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What is going on?
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What are you up to this early?
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Aren't you meant to be in college?
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No college today.
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Lie in.
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I actually haven't properly cried
yet.
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I didn't cry for months when he died.
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You know, I don't see any fathers
out there.
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No one is asking them what their
child's shoe size is
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or what they may or may not have
noticed. It's okay.
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And you're right, we almost never
see any dads in here.
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It's just my family letter.
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It's to my sister Anna to say
sorry about her fiancé.
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Oh my God, that's Dr. Sheehan.
What are you doing?
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You didn't...
We matched!
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You're not like anyone else I've
ever met, Rach.
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Just say you love me, please.
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I can't lie to you, Rach.
I don't mind.
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Lie to me. Please, I don't mind.
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Please.
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Guys, I still can't bring myself to
cancel the wedding venue.
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Why don't you have a memorial?
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You could make it a celebration of
Aidan.
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You're Aidan, how you knew him.
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Okay, we're going in here to get
memories of Aidan.
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That is it. Do not mention the
memorial.
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She's going to find out at some
point.
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Yeah, well, that point is not today.
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Alright? We don't want to upset her.
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Are you sure Anna doesn't just want
her there?
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Well, she hasn't said anything to
me, so I'm staying out of it.
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Jesus, you make it sound like we're
about to walk across landmines.
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Well, we potentially are.
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This will be fine.
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♪ Theme Music: Cathy Davey - "Little
Red" ♪
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♪ Hey, I, I wouldn't let him in
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♪ No, I, I wouldn't, I wouldn't let
him in.
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♪ His eyes are close together, and he
wears a toothy grin
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♪ Don't let him in
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{\an8}♪ No, I wouldn't if I were you
let him in... ♪
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Are we allowed to hug you?
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Yeah.
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Why wouldn't you be?
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In case we pass you a heroin?
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God.
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Rach, you look great.
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I brought you some chocolate.
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I know you love these.
Thanks.
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Em... yeah, no, I'm good.
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Em...
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I thought...
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I was kind of expecting Anna as
well.
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I wouldn't hold your breath.
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What's that supposed to mean?
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Listen, Rachel, do you have any nice
memories of Aidan?
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Why are you asking me that?
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We just thought it'd be nice, you
know, for Anna to have them.
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I'd like to help her remember.
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Do you have your phone?
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I'm going to make a slide show for
her.
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Oh, no, I don't have my phone.
They took it.
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Seriously? I would die.
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Why? In case it takes a drug dealer.
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Some people are sex addicts. Porn.
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Okay, okay.
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Can we please just focus?
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Rachel, like anything about Aidan?
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Em...
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Literally anything, Rachel?
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I don't know what you want from me.
Em...
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Just whatever comes to your mind.
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You lived with him for several
months.
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Oh, he crossed his legs when he sat.
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Em... he didn't like WhatsApp.
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He was really into American politics.
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Really?
Yeah.
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Em...
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Red side? Blue side?
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I don't know. Whichever side isn't
awful.
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Blue.
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Was he funny?
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Anna laughed a lot when he was
around.
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Great. Hilariously funny.
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That is too much, Claire.
Funny will do.
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But also, did he have any interests?
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Like any hobbies? Anything?
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Oh, he sold his bike online
when he moved in with us.
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Great. What kinda bike?
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I dunno.
Why does that matter?
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Well, a mountain bike, he's
outdoorsy.
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E-bike, he's an environmentalist.
Was it a unicycle?
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Yeah, you're a clown. Okay.
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Not helpful.
You know he didn't like us.
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Us?
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Yeah.
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He thought she was...
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He thought she was codependent
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and that we were too
family-orientated.
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Hang on.
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Now, he didn't like us or he didn't
like you?
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You and Anna can be very clingy.
Clingy?
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It's hard to be clingy with someone
who doesn't even visit you in rehab.
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Jesus, Rachel, her fiancé just died.
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Okay, so we know that Aidan was
funny and athletic and...
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Did Anna tell you that I wrote to her
to apologise?
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No?
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No.
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Well, it's just easier to blame
Rachel for everything.
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Look, I think we should just go.
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Go on. Aidan made Anna laugh.
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He crossed his legs and he sold a
bike. It's good enough for me.
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Or maybe you could just give us a
ring or something.
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She hasn't had a phone, Claire.
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Or something! If you remember
anything else.
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I mean, we have a few days until the
memorial.
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Sorry.
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Sorry, what?
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Em...
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A memorial?
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Anna is having a memorial
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for Aidan because his parents
took him back to America.
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And Anna can't fly, punctured lung.
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So.
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And she's planning this
while I'm still in here.
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Why?
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There's a lot going on, Rachel-
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The memorial is not for you.
It's for Anna.
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She needs it.
Yeah.
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She hasn't said anything to us
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about whether she wants you there or
not.
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Go on, just leave.
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Ah, I don't be like that. We've
got...
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We've got 45 minutes left.
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Do you want to show us around?
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No, seriously, leave.
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Come on.
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Rachel.
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I'll give you some space.
I'll see you soon.
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It's okay, Rach.
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Bags at the door.
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Taxi booked for the morning.
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They better not let me down.
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Those apps are going to the dogs.
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Paul, before you go to London, will
you please hang up those shelves?
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Ah, Mags, not now.
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Where's my passport?
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I've been asking you for months.
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Paul!
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Hi, Dad.
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How are you?
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Good, yeah.
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Dad, would you mind putting up some
shelves for me?
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No, I have the drill and the shelves
are there.
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They're just...
Hang up.
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It's two in the sitting room and one
in the...
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Sorry. Sorry, dad.
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Just one second. What?
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Hang up the phone. Hang up the
phone.
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Hang up the phone.
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I don't need him to put up some
simple shelves.
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I know how to put up a shelf.
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I asked you ages ago and you've
been- I've been busy, you know?
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Sorry, Dad.
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Paul is now saying that he can do
it, and he will.
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So why don't you come tomorrow?
Absolutely.
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We'll see if it's done.
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I will do it right now.
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Thanks, Dad.
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You're the best.
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You didn't join us for breakfast.
I'm not hungry.
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Right. Well, listen, I overheard
something.
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Now, I know you're about to do
laundry with Chris, right?
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Yes, Jackie, what law or commandment
am I breaking now?
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No, none, none. It's just that...
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Well, I heard Chris tell Neil
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that he's going to give it to you in
the laundry room.
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What?
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Really?
Yes.
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Did he say that? Did he actually use
those words?
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Yes. He said, I'm going to give it
to her.
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I bet he's huge.
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Do you want a thong?
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No, no.
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I'm not actually going to have sex
with Chris in the laundry room.
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Are you mental?
Why not?
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I mean, I would.
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I mean, a woman has her needs.
No, no.
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I've got a boyfriend.
You absolutely do not.
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Not any more. I was there, Rachel.
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That ship was both sailed and sunk.
Titanic.
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Good night.
Really?
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Yeah.
Don't think I can fix it?
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Maybe in a few years.
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You know, you stay sober.
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Get your act together. Get some
Botox. Dye that hair.
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Then maybe.
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Okay.
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Give me the thong.
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Alright, go on. Safe flight.
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I have no control over the safety of
the flight.
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Alright.
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Hey, come here.
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You know the next time I see you,
I might be pregnant.
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Oh, yeah.
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Promise you won't do another
test until I get back, okay?
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Okay.
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I promise.
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Now, will you hang up that suit as
soon as you get into the- Yeah.
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Did you put a crease in the
trousers?
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Obviously. You know what mum says,
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if you don't have a crease in your
trousers,
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you're one step away from the dole
office.
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Fine stance from a woman
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who's benefited so heavily
from the children's allowance.
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Okay, be safe.
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Why do you keep saying that?
I don't know.
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Maybe the memorial is getting in on
me.
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No shit.
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I'm sorry you won't be there.
Yeah.
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So am I.
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You know how much I love hanging
out with the Walsh sisters?
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Getting called cheap and dry all
day.
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Would you be a shame to miss that.
