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To be honest,
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I'm a little shocked we're here right now.
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You know, the morning after.
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I mean, you never stay the night.
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My roommate, Jessica,
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says I should stop hooking up with you.
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She says you can't trust a man who won't spend the night.
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She's thinks she's so smart.
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But you finally did.
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And I don't know, I think this could be
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the start of something good for the both of us.
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What the fuck does Jessica know anyway?
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But between you and me, I think she's just jealous.
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She thinks you're using me,
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draining our emotional bank account.
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I think she just needs to get fucked.
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Like, I can't remember the
last time she had someone over,
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and I think it's starting to get to her head.
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Like a couple of days ago,
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she tried to tell me numerology isn't real.
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Can you believe that?
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Like, take us, for example.
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You can tell I'm a five because
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of my adventurous spirit and boundless energy.
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And you're clearly a one,
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emotionally distant and you
take life a bit too seriously.
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But maybe if you opened up a little bit,
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we'd balance each other out.
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We'd inspire each other to
higher planes of consciousness.
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Imagine how that'll help your writing.
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I don't mean to pry, but it's the only thing
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you do talk about when we're not hooking up.
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Don't get me wrong, I love when you come over,
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but I need more.
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Sometimes I feel like you're not even here with me.
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I never know what's going on with you.
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Getting anything meaningful out of you is a chore.
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Just give me something, Carter.
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So, how is your writing going?
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I'm sorry, Taylor. But this isn't working.
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What do you mean?
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I mean, we've been hooking up for, what, a month?
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In that month, we've had some good times, some great sex.
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Yeah, we have.
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I like you. And I like spending time with you.
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I even slept over last night
and you know I don't do that.
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I like you, too.
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Because I thought this
would yield some inspiration.
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Inspiration?
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Yet I'm left inspired.
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I'm not feeling anything. You know what I mean?
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And how can I possibly hope
to write anything worthwhile
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if my heart is left unignited
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and my soul just grounded, unable to soar?
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What the fuck does that even mean?
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What the fuck is this? Like, say something.
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You're a writer. Use your fucking words.
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What else do you want me to say, Taylor?
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Jessica was right about you. You're just using me.
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Shit, she'll never let me hear
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the end of this, that smug bitch.
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Who's Jessica?
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Wow. This is your problem, Carter.
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It's no secret.
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How do you expect to be inspired
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when you don't give anything?
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You haven't even made a single deposit into our EBA.
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EBA?
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Yes, our emotional bank account.
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But I'm sure you don't remember that either.
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It's our account of trust,
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and do you know a few easy ways to make a deposit?
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How?
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By listening, by sharing something.
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But you just take and take
and take and give me nothing.
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I want to be there for you.
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I want this to work, but I need you to be in it with me.
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I'm here, aren't I? I'm giving you my time.
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What could be more valuable than that?
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I could be writing,
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or better yet, finding inspiration elsewhere.
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Fuck you, Carter.
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So I guess this isn't working for either of us then?
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Fuck you.
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Fuck.
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♪ Strange as it seems, been
having this dream, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ I grab my keys and cruise down the street, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ I try to fly but I fall down mmm ♪
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♪ Somebody come wake me up now ♪
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♪ Feels like déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ I'm living the worst day over and over again (again) ♪
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♪ Rescue me, 'cause I feel like a fool ♪
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♪ Stuck in déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ I'm living the worst day over and over again ♪
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♪ Wake me up to another dream come true ♪
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♪ Stuck in déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ I've been getting thirsty
for that one special friend ♪
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♪ Wake me up to another dream come true ♪
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Got the Netflix series callback.
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I go in next week.
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Hell yeah! Congrats, brah.
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Yo, this could be it like the big one.
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This for one of the leads, like.
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Let's go!
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Let's go! You gonna kill it, brah.
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Man, thanks, man.
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You've been working way too hard not to, man.
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I appreciate it, like for real. What happened to you?
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Taylor spilled my coffee on me.
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By accident?
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No, I ended it between us.
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Oh my God. You just can't help yourself, can you?
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What?
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Can't help but get into some dramatic ass shit.
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Oh, I'm dramatic?
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Yeah.
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So we're gonna pretend
whenever you and Tonya break up,
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you don't Drake and drive?
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Look, first of all,
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"Take Care" is a fucking classic
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and there's absolutely nothing wrong
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with getting in touch with your feelings.
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You guys probably broke up this morning.
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Last night, actually.
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And yes, I did take a drive to go clear my head.
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Boy, "Marvin's Room" really hit sometimes.
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I rest my case.
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Hold up. I have my moments, but you?
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You, Mr. Drama, Professor Extra, out here,
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searching for somebody to ignite
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your soul or whatever the hell.
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Whatever, brah.
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That's why you my nigga though.
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You trying to get drinks later?
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I don't know. I gotta get some work done.
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I lost the Slamhouse contest.
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For real?
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Damn.
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You good, man.
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Like for real. You gonna get your shot.
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Yeah.
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Anybody else home?
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Who knows?
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Hey, mom.
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Hey, sweetie. I'm here with your father.
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Hey, bud.
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So what's up?
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Well, I got your text this morning about rent.
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Yeah. I think I might be a bit short this month.
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We talked about this.
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I know, but I had to take a few days
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off to finish the script for the Slamhouse contest.
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I figured if I won, I'd be set for this month.
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Did you hear back yet?
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I didn't get it.
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We believe in you, sweetie. We really do.
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But it's getting too expensive
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for us to support you from across the country.
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Maybe if you came back home, you can work here-
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I need to be here.
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I need to be in the thick of things.
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It's not the same back home.
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We understand, son, but it's been five years.
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We're not saying give up,
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but maybe you should look
for other job opportunities
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so you can support yourself.
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I mean, you are almost 30.
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I know.
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Son, you know, there's always
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a spot here at the office.
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You're always welcome back.
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Thanks, Dad.
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We'll help you this month, but if it happens again.
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It won't. I'm working on something new.
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And if it doesn't work out,
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I'll come back home and take that job, dad.
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But I just need one more shot.
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Okay.
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All right. Knock it out the park, bud.
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Love you, guys.
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Help me, please.
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Come on.
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ (Rap) I can imagine what it's like to have wings ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Flying around with fairytale things ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ But it's more stress the more I grow ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ More money come up, more money go ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Look, I was 5, I played outside ♪
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♪ I rode my bike, I flew my kite ♪
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♪ I took a nap, I hated baths ♪
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♪ I threw my cap, there wear no apps ♪
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♪ And 26 ain't the same ♪
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♪ Now the lease say my name ♪
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♪ Now the lease is five page ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Is this real time? Is this my time? Aye ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, over here, I don't seem to age ♪
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♪ And over there, they still get gray ♪
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♪ No time without disgrace ♪
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♪ Liked it better when I was 8 ♪
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♪ I liked it better when I was free ♪
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♪ I liked it better when I could be me ♪
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♪ No judgment aye ♪
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♪ Just loving aye ♪
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♪ Just peace, just peace, magic dreams come again ♪
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♪ Take me back to Neverland ♪
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♪ Magic dreams come again ♪
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Write something!
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Yeah.
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You okay?
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Yeah. Just working.
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Mm-hmm.
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I'm about to go in like 30. You coming?
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I don't know. I gotta get some work done.
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Come on, man. Just a couple of drinks.
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I don't know, bruh. I need to focus.
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You've been in here all damn day.
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From the sound of it, you need a break.
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I need inspiration, Mitch.
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Carter, if you need inspiration,
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you'll find it out there, not in here.
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I'm broke. I just asked my parents for help with rent.
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Jerry's bartending tonight.
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Free drinks?
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Free drinks.
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I'll be ready in 15.
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My nigga.
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♪ (Rap) I had glory turn into sad stories of mad gory ♪
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♪ A crying blood all for my
dying love like flying doves ♪
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♪ Yo, I just wanna be free ♪
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♪ But the devil on... ♪
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You got this.
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Ooh Wee
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So you really done with Taylor?
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Uh-oh.
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Yep.
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You a cold dude, man.
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When you said you were spending the night,
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I thought it was getting serious.
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Look, man, I tried.
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I thought spending a little
more time with her might help.
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But whenever I'm with her,
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all I'm thinking about is what I should be working on,
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or how is this helping me to become a better writer?
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Nothing was pulling me to engage
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and I don't have time to invest
in something going nowhere.
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I'm almost 30.
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Dude, you're 27. Relax. You have three more years.
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You know, I think Taylor might have helped.
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I mean, you guys were only hooking up for like a month.
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You barely even knew each other.
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Wait, how long have we been sharing that room?
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I don't know. Four years-
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Sounds about right.
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And you know, in that time,
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I just realized I've never seen
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you date anybody longer than a month.
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00:17:34,960 --> 00:17:35,751
Your point is?
265
00:17:35,793 --> 00:17:39,748
And it's always the same damn story.
266
00:17:39,790 --> 00:17:41,368
She didn't ignite my soul.
267
00:17:41,410 --> 00:17:43,948
What the fuck does that even mean?
268
00:17:43,990 --> 00:17:46,588
It means there was no reason for me
269
00:17:46,630 --> 00:17:49,303
to stay longer than I needed to.
270
00:17:50,170 --> 00:17:52,837
Professor Drama at his finest.
271
00:17:55,690 --> 00:17:59,578
Look, you think that love will help
272
00:17:59,620 --> 00:18:01,348
you write something transcendent, right?
273
00:18:01,390 --> 00:18:02,278
Of course.
274
00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:07,018
Okay, well, in order to be in love, you have to give.
275
00:18:07,060 --> 00:18:09,928
And right now, you're just taking.
276
00:18:09,970 --> 00:18:13,408
Yeah, I know. Emotional bank accounts.
277
00:18:13,450 --> 00:18:16,768
What the fuck are those? What are you talking about?
278
00:18:16,810 --> 00:18:18,418
Nothing, Dr. Love.
279
00:18:18,460 --> 00:18:20,668
But, look, forgive me for not wanting
280
00:18:20,710 --> 00:18:23,638
to share my life story with every girl I'm fucking.
281
00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:25,213
That's not what I'm saying.
282
00:18:26,710 --> 00:18:29,728
But look, you gotta eventually let one of 'em in.
283
00:18:29,770 --> 00:18:32,188
You gotta let one of these relationships grow.
284
00:18:32,230 --> 00:18:37,230
Mitch, a muse isn't someone you grow fond of.
285
00:18:37,660 --> 00:18:41,429
A muse is someone who enchants you immediately.
286
00:18:43,810 --> 00:18:45,763
Okay. Do you.
287
00:18:54,400 --> 00:18:57,118
But what if you don't win this contest?
288
00:18:57,160 --> 00:18:58,460
Are you really going home?
289
00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:02,188
I mean, it's been five years.
290
00:19:02,230 --> 00:19:06,223
I've been spinning my wheels for five years. Nothing.
291
00:19:07,450 --> 00:19:08,878
I love those short films you did.
292
00:19:08,920 --> 00:19:09,793
Same here.
293
00:19:10,750 --> 00:19:12,898
I'm also a big fan of your specs.
294
00:19:12,940 --> 00:19:16,033
If only you were judging one of those contests, Mitch.
295
00:19:18,610 --> 00:19:20,010
Don't worry. It'll happen.
296
00:19:20,920 --> 00:19:22,003
But when?
297
00:19:22,900 --> 00:19:26,698
We're still eating ramen every
other night, sharing a room,
298
00:19:26,740 --> 00:19:29,323
living with more roommates than rooms.
299
00:19:30,790 --> 00:19:34,273
I'm tired of this shit. It's
like a fucking hostel in here.
300
00:19:38,350 --> 00:19:39,388
No offense.
301
00:19:39,430 --> 00:19:40,858
Fuck you, Carter.
302
00:19:40,900 --> 00:19:43,828
Is that all anyone can say today?
303
00:19:43,870 --> 00:19:47,698
Forgive me for wanting more, for having a dream!
304
00:19:47,740 --> 00:19:50,833
Professor Extra, chill, my nigga.
305
00:19:51,700 --> 00:19:56,700
Nobody wants to live like
this forever. It just takes time.
306
00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:58,828
What's so important about 30 anyway?
307
00:19:58,870 --> 00:19:59,788
I don't know.
308
00:19:59,830 --> 00:20:01,858
It just seems like I should have
309
00:20:01,900 --> 00:20:03,868
my shit together by then, right?
310
00:20:03,910 --> 00:20:07,303
I mean, who knows? We're in entertainment.
311
00:20:09,190 --> 00:20:11,998
I've been going out on auditions for years
312
00:20:12,040 --> 00:20:13,468
and I'm just now getting to a point
313
00:20:13,510 --> 00:20:16,288
where I'm going out for a real leading role.
314
00:20:16,330 --> 00:20:19,168
Can you imagine if I had given up when I was 27?
315
00:20:19,210 --> 00:20:21,808
This shit can pop off anytime.
316
00:20:21,850 --> 00:20:23,338
But if you give up-
317
00:20:23,380 --> 00:20:25,678
I know. If I give up, it'll never happen.
318
00:20:25,720 --> 00:20:28,938
Exactly. You do listen to me sometimes.
319
00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:33,328
Look, it's the pursuit of the dream
320
00:20:33,370 --> 00:20:36,051
that forces life changing events to occur.
321
00:20:38,500 --> 00:20:39,291
You're right.
322
00:20:39,333 --> 00:20:40,780
I know!
323
00:20:42,946 --> 00:20:43,779
Hold on.
324
00:20:46,180 --> 00:20:50,909
Car's here. Let's find you some inspiration.
325
00:20:50,951 --> 00:20:54,313
Amen to that.
326
00:21:05,382 --> 00:21:06,306
My guy.
327
00:21:06,348 --> 00:21:07,706
My guy!
328
00:21:07,748 --> 00:21:08,731
What's good?
329
00:21:10,689 --> 00:21:13,561
Boy, it's about to be a game seven here!
330
00:21:20,140 --> 00:21:21,814
Yeah, they're gearing up
331
00:21:21,856 --> 00:21:23,938
for this huge Netflix series.
332
00:21:23,980 --> 00:21:25,923
I'm in the running for one of the parts.
333
00:21:27,056 --> 00:21:29,205
One of the leads?
334
00:21:29,247 --> 00:21:31,048
Well, it's not the lead per se.
335
00:21:31,090 --> 00:21:32,818
Well, it's more like a guest appearance.
336
00:21:32,860 --> 00:21:35,848
But I mean, that can turn into a recurring...
337
00:21:35,890 --> 00:21:36,723
Cool.
338
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:39,231
There he is.
339
00:21:39,273 --> 00:21:41,683
Jerry! Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!
340
00:21:43,213 --> 00:21:44,968
Man, what's good, boys?
341
00:21:45,010 --> 00:21:46,468
What's good, Jerry? - [Mitch] My guy.
342
00:21:46,510 --> 00:21:48,808
Man, what's it looking like tonight?
343
00:21:48,850 --> 00:21:50,338
It's looking good, man. - [Mitch] Yeah?
344
00:21:50,380 --> 00:21:51,508
It's looking real good.
345
00:21:51,550 --> 00:21:53,968
Y'all might even get a little lucky.
346
00:21:54,010 --> 00:21:55,385
Come on, Jerry. - Come on, Jerry.
347
00:21:56,620 --> 00:21:59,827
You know it's never luck, ever.
348
00:22:05,620 --> 00:22:08,853
Hey, man. You hear
back about that Netflix series?
