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Previously on The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.

What are you all doing in the bed?

We're watching a movie.

All right, have fun.

Not too much fun, not too much fun.

You don't eat food, and then your reason for not eating food is because you're

like, I have a narrow esophagus. Why am I having a doctor's appointment right

now?

My very, very, very best friend of my whole life, she took her life on me

That's a huge loss. She was so together. I mean, remember, in my will, she was

in charge of my children, my money, everything.

I don't know what happened. You know,

I wanted to talk to you about homeschooling. I know how you feel about

don't want those kids not to experience going to school.

When PK travels, I feel like a single mom.

He doesn't know their needs and then just wants to swoop in and tell me

best for the kids.

What happened the other day really triggered me, and it really bothered me.

I'm very sorry.

that it triggered you and it hurt you.

And I mean that genuinely.

I believe that.

I may ask for a living, but I never fall for a bad performance.

Who needs a knight in shining armor when you have your own horse?

The best part about losing everything is getting it all back.

Fashion is my language, and I speak it fluently.

They say wisdom comes with age, but I'm proving otherwise.

I may put you to sleep for a living, but I always keep one eye open.

It's hard to outrun rumors, but luckily I'm in better shape than ever.

Well, my queen, big, nice girl.

Ugh, where is everybody, dammit?

Somebody's here.

Are you TikToking in there?

Hi. I was so bored that I was like, look how cute you look. I brought some water

for the bus. Thank you so much.

I thought it would be fun to go to Ojai for the day for Annemarie's birthday

because I just feel like every time that Annemarie's been around, there's been

chaos. Can't everyone say what's going on with you?

I don't, I can't afford to feel depressed right now.

Crystal, why are you telling Sutton that I'm going around to everybody? I'm not

talking about anything. He said it to me.

So I thought, why not take a nice day trip, get to know each other better, and

just enjoy a girl's day out without any arguing.

For once, maybe.

Are you wearing heels all day?

No, I brought sneakers.

Oh, okay, okay. Well, when you're 5 '2", you need all the help you can get.

For the love of God, we're never going to get there. The shopping trip is going

to be like this.

Oh, no, no, no.

Is there good shopping there?

I've never been there. Oh, hi.

I'll never do Taco Tuesday. I don't ever want to see a taco. I never want to see

a Tuesday.

I hadn't seen anybody from there since then, except I saw Dorit last night. Oh.

And?

And we hashed it out.

Listen, we fight hard, but I think we also let it go and try to have a good

time. So I think today, going up to Ojai, hope everybody's good. We're going

put it behind us and just enjoy ourselves.

Did she acknowledge, like, the understanding?

Uh, long story short, I'm moving past it.

My good friend Amber Saka, we're going to her family's house that has the wine

lunch. tasting oh okay great and then it's kyle well she's not drinking so

is he gonna taste she's gonna taste water okay yeah delicious

oh

goodness hello of course you do

who goes there hi

God, now you're matching, and Garcelle and I are matching. That is so good.

How are you?

How are you?

I love you for doing this.

Are we waiting on Erica? No, because she has COVID. Oh, God. You knew that,

right? Yeah. I'm always the last to know. Let's call her and check in.

Hi, guys.

How are you feeling?

I'm okay.

I turned positive three times yesterday.

I had a scratchy throat. I thought it was allergies, and then it got down from

there.

Feel better. I'm going to get these ladies on the road. Feel better.

We'll talk to you.

Bye.

Bye.

So, you guys, we're going to get the show on the road.

Woo!

Oh, hi. Here we come.

Okay, to our amazing trip. Thank you, Kyle, for putting it together.

I think it's so sweet that they planned this trip for me. I think we're going to

go and just, you know, have silly girl fun and get to know each other a little

bit better.

Yay!

Crystal or Sutton, did you guys want one right now?

No, we're doing something else.

Sutton and I have had a rocky start, to put it mildly.

But you know what?

I'm going to go and have a good time.

We'll just see how the day goes.

Would anyone like to hear my very exciting news? Yes.

I went on a date.

His name is Steve.

And he has a job.

Perfect.

We like that.

And he likes karaoke.

Perfect. Guess what?

What? He asked me out for a second date. I'd like to talk to you more after

this. Oh, yeah, for sure.