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Yeah, fair enough.
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Okay, go on. Safe flight.
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Hey. Hey.
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Do you know if Maggie's calling over
this morning?
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No, she's working.
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Why? Is there anything I can help
with?
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No, was just going to see if she
wanted to bring me to work.
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I can drive you to work, but...
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Are you ready to go back?
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I actually don't know.
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I just think I need like a...
You're not worried about money?
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No, no, no. I think I...
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No, I'm on full pay.
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I just think I need a distraction.
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Hmm.
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There's post inside on the table.
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You could read that, respond.
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Might pass some time.
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Stop pushing that letter on me,
Dad.
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You know I've already fought with
mum about it.
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Okay, I don't want any more fights.
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I'm just saying...
Well, don't.
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You're all obsessed with me reading
that letter from Rachel.
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And none of you actually care that
any new information
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that I process is making me
lose parts of Aidan.
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Lose parts?
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Yeah, I think I'm forgetting him.
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I can't remember his smell.
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You will.
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You will remember.
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You're grieving.
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Yeah, but what if I don't?
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What if my brain can only hold so
much information,
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that anything new...
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erases something old.
259
00:12:25,959 --> 00:12:28,919
That's not how memory works.
I have a book.
260
00:12:29,080 --> 00:12:30,439
Yeah, but Dad, I don't need a book.
261
00:12:30,440 --> 00:12:31,680
I like to just need...
262
00:12:33,199 --> 00:12:34,278
I don't know.
263
00:12:34,279 --> 00:12:36,239
I think I just need my brain...
264
00:12:37,839 --> 00:12:39,319
Cant, like, figure it out.
265
00:12:43,040 --> 00:12:45,120
In my mind, he's just gone back for
Thanksgiving.
266
00:12:46,440 --> 00:12:48,198
Aw, I know, love. It's awful.
267
00:12:48,199 --> 00:12:49,239
It's awful.
268
00:12:51,839 --> 00:12:53,440
Do you know what I think?
269
00:12:53,800 --> 00:12:55,159
Mm.
270
00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:57,599
I think you need to talk to one of
your sisters.
271
00:12:58,919 --> 00:13:02,720
And personally, I think you need to
talk to Rachel.
272
00:13:03,040 --> 00:13:05,080
The last person I need to speak to
is Rachel.
273
00:13:06,519 --> 00:13:08,878
Look, I know you're angry.
Angry?
274
00:13:08,879 --> 00:13:11,119
Dad, angry Angry is how you think I
feel.
275
00:13:11,120 --> 00:13:13,959
Dad, I was angry when she puked my
new handbag.
276
00:13:16,199 --> 00:13:18,238
And I was angry when we missed
the first 40 minutes
277
00:13:18,239 --> 00:13:19,958
of Taylor Swift because she couldn't
find the tickets.
278
00:13:19,959 --> 00:13:22,439
But like, Dad, anger is not how I'm
feeling right now.
279
00:13:22,440 --> 00:13:24,040
Right now- Okay, okay, okay.
280
00:13:24,480 --> 00:13:26,040
Don't get worked up.
281
00:13:26,839 --> 00:13:28,440
Don't get worked up. It's alright.
282
00:13:29,080 --> 00:13:31,879
It's not good for you.
You just don't get it.
283
00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:33,839
Huh?
You don't get it.
284
00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:36,120
What...?
285
00:13:51,800 --> 00:13:53,480
So are you excited for your freedom?
286
00:13:55,239 --> 00:13:56,239
Yeah.
287
00:13:57,360 --> 00:13:58,360
I know.
288
00:14:00,680 --> 00:14:01,879
I've been here before.
289
00:14:02,040 --> 00:14:04,918
I'm thinking I had it licked leaving
treatment
290
00:14:04,919 --> 00:14:08,000
and trying to stay sober on the
outside and then...
291
00:14:09,279 --> 00:14:10,800
Well, second time's the charm.
292
00:14:12,319 --> 00:14:15,519
And when I get out, we can hang out
and go to meetings and stuff.
293
00:14:16,400 --> 00:14:17,879
Help each other, you know?
294
00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:21,199
Yeah, I'll definitely be whacking
the meetings in anyway.
295
00:14:21,839 --> 00:14:23,559
90 in 90, all the way.
296
00:14:25,160 --> 00:14:26,160
What?
297
00:14:26,800 --> 00:14:28,120
90 meetings in 90 days.
298
00:14:29,199 --> 00:14:30,239
Oh. Yeah.
299
00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:33,239
That sounds addict-y.
300
00:14:34,400 --> 00:14:36,439
Yeah, but I've had to be addicted to
something.
301
00:14:36,440 --> 00:14:38,400
Meetings aren't the worst, right?
Mmm.
302
00:14:41,040 --> 00:14:42,040
Well.
303
00:14:43,919 --> 00:14:45,440
I'm really going to miss you.
304
00:14:48,839 --> 00:14:49,838
Yeah, well, sure...
305
00:14:49,839 --> 00:14:52,199
you'll be out yourself in a few
weeks, right?
306
00:14:53,279 --> 00:14:56,119
I mean, you'll have to fill me in
307
00:14:56,120 --> 00:14:58,160
all the drama I'm going to miss in
here.
308
00:14:58,800 --> 00:14:59,800
Mmm.
309
00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:03,239
And you'll have to mind me and take
me to all those meetings.
310
00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:23,279
Just leave it.
311
00:15:24,639 --> 00:15:26,719
You're a menace to surprise me.
312
00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:28,120
I know.
313
00:15:30,360 --> 00:15:31,360
No, no, no, no.
314
00:15:32,199 --> 00:15:33,919
No Rach, no Rach.
315
00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:36,279
You don't want this.
316
00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:38,080
This could destroy us.
317
00:15:38,559 --> 00:15:40,399
No, this could destroy us.
318
00:15:40,400 --> 00:15:42,440
You could destroy me.
Oh fuck.
319
00:15:47,559 --> 00:15:51,159
No, no, no, no, no. Rach, Rach,
Rach, Rach.
320
00:15:51,160 --> 00:15:53,119
I can't, I can't do this. I can't, okay.
321
00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:55,839
This is like... I've made this
mistake before. Okay?
322
00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:00,040
Mistake?
No, I...
323
00:16:00,199 --> 00:16:02,759
I'm a mistake. Thanks very much.
No, I didn't mean that.
324
00:16:02,760 --> 00:16:04,839
I just meant like, I can't relapse
again.
325
00:16:05,519 --> 00:16:06,680
I'm not even out of here yet.
326
00:16:07,919 --> 00:16:09,119
Jackie told me that you told her
327
00:16:09,120 --> 00:16:11,440
that you were going to give it to me
in the laundry room.
328
00:16:15,440 --> 00:16:17,759
Oh my God, I meant this. I was going
to give you this.
329
00:16:17,760 --> 00:16:18,839
You missed breakfast.
330
00:16:21,919 --> 00:16:23,279
Oh, my God.
331
00:16:24,040 --> 00:16:25,040
Jackie.
332
00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:30,238
Oh, Rach, I really like you.
333
00:16:30,239 --> 00:16:32,359
I really like you. I just, I can't.
334
00:16:32,360 --> 00:16:34,120
I don't want this trouble again.
You know?
335
00:16:34,839 --> 00:16:35,919
Am I trouble?
336
00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:40,120
I'm sorry. It's just...
337
00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:42,879
I'm sorry, it's not right.
338
00:16:49,160 --> 00:16:52,760
Is that okay?
Yeah, okay.
339
00:16:53,599 --> 00:16:54,599
Grand.
340
00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:03,360
When you're done, come into my
office.
341
00:17:05,559 --> 00:17:07,918
You're not taking this seriously.
342
00:17:07,919 --> 00:17:09,800
He asked to do laundry with me.
343
00:17:10,279 --> 00:17:12,239
He was flirting with me.
Was he?
344
00:17:13,079 --> 00:17:16,078
You're so vulnerable to other
people's attention,
345
00:17:16,079 --> 00:17:18,278
you'd do anything to feel their
warmth.
