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(indistinct arguing)

(dramatic music)

- [Christian] What am I gonna do?

- [Lainey] Huh, what are you gonna do, huh?

- [Christian] What am I gonna do?

- [Lainey] What are you gonna do?

- [Christian] You don't wanna know what I'm gonna do.

- [Lainey] Oh, I don't wanna know?

- [Christian] Fuck you.

- [Lainey] Oh, fuck me?

- [Christian] Fuck you.

- [Lainey] Fuck you.

(dramatic music)

- Nice to see you again?

- I got a phone call from a client,

it took two minutes,

she lost her mind.

- Yeah, but the rule was

that you don't do anything work related while you're home,

so...

And that's why you got that apartment in downtown,

across from the office, right?

- I don't know, Ab,

pretty sad when your local barista knows

how to handle your life better than you do.

- Oh, it's a gift that seems to barista work

in other people's lives.

- At least somebody understands me.

- Well, the misunderstood must stick together.

- I'm telling you, Grace, it was the best thing

I could have done, completely saved my marriage.

- Having an affairs saved your marriage?

- I know it sounds crazy,

but in a weird way it made me appreciate my husband more.

- What, you don't think other people

can benefit from your knowledge?

- I think if we wanted everyone to hear our conversation-

- Then we would have started with the words now hear this.

- Okay, so it's possible to be enlightened and cynical.

- Everybody wants something for nothing nowadays.

- Are yo suggesting I pay you?

Ab, whatever they're having,

one more time on me.

- Whatever keeps you out of trouble, Christian.

- How long?

- Seven years.

So having an affair actually helped you?

- Married 18 years in January,

couldn't be happier.

- Did your husband find out?

- I told him once I realized what I wanted.

We got through it,

and we're better for it.

Contrast my friend,

that's what helps you realize who you are.

- Contrast.

- If you show 'em what you don't want,

helps you focus on what you do want.

- So the grass isn't always greener.

- Yes, but sometimes we need to go

play on the neighbor's lawn to find that out.

(women laughing)

- I think I need something stronger.

♪ Oh I need a drink

♪ Oh I need a drink

♪ Oh I need a

♪ Oh I need a

♪ I'm sorry mama

♪ Water just won't cut it tonight ♪

♪ Make the whiskey

- [Bartender] What'll you have?

- Well it's daytime so, something dry and white.

- Leave it to me, I'll hook you up.

♪ ---

♪ --

♪ So ---

♪ We gonna break 'em off something ♪

♪ Oh I need a drink

- Close my tab, please.

- Shot down again, huh?

- Everybody's a comedian tonight, huh?

- [Christian] What's his problem?

- What's every man's problem?

Ego.

- Hey, this is really good,

what is this?

- Cakebread, 2011.

- So, what does ego have to do with it?

(upbeat music)

- She has shot down anyone

and everyone who's come near her.

It's just hard for a man to believe

a woman might actually wanna be alone with her drink.

- Maybe they just didn't say what she wanted to hear.

- Oh God,

just when I thought you might be the only man in here

who placed a value on his self respect.

- What kind of value are we talking about?

- 100 bucks says you get shot down

inside of two minutes.

- Two minutes?

Seems like the guys here got shot down

in 17 seconds,

what makes you think I'm gonna be any better?

- You've got a certain charm about you,

which might get you a response,

but there is no way you sit down.

- Two minutes?

You're on.

(bartender laughing)

- This ought to be good.

- Look, I know you wanna be alone,

and I respect that,

in fact I'm not the least bit attracted to you,

I am only here for financial reasons.

- [Simone] What's the bet?

- 100 bucks.

- [Simone] How long?

- Two minutes.

- [Simone] I want 75.

- Actually I was thinking more like 35.

- I'm the reason there is a bet.

- Yeah, but I'm the one who took it.

And I'll tell you that is one long walk.

- $50.

- Deal.

(upbeat music)

♪ I saw old man gloom on the side of the road ♪

♪ Stopped to say

- Aren't you gonna ask to buy me a drink?

- Get over yourself lady,

I'm already giving you 50 bucks.

- Time.

- One minute 40 second.

- Should we even try to make this look good?

- You mean like actually talk?

- I know, how ridiculous was that, right?

- Okay, what's a nice girl like you

doing at a place like this?

- I'm not that nice.

- I can see that.

(gentle music)

Actually it was a line from an old movie.

- So was mine.

- Ah, a sense of humor.

Who would have thought.

- Time's up.

- Okay, so here's how this is gonna work.

I'm gonna go back and get the money,

and before I go outside

I'm gonna motion for you to follow me.

- Okay, going outside was never a part of the deal.

- It is if you want your money.

- How did you do that?

- It's all in the approach.

- I have a feeling I took that hustle.

- It's a gift.

I'm blessed.

I'm a blessed man.

(upbeat music)

- Okay, okay, hold up,

this is as far as we go, pay up.