So can I have your number? Yes.

Yeah!

Success! I'm really excited for my second date with Steve. He was really

and he's been texting me.

You know, I think he likes me.

You can sing to him. When are we going out again? I love this day!

Okay, so you want to hear what we're going to do? Yeah.

Okay. I'm going shopping. Oh, we're going to go to the store. You can get

work ended up. We're going to put up a tattoo booth. When we get there, we're

going to decide who goes where, whatever.

Boo! Yeah, and we're going to have wine tasting. We can also have, I'm going to

have tequila and vodka there, too. And we're going to have lunch.

Oh, wine tasting. A 15 -year -old boy.

I brought a little vodka today.

Yeah, there you go. Thank you.

I love oil.

You guys.

I do love olive oil. Oh, God.

Hello.

Oh, okay. Hello.

Oh, my God. Look at these.

Look at these.

I want to get something here. I just want to see. Okay. No, no, no.

Oh,

we got to go in there, too. We're going in here. Oh, lovely.

Oh, thank you. I'm freaking out. I want everything in here.

Hi, there. I can work with this.

Who is the biggest shopper in the group? Kyle Richards.

Hello. Okay. I don't know why I asked that question. This is true.

I don't know how frequently I shop. How often do I buy something?

For sure, every day.

I can find something anywhere. Well, I'm noticing. Yes, you can. There's big

things, sometimes little things.

I'll go with the extra small. I can shop on my phone, at home in bed, online

shopping. There's no such a sucker for any sunglasses.

Gas station, airport stores, love it. Mobile Mart, there's stuff in there I

actually like.

$4 .95.

Here's my credit card.

Can someone, like, deliver our stuff to the sprinter while we walk around?

I like it so much.

It's hard.

I'm just going to get some fresh air.

Oh, Kyle Richards.

Thank you for carrying this.

Can we find a spot to put all of our shopping bags? If we have to leave one

the women, it's fine.

Just kidding. I'm totally kidding.

Coming up.

You're not supposed to be communicating with other women on social media.

I've had, like, I hate that.

Okay. We're not at Disneyland.

Calm down. Oh, my God. But we are here. Yay.

Yay.

Thank you, Kyle.

You're welcome.

Welcome to Casa Loque.

Thank you so much. It's so pretty.

We have a non -alcoholic option in that one. Is that one? Yes. You guys, this is

so pretty. So pretty. I know. It's almost like so much.

Yeah.

So we'll get your wine tasting started for today.

Right now you're sipping on our 2021 Malvasia Bianca. It's very light.

Reminds me of Hawaii in a bottle.

Perfect. Thank you so much.

Cheers, guys. Cheers.

Happy birthday again.

Thank you guys so much. When I'm in a place like this, I think this is how I

want to live. Like this. Quiet. Away from everybody.

I would like it a little bit, and then I'd get bored. Yeah, me too. I wouldn't.

I will always have a love for Los Angeles, but...

I just don't feel as connected to it as I used to. I love this one, again, with

Italian food or especially pizza. I love it.

Delicious. I love pizza.

And the things that make me happy are being outside, running by the river,

hiking with my dog. So one day, when course is done with school, I'm going to

choose some place to live that is more conducive to what brings me happiness.

So we have lunch ready for you guys. Thank God. The chef's going to be out

shortly. I'll lead you out this way. Oh, it's over there? Oh, perfect. Okay.

Thank you so much. Of course.

Feeling good, feeling fine.

We pop bottles every day and night.

Wow, this looks amazing.

We are going to start out with an Ojai Vineyard red wine marinated mushroom.

Yummy. With a cave -age Gruyere spinach stuffing.

Beautiful.

Oh, my God, that's so yummy.

Good? Good.

Got it. He had a... Oh, look at Kyle. Kyle.

Okay, guys. So, we're going to play a game. This is Girls' Night Out, table

topic.

Moving on. Let me see. Slick someone's toe. Oh, hell no. I mean... Crystal?

I'll do it. I'll do it. What?

Red flag. No one wants to do it, Kyle.

What are you doing?

No. No. What are you doing?

This is the Kyle that I love.

I feel like, oh gosh, we're finally getting there again.

Because she's so funny and she's so fun.

And we're so goofy together.

