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IRV: They say that patience is a virtue.

That good things come to those who wait.

Of course, they also say, "He who hesitates is lost."

TECHNICIAN: Colin, how are you doing?

Are you okay?

COLIN: Yeah.

You´re doing great. Almost finished.

ANDY: The thrombus is in the basilar artery

feeding the cerebellum.

HART: That´s what caused the seizure?

Effectively, yes. And the other symptoms too.

The nausea, the mood swings.

Most likely, the seizure was caused

when a smaller piece broke away from this mass...

...and briefly obstructed the blood flow somewhere else.

So there´s two of these clots now?

Well, not necessarily.

The smaller fragment may have broken up...

and dissolved into the bloodstream.

That´s what we´d hope for in a case like this.

And it would explain

why there´s only been one seizure so far.

My concern now is that this original thrombus...

or another larger fragment from it will migrate...

and possibly create a greater occlusion elsewhere.

That´s what we need to try and stop.

Why didn´t they find this sooner?

I mean, there were so many tests....

Well, for the same reason there weren´t any seizures before.

The mass has to reach a certain minimal size...

before it´ll show up as an anomaly.

Unfortunately, that´s also when it can do the most damage.

Is it operable?

Yes.

We´d use catheters to reach the vessel and then...

right here, we´d use a laser to break the clot apart.

Ideally, the resulting particles

will be so small, they´ll be harmless...

but given the areas of the brain we´ll be dealing with...

if the laser damaged the arterial wall...

or the catheter itself perforated the artery...

we wouldn´t be able to stop the bleeding.

I haven´t thanked you,

for coming back on as Colin´s doctor.

No, don´t worry about that. I´m glad to help.

Before, when we told you--

Told you that--

Well, we just--

We really thought the worst was over.

You just did what you thought was best.

Why don´t we focus now on trying to help Colin?

His next two weeks are critical.

Talk to him, talk to your wife,

and let me know what you decide.

IRV: Unfortunately...

...sometimes what looks like patience on the outside...

...is really fear underneath...

...like so much sheep´s clothing

wrapped around a very clever wolf.

IRV: You know the place is booked till winter...

...and I tried to get my time changed.

You can´t go alone in your condition.

My only condition is being married to a woman that--

Don´t even finish that sentence, buster.

I suppose you think all this nagging

is good for my blood pressure. We´ve been over this.

Until you change your fool mind...

we haven´t been over it enough.

Sorry, didn´t mean to, uh, walk into my own office.

Everything okay?

Fresh off a coronary,

he wants to go play Jeremiah Johnson.

There´s a cabin out on Eyelash Lake.

The town´s been running a time-share for 20 years

and this is my weekend.

I just wanna relax, do a little fishing--

Split some wood...

pull-start a rusty Evinrude, have another heart attack.

I´m not going down the Amazon.

Andy, would you tell her that I don´t have to stop living...

-...in order to stay alive? -You know, Edna--

Shut up.

I´ll just cancel my trip with Gray Thunder

and go with you. Problem solved.

That is not a solution.

You looked forward to this trip all year.

You say it keeps you from being surly the other 363 days.

Well, I don´t see any other alternatives, do you?

Yes. I could go alone, like always.

You wanna go another round like this?

I´ll just, uh, scooch on into my office.

Or on second thought, Irv,

I´ve been wanting to get away for a while.

Maybe I could tag along with you?

Do a guys-weekend thing. Could be fun.

No offense, Andy, but I like the peace and quiet.

It´s him or me, cowboy.

Your choice.

We leave at 8 sharp.

Thanks, doc. I owe you one.

I think you just might.

Okay, boy, I want you to go upstairs

and put that back where you found it.

-Okay, Mom. -Thank you.

Surprise, baby.

Hey.

Why didn´t you call first?

It wouldn´t have been a surprise...

which would have ruined my opening line.

I made sure they trimmed the thorns this time.

Don´t want you to cut yourself again.

So there is a learning curve. That´s good to know.