- This is all we got,

you got change?

- No.

- Then we're gonna have to go a little further then, right?

- Where to?

- Across the street,

I know they got change.

(upbeat music)

First time in that place?

- Yeah, how'd you know?

- It doesn't seem like your kind of place.

- What's my kind of place?

- One where you can be a little conspicuous.

- Maybe I like attention.

- Maybe you need a boyfriend.

- Maybe you're right.

Somehow I don't think my husband would like that too much.

- It's good doing business with you.

- So look, am I supposed to

not go back in there now or what?

- You don't wanna go home?

- Not really.

- I know that feeling.

- Maybe you need a girlfriend.

- Maybe you're right,

but my wife wouldn't like that too much either.

(gentle music)

See you in heaven, beautiful.

(upbeat music)

(Christian speaking in foreign language)

- [Therapist] So what were you thinking at this point?

- [Simone] I was thinking about-

- [Therapist] The man you met.

- [Simone] Yes.

- Why?

- He was funny, witty,

made me forget for a second.

- [therapist] Your husband,

any thoughts about him?

Maybe he felt the same for you.

(gentle music)

- Maybe he did.

- Did you make any attempt to work things out?

- Yes, my marriage meant everything to me.

- And yet you saw him again.

- Yes.

It wasn't my idea.

- The answer is I don't know.

I don't know if we made a mistake.

Part of me wants to think we didn't,

but who knows?

I just don't think you get me.

(upbeat music)

- Excuse me, hi,

I'm kind of lost here,

I needed some directions.

I needed some directions into your heart.

You are such a beautiful, beautiful lady.

- Thank you.

- Really, I would love just a few moments of your time.

What are you, you doing anything?

We could go have some coffee,

I would love to meet you.

- I can't.

Thank you, I appreciate it.

- I tell you what, we could...

You just gonna walk away like that?

You just gonna walk away from a brother like that?

You was a 10, now you a five.

- So I take it I'm not your only admirer.

- Did you think that you were?

- Yeah, I was hoping to make history.

- Well you are the first one to stalk me,

so I guess congratulations are in order.

How'd you find me?

- The receipt from last night said

your name was Simone Waite,

and your Facebook said that you worked here,

so I took a chance.

- Hmm.

- What does hmm mean?

- I didn't know I was dead.

- what?

- The last time I saw you,

you said "See you in heaven,"

I took that to mean next lifetime,

as in not in this one.

- Do you ever get the feeling

that you're living there wrong life?

Like the reality that you live in

can't possibly be the life you were meant to lead.

- Actually I do.

- [Therapist] So you were inside his apartment,

and you were attracted to him.

- It was dangerous

and a bit reckless,

and I shouldn't have been there,

but that's exactly why I was.

- [Therapist] And did you think things were moving

a little too quickly.

- Yes.

I don't think I was thinking clearly.

(upbeat music)

- Why not?

♪ Such a beautiful day

♪ When I saw them lips

- [Simone] I wanted him.

♪ I just knew I had to have you right away ♪

♪ So we can do it in the kitchen ♪

♪ Do it on the couch

- But I knew I wasn't ready.

♪ I wanna lay you down girl where you sleep with your spouse ♪

♪ I just need to make that body sing ♪

- To the nearest hardware store, please.

I need to get something.

(upbeat music)

- I can't do this.

(gentle music)

- You have to go home sometime.

Are you still trying to sell that this is

an argument about you working?

- Was it that obvious?

- Yeah, it's pretty bad.

- Have you ever been with anybody who cheated on you?

- Yeah, it doesn't feel good.

- Well that feeling is the contrast for most people.

It's life pointing out what you don't want

so you can better define what you do what.

- Oh, when you put it like that

it sounds like he did me a favor.

- Maybe he did.

- What, what is this about?

Are you having an affair?

- Abby, what if that feeling is my life with my wife,

and what I'm feeling now,

this non pressure, no commitment,

hope to hell I see her again feeling,

what if this is what I really want?

- That feeling usually fades,

but just in case it doesn't,

you should really tell her

before you do something stupid.

(upbeat music)

♪ When I saw them lips

♪ And beautiful legs

♪ I just knew

♪ I had to have you right away

♪ So we can do it in the kitchen ♪

♪ Do it on the couch

♪ I'm gonna lay you down girl

♪ Where you sleep with your spouse ♪

♪ I just need

♪ To make that body sing

- Still do that thing

where you rub your eyes constantly?

- I haven't done that since I was 11 years old.

- About the time you started calling me

by my first name.

Should have nipped that in the bud back then.

I didn't know that little blemish

would lead you to pick the wrong women.

- Jesus, you still can't even say her name.

- Why should I?

The marriage wont last.

- It's been seven years.

- It's my own fault.

I never taught you how to find a woman.

- I married the right woman, mom.

- How does that sentence even come out of your mouth?

- I can be trusted to make sound decision.

- No, actually you can't.