346
00:17:18,279 --> 00:17:20,878
I don't care about getting other
people's attention.
347
00:17:23,160 --> 00:17:25,079
It'd actually be nice to be forgotten
for a while.
348
00:17:25,598 --> 00:17:26,597
Would it?
349
00:17:26,598 --> 00:17:29,040
I think you constantly feel
forgotten.
350
00:17:29,480 --> 00:17:30,479
Well, you're twisted.
351
00:17:30,480 --> 00:17:32,238
You just put thoughts in people's
heads.
352
00:17:32,239 --> 00:17:36,278
You're mistaking Chris's honesty
with you for intimacy.
353
00:17:36,279 --> 00:17:38,839
I'm not. Nothing happened.
354
00:17:39,120 --> 00:17:42,439
Because Chris is further along than
you are
355
00:17:42,440 --> 00:17:44,959
and had the strength not to use you.
356
00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:47,400
Use me?
357
00:17:48,279 --> 00:17:49,319
He would never do that.
358
00:17:50,120 --> 00:17:51,479
I'm going to tell him you said that.
359
00:17:51,480 --> 00:17:52,959
Yeah, do.
I will.
360
00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:56,719
It's hard to feel used sexually,
361
00:17:56,720 --> 00:18:00,040
but it's worse if no one wants to
use you.
362
00:18:05,120 --> 00:18:06,598
What the fuck does that mean?
363
00:18:06,599 --> 00:18:10,878
Your reaction to Chris saying no
shows how desperate you are
364
00:18:10,879 --> 00:18:12,359
for other people's approval.
365
00:18:12,360 --> 00:18:13,839
Oh my God.
366
00:18:14,559 --> 00:18:15,559
Oh my God.
367
00:18:16,440 --> 00:18:17,440
You're painful.
368
00:18:19,760 --> 00:18:22,800
The shit that you come out with and
you think you're being inspiring.
369
00:18:22,959 --> 00:18:26,039
Your rudeness is a weapon and
an armour,
370
00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,359
and both are useless.
371
00:18:27,360 --> 00:18:30,199
See, just more of your bullshit.
372
00:18:30,440 --> 00:18:32,360
Keep trying, you know it's true.
373
00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:35,839
Nothing you've ever said to me is
true.
374
00:18:36,400 --> 00:18:37,558
You're fucking charlatan.
375
00:18:37,559 --> 00:18:40,639
You give people insecurities so you
can swoop in and solve them.
376
00:18:41,319 --> 00:18:43,160
I'm not an idiot, Rachel.
377
00:18:43,800 --> 00:18:46,558
You get validation from having sex
with men
378
00:18:46,559 --> 00:18:48,679
because it makes you feel
chosen,
379
00:18:48,680 --> 00:18:51,080
and you never felt chosen at home.
380
00:18:51,519 --> 00:18:54,279
Shut up, you fucking barren bitch.
381
00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:56,760
I know you.
382
00:18:57,800 --> 00:19:00,159
You're just one of those childless
old women
383
00:19:00,160 --> 00:19:02,599
who gets jobs where you can treat
people like kids.
384
00:19:44,440 --> 00:19:45,760
Anna?
Uh-huh?
385
00:19:45,959 --> 00:19:47,639
Will you come here, please?
What?
386
00:19:48,080 --> 00:19:49,080
Will you come here?
387
00:19:52,519 --> 00:19:54,359
Here, I have this really gross spot
on my back.
388
00:19:54,360 --> 00:19:55,800
Can you pop it for me?
Sit down.
389
00:19:56,199 --> 00:19:58,598
But you're not allowed to screech or
hit me.
390
00:19:58,599 --> 00:20:00,119
Well, then don't hurt me this time.
391
00:20:00,120 --> 00:20:01,800
Fine, I'll go.
Please, Anna.
392
00:20:03,680 --> 00:20:04,680
Thank you.
393
00:20:05,680 --> 00:20:06,679
Bleugh.
394
00:20:06,680 --> 00:20:07,720
I know.
395
00:20:11,720 --> 00:20:13,959
Dad keeps shiteing on about some
letter from Rachel.
396
00:20:14,319 --> 00:20:15,518
Yeah, I know. He does to me, too.
397
00:20:15,519 --> 00:20:16,919
Will he ever stop?
I know.
398
00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:18,480
I opened it.
399
00:20:20,040 --> 00:20:21,039
What?
400
00:20:21,040 --> 00:20:22,159
Oh, come on, Anna.
401
00:20:22,160 --> 00:20:23,238
It's not a Ouija board.
402
00:20:23,239 --> 00:20:25,760
A demon's not going to pop out if I
open an envelope.
403
00:20:26,559 --> 00:20:27,958
Helen, that was my post to open.
404
00:20:27,959 --> 00:20:29,680
Yeah, but you were never going to
open it.
405
00:20:30,400 --> 00:20:31,480
Come on, do my back.
406
00:20:33,879 --> 00:20:35,439
Ow, you bitch.
407
00:20:35,440 --> 00:20:36,879
It was deep, it was deep, it was
deep.
408
00:20:43,599 --> 00:20:45,319
It was a waste of a stamp, anyway.
409
00:20:46,199 --> 00:20:47,838
Sorry, what do you mean? It was
blank?
410
00:20:47,839 --> 00:20:48,919
It may as well have been.
411
00:20:49,319 --> 00:20:52,079
She said that she was sorry that
she's stuck inside
412
00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:55,839
when you need her, wishes that you
would talk to her, you'd visit her.
413
00:20:57,720 --> 00:20:58,918
And did she apologise?
414
00:20:58,919 --> 00:20:59,999
Not really, no.
415
00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:01,558
Does she have any sense of...
416
00:21:01,559 --> 00:21:03,279
Look, Anna, it's downstairs if you
want to read it.
417
00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:10,480
Thank you.
418
00:21:23,959 --> 00:21:25,519
Are you alright, Margaret?
419
00:21:25,959 --> 00:21:27,360
Yeah, all good.
420
00:21:29,199 --> 00:21:30,199
Alright, I'm off.
421
00:21:30,760 --> 00:21:33,000
Anywhere interesting?
God, you smell fab.
422
00:21:33,239 --> 00:21:34,879
College, Maggie?
Oh, yeah.
423
00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:36,400
How's that going?
424
00:21:37,040 --> 00:21:38,040
Bye Kate.
425
00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:40,680
Helen Walsh, what have you done?
426
00:21:41,239 --> 00:21:42,558
What did you do to the back of your
head?
427
00:21:42,559 --> 00:21:44,000
Don't Mum, I have to go.
428
00:21:46,720 --> 00:21:49,120
The bottom half of her hair is gone.
429
00:21:49,879 --> 00:21:52,400
Mum, it's just hair. It'll grow
back.
430
00:21:52,639 --> 00:21:54,959
I wonder about her sometimes.
431
00:21:55,720 --> 00:21:56,959
Yeah, she's a bit cryptic.
432
00:21:57,959 --> 00:22:00,839
Well, thank God I have one
uncomplicated daughter.
433
00:22:02,720 --> 00:22:03,719
Here, what's the story?
434
00:22:03,720 --> 00:22:05,079
What are you going to wear
now for this memorial?
435
00:22:05,080 --> 00:22:07,559
My funeral coat is too heavy for
going to be indoors all day.
436
00:22:07,760 --> 00:22:10,800
I was going to wear my navy work
suit.
437
00:22:11,319 --> 00:22:13,878
Navy? Oh, God, No, Margaret, come on.
438
00:22:13,879 --> 00:22:15,160
It has to be black.
439
00:22:15,279 --> 00:22:16,999
You should wear your black dress with
the gold.
440
00:22:17,000 --> 00:22:18,040
It's very slimming.
441
00:22:19,879 --> 00:22:21,760
Yeah, that was an option, too.
442
00:22:22,839 --> 00:22:24,198
Good. Good girl.