Okay, guys, Sutton is a freak. No, literally.

It wasn't even a clean toe.

I regret nothing.

It says give your best. Oh, Faye, it's give your best. So should we all go

around doing our own? Do it as if you just saw the Birkin of your life.

I'm dead.

Oh, my God. We're having a pleasant time. Everybody's having a good time.

It's fun.

Can we keep it like this?

That scares me. That scares me.

In a great way.

No.

What is appropriate for husbands when it comes to communicating with other women

on social media?

You're not supposed to be communicating with other women on social media. I

agree. Come on.

I've had, like, a fight with Mo over that. I hate that stuff.

Yeah, I don't think that's cool. Liking people's photos. Yeah, I know.

Following people.

You don't do that. Yeah. Mo gets a lot of DMs from women.

They don't care that he's married.

And they're always the aggressor.

And it just makes you realize there's really a lot of assholes out there.

But what is communicating me?

DMing. But not just DMing. That's like, no, no, no, no, no, no. But also, you

don't have to follow every single person and like all their photos.

But yeah, no, I don't like that at all.

At all.

I heard there's a birthday in the house. Here.

Oh, you guys.

Oh, nice.

Oh, my God. You guys are the cutest.

OK, ready?

One, two, three, go.

Yay!

This is so cute, you guys.

Would you ever date a woman?

Where the hell did this come from?

That's a weird question to ask randomly.

My cousin's a lesbian.

No. You wouldn't date a woman? No, no.

You know, there are times that I think about it, if I'm going to be honest.

Would I?

Yeah.

Maybe.

Kyle, a few years ago, was like shocked that we would have threesomes or talk

about making out with women.

I had a threesome a long time ago.

I've never done the girl thing.

And now she's open to a relationship with a woman?

I don't know much, but I think there's a country song somewhere in there.

When I was in Cabo with my friends, a question came up about scissoring.

What's that? Fizzling is like... Like 69?

Here, Dorit. Yeah.

It's like then.

Oh, wow.

So,

yeah. Okay, come here. Yeah, you... Dorit, I can't. Dorit, I can't. I said

was like this. Nobody take a picture!

This is not a broadcast.

Hello.

That was just having sex. I'm sorry. I am not impressed by this move.

We were the cards from this wonderful game that I love so much.

Kyle's like, last card. Make sure you stick your tongue in the person to the

left's mouth.

What do we have to do?

I'll do it. What do we do?

I'll do it. I'll do it.

Put your tongue in her mouth.

Okay.

You know, the saying goes, you work hard, you play hard. Well, we fight hard

then we play hard.

We always somehow get to a point where we have so much fun that

we remember how much we really like each other and how close we are. And this is

what I love about this group.

Anyway, see you guys Tuesday for my Celebration of Life event.

You know, honoring my best friend, Lorene, who passed. But I wanted to be

and nice. And, you know, my friend Morgan Wade is going to be playing.

Well, thank you for the invite.

Yeah, thank you for having us. Having this event for Lorene and being able to

share stories about her just feels like the right way to honor her.

Obviously, sorry for your loss.

Happy birthday to you. Thank you, guys.

And I want to say, too, thank you to all of you. You guys have been so warm.

And so welcoming.

41. Woo -woo! Woo -woo!

Just a few steps closer to 50. Yay!

Coming up.

There are elements I don't consider are PTSD.

I don't. I consider they're more obnoxious.

Mother. Hi.

Hello. Hello.

How are you? I'm good, honey. How are you? Good. You get taller every time I

you. Oh, my God. I hope so. Is Jade here?

Nope. Oh, I can't tell.

How long until the lasagna's done?

Like 10 minutes.

All right, I have a confession.

To make.

A confession?

Kind of. I mean, just, I've been already thinking about when you guys, what are

you, no, no, no, what are you having cereal for?

I'm hungry. I just.

I need a snack.

There's no way. Hello, I've been slaving for this lasagna.

You are evil.

So what were you saying?

I'm already feeling that you guys are going to be going to college soon.

We're 15.

I know, but I just feel like I'm already feeling like you guys are going to be

gone, doing your own thing.

I joke on that.

Why? Because I just don't.

And it just makes me sad, and it just makes me like, what am I going to do

myself?