You're like your father in that way,

you can't really see the forest through the trees.

That's not your fault, dear.

- Well we don't always make the right decision

for the long run, Vivian,

but you make the right decision at the time,

and you get that much closer to what you want.

- If you make the right decision in the beginning,

you don't have to get any closer.

- The right choice at one point

doesn't always make sense later on in life.

- Oh, so you admit that you aren't happy.

- Not exactly,

but that has more to do with me than with my wife.

- Oh, so now I'm the one to blame,

overbearing mother makes for overbearing wife.

- That logic just isn't quite sitting right with you, is it?

- In my day,

self discovery happened

before you got married.

- That's my point exactly, Vivian.

We all evolve to understand that self discovery

never stops happening.

- I feel like,

you know what I feel like?

I feel like I've fallen out of love.

- [Dana] Where is this coming from?

- I know I'm not the only one that feels this way, right?

Dana,

I mean you and Charlie are,

are things still the same?

- There are times I feel like (indistinct),

but he's a good guy,

I'm just bored.

- What about you, Simone?

I mean I know we just met you and all,

but we over here telling all of our business,

so what's the scoop?

- Sheila.

- What?

I'm saying, we're talking about all of our problems,

she should...

- I mean my marriage is pretty good, no complaints.

- Well we should all be so lucky.

You know, lately every time he even tries to touch me,

I feel like I want to vomit.

We haven't even had sex in the last eight months.

- He's gotta know there's a problem.

- Or maybe he doesn't.

Maybe he thinks because you had a baby

you're just not in the mood anymore.

- My son is three years old.

- Well the point I'm making is maybe he doesn't know.

Maybe he doesn't open up about things like that,

or maybe his resentment towards you

keeps him distant from you.

or maybe he can't support certain decisions you made

so you could become a whole person.

Or maybe you're just not the same person he married.

(gentle music)

- Would you ever cheat on him?

- No, nuh-uh, no.

I just need that thing.

I want that thing.

I need...

You know what I'm talking about,

that thing.

That thing that men do,

that thing that men do when they know

that they want you,

and you know it because you can feel it.

You can feel it.

- God.

I want that too,

but I wasn't talking to you, Shelia.

- Maybe I want that thing too.

Excuse me.

(gentle music)

- Why she want that thing?

Come on, I want that thing.

She wants that thing.

You want that thing.

I'm telling you,

if we ask everybody up in here,

everybody's gonna want that thing.

See.

(gentle music)

- Hi, it's Simone.

Listen, I don't even know why I'm calling you,

and-

- [Christian] It's okay.

Do you wanna come over?

- Yes.

(upbeat music)

- Hey, come in.

- Hi.

- Hi.

Hey, I have something for you.

- Thank you.

- Ouch.

Are you a Lakers fan?

- No.

- [Christian] Just hate Kobe?

(Simone laughing)

- No, I'm more of a football person.

- I get it,

large men, tight pants.

- [Simone] Exactly, tight ends.

- Wide receivers.

- Especially when they're wide open.

Gotta love that.

- Talk about a new perspective on the game.

Oh, oh my God.

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

So sorry.

- I'm sorry.

- No, no, don't worry, don't worry.

Don't worry, don't worry, don't worry.

It's okay, just stay right there.

Oh yeah, you okay?

- Yeah, I'm fine.

- Didn't burn you?

(gentle music)

- No.

- [Christian] Are you sure you're okay?

- No, I'm all right.

That's it, I gotta go, I gotta go.

- Don't go.

Don't go.

Don't go.

(train whistle blowing)

♪ Will the dust settle

♪ And I could tell she was through ♪

♪ I should have known

♪ Should have known

♪ Should have known

♪ That her love wasn't true

♪ I said some things I never should have said ♪

♪ Lord knows

♪ But I never heard that tone

♪ And I'm just a stranger in her home ♪

(Christian laughing)

- No.

♪ When the dust settles

♪ And I can tell she moves through it ♪

♪ I should have known

♪ Should have known

♪ That her love wasn't true

♪ I said some things I should have never said ♪

♪ Lord knows

♪ But I never heard that tone

♪ And I'm just

(gentle music)

- You okay?

- Yeah, I'm okay, you okay?

- It just seems like the past few days

you've had some things on your mind.

- I'm just tired I guess.

- Simone.

Can you hit that light switch for me

on your way up?

- We need to talk.

♪ Creation

♪ Of playlist

♪ Creation

♪ Of playlist

- Christian.

- Maria.

- Can I get you a table?

- You work here?

- Yeah, I thought you knew that.

- No, I'm just here to meet my wife.

- That's right, you married what's her name.

- Yes.

It's good of you to remember.

- Well follow me.

Your server will be right with you.

Good to see you.

And tell whatever her name is hello for me.

- Will do.

- C. Elder?

- Yeah, that's me.

Where did you get this?

- From the woman who just stepped outside.

(upbeat music)

(dramatic music)

(upbeat music)

- Do you have any real food?