443
00:22:24,199 --> 00:22:27,039
Now, I have to get up to the centre
before they close, get something new,
444
00:22:27,040 --> 00:22:29,400
and I want to book a blow dry for
Anna for the morning.
445
00:22:30,559 --> 00:22:32,918
Mum, I really don't think Anna is
going to want to get her
446
00:22:32,919 --> 00:22:34,039
hair blow dry in the morning.
447
00:22:34,040 --> 00:22:36,879
We all have to be presentable,
every one of us.
448
00:22:37,480 --> 00:22:39,278
Maureen Kilfeather had two
fascinators
449
00:22:39,279 --> 00:22:41,999
on standby when Deirdre got married.
It's not a wedding.
450
00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:45,440
We need to let people see what
the wedding could have been.
451
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:47,879
Why are you fighting with me in
this?
452
00:22:49,680 --> 00:22:52,480
I'm not. I'm not fighting you at
all, Mum.
453
00:22:52,639 --> 00:22:54,120
I agree with you completely.
454
00:22:54,639 --> 00:22:55,639
Good girl.
455
00:22:56,080 --> 00:22:57,479
Do you need anything from the centre?
456
00:22:57,480 --> 00:22:58,519
No.
457
00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:01,080
Actually, yeah, mum, would you pick
up some cornflakes?
458
00:23:02,279 --> 00:23:03,918
No, no, they're full of sugar.
459
00:23:03,919 --> 00:23:05,559
There's porridge up there in the
press.
460
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:13,319
Porridge and cornflakes are not the
same thing. Are they?
461
00:23:16,360 --> 00:23:18,440
We're going to have to get some
cornflakes.
462
00:24:53,519 --> 00:24:54,519
Hey.
463
00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:56,760
Dan, hi.
It's good to see you.
464
00:24:58,160 --> 00:24:59,760
Can I give you a hug?
Yeah.
465
00:25:03,800 --> 00:25:06,039
Only heard the news on Monday.
466
00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:07,559
I'm so sorry, love.
467
00:25:08,120 --> 00:25:09,120
Thanks.
468
00:25:09,639 --> 00:25:11,359
Sorry, I probably should have told
you.
469
00:25:11,360 --> 00:25:13,319
Just had this being all over the
shop.
470
00:25:13,559 --> 00:25:14,959
Stop, don't be silly.
471
00:25:16,879 --> 00:25:17,879
How's Rachel?
472
00:25:18,319 --> 00:25:19,319
Fine.
473
00:25:19,599 --> 00:25:20,639
Is she?
Mm-hmm.
474
00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:23,080
Haven't heard from her for a long
while, though.
475
00:25:24,319 --> 00:25:25,559
How's she managing?
476
00:25:26,480 --> 00:25:27,480
She's on a holiday.
477
00:25:28,279 --> 00:25:29,279
On holidays?
478
00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:31,879
After Aidan died, wow.
479
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:34,919
Even for Rachel, that's a tad...
480
00:25:35,360 --> 00:25:37,319
Dan, I'd love to chat, but I...
481
00:25:37,559 --> 00:25:41,000
Someone called Janie dropped in this
for you.
482
00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:42,558
She called in to ours,
483
00:25:42,559 --> 00:25:45,198
but I told her you were probably at
your folks.
484
00:25:45,199 --> 00:25:47,639
What did she say? What did she look?
What did she...
485
00:25:49,879 --> 00:25:51,279
What did she look like?
486
00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:52,440
Hm...
487
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:53,720
7.
488
00:25:54,319 --> 00:25:55,879
Brunette. Petite.
489
00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:57,080
Great teeth.
490
00:25:57,440 --> 00:25:58,440
American, I think.
491
00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:03,199
She said she just wanted to talk,
and would you give her a call?
492
00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:06,440
Thanks.
493
00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:10,360
I know Rachel found these great.
494
00:26:11,199 --> 00:26:12,199
It's a tough time.
495
00:26:12,919 --> 00:26:13,919
Go easy on yourself.
496
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:17,199
No charge, obviously.
497
00:26:26,879 --> 00:26:27,879
Fuck.
498
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:36,680
♪ Samantha Mumba - "Gotta Tell You"
plays ♪
499
00:26:36,839 --> 00:26:41,440
♪ Don't wanna need you when you won't
need me too ♪
500
00:26:41,559 --> 00:26:45,759
♪ I wanna tell you this now but it
wouldn't be right
501
00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:51,879
♪ If I didn't tell you this tonight ♪
502
00:26:57,480 --> 00:26:59,839
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
503
00:27:00,080 --> 00:27:03,480
♪ Now you're back inside my house
again ♪
504
00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:07,599
♪ I'm trying deeper to explain ♪
505
00:27:08,120 --> 00:27:12,518
♪ Because, baby, I want to get it on
♪
506
00:27:12,519 --> 00:27:16,480
♪ And, baby, you're the one for me ♪
507
00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:21,239
♪ And now that I have got you all
alone ♪
508
00:27:21,599 --> 00:27:25,838
♪ After all this talkin' on the phone
♪
509
00:28:00,040 --> 00:28:01,518
Hey, I was just thinking about you.
510
00:28:01,519 --> 00:28:05,120
So are Converse too casual for our
first date?
511
00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:08,198
Never mind. Would you like to meet
earlier?
512
00:28:08,199 --> 00:28:09,760
Get a drink or two before dinner?
513
00:28:10,839 --> 00:28:11,959
Is that too many questions?
514
00:28:12,279 --> 00:28:14,239
Please, please don't hate me for
this.
515
00:28:14,959 --> 00:28:16,040
Okay? I just...
516
00:28:16,959 --> 00:28:19,518
I'm sitting here about to put my
makeup on, and I just really,
517
00:28:19,519 --> 00:28:21,080
really want to be on my own.
518
00:28:21,400 --> 00:28:22,399
Okay.
519
00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:23,480
It's just...
520
00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:27,119
It's been so crazy with my sisters
in the hospital,
521
00:28:27,120 --> 00:28:28,480
and I just really...
522
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:33,720
Well, it's just really lovely to sit
in silence.
523
00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:36,720
Yeah.
I just want to potter.
524
00:28:37,599 --> 00:28:39,319
Is that okay?
525
00:28:40,239 --> 00:28:41,680
Em...
Do you hate me?
526
00:28:44,559 --> 00:28:47,879
But I just want to make sure this
isn't a polite way to ghost me.
527
00:28:48,319 --> 00:28:50,160
No, definitely not.
528
00:28:50,319 --> 00:28:51,999
It's just nice to have absolutely no
one around
529
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,480
and not be tripping over people or
Lego or have someone need me.
530
00:28:56,360 --> 00:28:58,079
Okay, I'm going to hang up now
before
531
00:28:58,080 --> 00:28:59,919
I start taking this personally.
532
00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:01,760
Okay, bye.
I'll see you soon.
533
00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:23,959
Hi, Luke.
Hi, Mags.
534
00:29:25,080 --> 00:29:27,278
Is Anna around?
No, actually, she's not.
535
00:29:27,279 --> 00:29:28,440
I haven't seen her.
536
00:29:28,839 --> 00:29:29,839
Your dad here?
537
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:33,279
No, he's gone to Dundrum to collect
Mum and get some dinner.
538
00:29:33,599 --> 00:29:34,599
Alright, nice.
539
00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:36,680
Are you okay?
540
00:29:37,120 --> 00:29:38,638
Do you want to come in?
It's just me here.
541
00:29:38,639 --> 00:29:39,720
Kate's in bed.
Yeah.
542
00:29:40,559 --> 00:29:43,359
Sorry, Maggie, I don't really know
why I'm here, to be honest.
543
00:29:43,360 --> 00:29:45,760
I went to go and see Rachel, and...
544
00:29:46,760 --> 00:29:47,759
I don't know.
545
00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:49,278
I feel a bit weird about the whole
thing.
546
00:29:49,279 --> 00:29:51,080
Come on in. We'll put on the kettle.
547
00:29:52,720 --> 00:29:53,719
Okay.
