All language subtitles for Fire Country s04e03 The Tiny Ways We Start to Heal.eng

Previously on Fire Country...

JAKE:
Vince was like a father to me.

He was my actual father,

and now he's gone

because you locked me in a cage

at that fire.

RICHARDS:
I'm not here to rebuild 42.

I'm here to keep you alive

because I don't
trust you to do it.

BODE:
Don't worry about me.

AUDREY:
You're fighting with Jake,

-you're living at the station.
-(retches)

AUDREY:
I know when something's up.

There's something
you're not telling me.

EVE:
Vince left me his guitar.

Sharon said
he put it in the will.

Just Sharon Leone.
Is she around?

No. I'm her son Bode.

Oh. Uh, Ren�e.

You used to date my dad.

JAKE:
We've got a active flame on that grill. Probably

natural gas.
I'll find the shutoff.

RICHARDS:
Looks like a shoddy DIY

-situation.
-Yeah.

Take Leone.

(whistles)

All right, we're looking for
the gas line feeding that fire,

and I don't think
I have to remind you,

everything's a test
with that guy.

Yep.

Hey, I ran into a buddy
from 58 last week.

He said Richards has been
asking around to see

if any stations
are low on bodies.

He's trying to figure out
where to send us

if he disbands 42.

And I heard he gives
a station two weeks

to sink or swim. That's it.

Last week. You're just now
saying something?

Well, hey, it's not like
you've been looking for

conversation with me these days.

There's the source.

Locked?

I got it.

(gas hissing)

(hissing stops)

Gas cleared, Chief.

RICHARDS:
Copy. Fire's already dying.

That my dad's axe?

Uh, yeah.

Yeah, he left it to me.

The hell he did.

Look, I don't know
what to tell you.

Your mom put it in my hands.

It's been in my family
for generations.

-I can't speak for your dad.
-No.

No, you for sure can't.

He made his will
right after Riley died.

You weren't a firefighter.

I was.

Right.

I was an addict
and then a criminal.

That's what you want to say,
go ahead and say it.

Hey, look, you don't want
to run your mouth in front of

-Richards.
-You don't want to give me

orders unless
it has to do with a fire.

Okay, I have been killing myself

trying to prove to Richards
we are a solid house.

Pushing everyone
to study and work hard.

You don't feel like
getting along with me?

Feeling's mutual. But, Bode,

if you do
nothing else today, fake it.

Sure, sure.

I'll pretend that if my dad had
gotten out of that fire alive,

he wouldn't have
ended your career

right then and there for
holding me back from helping.

I didn't realize you were
back to being the Bode

who didn't give a damn
about anything but himself.

And if your dad
had gotten out alive,

he would've kicked your ass out.

Again.

AUDREY:
So, what's your read on Bode these days?

You had eyes on him when
I couldn't, when I was gone.

Ah, you know Bode,

carrying the world on his
shoulders is kind of his thing.

He's just grieving.

What about you?
You're-you're fresh eyes.

What's your read?

Are you worried?

(laughs)

Trying not to be.

But he's just so...

bottled up.

You don't think
he's using again, do you?

No, no.

I don't... I don't think so.

(sighs)

Somebody gave him some pills.

What?

And he told me
that he flushed 'em.

Now I'm telling you.

Well, as you know...

...addicts lie for breakfast.

I'm not saying he's lying.

Not yet.

So let me ask you this.

If someone had forced you
to talk back then,

when you were using,
would it have worked?

-No.
-See, the truth is,

Bode's on one of two roads:

the one we hope for

or the one which
lands him at rock bottom.

But whichever road he's on,
he's gonna show us soon.

All right, so you're saying

I shouldn't try to force him
to talk?

No, I'm saying that...

...that the worst thing
you could do is isolate him.

BODE:
Almost there. Come on, keep going. You got this.

-(stopwatch beeps)
-Done.

Seven knots, 74 seconds.
Not too shabby.

-MAN: All right, man.
-42's still got it.

Should be able to do it
in under a minute.

You're up, Leone.

Everyone else,
push-ups until he gets it.

Let me know when you're ready.

(clears throat)

-Go ahead.
-Go.

? ?

-Done.
-Stop.

68 seconds. Yikes. Try again.

And... go.

BODE:
Damn it.

And break. Done.

Trending in the wrong direction.