So when are you leaving?

Well, it depends.

Heh.

When are you throwing me out, hmm?

Come on, Carl. I got a lot of stuff to do...

and now I got your laundry on top of that.

Hey, I was wondering.

Is that store space still available?

-Why? -Why do you think?

What, you wanna...?

So we can open the store?

Here?

-For real? -I put in my notice.

Two weeks from now, I´m coming home. For good.

Oh, my God. When did you decide?

I can´t believe this.

I made up my mind a few days ago.

I wanted to make sure I could get out before I told you.

-But last time you said-- -I know.

But how long are we supposed to wait?

We´ll do like you said. Start small, make the store bigger.

Because it´ll be such a success.

Oh, God.

[PHONE RINGING]

Oh, God.

Just leave it.

Hello?

Sam. Sam, come in here.

Listen, I´m gonna have to call you back.

Yeah.

Work. I won´t miss that.

Come here, you.

I know it´s difficult facing the prospect of another surgery.

Unfortunately, the alternative isn´t very promising.

But the new surgery could be as risky as

letting the thrombus break up naturally.

Maybe his body will take care of this clot

like it did the smaller one.

Given the size of the clot, that´s not a real possibility.

A thrombus of this type

is like a ticking bomb inside Colin´s head.

We´re not talking about my instincts,

we have identified the problem.

You need to trust me or someone...

to go in there and fix it.

And soon.

No, thanks, Dr. Brown.

-Listen, Colin-- -No, not again.

I´m the one who´s been through it all.

I´m the one who has to go through post-op and rehab.

I just don´t have it in me to do it again.

Colin, I don´t think you understand

the likely prognosis here.

You realize you could die.

Either way though, right?

I mean, the operation might not even work.

-Well, that´s true. -I´ll take my chances.

I´m gonna wait in the car.

He´s scared and that´s understandable...

but you´re gonna have to explain to him.

Explain what?

We can´t do a better job of explaining this than you did.

It´s in God´s hands now.

EPHRAM: Nice. You see that shot? Yeah.

-He´s fast. -Heh-heh-heh.

-Alright, nice shot. -This your idea of studying?

I´m was taking a little break.

I told you this game was too violent for Delia.

It´s okay, Dad. It´s not real dying.

Nice shot.

[EPHRAM LAUGHS]

Listen.

I´m gonna go away this weekend with Irv.

Some lodge out by a lake. It´s sort of a favor to Edna.

Wow, someplace more in the middle of nowhere than here?

And since I need to go, you´re going with me.

-No, I´m not. -I wanna go.

It´s just the guys this weekend, honey.

I´ve already talked to Nina.

You´re going because you need to study.

You´ve just proven to me you can´t be trusted

without me on your back.

I can study.

I was actually just going to study.

-It´s too late. -This is bull.

Well, it´s non-negotiable bull.

So once again, you make a promise to somebody

and I suffer because of it.

I´m not particularly in the mood

for an outward-bound event myself.

But that´s what you do for friends sometimes.

Die, you scum, die.

DELIA [WHISPERS]: Yes!

What do you want, bacon or sausage?

Mmm!

Forget it. I´ll get both.

You just lay back and wait for the party.

[BOTH MOANING SOFTLY]

Sounds good to me.

Oh! Do not let Sam eat any donuts on the way home.

Got it. Sam gets donuts.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

[HUMMING]

[THUD]

People actually volunteer to come here?

Booked solid till October.

It certainly is rustic.

Oh, smell that air, Ephram.

We should have just stayed home and huffed Pine-Sol.

So, what do we do here?

By "we" you mean you. You´re studying.

Can I at least take out the boat first?

No, you can´t.

Okay, I get it now. This is a hostage situation.

Cool. Will the beatings be all-inclusive?

Only if you´re lucky.

It doesn´t matter where you take me, you can´t make me study.

We´ll come back when you don´t have finals.

Yeah, like hell.

CARL: Honey, we´re back.

Get your butt out of bed and come chow down.

