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-You have a boyfriend. -Yes.

Ephram Brown, meet Colin Hart.

-Want me to ask dad to help him? -Talk to him.

My mom said you could come after school.

I thought you didn´t like me.

I lied. You asked me to ask dad to help Colin.

I said I did, I didn´t.

Want to play something better?

I asked my dad to help him. He´s looking at him tomorrow.

Okay.

Okay.

IRV: Everyone has a touchstone...

...a last line of defense against

the mayhem and sorrow of this world.

For some people in Everwood,

that person is Dr. Gretchen Trott.

[HORN HONKING]

No. No.

[HORN HONKING]

HARRY: Oh, come on. Son of a--

Goddamn.

What is that thing, blood van?

Ice cream truck? Bookmobile?

[HARRY SIGHS]

Shrinkmobile.

IRV: Of course, not all Everwoodies

worship at the shrine...

...of this particular recreational vehicle.

Excuse us, coming through.

So everyone has their own psychiatrist?

Psychologist, with a master´s in social work.

Good morning, Gretchen.

Well, hello. It´s nice to see you again, Dr. Abbott.

Gretchen, is it my imagination...

...or did we not discuss in detail

at the time of your last visit-- When was that, Easter?

--the desirability of your finding

a more convenient place to see patients?

Well, I believe you did make certain views known.

I might call it a rumination more than a conversation.

Well, whether you remember it or not,

you need to move this eyesore...

...so that I can park my car in my regular space.

This is the most convenient location

for most of my patients.

In the absence of any official signage,

I´ll continue to station here.

Did you hear a word I just said?

I heard you use territorialism to establish superiority.

I can respect a narcissistic impulse.

I´m under no obligation to cater it.

I don´t believe we´ve met, Dr. Trott. I´m Andy Brown.

Speaking of narcissists.

-The Andy Brown? -The one and only.

Uh, it´s a pleasure to meet you. I´m--

Well, I´m actually a bit of a fan.

I recently rediscovered your ´97 article...

...on distinguishing psychological

from organic mental disorders.

I have to tell you, I found your analysis

more insightful upon second reading.

Oh, brother.

It´s a pleasure to meet a person...

...who´s providing service to this community.

I would be delighted to park my car down the street...

...for the duration of your stay.

Thank you. Thank you very much.

Now if you´ll excuse me, I have to prepare to see my patients.

I like her.

You would. How could anyone in their right mind...

...take that nomadic quack´s insights seriously?

Dr. Trott? I´m not too late, am I?

-Dr. Trott? TROTT: Oh, hi.

Yeah. Oh, God.

[STUDENTS CHATTERING]

AMY: I thought they only paid you to play piano.

EPHRAM: What, you doubt my school spirit

Whatever, it´s cool of you to help.

See that red rope over there? That´s where it all starts.

Every year, it´s a mad dash to see who gets the best seats.

You´d think it was a Paul McCartney concert.

I´ve never seen middle-aged people run so fast.

A high school ballet depicting the changing of the leaves...

...high point of the Everwood social season.

Why am I not surprised?

Flower mart actually sold out last year.

Ha. All the girls get bouquets, roses mostly.

EPHRAM: That´s good to know.

Except me. I mean, well, I´ve never had a solo before...

...but Colin used to bring me flowers anyway.

Not my parents or anybody, just Colin.

Heh. You just checked your watch five minutes ago.

Colin´s parents´ appointment is almost over.

EPHRAM: I wouldn´t worry about it.

My dad´s appointments last long enough

for whoever he´s talking at to sign on the dotted line.

I can´t remember the last time someone said

no when the Dr. Brown offered his help.

Colin´s surgery´s a done deal.

I watched this show about comas the other night

on the science channel.

It showed people who came out after a long time...

...like six months or so.

Most of them barely even looked human.

I remember this one guy´s face was frozen

in this silent scream...

...like that painting.

And most of their hands were all curled up

like Jennifer Hockaday in special ed.

You know, I don´t mean this in a bad way, Amy...

...but are you sure you want him back?

I mean, especially if--

I just mean that it might be better for him if--

I want him back.

No matter what.

ANDY: As Dr. Lethem and the Denver team said...

...the causes of short-term coma

...are generally discrete and identifiable...

...while the causes of prolonged coma can often be idiopathic...

...of unknown origin.

In Colin´s case, the neuro team...

...has monitored his intracranial pressure...

...provided what is above the standard of care.

Be confident that up to this point...

...you´ve done everything for him.

-And-- -Up to this point?

Having studied Colin´s history and his films...

I´ve come up with a theory.

So you think you know something they don´t?

There is what we believe to be a small fragment of bone...

...lodged in Colin´s brain.

More specifically in the brain stem

where it would be difficult to remove.

Dr. Lethem doesn´t believe...

...that the relationship between this fragment...

...and your son´s comatose state is causal.

-But you do. -I do.

I believe I can surgically resect it...

...without damaging the stem.

You´ve done this before?

Actually, no.

The brain stem handles the most elemental tasks...

...that the brain performs.

Were we to undertake this surgery successfully...

...it would be reportable.

Meaning?

It would be an experiment of sorts.