349
00:22:13,799 --> 00:22:15,849
No, bro, I'm telling you. It's like really a banger, too.
350
00:22:15,891 --> 00:22:18,657
Like one of them ones, what the?
351
00:22:18,699 --> 00:22:22,633
There he go. - Yep. Yep. That's my dog.
352
00:22:27,415 --> 00:22:30,208
Are you waiting for someone?
353
00:22:30,250 --> 00:22:32,466
Do you need something?
354
00:22:34,510 --> 00:22:36,566
Better ice breakers.
355
00:22:38,620 --> 00:22:40,408
Can I get you a drink?
356
00:22:40,450 --> 00:22:42,148
I already have one.
357
00:22:42,190 --> 00:22:43,798
Yeah, of course. I was just-
358
00:22:43,840 --> 00:22:45,870
And I'm waiting for someone.
359
00:22:45,912 --> 00:22:46,745
Oh.
360
00:22:48,370 --> 00:22:49,203
My bad.
361
00:22:50,890 --> 00:22:52,365
Guess I'll just go then.
362
00:22:54,820 --> 00:22:57,913
But whoever it is, they are really lucky.
363
00:23:02,470 --> 00:23:04,415
You give up pretty easily, huh?
364
00:23:08,363 --> 00:23:12,208
Well, I was hoping my humbling acceptance
365
00:23:12,250 --> 00:23:14,893
of rejection would be endearing.
366
00:23:16,750 --> 00:23:18,103
Surprisingly, it was.
367
00:23:20,950 --> 00:23:22,348
Does your offer still stand?
368
00:23:22,390 --> 00:23:23,908
Of course.
369
00:23:23,950 --> 00:23:26,173
What do you want? Yo, Jerry.
370
00:23:27,010 --> 00:23:28,423
Another Cape Cod, please.
371
00:23:29,560 --> 00:23:30,748
Cape Cod.
372
00:23:30,790 --> 00:23:32,608
Vodka cranberry.
373
00:23:32,650 --> 00:23:35,953
Really? I didn't know it was called anything else.
374
00:23:37,215 --> 00:23:38,415
Now you know.
375
00:23:42,940 --> 00:23:44,257
My name's Carter.
376
00:23:46,568 --> 00:23:48,403
Amber. Amber Leigh.
377
00:23:49,360 --> 00:23:51,423
It's nice to meet you, Ms. Leigh.
378
00:23:58,777 --> 00:24:01,573
You come here a lot, huh?
379
00:24:01,615 --> 00:24:02,406
Why you say that?
380
00:24:02,448 --> 00:24:03,628
That little exchange
381
00:24:03,670 --> 00:24:06,433
right there was just a little too smooth.
382
00:24:07,480 --> 00:24:10,353
You didn't give him a card so I'm guessing you have a tab,
383
00:24:11,710 --> 00:24:15,223
or more likely you know him and he takes care of you.
384
00:24:16,420 --> 00:24:18,470
Is this where you pick up all your girls?
385
00:24:19,330 --> 00:24:20,772
The majority of them.
386
00:24:21,610 --> 00:24:22,960
You trying to pick me up?
387
00:24:24,659 --> 00:24:27,856
I am. How am I doing?
388
00:24:27,898 --> 00:24:29,072
You're not failing.
389
00:24:31,079 --> 00:24:32,493
So what do you do?
390
00:24:32,535 --> 00:24:35,638
Is that the only thing people care about in this city?
391
00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:38,668
Whatever we do takes up majority of our time.
392
00:24:38,710 --> 00:24:41,383
Seems reasonable to ask what that might be.
393
00:24:42,370 --> 00:24:44,403
Well, I'm still figuring that out.
394
00:24:44,445 --> 00:24:45,677
Really?
395
00:24:45,719 --> 00:24:46,969
Yeah. Really.
396
00:24:47,955 --> 00:24:52,878
You seem too put together to be figuring things out.
397
00:24:55,750 --> 00:24:57,346
Looks can be deceiving.
398
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:01,257
How old are you?
399
00:25:02,208 --> 00:25:03,099
27.
400
00:25:04,082 --> 00:25:05,332
How exciting.
401
00:25:06,713 --> 00:25:08,513
How old do you think I am?
402
00:25:09,763 --> 00:25:11,005
Doesn't matter.
403
00:25:13,395 --> 00:25:16,312
Good answer. But really, how old?
404
00:25:19,039 --> 00:25:19,872
Mid 30s?
405
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:22,825
37.
406
00:25:22,867 --> 00:25:25,450
Good guess. How could you tell?
407
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:29,000
Well, first off, you ordered a Cape Cod.
408
00:25:30,990 --> 00:25:32,765
And secondly, your hands.
409
00:25:33,983 --> 00:25:36,088
I can usually tell by a woman's hands.
410
00:25:36,130 --> 00:25:37,562
Really?
411
00:25:37,604 --> 00:25:40,753
Yeah. And at your age,
they're particularly easy to spot.
412
00:25:41,710 --> 00:25:42,543
Why is that?
413
00:25:43,750 --> 00:25:45,133
Because they glow.
414
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:47,788
In my experience,
415
00:25:47,830 --> 00:25:51,169
I found that women blossom in their 30s,
416
00:25:51,211 --> 00:25:53,511
and are especially radiant.
417
00:25:56,995 --> 00:25:57,895
You dance?
418
00:25:59,011 --> 00:26:00,785
You're on a roll.
419
00:27:35,412 --> 00:27:39,961
♪ Splish, splash got me seeing color ♪
420
00:27:40,003 --> 00:27:44,133
♪ Under the sky ♪
421
00:27:44,175 --> 00:27:48,153
♪ Van Gogh, you're so undercover ♪
422
00:27:48,195 --> 00:27:51,781
♪ Discover my light ♪
423
00:27:51,823 --> 00:27:54,825
♪ 'Cause we're going hard tonight ♪
424
00:27:54,867 --> 00:27:58,037
♪ The gallery is on fire ♪
425
00:27:58,079 --> 00:28:00,661
♪ Burning down, burning down ♪
426
00:28:00,703 --> 00:28:04,214
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
427
00:28:04,256 --> 00:28:09,256
♪ Won't you wake me up, so unusual ♪
428
00:28:09,359 --> 00:28:12,901
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
429
00:28:12,943 --> 00:28:17,941
♪ All your stranger ways make me fall in love ♪
430
00:28:17,983 --> 00:28:22,981
♪ You're so experimental ♪
431
00:28:23,023 --> 00:28:26,521
♪ Experimental ♪
432
00:28:26,563 --> 00:28:31,563
♪ You're so experimental ♪
433
00:28:31,647 --> 00:28:36,017
♪ Experimental ♪
434
00:28:36,059 --> 00:28:38,490
♪ Step back, I have never seen this ♪
435
00:28:38,532 --> 00:28:39,782
My boy.
436
00:28:41,099 --> 00:28:42,165
Yeah.
437
00:28:42,207 --> 00:28:45,280
Like I said, one of the leads.
438
00:28:45,322 --> 00:28:46,659
Really?
439
00:28:46,701 --> 00:28:47,809
Yeah. Really.
440
00:28:49,135 --> 00:28:52,517
♪ Move me once more ♪
441
00:28:52,559 --> 00:28:55,261
♪ Cause we're going hard tonight ♪
442
00:28:55,303 --> 00:28:59,845
♪ We'll paint the town just like a starry night ♪
443
00:28:59,887 --> 00:29:03,913
♪ Picture me in all the golden light ♪
444
00:29:03,955 --> 00:29:07,279
♪ The gallery is on fire ♪
445
00:29:07,321 --> 00:29:10,033
♪ Burning down, going down ♪
446
00:29:10,075 --> 00:29:13,333
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
447
00:29:13,375 --> 00:29:18,375
♪ Won't you wake me up, so unusual ♪
448
00:29:18,443 --> 00:29:23,261
♪ You're so experimental ♪
449
00:29:23,303 --> 00:29:27,205
♪ Wake me up, experimental ♪
450
00:29:27,247 --> 00:29:31,437
♪ You're so experimental ♪
451
00:30:05,959 --> 00:30:06,792
What?
452
00:30:08,020 --> 00:30:09,538
Nothing.
453
00:30:09,580 --> 00:30:11,308
It's just really cute
454
00:30:11,350 --> 00:30:14,218
when a girl puts your shirt on afterwards.
455
00:30:14,260 --> 00:30:16,273
It's like a sign of a job well done.
456
00:30:19,030 --> 00:30:20,083
Well done indeed.
457
00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:39,748
You know, you're my first-
458
00:30:39,790 --> 00:30:40,693
Black guy.
459
00:30:41,770 --> 00:30:42,643
How'd you know?
460
00:30:43,750 --> 00:30:44,848
There's only so many things
461
00:30:44,890 --> 00:30:46,470
you could have said after that.
462
00:30:47,380 --> 00:30:49,783
So you've been in this position before?
463
00:30:50,890 --> 00:30:52,003
A few times.
464
00:30:53,800 --> 00:30:55,183
And what happens next?
465
00:30:56,551 --> 00:30:58,255
What do you mean?
466
00:30:58,297 --> 00:31:00,823
I mean, what does the girl say next?
467
00:31:04,600 --> 00:31:09,375
Usually, something about how big my dick is, you know?
468
00:31:09,417 --> 00:31:10,873
'Cause I'm black.
469
00:31:12,250 --> 00:31:14,383
Makes sense. But then what?
470
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:17,923
I don't know. We go to sleep.
471
00:31:19,030 --> 00:31:20,953
I'm not big on talk afterwards.
472
00:31:22,210 --> 00:31:23,193
Why's that?
473
00:31:24,670 --> 00:31:25,543
I'm just not.
474
00:31:27,730 --> 00:31:30,298
So is that the reason you brought me back tonight,
475
00:31:30,340 --> 00:31:31,703
to fuck a black guy?
476
00:31:33,340 --> 00:31:34,213
Honestly?
477
00:31:35,140 --> 00:31:35,973
Yeah.
478
00:31:38,380 --> 00:31:40,288
Not entirely.
479
00:31:40,330 --> 00:31:42,088
But I mean, I'd be lying
480
00:31:42,130 --> 00:31:44,953
if that didn't add a layer of intrigue.
481
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:49,295
So why did you?
482
00:31:53,410 --> 00:31:54,433
I don't know.
483
00:31:55,510 --> 00:31:59,500
I liked you and I could tell you liked me (giggles).
484
00:32:04,343 --> 00:32:08,260
And I wanted intimacy and your spirit was warm.
485
00:32:11,260 --> 00:32:12,763
My spirit was warm?
486
00:32:13,599 --> 00:32:15,148
Yeah.
487
00:32:15,190 --> 00:32:19,783
You seemed earnest and real.
488
00:32:28,630 --> 00:32:29,463
I like that.
489
00:32:32,290 --> 00:32:33,940
So why'd you try to pick me up?
490
00:32:34,811 --> 00:32:36,678
You have a thing for older women?
491
00:32:37,810 --> 00:32:40,148
Doesn't every guy at some point?
492
00:32:41,231 --> 00:32:42,118
I mean, I've been with a few
493
00:32:42,160 --> 00:32:43,948
who are a couple of years older than me,
494
00:32:43,990 --> 00:32:46,991
but never anything like this.
495
00:32:49,363 --> 00:32:51,763
Oh, yeah? How was this?
496
00:32:53,290 --> 00:32:57,733
Well, like I said, I've never had anything like it.
497
00:33:10,570 --> 00:33:11,670
That's good to know.
498
00:33:15,151 --> 00:33:20,151
But me approaching you
had nothing to do with your age.
499
00:33:20,650 --> 00:33:21,483
Yeah?
500
00:33:22,420 --> 00:33:23,753
What was it then?
501
00:33:29,611 --> 00:33:32,083
I thought you were enchanting.
502
00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:35,330
It was like you were glowing.
503
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:37,113
Yeah?
504
00:33:37,990 --> 00:33:39,590
My hands right?
505
00:33:41,950 --> 00:33:43,303
All of you, really.
506
00:33:45,460 --> 00:33:47,797
Nobody has ever said that to me before.
507
00:33:50,035 --> 00:33:51,452
That's a shame.
508
00:33:57,007 --> 00:34:01,063
But you also seemed interesting,
509
00:34:02,799 --> 00:34:05,038
and I really need interesting right now.
510
00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:06,288
Interesting how?
511
00:34:08,171 --> 00:34:11,938
Like, there's a lot going on up there.
512
00:34:11,980 --> 00:34:14,893
You don't want to know what's going on up there.
513
00:34:14,935 --> 00:34:16,185
Oh, but I do.
514
00:34:23,586 --> 00:34:26,023
So who were you waiting for tonight?
515
00:34:29,950 --> 00:34:30,991
I don't know.
516
00:34:33,430 --> 00:34:35,337
What do you mean, you don't know?
517
00:34:43,960 --> 00:34:45,478
I was waiting for someone,
518
00:34:45,520 --> 00:34:47,683
but I didn't know who I was waiting for.
519
00:34:50,170 --> 00:34:51,003
Okay.
520
00:34:52,480 --> 00:34:53,980
What does that mean?
521
00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:03,343
I went there tonight because
I wanted to feel something.
522
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:08,263
I wanted to be pursued, desired.
523
00:35:10,090 --> 00:35:11,640
You get that urge a lot?
524
00:35:13,330 --> 00:35:14,413
Lately? Yeah.
525
00:35:15,550 --> 00:35:17,293
So no boyfriend then?
526
00:35:22,115 --> 00:35:24,365
No, but I have a husband.
527
00:35:33,532 --> 00:35:34,473
Shit.
528
00:35:36,235 --> 00:35:37,343
Yeah.
529
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:44,248
Water?
530
00:36:44,290 --> 00:36:45,123
Please.
531
00:36:59,710 --> 00:37:02,443
I was right. You are interesting.
532
00:37:04,300 --> 00:37:05,650
That's one way to put it.
533
00:37:08,827 --> 00:37:10,185
Is this the first time?
534
00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:13,738
Yeah, if you can believe that.
535
00:37:13,780 --> 00:37:14,613
I do.
536
00:37:15,847 --> 00:37:16,680
Is it yours?
537
00:37:17,560 --> 00:37:20,533
What, have I ever slept with a married woman?
538
00:37:22,120 --> 00:37:23,548
Yeah.
539
00:37:23,590 --> 00:37:26,537
No, this is a first.
540
00:37:30,130 --> 00:37:32,848
I don't think I would have done it if I knew.
541
00:37:32,890 --> 00:37:34,040
Why, because of that?
542
00:37:35,110 --> 00:37:38,638
Yeah, you know the sanctity of marriage and all.
543
00:37:38,680 --> 00:37:41,488
Well, you're clearly not a virgin.
544
00:37:41,530 --> 00:37:44,383
What about premarital sex? Sin is sin, right?
545
00:37:45,610 --> 00:37:46,443
Touché.
546
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:53,428
I guess I figured as long as I wasn't married
547
00:37:53,470 --> 00:37:55,588
or hooking up with anyone who was,
548
00:37:55,630 --> 00:37:57,103
God wouldn't mind as much.
549
00:37:58,240 --> 00:38:00,073
That's morally convenient.
550
00:38:01,090 --> 00:38:03,118
This doesn't mean I'm a saint.
551
00:38:03,160 --> 00:38:06,613
Just that I'm consciously trying to be decent.
552
00:38:11,140 --> 00:38:12,281
Why'd you do it?
