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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:00,460 --> 00:00:05,419 For millennia, humans have wondered, where does our sense of self reside in 2 00:00:05,420 --> 00:00:09,959 body? Ancient Egyptians believed the answer was in our heart. But the 3 00:00:09,960 --> 00:00:14,180 If you all wouldn't mind silencing your phones. 4 00:00:16,200 --> 00:00:23,199 The Greeks believed our self and identity was formed in the brain. 5 00:00:23,200 --> 00:00:26,280 modern times, the question remains unanswered. 6 00:00:27,820 --> 00:00:28,940 I'm sorry, but... 7 00:00:29,160 --> 00:00:32,700 Whoever's phone keeps going off, be a champ and step out, would you? 8 00:00:32,920 --> 00:00:34,080 We don't hear anything. 9 00:00:36,860 --> 00:00:38,540 What is this, some kind of a prank? 10 00:00:38,960 --> 00:00:41,130 No one hears that. What is he talking about? 11 00:00:42,180 --> 00:00:43,880 Seriously, what is that? 12 00:00:44,120 --> 00:00:45,320 Where's it coming from? 13 00:01:17,501 --> 00:01:22,989 Did the chief know your pocketing hospital supplies? 14 00:01:22,990 --> 00:01:26,570 Uh, well, I certainly hope not, because that guy is a real pain. 15 00:01:27,270 --> 00:01:32,169 Listen, Wolf, I, um, I wanted to say thank you for all the care you've taken 16 00:01:32,170 --> 00:01:35,529 with Jorge and his recovery. Well, that is how it works, Nichols. You save them 17 00:01:35,530 --> 00:01:38,829 on the table even when they fall 39 floors to what should have been certain 18 00:01:38,830 --> 00:01:42,349 death, and I make sure that they are set up for recovery when they wake up. I 19 00:01:42,350 --> 00:01:45,869 know you go above and beyond. That is a frustrating thing that you do, but it 20 00:01:45,870 --> 00:01:46,920 means a lot to me. 21 00:01:46,921 --> 00:01:49,999 With this patient. Does that mean you trust my judgment now and you'll give me 22 00:01:50,000 --> 00:01:51,399 free reign of the neuro budget? 23 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:52,780 Maybe if I wasn't such a pain. 24 00:01:57,700 --> 00:01:59,200 What was that? 25 00:01:59,460 --> 00:02:02,640 The flirting, the looks, the yearning. 26 00:02:03,580 --> 00:02:05,360 You and the chief. 27 00:02:05,751 --> 00:02:07,699 Interim chief. 28 00:02:07,700 --> 00:02:11,190 And there's nothing to tell. Wolf, how long have we been working here? 29 00:02:11,380 --> 00:02:14,500 Not that long. You know I'm never going to let this go. 30 00:02:14,750 --> 00:02:17,530 It was a pleading down situation, Jeff. Never DTR. 31 00:02:17,531 --> 00:02:20,469 We're totally different people. We didn't even get along at first. 32 00:02:20,470 --> 00:02:21,850 enemies to lovers, classic. 33 00:02:21,851 --> 00:02:25,469 Well, things were actually going well at first, and until life got complicated, 34 00:02:25,470 --> 00:02:27,590 I stood him up at his awards dinner. 35 00:02:27,830 --> 00:02:29,930 You left that man on his big night? 36 00:02:30,730 --> 00:02:32,910 Standing alone in a tux in the rain? 37 00:02:33,190 --> 00:02:37,969 I don't think it was raining. You don't make it easy on a guy, Wolf, but now I 38 00:02:37,970 --> 00:02:39,210 need my dads together. 39 00:02:39,590 --> 00:02:41,010 No, no, no. He's chief. Intram. 40 00:02:41,210 --> 00:02:42,260 Chief. 41 00:02:42,820 --> 00:02:44,440 And that didn't stop your mother. 42 00:02:46,480 --> 00:02:48,160 It's gay's anatomy up in here. 43 00:02:48,580 --> 00:02:51,180 And I am fully invested. 44 00:02:54,680 --> 00:02:56,580 Sam, how have you been? 45 00:02:56,880 --> 00:02:58,760 It feels like I'm caught in this loop. 46 00:03:00,120 --> 00:03:04,580 Every day's the same. I wake up. 47 00:03:04,581 --> 00:03:08,219 The clock starts again. I've got 12 hours to figure out where I'm going to 48 00:03:08,220 --> 00:03:09,270 next. 49 00:03:09,540 --> 00:03:10,590 Shelters. 50 00:03:11,280 --> 00:03:12,330 Fill up quick. 51 00:03:12,331 --> 00:03:16,909 I wander around the city, pop in for a movie at the dollar theater when the 52 00:03:16,910 --> 00:03:17,769 weather's bad. 53 00:03:17,770 --> 00:03:19,760 I like the old ones where they talk a lot. 54 00:03:20,050 --> 00:03:21,310 Helps drown out the noise. 55 00:03:22,310 --> 00:03:25,410 When I need cash, I house a chest at the park. 56 00:03:25,690 --> 00:03:27,490 It's not much, but it gets me by. 57 00:03:28,170 --> 00:03:30,430 Then I do it all over again. 58 00:03:30,650 --> 00:03:35,649 Being unhoused can lock the brain into a trauma response state. It makes us feel 59 00:03:35,650 --> 00:03:38,570 trapped in a survival mode cycle. 60 00:03:38,910 --> 00:03:39,960 It's my fault. 61 00:03:40,050 --> 00:03:41,130 People don't trust me. 62 00:03:42,380 --> 00:03:45,380 They assume I'm an addict. I make them uncomfortable. 63 00:03:57,080 --> 00:04:03,879 Can you tell 64 00:04:03,880 --> 00:04:05,360 us more about the voices? 65 00:04:05,920 --> 00:04:10,160 It's like demons in my head. What about medication? 66 00:04:11,180 --> 00:04:15,660 I think the ED gave you a spirit off. I don't like what they give me. 67 00:04:16,180 --> 00:04:17,740 It turns me into something else. 68 00:04:18,540 --> 00:04:19,590 Just a zombie. 69 00:04:21,220 --> 00:04:22,660 I don't feel like me anymore. 70 00:04:22,920 --> 00:04:24,240 Well, that's not uncommon. 71 00:04:24,800 --> 00:04:31,499 It takes time to find the medication and the dosage that works best for you. And 72 00:04:31,500 --> 00:04:32,550 that's my job. 73 00:04:32,620 --> 00:04:36,979 The emergency department's job is to stabilize you and to provide a hot and 74 00:04:36,980 --> 00:04:38,120 for our psych patients. 75 00:04:39,800 --> 00:04:40,940 It's good enough for me. 76 00:04:41,070 --> 00:04:42,690 Well, it's not good enough for us. 77 00:04:43,330 --> 00:04:44,380 We can do better. 78 00:04:45,830 --> 00:04:50,690 Sam has had 25 hospitalizations since his first psychotic break four years 79 00:04:50,750 --> 00:04:55,189 After he moved here to attend NYU, and exactly zero of those times did he get a 80 00:04:55,190 --> 00:04:58,069 true workup to see if any of the symptoms were organic. I thought he was 81 00:04:58,070 --> 00:04:59,389 diagnosed with schizophrenia. 82 00:04:59,390 --> 00:05:02,460 Yes, by some doctors, gets affected by others, even bipolar. 83 00:05:03,020 --> 00:05:05,970 Everybody always writes him off because of his situation. 