72 seconds.

(men groaning)

Stop. Get up. Go.

Get out of here.

Man...

(indistinct muttering)

I don't care how you tie knots
on your best day.

It's how you perform
on your worst.

You're gonna need
to work on that.

Keep or donate?

I don't know.

We can take a break.

No, no, no. No.

The donations for the fire
victims have dropped off,

and I have so much

since he...

You know, the things
that he put in his will,

they're-they're so easy
to give away

because that's
what he wanted, right?

But the rest of it?

It's like I just want
to go back in time

and harangue him into just
writing every single thing down

'cause this is too hard.

Let's change the topic.

Today, it's, um,

a special day.

You gonna do something
for it, or...

(knock on door)

Oh.

Uh, enter at your own risk.

-What's up, bud?
-Hey.

-(yawns)
-MANNY: Wow.

You starting your own
thrift shop in here?

(yawns) Sorry.

I haven't slept very much.

MANNY:
Ah, you should try what I do.

Just go to bed senior early.

EVE:
What? That's such a sad adult life.

You're single, you got to
put yourself out there, dude.

Do whatever straight people do

to find each other. Ooh.

You know what?
What about the councilwoman?

-Okay, okay, okay, okay.
-She liked you a lot, bud.

You said
you had something for me?

I do.
(clears throat)

Aw.

Vince's challenge coin.

SHARON:
Yeah.

He said he wanted you
to have it.

Oh...

I'm honored.

You sure you want
to do this today?

Yeah, I already brought that up.

Edgewater needs stuff,
and-and we have stuff.

I kind of thought
that Vince would like it

if we did this today.

Yeah.

Yeah, you're right.

-Thank you.
-Okay.

-I'll see you later.
-Okay.

EVE:
Thanks for helping me with Sharon's donations.

Well, you know, it's easier
to haul Vince's things around

than to go through
'em with Sharon.

-Especially on your day off.
-Yeah, I'll be honest,

it hasn't been easy.

Especially, you know... today.

It's Vince's birthday.

You forgot.

Yeah. Damn.

That explains Bode's reaction

to seeing me with Vince's axe.

I didn't handle it well.

How are we supposed
to handle any of this, man?

It's like Vince's whole
life is reduced to... stuff.

Stuff to donate,
stuff we fight over,

stuff to wonder who
we give it to when we're gone.

You know, it's very early
for you to be so morbid.

No, I'm serious, dude.

Like, Vince was like
a parent to us.

When the parent generation goes,

the next generation levels up.

Remember when we were younger,
and we used to dream

about what being
an adult would be like?

Yeah.

No school,
ice cream for breakfast,

married to Jessica Alba.

Right.
And I don't feel

any closer to grown-up Eve.

I just feel like the same me.

Well, if it
makes you feel any better,

I never thought that,
as grown-up Jake,

I'd be getting into it with Bode

over stuff or old beef.

Can I be honest?

I think Richards is
pushing you, Bode, all of us.

It's kind of like a stress test
and we're cracking.

-(sighs)
-So, give yourself a break.

That's very
grown-up of you to say.

I kind of felt that, too.
Huh.

You make the Leone mud?

-How'd I do?
-It's thick enough

to eat it with a fork.

It's perfect.

Uh, look, uh,
I know what you said.

I'm just not ready to talk.

I get it.

Sorry.
Shouldn't have pushed.

You know, my, um...

...my dad left Jake his axe.

And that's bad because
you wanted the axe?

(sighs) No.

But...

it's just, my mom is like,
she's doling out

all of my dad's stuff,

and it's just...

It's a reminder he's gone?

Yeah.

And, um, I'm pretty sure that

there's no way he left
anything in there for me.

(sighs)
But now that my dad's gone...

...I just don't want
me and him to end that way.

Want some?

No.

Just wanted to get
your hands free.

(alarm blaring)

(Audrey sighs)

(people shouting indistinctly)

(fire truck horn blares)

Call came in
as a fall from heights.

Up there.

What'd he fall from,
an airplane?

Well, if he fell any further,

this would be a recovery,
not a rescue.

Help! I'm stuck,

and my friend Dex-
he fell down there!

(indistinct radio chatter)

(Jake sighs)

Well, it looks like
we got one of each.

RICHARDS:
Yep, a rescue and a recovery.