553
00:38:20,020 --> 00:38:22,661
My husband was fucking his assistant.
554
00:38:22,703 --> 00:38:25,243
Really doesn't get any more cliché actually.
555
00:38:28,270 --> 00:38:31,483
Can't lie. That makes me feel a little bit better.
556
00:38:32,770 --> 00:38:36,373
I wouldn't want to be responsible
for ruining your marriage.
557
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:38,616
Understandable.
558
00:38:40,660 --> 00:38:42,060
How'd you find out?
559
00:38:44,980 --> 00:38:46,348
I went through his phone.
560
00:38:46,390 --> 00:38:48,876
The pictures and texts weren't hard to find.
561
00:38:49,900 --> 00:38:51,988
I confronted him, we had it out,
562
00:38:52,030 --> 00:38:54,013
and he left a few months ago.
563
00:38:56,620 --> 00:38:58,828
You haven't seen him since?
564
00:38:58,870 --> 00:39:00,508
Here and there.
565
00:39:00,550 --> 00:39:01,978
I stay at our place in the bay
566
00:39:02,020 --> 00:39:04,003
and he got an apartment in Oakland.
567
00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:07,857
You think you'll work it out?
568
00:39:10,180 --> 00:39:11,288
I don't know.
569
00:39:11,330 --> 00:39:12,321
We're actually gonna talk
570
00:39:12,363 --> 00:39:14,033
about it when I get back on Sunday.
571
00:39:15,820 --> 00:39:18,118
It's been months, right?
572
00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:20,473
Why wait until tonight to find someone?
573
00:39:23,410 --> 00:39:28,270
I didn't. I've been out. Been to a lot of bars.
574
00:39:29,410 --> 00:39:34,410
Met a lot of guys. But I never
found who I was looking for.
575
00:39:39,213 --> 00:39:40,988
I guess I was looking for you.
576
00:39:45,415 --> 00:39:46,498
But why me?
577
00:39:49,210 --> 00:39:51,352
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
578
00:39:52,536 --> 00:39:54,568
You never said what you do.
579
00:39:54,610 --> 00:39:55,823
You never asked.
580
00:39:56,890 --> 00:39:57,723
Well?
581
00:40:00,700 --> 00:40:02,393
I'm a writer.
582
00:40:02,435 --> 00:40:03,609
Oh
583
00:40:03,651 --> 00:40:06,068
Anything I've seen or read?
584
00:40:07,630 --> 00:40:12,630
Probably not. But I have some stuff out there.
585
00:40:12,850 --> 00:40:13,683
Yeah?
586
00:40:16,387 --> 00:40:18,973
Are you working on anything right now?
587
00:40:20,050 --> 00:40:21,073
Yes and no.
588
00:40:22,030 --> 00:40:23,438
How do you do that?
589
00:40:25,660 --> 00:40:29,458
Yes. Technically, I'm working on a script.
590
00:40:29,500 --> 00:40:32,128
No, I haven't written anything yet.
591
00:40:32,170 --> 00:40:33,270
Why is that?
592
00:40:34,210 --> 00:40:35,968
No inspiration.
593
00:40:36,010 --> 00:40:37,873
Is that always a requirement?
594
00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:42,418
No, but like anything else,
595
00:40:42,460 --> 00:40:45,745
if I only worked when inspired,
I'd never get anything done.
596
00:40:47,830 --> 00:40:49,498
But in this case it is.
597
00:40:49,540 --> 00:40:50,741
And why is that?
598
00:40:54,130 --> 00:40:57,778
Because nothing I've
written yet has truly resonated
599
00:40:57,820 --> 00:41:00,520
with those who have to judge whether it's good or not.
600
00:41:02,410 --> 00:41:04,228
Meaning my previous sources
601
00:41:04,270 --> 00:41:07,213
of inspiration weren't authentic enough.
602
00:41:08,830 --> 00:41:10,044
What does that mean?
603
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:18,448
That I have not yet felt what I need
604
00:41:18,490 --> 00:41:21,403
to feel to be the writer I wanna be.
605
00:41:22,720 --> 00:41:25,303
Little dramatic, but I follow you (laughs).
606
00:41:27,853 --> 00:41:29,671
My friend says that all the time.
607
00:41:29,713 --> 00:41:31,269
Says what?
608
00:41:31,311 --> 00:41:32,211
That I'm dramatic.
609
00:41:32,253 --> 00:41:34,648
Well, I would assume that a propensity
610
00:41:34,690 --> 00:41:37,309
for the dramatics would be an occupational hazard.
611
00:41:40,810 --> 00:41:41,643
I agree.
612
00:41:49,510 --> 00:41:53,023
I have this room until Sunday. Stay with me.
613
00:41:56,110 --> 00:41:57,238
You're married.
614
00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:58,881
Separated.
615
00:41:58,923 --> 00:42:00,277
I usually don't stay the night.
616
00:42:00,319 --> 00:42:01,228
Why is that?
617
00:42:01,270 --> 00:42:02,608
I have my reasons.
618
00:42:02,650 --> 00:42:04,498
Well, I'm not asking you to move in.
619
00:42:04,540 --> 00:42:05,983
Just stay the weekend.
620
00:42:07,930 --> 00:42:09,583
I'd really love the company.
621
00:42:14,260 --> 00:42:15,093
Okay.
622
00:42:26,800 --> 00:42:29,508
So when you do write, what do you write about?
623
00:42:30,820 --> 00:42:32,158
Love.
624
00:42:32,200 --> 00:42:34,288
Like romance?
625
00:42:34,330 --> 00:42:36,009
Everything about it.
626
00:42:36,051 --> 00:42:37,348
The way it manipulates us,
627
00:42:37,390 --> 00:42:38,938
the way it gives mothers the strength
628
00:42:38,980 --> 00:42:41,098
to lift cars off their children,
629
00:42:41,140 --> 00:42:43,790
but it can also cause people to take their own lives.
630
00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:54,148
When I was in high school, my cousin,
631
00:42:54,190 --> 00:42:57,118
and honestly one of my best friends at the time,
632
00:42:57,160 --> 00:43:00,073
he slit his wrist because his girlfriend dumped him.
633
00:43:01,150 --> 00:43:03,088
Can you imagine?
634
00:43:03,130 --> 00:43:04,738
You don't even know how much
635
00:43:04,780 --> 00:43:09,780
you don't know when you're
16 years old, but this feeling,
636
00:43:09,850 --> 00:43:12,748
this longing for someone else convinced
637
00:43:12,790 --> 00:43:14,578
him life was now meaningless
638
00:43:14,620 --> 00:43:16,768
because a girl said it was over.
639
00:43:16,810 --> 00:43:21,463
That's fascinating. And to be real, scary as fuck.
640
00:43:23,890 --> 00:43:24,898
Did he die?
641
00:43:24,940 --> 00:43:28,423
No, but he was institutionalized for a while.
642
00:43:29,620 --> 00:43:32,053
His family moved away and I never saw him again.
643
00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:35,338
I'm sorry to hear that.
644
00:43:35,380 --> 00:43:36,213
It's fine.
645
00:43:38,710 --> 00:43:41,338
I actually don't tell people that,
646
00:43:41,380 --> 00:43:43,543
especially women I've just slept with.
647
00:43:44,890 --> 00:43:46,828
You've never talked about it before?
648
00:43:46,870 --> 00:43:50,128
No, I guess it was just one of those things
649
00:43:50,170 --> 00:43:51,988
that I compartmentalized.
650
00:43:52,030 --> 00:43:53,653
Out of sight, out of mind.
651
00:43:54,730 --> 00:43:59,730
Yeah, I know what you mean. So have you ever been in love?
652
00:44:03,231 --> 00:44:04,585
No.
653
00:44:04,627 --> 00:44:05,968
So how can you judge?
654
00:44:06,010 --> 00:44:07,738
How can you even write about it?
655
00:44:07,780 --> 00:44:11,518
I mean, that's my problem. I have love in my life.
656
00:44:11,560 --> 00:44:16,183
My parents, my siblings, my friends.
657
00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:19,348
I've had my share of girls.
658
00:44:19,390 --> 00:44:21,005
Some of them I even really liked,
659
00:44:21,047 --> 00:44:24,103
but I wouldn't cry over any of them, let alone die.
660
00:44:26,853 --> 00:44:28,528
That's unfortunate.
661
00:44:28,570 --> 00:44:32,278
For my craft, yeah. But personally, I don't know.
662
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:34,588
Why would I wanna fall in love with someone only
663
00:44:34,630 --> 00:44:37,380
for them to end up in some hotel room with another guy?
664
00:44:38,375 --> 00:44:39,166
Touché.
665
00:44:39,208 --> 00:44:40,438
And what happens if I do,
666
00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:45,358
and it ends because everything
does and I lose my shit?
667
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:47,128
What if I try to kill myself
668
00:44:47,170 --> 00:44:49,813
or worse, hurt them because they dumped me?
669
00:44:51,310 --> 00:44:53,586
People do crazy shit when they love too deep.
670
00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:55,473
Wow.
671
00:44:56,560 --> 00:45:00,163
Is that why you don't spend the night or pillow talk?
672
00:45:01,270 --> 00:45:02,743
You just hit and run.
673
00:45:04,420 --> 00:45:07,933
More like I hit, hit, hit then run.
674
00:45:10,559 --> 00:45:14,008
You won't feel anything worthwhile that way, sweetie.
675
00:45:14,050 --> 00:45:17,983
Maybe, but I don't think
longevity legitimizes feelings.
676
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:23,113
I suppose, there's something
to be said about longevity.
677
00:45:24,130 --> 00:45:26,098
I mean, when you haven't experienced something,
678
00:45:26,140 --> 00:45:28,453
it's easy to judge, easy to speculate.
679
00:45:29,740 --> 00:45:32,038
But I've been in it and I can tell you, yeah,
680
00:45:32,080 --> 00:45:35,998
that flame fades if you don't
both shield and protect it.
681
00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:39,283
But when it's raging and
you're both basking in its glow,
682
00:45:40,300 --> 00:45:41,717
there's nothing like it.
683
00:45:43,150 --> 00:45:46,843
That person, for better or
worse, is perfect in your eyes.
684
00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:50,098
And you'd do anything to see
685
00:45:50,140 --> 00:45:53,218
them smile or protect them from pain.
686
00:45:53,260 --> 00:45:55,378
Because when you're in it long enough,
687
00:45:55,420 --> 00:45:57,583
their joy and sorrow are yours.
688
00:45:58,870 --> 00:45:59,938
And when it gets like that,
689
00:45:59,980 --> 00:46:02,008
you take on a small part of that person
690
00:46:02,050 --> 00:46:03,853
and they take on a part of you.
691
00:46:05,226 --> 00:46:06,242
And you'll both carry
692
00:46:06,284 --> 00:46:08,248
that with you for the rest of your lives.
693
00:46:09,370 --> 00:46:10,203
Wow.
694
00:46:13,690 --> 00:46:17,578
I get that as much as I can.
695
00:46:17,620 --> 00:46:18,778
But I do think you can have
696
00:46:18,820 --> 00:46:22,243
that same flame in a tryst that lasts only days.
697
00:46:23,590 --> 00:46:25,468
I guess anything's possible.
698
00:46:25,510 --> 00:46:28,348
And to feel something like that
699
00:46:28,390 --> 00:46:33,133
is to be able to draw on a
well of infinite inspiration.
700
00:46:35,860 --> 00:46:38,360
So what you were looking for tonight was a muse?
701
00:46:39,490 --> 00:46:40,323
Yeah.
702
00:46:41,350 --> 00:46:44,000
You don't go looking for something like that, dear.
703
00:46:44,860 --> 00:46:45,763
It finds you.
704
00:46:47,140 --> 00:46:49,663
But when will that be?
705
00:46:50,650 --> 00:46:53,803
Like, I wanna do great work now.
706
00:46:55,330 --> 00:46:56,743
You remind me of him.
707
00:46:57,640 --> 00:46:58,473
Who?
708
00:46:59,451 --> 00:47:01,078
My husband.
709
00:47:01,120 --> 00:47:05,848
When he was younger. Must be some male thing.
710
00:47:05,890 --> 00:47:08,083
So eager to be great.
711
00:47:10,360 --> 00:47:12,028
What does that even mean?
712
00:47:12,070 --> 00:47:13,093
I don't know.
713
00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:19,158
It's kind of like, you know-
714
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:22,947
Hold that thought.
715
00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:29,968
These might help.
716
00:47:30,010 --> 00:47:31,108
Are those edibles?
717
00:47:31,150 --> 00:47:33,448
Yeah. They're gummy bears.
718
00:47:33,490 --> 00:47:36,378
I bought 'em earlier. They're supposed to be strong.
719
00:47:36,420 --> 00:47:37,211
How are those gonna help?
720
00:47:37,253 --> 00:47:39,028
Trust me, what you're trying to describe
721
00:47:39,070 --> 00:47:41,908
is very abstract and quite subjective.
722
00:47:41,950 --> 00:47:45,913
So these might help crystallize those thoughts.
723
00:47:46,870 --> 00:47:48,671
Besides, I bought them intending to eat them
724
00:47:48,713 --> 00:47:50,551
so that's what I'm gonna do.
725
00:47:50,593 --> 00:47:51,609
Come on.
726
00:47:57,040 --> 00:48:00,493
Open up. You get two 'cause you're bigger.
727
00:48:04,753 --> 00:48:05,586
Your turn.
728
00:48:15,820 --> 00:48:20,113
So what, we wait 15-20 minutes till they kick in?
729
00:48:21,900 --> 00:48:23,353
Yeah, give or take.
730
00:48:24,220 --> 00:48:25,918
What do we do till then?
731
00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:27,027
Just keep going.
732
00:48:32,260 --> 00:48:33,355
About greatness?
733
00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:35,913
Yeah.
734
00:48:46,540 --> 00:48:49,468
Do you know who Preston Sturges is?
735
00:48:49,510 --> 00:48:50,343
No.
736
00:48:51,610 --> 00:48:56,610
He was this writer and director in the 1930s and '40s.
737
00:48:57,430 --> 00:48:59,008
The first of his kind.
738
00:48:59,050 --> 00:49:03,016
And during this period of five or so years,
739
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:08,548
writes and directs a string of bona fide classics.
740
00:49:08,590 --> 00:49:12,665
"The Great McGinty," "Christmas in July,"
741
00:49:12,707 --> 00:49:16,325
"The Lady Eve," "The Palm Beach Story,"
742
00:49:16,367 --> 00:49:20,167
"Sullivan's Travels," "Hail the Conquering Hero,"
743
00:49:21,017 --> 00:49:23,669
"The Miracle of Morgan's Creek".
744
00:49:23,711 --> 00:49:25,018
And depending on how you feel
745
00:49:25,060 --> 00:49:27,928
about "The Great Moment," and "Unfaithfully Yours,"
746
00:49:27,970 --> 00:49:31,483
his streak doesn't end until the late '40s.
747
00:49:32,950 --> 00:49:35,010
Wait, so you wanna direct too?
748
00:49:36,070 --> 00:49:39,492
Yeah. I've made a couple of short films, but yeah.
749
00:49:40,450 --> 00:49:43,573
That's the dream, to direct what I write.
750
00:49:44,410 --> 00:49:45,628
Wow.
751
00:49:45,670 --> 00:49:46,828
Ambitious.
752
00:49:46,870 --> 00:49:49,470
If you're gonna dream, you gotta dream big.