I'm starving.

Apparently not.

You can take that smug look off your face,

it wasn't that good.

- We could order in.

- Cool, Indian, my treat.

- Your money's no good here.

- That's a bit chauvinistic.

- Not really.

- You already paid for it.

- If that's the case,

you'd be buying me dinner for a year.

- Get that smug look off of your face,

it wasn't that good.

- You're a poet?

- I write poetry, it doesn't make me a poet.

- This is really good.

- She said, trying not to laugh.

- No, seriously, Christian,

this is really good.

When the time is nothing in the vastness

of the mind's eye,

when the day forgets who you are,

I'm the moment that you first uttered my name.

- Words on a page.

- Who'd you write this for?

- My wife.

- Why didn't you give it to her?

- What makes you think I didn't?

- If my husband gave me something like this,

I would make him the happiest man in the whole world.

- So, I guess you don't think it's gay.

- You have a weird sense of yourself Christian.

I dig that about you.

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you don't love her anymore ♪

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you don't talk to God no more ♪

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you ain't really been happy ♪

♪ For a long, long time

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That there ain't nothing you could do ♪

♪ but hang your head and cry

♪ I never thought I would see it get this bad ♪

- [Christian] Read the ingredients.

- Enriched wheat flour,

thiamine mono nitrate.

Reduced iron, folic acid.

Niacin.

Palm oil.

Corn.

Onion.

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you don't talk to God no more ♪

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you ain't really been happy for a long, long time ♪

- Dehydrated vegetables,

carrots, peas, corn, onion.

♪ I never thought I would see again this bad ♪

♪ And I think I've never seen eyes so sad ♪

(gentle music)

- Twice in one week?

What are the odds.

- I left the note on your car Christian,

so I'd say the odds are pretty good.

- Okay, Maria, I'll play.

What are we doing here?

- Closure.

- The C word.

- Yeah, I thought I was over it,

and then you came in the restaurant that day.

Why did you leave me, Christian?

- I think you got that backwards Maria.

- I had to go,

you were never gonna marry me.

- True.

- That still kind of stings.

- Look, I'm sorry.

- Don't apologize Christian,

because you don't mean it.

That's okay, I didn't bring you here for an apology.

- Okay.

- It was fine,

because in my head you just weren't the marrying kind.

- Ah, but then I did get married.

- Less than a year later.

It took me months to get over that.

- You could never hurt me.

- Excuse me?

- There came a point in our relationship

when I realized you could never hurt me.

- And that's a bad thing?

- It wasn't bad, it just is.

If you can't hurt me,

then you can't make me crazy.

And if I'm not crazy-

- Got it.

When did you come to this epiphany?

- You mean the exact moment?

- Down to the millisecond.

- Do you remember that day

that you were going to meet your old boss for lunch?

Do you remember what you said to me?

- No, it was eight years ago, I don't.

- It was a long time ago.

- I think I just asked you how I looked.

- Do you remember what I said?

- You said that I looked beautiful.

I remember everything.

- What I was thinking was

what if she's about to tell you

she's leaving you for him right now,

right this moment,

say what's in your gut about how you feel about that.

Say it now.

Say it out loud so she can hear

exactly how you feel.

And with all that going through me

all I could muster-

- You look beautiful.

- Beautiful.

You look beautiful.

- Thank you, Christian,

I could always count on you to be honest with me.

The thing is,

you never would have had to say anything like that to me

because I never would have left you.

Did you ever wonder what it might have been like

if you could have seen me from that place?

- That's my loss.

- Fuck you.

(dramatic music)

- Hey.

- [Simone] Hi.

- Where are you?

- [Simone] At home.

I wanna do something different.

- I sort of had something planned for us.

- Well so do I.

Let's go to dinner.

- What if somebody sees us?

- And why should we care about that?

- Have you been drinking?

- A little.

So what's it gonna be?

What does that look like?

- Did something happen today?

- Oh, I forgot, you're much bigger

than a little salt shaker.

Napkin size.

Gotta love it.

- [Christian] Simone.

- Christian.

- You guys okay?

Everything okay?

You guys need anything else?

- Just the check please.

- Well, actually, what did you have in mind?

- Well I was thinking maybe some dessert

úif you guys have room for it.

- Oh, a man after my own heart.

How decadent can we get?

- That's enough.

- (laughing) Apparently he doesn't think so

because he's still standing here.

You seem like a standup guy, let me tell you.

- You know what, maybe I should give you guys a minute.

(Simone laughing)

- If you're trying to publicly humiliate the both of us,

it's working.

- Always ready with the witty comeback, huh?

- Am I missing something here?

- I think so,

that's why we got together in the first place, right?

Exactly what you're missing,

I don't know,

because we never talk about your wife at all,

or why you left her,

or how many other women you're banging right now.

- You're drunk.

- Maybe you're seeing both of us.