? ?

(indistinct radio chatter)

I need to dispel a rumor
going around about me. Yes,

I have been known
to disband a station

when it is dead.

But as far as I can tell, 42

is still breathing. Don't want
to call time of death.

Show me I don't need to.

Perez, James,

you're on our fall patient.
Crawford,

take Leone up on the line.
Let's go.

Hey, uh, Bode, about the axe...

Be easier to fake it
if we didn't talk.

MANNY: This overgrowth
is out of control.

Yeah, this place
is chock-full of tinder

without Three Rock around.

There. Hey, Dex.

Dex, can you hear me?

Looks like he's breathing,
but he's unresponsive.

Oh, hell.

Oh, man.

That's a textbook
compound fracture.

Keep assessing him.

Got a pulse,

respirations steady.

That chest wound, we got to get

a dressing on it.

Pupils are good.

MANNY: Richards is calling

in the ambo, but
we can't move him yet.

We have no idea

how close this broken bone is
to the femoral artery,

and one millimeter
in the wrong direction...

He could bleed out.

All right, stay with us, Dex.

JAKE: Hey, there.

I'm Jake. This is Bode.

What's your name?

Name's Gage. I just got snagged

on my way from there to there,

where I was gonna set up.

My-my friend Dex tried to help
when I got stuck,

but he slipped off his line
like a noob.

Is he okay?

Our crew is taking care of him.

Okay.

Yeah, just sit tight.
We'll get you down.

(laughs)

Oh...

(crying)

(knock on door)

Come in. Eve?

(door opens)

(door shuts)

I'm sorry.

I texted, but when

my dad died, the ladies
from the church

brought over casseroles
and kind words for my mom,

and then, three months in,
people went back to their lives

and it stopped, and

the words, she could've
used the words,

and today is Vince's birthday,

and ask me why
I'm standing here saying

any of this instead of... hi.

I-I don't even know
if you want

Vince's high school ex
here in your house.

I am sorry.

It's okay. It's okay.

It's nice to see you,

Ren�e. Thank you.

(laughs)

(groans) Did you just see me...

(scoffs)

...smell his shirt
through the window?

You did, didn't you?

It's laundry day.

-Yeah.
-(groans)

My dead husband's ex,

standing in our home,
offering me a shred of dignity

after seeing me stick my face
in his dirty laundry.

I am so sorry.

-I'm gonna go.
-No, no, no.

It's a kindness.
It's just so surreal, right?

I mean, you, here, in that spot

where I have
laughed with him and argued

with him and smelled the food

he was making for me
to welcome me home.

I'm sorry.
(chuckles)

I just really wanted to say

that he was a really good guy.

While also always being
such a lovable ass.

(both laugh)

Who

kind of smelled like pine trees

and Dial soap and...

the occasional joint that
he didn't think I knew about.

He was still doing that?

Oh, yes.

So, do you think you could
help me sort through this

to see what doesn't
smell like him

so I can clothe
Edgewater with it?

In the name
of Vince, yes, I can.

What's the plan?

Figuring out if we can
get out there to him.

Not a question of if we can,
it's how.

Find a way, Captain.

I just did.

We'll flip this pulley
upside down, jury-rig it

into a trolley.
Leone, harness up.

You'll trolley out to Gage,
clear the snag,

I'll pull you
both in with a tether.

RICHARDS:
Solid rope work.

That should do it.

You good to go out on the line?

Yeah, I'm good.

Wow.

A probie has to approve
my orders now?

Well, he's probably just worried
that you might drop me.

Yeah, well, don't tempt me.

-And then he fell from the tree.
-(laughs)

After all of these
big proclamations about being

the last protestor on-site,

he is then the first one

carted away in an ambulance...

...naked.

No, no, no.

Too far?

Was it "naked"?
I... I think I found

-the line.
-No, no.

I am so happy
to hear new Vince stories.

I didn't think
I was gonna get anymore.

I want to hear all of them,

but have you seen
a brown leather jacket?

Like, really well worn?

I don't think so.

It's his favorite jacket,
and it was in this pile,

and-and now I don't know
where it is.

Well, it's got to be
here somewhere.

No, it-it doesn't have to be,

because Jake and Eve, they took

a load to donate already,

and what if it got
mixed up in that load?

Well, then we go find it.

I'll drive.