753
00:49:51,070 --> 00:49:53,320
So what kind of movies did Preston make?
754
00:49:57,070 --> 00:49:59,548
Mainly screwball comedies.
755
00:49:59,590 --> 00:50:04,590
But his dialogue, impeccable, ahead of his time.
756
00:50:04,780 --> 00:50:08,580
And his films, masterstrokes.
757
00:50:10,180 --> 00:50:14,098
This was a man who by his
late 20s was a failed inventor
758
00:50:14,140 --> 00:50:17,908
and songwriter with no clear direction.
759
00:50:17,950 --> 00:50:20,938
And in an act of spite towards a former lover,
760
00:50:20,980 --> 00:50:23,208
writes a play that launches his career.
761
00:50:26,140 --> 00:50:28,443
Love is a hell of a motivator.
762
00:50:28,485 --> 00:50:31,888
I mean, look at this, I'm talking about his work today.
763
00:50:31,930 --> 00:50:35,758
That's great work. That's greatness.
764
00:50:35,800 --> 00:50:37,150
And that's what you want?
765
00:50:39,989 --> 00:50:41,639
I want my life to have purpose.
766
00:50:44,500 --> 00:50:49,500
I want to write something meaningful that lasts.
767
00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:53,128
Something that'll get me my own apartment
768
00:50:53,170 --> 00:50:55,978
and kick-start my career.
769
00:50:56,020 --> 00:50:58,768
And hopefully, people will read
770
00:50:58,810 --> 00:51:00,778
or watch that thing I created
771
00:51:00,820 --> 00:51:03,538
and decide they too want to create something.
772
00:51:03,580 --> 00:51:07,423
That's a thing worth striving for, at least to me.
773
00:51:08,320 --> 00:51:12,553
Yeah. I agree. But not everyone wants that.
774
00:51:13,540 --> 00:51:15,433
Some people just want to exist.
775
00:51:16,810 --> 00:51:18,001
How about them?
776
00:51:23,530 --> 00:51:25,093
Then they can do that.
777
00:51:26,500 --> 00:51:28,363
You can live however you want to live.
778
00:51:29,290 --> 00:51:31,127
That's the beauty of it.
779
00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:35,068
It's not always that simple.
780
00:51:35,110 --> 00:51:36,688
Why not?
781
00:51:36,730 --> 00:51:40,138
People, society, they force their beliefs on you.
782
00:51:40,180 --> 00:51:41,668
Some people are never given the chance
783
00:51:41,710 --> 00:51:42,883
to live their own life.
784
00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:47,548
What are you doing?
785
00:51:50,163 --> 00:51:53,518
You're wearing my shirt and I was getting cold.
786
00:51:53,560 --> 00:51:55,623
Plus this is comfortable as fuck.
787
00:51:59,830 --> 00:52:02,751
I think I'm starting to feel those gummy bears.
788
00:52:03,903 --> 00:52:07,431
Really? I don't think I'm feeling mine yet.
789
00:52:09,040 --> 00:52:10,374
At all.
790
00:52:27,730 --> 00:52:31,870
I think everyone gets a chance to live their own life.
791
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:36,988
For some, it's just much
harder to get that opportunity.
792
00:52:37,030 --> 00:52:38,518
But as long as you keep fighting,
793
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:41,593
it's yours and it makes for a better story.
794
00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:44,923
Shit happens. Horrible shit.
795
00:52:45,838 --> 00:52:47,398
But I really do believe
796
00:52:47,440 --> 00:52:51,073
all of it serves a purpose if you can ride it out.
797
00:52:54,220 --> 00:52:55,795
I suppose so.
798
00:52:55,837 --> 00:52:59,188
But what if you're not sure what your purpose is?
799
00:52:59,230 --> 00:53:04,230
What if you've lost your way or you don't even have one?
800
00:53:04,360 --> 00:53:07,198
I think we're always right where we're supposed to be.
801
00:53:07,240 --> 00:53:10,633
And everyone has a purpose, whether big or small.
802
00:53:12,220 --> 00:53:13,558
But who am I to judge
803
00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:17,395
how big or small a person's purpose is?
804
00:53:17,437 --> 00:53:18,687
True.
805
00:53:20,369 --> 00:53:22,618
But if you'll indulge me for a second.
806
00:53:22,660 --> 00:53:23,493
Yeah.
807
00:53:32,220 --> 00:53:35,848
In the end, I don't think anyone's purpose
808
00:53:35,890 --> 00:53:38,053
is more important than anyone else's.
809
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:41,683
In the eyes of God, it's all equal.
810
00:53:42,970 --> 00:53:46,498
In fact, I think each of our purposes
811
00:53:46,540 --> 00:53:48,165
actually serve each other.
812
00:53:49,810 --> 00:53:52,798
It's like, we're all different ingredients
813
00:53:52,840 --> 00:53:56,953
in this massive cosmic cake.
814
00:53:59,170 --> 00:54:03,193
And when we pursue whatever
it is our hearts truly desire,
815
00:54:04,390 --> 00:54:09,390
we not only release our own
unique flavor into the cosmos,
816
00:54:09,520 --> 00:54:12,343
but we inspire others to do the same,
817
00:54:14,770 --> 00:54:18,133
producing this divine dessert.
818
00:54:21,790 --> 00:54:24,028
It's the pursuit of the dream
819
00:54:24,070 --> 00:54:27,598
that causes life changing encounters to happen.
820
00:54:27,640 --> 00:54:31,168
You end up at the right place at the right time
821
00:54:31,210 --> 00:54:36,103
to meet the right person, like you and me.
822
00:54:37,450 --> 00:54:39,101
You and me?
823
00:54:39,143 --> 00:54:40,143
You and me.
824
00:54:48,760 --> 00:54:49,720
I like that.
825
00:54:53,034 --> 00:54:55,678
That actually reminds me of my mom.
826
00:54:55,720 --> 00:54:56,553
How so?
827
00:54:57,760 --> 00:55:01,228
She's a teacher, and she's one of those teachers
828
00:55:01,270 --> 00:55:03,103
who really loves what they do.
829
00:55:04,360 --> 00:55:09,360
It's not a job to her, but a privilege and a duty.
830
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:12,388
She really invests in her students
831
00:55:12,430 --> 00:55:13,963
like they were her own kids.
832
00:55:14,943 --> 00:55:17,518
I mean, I can't even tell you how many times
833
00:55:17,560 --> 00:55:20,143
over the years they've come back to thank her.
834
00:55:22,900 --> 00:55:25,438
You said when we pursue what our heart desires,
835
00:55:25,480 --> 00:55:27,583
we inspire others to do the same.
836
00:55:28,840 --> 00:55:31,193
Reminds me of all the lives she touched.
837
00:55:33,010 --> 00:55:34,991
Sounds like an amazing woman.
838
00:55:36,640 --> 00:55:37,807
What about your dad?
839
00:55:40,930 --> 00:55:44,113
I don't know. He walked out on us.
840
00:55:46,270 --> 00:55:47,103
I'm sorry.
841
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:49,233
Me too.
842
00:55:52,630 --> 00:55:53,463
What?
843
00:55:55,060 --> 00:55:57,478
I don't normally tell people that.
844
00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:00,283
I usually just say he died before I was born.
845
00:56:02,140 --> 00:56:05,113
I guess it's just one of those
things you compartmentalize.
846
00:56:06,190 --> 00:56:07,023
I feel you.
847
00:56:09,160 --> 00:56:10,578
Do you have any kids?
848
00:56:13,330 --> 00:56:14,203
No.
849
00:56:15,940 --> 00:56:18,223
I've never had that motherly instinct.
850
00:56:19,480 --> 00:56:22,423
I guess my mom kept my share for herself.
851
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:27,593
I mean, I love kids, other people's kids,
852
00:56:27,635 --> 00:56:31,528
mainly because you don't have to take 'em home with you.
853
00:56:31,570 --> 00:56:34,888
It sounds so horrible out loud, but I don't know.
854
00:56:34,930 --> 00:56:36,793
I've just never had that urge.
855
00:56:37,810 --> 00:56:40,030
My husband used to feel the same way.
856
00:56:41,440 --> 00:56:42,506
He wants them?
857
00:56:44,290 --> 00:56:45,081
Yeah.
858
00:56:45,123 --> 00:56:46,248
And you don't?
859
00:56:47,770 --> 00:56:48,958
No.
860
00:56:49,000 --> 00:56:51,400
You think you'll ever change your mind?
861
00:56:55,216 --> 00:56:56,513
Who knows?
862
00:56:58,333 --> 00:57:00,000
What are your parents like?
863
00:57:03,790 --> 00:57:08,473
Kind, loving, steadfast.
864
00:57:09,550 --> 00:57:11,248
They worry about me at times,
865
00:57:11,290 --> 00:57:14,188
but it all comes from a good place.
866
00:57:14,230 --> 00:57:15,570
Worry about what?
867
00:57:16,750 --> 00:57:21,613
Typical stuff like, am I
eating anything besides noodles?
868
00:57:22,930 --> 00:57:25,333
Am I homeless on skid row?
869
00:57:26,380 --> 00:57:28,033
Will I ever get a real job?
870
00:57:30,400 --> 00:57:32,943
I actually told them if I don't win this next contest,
871
00:57:32,985 --> 00:57:33,843
I'm going home.
872
00:57:34,990 --> 00:57:36,540
Do you think you'll win?
873
00:57:37,960 --> 00:57:39,960
Depends if I ever write anything.
874
00:57:44,890 --> 00:57:46,630
I'm sure it'll come to you.
875
00:57:50,709 --> 00:57:51,959
Hey, come here.
876
00:57:55,210 --> 00:57:56,601
What are we doing?
877
00:57:57,460 --> 00:57:59,663
My husband and I used to do this.
878
00:58:00,880 --> 00:58:04,423
It's a breathing technique
to harmonize our energies.
879
00:58:05,830 --> 00:58:07,648
I think there's something really powerful
880
00:58:07,690 --> 00:58:09,283
about two souls in sync,
881
00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:12,193
and I wanna be in sync with you.
882
00:58:13,570 --> 00:58:14,403
Okay.
883
00:58:15,670 --> 00:58:16,903
Call me Bluetooth.
884
00:58:19,570 --> 00:58:24,570
Do you believe in higher power, spirits, souls?
885
00:58:33,130 --> 00:58:38,023
Honestly, I'm high enough to believe anything.
886
00:58:40,660 --> 00:58:41,998
Well, you have this cross
887
00:58:42,040 --> 00:58:44,473
and you were talking about God before.
888
00:58:47,390 --> 00:58:49,642
Do you think he's real?
889
00:58:49,684 --> 00:58:50,531
I do.
890
00:58:52,398 --> 00:58:53,231
Do you?
891
00:58:56,140 --> 00:58:59,520
I definitely think there's
more to life than what we see.
892
00:59:04,210 --> 00:59:07,663
When I'm stressed, I like to go to the beach.
893
00:59:08,740 --> 00:59:10,513
And when I look out at it all,
894
00:59:11,410 --> 00:59:14,083
it never fails to put everything into perspective.
895
00:59:15,370 --> 00:59:20,370
How insignificant I am, let alone my problems.
896
00:59:21,970 --> 00:59:24,620
The water reaches further than I can see
897
00:59:25,630 --> 00:59:27,613
and is deeper than I can imagine.
898
00:59:28,630 --> 00:59:31,708
Blown this way and that by a force
899
00:59:31,750 --> 00:59:33,883
I can neither hold nor a see.
900
00:59:35,200 --> 00:59:39,538
An entire ecosystem thrives beneath its surface,
901
00:59:39,580 --> 00:59:41,968
warmed and sustained by a giant ball
902
00:59:42,010 --> 00:59:47,010
of fire floating in the sky millions of miles away.
903
00:59:49,480 --> 00:59:52,453
But why, and for who?
904
00:59:53,770 --> 00:59:58,183
Me, you, God?
905
01:00:01,510 --> 01:00:06,510
Questions for a much less
stimulated mind than myself.
906
01:00:09,550 --> 01:00:13,663
But I do think our insignificance is our freedom.
907
01:00:15,790 --> 01:00:17,218
All of this is gonna continue
908
01:00:17,260 --> 01:00:19,753
on to some extent long after we're gone.
909
01:00:20,890 --> 01:00:23,938
So in the meantime,
910
01:00:23,980 --> 01:00:26,472
we might as well put this time to good use,
911
01:00:27,400 --> 01:00:30,778
try to do our best, be our best,
912
01:00:30,820 --> 01:00:33,586
and leave it a little better than how we found it.
913
01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:41,263
You're adorable.
914
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:50,818
My head's spinning.
915
01:00:53,590 --> 01:00:56,368
A little too adorable.
916
01:00:56,410 --> 01:00:59,713
No, seriously. I think I need to lay down.
917
01:01:01,030 --> 01:01:01,863
Okay.
918
01:01:06,850 --> 01:01:07,875
Come here.
919
01:01:18,070 --> 01:01:20,778
I've never talked to someone like this before.
920
01:01:23,404 --> 01:01:26,563
I've never met someone like you.
921
01:01:30,784 --> 01:01:32,790
I think I'm-
922
01:01:32,832 --> 01:01:33,926
Shhh-
923
01:01:33,968 --> 01:01:35,468
Just having fun.
924
01:01:38,156 --> 01:01:39,958
A lot of fun.
925
01:02:46,028 --> 01:02:47,861
How are you feeling?
926
01:02:53,500 --> 01:02:54,773
Fantastic.
927
01:02:56,767 --> 01:02:59,008
I could get used to waking up to you.
928
01:02:59,050 --> 01:03:00,673
Enjoy it while it lasts.
929
01:03:01,887 --> 01:03:02,720
I plan to.
930
01:03:09,850 --> 01:03:11,562
Did you sleep at all?
931
01:03:11,604 --> 01:03:12,395
A little bit.
932
01:03:12,437 --> 01:03:14,400
Yeah? - I just woke up myself.
933
01:03:15,610 --> 01:03:17,650
I got some room service some is on
934
01:03:17,692 --> 01:03:19,059
the table if you're hungry.
935
01:03:24,640 --> 01:03:25,861
What were you doing?
936
01:03:25,903 --> 01:03:27,208
Just a little work.
937
01:03:27,250 --> 01:03:28,526
Yeah?
938
01:03:28,568 --> 01:03:29,401
Yeah.
939
01:04:02,380 --> 01:04:07,380
So really, what do you do? This place is beautiful.
940
01:04:08,740 --> 01:04:09,960
I'm in real estate.
941
01:04:10,810 --> 01:04:12,028
What kind?
942
01:04:12,070 --> 01:04:13,288
Commercial.
943
01:04:13,330 --> 01:04:16,304
My husband and I have a very successful firm.
944
01:04:16,346 --> 01:04:17,670
Oh
945
01:04:17,712 --> 01:04:19,795
How does that work now?
946
01:04:20,967 --> 01:04:23,084
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
947
01:04:24,010 --> 01:04:26,158
If we officially split, do I buy him out,
948
01:04:26,200 --> 01:04:27,235
does he buy me out?
949
01:04:27,277 --> 01:04:29,173
And if I sell, what do I do then?
950
01:04:30,940 --> 01:04:33,250
Do you like real estate?
951
01:04:33,292 --> 01:04:35,878
Yeah, it's been good to me.
952
01:04:35,920 --> 01:04:39,401
It's been kind of me and my husband's shared passion.