Hell, maybe you have a whole fucking harem,

kind of like a human taste test.

Who's pussy's sweeter, huh,

theirs or mine?

- All right, that's it, we're out of here.

- No, not so fast.

I wanna conduct a taste test myself.

(dramatic music)

you're nice.

You have nice muscles.

(dramatic music)

- You made your point, let's go.

- The test hasn't even begun yet.

- I think the lady would like to hang out a little while.

- Give me a break, will you?

You can see she's circling the airport here.

- Don't pay any attention to him,

he's just mad because you have a bigger napkin.

(Simone laughing)

- Hey, keep pushing tough guy.

- You really wanna do this here?

- We got a problem here?

(dramatic music)

- Whatever he wants.

- You would have loved it.

I gotta get my purse.

So rough.

- Get in.

What the fuck is your problem?

- Looking at your fucking ugly face is my problem.

- Get in the car, Simone.

- Or what Christian, huh?

What you gonna do, huh?

- I am not leaving you here.

- Yeah, 'cause you're too much of a pussy to.

- Oh for Christ's sake.

Fuck.

Fuck.

- You bitch.

Christian the little bitch.

You're nothing.

Christian the little bitch.

- Is this what you want, huh?

Throwing tantrums like a three year old

so you can get some attention.

- Fuck you, you don't know me.

- I know you, I've met you a thousand times.

You opened your legs to feel love

because you didn't get enough attention from daddy.

You're a fucking joke.

- You don't know me.

- I know what I do know,

I can be your daddy right here.

- Really?

- And he wants to fuck.

- Oh yeah?

Whip it out, I dare you.

I swear to God I'll rip it right out of its fucking socket.

(gentle music)

Put it in me.

(vibrating buzzing)

- Who's the bitch?

- I am.

- You want me to put it in you, don't you?

- Yeah.

(dramatic music)

Fuck me.

No, oh God.

- You don't deserve my dick.

Don't you cum.

- I'm sorry.

- (indistinct) does it?

(Simone whimpering)

Anything gets you wet, doesn't it?

You'll fuck anything.

- I'll fuck anything.

- Don't you cum.

Don't you cum.

You enjoyed humiliating me, didn't you?

Say it.

- I enjoyed it.

- Don't cum.

Choke.

You don't deserve to breathe the same air as me either.

(vibrator buzzing)

Shut up.

- Yes.

Yes.

(gentle music)

- [Therapist] He frightened you, why?

- (indistinct)

there's just something else.

I never (indistinct).

I don't think any person

should have that much power over you.

I just wanted to go so much.

♪ You never believe me

♪ Never believe me

♪ Never believe me

- Your light,

your sweet light,

tiny heart attacks,

covered electric heart,

heart shaped chocolates

and moon light drives inside me,

longing.

So we should be looking in Canada.

That's right.

Let me set you up on the Canadian National Railway.

They're due for a spike in revenue.

That's right, they had a recent merger.

♪ So we can do it in the kitchen ♪

♪ Do it on the couch

♪ Ima lay you down girl

♪ Where you sleep with your

♪ I just need

♪ To make that body sing

- Yes, sir, I'm still here.

I think you're gonna be very happy with the result, sir.

I'll get back to you right away.

To love, to cuddle, to cry,

to scream, to stay,

that thought tickles my spine.

The muse that never goes away.

♪ She said why don't you come back to my house ♪

♪ You can teach me how to sing

♪ Among other things

♪ Already got a woman

♪ But I'd like to have two

♪ 'cause I guess

- [Christian] I crave, I starve, I love.

- You a poet?

This is really good.

- [Christian] I write poetry, it doesn't make me a poet.

- You haven't talked about your wife at all,

and why you left her.

I'm married and I love my husband.

I'm married and I love my husband.

I'm married and I love my husband.

I'm married and I love my husband.

- [Christian] You're a fucking joke.

- You don't know me.

Put it in me.

- Having loved the only soul I can,

the very only soul I can.

I relive the pain and your stay for him.

(dramatic music)

Simone.

- I don't wanna talk to you, Christian.

- You want me to tell you it was my fault?

Okay, then it was my fault.

- You don't mean that,

you don't even know what you're apologizing for.

- You're right, I don't mean that.

- What is there to talk about?

- What exactly are you upset about?

- You're an asshole, that's enough for me.

- Simone, Jesus Christ, stop.

Okay, so I'm an asshole, so what?

- So what?

You and I are not good for each other,

we push each other too far,

we take it too far.

- Passion.

- We're a time bomb Christian,

and I don't wanna be there when it explodes.

- And the alternative, that's better?

What you had in your life without me,

that's better than what we have?

- Better's relative, it's safer.

- That's not who we are.

Safe is not who we are.

Safe gets old.

We both have safe at home.

Safe is exactly why we got together in the first place.

- Well how far do we take this, Chris, huh?

Where does it end?

- That's like asking me when time ends,

- This is not one of your fucking poems.