-Come on, Mom. -We´re making pancakes, eggs.

And we got donuts and bacon.

-Any problems? CARL: Not a one.

Sam only had two donuts and Delia only ran two lights.

And did you know they made bacon and sausages out of turkey now?

The pigs must be thrilled. I hope you´re hungry.

Can you teach me how to make the Mickey Mouse pancakes?

-Sure thing, sweetie. -Okay, let´s go. Come on.

DELIA: Come on, Sam, hurry up. -Let´s go. Come on, Sam.

Let´s go, buddy. Let´s go.

This is what it´s gonna be like every morning. Isn´t it great?

You know...

my dad used to say there´s a thin line between fishing...

and sitting in a boat getting drunk.

-Not a bad line to straddle. -Mm-mm.

He´s a fighter. You okay?

Yeah, I´m fine. I just, uh, got caught off-guard.

You don´t happen to have any life jackets onboard, do you?

Back at the cabin. I forgot to grab them.

-You can´t swim, doc? -Well, I can.

If you define the word "swim" very broadly.

Mark Spitz I´m not. More of a modified Labrador.

[CHUCKLES]

So there is something that you´re not an expert at.

Well, that´s a mighty long list. You haven´t sampled my cooking.

And of course my parenting skills, just ask Ephram.

He´ll be alright.

I wasn´t a sack of happy when I was that age either.

Listen, I, uh--

I hope we´re not cramping your style too much by tagging along.

I´m afraid that peace and tranquility...

...aren´t exactly part of the Brown family motto.

I don´t know if this is the best place for a study hall...

...but, hey, it´s like anything, you do the best you can.

-He´ll appreciate it eventually. -Who knows?

Maybe it wasn´t the right thing to do.

I just want him to do well, that´s all.

That´s my job in this relationship, isn´t it?

I mean, so what if he hates my guts for it?

When I was 15, I thought my old man was a pain in the ass too.

Might be the only opinion shared by all mankind.

You didn´t get along with your father either?

No worse than most, I suppose.

It worked itself out in the end.

I wish I could say I did better when it was my turn.

I didn´t know you had kids.

Just one.

A daughter, Cassandra.

We don´t talk much, maybe once or twice a year.

-Where is she now? -Back East.

Her mother and I divorced when she was 15.

Things didn´t work out the way we thought they would...

...so we shook hands and went our ways.

I guess Cassie had to blame somebody.

She picked me.

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

-What are you doing here? -Your dad said it was okay.

Double chocolate.

I´m really tired.

I know, I just wanted to see how you were feeling.

How do you think I´m feeling?

Right, dumb question. Um, is there anything I can do?

No, nothing.

-I think you should leave. -So we´re still fighting then.

Is there any reasons why we wouldn´t be?

You haven´t apologized or anything.

Okay, I´m sorry.

It´s too late.

-Colin. -Why are you here, Amy?

Why do you keep coming back when it´s obvious we´re over?

Because we´re not over.

Don´t you see, these stupid fights don´t count.

You didn´t know what you were doing.

I did. You think I got mad about you dancing with Ephram...

-...´cause my brain was tweaked? -Well--

No.

And just so there´s no misunderstanding...

...I´m feeling really clear right now.

As far as I´m concerned, what you did still sucked.

Ephram and I are just friends, I felt sorry for him.

Why do you keep talking about Ephram? I had a seizure...

...and you´re up here talking about some guy?

Do you see how wrong that is?

Okay, Colin, I´m sorry.

Would you please just leave?

And don´t come back.

I don´t want to see you anymore.

We´re done.

-Wow, you caught an appetizer. -This guy put up quite a fight.

-How´s the studying going? -Pretty good.

Every time I start to fall asleep, the silence wakes me up.

So coming here to study wasn´t such a bad idea after all.

Yeah, about that. I was thinking...

...what would you say to double or nothing?

What do you mean?

EPHRAM: I know how important this school thing is to you.

So I had an idea.

Instead of passing my finals to go to New York for one week...