953
01:04:39,443 --> 01:04:41,638
We work well together.
954
01:04:41,680 --> 01:04:44,097
It's been like that since we met in college.
955
01:04:45,820 --> 01:04:47,578
I make this trip a couple of times
956
01:04:47,620 --> 01:04:49,693
a month to check on our accounts.
957
01:04:50,950 --> 01:04:53,008
I'm good at managing relationships
958
01:04:53,050 --> 01:04:55,813
and talking to people and he would close the deals.
959
01:04:56,800 --> 01:04:58,543
We made a dashing power couple.
960
01:05:01,180 --> 01:05:02,683
When we first started, I,
961
01:05:03,910 --> 01:05:06,583
we both had this dream of building an empire.
962
01:05:07,988 --> 01:05:09,418
I can understand that.
963
01:05:09,460 --> 01:05:12,253
Sure you can. But things changed.
964
01:05:13,540 --> 01:05:14,440
How so?
965
01:05:16,510 --> 01:05:17,551
We got older.
966
01:05:18,670 --> 01:05:20,218
He just turned 40 this year
967
01:05:20,260 --> 01:05:23,203
and we started wanting different things.
968
01:05:26,920 --> 01:05:30,073
Sounds like you could use a fresh start.
969
01:05:31,900 --> 01:05:32,733
Maybe.
970
01:05:37,570 --> 01:05:39,928
You wanna shower and get outta here?
971
01:05:39,970 --> 01:05:41,453
I'd love some fresh air.
972
01:05:43,660 --> 01:05:44,560
Yeah, sure.
973
01:06:23,170 --> 01:06:24,655
Does it count if you take a shower
974
01:06:24,697 --> 01:06:26,548
and get back into the same clothes?
975
01:06:26,590 --> 01:06:28,193
Well, that depends.
976
01:06:28,235 --> 01:06:29,292
Did you wear those clothes
977
01:06:29,334 --> 01:06:31,858
all day yesterday or only last night?
978
01:06:31,900 --> 01:06:33,568
Only last night.
979
01:06:33,610 --> 01:06:35,548
Well, the jeans should be good.
980
01:06:35,590 --> 01:06:36,748
You can wear this shirt for now
981
01:06:36,790 --> 01:06:40,168
and we can get you another one on the boardwalk.
982
01:06:40,210 --> 01:06:42,508
Whatever you say Mrs. Leigh.
983
01:06:42,550 --> 01:06:44,368
Amber is fine.
984
01:06:44,410 --> 01:06:47,428
Come on. Where's the fun in that. You're my Mrs. Robinson.
985
01:06:47,470 --> 01:06:48,942
Shut up!
986
01:07:02,500 --> 01:07:04,318
So did you play any sports?
987
01:07:05,392 --> 01:07:07,346
Why, 'cause I'm tall and black?
988
01:07:07,388 --> 01:07:08,221
Yeah.
989
01:07:09,430 --> 01:07:11,428
I played basketball in college.
990
01:07:11,470 --> 01:07:12,561
Look at you!
991
01:07:13,570 --> 01:07:15,343
Yeah, it was my first love.
992
01:07:16,240 --> 01:07:19,140
Well, you're in LA, so I'm guessing you're a Lakers fan?
993
01:07:20,244 --> 01:07:23,683
Not so much, but I was a big, big Kobe fan though.
994
01:07:24,610 --> 01:07:26,248
Yeah, I was actually in line to board a plane
995
01:07:26,290 --> 01:07:28,610
when I heard about that accident.
996
01:07:28,652 --> 01:07:29,743
It was so tragic.
997
01:07:30,640 --> 01:07:32,338
Yeah, it was.
998
01:07:32,380 --> 01:07:34,708
The whole city mourned for weeks.
999
01:07:34,750 --> 01:07:36,870
On some level, I think always will.
1000
01:07:38,080 --> 01:07:40,205
But if I took anything away from his death it's that
1001
01:07:40,247 --> 01:07:42,508
if we dedicate the short amount of time
1002
01:07:42,550 --> 01:07:45,770
we have to the pursuit of
greatness, then it's attainable.
1003
01:07:46,630 --> 01:07:49,318
Well, you're consistent in thought at least.
1004
01:07:49,360 --> 01:07:50,510
That's what it takes.
1005
01:07:51,640 --> 01:07:54,148
So you had no professional aspirations?
1006
01:07:54,190 --> 01:07:57,178
Of course, but I discovered I had other loves
1007
01:07:57,220 --> 01:08:00,673
and had I given basketball all I had, so.
1008
01:08:01,840 --> 01:08:04,993
How about you? You're pretty fit yourself.
1009
01:08:06,100 --> 01:08:09,568
Thanks. Personal fitness is a passion of mine.
1010
01:08:09,610 --> 01:08:10,401
I run.
1011
01:08:10,443 --> 01:08:14,998
And in high school, I danced and played soccer.
1012
01:08:15,040 --> 01:08:17,548
Actually just started dancing again.
1013
01:08:17,590 --> 01:08:18,848
How's that going?
1014
01:08:20,020 --> 01:08:22,318
Pretty good. It's different than what I'm used to.
1015
01:08:22,360 --> 01:08:23,193
How so?
1016
01:08:25,360 --> 01:08:27,130
It's a pole dancing class.
1017
01:08:29,620 --> 01:08:31,288
Are you any good?
1018
01:08:31,330 --> 01:08:33,669
I mean, I'm starting to get the hang of it.
1019
01:08:33,711 --> 01:08:35,038
But, you know, it's fun and it keeps
1020
01:08:35,080 --> 01:08:37,048
me motivated to stay in shape.
1021
01:08:37,090 --> 01:08:38,908
I have to come see you perform.
1022
01:08:38,950 --> 01:08:41,788
Not a chance, and it won't be for a few months.
1023
01:08:41,830 --> 01:08:44,158
Come on. I'll make the time.
1024
01:08:44,200 --> 01:08:45,625
That's sweet, but no.
1025
01:08:45,667 --> 01:08:47,548
No, seriously. I'll come to the Bay and then-
1026
01:08:47,590 --> 01:08:49,528
Sweetie, this isn't a permanent thing.
1027
01:08:49,570 --> 01:08:51,118
It ends tomorrow. I'm married.
1028
01:08:51,160 --> 01:08:52,768
Separated.
1029
01:08:52,810 --> 01:08:55,168
Let's just enjoy the time for now.
1030
01:08:55,210 --> 01:08:56,341
Fuck the future.
1031
01:08:59,710 --> 01:09:00,543
Sure.
1032
01:09:46,540 --> 01:09:49,018
You ever notice
how most interracial couples
1033
01:09:49,060 --> 01:09:50,954
are black guys with white girls?
1034
01:09:51,829 --> 01:09:53,080
I guess so.
1035
01:09:53,122 --> 01:09:54,463
Why do you think that is?
1036
01:09:54,505 --> 01:09:58,980
Do white girls have a black guy fetish or vice versa?
1037
01:10:00,460 --> 01:10:04,528
I think it's a mutual fetishism. Can I be honest?
1038
01:10:04,570 --> 01:10:05,728
Always.
1039
01:10:05,770 --> 01:10:07,931
Black guys have always had this stigma
1040
01:10:07,973 --> 01:10:10,438
you know, like they're off limits.
1041
01:10:10,480 --> 01:10:11,848
My mom didn't care either way,
1042
01:10:11,890 --> 01:10:13,558
but the girls I grew up with,
1043
01:10:13,600 --> 01:10:15,598
their parents wouldn't stand for it.
1044
01:10:15,640 --> 01:10:18,118
You don't bring a black guy
home unless you want a fight.
1045
01:10:18,160 --> 01:10:19,618
And anything like that
1046
01:10:19,660 --> 01:10:22,768
is immediately attractive on some level.
1047
01:10:22,810 --> 01:10:23,993
Plus, all the talk about
1048
01:10:24,035 --> 01:10:26,376
how big you guys', you know-
1049
01:10:27,784 --> 01:10:29,738
Makes a girl very curious.
1050
01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:31,951
I feel you.
1051
01:10:31,993 --> 01:10:35,158
With white girls, it's a little bit different,
1052
01:10:35,200 --> 01:10:37,138
but also very similar.
1053
01:10:37,180 --> 01:10:38,278
If you bring a white girl home,
1054
01:10:38,320 --> 01:10:40,025
you'll get the typical flack like,
1055
01:10:40,067 --> 01:10:42,298
"You couldn't find yourself a black girl?"
1056
01:10:42,340 --> 01:10:45,778
Which annoys the hell outta me. But I get it.
1057
01:10:45,820 --> 01:10:47,728
There's this feeling that if you get a white girl,
1058
01:10:47,770 --> 01:10:49,948
you've made it or you're on your way.
1059
01:10:49,990 --> 01:10:51,598
So I understand the resentment.
1060
01:10:51,640 --> 01:10:54,096
But at the same time, you like who you like.
1061
01:10:54,138 --> 01:10:56,158
I mean, I've been with all sorts of women.
1062
01:10:56,200 --> 01:11:01,200
Black girls, white girls, Latinas, Asians, Indians.
1063
01:11:01,570 --> 01:11:02,668
I love women.
1064
01:11:02,710 --> 01:11:03,551
Oh, really?
1065
01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,563
I do. I'm an artist.
1066
01:11:05,605 --> 01:11:07,402
They're my greatest asset.
1067
01:11:07,444 --> 01:11:08,998
Shut up.
1068
01:11:09,040 --> 01:11:10,487
I'm just being honest.
1069
01:11:11,530 --> 01:11:12,988
I remember this one time,
1070
01:11:13,030 --> 01:11:16,228
I took this girl out and she was white.
1071
01:11:16,270 --> 01:11:19,198
And her dad was not a fan of black guys at all,
1072
01:11:19,240 --> 01:11:23,038
which he made very clear
throughout the course of the night.
1073
01:11:23,080 --> 01:11:24,958
I mean, every couple of minutes,
1074
01:11:25,000 --> 01:11:26,128
he was blowing her phone up,
1075
01:11:26,170 --> 01:11:27,975
and eventually she read me some of the texts.
1076
01:11:28,017 --> 01:11:29,945
It was this fucked up shit like,
1077
01:11:29,987 --> 01:11:32,765
"DON'T COME HOME TONIGHT YOU FUCKING NIGGER LOVER!"
1078
01:11:32,807 --> 01:11:33,598
In all caps.
1079
01:11:33,640 --> 01:11:35,128
What the hell? That's horrible.
1080
01:11:35,170 --> 01:11:36,118
I know, right?
1081
01:11:36,160 --> 01:11:38,576
So later that night while we're hooking up,
1082
01:11:39,730 --> 01:11:41,774
I kinda start laughing to myself
1083
01:11:41,816 --> 01:11:42,991
because I feel like I'm doing
1084
01:11:43,033 --> 01:11:46,215
my ancestors a solid by
fucking this racist's daughter.
1085
01:11:47,080 --> 01:11:50,368
Wow. What do you want me to say to that?
1086
01:11:50,410 --> 01:11:51,793
Congratulations?
1087
01:11:52,960 --> 01:11:54,748
I'm just saying, I agree with you.
1088
01:11:54,790 --> 01:11:56,398
The forbidden is attractive
1089
01:11:56,440 --> 01:12:00,073
because at one point, this was truly forbidden.
1090
01:12:01,083 --> 01:12:01,916
I know.
1091
01:12:03,647 --> 01:12:06,898
So all these girls and you've
really never been in love?
1092
01:12:06,940 --> 01:12:09,898
No. They didn't seem worth the risk.
1093
01:12:09,940 --> 01:12:13,078
The risk? That's one way to put it.
1094
01:12:13,120 --> 01:12:15,478
I told you, love's the biggest risk.
1095
01:12:15,520 --> 01:12:17,493
My cousin tried to slit his wrists.
1096
01:12:18,820 --> 01:12:22,258
So how are you ever gonna
write about it convincingly?
1097
01:12:22,300 --> 01:12:23,920
Well, my theory is you can have
1098
01:12:23,962 --> 01:12:27,058
the high and inspiration of love without the pain.
1099
01:12:27,100 --> 01:12:30,538
Just keep your relationship short and passionate.
1100
01:12:30,580 --> 01:12:33,043
You don't need to fall in love with your muse.
1101
01:12:34,429 --> 01:12:35,998
But that hasn't worked.
1102
01:12:36,040 --> 01:12:37,507
Doesn't mean it won't.
1103
01:12:48,730 --> 01:12:50,672
Let's keep walking.
1104
01:12:50,714 --> 01:12:52,364
Okay.
1105
01:13:17,805 --> 01:13:18,788
What?
1106
01:13:18,830 --> 01:13:20,024
You ever notice how things
1107
01:13:20,066 --> 01:13:21,898
in life work differently for you?
1108
01:13:21,940 --> 01:13:23,645
What do you mean?
1109
01:13:23,687 --> 01:13:25,198
Well, you're a beautiful,
1110
01:13:25,240 --> 01:13:27,748
blonde white woman in America.
1111
01:13:27,790 --> 01:13:29,890
That's like the ultimate cheat code.
1112
01:13:33,850 --> 01:13:36,388
Have you ever heard of David Foster Wallace?
1113
01:13:36,430 --> 01:13:39,418
Yeah. I'm actually surprised you have.
1114
01:13:39,460 --> 01:13:41,689
Why? Because I'm blonde?
1115
01:13:41,731 --> 01:13:42,778
Well, yeah.
1116
01:13:42,820 --> 01:13:45,298
Well, I have. I actually love to read.
1117
01:13:45,340 --> 01:13:46,678
Thank you very much.
1118
01:13:46,720 --> 01:13:48,478
So you've read his stuff?
1119
01:13:48,520 --> 01:13:49,873
I mean, sort of.
1120
01:13:51,130 --> 01:13:53,728
I picked up this little book once at a bookstore
1121
01:13:53,770 --> 01:13:56,788
and it was basically a commencement speech he gave.
1122
01:13:56,830 --> 01:13:58,360
I read it on the spot
1123
01:13:58,402 --> 01:14:00,313
and it stuck with me ever since.
1124
01:14:01,420 --> 01:14:03,298
Aren't you full of surprises?
1125
01:14:03,340 --> 01:14:08,038
Real estate exec, pole dancer, avid reader.
1126
01:14:08,080 --> 01:14:10,258
Not your typical blonde.
1127
01:14:10,300 --> 01:14:12,463
No. Far from it.
1128
01:14:15,100 --> 01:14:17,938
Well, anyway, in this speech, he tells this story
1129
01:14:17,980 --> 01:14:20,848
of these two fish swimming along in the ocean.
1130
01:14:20,890 --> 01:14:23,158
And while on their way, they pass by this wise,
1131
01:14:23,200 --> 01:14:25,648
old fish going the opposite direction.
1132
01:14:25,690 --> 01:14:27,935
And when the wise old fish passes by, he says,
1133
01:14:27,977 --> 01:14:30,718
"Morning, boys. How's the water?"
1134
01:14:30,760 --> 01:14:32,158
The two fish don't respond.
1135
01:14:32,200 --> 01:14:34,828
They just keep going along until a bit later,
1136
01:14:34,870 --> 01:14:39,162
one turns to the other and says, "What the hell's water?"
1137
01:14:40,703 --> 01:14:42,958
That's kind of how it is, you know.
1138
01:14:43,000 --> 01:14:45,088
At first you're just going through life,
1139
01:14:45,130 --> 01:14:48,508
totally unaware of this obvious
thing until someone brings
1140
01:14:48,550 --> 01:14:53,098
it to your attention and the glass shatters.