- No, this is real life,

and I am asking you to do something

I never asked anyone before,

not even my wife.

I'm asking you to trust me.

- Trust you?

We're liars, cheating,

and betraying our spouses right now at this moment,

how can we trust each other?

- With what we both feel,

how could we not?

- You don't even know me,

how can you trust me, huh?

Maybe I'm lying to you about a lot of things right now.

- Are you lying to me about how you feel about me?

- Jesus Christ, this was supposed to be easier.

- Says who?

- In my mind this was easier.

- Look, we have an exciting thing you and I,

so, what's a little criminal assault between friends?

- Humiliation and degradation.

- Yeah, you gotta do it right.

Beating the shit out of someone

and having them like it,

that's an encore.

- Asshole.

- Maybe.

But I care about you, I really do.

- What are we doing, Chris?

- Learning the rules.

- More like breaking them.

- That too.

Tea?

- Sure.

I'm not sure I can accept us.

I mean in what way is what we're doing okay?

- That's a good or bad question.

I told you, I don't do good or bad.

Everything just is.

You do what makes you happy.

- And fuck everybody else?

- Absolutely.

- If that's the case,

then what about your wife?

Have you told her about us?

I mean you are still married, right?

- She won't return my calls.

Won't answer the door.

- Then knock harder.

- I don't think that's completely fair.

I mean how hard are you trying in your marriage?

- You want me to trust you,

but you don't wanna take this any further,

is that it?

- Look, the truth is I don't know.

I'm not sure if I'm completely ready to jump

from one relationship to another right now, are you?

- Then what the...

Then what was all that this afternoon?

- I wanna keep seeing you.

- Great.

I don't know if I wanna keep being your side chick.

- An hour ago you didn't want to be in my life at all,

and now you want to be everything to me?

Why is it so all or nothing with you?

Jesus, say it.

- [Simone] Say what?

- You look at me sometimes

like you've got something to say,

so just spit it out.

- I don't know, maybe I'm realizing it's too much.

I mean who wants their relationship

under a microscope, right?

- Okay.

One moment at time.

- One moment at a time so we can savor the good stuff?

- We were having an affair for Christ's sake.

It was supposed to only be about the good stuff.

Like this.

(Simone laughing)

(dramatic music)

(phone ringing)

- Hello.

- [Simone] Christian.

(Simone moaning)

Christian.

Christian, oh.

Christian.

Oh, Christian.

(dramatic music)

- Actually I was thinking about your husband.

- That's funny,

I don't think he's thinking about you.

- Well, maybe he would if he knew I existed.

- That guilt talking?

- Don't you feel guilty?

- I'm just not real good

with us telling each other our sad stories.

- Right, the two us got together to avoid all that.

- You came after me this afternoon,

I didn't come after you.

What happened to us saving all the good stuff.

- Why me, Simone?

- Why not you?

- Come on,

that's not an answer.

- You made me laugh.

- Really?

It didn't take much, huh?

- You know what, fuck you.

- Come on, Simone,

was that really it?

You took vows,

and I made you laugh?

- You took vows too Christian,

and you're still here.

- Jesus Christ,

I don't wanna play this game with you.

- I don't wanna play games either.

You know, you need all this trust from me,

and then you practically call me a whore

when it was both of us.

We're both in this together.

It's very difficult to trust you, Christian,

when you're constantly pulling me in

and pushing me away at the same time.

(dramatic music)

- Hey.

Well now, I see you do have a phone.

- Oh, sheila, hey.

- Don't hey me, bitch.

Why don't you call me back?

- I'm sorry, I've just been busy.

- (indistinct)

so girl you are not gonna believe what happened.

Mike and I had it out.

I mean I'm telling you

I laid into about everything I was feeling.

I was trying to tell him,

and he was trying to cut-

- Shelia, I have to go.

- And he was trying to tell me what was...

Okay now, that was,

that was just rude.

(phone ringing)

- Hello.

- [Simone] He knows.

He knows about it.

- Who does?

- [Simone] My husband.

- What are you talking about?

- [Simone] He knows.

Did you hear, he knows.

- Where are you?

Simone.

- [Simone] I'm at the train station.

- I'll be right there.

(gentle music)

(indistinct)

- You don't know my husband.

He's the type (indistinct).

- Are you saying he's dangerous?

- Fuck, yes, I'm saying he's dangerous.

- Well then do it over the phone

untold he calms down,

but you've gotta tell him the truth.

Simone, this is no longer about just you and I.

If he really knows about us,

then you owe it to him to face it.

Own up to what we've done here.

- Are you owning up to your wife,

or is it just me?

- Where are you going?

- Home.

You're right,

I have to face him.

It's gonna be whatever it's gonna be.

(dramatic music)

- Maybe he went out.

- (indistinct) he knows.

- What makes you so sure?

- 'Cause I'm positive.

It's not like him to run from a confrontation.

This is really weird, it's freaking me out.

