Is that it?

Does the idea of a real woman scare you?

Maybe you just don't like girls.

Maybe I don't like desperate whores and spoiled bitch daughters.

I've had enough!

Everything okay?

Jeez, Lily.

No, my session. Not going well?

I'm not surprised.

You're totally screwed up.

Excuse me?

It's okay, Mom.

We all are.

That was totally uncalled for.

So is screwing Travis.

I never!

I get it.

He's hot.

Ripped.

Not like Dad.

That's enough!

Was he not very good?

Shut your mouth.

Word on the street is, he's a virgin.

Or... What?

I

can't

wait to get away from you.

Hello? Dr. Fuller? Yes?

Is this where she sits?

Where who sits?

My mother.

Sarah McNeil.

I cannot disclose information about anyone who may be in my care.

Maybe.

She is.

Does she talk about me?

I bet she does.

Do you need someone to talk to?

Why?

To get feelings out. Express yourself and...

Ways that you can't to anyone else.

This is a safe place.

Does my mother really buy that load of shit?

That this is a safe place?

Let's see.

Well, if you're not here for actual help...

It is rather late.

Oh.

I need help.

I need a lot of help.

But you can't help me.

Just like you're not helping my mother.

All patients are in control of their own therapy.

Is that why you told her to have an affair?

I'd never said anything of the sort. I told her to find something that makes

happy and do that.

One time.

Oh.

So it was your idea to rape Travis.

Or were you hoping he'd pick you?

Rape Travis?

No, I never said anything like that.

I find these allegations to be criminal at best.

My family is falling apart and it's all your fault.

If you wanted my mother, you could have just had her.

I never told her to... That's what makes her happy.

She knew what I meant.

Meaning is contextual. She knew.

Obviously not.

Now there's another person out there scarred.

Like me.

Like you.

What happened to you?

I don't want to talk about it.

Neither did she.

At first.

She still doesn't.

She's in denial.

She's weak.

And you're strong.

Damn right I am.

One of these my mother's?

Yes.

Are you finished?

Oh my.

So doc, you want to know what's broken in me?

Everything.

I'm broken just like her.

Weak just like her.

Powerless just like her.

Like her.

I am her.

All of the times that he came for me.

127 times.

127 times I was not his daughter. I was just his whore.

127 times I died.

I can't stand it anymore.

All this time, I can't help but believe that she knew.

She knew what he was doing.

All the nights alone in her bed. See?

She had to know.

I knew.

And he knew.

127 times!

So you see, Doc?

I'm broken.

Broken family.

Broken home. Broken trust.

Broken bond.

Broken hymen?

Broken innocence?

Once you've lost your innocence, right and wrong becomes a

little cloudy.

The world, a little more volatile.

People become pawns for your own survival.

Because in the end, the only person a good girl can rely on

isn't her loving mother or her dedicated father

or even the kind ears of strangers.

The only person a good girl can rely on

is herself.

Well, time's up.

Thanks, Glenn.

Fuller, Gate, and Whitson, how can I help you?

Yes, this is Sarah McNeil. I would like to cancel my remaining sessions, please.

Who is your appointment with?

Dr. Fuller.

I'm sorry, did you say Dr.

Fuller? Yes.

I'm going to transfer you to Dr. Fuller's associate, Dr.

Gate. Please hold.

No, hold.

Okay, so, team, one of the things we need to take care of here, it's really

important, and we need to address it promptly, is that...

Yes,

Ms. McNeil?

Yes.

I would like to cancel my remaining sessions with Dr. Fuller, please.

Um, yes, I hate to be the one to tell you this, but, uh...

Dr. Fuller's passed away.

What?

What happened?

Well, the police are investigating and they may be getting a hold of you.

Yes, ma 'am.

I'd like to get you back to the receptionist now and she can take care

appointments.

Thank you.

All right. Thank you.

I apologize for the hold. I'll take care of those appointments for you.

Miss McNeil?

Hello? Miss McNeil?

I broke her.

Now, I have to break him.

And this all ends.

There's so much.

left to do.

What size shoes do you use?

Party of five.

Your lane is ready for you in lane four.

Seven and a half. Enjoy your bowling.

You're welcome.

Yes.

Hi. Hey. Can I get my card refill, please? Yeah, of course. Thank you.

Excuse me.

Excuse me.

You know what?

This is ridiculous.

Not tonight.

I don't have time for your drama right now.

No, actually, I came here to apologize.

Apologize? You?

Yeah. I realized it was really messed up of me to try and hook you up with my

mom. Yeah.

It was really messed up, Lily.

Was you my...

I don't think Shane would even like that.

Sarah.

You guys are so into each other.

Sorry.