1141
01:14:53,140 --> 01:14:55,978
You realize that things
are a little different for you,
1142
01:14:56,020 --> 01:14:58,828
that you can get away with things someone else can't,
1143
01:14:58,870 --> 01:15:00,970
that people treat you a certain way.
1144
01:15:02,140 --> 01:15:06,088
Have I used that to my advantage at times? Of course.
1145
01:15:06,130 --> 01:15:07,798
Wouldn't you?
1146
01:15:07,840 --> 01:15:10,588
Well, yeah, because I have.
1147
01:15:10,630 --> 01:15:12,988
It's like when I was playing basketball,
1148
01:15:13,030 --> 01:15:15,868
people treat you differently
when you're good at something.
1149
01:15:15,910 --> 01:15:17,473
They just let things slide.
1150
01:15:18,370 --> 01:15:19,833
I think we're all suckers
1151
01:15:19,875 --> 01:15:24,133
for proficiency or status or beauty.
1152
01:15:25,090 --> 01:15:26,148
Yeah, me too.
1153
01:15:27,990 --> 01:15:29,456
You know, what's interesting though?
1154
01:15:29,498 --> 01:15:30,289
Hmm?
1155
01:15:30,331 --> 01:15:33,838
How people treat you when you're no longer that thing.
1156
01:15:33,880 --> 01:15:34,713
Go on.
1157
01:15:38,320 --> 01:15:41,773
So when I first started to
introduce myself as a writer,
1158
01:15:42,700 --> 01:15:44,578
I'd get these funny looks like,
1159
01:15:44,620 --> 01:15:46,468
this basketball player's gonna write?
1160
01:15:46,510 --> 01:15:47,353
Yeah. Okay.
1161
01:15:48,250 --> 01:15:50,727
And I get those same looks when my stories weren't
1162
01:15:50,769 --> 01:15:53,788
about the hood, slavery, or sports.
1163
01:15:53,830 --> 01:15:56,698
Suddenly, the respect they had for me as a hooper had
1164
01:15:56,740 --> 01:15:59,638
this patronizing undertone
1165
01:15:59,680 --> 01:16:02,968
and it's been insanely frustrating.
1166
01:16:03,010 --> 01:16:05,638
Like, I'm capable of more than one thing, you know?
1167
01:16:05,680 --> 01:16:08,823
And besides that, there are
other black stories to be told.
1168
01:16:08,865 --> 01:16:12,223
And I want to tell them. Shit, I'm going to tell them.
1169
01:16:13,161 --> 01:16:14,508
I know you will.
1170
01:16:14,550 --> 01:16:15,936
I'm so serious.
1171
01:16:15,978 --> 01:16:16,811
Me, too.
1172
01:19:22,600 --> 01:19:24,133
Beautiful song.
1173
01:19:36,010 --> 01:19:38,848
Real tragedy,
the homeless situation here.
1174
01:19:38,890 --> 01:19:39,723
Yeah, it is.
1175
01:19:41,255 --> 01:19:42,595
I can't even imagine.
1176
01:19:42,637 --> 01:19:44,038
I've actually been there.
1177
01:19:44,080 --> 01:19:45,521
Seriously?
1178
01:19:45,563 --> 01:19:46,521
Thankfully, it was only
1179
01:19:46,563 --> 01:19:48,628
for the first couple of weeks I was out here.
1180
01:19:48,670 --> 01:19:50,833
Slept in my car until I found a place.
1181
01:19:51,820 --> 01:19:53,548
You don't realize how nerve-racking
1182
01:19:53,590 --> 01:19:55,828
it is not having a place to chill,
1183
01:19:55,870 --> 01:19:58,648
let alone call your own until you don't.
1184
01:19:58,690 --> 01:20:00,268
So over a long enough period of time,
1185
01:20:00,310 --> 01:20:03,110
yeah, I could definitely see how it can break someone.
1186
01:20:06,340 --> 01:20:07,648
Where are you from?
1187
01:20:07,690 --> 01:20:10,386
Ohio. Have you been?
1188
01:20:10,428 --> 01:20:11,708
No, but I know you can get
1189
01:20:11,750 --> 01:20:14,188
a lot more for a lot less there.
1190
01:20:14,230 --> 01:20:16,498
True. But winter's a bitch.
1191
01:20:16,540 --> 01:20:18,268
I mean, we pay for this weather out here
1192
01:20:18,310 --> 01:20:20,563
and most days, it's actually worth it.
1193
01:20:22,360 --> 01:20:23,193
Yeah.
1194
01:20:25,450 --> 01:20:27,478
So where's God there anyway?
1195
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:28,738
What do you mean?
1196
01:20:28,780 --> 01:20:29,878
The homeless people.
1197
01:20:29,920 --> 01:20:32,338
I mean, how can there be so much suffering
1198
01:20:32,380 --> 01:20:34,258
in the midst of so much wealth?
1199
01:20:34,300 --> 01:20:36,300
Wouldn't a loving God intervene?
1200
01:20:39,430 --> 01:20:41,008
I guess that's my problem with God.
1201
01:20:41,050 --> 01:20:44,548
I just, I don't understand why. I don't get it.
1202
01:20:44,590 --> 01:20:46,888
I don't think we're supposed to.
1203
01:20:46,930 --> 01:20:49,618
I was reading somewhere how some scientists spend
1204
01:20:49,660 --> 01:20:52,843
their entire lives working on a single question.
1205
01:20:53,680 --> 01:20:56,128
I mean, that right there says it all.
1206
01:20:56,170 --> 01:21:00,718
Whoever or whatever put all this into motion
1207
01:21:00,760 --> 01:21:03,388
had to not only understand those questions,
1208
01:21:03,430 --> 01:21:06,898
but the countless others we haven't even asked yet.
1209
01:21:06,940 --> 01:21:07,828
I mean, I can get behind
1210
01:21:07,870 --> 01:21:10,318
the idea of a supreme intelligence,
1211
01:21:10,360 --> 01:21:13,018
but the idea of that intelligence being all loving,
1212
01:21:13,060 --> 01:21:14,806
is where I have trouble.
1213
01:21:14,848 --> 01:21:15,639
Why?
1214
01:21:15,681 --> 01:21:16,472
Just everything,
1215
01:21:16,514 --> 01:21:18,088
I mean, kids being gunned down at school,
1216
01:21:18,130 --> 01:21:20,908
cops shooting the people
they're supposed to protect,
1217
01:21:20,950 --> 01:21:22,528
people living and shitting
1218
01:21:22,570 --> 01:21:25,168
in the streets of these wealthy cities.
1219
01:21:25,210 --> 01:21:28,018
I mean, just the other day I saw a homeless guy pull
1220
01:21:28,060 --> 01:21:29,938
down his pants and take a shit in the middle
1221
01:21:29,980 --> 01:21:32,698
of Hollywood down the side of a building.
1222
01:21:32,740 --> 01:21:34,678
And the worst part of it was nobody even cared,
1223
01:21:34,720 --> 01:21:38,254
they just continued on like nothing was happening.
1224
01:21:38,296 --> 01:21:39,738
What do you want me to say?
1225
01:21:39,780 --> 01:21:41,683
I don't know. What do you think?
1226
01:21:42,580 --> 01:21:44,188
Can we sit for a sec?
1227
01:21:44,230 --> 01:21:45,063
Sure.
1228
01:21:55,180 --> 01:21:57,295
I do think God is all loving.
1229
01:21:58,630 --> 01:22:03,253
I think he's so loving, he
allows us to do whatever we like.
1230
01:22:04,150 --> 01:22:06,388
But at any time if we need him
1231
01:22:06,430 --> 01:22:08,428
and decide to change our ways,
1232
01:22:08,470 --> 01:22:12,103
he's right there to help and forgive us if we want it.
1233
01:22:13,540 --> 01:22:15,838
What do you mean by right there?
1234
01:22:15,880 --> 01:22:16,708
The way I see it,
1235
01:22:16,750 --> 01:22:19,258
God's walking beside each and every one of us.
1236
01:22:19,300 --> 01:22:22,738
Like how people imagine guardian angels.
1237
01:22:22,780 --> 01:22:26,938
So right now, God's here
individually with you and with me.
1238
01:22:26,980 --> 01:22:28,228
The beauty of it is that
1239
01:22:28,270 --> 01:22:31,198
even though we both have
different relationships with him
1240
01:22:31,240 --> 01:22:34,078
and different levels of belief in him,
1241
01:22:34,120 --> 01:22:35,811
neither relationship is more important
1242
01:22:35,853 --> 01:22:38,368
to him because God doesn't show favoritism.
1243
01:22:38,410 --> 01:22:40,198
So at any point, either of us could ask
1244
01:22:40,240 --> 01:22:42,257
him for something and he'd listen.
1245
01:22:44,110 --> 01:22:47,533
So he's a genie. We just have to make a wish.
1246
01:22:48,460 --> 01:22:50,158
I didn't say that.
1247
01:22:50,200 --> 01:22:55,158
It's more like when you're a
kid and you ask your parents
1248
01:22:55,200 --> 01:22:58,608
for something and that same
thing is something your parents
1249
01:22:58,650 --> 01:23:02,728
want to give you so they
don't hesitate getting it for you.
1250
01:23:02,770 --> 01:23:03,603
Yeah.
1251
01:23:06,430 --> 01:23:07,918
When you're in tune with God,
1252
01:23:07,960 --> 01:23:10,498
which means you're spending time
1253
01:23:10,540 --> 01:23:13,678
with him and building a relationship with him,
1254
01:23:13,720 --> 01:23:15,898
then the things you want start to change.
1255
01:23:15,940 --> 01:23:17,998
Therefore, the things you pray for change.
1256
01:23:18,040 --> 01:23:20,578
And suddenly, you start to see things happening
1257
01:23:20,620 --> 01:23:22,588
around you because now you're asking
1258
01:23:22,630 --> 01:23:24,738
for the things he wants to give you.
1259
01:23:26,170 --> 01:23:29,053
I'm hearing you, but I'm not convinced.
1260
01:23:30,132 --> 01:23:32,848
Well, I'm not trying to convince you.
1261
01:23:32,890 --> 01:23:34,507
You asked what I thought.
1262
01:23:35,650 --> 01:23:36,478
Well, if I were God,
1263
01:23:36,520 --> 01:23:38,068
the first thing I'd do would be to wipe
1264
01:23:38,110 --> 01:23:41,458
out all the people who choose to hurt others.
1265
01:23:41,500 --> 01:23:45,508
I feel you, but that's the beauty of God.
1266
01:23:45,550 --> 01:23:47,518
Like, he values the life of the worst sinner
1267
01:23:47,560 --> 01:23:49,588
just as much as the greatest saint.
1268
01:23:49,630 --> 01:23:52,513
And I think that's what's hard for us to wrap our heads
1269
01:23:52,555 --> 01:23:55,378
around because we don't think like that.
1270
01:23:55,420 --> 01:23:57,268
Well, yeah, I know I don't.
1271
01:23:57,310 --> 01:24:00,088
My father got my mother pregnant and left.
1272
01:24:00,130 --> 01:24:02,205
How could I value them the same?
1273
01:24:03,400 --> 01:24:05,320
I guess from God's perspective,
1274
01:24:05,362 --> 01:24:08,653
he understands people do
selfish shit when they're scared.
1275
01:24:09,490 --> 01:24:10,661
Scared of what?
1276
01:24:14,320 --> 01:24:15,501
Change, I guess.
1277
01:24:20,571 --> 01:24:22,190
Hmm.
1278
01:24:22,232 --> 01:24:24,358
You know what I prayed for yesterday?
1279
01:24:24,400 --> 01:24:25,738
What?
1280
01:24:25,780 --> 01:24:28,498
That God would send me help.
1281
01:24:28,540 --> 01:24:29,373
And?
1282
01:24:30,550 --> 01:24:31,408
I met you.
1283
01:24:44,140 --> 01:24:46,318
You wanna watch the sunset?
1284
01:24:46,360 --> 01:24:47,193
Yeah.
1285
01:24:53,380 --> 01:24:55,494
So don't be offended
1286
01:24:55,536 --> 01:24:57,087
by what I'm about to say.
1287
01:24:58,750 --> 01:25:01,573
Hard thing to promise, but okay.
1288
01:25:03,610 --> 01:25:05,926
You don't seem like a black guy to me.
1289
01:25:09,770 --> 01:25:10,943
What?
1290
01:25:12,760 --> 01:25:16,378
That's incredibly offensive and kind of fucked up,
1291
01:25:16,420 --> 01:25:17,253
but I get it.
1292
01:25:18,280 --> 01:25:20,488
Is it because I'm not saying nigga this
1293
01:25:20,530 --> 01:25:22,213
or nigga that every word,
1294
01:25:23,470 --> 01:25:25,323
or because I'm not walking like this?
1295
01:25:25,365 --> 01:25:26,531
Come on. Geez.
1296
01:25:27,670 --> 01:25:30,745
Is it because I enunciate
when I talk or because I talked
1297
01:25:30,787 --> 01:25:33,368
about Preston Sturges instead of Spike Lee?
1298
01:25:33,410 --> 01:25:34,360
I guess.
1299
01:25:35,418 --> 01:25:37,920
Well, I am a black man. I love Tupac.
1300
01:25:39,550 --> 01:25:41,848
But that doesn't mean I can't love The Killers.
1301
01:25:41,890 --> 01:25:43,678
I mean, Singleton and Spike paved the way,
1302
01:25:43,720 --> 01:25:45,178
but that doesn't mean I can't relate
1303
01:25:45,220 --> 01:25:47,608
to some eccentric white guy who kind
1304
01:25:47,650 --> 01:25:49,767
of happen to see the world like I do.
1305
01:25:51,032 --> 01:25:52,768
You said you wouldn't be offended.
1306
01:25:52,810 --> 01:25:54,227
A hard thing to promise.
1307
01:25:56,819 --> 01:25:57,652
Let's sit.
1308
01:26:05,170 --> 01:26:07,783
But simply put, I'm a man,
1309
01:26:08,680 --> 01:26:11,920
and my interests shouldn't
limited to the color of my skin.
1310
01:26:11,962 --> 01:26:14,308
I mean, that's insane.
1311
01:26:14,350 --> 01:26:15,433
Look at all this.
1312
01:26:17,260 --> 01:26:19,948
Limiting yourself in a world of endless,
1313
01:26:19,990 --> 01:26:23,338
endless possibilities because
it wouldn't be black enough
1314
01:26:23,380 --> 01:26:27,553
to do this or that is honestly
a disservice to your soul.
1315
01:26:30,823 --> 01:26:33,070
I see your point, and I apologize.
1316
01:26:34,368 --> 01:26:36,048
It's okay.
1317
01:26:36,090 --> 01:26:38,413
Thanks. But no, it's not.
1318
01:26:40,960 --> 01:26:43,777
When I think about it, it was a stupid thing to say.
1319
01:26:45,010 --> 01:26:46,536
But it's a real thing I felt.
1320
01:26:46,578 --> 01:26:48,148
I mean, black men on TV
1321
01:26:48,190 --> 01:26:51,643
are always portrayed so violent, angry, masculine.
1322
01:26:52,780 --> 01:26:54,354
Masculine isn't horrible.
1323
01:26:54,396 --> 01:26:56,608
Hush, but you don't seem like that.