548
00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:56,479
Mum was telling me that you have
to say everything in front
549
00:29:56,480 --> 00:29:57,519
of the whole group.
550
00:29:58,080 --> 00:29:59,080
Yeah.
551
00:29:59,559 --> 00:30:00,000
I felt like such a bully.
552
00:30:02,160 --> 00:30:05,120
They told me it would help her if
I was brutally honest, so I was.
553
00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:08,279
They said that she's as sick as her
secrets.
554
00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:10,080
Whatever that means.
555
00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:12,719
I don't know what that means,
556
00:30:12,720 --> 00:30:14,239
but I know that she's gonna...
557
00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:17,319
eventually know that you were just
trying to help her.
558
00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:18,440
Will she?
559
00:30:18,720 --> 00:30:19,720
Yeah.
560
00:30:20,080 --> 00:30:21,839
I saw how hurt she was, Mags.
561
00:30:23,040 --> 00:30:24,760
I mean, I told her I didn't love
her.
562
00:30:25,239 --> 00:30:27,199
But you do.
Of course, I love her.
563
00:30:28,720 --> 00:30:30,440
I just don't know where we go from
here.
564
00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:38,159
I would ask you to come back
to my house,
565
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,238
but I've got my cousins are
staying there at the moment.
566
00:30:40,239 --> 00:30:41,999
So it's not really worth it.
No, it's fine.
567
00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:44,119
I have a lecture.
Do you?
568
00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:45,838
Yeah, that's my night in college.
Oh, God.
569
00:30:45,839 --> 00:30:48,359
See, your woman is going to be
in Dancing with the Stars.
570
00:30:48,360 --> 00:30:51,278
I don't know half the people in that
programme any more.
571
00:30:51,279 --> 00:30:52,518
I mean, who even is she
572
00:30:52,519 --> 00:30:54,278
only the daughter of your man
with the radio voice.
573
00:30:54,279 --> 00:30:55,360
Mm.
574
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:04,080
Mary.
575
00:31:06,279 --> 00:31:07,720
Helen.
576
00:31:08,279 --> 00:31:10,800
It is. At least she's got the school
bag.
577
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:12,439
God forgive me for doubting her.
578
00:31:12,440 --> 00:31:14,760
I never actually thought she was
going to those lectures.
579
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:32,958
What are you doing? What-
580
00:31:32,959 --> 00:31:34,599
Mary.
581
00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:39,638
Oh, fuck.
582
00:31:39,639 --> 00:31:40,680
What?
583
00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:44,598
Is that your mum?
Yeah.
584
00:31:44,599 --> 00:31:46,000
Helen Walsh?
Mum.
585
00:31:47,080 --> 00:31:48,079
Are you okay?
586
00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:50,079
You were supposed to be the easy one.
587
00:31:50,080 --> 00:31:52,198
The fifth child is supposed to slot
right in.
588
00:31:52,199 --> 00:31:54,719
I already have a troublemaker, a
drama queen, an unreliable,
589
00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:56,918
and a people pleaser. Come on, Helen,
give me a break.
590
00:31:56,919 --> 00:31:59,120
Will you please stop.
No, will you stop?
591
00:31:59,599 --> 00:32:02,720
No, I'm not going to change my life
because you're a homophobe.
592
00:32:03,360 --> 00:32:04,360
A homophobe?
593
00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:08,799
I don't give a shit who you're
kissing
594
00:32:08,800 --> 00:32:11,720
be it man, woman, or feckin' gender
fluid.
595
00:32:11,959 --> 00:32:13,120
But vaping.
596
00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:16,279
My daughter, a vapist.
597
00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:19,838
Fifth, you said you were an
only child.
598
00:32:19,839 --> 00:32:20,918
I...
599
00:32:20,919 --> 00:32:22,439
Well, that's a really weird thing to
lie about.
600
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:23,518
Why would you lie about that?
601
00:32:23,519 --> 00:32:24,720
You a full on catfish?
602
00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:26,079
No, no, Sam.
603
00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:27,400
Look, no, I...
604
00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:31,799
There are no long-term studies
about the effects of vaping.
605
00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:33,959
Could you not just be normal
and smoke a cigarette?
606
00:32:36,199 --> 00:32:38,760
She seems kind of nice.
607
00:32:40,040 --> 00:32:41,160
What's a catfish?
608
00:32:41,599 --> 00:32:43,878
You wouldn't understand.
Well, I might.
609
00:32:43,879 --> 00:32:44,919
Try me.
610
00:32:51,760 --> 00:32:53,440
So go on. How was your night?
611
00:32:54,199 --> 00:32:55,239
Did you get some rest?
612
00:32:56,839 --> 00:32:57,838
Yeah. Did you?
613
00:32:57,839 --> 00:33:00,198
Well, no, actually, because
Garv didn't text me back.
614
00:33:00,199 --> 00:33:01,638
And no matter what is going on with
us,
615
00:33:01,639 --> 00:33:03,360
we always text each other back.
616
00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:05,359
And then he rang this morning
to say, Oh, sorry,
617
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:06,800
he was stuck in meetings.
618
00:33:06,919 --> 00:33:08,680
And you don't believe him?
619
00:33:08,919 --> 00:33:10,518
But that's happened before, hasn't
it?
620
00:33:10,519 --> 00:33:11,598
No, I do believe him.
621
00:33:11,599 --> 00:33:14,518
I'm just afraid that the schedule
and everything's pissed him off.
622
00:33:14,519 --> 00:33:15,559
Ah, Mags.
623
00:33:16,239 --> 00:33:17,918
I just think you're being too
sensitive.
624
00:33:17,919 --> 00:33:18,959
Just one night.
625
00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:20,760
Probably hormonal.
626
00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:23,760
Possibly. Yeah.
627
00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:32,400
I cancelled my date last night.
628
00:33:34,360 --> 00:33:35,360
I know.
629
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,279
I was really looking forward to it.
630
00:33:38,599 --> 00:33:40,120
I was just so tired.
631
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:42,759
And the idea of a night alone...
632
00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:47,518
No, no Kate, no talking, questions,
633
00:33:47,519 --> 00:33:50,720
no fights over brushing teeth.
I just...
634
00:33:54,599 --> 00:33:56,679
Am I terrible?
No, you're not terrible.
635
00:33:56,680 --> 00:33:57,720
I just...
636
00:33:58,040 --> 00:33:59,599
I'm sorry that you find it so hard.
637
00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:05,120
Sometimes I just wish I was child
free.
638
00:34:05,599 --> 00:34:06,599
You know?
639
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,279
I can't wish that now. I love Kate.
640
00:34:09,400 --> 00:34:11,957
Just wish I'd never had her.
No, because...
641
00:34:11,958 --> 00:34:14,238
Because now she's here.
642
00:34:14,239 --> 00:34:16,318
My life would be destroyed if
anything happened to her.
643
00:34:16,319 --> 00:34:17,480
I love her. She's mine.
644
00:34:19,879 --> 00:34:22,119
If I never had her, never met her,
645
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:24,360
I think I would have a really
beautiful life child free.
646
00:34:28,120 --> 00:34:29,319
Legend.
647
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:31,440
Shove up.
648
00:34:39,319 --> 00:34:40,718
So?
649
00:34:40,719 --> 00:34:43,559
Mum tells me you're a lesbian now.
Excuse me?
650
00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:45,479
Jesus, Claire.
What?
651
00:34:45,480 --> 00:34:47,278
Said she saw you kissing a girl down
by the village.
652
00:34:47,279 --> 00:34:49,198
Oh, that makes me a lesbian now, does
it?
653
00:34:49,199 --> 00:34:50,999
Does it not?
Fundamentally, yes.
654
00:34:51,000 --> 00:34:52,279
No, it doesn't.
655
00:34:52,639 --> 00:34:55,239
Well, then what are you?
656
00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:56,917
What do you mean what am I?
657
00:34:56,918 --> 00:34:58,278
Well, come on.
658
00:34:58,279 --> 00:35:00,198
I can't be dealing with all this
woke stuff.