You don't seem to care. You're dancing. I don't share the same emotions as you.

I want to leave.

I know you want to leave. I feel like my window with the boys is so small right

now that they're in the 10th grade, they're going to be looking at colleges,

they're about to fly the coop, and it's going to be an adjustment.

Like, I don't know how I'm going to handle it, really.

So Jade last night comes in my room and he goes, can I have Ashton sleep over?

Oh, yeah.

She's hating, bro. She is hating.

Crazy. She's hating, bro. Of course I'm going to hate.

What's going to happen? I'm not going to lie, Mom. You think you're going to

have another grandkid? This sounds like...

Mom.

Don't even start. This sounds like hater mentality.

Uh, hello.

Sex. I don't want them having sex.

It's too soon. It's too early. They're too young. They don't know what they're

doing. What are you going to do when you sleep over? Oh, we're going to watch a

movie.

We're going to make food.

Okay.

See, that's what I'm not doing.

The way.

Talk to him. I'm not the one doing it. It's him.

Okay. Okay. Okay. You brought it up. Let's talk about sex. Oh, my God.

Even though they're 6 '2", 6 '3", and they're massive, they're still little

boys, you know? And sometimes I forget that. So seeing them giggle and squirm

and not want to talk about sex is really age appropriate.

Can we talk about sex?

No. What do you know about sex?

I'm not going to sit here and tell my mother what I know about sex.

You really think we're about to have this conversation?

Because you got me. I want you to be responsible.

No means no.

Consent means everybody has to agree.

I don't want to be a grandmother anytime soon.

I'm so sorry.

All right, I'm done. I'm so over, Ollie. You guys just got here and I have you

for a whole week?

I'm good.

I'm so good.

Honey. What's going on, honey? We've got Sarah coming any minute.

Have you heard from her? Is she going to be here? Yeah, she's going to be here

any minute, bub. Okay.

Honey, we're going to have to sit outside and even with the bugs because I

put the kids to sleep and I just don't want to take any chances with them

down, you know? Okay.

Are you feeling open and focused?

Yeah. You know, because I'm really happy that you were agreeable.

Oh, that's her.

Okay, go get it, Bubba. Okay.

Are you freaking kidding me, P .K.? Fish, baby. I've got to wait. You said

that's her, and you stopped off to have a pizza pizza?

Oh, my God, P .K., you are one of a kind.

Did you know that this man left you waiting at the door so he can have more

pizza? Oh.

It was on the roof.

Hi, love.

How are you?

Well, how are you? Hi, sweetie pie.

My biggest issue was that after the home invasion, I really needed PK around,

and he was traveling all the time.

He wasn't here for me, not physically and not emotionally, really.

I'm off to Aspen. You're off to London.

Yeah, but don't call me in the middle of the night in London. I can't promise

that. Saying, come and get me. I can't promise that. You know, everything's

terrible. I cannot promise that. Well, you did that in Mexico. I know, and you

didn't come get me.

I wasn't myself.

Because of the PTSD, and my husband was spending a lot of time in London, I

started to feel like Pete and I weren't connected.

The passes, the patients, those are now used up. It's time for them to show up.

The reason why I really wanted to have a session, the three of us, was because I

feel like you don't quite understand the severity of the

PTSD for me.

largely impart the surprise element.

Who's taking care of the kids? Does anybody know anything?

We'll get to that point.

I know, but I need to know because I get anxiety.

I tried to tell you, and you just had a reaction that was very defensive.

You think that this just happened.

There's a lot of effort that goes into dressing a certain way, looking a

way. To be honest with you, I think maybe I'm not going to bother.

with surprises anymore.

Does PTSD require you to discuss it there and then? Is that PTSD?

That's a really shitty thing that you're saying. No, I'm interested.

I'm asking, is it part of... I just think it's shitty.

He's really, he's saying her timing was off.

That's exactly what he's saying. Hear me out, though. Her timing was off.

Couldn't she table that?

There isn't a freaking husband in the world that would have taken kindly to

she said when she said it after what I'd just done.

Do you understand?

It felt a little bit of a f*** you.

There isn't a freaking husband in the world that would have taken kindly to

she said when she said it after what I'd just done.

Do you understand?

It felt a little bit of a f*** you.