84 00:05:06,220 --> 00:05:09,839 I actually didn't see any presentation of mania or any other signs of an 85 00:05:09,840 --> 00:05:12,760 episode. Schizophrenia is the more probable diagnosis. 86 00:05:12,761 --> 00:05:16,359 A psych diagnosis, Dr. Kinney, which after all these years and how he's 87 00:05:16,360 --> 00:05:20,299 presented, does seem the most likely scenario here. Which doesn't mean that 88 00:05:20,300 --> 00:05:23,619 can't figure out a treatment to help him better navigate his life. But there's 89 00:05:23,620 --> 00:05:26,630 probably no miracle cure that's going to fix him. I know that. 90 00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:31,039 But Sam told us he was ready to get help. And he showed back up for his 91 00:05:31,040 --> 00:05:32,090 appointment. 92 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:36,400 I just think he deserves good, genuine, unbiased care. 93 00:05:36,401 --> 00:05:39,519 Because his is not the type of case that people take an interest in. 94 00:05:39,520 --> 00:05:43,239 So then why the interest from you, Dr. Kinney? Because you taught us that every 95 00:05:43,240 --> 00:05:44,290 patient matters. 96 00:05:44,780 --> 00:05:47,550 Because you're the best teacher I've ever had, Dr. Wolf. 97 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:50,440 And also you, Dr. P. Well, 98 00:05:51,540 --> 00:05:53,160 I cannot argue with my own advice. 99 00:05:53,320 --> 00:05:54,640 Go ahead and admit, Sam. 100 00:05:54,860 --> 00:05:55,910 I agree. 101 00:06:00,680 --> 00:06:05,220 I know she takes after me, but I'm not that relentlessly persistent, am I? 102 00:06:05,880 --> 00:06:12,719 I think it's time for the next step, as in our 103 00:06:12,720 --> 00:06:17,000 relationship. I was thinking maybe you could meet my friends. 104 00:06:19,040 --> 00:06:20,720 Okay. Yeah? Yeah. 105 00:06:21,020 --> 00:06:26,339 Well, a group of first responders and I started a kickball league. It's super 106 00:06:26,340 --> 00:06:28,500 casual. We go to Flanagan's afterwards. 107 00:06:29,540 --> 00:06:30,920 And there's a game tomorrow. 108 00:06:33,180 --> 00:06:35,540 Come in. 109 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:38,040 Always been a Sandlot girlie. 110 00:06:39,960 --> 00:06:41,040 That's baseball. 111 00:06:41,660 --> 00:06:42,710 Right. Yeah. 112 00:06:44,800 --> 00:06:48,530 Your next consult's waiting inside, Dr. Wolfe. Charts on the desk. Thank you. 113 00:06:48,531 --> 00:06:51,579 Hey there, I'm Dr. Wolfe. How are you doing today? 114 00:06:51,580 --> 00:06:53,380 Already better now that you're here. 115 00:06:53,381 --> 00:06:57,379 Thank you for seeing me on such short notice. Why don't you tell me what's 116 00:06:57,380 --> 00:06:58,430 on? 117 00:06:58,820 --> 00:07:04,520 I'm, well, I'm experiencing, I don't even know what to call it, a song. 118 00:07:05,560 --> 00:07:06,610 A song? 119 00:07:06,780 --> 00:07:11,519 I keep hearing it, sporadically, one particular song. It's like a radio 120 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:14,979 on and off in my head, incredibly distracting. I'm in the city for work 121 00:07:14,980 --> 00:07:16,420 completely derailed my trip. 122 00:07:16,600 --> 00:07:17,650 And what do you do? 123 00:07:18,240 --> 00:07:19,620 I'm somewhat of a historian. 124 00:07:20,030 --> 00:07:22,380 I specialize in the fringe facets of medicine. 125 00:07:22,810 --> 00:07:26,489 Did you know that mercury was the primary treatment of syphilis for 126 00:07:26,490 --> 00:07:30,150 years before... Before the discovery of penicillin in the 1940s. 127 00:07:31,450 --> 00:07:33,690 You haven't changed a bit. 128 00:07:34,670 --> 00:07:35,720 I'm sorry? 129 00:07:36,530 --> 00:07:38,450 You really don't recognize me, Oliver. 130 00:07:56,810 --> 00:08:02,349 are you here i happen to be in new york and in need of a neurologist and your 131 00:08:02,350 --> 00:08:08,549 name your name kept coming up i wasn't sure if you'd remember me 132 00:08:08,550 --> 00:08:13,489 well and of course i remember you is 133 00:08:13,490 --> 00:08:20,190 it happening right now i need your help 134 00:08:24,220 --> 00:08:27,380 And again, tell me where the sound is the loudest. 135 00:08:28,380 --> 00:08:29,640 The first position? 136 00:08:31,920 --> 00:08:35,020 Or the second position? 137 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:36,740 The first one. 138 00:08:37,480 --> 00:08:38,530 Okay. 139 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:43,340 God, I'm so glad you could see me. I feel like I'm losing my mind. 140 00:08:44,460 --> 00:08:46,280 You were right to come in. 141 00:08:47,020 --> 00:08:51,320 I would like to admit you just to run some tests. 142 00:08:51,321 --> 00:08:54,729 It's comforting to see that some things never change. We're still collecting 143 00:08:54,730 --> 00:08:57,850 rocks. Oh, not a rock, a mineral. Lapidolite, to be specific. 144 00:08:57,851 --> 00:09:01,589 It's actually one of the few naturally occurring sources of lithium. Okay. 145 00:09:01,590 --> 00:09:05,769 If you could tell me a little bit about the song, when you hear it, are there 146 00:09:05,770 --> 00:09:06,509 other symptoms? 147 00:09:06,510 --> 00:09:09,030 Flashing lights or muscle weakness? Pain? 148 00:09:09,350 --> 00:09:13,889 It's not exactly painful, but there's like a pressure that builds in my head. 149 00:09:13,890 --> 00:09:17,609 try to relieve it sometimes by holding my nose and blowing to pop my ears. It 150 00:09:17,610 --> 00:09:19,170 seems to dampen the effect a bit. 151 00:09:19,190 --> 00:09:20,240 Can I ask... 152 00:09:20,380 --> 00:09:23,210 What song is playing? Maybe there's some significance. 153 00:09:23,660 --> 00:09:24,800 That's what's so funny. 154 00:09:25,880 --> 00:09:26,930 Oliver knows it. 155 00:09:27,600 --> 00:09:30,200 It's that song from our summer together. 156 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:33,440 But what could it possibly mean? 157 00:09:34,740 --> 00:09:40,559 It means that he never forgot you and that he's back to rekindle the flame. It 158 00:09:40,560 --> 00:09:42,240 was 30 years ago. 159 00:09:42,500 --> 00:09:44,500 I still can't believe that Tom is here. 160 00:09:44,720 --> 00:09:47,120 Okay, I honestly thought that you made him up. 161 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:51,300 Like a Canadian boyfriend no one ever meets? He wasn't a boyfriend at all, 162 00:09:51,340 --> 00:09:56,399 Canadian or otherwise. It was one summer. We shared one kiss. One magical 163 00:09:56,400 --> 00:09:58,580 and one clearly memorable kiss. 164 00:09:59,180 --> 00:10:02,160 And I love the idea of you dating again. 