659
00:35:00,199 --> 00:35:01,919
Are you gay or not?
No, I just...
660
00:35:02,400 --> 00:35:04,439
You know, there's so few sane
people in the world
661
00:35:04,440 --> 00:35:07,559
that if I meet one, I tend to want to
spend more time with them.
662
00:35:08,879 --> 00:35:09,879
Fair.
663
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:11,599
Yeah, and wise.
664
00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:13,879
Fair and wise.
Oh, my God.
665
00:35:18,120 --> 00:35:19,519
This is a oat latte, right?
666
00:35:21,040 --> 00:35:24,119
Hey, love, just
leaving work. I'll see you at home.
667
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:26,480
I'll pick up Chinese on the way.
Love you.
668
00:35:27,800 --> 00:35:28,800
Hi.
669
00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:34,800
Hey.
670
00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:38,199
I'm at home. I think about you all
the time.
671
00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:42,399
I have a pain in my stomach from
missing you.
672
00:35:42,400 --> 00:35:44,080
It feels like I have appendicitis.
673
00:35:44,199 --> 00:35:45,919
I don't even have my appendix.
674
00:35:46,720 --> 00:35:47,919
Do you have your appendix?
675
00:35:50,400 --> 00:35:54,599
I never asked about your
appendix or your tonsils.
676
00:35:54,879 --> 00:35:57,839
I am never going to know more about
you than I already know.
677
00:36:00,839 --> 00:36:03,239
And it makes me feel like I can't
stand up straight.
678
00:36:05,720 --> 00:36:09,919
I just... don't know what to do,
Aidan.
679
00:36:12,199 --> 00:36:13,199
It's not fair.
680
00:36:15,839 --> 00:36:16,839
It's not fair.
681
00:36:21,239 --> 00:36:22,238
No.
682
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:24,360
It's just going to be Dan trying to
give me drugs.
683
00:36:24,680 --> 00:36:25,680
No, it's not.
684
00:36:30,199 --> 00:36:31,199
Stay.
685
00:36:31,959 --> 00:36:33,519
Please.
686
00:36:35,120 --> 00:36:36,120
Stay.
687
00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,160
Janie?
688
00:36:53,959 --> 00:36:54,959
Is...
689
00:36:56,879 --> 00:36:58,120
Whose baby is that?
690
00:36:59,360 --> 00:37:00,360
Can I come in?
691
00:37:02,839 --> 00:37:03,839
Yeah.
692
00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:21,959
Do you want to hold him?
No.
693
00:37:23,319 --> 00:37:24,319
Sorry.
694
00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:26,559
Can't.
That's okay.
695
00:37:28,639 --> 00:37:30,439
I know it's a lot for you to take
in.
696
00:37:30,440 --> 00:37:31,800
It was a lot for him too.
697
00:37:32,639 --> 00:37:34,120
Ohh.
698
00:37:34,360 --> 00:37:35,958
Yeah, I should have said it sooner.
699
00:37:35,959 --> 00:37:37,000
I just...
700
00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:39,080
Well, I wasn't sure, and...
701
00:37:39,559 --> 00:37:41,400
he was so happy with you.
702
00:37:42,720 --> 00:37:43,720
Sorry.
703
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,039
Sorry, this is just too fucking
strange.
704
00:37:48,040 --> 00:37:52,079
You're trying to tell me that that
baby is half Aidan's,
705
00:37:52,080 --> 00:37:56,160
but Aidan also loved me but didn't
tell me he had a child.
706
00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:59,160
He didn't know until the day of the
car crash.
707
00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:03,719
I swear to you.
708
00:38:03,720 --> 00:38:05,400
Aidan and I, we grew up together.
709
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:07,838
We've known each other our whole
lives.
710
00:38:07,839 --> 00:38:11,159
We moved here together and we loved
each other,
711
00:38:11,160 --> 00:38:14,000
but we were never in love.
712
00:38:14,319 --> 00:38:15,639
We weren't made for each other.
713
00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:19,479
At the moment he met you, he was
obsessed.
714
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:22,518
We all went for goodbye drinks,
715
00:38:22,519 --> 00:38:24,480
and he spoke about you to everyone.
716
00:38:24,639 --> 00:38:26,199
Sorry not to be rude, but can you
just...
717
00:38:27,959 --> 00:38:30,440
get to the part where you got
pregnant with his child?
718
00:38:30,919 --> 00:38:32,119
It's not the prettiest story.
719
00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:33,199
I mean, it's Aidan.
720
00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:38,800
We sometimes, rarely,
721
00:38:39,599 --> 00:38:41,599
hooked up when we were drunk.
722
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:43,958
Before you, obviously.
723
00:38:43,959 --> 00:38:46,199
But, well, just before.
724
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:50,079
I was seeing somebody at the time,
725
00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:51,439
so I didn't tell Aidan that I was
pregnant.
726
00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:53,480
I didn't want to make things weird,
but...
727
00:38:54,519 --> 00:38:59,680
I was with Mark, and Aidan was with
you, and we drifted.
728
00:39:01,120 --> 00:39:02,120
Naturally.
729
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:04,638
So why did you blow up his whole
life?
730
00:39:04,639 --> 00:39:05,919
Why not just keep it yourself?
731
00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:07,958
Because once I knew this child was
Aidan's,
732
00:39:07,959 --> 00:39:09,439
I couldn't keep that from him.
733
00:39:09,440 --> 00:39:10,000
He would have been an amazing
father.
734
00:39:12,080 --> 00:39:13,079
So what?
735
00:39:13,080 --> 00:39:14,318
I'm just meant to be okay
with the fact
736
00:39:14,319 --> 00:39:15,479
that you have my fiancé's baby,
737
00:39:15,480 --> 00:39:16,958
and I'm never going to get that
chance.
738
00:39:16,959 --> 00:39:19,120
I'm not saying you have to be okay
with it.
739
00:39:21,879 --> 00:39:23,399
Maybe it was wrong of me to come
here.
740
00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:26,759
I just thought this is all that's
left of a man
741
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:28,759
that we both really cared about,
742
00:39:28,760 --> 00:39:31,719
and I thought it would bring you
some odd comfort.
743
00:39:31,720 --> 00:39:33,639
I'm sorry. I can't do this. I
can't...
744
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:36,238
I just can't do this on my own.
745
00:39:36,239 --> 00:39:38,120
I'm so sorry, you're going to have
to leave.
746
00:39:38,319 --> 00:39:39,318
Okay.
747
00:39:39,319 --> 00:39:40,360
Um...
748
00:39:59,120 --> 00:40:00,120
Come here.
749
00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:06,000
I'm so proud of you. See you soon, alright?
750
00:40:10,199 --> 00:40:11,319
To your Majesty.
751
00:40:13,400 --> 00:40:14,439
Alright, I'm done.
752
00:40:14,440 --> 00:40:15,598
I'll see you all at the meetings, alright?
753
00:40:15,599 --> 00:40:16,639
You, as well.
754
00:40:41,639 --> 00:40:42,639
Hey.
755
00:40:42,959 --> 00:40:44,839
You said you were off at 6:00.
756
00:40:44,959 --> 00:40:46,918
Obviously never spent any time with
the doctor.
757
00:40:46,919 --> 00:40:48,559
No, you're right, I haven't.
758
00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:50,800
But I'd like to spend more time with
you.
759
00:40:51,279 --> 00:40:55,080
So you're not going to cancel last
minute if I ask out again?
760
00:40:55,839 --> 00:40:57,080
I mean, I hope not.
761
00:41:12,919 --> 00:41:13,919
Yeah?
762
00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:18,680
Do you mind if I come in?
Sure.
763
00:41:19,239 --> 00:41:20,239
Okay.
764
00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:38,080
Yeah, I just wanted to say that I'm
really sorry by what I said.
765
00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:43,039
I was just really angry and
embarrassed,
766
00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:44,599
and I took it out on you.
767
00:41:45,279 --> 00:41:46,279
You sure did.