Come on.

Okay.

Okay. Hey, Gage.

Bode's gonna come out

and get you.

All right.

All right, hey, look.
Before you go out there,

I just wanted to say

I didn't realize

it was your dad's birthday,
all right?

No need to.
Not your dad.

BODE:
All right, buddy, almost there.

Where are the people
who work here?

GAGE:
That would be me.

Uh, I've got mad
zip-lining skills,

it's just that this was not
how this was supposed to go.

My girlfriend Naomi thinks
we're just going zip-lining,

but when
we got over there, I was

gonna ask her to marry me.

-Romantic.
-Yeah.

I just had to get over there
to set up some things first,

but when I zipped out,
this got stuck.

-What is that, a blanket?
-Yeah.

For the picnic.

Naomi loves the girly stuff.

But, uh, it flew up and got
completely stuck in the wheels.

I tried to pull it out, but...

BODE: You didn't want to risk
yanking the pulley off the wire,

end up like your buddy there

on the ground.

GAGE:
Exactly, you just got to

get me down before
Naomi shows up here

and sees me dangling

like an idiot.

All right,
I'm gonna cut it free.

Yeah, dude, it's, uh...

BODE:
Yeah, don't move.

If I get too close to the line,
we're both on the ground.

SHARON:
He wore it on our last real date

to the drive-in theater.

That jacket probably
smells more like popcorn

than pine trees now.

What movie did you see?

Oh, we were trying to pretend
we were young again so...

So you didn't watch the movie.

No, we did not.

Ugh, the popularity
of this abomination

and the ones like it around here

is why I left Edgewater.
No offense.

None taken.

You were meant for bigger ponds.

Sharon.

You inspired me to donate

some of my own clothes.

-(yawning): Oh, good.
-Look at you two.

You're hanging out or...

Uh, looking for Vince's jacket.

-Uh, the dusty-brown one.
-Oh, his main jacket.

-Yeah.
-You donated it?

REN�E:
Didn't mean to,

so we're digging.

Oh... okay.
Again, sorry. "We?" You two

are...

Yeah, we have a shared history.

A man. You shared a man.

REN�E:
He was more

like a boy

when I was with him.

But the nicest kind.

SHARON:
What else, Ren�e?

What other stories do you have?

REN�E:
Okay.

(chuckles)

One time, he left
a chocolate bar in my locker

and it melted all over

my homework, and I remember
running after him

in the hallway and being
so mad about something.

(exhales sharply)

I'm sorry. I just, uh,

I have all these memories
and nowhere to take them now.

Here. You can take them here.

(chuckles) It's okay

if it feels weird to you.
That's all right.

It feels good to me.

But this jacket is not here.

It-it has to have gone

to another donation center
already, so then...

it's just gone.

AUDREY:
That good?

No.

No, there's still movement.

His leg needs to be
completely immobile

to protect that artery,
so grab some more gauze.

We're not out, are we?

Damn it, his wound's
still bleeding.

Put some pressure on it.

(echoing):
Audrey, put pressure on it.

Hey, are you okay?

(gunshots)

(whispering):
I can't move.

All I see is Finn.

Manny, I'm sorry.

Audrey.

(Finn gasps)

JAKE:
Hey!

You need anything?

Nope.

Hey, when you were down there,

did you see my phone?

No.

I accidentally dropped it

when I called 911.

We're firefighters,
not lost and found.

GAGE:
Oh, careful. Careful, dude.

(cloth tearing)

Oh, sweet. You got it.

You're good. You're free. Okay.

Bringing you in.

MANNY (echoing):
Hey, Audrey, stay with me.

I need you.

This man needs you, too.

You shot me.

-(Audrey screams)
-(shouts)

That bitch shot me.

Serenity.

S-E-R-E-N-I-T-Y.

MANNY (clearly):
What?

Spelling. It helps.

Okay. Well, keep-keep doing it.

Fracture. F-R-A...

Fracture. F-R-A...

-That's good, keep going.
-F-R...

A-C-T-U-R-E.

Good, good, good.

You need me?

Okay, one more.

Corporeality. C-O-R

P-O-R-E-A-L-I-T-Y.

All right.

I'm good.

I'm good, I'm good.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Okay, his chest still needs
pressure. Can you do it?

-I'm on it. Yeah.
-Yeah? Great.