165 00:10:02,161 --> 00:10:05,899 I mean, I sometimes worry that you don't think that you're relationship 166 00:10:05,900 --> 00:10:07,080 material, but you are. 167 00:10:07,740 --> 00:10:11,760 Relationship material? Carol, please, don't mock me. I'm not. I'm being 168 00:10:11,820 --> 00:10:15,490 I mean, I thought you and Josh were kind of circling something again, but... 169 00:10:16,400 --> 00:10:18,510 Why do you say that? Did he say something? 170 00:10:18,820 --> 00:10:20,380 Is it something you want to say? 171 00:10:20,381 --> 00:10:23,179 Well, don't you think that my relationship with Josh proves that I'm 172 00:10:23,180 --> 00:10:24,440 relationship material? 173 00:10:24,920 --> 00:10:28,600 I messed everything up. So un -messed it up, then. I don't know how to do that. 174 00:10:28,601 --> 00:10:32,339 But I do know neurology, so perhaps we could focus on that instead of my love 175 00:10:32,340 --> 00:10:34,020 life. Oh, if we must. 176 00:10:34,880 --> 00:10:37,000 Tom's case is exceedingly unique. 177 00:10:37,001 --> 00:10:41,399 Although music is obviously such a powerful force in our psyche, in his 178 00:10:41,400 --> 00:10:44,650 it's hard to know whether it's organic or purely psychological. 179 00:10:44,720 --> 00:10:45,770 Maybe. 180 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:49,040 Seeing you again is triggering him to hear your song. 181 00:10:49,320 --> 00:10:51,300 This isn't a bad romantic comedy, Carol. 182 00:10:51,480 --> 00:10:54,370 He heard the song before he came in. The song is incidental. 183 00:10:54,820 --> 00:10:57,170 I'm worried it might be symptomatic of a tumor. 184 00:10:57,820 --> 00:10:58,870 AVM, maybe? 185 00:10:59,100 --> 00:11:02,650 Auditory hallucinations can accompany all sorts of psych diagnoses. 186 00:11:02,651 --> 00:11:06,219 Do you have any ideas about his mental health history? I haven't seen him in 187 00:11:06,220 --> 00:11:08,860 decades. I don't know who he is at all. 188 00:11:09,140 --> 00:11:12,999 Well, maybe this is an opportunity to get to know him. I'm going to get to 189 00:11:13,000 --> 00:11:14,050 his brain. 190 00:11:14,051 --> 00:11:18,169 Starting with labs, a CT, and an EEG to get a sense of what's going on in there 191 00:11:18,170 --> 00:11:19,430 when that song is playing. 192 00:11:19,490 --> 00:11:23,170 Well, maybe the machine will spit out a picture of the two of you. 193 00:11:24,861 --> 00:11:31,369 We're supposed to tell our patients that they're going to feel a slight pinch, 194 00:11:31,370 --> 00:11:34,089 but it's more like a jellyfish sting. And we're going to need you to stay 195 00:11:34,090 --> 00:11:35,140 completely still. 196 00:11:35,570 --> 00:11:36,930 I can handle a little pain. 197 00:11:37,190 --> 00:11:38,240 Okay. 198 00:11:38,241 --> 00:11:41,009 We've numbed the area with local anesthetics, so you're going to feel 199 00:11:41,010 --> 00:11:42,060 slight pressure. 200 00:11:57,360 --> 00:12:02,179 I think I had a nerve. We can't continue with him in this state for patients 201 00:12:02,180 --> 00:12:03,230 with schizophrenia. 202 00:12:03,400 --> 00:12:06,800 No, he doesn't want the drug. So then this procedure is over. 203 00:12:08,040 --> 00:12:09,880 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. 204 00:12:10,120 --> 00:12:11,200 It's okay. You're okay. 205 00:12:11,460 --> 00:12:13,160 We got you. You're okay. You're okay. 206 00:12:13,161 --> 00:12:17,019 I finally got approval to do a workup on Sam, but it's basically impossible to 207 00:12:17,020 --> 00:12:19,579 stick a needle in his spine without the voices in his head yelling. 208 00:12:19,580 --> 00:12:22,740 LP fail. We've all been there, right? I haven't. 209 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:29,020 How about I'll work on Sam, and you go play kickball with Katie and her 210 00:12:29,021 --> 00:12:30,719 Come on. 211 00:12:30,720 --> 00:12:33,920 Sports plus strangers equals peak day -to -day social anxiety. 212 00:12:36,500 --> 00:12:37,550 Unless... 213 00:12:39,420 --> 00:12:40,560 you'd like to come with. 214 00:12:40,600 --> 00:12:41,860 No, no, no. 215 00:12:41,861 --> 00:12:44,899 I'm sorry. It's a ticking clock. I don't know how much longer we'll be able to 216 00:12:44,900 --> 00:12:47,839 keep Sam in the hospital. But what about the voices in my head? 217 00:12:47,840 --> 00:12:50,300 The ones saying, they're all going to love you. 218 00:12:51,180 --> 00:12:53,360 Oh, my God. Dana, that's it. 219 00:12:53,361 --> 00:12:57,539 What? I told Sam to ignore the hallucinations, but how can I expect him 220 00:12:57,540 --> 00:12:59,119 that if I don't know what he's hearing? 221 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:02,550 If I want to get Sam to trust me, I have to find out what they're saying. 222 00:13:06,700 --> 00:13:09,470 So glad my deeply rooted insecurities helped someone. 223 00:13:10,980 --> 00:13:12,030 I'll go with it. 224 00:13:12,031 --> 00:13:14,999 Fair warning, though, I get a little competitive. Really? You'd play kickball 225 00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:17,590 for me? Yeah. Used to be my game back in middle school. 226 00:13:17,640 --> 00:13:19,500 Those bitches won't know I'd hit them. 227 00:13:19,600 --> 00:13:21,480 Maybe don't call them bitches. 228 00:13:24,540 --> 00:13:25,940 Low your roll, Bobby Fisher. 229 00:13:26,700 --> 00:13:28,780 Work our way to the night. 230 00:13:30,020 --> 00:13:32,190 If the board was a battlefield, pawns were. 231 00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:43,200 Pawns are the least powerful pieces. 232 00:13:44,940 --> 00:13:46,520 Sam, what did you hear just now? 233 00:13:46,880 --> 00:13:51,279 Sometimes it's like, feels like ten different radio stations on at the same 234 00:13:51,280 --> 00:13:52,330 time. 235 00:13:52,480 --> 00:13:58,779 Just helps me shut them up. Can I ask what the voices are saying? It's not 236 00:13:58,780 --> 00:13:59,830 really easy to tell. 237 00:14:02,080 --> 00:14:03,160 Unless it's Lawrence. 238 00:14:04,060 --> 00:14:05,110 He's a loudmouth. 239 00:14:06,480 --> 00:14:08,520 Right now he's saying, I'm the pawn. 240 00:14:09,420 --> 00:14:14,400 I'm weak, expendable, waste of space. 