(gentle music)

(indistinct) Christian,

Are you at home?

- Yes.

- Get out.

Get out.

He's coming there, get out.

- Calm down Simone.

- [Simone] Did you hear me?

- Yeah, I heard you.

Frankly, you're scaring the shit out of me.

- You just don't get it, do you?

(knocking on door)

He will kill you, Christian, he will kill you.

Do you hear me now?

(knocking on door)

(dramatic music)

- Someone's at the door.

- Don't answer it.

My God.

His gun is missing.

Christian, get out of there now.

- I'm gonna open it.

- Are you crazy?

(dramatic music)

- Man, I have left you almost five notes already,

could you please stop parking in our space?

'Cause every time you do My wife has to walk

an extra 30 yards to the elevator.

Now that might not seem like much,

but she's pregnant,

and it can make your life pretty miserable.

If her life is miserable,

then my life is miserable.

If my life is miserable again,

I'm gonna have to do a little bit more

than just leave a little note.

You understand what I'm saying?

- I think I got it this time, yeah.

- Don't just talk at me.

- I wouldn't do that, I'm not that guy.

- Okay, I'm leaving now.

- Foot massage.

- What?

- I'm not offering to give you one,

I'm just trying to tell you.

It's what keeps me calm when I get stressed.

- Oh, yeah?

Stay out of my fucking space, okay?

That'll calm me down.

- Okay.

Congratulations on the baby, by the way.

Hey.

It wasn't him.

I don't think he's coming here.

- Then where is he?

He's just gonna leave?

No yelling, no telling me how much I betrayed him?

That I could deal with,

at least I know what he's thinking,

what he's feeling.

But this, what am I supposed to do with this?

What about my daughter?

- I think you just might be getting ahead of yourself.

Maybe he just went around the block to clear his head.

There's no way he's just in the wind, right?

- [Simone] He's done it before.

- Done what?

- Just disappeared.

Look, Christian, this is not your problem,

I will deal with this.

- I was just gonna say that I wanna see you again.

- Really?

And where's your wife in all this?

Are you ever going home?

Until when?

How long do you wanna see me?

Until you get tired of fucking me,

and then you drop back home?

- Whoa.

A whole lot of emotion there,

are you okay?

'Cause it felt like I lost you for a minute.

(gentle music)

(dramatic music)

- What have I done?

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you don't love her anymore ♪

♪ And where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you don't talk to God no more ♪

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you ain't really been happy ♪

♪ For a long, long, long time

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That there ain't nothing

(banging on door)

♪ You can do but hang your head and cry ♪

- I still live here.

Open up.

Look, you won't answer the phone, I need to talk to you.

I still live here.

Really?

Look, I just came to tell you

that I'm not gonna follow you anymore.

I'm gonna live my life,

and yes, we made a mistake.

We made a big mistake.

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ That you ain't really been happy for a long, long time ♪

♪ Where were you when you realized ♪

♪ There ain't nothing you could do ♪

♪ But hang your head and cry

♪ And I never thought I would see it get this bad ♪

♪ And I think I've never seen eyes so sad ♪

(gentle music)

- How long have you been here?

- Long enough to realize

you haven't been here alone this whole time.

This place reeks of a women's scent.

Seven years of marriage,

and all of a sudden you've got nothing to say?

- Why are you here, Lainey?

- I thought we were worth saving.

- Well at one point so did I.

- Are you saying you don't anymore?

- I'm saying that

I think neither one of us

has been truly present in this marriage.

- You left our home, I didn't.

How did you think that would make me feel?

- We both left a long time ago.

- Who is she?

How many times am I gonna have to ask you?

- A woman that I met in a bar.

- Well that's pretty pathetic.

It didn't take you long.

- It started out as an experiment.

Believe it or not,

it was meant to help us.

- Well someday you're gonna have to explain that one to me.

- it was stupid, I know.

- So you're still with her?

- As much as we can be together, yes.

- Oh my God, she's married too.

(gentle music)

So where does that leave us?

- Lainey, I think it's time that we both moved on.

- You're leaving me

(Lainey laughing)

for a woman you met in a bar three weeks ago?

(Lainey laughing)

What happened, Christian, did she hurt you?

You thought of her and her husband fucking,

and that made you feel pain didn't it?

Are you leaving me because she made you feel something?

I've been meaning to tell you,

that is a sick barometer

of love you've got there.

When were you going to tell me?

- I was gonna come out to the house tomorrow.

- I'm glad I could save you the trip.

- I never meant to do you any harm,

I want you to know that.

We have both shared a lot together,

and I don't want that to be forgotten,

especially in a moment like this.

- It must be really over between us,

because that almost sounded like you really care.

- I really do care.

And it is over.

- I just wanna say

I feel real sorry for you, Christian,

you're just a mess.

You're a complete sad and utter mess.

Hopefully she is as fucked up as you are,

and the two of you can play mind games

until you drive each other insane

or kill each other.