1324
01:26:56,650 --> 01:26:58,408
Ouch. That hurts.
1325
01:26:58,450 --> 01:27:03,450
Stop. I just mean that you just seem like you.
1326
01:27:03,613 --> 01:27:05,248
I guess that's your point.
1327
01:27:05,290 --> 01:27:08,113
Pretty much, just like you're you.
1328
01:27:09,983 --> 01:27:13,228
People are always far more complex
1329
01:27:13,270 --> 01:27:14,968
when you get to know them.
1330
01:27:15,010 --> 01:27:17,980
Stereotypes are just a way for us to avoid doing this.
1331
01:27:19,720 --> 01:27:21,478
People are lazy.
1332
01:27:21,520 --> 01:27:24,733
People are unpredictable. They change on a whim.
1333
01:27:26,440 --> 01:27:29,563
To an extent. Some people choose to stay the same.
1334
01:27:30,610 --> 01:27:34,543
True, which is why long
term relationships are so hard.
1335
01:27:37,840 --> 01:27:39,733
Take my marriage for example.
1336
01:27:42,730 --> 01:27:44,553
I mean, when we first got married,
1337
01:27:44,595 --> 01:27:47,368
we were head over heels in love with each other,
1338
01:27:47,410 --> 01:27:49,948
ready to take over the world.
1339
01:27:49,990 --> 01:27:52,978
And for a while, that's exactly what we did.
1340
01:27:53,020 --> 01:27:54,670
We built a successful firm,
1341
01:27:56,590 --> 01:28:00,193
but time passed, and one of us changed.
1342
01:28:02,290 --> 01:28:04,153
Suddenly, he wanted kids.
1343
01:28:04,990 --> 01:28:06,598
But we had decided years ago
1344
01:28:06,640 --> 01:28:09,493
it was just gonna be the two of us and our career.
1345
01:28:11,320 --> 01:28:14,008
Nonetheless, he decided a family
1346
01:28:14,050 --> 01:28:16,085
was more important than the firm.
1347
01:28:17,710 --> 01:28:19,885
He felt we were established enough.
1348
01:28:23,170 --> 01:28:26,668
But I'm not 27 anymore. I mean, I'm almost 40.
1349
01:28:26,710 --> 01:28:29,563
I don't even know if my uterus can take that shit.
1350
01:28:30,880 --> 01:28:34,623
I was always enough for him, but now he wants more.
1351
01:28:35,530 --> 01:28:37,897
And I don't know if I can give that to him.
1352
01:28:39,183 --> 01:28:41,518
Even if I did, I mean,
1353
01:28:41,560 --> 01:28:43,666
what if he decides he wants nothing
1354
01:28:43,708 --> 01:28:45,796
more to do with us and leaves.
1355
01:28:47,710 --> 01:28:50,230
He changed once, he could change again.
1356
01:28:53,440 --> 01:28:56,210
So naturally, we started growing further apart
1357
01:28:58,827 --> 01:29:00,778
and we were no longer in sync.
1358
01:29:02,920 --> 01:29:04,198
I mean, it was little things at first.
1359
01:29:04,240 --> 01:29:06,418
You know, like we'd be in the shower
1360
01:29:06,460 --> 01:29:08,128
and I'd ask to pass the shampoo
1361
01:29:08,170 --> 01:29:10,033
and he'd pass the conditioner.
1362
01:29:11,680 --> 01:29:14,323
But those little things grew to be big things.
1363
01:29:16,208 --> 01:29:19,818
One day I just woke up and no
longer recognized him anymore.
1364
01:29:25,060 --> 01:29:26,926
You think that's why he cheated?
1365
01:29:28,000 --> 01:29:28,833
Maybe.
1366
01:29:30,700 --> 01:29:33,358
So you're saying all this time
1367
01:29:33,400 --> 01:29:36,458
you've been together and you've never changed at all?
1368
01:29:38,500 --> 01:29:39,613
I don't think so.
1369
01:29:41,290 --> 01:29:45,268
I think you were right when
you said people stay the same,
1370
01:29:45,310 --> 01:29:47,633
choose to stay the same, because I did.
1371
01:29:49,630 --> 01:29:53,758
All I wanted was him and we were doing everything
1372
01:29:53,800 --> 01:29:57,357
we set out to do, so why would I wanna change?
1373
01:30:17,247 --> 01:30:22,247
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1374
01:30:23,879 --> 01:30:28,879
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1375
01:30:30,627 --> 01:30:32,804
♪ So don't try and find me ♪
1376
01:30:32,846 --> 01:30:37,817
♪ Please no more questions now ♪
1377
01:30:37,859 --> 01:30:42,859
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1378
01:30:44,819 --> 01:30:49,819
♪ And will you stay in the dark with me? ♪
1379
01:30:51,359 --> 01:30:56,359
♪ Though I cry and I can't barely speak? ♪
1380
01:30:57,087 --> 01:31:02,087
♪ I've shifted so many times this morning ♪
1381
01:31:03,403 --> 01:31:08,403
♪ Who am I? I hardly know the story. ♪
1382
01:31:10,511 --> 01:31:14,488
♪ I'm unraveling I've been winding down ♪
1383
01:31:14,530 --> 01:31:17,367
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1384
01:31:17,409 --> 01:31:21,137
♪ Hopefully evolving, I guess we'll just find out ♪
1385
01:31:21,179 --> 01:31:24,206
♪ I'm unraveling, I've been winding down ♪
1386
01:31:24,248 --> 01:31:29,248
♪ So please forgive me if I raise my voice too loud ♪
1387
01:31:31,451 --> 01:31:35,717
♪ I'm dissolving to a whisper now ♪
1388
01:31:35,759 --> 01:31:38,369
♪ Settle down, just settle down ♪
1389
01:31:38,411 --> 01:31:43,411
♪ And will you stay in the dark with me? ♪
1390
01:31:44,649 --> 01:31:49,649
♪ Though I cry and I can't barely speak? ♪
1391
01:31:50,499 --> 01:31:55,499
♪ I've shifted so many times this morning ♪
1392
01:31:56,750 --> 01:32:00,917
♪ Who am I? I hardly know the story. ♪
1393
01:32:04,191 --> 01:32:07,315
I think you're too hard on yourself.
1394
01:32:07,357 --> 01:32:08,848
What?
1395
01:32:08,890 --> 01:32:10,978
You wanna get a car or walk?
1396
01:32:11,020 --> 01:32:12,937
Car, but what were you saying?
1397
01:32:15,580 --> 01:32:17,680
I think you're too hard on yourself.
1398
01:32:18,520 --> 01:32:20,543
I think you'd be a fantastic mother
1399
01:32:22,019 --> 01:32:23,878
if you were with the right man.
1400
01:32:23,920 --> 01:32:25,618
Are you that man?
1401
01:32:25,660 --> 01:32:26,726
I could be.
1402
01:32:28,865 --> 01:32:31,798
What's the longest relationship
you've been in, sweetie?
1403
01:32:35,740 --> 01:32:37,243
A month, I guess.
1404
01:32:38,440 --> 01:32:41,383
And why is that? Because of your theory on love?
1405
01:32:42,970 --> 01:32:46,843
Yeah, but you seem worth the risk.
1406
01:32:48,100 --> 01:32:53,100
Am I now? What about not falling in love with your muse?
1407
01:32:55,960 --> 01:32:57,043
I was wrong.
1408
01:33:01,240 --> 01:33:03,325
Sweetie, you like the idea of love,
1409
01:33:03,367 --> 01:33:05,443
but you don't want to actually feel it.
1410
01:33:06,459 --> 01:33:09,448
'Cause to do so, you'd have to be willing to open up,
1411
01:33:09,490 --> 01:33:10,621
to be vulnerable.
1412
01:33:12,280 --> 01:33:13,685
I don't think you really want that
1413
01:33:13,727 --> 01:33:16,610
or you would've allowed
yourself to experience it by now.
1414
01:33:18,250 --> 01:33:20,258
My man has to be able to do that.
1415
01:33:29,259 --> 01:33:32,488
I almost left yesterday
when you went to the bathroom.
1416
01:33:32,530 --> 01:33:34,113
Not because you're married,
1417
01:33:35,140 --> 01:33:38,128
but because I could feel some part
1418
01:33:38,170 --> 01:33:40,081
of myself wanting to let you in.
1419
01:33:41,200 --> 01:33:44,053
And you're right. I don't do that.
1420
01:33:46,960 --> 01:33:48,273
So why'd you stay?
1421
01:33:50,290 --> 01:33:52,393
Because when I got up to go,
1422
01:33:54,100 --> 01:33:57,598
suddenly, I got this feeling like God was saying
1423
01:33:57,640 --> 01:33:59,900
I was right where I needed to be
1424
01:34:01,270 --> 01:34:04,033
and that I'd be a fool to leave.
1425
01:34:11,560 --> 01:34:15,403
Amber, you got me wide fucking open.
1426
01:34:34,060 --> 01:34:36,160
I think I'm in love with you.
1427
01:35:46,373 --> 01:35:50,488
So this is it then, our last night?
1428
01:35:50,530 --> 01:35:52,258
Sadly.
1429
01:35:52,300 --> 01:35:53,968
But why?
1430
01:35:54,010 --> 01:35:55,048
Sweetie.
1431
01:35:55,090 --> 01:35:57,688
What? You said it yourself.
1432
01:35:57,730 --> 01:35:59,818
You and your husband are drifting apart.
1433
01:35:59,860 --> 01:36:04,133
You don't recognize him. He cheated on you.
1434
01:36:04,175 --> 01:36:05,977
I'm 10 years older than you.
1435
01:36:06,019 --> 01:36:06,810
So?
1436
01:36:06,852 --> 01:36:09,523
So that's a decade of experiences you haven't had yet.
1437
01:36:10,900 --> 01:36:15,148
By the time you're my age, I'll be almost 50.
1438
01:36:15,190 --> 01:36:17,893
I'm sure you'll be just as beautiful.
1439
01:36:20,290 --> 01:36:21,688
That's not the point.
1440
01:36:21,730 --> 01:36:25,858
And by then, we'll have a decade of shared experiences.
1441
01:36:25,900 --> 01:36:28,318
We already talked about this.
1442
01:36:28,360 --> 01:36:30,598
Then let's talk about it again.
1443
01:36:30,640 --> 01:36:34,468
Don't you feel it, this energy between us?
1444
01:36:34,510 --> 01:36:37,558
Like, you've ignited me.
1445
01:36:37,600 --> 01:36:41,668
It's like my wings have finally caught this breeze
1446
01:36:41,710 --> 01:36:46,483
I've been waiting for, for so long, but-
1447
01:36:48,760 --> 01:36:49,743
But what?
1448
01:36:51,310 --> 01:36:54,058
I'm starting to get really nervous
1449
01:36:54,100 --> 01:36:56,938
because it feels like that breeze is about
1450
01:36:56,980 --> 01:36:59,473
to vanish and I'm going to fall.
1451
01:37:01,240 --> 01:37:05,668
Isn't this what you wanted, to really feel something?
1452
01:37:05,710 --> 01:37:09,928
It is, and it's just as fucking scary as I thought.
1453
01:37:09,970 --> 01:37:12,199
I don't wanna lose you.
1454
01:37:12,241 --> 01:37:13,498
We just met yesterday.
1455
01:37:13,540 --> 01:37:14,957
You don't feel it then?
1456
01:37:17,080 --> 01:37:17,938
I didn't say that.
1457
01:37:17,980 --> 01:37:19,003
So you do?
1458
01:37:19,981 --> 01:37:20,814
It's-
1459
01:37:23,531 --> 01:37:24,997
just not that simple.
1460
01:37:26,020 --> 01:37:27,868
You keep saying that.
1461
01:37:27,910 --> 01:37:29,788
Well, let's make it simple then.
1462
01:37:29,830 --> 01:37:33,523
You and me work. Boom. Simple.
1463
01:37:34,450 --> 01:37:35,447
I'm married.
1464
01:37:35,489 --> 01:37:36,358
Separated.
1465
01:37:36,400 --> 01:37:38,893
No, I'm married, Carter.
1466
01:37:41,110 --> 01:37:44,593
I can't leave my husband. He's a good man.
1467
01:37:45,970 --> 01:37:47,953
I thought I could, but I just can't.
1468
01:37:50,140 --> 01:37:52,980
Don't think I wasn't tempted to run off with you.
1469
01:37:54,820 --> 01:37:55,753
I adore you.
1470
01:37:58,180 --> 01:37:59,230
I feel it, too.
1471
01:38:02,380 --> 01:38:05,279
In another time, who knows what we could have been?
1472
01:38:07,720 --> 01:38:09,763
But in the here and now,
1473
01:38:13,390 --> 01:38:17,443
I have to go back and hope he accepts me back.
1474
01:38:20,200 --> 01:38:23,773
You mean he should hope you accept him back?
1475
01:38:28,690 --> 01:38:29,523
No.
1476
01:38:37,930 --> 01:38:38,763
Shit.
1477
01:38:41,740 --> 01:38:43,215
He didn't cheat, did he?
1478
01:38:50,830 --> 01:38:51,733
Fuck.
1479
01:38:53,410 --> 01:38:54,403
Fuck.
1480
01:38:57,280 --> 01:38:58,118
Fuck!
1481
01:39:02,955 --> 01:39:04,548
This is adultery.
1482
01:39:04,590 --> 01:39:06,988
I've ruined a marriage. Lord, forgive me.
1483
01:39:07,030 --> 01:39:10,363
I've ruined a fucking marriage. Fuck!
1484
01:39:11,830 --> 01:39:14,128
Sweetie, nothing's changed.
1485
01:39:14,170 --> 01:39:15,928
Everything's changed!
1486
01:39:15,970 --> 01:39:18,358
It's one thing if he's fucking your assistant,
1487
01:39:18,400 --> 01:39:19,768
but another if he's at home wondering
1488
01:39:19,810 --> 01:39:21,418
how's his wife's trip going.
1489
01:39:21,460 --> 01:39:25,078
Breaking news, my guy. She's
getting fucked by a black dude!
1490
01:39:25,120 --> 01:39:26,521
It's all the same.
1491
01:39:26,563 --> 01:39:29,938
It's just as much adultery now as it was before.
1492
01:39:29,980 --> 01:39:31,846
Yeah, but it's easier on the conscience
1493
01:39:31,888 --> 01:39:33,281
the other way around.
1494
01:39:36,460 --> 01:39:37,633
Was it all a lie?
1495
01:39:39,220 --> 01:39:41,186
Is your name even Amber Leigh?
1496
01:39:42,112 --> 01:39:43,359
Does it matter?
1497
01:39:43,401 --> 01:39:47,308
Does it matter? Of course it matters!
1498
01:39:47,350 --> 01:39:49,318
I'm over here talking about igniting
1499
01:39:49,360 --> 01:39:51,958
my soul and spreading my fucking wings,
1500
01:39:52,000 --> 01:39:54,118
and I don't even know your goddamn name.
1501
01:39:54,160 --> 01:39:56,083
This is why I don't do this shit!
1502
01:39:57,910 --> 01:39:59,918
You don't have to be so dramatic.
1503
01:39:59,960 --> 01:40:03,478
Dramatic? I think I'm acting
pretty fucking reasonably.
1504
01:40:03,520 --> 01:40:05,335
Do you know what you've awakened in me,
1505
01:40:05,377 --> 01:40:07,333
and you're just gonna go back to him?