241 00:14:14,840 --> 00:14:19,719 He said there was no point in doing the test, because if I died, nobody would 242 00:14:19,720 --> 00:14:20,770 miss me. 243 00:14:22,660 --> 00:14:28,459 I know it's not real, but... You hear the same voice long enough, you start to 244 00:14:28,460 --> 00:14:29,510 believe it. 245 00:14:33,700 --> 00:14:34,750 Lawrence. 246 00:14:35,440 --> 00:14:36,490 Hi. 247 00:14:36,660 --> 00:14:37,710 Listen carefully. 248 00:14:38,700 --> 00:14:39,750 You're wrong. 249 00:14:41,260 --> 00:14:43,120 Sam isn't weak at all. 250 00:14:44,260 --> 00:14:49,500 He is brave. He is brave to be here right now. He is brave to get help. 251 00:14:49,980 --> 00:14:54,300 And if anything were to happen to him, I would miss him. 252 00:15:05,680 --> 00:15:06,760 Maybe, uh... 253 00:15:07,660 --> 00:15:08,980 We could try the test again. 254 00:15:09,900 --> 00:15:10,950 You got it. 255 00:15:13,140 --> 00:15:15,730 And I might have a way to get you through it this time. 256 00:15:16,540 --> 00:15:20,159 You know what song lives rent -free in my head? Golden from K -Pop Demon. K 257 00:15:20,160 --> 00:15:21,210 Demon Hunters. 258 00:15:21,520 --> 00:15:22,570 I'm obsessed. 259 00:15:23,680 --> 00:15:24,730 Tom, 260 00:15:26,040 --> 00:15:29,920 why don't you get comfortable and the moment you hear the song, let us know. 261 00:15:29,921 --> 00:15:32,819 It may take a while. I'm not sure what triggers the episodes. 262 00:15:32,820 --> 00:15:34,660 Darn. How will we pass the time? 263 00:15:35,450 --> 00:15:38,880 I know dishing about Dr. Wolf. Tell me, Tom, what was he like as a youth? 264 00:15:39,270 --> 00:15:40,510 Sorry. I'm smart. 265 00:15:40,790 --> 00:15:41,840 A bit intense. 266 00:15:43,210 --> 00:15:44,970 Handsome, but didn't know it. 267 00:15:45,710 --> 00:15:50,229 Woefully ignorant of popular culture. When I finally did get him to open up, 268 00:15:50,230 --> 00:15:52,520 felt like I'd solved the Riemann hypothesis. 269 00:15:53,110 --> 00:15:55,590 Weird. He's totally an open book now. 270 00:16:00,430 --> 00:16:01,480 What's happening? 271 00:16:05,680 --> 00:16:12,199 This song is actually a seizure. I'm having 272 00:16:12,200 --> 00:16:16,960 seizures. 273 00:16:18,220 --> 00:16:19,660 We should not be aware of that. 274 00:16:19,920 --> 00:16:23,979 Not all seizures are the same. In your case, the actual event manifests as a 275 00:16:23,980 --> 00:16:27,830 song in your head. Each time you hear the song, it represents another seizure. 276 00:16:28,000 --> 00:16:32,099 We call it musical hallucinations. Most musical hallucinations stem from 277 00:16:32,100 --> 00:16:35,799 psychiatric issues. It's actually... quite rare for seizures to present this 278 00:16:35,800 --> 00:16:39,159 way. If I've been having uncontrolled seizures for days, I'm at risk of brain 279 00:16:39,160 --> 00:16:42,719 damage at the very least. It's true the frequency of your seizures is extreme, 280 00:16:42,720 --> 00:16:46,159 but you did get here in time, and we'll continue to monitor you closely, and 281 00:16:46,160 --> 00:16:48,739 we'll start you on an anticonvulsant right away, if that's the course of 282 00:16:48,740 --> 00:16:52,059 treatment you agree to. We can try you on various medications until we find the 283 00:16:52,060 --> 00:16:54,939 right one to help suppress the seizures. We're going to get this under control, 284 00:16:54,940 --> 00:16:55,990 Tom. 285 00:16:56,000 --> 00:16:57,050 Thank you. 286 00:16:58,440 --> 00:16:59,800 I knew I needed you. 287 00:17:18,190 --> 00:17:19,890 On your way to Dr. Nichols' office? 288 00:17:20,950 --> 00:17:23,349 Yes, for a patient consult. 289 00:17:23,609 --> 00:17:27,990 Oh, consulting about the cute Brit in 311, who I hear is also your ex. 290 00:17:28,550 --> 00:17:32,410 I don't know you got around like that, Wolf, but clearly this is an 291 00:17:32,830 --> 00:17:38,389 Um, I don't follow? If I wanted to make my ex jealous, I might let them know 292 00:17:38,390 --> 00:17:41,580 that my other ex had specifically come to me about his seizures. 293 00:17:41,910 --> 00:17:45,210 Especially if they're hot British seizures. 294 00:17:45,550 --> 00:17:46,600 But that's just me. 295 00:17:46,940 --> 00:17:49,560 Yes, that is just you, because I would never. 296 00:17:49,780 --> 00:17:50,830 Okay. 297 00:17:54,900 --> 00:17:56,280 You have time for a consult? 298 00:17:56,281 --> 00:17:57,059 What's up? 299 00:17:57,060 --> 00:18:00,919 Patient with musical hallucinations presenting his seizures. EEG reveals 300 00:18:00,920 --> 00:18:02,120 temporal lobe epilepsy. 301 00:18:02,780 --> 00:18:03,830 Musical epilepsy? 302 00:18:05,160 --> 00:18:06,360 Oh, interesting. 303 00:18:06,361 --> 00:18:10,759 Temporal lobe localized events have been known to activate musical memory traces 304 00:18:10,760 --> 00:18:12,639 in the cortex. How often are the seizures? 305 00:18:12,640 --> 00:18:14,439 Frequent. Are they responding to medication? 306 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:17,159 I started him a love of iracetam, but I thought maybe you'd want to meet him 307 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:19,760 because this could be a once -in -a -lifetime case. 308 00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:21,010 Yeah, sure. 309 00:18:21,011 --> 00:18:27,159 I should let you know because I don't want it to be awkward if the patient is 310 00:18:27,160 --> 00:18:28,210 ex. 311 00:18:32,380 --> 00:18:33,740 Right this way, sir. 312 00:18:34,400 --> 00:18:35,660 What is going on? 313 00:18:38,120 --> 00:18:40,600 Welcome to the LP Theater! 314 00:18:43,440 --> 00:18:44,580 You do this just for me? 315 00:18:45,280 --> 00:18:49,399 Studies have shown that a relaxing activity, like a movie, can help 316 00:18:49,400 --> 00:18:51,380 intensity of the voices you're hearing. 317 00:18:51,460 --> 00:18:52,580 An old classic. 318 00:18:53,260 --> 00:18:54,440 Lots of talking. 319 00:18:54,680 --> 00:18:57,840 And after the procedure, we'll open up the snack bar. 320 00:18:59,260 --> 00:19:01,680 Popcorn, chocolate, gum or bears. 321 00:19:01,940 --> 00:19:03,460 You got any therapy straws? 322 00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:05,730 All you can eat. 323 00:19:05,900 --> 00:19:08,000 Shall we head to your front row seat? 324 00:19:25,280 --> 00:19:26,330 Oh, 325 00:19:34,660 --> 00:19:35,710 Tom. 326 00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:38,080 This is Dr. 327 00:19:38,280 --> 00:19:40,380 Nichols, our head of neurosurgery. 