-Keep it there.
-Okay.

(Audrey exhales sharply)

It's stopping.

Nice. Add some gauze to it.

And when you're done there,
get your ass back over here

and help me finish up

the splint, all right?

Hey.

Good work.

I guess if my phone
dropped on something

soft, it might still be good.

Can't believe I dropped it.
So dumb.

You know, you're making it
really hard

to disagree with you, Gage.

MANNY: All right, just remember,
no sudden movements, all right?

We have no idea how close
those broken bones are

to the femoral artery, so we're
gonna go gentle. I'm talking

"moving a sleeping kid
from a vehicle" gentle.

You got it?

-On James' count.
-All right.

Three, two, one. Now.

Three, two, one.

Down.

Nice and steady.

Clear a path
back to the road for 'em.

Yes, Chief.

(grunting)

Got you.

-All right, now you, Gage.
-(grunts)

(chuckles):
Whoa. Whoa.

I could make out
with this platform.

Oh.

-Thank you. Thank you very much.
-All right, it's secure.

(sniffles) Yep.

-(grunts)
-Good here.

(device clicks, beeps)

Uh-oh. Oh. Uh...

What? What? What is that?

Okay.

-You good?
-Yeah.

All right. Smooth as butter.
Here we go.

-(fireworks booming
and whistling) -Whoa, whoa, whoa!

-(pained groaning)
-(urgent chatter)

Stay still!

All right, stop, stop, stop.
You're fine.

Don't move. Don't move.

JAKE:
What the hell?

What the hell is that?

It's the remote detonator
for the proposal fireworks.

-Gimme.
-JAKE: All right, look,

we got to get down there now.

All right. Oh.

It's just a couple of
Roman candles, pinwheels...

(chuckles) whistlers.

You know, they were only
supposed to go off

after Naomi said yes.

Fireworks.
In the dry season.

JAKE:
All right, Gage, follow me.

Don't do anything stupid.

Yeah, I know.

Technically, I should
have got a permit.

But I totally spaced.

JAKE (over radio):
Chief, patient's secure. We're on our way down.

Hurry it up. I need a line
on this five minutes ago.

Perez, James, are you good?

-We're good, Chief.
-Yeah, we're good.

(pained groaning)

DEX:
Oh, what happened?

Hey, Dex, hey. We're Cal Fire.

You fell and you broke
your leg, okay?

MANNY:
Hey, buddy, we're gonna need you to stay as still

as you possibly can.
I know it hurts.

-All right?
-RICHARDS: All right, good.

Let's get you out of here.
Ambulance is on its way.

MANNY: Are you ready to move,
Dex? We're gonna move you now.

I'll make you a deal.
If you take big, deep breaths,

we're gonna get you out of here
nice and smooth, all right?

Deal? All right, let's go.

Leone, Crawford,
get onto hoses now.

Oh, oy. Okay.

Vince always kept a bottle
of my favorite one

right behind the napkins for me.

Ah, yeah.

I think we...
we need this today.

Well, we didn't hit

every donation center
before they closed.

There's still that feed store
out on Skyline.

(groans) I...

I'm gonna survive.

It's just a jacket.

Okay.

Here's to
your dead ex-boyfriend.

And to your dead husband.

(both chuckle)

Ah. And there it is.

Joel?

Hey.

-Hey, Sharon.
-Where'd you get that jacket?

Oh, you-you like it? (chuckles)

Just scored it today.

Donation place at
the hardware store on Piedmont.

Yeah.

Gertie and me lost everything
in that Zabel Ridge Fire.

Didn't really want
to take any help at first,

but Gertie said

had the wind blown in a
different direction, then...

Oh, you'd want to help, too.

Yeah. (sighs)

Yeah.

Uh, would you...

Can we hug?

Mm, yeah.

? ?

Thanks again for saving me.
(grunts)

I'll never listen
to that idiot again.

(groans)

Take care.

(sighs)

"Corporeality"?
(chuckles softly)

Didn't expect that one.

Fourth grade spelling champ.

Wow.

Well, color me impressed
on all levels.

You good now?

Other than
being embarrassed, sure.

Got nothing to be
embarrassed about.

You had stuff come up and
you worked yourself through it.

When I was in it, I sure
wanted drugs more than spelling.

Would've been nice to drug
myself into a happy place.