768
00:41:47,639 --> 00:41:49,239
How did that make you feel?
769
00:41:50,319 --> 00:41:51,319
Great.
770
00:41:51,639 --> 00:41:52,639
And then, shit.
771
00:41:54,680 --> 00:41:56,080
Kind of like cocaine.
772
00:42:00,239 --> 00:42:02,040
You know you're right, Rachel.
773
00:42:02,360 --> 00:42:03,919
I don't have children.
774
00:42:04,199 --> 00:42:05,679
I've made peace with it now,
775
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:06,879
but it took a while.
776
00:42:08,199 --> 00:42:12,198
It was hard to accept that I had
wasted every moment
777
00:42:12,199 --> 00:42:16,480
of my fertile years with a needle in
any vein I could find.
778
00:42:20,839 --> 00:42:21,839
I...
779
00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:25,199
I didn't know.
Well, you do know.
780
00:42:25,959 --> 00:42:28,599
We're all the same, addicts.
781
00:42:29,080 --> 00:42:32,519
Maybe my experience can help
you one day.
782
00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:38,319
I'm really sorry for saying it.
783
00:42:38,879 --> 00:42:40,319
I didn't even know if it was true.
784
00:42:51,519 --> 00:42:53,639
Do you find silence uncomfortable?
785
00:42:55,959 --> 00:42:58,559
Eh... I don't know.
786
00:42:59,639 --> 00:43:00,639
My...
787
00:43:00,839 --> 00:43:01,839
My house is loud.
788
00:43:02,400 --> 00:43:03,400
Work's loud.
789
00:43:04,559 --> 00:43:05,679
My head's really loud.
790
00:43:05,680 --> 00:43:08,958
So I don't know.
791
00:43:08,959 --> 00:43:11,160
It's just hard to find quiet, I
suppose.
792
00:43:11,400 --> 00:43:12,439
I hear you.
793
00:43:12,440 --> 00:43:14,959
I used to only find it when I was
running.
794
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:16,720
Oh, don't like running.
795
00:43:17,319 --> 00:43:18,800
I tried it once, but, eh...
796
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:22,198
it just felt like someone was chasing
me.
797
00:43:22,199 --> 00:43:23,720
So I don't know.
798
00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:25,919
It just made me feel more anxious.
799
00:43:27,919 --> 00:43:28,919
Say more.
800
00:43:30,400 --> 00:43:31,918
I don't know.
801
00:43:31,919 --> 00:43:33,199
I just got this feeling.
802
00:43:34,199 --> 00:43:35,680
I always get it. It's like...
803
00:43:38,879 --> 00:43:43,000
It's like I'm a raindrop that had
just hit the sea,
804
00:43:43,720 --> 00:43:45,599
and it swallows me up. I'm gone.
805
00:43:58,440 --> 00:43:59,680
Yeah, I just...
806
00:44:00,919 --> 00:44:02,279
I got lost in it.
807
00:44:05,839 --> 00:44:07,599
And...
808
00:44:09,199 --> 00:44:11,918
And one day, I just said to myself,
I was just like,
809
00:44:11,919 --> 00:44:13,199
Ugh.
810
00:44:14,599 --> 00:44:16,279
What is the point in all this?
811
00:44:18,239 --> 00:44:21,959
I feel like shit all the time.
812
00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:26,599
So, em...
813
00:44:29,959 --> 00:44:31,999
I take drugs to stop feeling like
shit,
814
00:44:32,000 --> 00:44:33,238
and then the drugs wear off,
815
00:44:33,239 --> 00:44:34,440
and then I just feel worse.
816
00:44:37,800 --> 00:44:39,519
I was just so tired.
817
00:44:41,839 --> 00:44:46,760
So I just, I ran and I ran, and then
I ran until I got to the sea.
818
00:44:48,639 --> 00:44:49,639
And?
819
00:44:50,239 --> 00:44:52,319
Well,
820
00:44:52,959 --> 00:44:56,559
dad was obsessed with us getting
swimming lessons as kids.
821
00:44:56,879 --> 00:44:59,199
So I'm actually a really good
swimmer.
822
00:44:59,839 --> 00:45:00,839
So there was no point.
823
00:45:02,279 --> 00:45:06,000
That's the first positive thing I
ever heard you say about yourself.
824
00:45:06,959 --> 00:45:09,160
Yeah. Woo! I can swim.
825
00:45:09,959 --> 00:45:10,959
Eh...
826
00:45:12,199 --> 00:45:20,279
Then it's just like, if I go in, I'm
just going to be wet and sad,
827
00:45:20,440 --> 00:45:23,040
which is objectively worse than just
being sad.
828
00:45:24,480 --> 00:45:26,080
So there was no point.
829
00:45:27,519 --> 00:45:28,879
So what did you do then?
830
00:45:29,160 --> 00:45:32,160
I just rounded off the usual
suspects and got fucked up.
831
00:45:33,519 --> 00:45:34,519
And?
832
00:45:35,080 --> 00:45:36,080
It was amazing.
833
00:45:39,800 --> 00:45:42,958
I remember the first time I
tried to coke,
834
00:45:42,959 --> 00:45:44,918
and I remember thinking,
835
00:45:44,919 --> 00:45:46,359
all these people know the secret,
836
00:45:46,360 --> 00:45:47,400
and no one told me.
837
00:45:48,279 --> 00:45:49,639
But I found out for myself.
838
00:45:50,239 --> 00:45:52,558
And then I was like, I want to know
what other secrets
839
00:45:52,559 --> 00:45:53,919
these bastard have.
840
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:56,559
So...
841
00:45:57,080 --> 00:45:59,400
the day I was going to go into the
sea,
842
00:46:01,440 --> 00:46:02,000
cocaine saved me.
843
00:46:04,319 --> 00:46:05,318
Yeah, you're right.
844
00:46:05,319 --> 00:46:08,680
Drugs have saved you, but they're
not working any more.
845
00:46:11,040 --> 00:46:13,279
How long has it been since you, em...
846
00:46:15,239 --> 00:46:16,878
used?
847
00:46:16,879 --> 00:46:19,199
25 years.
848
00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:22,080
One day at a time.
849
00:46:22,639 --> 00:46:24,319
Wow.
850
00:46:26,239 --> 00:46:27,238
How?
851
00:46:27,239 --> 00:46:28,959
That's like a whole lifetime.
852
00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:31,000
Meetings.
853
00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:32,680
A good sponsor.
854
00:46:33,639 --> 00:46:36,239
No excitement for about a year.
855
00:46:36,480 --> 00:46:40,800
I mean, try and stay in the same
emotional temperature.
856
00:46:41,400 --> 00:46:45,839
Nothing that makes you too sad
or too happy or too anything.
857
00:46:46,400 --> 00:46:48,440
But you're not ready to leave yet.
858
00:46:48,760 --> 00:46:49,760
Don't worry.
859
00:46:49,879 --> 00:46:52,999
We'll get Celine to go with you
to the memorial,
860
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:55,519
and she'll help you cope with all
that emotion.
861
00:46:59,680 --> 00:47:02,120
Well, I just don't think anyone wants
to see my face.
862
00:47:06,599 --> 00:47:08,239
Nobody wants me.
863
00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:13,680
Anna doesn't want me.
864
00:47:15,160 --> 00:47:16,160
Luke doesn't want me.
865
00:47:17,639 --> 00:47:19,319
Chris doesn't even fucking want me.
866
00:47:19,440 --> 00:47:21,918
It is really painful,
867
00:47:21,919 --> 00:47:26,239
but this is everything addiction has
taken from you.
868
00:47:26,720 --> 00:47:28,040
So how do I get it back?
869
00:47:29,599 --> 00:47:30,719
I mean,
870
00:47:30,720 --> 00:47:32,000
how do I get everyone to like me
again?
871
00:47:35,120 --> 00:47:36,120
You can't, love.
872
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:39,199
You just have to like yourself.
873
00:47:42,120 --> 00:47:43,120
But I don't.
874
00:47:46,360 --> 00:47:47,360
I don't.