328 00:19:40,760 --> 00:19:43,120 And chief medical officer. 329 00:19:43,340 --> 00:19:44,390 And that. 330 00:19:44,669 --> 00:19:48,449 Pleasure. Oh, sorry for this state of undress when you walked in. I just had 331 00:19:48,450 --> 00:19:50,070 freshen up after all those tests. 332 00:19:50,210 --> 00:19:53,100 Though I suppose it's nothing Oliver hasn't seen before. 333 00:19:53,950 --> 00:19:56,990 Right, Wolf mentioned you two used to date. 334 00:19:57,250 --> 00:20:01,310 It was just one kiss ages ago. One, one kiss. One, one kiss ages ago. 335 00:20:01,570 --> 00:20:03,190 But it left quite the impression. 336 00:20:09,490 --> 00:20:11,930 With a cold blue 8 -3 -11. 337 00:20:11,931 --> 00:20:14,269 All right, it's all right. 338 00:20:14,270 --> 00:20:15,320 I got you. 339 00:20:15,321 --> 00:20:18,509 He's having an aggressive temporal lobe seizure, so one milligram of Ativan. 340 00:20:18,510 --> 00:20:19,560 Tom? 341 00:20:19,610 --> 00:20:23,690 Tom? Tom! Hey, I need you to listen to me. Stop. You're going to hurt yourself. 342 00:20:24,390 --> 00:20:25,970 Whoa. His ear. 343 00:20:26,650 --> 00:20:33,510 That was a life -threatening tonic -clonic seizure. 344 00:20:33,590 --> 00:20:37,409 Normally, I would keep trying meds. But the ictal event was clearly an 345 00:20:37,410 --> 00:20:39,640 escalation. The surgery had to be on the tape. 346 00:20:39,641 --> 00:20:44,059 I know this is presenting primarily as a musical hallucination, but the next 347 00:20:44,060 --> 00:20:47,250 time he hears that song, it might be the last thing he ever hears. 348 00:20:48,120 --> 00:20:52,359 Unfortunately, your brain is not responding to any of the medications 349 00:20:52,360 --> 00:20:55,119 tried, and it appears your seizures are getting worse. 350 00:20:55,120 --> 00:20:58,039 We think you have drug -resistant epilepsy, meaning the normal course of 351 00:20:58,040 --> 00:21:01,659 medication won't work. One of the avenues we'd like to explore is a 352 00:21:01,660 --> 00:21:04,279 the temporal lobe that's causing the seizures to occur. 353 00:21:04,280 --> 00:21:08,279 Brain surgery. With seizures that intense, the risk of permanent brain 354 00:21:08,280 --> 00:21:09,540 worse is high. 355 00:21:09,541 --> 00:21:14,039 Rushing straight to surgery, we will perform something called a water test, 356 00:21:14,040 --> 00:21:17,319 where you shut down each side of the brain to figure out where language and 357 00:21:17,320 --> 00:21:21,639 memory are primarily stored. We know the source of your seizures is the left 358 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:24,999 temporal lobe. We need to see how tied to these functions that area is in your 359 00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:26,050 particular brain. 360 00:21:26,100 --> 00:21:30,600 Dad? Dad? Dad! Guys, I'm so sorry. 361 00:21:31,100 --> 00:21:32,760 We got here as fast as we could. 362 00:21:33,940 --> 00:21:38,240 I can't believe that. This must be a good friend. 363 00:21:38,730 --> 00:21:39,930 Where are my manners? 364 00:21:41,310 --> 00:21:43,210 I'm Rasheed, Tom's husband. 365 00:21:49,730 --> 00:21:53,990 Dang! Get over here. Come loosen up. I want you pulling a hammy. Lucy. 366 00:21:55,230 --> 00:21:56,280 Lucy freaking Lou. 367 00:21:56,990 --> 00:21:58,130 I'm so glad you're here. 368 00:21:58,570 --> 00:21:59,750 Sure. Come on. 369 00:22:00,050 --> 00:22:02,430 All right, everybody. Bring it in to big team. 370 00:22:03,490 --> 00:22:05,310 Andy and I are captains. 371 00:22:06,480 --> 00:22:12,760 All right, for my first choice, I am going with a sure bet. They are quick, 372 00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:19,719 funny, brilliant with a pen light and on a six -game hot 373 00:22:19,720 --> 00:22:21,500 streak. Let's go! 374 00:22:22,260 --> 00:22:24,820 Let's go! Let's go! Let's go! 375 00:22:25,180 --> 00:22:30,840 Let's go! To be clear, my hot streak isn't just confined to kickball. 376 00:22:31,200 --> 00:22:34,240 All right, you're up. 377 00:22:34,560 --> 00:22:35,610 It's all negative. 378 00:22:36,970 --> 00:22:40,790 The imaging, the LP, Dr. Wolf confirmed there is nothing here. 379 00:22:40,990 --> 00:22:42,590 Just false hope. 380 00:22:42,810 --> 00:22:43,860 I disagree. 381 00:22:44,090 --> 00:22:46,110 You got Sam a true diagnosis. 382 00:22:46,650 --> 00:22:51,369 And for what? Now I'm just going to send him out in the world so he can keep 383 00:22:51,370 --> 00:22:54,260 reliving that same day to keep reliving that same trauma. 384 00:22:55,210 --> 00:22:59,509 How is that helping him? It may not be the outcome you wanted, but people live 385 00:22:59,510 --> 00:23:01,970 with schizophrenia every day. You got Sam. 386 00:23:02,570 --> 00:23:07,049 To trust you. He's willing to do the work now. You have to trust him to 387 00:23:07,050 --> 00:23:08,370 his own life and treatment. 388 00:23:08,470 --> 00:23:10,790 I just wish it didn't have to be so hard for him. 389 00:23:13,530 --> 00:23:18,150 You can't wave a wand and make someone's life magically different. 390 00:23:19,010 --> 00:23:20,730 You can't erase the past. 391 00:23:22,090 --> 00:23:28,170 Healing takes time and work and acknowledging reality. 392 00:23:28,670 --> 00:23:31,330 And sometimes that's as difficult for doctors. 393 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:34,040 As it is for their patients. 394 00:23:40,291 --> 00:23:46,099 Hey, Van, do you think I could get your help with a patient? 395 00:23:46,100 --> 00:23:48,450 Actually, I need Michelle's help. Call me back. 396 00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:50,440 Good job. 397 00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:51,770 You good? 398 00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:53,860 She doesn't even pick me for her team. 399 00:23:54,100 --> 00:23:55,150 Sorry about it. 400 00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:59,440 Hey, do you think Katie dated her? 401 00:24:00,140 --> 00:24:01,440 I think she dated them. 402 00:24:01,870 --> 00:24:05,830 Relax. Not like all of them, like the entire infield. 403 00:24:09,770 --> 00:24:16,150 All right, 404 00:24:16,210 --> 00:24:17,650 bring it in shallow. 