This is the kind of thing that
used to send me off on a bender.

Yeah, but it didn't.

Not yet.

-You know how I know you won't?
-Ugh.

'Cause you dwell in optimism
like a sparkly little butterfly?

'Cause you're talking drugs
instead of taking them.

This is exactly the kind of day
we prepare ourselves for.

If you prepare for 'em.

Yeah.

Hey, Chief, uh, Dex, he's
en route to the hospital now.

Nice job, Cap.

I saw how you handled James.
Got her through it.

Eh.

Eh, she got herself through it.

And 42's getting
through it, too.

I hope you see that.

AUDREY:
Hey, Gage, your friend's gonna be okay.

He's on his way
to the hospital now.

JAKE:
Yeah, we got to get you checked out.

Well, my gear's
completely soaked.

The fireworks were,
uh, expensive.

Damn. I thought this was gonna
be the coolest proposal ever.

BODE:
You know what would've been cool?

Proposing in a damn restaurant.

Bode.

Firefighters risk their lives
every single day.

We know we could die on the job.
We prepare for it.

Okay, Bode, not tonight, okay?

We write wills about it,

for going out
over something that matters.

Hey, Bode, enough!

You could've lit up this
whole town again. For what?

For what-
a-a proposal with a bang?

RICHARDS:
Leone!

You will listen to your captain

or you will be suspended.

(engine shuts off)

-Bode.
-I'm gonna go crash.

(chuckling):
Hey, bud, what's up?

-Why you manhandling me?
-Okay, calm down.

Um, I need your help.

I made Sunday Sauce
for Vince's birthday.

Oh, you know how to cook now?

Well, I ran by Papa Leone's,
and I got Vince's mom's recipe,

which was handwritten
and very old,

and Vince didn't
really follow it, so...

Oh, no, that's 'cause
he always measured by taste.

Right, that's what
I'm trying to say.

So it may not taste the same,
um, but, still,

can you just make sure
that Sharon gets there?

Uh, I'm gonna text
Bode, Manny, Ren�e...

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hold up.

Ren�e? As in Vince's ex?

Thank you. It's weird, right?

Uh, yeah.

Well, apparently,
she's inner circle now.

Look, I-I may not be ready

for some adult things,
but I am grown enough

to know that this is about
what Sharon needs.

Look at us being grown-ups.

Yeah. It's mostly me, but yeah.

(heart beating faintly)

? ?

(heartbeat stops)

Hey, stranger.

Hi, Mom.

I heard you lost it
on a patient today.

(scoffs softly)

He turned a proposal
into a forest fire.

(Sharon laughs)

I see you inherited

your father's lack of patience
for fire hazards.

How come you haven't come by the
house to see what he left you?

I don't expect anything.

I-I know the place
that he and I were in

when he made those decisions.

Oh, but that wasn't
the place he was in

when we lost him.

I... I think, maybe,
officially, on paper,

he didn't leave you anything,

but we talked about this
all the time.

We-we talked about you and...

the life that you've made
for yourself

and how proud we both are of you

and the man you are today.

? ?

He left you his wedding ring.

He wanted you to have it.

He loved you so much
right up until the day he died.

Sorry, I think I'm gonna cry

right along with you.

(chuckles)

This is so hard.
(chuckles)

And I miss him so much,
but I miss you, too.

(Sharon sniffles)

Are we okay now?
You back with me?

Please don't worry about me.

("look up" by Joy Oladokun
playing)

(laughter)

I was like, "Mm... well,
you'll see, actually. Yes."

(laughter, lively chatter)

? Sometimes your life
feels like ?

? A broken roller coaster... ?

All right, uh,
somebody taste this,

make sure I'm close.

Uh, okay.
Hey, I-I volunteer as tribute.

(Sharon laughing)

Hey, Share, would you like me
to go check on Bode?

Uh, no.

We talked and we hugged,

and I think he's dealing
in his own way.

Mm, all right.

-SHARON: Thank you.
-MANNY: Mm-hmm.

JAKE:
Mmm.

That's that.
That's it right there.

Tastes like Vince's?
I-I got it right?

Not even close, but it's good.

(laughing)

I didn't even know how much
I needed this. Thank you.

JAKE:
It's good! It's good!

-You ain't...
You don't get none. -Oh!