875
00:47:48,559 --> 00:47:49,559
I know.
876
00:47:50,720 --> 00:47:51,720
But you will.
877
00:47:55,559 --> 00:47:56,919
25 years...
878
00:48:06,319 --> 00:48:07,680
Anna.
Hey.
879
00:48:08,120 --> 00:48:09,119
Are you okay?
880
00:48:09,120 --> 00:48:10,518
We were just talking about the
memorial.
881
00:48:10,519 --> 00:48:13,039
I was thinking maybe do you
want to say a few words?
882
00:48:13,040 --> 00:48:14,759
Yeah, I was going to make
a slide show of photos.
883
00:48:14,760 --> 00:48:15,799
Can I take them for your phone?
884
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:18,479
We can help you write a speech now.
Do you want to sit down inside?
885
00:48:18,480 --> 00:48:20,040
No, I'm not going to say anything.
886
00:48:20,239 --> 00:48:21,439
I didn't know him at all.
887
00:48:21,440 --> 00:48:23,079
I literally knew nothing about him.
888
00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:25,039
I'm just stupid and impulsive
and never can see that.
889
00:48:25,040 --> 00:48:26,918
And that's why everybody
takes advantage of me.
890
00:48:26,919 --> 00:48:28,999
Anna, what are you talking about?
I need to lie down.
891
00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:30,558
We have nothing prepared for
tomorrow.
892
00:48:30,559 --> 00:48:31,839
No one cares, Claire.
893
00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:34,239
Do you want us to cancel it?
I don't care...
894
00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:37,839
Well, we can't cancel it because
everybody's been invited.
895
00:48:38,199 --> 00:48:40,399
So you go and have your lie down,
Anna.
896
00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:42,318
You do the music, you do the photos.
897
00:48:42,319 --> 00:48:43,518
And if she doesn't want to say
anything...
898
00:48:43,519 --> 00:48:44,559
What?
899
00:48:45,279 --> 00:48:46,279
Nothing.
900
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:47,480
Nothing.
901
00:48:57,720 --> 00:48:59,879
Has something else happened, Anna?
902
00:49:04,559 --> 00:49:05,559
Baby.
903
00:49:07,360 --> 00:49:08,359
Like, what do you mean?
904
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:11,518
And then you come into my house
with your stupid fucking little bob,
905
00:49:11,519 --> 00:49:13,599
and then I'm meant to just be okay
with that?
906
00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:17,318
How am I even... What am I supposed
to do with that?
907
00:49:17,319 --> 00:49:18,879
Who are you talking to?
What?
908
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:20,000
Myself.
909
00:49:20,599 --> 00:49:22,598
Okay. Are you responding?
910
00:49:22,599 --> 00:49:24,759
Because that's a sign of psychosis.
No, I'm not responding.
911
00:49:24,760 --> 00:49:26,199
Well, I don't have the answers.
912
00:49:27,279 --> 00:49:28,279
Okay.
913
00:49:29,959 --> 00:49:31,318
What do you need?
Rachel.
914
00:49:31,319 --> 00:49:33,919
I need to speak to Rachel.
915
00:49:38,000 --> 00:49:39,120
Here. Want some?
916
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:40,559
Yeah. Lovely.
917
00:49:42,400 --> 00:49:44,278
No, I don't do sugar.
Oh, come on.
918
00:49:44,279 --> 00:49:45,680
Just eat some.
No, I'm good.
919
00:49:45,839 --> 00:49:46,918
Here, I'll have some.
920
00:49:46,919 --> 00:49:48,639
Rachel, where does your sister live?
921
00:49:49,000 --> 00:49:50,760
In the Blackrock. Why?
922
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:54,480
I just have never seen this
chocolate outside of an airport.
923
00:49:54,839 --> 00:49:57,000
Oh, fuck.
What's wrong?
924
00:49:57,760 --> 00:50:00,599
I forgot about the airport pints.
925
00:50:01,800 --> 00:50:04,480
How the fuck am I meant to go on
holiday sober?
926
00:50:05,120 --> 00:50:06,680
You'll be alright. You'll manage.
927
00:50:22,360 --> 00:50:24,918
I watched this literally 20 men in
suits flock to the bar
928
00:50:24,919 --> 00:50:27,040
to help this lad who was close to a
relapse.
929
00:50:27,919 --> 00:50:29,318
When you get out, you call me.
930
00:50:29,319 --> 00:50:31,680
I'll take you to a meeting. You'll
be alright.
931
00:50:37,319 --> 00:50:38,319
Anna.
932
00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:40,879
Anna, hi.
Stop, stop.
933
00:50:42,199 --> 00:50:43,199
Are you okay?
934
00:50:43,839 --> 00:50:44,839
Am I okay?
935
00:50:46,360 --> 00:50:48,000
Are you serious?
Yeah, Anna, you look really...
936
00:50:52,480 --> 00:50:54,119
You're scaring me. Do you want to
come and...?
937
00:50:54,120 --> 00:50:55,199
Are you happy, Rachel?
938
00:50:56,959 --> 00:50:58,000
Is this what you wanted?
939
00:50:59,199 --> 00:51:00,518
Me all to yourself?
940
00:51:00,519 --> 00:51:02,440
Are you fucking happy now?
941
00:51:03,319 --> 00:51:06,160
You and your awful obsession with
yourself and getting what you want.
942
00:51:07,879 --> 00:51:09,198
Anna, please.
No, don't even try.
943
00:51:09,199 --> 00:51:10,000
I never want to hear your voice ever
again.
944
00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:16,958
Did you just come here to have a go
with me?
945
00:51:16,959 --> 00:51:18,120
No, Rachel.
946
00:51:18,519 --> 00:51:22,800
I came here because Aidan has a
fucking baby with another woman.
947
00:51:24,720 --> 00:51:28,278
And I realised I have been so
dependent on you for my entire life
948
00:51:28,279 --> 00:51:30,159
that I don't even know how I feel
about something
949
00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:31,999
until I know how you feel about it.
950
00:51:32,000 --> 00:51:36,598
And then I come here and I see your
stupid face and your junkie friends,
951
00:51:36,599 --> 00:51:40,040
and I realised you will never feel
how I do.
952
00:51:43,720 --> 00:51:47,359
No, you'll always, you'll always get
what you need.
953
00:51:47,360 --> 00:51:49,638
You're like a tree growing through
the wall.
954
00:51:49,639 --> 00:51:53,359
You'll always find a way to make
friends and get your own way.
955
00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:56,400
And you don't give a shit about who
you damage in the process.
956
00:51:57,120 --> 00:51:58,120
That's not true.
957
00:51:59,839 --> 00:52:00,839
It's not true.
958
00:52:02,839 --> 00:52:05,279
I'm so sorry.
959
00:52:06,319 --> 00:52:08,799
Actually, yeah, it is true for
everyone else in the world,
960
00:52:08,800 --> 00:52:10,199
but not you.
961
00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:13,720
I really, really, really give a shit.
962
00:52:19,599 --> 00:52:20,599
No.
963
00:52:22,559 --> 00:52:23,559
No, you don't.
964
00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:28,518
Look, please.
965
00:52:28,519 --> 00:52:31,319
I'm in fucking rehab, okay?
966
00:52:32,480 --> 00:52:33,519
I'm trying.
967
00:52:35,959 --> 00:52:38,160
I just want to wipe the slate clean,
Anna.
968
00:52:38,519 --> 00:52:39,599
It's my slate.
969
00:52:42,000 --> 00:52:43,360
You don't get to wipe it clean.
970
00:52:45,599 --> 00:52:46,839
So what?
971
00:52:48,440 --> 00:52:51,278
What about the memorial or the
funeral or whatever?
972
00:52:51,279 --> 00:52:53,440
Yeah obviously I want you to come
to the memorial.
973
00:52:56,120 --> 00:52:57,639
But I don't want you there.
974
00:53:03,040 --> 00:53:05,559
What the fuck am I supposed to do
with that?
975
00:54:01,720 --> 00:54:03,720
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