405 00:24:18,590 --> 00:24:22,470 Come on, Dana, you got this. Show them who's boss. Let's go. 406 00:24:26,010 --> 00:24:30,130 One by one, I'm coming for them. Keep your eyes down. 407 00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:32,520 list. 408 00:24:33,410 --> 00:24:38,890 I'm the heat wave rising up around, gonna wish that you'd never meet me 409 00:24:39,830 --> 00:24:45,850 Yeah, here we go again, whipping up an evil man, wiping my dirty hands clean. 410 00:25:18,159 --> 00:25:22,279 The WADA test found that in your case, language and memory come from both 411 00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:25,539 temporal lobes in your brain. The risk would be lower if they came from the 412 00:25:25,540 --> 00:25:29,139 opposite side of the temporal lobe causing seizures. And much greater if 413 00:25:29,140 --> 00:25:31,550 primarily stored on the same side. I understand. 414 00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:33,440 So it's somewhere in the middle. 415 00:25:34,600 --> 00:25:38,619 So what do we do? In this particular case, given how aggressive your episodes 416 00:25:38,620 --> 00:25:41,959 are, I believe the risk of surgery is worth it. A temporal lobotomy will 417 00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,260 cure or markedly diminish your seizures. 418 00:25:44,460 --> 00:25:49,060 But there are risks, stroke, paralysis, infections, and in extreme cases, 419 00:25:49,120 --> 00:25:53,419 difficulties with language, possible loss of old memories and the inability 420 00:25:53,420 --> 00:25:54,470 form new ones. 421 00:25:54,560 --> 00:26:00,540 So I could wake up with amnesia. I could forget my family, my friends, my past. 422 00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:02,120 I have done this procedure. 423 00:26:02,121 --> 00:26:05,459 hundreds of times, and I'm not boasting when I say that you will be in the very 424 00:26:05,460 --> 00:26:11,279 best hands. Ever since this started, it has warped my brain to maybe lose my 425 00:26:11,280 --> 00:26:17,679 memory, to forget the people that I love, to forget... No, I just... I just 426 00:26:17,680 --> 00:26:18,730 don't know. 427 00:26:39,470 --> 00:26:43,130 I heard you've opted to reject the surgery. 428 00:26:44,770 --> 00:26:46,070 May I ask why? 429 00:26:46,910 --> 00:26:49,260 Because I don't want to stop hearing this song. 430 00:26:49,261 --> 00:26:55,849 Tom, the song isn't important. These seizures are serious. Life -threatening. 431 00:26:55,850 --> 00:26:57,829 But maybe they're happening for a reason. 432 00:26:57,830 --> 00:27:01,730 Since I started hearing it, I've been transported back to our time together. 433 00:27:01,910 --> 00:27:04,730 More than just the memory. The feeling. 434 00:27:06,870 --> 00:27:08,350 As intense as it was. 435 00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:10,050 All those years ago. 436 00:27:11,540 --> 00:27:12,800 Do you remember, Oliver? 437 00:27:13,280 --> 00:27:15,060 I do, of course. I do. 438 00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:21,380 I go back to a sense of time when everything was just possibility. 439 00:27:26,700 --> 00:27:28,200 Will you go somewhere with me? 440 00:27:29,940 --> 00:27:30,990 Hey, good news. 441 00:27:30,991 --> 00:27:33,259 Michelle found a place that'll hold a bed for Sam. 442 00:27:33,260 --> 00:27:36,959 It'll cost them to get the bus out there, but I gave her your number and 443 00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:38,909 going to call you with the details. Oh, amazing. 444 00:27:38,910 --> 00:27:40,850 Really going all out for this patient. 445 00:27:41,130 --> 00:27:43,790 Yeah. I mean, you know how I am. 446 00:27:44,190 --> 00:27:45,770 Thank you so much for this, Sam. 447 00:27:46,270 --> 00:27:48,690 Could I ask just a favor in return? 448 00:27:48,930 --> 00:27:49,980 Yeah. 449 00:27:49,981 --> 00:27:53,849 It's a little awkward, and it might not even come up, but if it does, could you 450 00:27:53,850 --> 00:27:56,980 just tell Michelle that there's nothing between us anymore? 451 00:27:57,590 --> 00:27:59,210 Yeah, of course. I mean, it's true. 452 00:28:00,150 --> 00:28:01,530 Are you guys back together? 453 00:28:02,290 --> 00:28:06,829 We haven't had, like, the official conversation yet, but, yeah, we are. 454 00:28:06,830 --> 00:28:07,880 sounds really nice. 455 00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:09,450 You deserve it. 456 00:28:09,960 --> 00:28:11,800 Things are working out for both of us. 457 00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:14,310 I mean, look at you being all super doctor. 458 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,590 You're going to end up out wolf and wolf. 459 00:28:16,880 --> 00:28:19,620 Except, like, the actual functional human version. 460 00:28:39,890 --> 00:28:46,799 Horses aren't my thing. Yeah, well, neither is making an effort to get along 461 00:28:46,800 --> 00:28:48,240 with my friends, apparently. 462 00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:50,700 It was a lot, okay? 463 00:28:51,300 --> 00:28:55,980 All the butt flaps and the side eyes. And what is with all of the chanting? 464 00:28:56,580 --> 00:28:58,500 Organized sports are literally a cult. 465 00:29:00,220 --> 00:29:01,360 You can be a lot. 466 00:29:02,180 --> 00:29:04,590 Guess I could have given you a heads up. I'm sorry. 467 00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:08,430 My friends are a little bit easier to get along with, is all. 468 00:29:10,260 --> 00:29:12,580 Easy or judgmental? 469 00:29:15,649 --> 00:29:19,790 The way that Erica reacted when you told her it was you who reported Dr. Pierce? 470 00:29:19,930 --> 00:29:21,310 I was the one that lied to her. 471 00:29:22,110 --> 00:29:25,030 And since when do you not like Erica? 472 00:29:25,390 --> 00:29:27,030 It's not that I don't like her. 473 00:29:29,750 --> 00:29:30,850 No one's that perfect. 474 00:29:31,170 --> 00:29:34,010 There's something off about her. 475 00:29:37,581 --> 00:29:44,989 Sam, we've reviewed your paperwork, and there is no evidence of any structural 476 00:29:44,990 --> 00:29:48,430 abnormality. You are physically perfectly healthy. 477 00:29:48,730 --> 00:29:51,020 What you're struggling with is psychiatric. 478 00:29:52,650 --> 00:29:53,700 Yeah. 479 00:29:54,250 --> 00:29:56,050 Honestly, I can't say I'm surprised. 480 00:29:56,990 --> 00:29:58,310 Thanks for trying, though. 