1506
01:40:10,540 --> 01:40:14,398
And why the hell are you so damn calm about all this?
1507
01:40:14,440 --> 01:40:18,403
Shouldn't you be sad, upset, something?
1508
01:40:19,240 --> 01:40:22,438
I'm calm because nothing between us has changed.
1509
01:40:22,480 --> 01:40:24,780
I asked you to stay the weekend. Nothing more.
1510
01:40:26,680 --> 01:40:30,088
Yeah, I lied about a few things.
1511
01:40:30,130 --> 01:40:31,453
He didn't cheat on me.
1512
01:40:32,590 --> 01:40:34,049
But we had been drifting apart
1513
01:40:34,091 --> 01:40:37,378
ever since he changed his mind about kids.
1514
01:40:37,420 --> 01:40:41,803
So that story about checking
his phone and the assistant?
1515
01:40:42,910 --> 01:40:46,393
I told you it was cliche. Took it from an airport novel.
1516
01:40:47,680 --> 01:40:49,918
I was worried if I told you that he hadn't wronged me,
1517
01:40:49,960 --> 01:40:50,751
you might have left.
1518
01:40:50,793 --> 01:40:51,748
Damn right!
1519
01:40:51,790 --> 01:40:53,480
And I wanted you to stay.
1520
01:40:55,540 --> 01:40:59,008
Look, we do have an assistant, our nephew.
1521
01:40:59,050 --> 01:41:01,642
I don't think they're sleeping together though.
1522
01:41:02,770 --> 01:41:04,723
That isn't funny.
1523
01:41:05,678 --> 01:41:07,084
I know. Can I finish?
1524
01:41:10,600 --> 01:41:11,848
I mean, we had gotten to the point
1525
01:41:11,890 --> 01:41:14,272
where he no longer touched me anymore
1526
01:41:15,220 --> 01:41:20,220
and he withdrew from me and I allowed him to.
1527
01:41:21,400 --> 01:41:23,743
So I started looking for intimacy elsewhere.
1528
01:41:25,120 --> 01:41:29,563
And the thing is I hadn't found
anyone worthwhile until you.
1529
01:41:32,140 --> 01:41:34,070
I didn't bring anyone else up to my room.
1530
01:41:34,112 --> 01:41:36,907
No one else even made it past the bar.
1531
01:41:36,949 --> 01:41:37,918
I feel so special.
1532
01:41:37,960 --> 01:41:40,318
Well, you should because you saved my marriage.
1533
01:41:40,360 --> 01:41:41,193
How?
1534
01:41:43,240 --> 01:41:46,513
Your spirit and ambition reminded
1535
01:41:46,555 --> 01:41:49,280
me why I fell in love with him in the first place.
1536
01:41:50,929 --> 01:41:53,758
But if I leave him for you and I haven't changed,
1537
01:41:53,800 --> 01:41:55,026
wouldn't you just expect me
1538
01:41:55,068 --> 01:41:57,261
to put you in the same position later on?
1539
01:42:02,830 --> 01:42:03,763
I guess.
1540
01:42:06,070 --> 01:42:09,358
Like you said, people do selfish things
1541
01:42:09,400 --> 01:42:11,242
when they're afraid of change.
1542
01:42:12,460 --> 01:42:14,893
That's what I was, afraid.
1543
01:42:17,500 --> 01:42:19,108
Afraid of what it would do to my body,
1544
01:42:19,150 --> 01:42:21,538
afraid he'd abandoned me and the kids,
1545
01:42:21,580 --> 01:42:23,913
afraid of not being a good enough mother.
1546
01:42:24,970 --> 01:42:26,338
And instead of embracing the chance
1547
01:42:26,380 --> 01:42:31,380
to grow with him, I just ran like my father
1548
01:42:31,460 --> 01:42:33,578
and I refuse to be like my father.
1549
01:42:36,970 --> 01:42:39,693
Maybe you're right. Motherhood might suit me.
1550
01:42:42,341 --> 01:42:44,740
Being with you helped me realize all that.
1551
01:42:51,909 --> 01:42:53,823
I helped you realize all that?
1552
01:42:55,240 --> 01:42:57,965
Well, you got me thinking along the right lines.
1553
01:42:59,380 --> 01:43:01,263
You see why I have to go back?
1554
01:43:04,557 --> 01:43:05,431
Of course.
1555
01:43:08,530 --> 01:43:11,488
Sweetie, I don't want this to end badly.
1556
01:43:11,530 --> 01:43:13,528
I asked you to stay the weekend.
1557
01:43:13,570 --> 01:43:15,169
I want you to stay tonight.
1558
01:43:16,570 --> 01:43:20,728
No, that's insane. Fucking insane.
1559
01:43:20,770 --> 01:43:22,720
I still don't even know your name.
1560
01:43:22,762 --> 01:43:23,848
It's Amber.
1561
01:43:23,890 --> 01:43:24,723
Come on.
1562
01:43:25,870 --> 01:43:27,478
It doesn't matter.
1563
01:43:27,520 --> 01:43:30,178
Look, we've had something that we'll carry
1564
01:43:30,220 --> 01:43:32,098
with us for the rest of our lives.
1565
01:43:32,140 --> 01:43:33,853
Something we both needed.
1566
01:43:36,520 --> 01:43:38,313
My feelings for you are real.
1567
01:43:40,540 --> 01:43:42,282
What matters besides that?
1568
01:43:44,800 --> 01:43:48,163
Why end something so beautiful on a sour note?
1569
01:43:53,590 --> 01:43:55,858
Did you mean what you said
1570
01:43:55,900 --> 01:43:58,267
when you said you were in love with me?
1571
01:44:03,250 --> 01:44:06,418
Yeah, but what does that matter now?
1572
01:44:06,460 --> 01:44:07,505
I'm losing you.
1573
01:44:11,835 --> 01:44:14,300
Sweetie, you know why your cousin hurt himself?
1574
01:44:14,342 --> 01:44:15,868
Yeah, because of this.
1575
01:44:15,910 --> 01:44:18,478
The girl he loved didn't want him back.
1576
01:44:18,520 --> 01:44:19,798
No.
1577
01:44:19,840 --> 01:44:21,808
Because of pride.
1578
01:44:21,850 --> 01:44:23,758
Love isn't meant to be possessed,
1579
01:44:23,800 --> 01:44:27,403
but felt and allowed to flow freely.
1580
01:44:28,270 --> 01:44:29,458
And it's when you try to control
1581
01:44:29,500 --> 01:44:31,453
it that tragedy is inevitable.
1582
01:44:34,930 --> 01:44:37,003
We found love here, you were right,
1583
01:44:37,900 --> 01:44:39,643
we found it in no time at all.
1584
01:44:42,850 --> 01:44:46,633
We have one more night. Let it run its course.
1585
01:44:52,733 --> 01:44:55,243
Don't touch me. I can't do this.
1586
01:46:30,200 --> 01:46:35,200
♪ You're so ♪
1587
01:46:38,808 --> 01:46:43,808
♪ You're so ♪
1588
01:46:47,460 --> 01:46:52,413
♪ You're so experimental ♪
1589
01:46:52,455 --> 01:46:56,178
♪ Experimental ♪
1590
01:46:56,220 --> 01:47:00,811
♪ You're so experimental ♪
1591
01:47:00,853 --> 01:47:04,237
♪ Experimental ♪
1592
01:47:32,028 --> 01:47:36,258
♪ Experimental ♪
1593
01:47:36,300 --> 01:47:40,506
♪ Experimental ♪
1594
01:47:40,548 --> 01:47:44,254
♪ Experimental ♪
1595
01:47:44,296 --> 01:47:47,812
♪ Experimental ♪
1596
01:48:35,620 --> 01:48:36,611
Shit.
1597
01:48:38,110 --> 01:48:41,242
If that isn't right on brand, I don't know what is (laughs).
1598
01:48:43,027 --> 01:48:46,168
You really can't help yourself, can you?
1599
01:48:46,210 --> 01:48:48,260
I'm not in the mood, brah.
1600
01:48:51,620 --> 01:48:54,688
You didn't get her number, Instagram, nothing?
1601
01:48:54,730 --> 01:48:59,730
No. I don't have her number. I don't even know her name.
1602
01:48:59,830 --> 01:49:02,353
It's almost like it never really happened.
1603
01:49:03,580 --> 01:49:06,178
And if I didn't feel how I feel right now,
1604
01:49:06,220 --> 01:49:08,316
I would swear it was just a dream.
1605
01:49:09,857 --> 01:49:11,698
That wasn't no dream, man.
1606
01:49:11,740 --> 01:49:13,715
Your ass been going all weekend.
1607
01:49:16,660 --> 01:49:18,710
What was so special about her anyway?
1608
01:49:20,440 --> 01:49:22,678
What was so special about her?
1609
01:49:22,720 --> 01:49:26,518
That's like asking, why do birds sing?
1610
01:49:26,560 --> 01:49:31,560
Or why do suburban white kids
want to be black so damn bad?
1611
01:49:33,070 --> 01:49:36,013
Some things are just beyond our understanding, brah.
1612
01:49:37,570 --> 01:49:40,063
I see Professor Extra working on his thesis.
1613
01:49:42,820 --> 01:49:44,368
I'm being serious, man.
1614
01:49:48,190 --> 01:49:50,257
She really lit a fire in you, huh?
1615
01:49:56,020 --> 01:49:58,843
You have no idea. No idea.
1616
01:50:00,730 --> 01:50:02,788
Then you know what you need to do.
1617
01:50:02,830 --> 01:50:06,268
Nigga, what? No, I don't know.
1618
01:50:06,310 --> 01:50:07,528
Yeah, you do.
1619
01:50:07,570 --> 01:50:12,570
No, I don't. Like, I don't even know what to feel.
1620
01:50:14,380 --> 01:50:17,173
I'm so fucking mad I can't have her.
1621
01:50:18,100 --> 01:50:19,908
Why couldn't she choose me?
1622
01:50:21,010 --> 01:50:24,553
I got love in me now. Brah, I can feel it.
1623
01:50:27,164 --> 01:50:28,922
But at the same time, I get it.
1624
01:50:31,000 --> 01:50:34,228
I'm just so happy that I got to meet her, that I-
1625
01:50:34,270 --> 01:50:35,361
Shut the fuck up.
1626
01:50:35,403 --> 01:50:36,194
Yo.
1627
01:50:36,236 --> 01:50:38,158
I can't listen to this shit, bro.
1628
01:50:38,200 --> 01:50:39,681
You should be thankful.
1629
01:50:40,630 --> 01:50:43,273
You really feeling something here, finally.
1630
01:50:44,470 --> 01:50:48,148
And I pray, bro, I pray that this is the only pain
1631
01:50:48,190 --> 01:50:50,338
that you feel from this situation.
1632
01:50:50,380 --> 01:50:52,398
And I know you not thinking straight right now,
1633
01:50:52,440 --> 01:50:53,743
but she's married.
1634
01:50:54,790 --> 01:50:57,508
You know how messy that shit would have got. Right?
1635
01:51:01,630 --> 01:51:04,678
Sounds like you both got what you needed,
1636
01:51:04,720 --> 01:51:06,695
and you both should be thankful.
1637
01:51:09,550 --> 01:51:11,442
You know what you need to do.
1638
01:51:12,280 --> 01:51:13,165
So go do it.
1639
01:51:22,270 --> 01:51:24,021
You're a good friend, Mitch.
1640
01:51:25,360 --> 01:51:26,877
You know it, nigga.
1641
01:51:28,835 --> 01:51:29,935
Now go write something.
1642
01:51:29,977 --> 01:51:32,137
Damn, what you still sitting here for?
1643
01:54:34,724 --> 01:54:36,290
♪ I've worked my whole life ♪
1644
01:54:36,332 --> 01:54:38,642
♪ What if I never get it right? ♪
1645
01:54:38,684 --> 01:54:42,359
♪ So many long nights, long nights ♪
1646
01:54:42,401 --> 01:54:46,250
♪ And If I'm uptight, that's just cause I'm so tired ♪
1647
01:54:46,292 --> 01:54:48,671
♪ Don't have the money to burn tonight ♪
1648
01:54:48,713 --> 01:54:51,558
♪ So I'll work until I pass out ♪
1649
01:54:51,600 --> 01:54:53,535
♪ Pour some more espresso ♪
1650
01:54:53,577 --> 01:54:57,966
♪ Madness, yeah, I guess so ♪
1651
01:54:58,008 --> 01:55:01,402
♪ But it's a good night to the write the way I'm feeling ♪
1652
01:55:01,444 --> 01:55:06,444
♪ I'll catch it in a bottle so everybody can drink it ♪
1653
01:55:06,528 --> 01:55:11,528
♪ Here's to the dreamers, painting the sky, hey ♪
1654
01:55:13,054 --> 01:55:17,050
♪ 'Cause you've got the vision ♪
1655
01:55:17,092 --> 01:55:22,092
♪ And the courage to try and make a move ♪
1656
01:55:24,248 --> 01:55:27,940
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1657
01:55:31,720 --> 01:55:36,720
♪ I'm making moves (Yeah) ♪
1658
01:55:37,104 --> 01:55:41,126
♪ You work your whole life hoping to be inspired ♪
1659
01:55:41,168 --> 01:55:44,818
♪ Whispers keeping you up at night ♪
1660
01:55:44,860 --> 01:55:48,374
♪ But don't give up when you're three feet from gold ♪
1661
01:55:48,416 --> 01:55:53,306
♪ That dark night of the soul
is just how the story goes ♪
1662
01:55:53,348 --> 01:55:58,348
♪ Here's to the dreamers painting the sky, hey ♪
1663
01:56:01,192 --> 01:56:03,714
♪ 'Cause you've got the vision ♪
1664
01:56:03,756 --> 01:56:08,756
♪ And the courage to try and make a move ♪
1665
01:56:10,976 --> 01:56:15,101
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1666
01:56:18,476 --> 01:56:21,893
♪ I'm making moves (Yeah) ♪
1667
01:56:40,076 --> 01:56:45,076
♪ This one's for the dreamers painting the sky, hey ♪
1668
01:56:47,964 --> 01:56:52,572
♪ 'Cause you've got the vision and the courage to try ♪
1669
01:56:52,614 --> 01:56:55,886
♪ And make a move ♪
1670
01:56:55,928 --> 01:56:58,101
♪ This one's for the dreamers ♪
1671
01:56:58,143 --> 01:56:59,165
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1672
01:56:59,207 --> 01:57:02,056
♪ Painting the sky ♪
1673
01:57:03,498 --> 01:57:05,938
♪ This one's for the dreamers ♪
1674
01:57:05,980 --> 01:57:10,726
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1675
01:57:10,768 --> 01:57:15,768
♪ Old Man Failure finally takes his flight ♪
1676
01:57:17,788 --> 01:57:21,836
♪ Drops to his knees and sighs ♪
1677
01:57:21,878 --> 01:57:23,848
♪ That's one crazy b- ♪
1678
01:57:23,890 --> 01:57:26,490
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
1679
01:57:26,532 --> 01:57:29,354
♪ Old Man Failure ♪
1680
01:57:29,396 --> 01:57:33,270
♪ Finally takes his flight ♪
1681
01:57:33,312 --> 01:57:37,430
♪ Drops to his knees and sighs ♪
1682
01:57:37,472 --> 01:57:39,398
♪ That's one crazy b- ♪
1683
01:57:39,440 --> 01:57:41,390
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
1684
01:57:41,432 --> 01:57:43,607
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
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