I know it's a little strange,

but these are the tiny ways
we start to heal.

Listen, you said it, ma.

? Hold on,
'cause somebody loves you ?

? You know trouble's
always gonna be there ?

? Don't let it bring you to
your knees, yeah, look up... ?

(lively chatter)

-With gla... With shades on?
-Oh, my God.

Man, Vince would be mad
right now.

'Cause I think this sauce
is better than his.

Right? Ooh!

-Bite your damn tongue.
-Right?

-(exclaiming)
-(laughter)

I know I killed it,
but here's the thing.

-Why were you trying it?
-Because he said it was...

? With all kinds of mystery ?

? It's a blank page
for your poetry ?

? If you let it be... ?

-? So don't tell yourself ?
-(guitar playing "look up")

? It's raining ?

? The clouds are in your head ?

? You tell yourself
it's better ?

? To jump
before you fall again ?

? Before you lose it all again ?

? Look up ?

? Do you see the sunlight? ?

? Look up ?

? There's flowers in your hair ?

? Hold on,
'cause somebody loves you ?

? You know trouble's
always gonna be there ?

? Don't let it bring you
to your knees, yeah, look up ?

(grunting)

? Don't let it bring you
to your knees, yeah, look up ?

? Don't let it bring you
to your knees, yeah ?

? Look up. ?

(laughing)

Ah!

I am so glad
Vince left you his guitar.

-Ah!
-I appreciate you. -So good.

-(laughter)
-I'm done. Thanks.

-Ooh, zero spots.
-(yawns)

-Ren�e's got the magic.
-(Ren�e laughs)

Oh, go to bed. We can finish.

SHARON:
It's not like I'm gonna sleep in there.

I haven't slept alone
in this house in 33 years.

Well, what if Bode came
and stayed for a while?

You know, keep you company.

Mm, I don't want
to put it on him.

He has his own grief
to deal with.

MANNY:
I'll do it.

-(chuckles): No.
-Seriously.

We can't have the D.C.
running on empty, right?

I got your back.

Come on.

You're a good friend.

Oh, thanks. (chuckles)

He's family.

I'm actually only doing it
for the comfy Leone couch.

(laughter)

-Thank you. Thank you.
-Of course.

? ?

EVE (quietly):
"Vince, call me back

"or I will blow up your life.

"I have Sharon's number,
and I will use it.

From, R."

(Manny and Ren�e chatting
and laughing quietly)

What the hell?

MANNY (chuckles):
Okay.

EVE (quietly):
Ren�e?

(laughing)

? ?

? ?

Crawford, question.

Got any pets?

Uh, no.

No, sir.

I do. Cats.

Two Bengals and a tabby.

I didn't go looking
for that last one.

Uh-uh. She found me.

Three of them help keep

the damn squirrels
out of my garden.

Point is... I like them.

I mean, I like the cats.
I love the garden.

I love it.

And I'd much rather be
with them.

But when I got here,
things didn't look good.

Thought it was gonna be
a long haul,

but now I'm thinking
that might not be true.

Okay.

I mean, I don't like
to hand out "attaboys,"

but 42 is working hard.

I see it, and I see
you've been pushing them.

So now I'm thinking
maybe I can get home

sooner rather than later.

Because maybe there's someone
here who can take over as chief.

Maybe that person is standing
in front of me right now.

Uh...

Sir, I would be honored.

But leaders have to make
hard calls,

and whoever ends up
in charge here

is gonna have to make
a real hard one.

42 has a problem: Bode Leone.

Now, yesterday, you handled him.

That's not gonna be every day.

And I know
he came out of con camp,

and I'm the first person
to believe

in the power
of turning things around.

I love a good redemption story.

But Leone is not one.

Way things are going,
there's a damn good chance

the next battalion chief will
need to cut bait and let him go.

What the hell is this?

-Audrey, are these yours?
-No.

(sighs) I was keeping an eye
on Bode, like we said.

But after he lost it on that
patient, I just had a feeling

that something was wrong,
so I dug through his stuff...

Stop, stop, stop.

Are you saying
that these pills are Bode's?

(sighs)
The ones he said he flushed.

You were right.
Addicts lie for breakfast.

And he lied to me.

And, God, he's gonna hate me
for telling you this,

but he needs help.

That's you and me, Manny.

We got to help him.

? ?

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