It was her idea to put this whole messy thing to bed.

Make him in.

No.

Travis.

Please?

No.

I'm over it.

Seriously.

I don't need any amends or whatever.

I'll tell.

Tell what?

Why did you force yourself on me?

I did not.

Why, Travis?

I thought I was special.

Why did you hurt me?

You're crazy.

Hey, pal, I think you should leave the lady alone.

I know.

Tell them the truth. The truth?

About how you forced yourself on me and tried to kiss me because you couldn't

deal with my mom?

You should go, miss.

It's a lie.

Travis, what did you do?

Don't even look at her.

You know what?

I'm done.

I'm gone.

What's happening here? I got this, Vin.

Yeah, you're done. You don't need this kind of drama around my place.

Mammy, what'd he do?

Hey, Trav!

I do the firing around here.

You may run the joint, but I own it.

Now what am I gonna do?

Are you sure you want to do this? You know he's going to fight it.

What's there to fight?

He lives in my house.

He works for my father's company.

He drives a car that I technically own.

Somewhere along the way, he forgot that he exists because of what he

got from me.

What he got from me.

And now, I want it all back.

All right.

After he's been served, then we can talk about visitation. No visitation. No!

I want him out of our lives forever.

I wish it was that easy.

It may be easier than you think.

Sarah!

Lily!

Bitch!

Can I help you?

Yeah, I'm looking for Sarah McNeil.

She isn't home.

When do you expect her back?

Please let go of the door.

I'm an associate of Dr. Fuller, your mother's therapist. I need to see her.

Oh.

It's tragic what happened to him.

On second thought, come in.

She should be home soon.

Great, thank you.

You have a lovely home.

Yes.

Mom is just crushed about Dr. Fuller.

You don't say.

Totally.

I have a friend coming soon.

You know it's policy when a doctor -patient relationship ends as this one

She was ending her sessions.

I understand that, but... Can I show you something?

Yeah, I guess so.

It's personal.

Have a seat. I'll get it and come back.

What is that?

Did he... I have to get away from it.

You just haven't... It's... It's okay.

I know why you have to do this.

Why you've done all this.

I'm so sorry.

It had to be you.

Oh, Jesus.

Lily!

Where are you?

Come out here, you little psycho!

Frank, what is going on?

Are you okay?

It's Louie.

Is she okay?

She's gone too far this time.

Frank, what is going on?

The basement.

What?

Have you done?

What's this?

Travis.

You can't leave me.

He's dead.

He's really dead.

No.

Lily.

No.

No. No. No.

No. Nothing happened. Nothing happened.

Why, Sarah?

You was just a kid.

That's why I couldn't.

I'm not like you.

What's that supposed to mean?

I know about you.

And Lily.

I love Lily.

You raped her!

I love Lily.

You bastard.

You haven't touched me in years.

How many times?

You had your hands on that little girl and all those years.

Lies. How many times have you raped our daughter, Frank? How many times have

you been down in that basement reliving it night after night?

That's what this is about. You're jealous.

We don't need a divorce.

We can end things right now!

Stop it!

Lily,

this isn't... Lily...

Lily, honey, you have to stop.

You never stopped.

Everything's gotten out of control.

I've gotten out of control.

What is wrong with you?

You can let go now.

You can't hurt us.

You can never hurt us again.

Mom.

It's okay.

It's my fault.

It's my fault.

I let this happen to me.

And now I let it happen to you.

What are we going to do?

Look at me.

You're going to call 911, and I'm going to tell them that I did this.

Why? Why?

Because for the first time in your life, I'm going to do what a mother would do.

I'm going to protect you.

That's my mother.

I hated my mother.

How bad is it in there?

Well, it's an easy night for you all. The mom confessed.

We're loading our squad car right now.

The mom confessed?

Yep. Thank you.

What's in the bag?

It's a garrote.

Jesus. What the hell happened in there?

A garrote. Is that the murder weapon?

What's that used for?

Strangulation. Anything of something like this is my time in Iraq.

Hey, hold up.

Shit.

She did this?

Yes, sir.

You going to reload them up, miss?

Yep. It's insecure.

It's all yours.

All of them.

All of them?

How many we got in there?

Well, there's three. There's one in the dining room, one in the bedroom, and one

in the basement.

Christ almighty.

What could have driven her to do this?

What the hell happened in there?

Have you followed the light?

Can you tell me your name?

Lily. You know the date today?

What town you're in?

Can you tell me what the hell happened here tonight?

Excuse us, lady. That's my father.

I hate my father.

He was a weak... person. Weak to his own impulses, desires.

That's why we had to kill him.

For the first time in my short life, my mother protected me. She gave me what I

never had.

What she never had.

Innocence.