481 00:29:58,930 --> 00:30:00,310 Guess this means I gotta go? 482 00:30:00,510 --> 00:30:01,950 We do have to discharge you. 483 00:30:02,550 --> 00:30:06,549 But that's not the end of your care. Beginning tomorrow, I'd like to see you 484 00:30:06,550 --> 00:30:09,550 three times a week with the goal, if you're comfortable... 485 00:30:10,110 --> 00:30:12,340 I'm starting you on a low -dose neuroleptic. 486 00:30:12,930 --> 00:30:15,430 Meds? Not all meds are the same. 487 00:30:16,090 --> 00:30:20,609 And with therapy, we can find non -medical interventions that will help 488 00:30:20,610 --> 00:30:21,990 better live with the voices. 489 00:30:23,070 --> 00:30:24,330 How does that sound? 490 00:30:26,450 --> 00:30:28,010 Yeah. Okay. 491 00:30:29,470 --> 00:30:32,170 I think I can grab a few things for the road. 492 00:30:33,230 --> 00:30:35,030 You're not going to reuse this, huh? 493 00:30:35,850 --> 00:30:37,230 It's all yours. 494 00:30:37,670 --> 00:30:38,720 Dr. Kenny. 495 00:30:39,150 --> 00:30:43,330 We'll work with you on discharge, and I look forward to seeing you tomorrow. 496 00:30:44,010 --> 00:30:45,060 Cool. 497 00:30:45,061 --> 00:30:46,009 Appreciate it. 498 00:30:46,010 --> 00:30:47,060 Thanks, Dr. Pierce. 499 00:30:48,010 --> 00:30:52,270 I called in a couple favors myself. 500 00:30:53,150 --> 00:30:56,850 Got you a stay in a temporary housing facility, and not just for one night. 501 00:30:57,490 --> 00:31:01,070 We'll have to reapply weekly, but you were all set up for the first week. 502 00:31:02,510 --> 00:31:06,429 This folder has everything you need, intake forms, letter of referral from 503 00:31:06,430 --> 00:31:08,910 hospital, and the name of your contact there. 504 00:31:09,970 --> 00:31:14,989 The only downside is that it's all the way out in Queens, so you'll need money 505 00:31:14,990 --> 00:31:16,040 to get there. 506 00:31:21,850 --> 00:31:22,900 Here. 507 00:31:25,650 --> 00:31:27,730 What? Take that. No. 508 00:31:28,570 --> 00:31:32,490 No, no, that's too much. I'm not taking your credit card. Yes, you can. 509 00:31:33,410 --> 00:31:35,640 Because I know you'll be back here tomorrow. 510 00:31:36,430 --> 00:31:37,990 You trusted me enough to stay. 511 00:31:40,230 --> 00:31:41,330 I trust you too. 512 00:31:48,330 --> 00:31:49,380 Thank you. 513 00:31:50,110 --> 00:31:51,160 Thanks. Thank you. 514 00:31:51,510 --> 00:31:54,370 Thank you, guys. This is where we came that summer. 515 00:31:54,890 --> 00:31:57,210 Some things never change, even in 30 years. 516 00:31:58,360 --> 00:31:59,500 Especially in New York. 517 00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:03,310 Well, I think we Brits have you beat on getting mired in history. 518 00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:06,250 Indeed, I've made a whole career out of it. Yes. 519 00:32:07,320 --> 00:32:10,560 You are a worldwide guest lecturing historian. 520 00:32:11,940 --> 00:32:13,200 Married a lovely man. 521 00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:16,080 You have two beautiful children. 522 00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:18,300 Ah, I see now. 523 00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:22,000 This was trying to change my mind, Ice Cream. 524 00:32:22,260 --> 00:32:24,700 Oh, it's true, Tom. 525 00:32:26,639 --> 00:32:28,840 I'm not who you were back then, neither am I. 526 00:32:28,841 --> 00:32:33,079 You've become a smart and handsome doctor, just as I always knew you would. 527 00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:34,130 don't know me, Tom. 528 00:32:35,740 --> 00:32:37,020 Not who I am now. 529 00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:40,790 You remember I told you about how my father died? 530 00:32:42,020 --> 00:32:43,900 Yes. Well, it turns out he didn't. 531 00:32:43,901 --> 00:32:48,879 With his bipolar disorder, he and my mom thought it was best that he not be in 532 00:32:48,880 --> 00:32:51,500 my life, so they devised the lie that he died. 533 00:32:52,419 --> 00:32:56,260 Oh, my God. He disappeared for 30 years, and then he turned up out of nowhere. 534 00:32:58,220 --> 00:33:01,830 Just as I was ready to reconnect, he left the note and disappeared again. 535 00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:03,250 You all right? 536 00:33:04,180 --> 00:33:06,400 I'm not telling you this for sympathy, Tom. 537 00:33:08,300 --> 00:33:11,730 I'm telling you this because those simpler times, they don't exist. 538 00:33:12,760 --> 00:33:16,380 They can't exist again for any of us. We don't get to go back into the past. 539 00:33:16,460 --> 00:33:20,540 Life changes us, and that is not a bad thing, but it is life. 540 00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:23,900 The only option we have is to move forward. 541 00:33:28,820 --> 00:33:31,480 So move forward. 542 00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:45,660 Did you take some of my pills? 543 00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:47,970 What? 544 00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:53,139 I haven't needed these in a while, but I was in my head about Katie and 545 00:33:53,140 --> 00:33:58,120 kickball, and I don't know how many I'm supposed to have left. 546 00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:05,700 What is going on? What? 547 00:34:07,280 --> 00:34:08,540 What do you want me to say? 548 00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:10,699 Yes, I took a couple of your pills. 549 00:34:11,500 --> 00:34:14,300 I just needed them until I could... Until what? 550 00:34:14,980 --> 00:34:18,820 After all of the crap that you gave me about needing meds and reporting Dr. 551 00:34:19,020 --> 00:34:23,279 Pierce, and now you're, what, just casually popping benzos? Do you have any 552 00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:28,399 how dangerous that is? I am not casually doing anything. I mean, do you think 553 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:31,239 this is fun for me? Do you think I want to be like this? 554 00:34:31,240 --> 00:34:36,339 I have no idea what you're doing because apparently you've been lying to me for 555 00:34:36,340 --> 00:34:41,040 months. You want the truth? The truth is that I am a mess. 556 00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:42,769 I, uh... 557 00:34:42,810 --> 00:34:47,129 Went to that wellness retreat in Mexico to feel better, and I couldn't even 558 00:34:47,130 --> 00:34:51,589 manage to do that right. And so I ended up with 200 milligrams of Benzo in my 559 00:34:51,590 --> 00:34:52,670 suitcase. Oh, Erica. 