...if I get B in my classes, I get to go for the summer.

-What? -Isn´t it great?

We both get more of what we want.

I don´t care if you come up with a unified field theory...

...there´s no way you´re going for the entire summer.

-Why not? -I´ll tell you why not.

-Because. -Oh, that´s a great reason.

That´d make total sense if I was 5.

Sometimes I´m not so sure you´re not.

You´re not gonna run and hide from your family for the summer.

Nonny and Grandpa are family too. If you don´t like them--

That has nothing to do with it. I´m not gonna do this.

What will I do, work at the Everwood Dairy Queen?

If you don´t pull up your grades,

serving up Blizzards might be a career path.

Everything´s gotta be your way. This weekend, this summer.

Ephram, a week is enough. I don´t have to let you go at all.

So take a week or take nothing.

-More coffee? -No, thanks.

[PHONE RINGING]

Feeneys.

Hello?

Who is this?

Must have been a wrong number.

Second time this morning, I doubt it.

[NINA CLEARS THROAT]

Hey, guys, why don´t you go play outside...

-...and work off that food? -Hide and seek.

Yeah.

DELIA: You hide first. I´ll count to 1000.

One, two...

...thousand.

I know why they keep hanging up.

And I know why you didn´t talk yesterday when they called.

Who called? What are you talking about?

I found it.

I found the condom.

Why would you need them on the road, huh?

God, I´m such an idiot.

-Nina, calm down. -Don´t touch me.

-I don´t want you near me. -I´m sorry.

Sorry for what? What are you sorry for?

I don´t know. Look, what do you want me to say?

I want you to deny it.

Tell me that you didn´t have an affair.

Tell me that I made all this up, tell me I´m crazy.

That´s what I want you to say.

Oh, God, this isn´t happening.

-I can explain. Let me explain. -Oh, God. Oh, my God.

It was a mistake, alright?

It´s over, I´m coming home. I love you.

-Stop. -I was lonely.

All we did was fight when I was home.

You were always unhappy with me.

So it´s my fault? You son of a bitch.

No, it just happened, it meant nothing.

I am glad our marriage was worth destroying...

...over someone who meant nothing.

It doesn´t matter now, I´m done. I don´t want to be that person.

I´m done lying, I´m done with it.

Please, Nina, I´m home now. I want to be with my family.

Go to hell.

Where´s the warden?

He went for a hike.

There are bears out there, aren´t there?

You know, all this quiet is really starting to creep me out.

Sounds just fine to me.

What you writing?

A novel? Journal entry?

A love letter to Edna, huh?

Just something to keep my mind young. Just scribbles, really.

-That´s cool, I draw sometimes. -That´s nice.

You know, Irv, if you want to be alone, I can make that happen.

-You´d better wait for your dad. -Come on.

You want some privacy, I need a break.

I´ll take it out for a little while, I´ll be right back.

-Have you ever been on a boat? -Hello, I grew up on an island.

Look, I´d go for a walk, but I could get lost.

I could get eaten. You wouldn´t want that to happen, right?

It´s a lake, not like I can´t find the shore.

Your pop was pretty set on you studying.

I have been studying the whole time.

He´s not a reasonable man, you saw.

I´ll take it out, two seconds.

I´ll be back before he is, I promise.

-Pull back straight and hard. -Put this on.

-That only goes with flannel. -Put it on. And keep it on.

Keep within sight of the cabin.

Remember, mind the reeds.

And stay clear of that far shore.

I got it. No problem.

♫ On a slow boat to China ♫

WOMAN [ON RADIO]: Headache pain--

MAN 1 [ON RADIO]: We´re on the air--

MAN 2 [ON RADIO]: Tuesday´s ladies´--

MAN 3 [ON RADIO]: Listen, I am--

HARRY: Please.

Before I have to self-medicate.

So have you, uh, spoken to Dr. Brown lately?

About Colin or anything?

Is this a trick?

As I recall, speaking to Dr. Brown...

...is what turned you into such...