PTSD is born in anxiety, right? It has nothing to do, good surprise, bad

surprise, or anything in between.

It's just something that catches you off guard. And so your instinct is to walk

around ready for something horrible to happen all the time.

Does that feel... Perfection, Sarah.

Okay.

Did that make sense?

There are elements I understand. There are also elements that I don't consider.

Are PTSD.

I don't. I consider they're more obnoxious.

Honey, I want to know why you couldn't have gotten, like, the presidential

suite. Karina, do you have the Beverly Beach bronzer?

No, I don't have it with me. That I need. It will look a lot better if I'm

bronzed. The reality is, when does high maintenance blend with PTSD?

One of the things that I fell in love with PK when I first met him was he

let go of things so easily.

And I feel like in the last few years, he's definitely gotten more harsh with

me. A little mean sometimes, like go low.

And I don't like that aspect.

When I first met Dorit, she was this bubbly, enthusiastic, beautiful girl.

And she was not quite as high maintenance as she is now.

PK, you are, it's like you're reaching and you're trying to... No, I'm not

reaching. No, genuinely. I'm trying to understand. We're talking about

specifically... Certain triggers.

It's like I'm a totally new person and I can't do anything about it. Do you have

any idea how difficult that is and what it's like to live with that?

What do you want him to do in the future?

If I tell him, PK, I'm not good. I'm really not good right now.

I need him to understand, like, uh -oh, she's having an episode. I need to go

comfort my wife in a marriage.

These are the times.

That truly tests your relationship.

This particular bad time where I need PK and it's not the other way around,

he's coming up really short.

Dealing with the pressures of having to manage your career and your job and

travel and keep the missus happy is always a challenge.

You know, something has to give. I try and balance it, but maybe I don't always

balance it as well as I should or could.

And this isn't a one -sided thing. We need to keep each other happy, and we

to sometimes be wrong, which has always been a challenge for Dorit.

I don't know why you think I wouldn't want to understand it. It's helpful to

as well as you.

So, of course I want to understand it, but you've got to give me a chance to

understand it, and you've also got to try and articulate it just a little bit

calmer and a little bit less...

irritated by it. Do you understand?

Because I'm not seeking to irritate you.

I'm seeking to understand you. It makes me emotional because you know I'm okay

with it. Papa.

Baby. But why? I don't understand, baby. Why?

Because it's very difficult when you love someone to listen to how much pain

you're in. What I need is for PK not only to get a better graph of what I'm

going through.

To want to be there for me.

If we can do that together, him and I will succeed.

If he can't, I don't know what the future holds.

Before PTSD, you take a long time to say something. I'm always going to get a

little bit frustrated with that.

It's not all the time, my love. Just to let you know, it really isn't.

I mean, you are super sweet when you're asleep.

I sent Portia a voice text of what I wanted to say tonight, and then she sent

them back to his mom. I can barely understand any of this. I just want to

her. I think who she is.

I'm just trying to pull this up against God. Don't be offended.

Not at all.

This is a very special night.

Hopefully, my lashes will stay on.

Okay.

So

tonight,

I think, you know, it's Kyle's night to celebrate her friend and raise some

funds. But you can all be there for her.

When you guys are in need, you guys rally around each other. We do do that.

absolutely do that.

Hey, Siri?

Call Morgan Wade.

Oh, there she is.

Yeah. There are people that I speak to every single day, no matter what.

Sorry. You look nice. You look pretty.

Teddy and Morgan are two of those people.

You know, don't tell her too much. She's going to get a big ego over here. Oh,

hell. Yeah, I love that color.

Everything in our life is disgust.

Friends, husbands, siblings, work, complaints, celebrations, everything.

Where did you get that pinky ring?

I'll take you there, Mom.

Are you going to give it back to me? Yeah, I'm not kidding. I don't want

I probably wouldn't even

fit over my knuckle.

It looks gorgeous.

It looks really beautiful.

It looks great.

I'll try to give you one that we both do a little thing in on. You want to take

me away?

Here's how it's going to go.

People are going to come in. We're going to have past drinks. You're going to

speak.

Let's do the water.

Initially, I was drawn to Morgan by her music.

Morgan's lyrics really spoke to me because she was just so raw and open and

honest and just putting it all out there.