560 00:34:52,929 --> 00:34:53,979 Yeah. 561 00:34:54,350 --> 00:34:58,570 I let Celia die. 562 00:35:01,410 --> 00:35:07,170 I got out first, and I watched her die. 563 00:35:07,850 --> 00:35:10,890 And that was supposed to be me. 564 00:35:12,940 --> 00:35:19,899 And I'm supposed to be moving on. And I'm supposed to be good. And I'm 565 00:35:19,900 --> 00:35:23,119 to be smart. And I'm supposed to be a good doctor. And I am supposed to keep 566 00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:25,600 together. And I am supposed to figure it out. 567 00:35:26,360 --> 00:35:28,680 And I just... No, no, no. 568 00:35:29,280 --> 00:35:30,620 Okay. Okay. 569 00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:32,610 Okay. 570 00:36:03,950 --> 00:36:05,330 made it through the surgery. 571 00:36:06,330 --> 00:36:08,670 Dr. Nichols is very pleased with the result. 572 00:36:09,730 --> 00:36:11,810 I don't think we've met. 573 00:36:13,490 --> 00:36:14,540 What a wolf. 574 00:36:17,170 --> 00:36:19,690 There's no way I could ever forget you. 575 00:36:21,290 --> 00:36:26,470 We've talked about this, but we can't. I don't hear the song anymore. 576 00:36:27,430 --> 00:36:30,890 I should hope not. That was the point of the surgery. 577 00:36:31,450 --> 00:36:33,770 I'm so grateful you got me through this. 578 00:36:34,590 --> 00:36:36,290 Because I love my life. 579 00:36:37,410 --> 00:36:38,830 I love my family. 580 00:36:39,070 --> 00:36:40,450 I love Rashid. 581 00:36:43,010 --> 00:36:46,230 But old friends are nice too. 582 00:36:47,430 --> 00:36:49,030 Maybe that's why this happened. 583 00:36:50,810 --> 00:36:55,190 And I might have made that fit surgeon a bit jealous. 584 00:36:55,590 --> 00:36:56,750 Dr. Nichols? 585 00:36:57,310 --> 00:36:58,910 Don't pretend to be surprised. 586 00:37:00,110 --> 00:37:01,190 You're very bad at it. 587 00:37:03,050 --> 00:37:04,450 And I know I'm right. 588 00:37:06,990 --> 00:37:09,820 Well, if I'm being honest, I wouldn't mind it if you were. 589 00:37:14,970 --> 00:37:20,129 Whatever's happened in your life, I always knew you would go on to do the 590 00:37:20,130 --> 00:37:21,450 extraordinary things. 591 00:37:23,370 --> 00:37:24,550 And here you are. 592 00:37:32,040 --> 00:37:33,760 We all have voices in our head. 593 00:37:34,620 --> 00:37:36,360 Voices of the people who shaped us. 594 00:37:40,680 --> 00:37:42,790 Did Sam show back up for his appointment? 595 00:37:42,800 --> 00:37:43,850 Mm -mm. 596 00:37:43,860 --> 00:37:45,280 He was always tomorrow. 597 00:37:47,020 --> 00:37:48,880 It's never too late to seek help. 598 00:37:50,280 --> 00:37:51,330 Yep. 599 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:52,570 Always tomorrow. 600 00:37:52,860 --> 00:37:53,910 Mm -hmm. 601 00:37:57,280 --> 00:38:01,100 Voices that tell us we're not good enough, no matter how hard we try. 602 00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:04,530 Oh, yeah. 603 00:38:06,500 --> 00:38:07,550 Well, hey. 604 00:38:09,140 --> 00:38:12,540 I just wanted to say thank you for what you did for Tom. 605 00:38:13,420 --> 00:38:15,100 I've been told that's how it works. 606 00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:19,460 I know Tom means something to you. I was glad I could help. 607 00:38:20,520 --> 00:38:25,439 He meant something to me a long time ago, but I've been thinking about what I 608 00:38:25,440 --> 00:38:29,380 want for the future, and I've been thinking about how... 609 00:38:30,440 --> 00:38:35,980 It felt when we were together, and I would like to try again. 610 00:38:35,991 --> 00:38:38,079 I will. 611 00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:41,099 I mean, if it's the chief thing, I get it, but I think we can work around that. 612 00:38:41,100 --> 00:38:42,150 It's not that. 613 00:38:46,100 --> 00:38:47,620 I'm seeing someone, Oliver. 614 00:38:49,280 --> 00:38:53,960 You're... Oh. I was with him before us. 615 00:38:55,080 --> 00:38:59,339 We recently reconnected, and I've been meaning to tell you, but I didn't know 616 00:38:59,340 --> 00:39:00,379 how. 617 00:39:00,380 --> 00:39:01,740 It just happened. 618 00:39:03,540 --> 00:39:08,120 It's, um... You see, you know? 619 00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:12,010 You see? 620 00:39:12,340 --> 00:39:16,560 Right, um... I don't know. 621 00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:20,410 Because of me. 622 00:39:21,240 --> 00:39:22,300 But that sounds good. 623 00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:24,440 I'm sorry, I didn't... No, no, no. 624 00:39:25,720 --> 00:39:26,770 It's okay. 625 00:39:27,020 --> 00:39:28,300 You should be happy. 626 00:39:30,290 --> 00:39:31,340 Josh? 627 00:39:33,450 --> 00:39:40,089 And then there are the voices that tell us we don't deserve 628 00:39:40,090 --> 00:39:41,140 to be loved. 629 00:39:47,930 --> 00:39:52,910 I can understand how you feel. 630 00:39:53,850 --> 00:39:55,710 You understand how I feel? 631 00:39:56,750 --> 00:39:58,470 How long was it we had, honey? 632 00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:01,540 I didn't count the days. I did. 633 00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:03,400 Every one of them. 634 00:40:04,380 --> 00:40:06,160 Mostly I remember the last one. 635 00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:10,280 The wild finish. A guy standing on a station. I was adopted. 636 00:40:10,900 --> 00:40:13,760 With a comical look on his face because he's inside. 637 00:40:14,100 --> 00:40:19,959 You don't know that much about my birth mother, but I know that she had 638 00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:21,010 schizophrenia. 639 00:40:23,220 --> 00:40:24,270 She couldn't. 640 00:40:27,160 --> 00:40:28,380 No one could help her. 641 00:40:31,050 --> 00:40:32,610 She just got lost. 642 00:40:39,990 --> 00:40:41,750 Some of us don't get to be easy. 643 00:40:42,510 --> 00:40:45,490 I know that can feel like it'll always be a curse. 644 00:40:48,970 --> 00:40:51,490 But I promise sometimes it's a gift. 645 00:41:39,890 --> 00:41:42,258 Greg, we'll be right ahead. 646 00:41:42,259 --> 00:41:46,809 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0 52905

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