...delightful company these last few weeks.

Or did you forget that that´s why you stopped talking to me?

Never mind.

What are you doing?

I just need to grab some things.

Get me a Coke and some licorice, any kind.

If you want something, come in and get it yourself.

I could talk to him, if you´d like.

Dr. Brown.

I wouldn´t enjoy it, mind you,

but I could do that for you, if you´d like.

That´s okay. Forget it.

I´m just curious what happens next, that´s all.

I´m sure they´ll do whatever is necessary.

Did Colin say something?

Not really. He doesn´t wanna talk to me right now, I guess.

Because of...?

Because of, like, a million reasons

which makes everything seem so pointless.

How do you mean?

What was the point of hiding that stuff before?

-He hates me now anyways. -I´m sure he doesn´t hate you.

I just wish I would have told someone

when I knew he was getting sick.

I never should have pretended I didn´t see it.

-I don´t know why I did that. -You wanted him to trust you.

All things considered, trust is important in a relationship.

But sometimes, Amy, all things aren´t equal.

Maybe if I would have said something sooner

they could have done something about it.

What if it´s too late?

They´ll do everything they can. He´s in good hands.

But it´s all my fault. If I hadn´t have danced with Ephram--

-If I hadn´t have-- -Amy, Amy, listen to me.

Whatever is going on with Colin´s medical condition...

...had nothing, absolutely nothing to do with...

...any quarrel or any jealous tiff...

...that you two might´ve had at a dance.

Honey, it just doesn´t work that way.

You have done more for Colin Hart

than anyone could ever expect.

More than anyone´s ever done for just about anybody.

Come here.

Other than the fairy around Liberty Island,

he hasn´t been on a boat in years.

Well, the lake´s not that big, the weather´s clear.

I´m sure he´ll be back soon.

I gave Ephram a direct order and you let him defy it.

-Well, it was a dumb order. -I´m sorry?

I´m married to Edna.

I know about being bossed around

and I haven´t met anybody who likes it.

If I didn´t tell Ephram what to do, he wouldn´t do anything.

I doubt that´s true. It´s easier for you to try to control him.

I know that´s not the way to get what you want.

It´s sure as hell not the way to raise a kid.

I´ll choose how to deal with my son, okay?

Look, I shouldn´t have let him out on that boat alone,

fair enough.

But damn, Andy, you drag a 15-year-old kid way out here...

...basically lock him in a room, what do you expect?

I expect you not to interfere with how I raise my son.

Especially since the last time I checked,

I was doing you and Edna a favor.

It´s not my fault he wants to get away

from you for the summer.

What does she look like?

-Nina. -Is she pretty?

Is she young?

Please don´t do this.

I just want a picture in my head.

I want to see who you chose over me.

I didn´t.

It was the worst mistake I made in my life.

But it´s over.

I realized how much having this family means to me.

I want to come home.

I want us to be a family the way we always should´ve been.

We can open the store, just like we talked about,

just like you dreamed.

Dreams.

You mean like going off to do great things...

...because Everwood was never enough for you?

Because you always thought you were so much better

than all of it.

[CHUCKLES]

It wasn´t Everwood.

It was me who wasn´t enough for you.

-That´s not true. -You´re damn right, it´s not.

Life is about growing up, Carl, but you never grew up.

You´re a failure. You failed me as a husband...

...you failed Sam as a father, you failed yourself as a person.

You have been running in place for years

and I bought it all, every damn bit of it.

You´re right, I´m a failure at everything.

I never did anything great with my life.

Every year, the big break didn´t come.

No promotions, no....

I was ashamed to come home to you.

I´d be in another crappy motel somewhere...

...in another damn city...

...so sick of myself.

Not much of my life is worth anything.

Just you and Sam.

You were always the best part of me, Nina, always.

The only part that was any good at all.

I´m nothing without you.

I´d disappear completely if I didn´t have you.

Nin, please.

God, please believe me.

I never stopped loving you, never.

Give me one more chance.

I won´t let you down, never again.