Vivian did a real number on you.

- [Therapist] Did the needle make you feel better?

- [Simone] It did what it's supposed to do.

- And what was that?

- Make me feel whole.

(dramatic music)

- Mason?

(Mason laughing)

- You must piss off a lot of brothers

for you not to be sure who I am.

- What are we doing here, man?

- You play?

- Is that weapon really necessary?

- Let me ask you something,

you think all this time

you were gonna hide this thing from me?

- Thing?

- Keep playing here.

- Just take it easy, all right?

I'm just trying to stay alive.

- The truth will set you free.

- She said that you found out about us.

- And before I found out,

I bet you two had a good laugh about it.

- Nobody's laughing at you, man.

All she said about you

was that she was worried about you disappearing like that.

- Afraid of what I might do.

- That you left your daughter like that.

- That's not my daughter.

It's not hers either.

Simone can't have children.

- Whose is she then?

- You think you know her, don't you?

- Not like you, perhaps,

but maybe a little bit, yeah.

- You don't know a goddamn thing.

You may not be laughing at me,

but I'm sure as hell laughing at you.

- What's the joke?

- You are.

You're the set up,

and the punchline too.

Now get on your knees.

- What for?

- Answer me one more question,

and I'll give you what for.

Now close your eyes.

- [Christian] What are we doing here, man?

You gonna shoot me, is that it?

I don't deserve to go out like this,

but if you're gonna shoot me,

then just fucking do it.

- I bet you hoped this moment would never come.

Just so you know,

you didn't take her from me,

she's not the person that I married,

and I just couldn't deal with that.

Now this happened a long time

before you even came in the picture.

If you still want her after today,

you can have her.

If not you,

it's gonna be somebody else anyway.

(dramatic music)

- Mason is that you?

- Mason is not coming.

- Christian, what are you doing here?

- Why?

- Why what?

- Why?

Why, goddamn it, answer me.

- What do you want me to say?

- The truth for once.

- You don't want the truth,

you want anything but the truth.

- You're talking,

but you ain't saying shit.

- I couldn't take it anymore, Christian,

hating myself,

hating who I was,

pretending to be somebody I wasn't.

It took forever to finally do it,

but I finally did.

Now I know who I am,

I'm whole for the first time.

That may not mean much to you,

but it means everything to me.

- Don't you dare turn this around on me.

You lied about everything.

You lied about it all.

- I didn't lie to you,

I just didn't tell you.

Do you know what that was like,

wondering, wondering if you could tell,

if you could see it on my body?

You've become everything to me, Christian,

how could I tell you then?

- Well rested assured that your little experiment worked,

I had no fucking idea.

You just destroyed my whole life.

(indistinct) I really wanna know

'cause this has been long overdue.

You lied to me.

- Look at me, Christian, look at me.

Look at my face.

Look at my hips.

Look at my waist.

Look at my body.

Look at me.

Look at me.

Look how little my hands are,

how little my feet are.

Listen to my voice Christian,

and tell me this voice doesn't belong in this body.

Look at all of me.

Look at me.

Look me in the eye,

and you tell me after you made love to me (indistinct).

Tell me I don't belong in this body.

I didn't lie.

I gave you me.

The real me.

The only lie was living in my other body.

- Is that how you sleep at night?

Convince yourself that you're the only one who matters here?

You lied because you didn't tell me what you were.

You can slice it up any way you want,

but you're just a cold, heartless bitch,

just like all the rest.

- No Christian.

(Simone screaming)

- [Therapist] Why didn't you just tell him the truth

from the beginning?

- I was afraid I wouldn't accept it.

- Well they say what you resist persists.

- You think I'm a bad person?

- What would it be like to be accepted

for who you are now,

as well as who you once were?

- That's the holy grail.

- And are you worth it?

- I think of being alone because of it,

and it scares me.

- That's not what I asked you.

- I think of me

and my first thought is yes.

And I think of other people,

and I think no.

- First thoughts are always the truth.

Be that before you can think it away.

Mason?

- I miss him every day.

Christian was right,

he won't be coming back.

- And what about Christian?

Did you ever see him again?

(Simone laughing)

♪ Isn't life just disappointing ♪

♪ Sit alone in an empty room

♪ The thought of you becomes my nightmare ♪

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ Am I ever gonna see you again ♪

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ I've never felt so lost and hopeless ♪

♪ I never was too good with words ♪

♪ A melody can be so haunting

♪ So beautiful my heart may burst ♪

♪ I wish I never knew what love was ♪

♪ Is this a blessing or my curse ♪

♪ Reenter into God's good kingdom ♪

♪ I haven't found my home since birth ♪

♪ Keep to myself

♪ I never say much

♪ Nobody left to sing this to

♪ Can't seem to find my way to your heart ♪

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ Will I ever

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ God I hope I see you soon

♪ Am I ever gonna see you again ♪

♪ God I hope I see you soon