And I admire that in someone,

especially someone who has struggled with that myself.

I appreciate that quality in someone.

I need to work on my speech. I'm very stressed.

I feel too nervous.

I'm too nervous to read it to you.

Well,

let me read it. No, because there's too many typos. I can't let you see the

typos. I wouldn't make fun of you.

What?

I'm so anxious.

I really don't know if I can do it.

I'm not kidding you.

Okay. I think we got it.

Coming up.

You guys, not to change the subject, but Sutton, you guys know her the best.

I feel like you guys are the closest with her. Her small esophagus.

Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you. Wait, Morgan, are you going to be with Kim and me? Yes.

We want to stand with you.

Hi. Hi, how are you?

Good, how are you?

Good.

Oh, sorry.

It's Nat.

Hi. Hi. How are you?

Good. The Nat is back.

Not only is she annoying, she refers to herself as a gnat.

What's your deal with Teddy?

I don't know. She's kind of annoying.

But no reason.

Like, a little gnat.

I mean, I rest my gaze, Your Honor.

Hi. You look stunning.

Stunning.

I'm excited. How do you feel?

Anxious. Yeah.

It's going to be a good night.

Ready?

How are you?

I'm going to take a quick picture with my daughter. Of course.

You look beautiful. Oh, my God.

Okay, girl.

Do you like that side?

We all like this side.

My daughters are my best friends in the world.

They always give me the best advice. They're there for me. They listen to me.

I don't know what I would do without them.

What are we like the, you know, like snare? Mom.

Sorry.

It feels good to be able to lean on them sometimes after raising them all these

years. Like, guess what? Now I need you a little bit.

You look beautiful.

Oh, my gosh.

Thank you, honey. I love you. I love you.

Thank you so much.

This is hard.

I know.

Thank you. Is Maurice going to be here?

He does.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

I love you so much.

Mo can't be here because he had to go out of town for business, you know, had

spend a few years ago.

I would have really relied on him on a night like tonight.

Kyle, are you okay?

That's Maureen's mom and her daughters.

Yeah, she's having a hard day, obviously, yeah.

Kyle coming alone to this event without Mo.

says a lot about where her relationship is.

And maybe he's not trying to hide it after all.

All right.

Hang in there.

Thank you. I hope I can get to my speech. How are you? I'm good. How are

Good. How are the boys?

The boys are good. Jack does a game tomorrow and, you know. Okay. Jack

something. You guys, not to change the subject, but Sutton, you guys know her

the best, right? I feel like you guys are the closest with her. Her small

esophagus.

I feel like I'm beating a dead horse. Okay, I have a question for you. Why do

you care?

I don't think it's very Beverly Hills to be talking about someone's esophagus.

I care because I'm in health care.

You talk about their jewelry.

You talk about their bag.

You talk about their ex -husband.

Not their esophagus.

You can even talk about their plastic surgery.

That's okay.

I scoured all of my medical books.

I went to work. She asked questions. I asked anesthesiologists. I asked ENTs.

They said, you can say that to a lay person, but if you say that to someone

medicine, you look stupid.

Small esophagus is not the reason. Did you have an eating disorder?

Because a lot of acid reflux.

Let me explain.

Let me explain. A lot of acid reflux or regurgitation can cause scar tissue in

your throat. You're implying that she has an eating disorder.

I'm not.

For the record, those are Crystal's words, not mine. I never said that. You

eating disorder.

No, I didn't.

Did you have an eating disorder?

Annarie, you are the one that said it. You need to own up to it. You are the

biggest gaslighter.

And I don't need to look up in my medical encyclopedia what a gaslighter

This is a tricky conversation. All I said is that narrow esophagus is not a

medical diagnosis.

Period. That's all I said.

I'm going to get something else to drink. Do you want anything?

Yeah, a bottle of tequila. Thank you. Bye.

Thank you and bye.

I'm so not used to being that much taller than you, I've got to take my

off. Look at me.

Yeah, you like that better, right?

You have both of your parents, right? Of course, my dad's been dead 20 years.

Suicide is really tough.

And it can splinter a family.

You know, I think it...

Really affected me as a daddy's girl.

And we never addressed it as a family, ever.

Wow.

Wow. My father was 62 years old when he committed suicide.