I love you, Nina.

I love you so much.

Way to go, Brown.

You get an A-plus in Stupid-Ass Things to Do in a Boat.

Your father would be so proud of you.

And then he´d kill you.

[MOTOR SPUTTERING]

[GRUNTS]

ANDY: We can´t wait anymore.

The sun is down, the wind is picking up.

We gotta call the police, a ranger, somebody.

Still no service.

By the time we drive far enough for the phone,

and they get here...

-...it´ll be two hours. -This can´t be the only cabin.

There´s gotta be a boat somewhere. We need to find one.

Any chance he could be trying to stick it to you,

piss off the old man?

No. No, this is different, I can feel it.

He´s got no food, no extra clothes, no flashlight.

With the sun gone, exposed...

...hypothermia could set in in two hours if he´s dry,

much less if he´s not.

We´ve gotta find him now.

ANDY: Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

Ephram!

-How about over there? -We´ve been over there.

We´ll just keep widening out a bit. We´ll find him.

-Ephram! -Ephram!

-Ephram! -Ephram!

ANDY: I think I see something. -Ephram!

The boat, it´s right over there.

Over here.

Wait, that´s him. There he is, right there.

Hold on, Ephram! It´s okay, everything´s gonna be alright.

What´re you doing? We gotta get in closer to pull him out.

We get any closer, we´ll get stuck too.

-We´re here now, he´s okay. -I´m going in after him.

You´re not going anywhere. Here.

You said you´re not much of a swimmer, I am.

Grab the rope.

And sit down before you tip us over.

You okay?

EPHRAM: It´s cold. I´m cold.

We´ll get you warmed up soon.

Plenty of firewood and hot soup.

-My dad, is he--? -He´s fine, don´t worry.

We just gotta get you out of here. Okay.

-Not The Music Man again. -It´s good to be reminded...

...of why a classic should never be remade.

Besides, you always loved "Shipoopi."

How about XXX? Vin Diesel´s cool.

He´s a Neanderthal with an overactive pituitary

and a gym membership.

That´s the trouble with your generation.

It´s all about mindless eye candy, blowing things up.

There´s no appreciation for art.

Now, Robert Preston, he was cool.

Hi.

Hi, Dr. Abbott.

Colin, how are you?

I´m okay, thanks.

Um, could I talk to you for a second?

I´ll go get the movies. I´ll get both of them, just in case.

See you later.

I thought you never wanted to see me again.

No.

It was kind of the other way around.

I didn´t want you to see me anymore.

Not like this, anyways.

I don´t understand.

Look, I said all those things because I felt like I had to.

Like I had to be mean to make you go away.

But then I decided that I couldn´t go through with it.

I couldn´t have you thinking that I hated you when I don´t.

So why did you tell me to go away?

I can´t ask you to stay with me, Amy.

Not again.

You´ve been through this before and I know how much it hurt you.

I don´t even know what´s gonna happen now.

I´m not getting better, Amy.

And I might get worse.

And you don´t wanna deal with that again.

How do you know what I want?

Look, I know you wouldn´t leave if I asked you to stay.

-You´re too good of a person. -Are you kidding me?

Colin, I didn´t go to that hospital every day

because I thought you missed me...

...I went because I missed you.

It´s not like I´m doing you any favors.

Trust me, I can be really overbearing.

Ask your mom, she tried to bounce me, too, but I stick.

Thanks.

So I bet this is, like, an all-time high

for you being pissed off at me, right?

Before today, I thought losing your mother

was the worst thing I could imagine.

I´m sorry I scared you.

I´m sorry I kidnapped you

and took you to the Unabomber Fantasy Camp.

I hated the idea of you going to New York.

Even for a week.

When you started talking about going for the whole summer,

I just....

You really think you could get all B´s?

That was probably a safe bet for the house.

Well, I want you to do well on your finals,

but no matter what...

...you can spend the summer with your grandparents.

I know they´d love it and I know it´d be great for you...

...and I know you´ll come back.