I lived with that guilt for a long time. Then I tried to figure out why he did

this. We put him in the hospital twice.

You have to learn to let that go.

Girl.

What?

What now?

No. What? What happened?

Anna Marie is coming for you.

Why? Your small esophagus.

Not tonight.

Garcelle loves to strike a match, throw it on the flame, and then walk away.

And that's exactly what she's doing with Sutton right now.

Does she know that my dad committed suicide? I'm an ambassador for NAMI. She

better f***ing say that.

away from me. Not tonight.

Hey,

how are you? Your hair looks great that color. I met Morgan about two years ago.

It was before Kyle and Morgan really got super close.

We were all in London, and we had dinner for Mauricio's birthday.

Morgan stuck out like a sore thumb.

He didn't really understand the connection, but very nice.

I didn't recognize you. I keep forgetting. I mean, I changed it six

I need you. No, it looks really good, though. Come to think of it, the dinner

that we had in London with Kyle and Mo was really one of the last times that we

were together with Kyle and Mo as a couple.

There's got to be a better way to eat this to not like... I don't like this

You can eat this one.

Do you have to work? Oh, yeah.

You don't like the antelope.

I think about that every time.

Here you go. I don't want that kind either.

This is exactly how rumors start.

Is this working?

Oh, yes.

We're here tonight to honor my best friend, Lorene Shea.

It is the one -year anniversary of her passing.

Suicide, it's such a difficult topic because nobody wants to talk about it,

know, and I want people to know that are struggling, that there are resources

that they can reach out to, and I can guarantee you every single person in

room has struggled themselves.

or known someone that has struggled or lost a loved one.

I was supposed to be at my family's house at the exact time that my father

himself. And I lived for a long time thinking, if only I had been there on

because I'm always late.

We know that. I now just miss him.

I miss that he's not seeing my children.

He'd be really, no.

I also learned this. He is really proud of my children. He is really proud of me

because he's still with us.

Lorene and I met in second grade.

We were both seven years old, and we did not like each other at all.

We would come out to the play yard and look at each other up and down.

hurling insults at each other. I think I blocked out what Lorene said about me,

making fun of me, but it was probably about being short or something, because

she was very tall.

And I would make fun of her pointy ears.

And, yeah.

We were both really stubborn, so if we had an argument, we both could not get

ourselves to say sorry. We had to come up with a word, because saying I'm sorry

was just too difficult.

So we would say Babaloo. I do not know why we would say Babaloo. And then we

could move on and go about our day.

But God forbid one of us could say sorry.

But we went from that to being the best of friends.

I am so grateful to have had Lorene in my life and to have been her other half.

Two days before, I was talking to Lorene.

She said to me, um, she said, I always appreciate

your marriage.

I said, I will.

So now when we're having a hard time, I think I'm letting her down.

I hope everyone remembers Lorena as a beautiful, energetic, positive, funny,

smart, loving, devoted mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend that she

I'm overcome with so much emotion because I know what Kyle's gone through

past year. I know how much it's devastated her. And it's really

that she knows I'm here for her.

Tonight, as you guys know, we have a musical performance.

Everybody, Morgan Wade.

I think since Lorene died, I just think life is too short.

I'm really just trying to be happy and live my life.

I don't want to have a wasted day of not feeling good or spending time with

people that I don't want to spend my time with.

Or people that don't appreciate me.

The

thing

with losing someone is the finality of it.

You're not going to get a phone call. You're not going to get a text.

You're not going to hear their voice.

I mean, I know for me, with my mom, when she passed, it was like, as time went

on, it was like...

I'm really never going to see her or hear her or hug her.

You know, that's the hardest part.

As hard

as it was, people wanted to be together, to celebrate her, to hear these

stories.

and be able to lean on each other.

You know?

That's all we can do.

Give me the strength.

I love you so much.

Lorraine, what should be here?

She's here.

She's with us.

Next time on The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. So we're going to dip

our legs.

I know this already.

Titties out. Ooh, I'm a princess.

Oh, God. What have I signed myself up for? When I met Anna Marie around

Christmas, she told me she was a doctor.

And not a nurse?

Are you a board certified doctor?

I am a board certified nurse. You said that I made up. I didn't say you made it

up. You said she lied.

You're such a bitch. What is wrong with you?