We should get going. I´ve got this test tomorrow.

-I´m actually prepared for once. -You can make up the test.

You might have a concussion.

We´ll leave tomorrow, just to be safe.

Besides, I think I can get you a doctor´s note.

See, I know this guy....

I´m all packed. I told the cab to come in an hour.

I´ll be back from daycare in plenty of time.

We´ll be doing this a lot soon, won´t we?

Yeah.

Okay?

Alright.

[PHONE RINGING]

Hello?

Hello?

Stop calling here.

Look, I know who this is, and don´t ever call him again,

do you hear me?

He told me all about you. What you had is over.

He´s home with his family, with his son, with me.

He loves me, do you understand?

MAN [OVER PHONE]: I´m sorry.

Just tell him I´m sorry.

[LINE CLICKS]

Thanks again.

Next time we go on vacation together, I´ll save your life.

Next time? I don´t think so.

I wanted to thank you too for what you did out there.

Eh, forget it.

It´s easier to be a hero with other people´s children.

No, not just for saving Ephram.

You said some things I really needed to hear.

I got a big mouth.

It runs in the family.

He´s more like me than I care to admit sometimes.

He´s stubborn, he always thinks he´s right.

But he´s like his mother too. He´s artistic and passionate.

From what I can tell, it´s not a bad mix.

Yeah, I guess it isn´t.

Now, you go be with your boy.

And not a word of this to that nurse of yours.

There was nothing but R and R all weekend,

and just a little bit of fishing.

Hey, just made it.

My cab should be here any minute.

Are you okay?

You got another call.

I talked to him.

He says he´s sorry, he wanted me to tell you that.

Maybe I should have seen it, I knew it was something.

When I´d offer to meet you on the road before,

you always had some excuse.

Fewer and fewer visits every year, always some reason.

You distracted yourself with friends...

...even when we only had a day or two together.

You could never wait to leave.

Anything not to be here, not to be with me.

It´s amazing how we fill in the blanks the way we wanna see...

...and I kept filling them in.

"I´m not pretty today.

I´m not funny or smart or interesting enough.

Next visit, I´ll do better, I´ll work harder,

I´ll figure it out."

I felt so unattractive sometimes, so unwanted.

You have no idea how hard it was,

always trying to find reason...

...some way that I failed.

Somewhere, deep down, I knew something was wrong.

I´m sure I did.

I guess I must have been afraid to ask somehow.

But I wonder if I had, if you would have told me the truth.

Even in my arms, you were always out of reach.

And maybe you didn´t love me the way I did you...

...but you didn´t even care enough to be honest with me.

You didn´t choose someone else, Carl...

...you are someone else.

[CAR HORN HONKS]

WOMAN: Did you get ahold of Ted? MAN: Yeah.

[PATRONS SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]

We already gave you our decision.

I know.

Listen, I´d like to say something to you...

...and then I won´t bother you again, I promise.

Please.

Alright.

I know how scared you are.

I also know that fear is only part of it.

I think you´re frustrated...

...and you´re angry that you can´t fix this yourself.

This weekend, Ephram had an accident and I....

I really thought that I´d lost him.

And I didn´t handle it very well.

He´s okay, but I was ashamed that I couldn´t help him.

That I couldn´t take care of someone that I love...

...someone who´s my responsibility.

I´m glad your son´s okay...

...but it´s not the same.

No, it´s not.

But what is the same is that it´s impossible

to be objective...

...when your own child´s life is in danger.

We´re not equipped for that as parents, as fathers.

Mr. Hart, I believe that Colin´s life...

...or at least the likelihood of a truly meaningful life...

...is in danger without this procedure.

And I believe that I can see that more clearly than you.

I need you to talk to Colin.

We need to persuade him.

I know how to help your son. Please.

Please put your faith in me.

IRV: It´s easy to create a child...

...it´s the rest we have so much trouble with.

Our kids drive us crazy, they keep us sane.

We can´t wait for them to grow up...

...we wish they never would.