By that I mean experimentation occurs all the time in medicine.

It´s how innovation takes place, it´s how lives are saved.

I want you to know, I don´t undertake this lightly.

I´ve performed over 200 procedures

a year for the last 15 years.

I have one of the highest success rates in the country.

But what if you do damage the brain stem?

Well, it would threaten Colin´s ability to walk, eat, breathe.

And what if we don´t do it?

It´s impossible to say.

Colin may emerge from the coma on his own.

But you don´t think he will?

[JIM GROANS]

You´re the last stop for us, Dr. Brown.

We´ve run out of answers of our own.

What do you think we should do?

I can´t tell you what to do.

It´s a choice you´ll have to make together.

But if it were your son?

ANDY: Thought I´d get sick of Art´s food, everyday.

-I´m beginning to realize-- HARRY: That you have no taste?

The meatloaf is versatile, is what I will say.

Hi, I´m picking up a tuna melt with coleslaw to go?

Ever been to a shrink?

Thought I could do it on my own. You?

Ah. I´d sooner tell you my problems.

I´m sorry, I accidentally made your sandwich

with dill pickles when you asked for sweet...

-I could remake it right now. -That´s not necessary, Dwayne.

DWAYNE: I just...

...hate myself for screwing up.

I never can do anything. Mother was right.

Dwayne--

DWAYNE: You have to let me, Dr.Trott.

I know I can do a better job, really.

-I want to remake it. -If you insist, thank you.

You got him right where you want him, don´t you?

I´m sorry?

You thrive on it. The insecurity,

the doubt, the self-loathing.

Come to town every few months, needlessly stir up neuroses...

...like lawnmowing in the dust bowl.

I don´t create the feelings...

I give people a safe place to put them.

You ride into town like the Joan of Arc of Gestalt.

A week later, your patients are reassurance junkies...

...begging for a fix and you´ve ridden off into the sunset.

Well, someone has to pick up the pieces.

How does that make you feel, Harold?

Do shrinks have that implanted on a chip somewhere?

Memorize a few key phrases...

...buy a couch, you´re Sigmund Freud?

I respect your point of view. I´m glad you´re expressing--

Do you ever actually say anything?

For God´s sake, get to the point.

Is it possible that in reality, you thrive on it...

...that you derive satisfaction from...

...and I´m using your words, "picking up the pieces?"

Don´t make me out to be some kind of parasitic...

...misery-loving egomaniac.

Those are your terms, not mine.

Try to stay evidence-based, Harold...

...don´t be so hard on yourself.

Thanks for the sandwich, Dwayne.

Will you be eating all that, Harold, or can I have some?

[UPBEAT POP SONG PLAYING ON STEREO]

Bet you don´t know what this song´s about.

I do too.

What?

-It´s about this girl. -It´s about sex.

-Do you even know what that is? -Duh.

[INCREASES VOLUME]

What´s that?

Makeup. It´s my mom´s.

You stole it?

Delia, I think it´s time for you to go home now.

[MUSIC STOPS]

ANDY: Alright, I understand.

No, no, there´s really no need to explain.

No, no, no, of course not.

Alright, we´ll talk again soon.

EPHRAM: Who was that? -Ah, just work stuff.

Was it about Colin Hart?

As a matter of fact, it was.

-Well, what´d they say? -Who?

Oh, they decided not to pursue the surgical option.

What?

You can hardly blame them. It´s a tough decision to make.

Wait, so that´s just it?

Well, nothing´s just it.

Colin´s status is constantly evolving, who knows?

Tomorrow, next week, next month could be a ball game.

-You´ll let it lie. -No point in forcing the issue.

That´s the new thing, right?

This whole laissez-faire country doctor bit?

Well, doctors don´t have all the answers, Ephram.

-They don´t? -No.

Sometimes parents have the answers too.

When you´re done letting the cold air out of the fridge...

...set the table, will you?

Hey, Ephram.

Um, my dad told me last night. Sorry.

I shouldn´t have gotten my hopes up.

You know, once in a while, back in New York...

...people would say no to my dad, at first.

Then what happened?

Well, he persuaded them he was right.

- You know, except-- - What?

In this town, people are different.

I mean, you gotta know them 25 years

before they let you change their tire.

So you don´t think your dad could convince the Harts?

Heh. I don´t know.

-But maybe you could. -Me? Really, you think?

Yeah.

Right.

Thanks, Ephram.

Wanna play foursquare with me?

Hey, we´re playing dodge ball. You in?

-Yeah. BUD: We got Magilla.

You wanna play with me after school then?

-No. -Why not?

Because last time I got in trouble, moron.

I can´t. My mom said.

Hey, guys.

That mole seems to be fine.

Let´s check it next time you´re in town.

-Where are the other ones? -Oh, here.

So when will you be in town again?

Um, most likely February or March?

Unorthodox way to practice.

Well, I could say the same of you.

I was told this consultation would be free of charge?

I don´t need the money so I skip paperwork.

A glib response is somewhat wasted on a psychotherapist.

ANDY: Well...

...people keep asking me and it gets kind of old...

...as if every act of altruism required a rationale.

Altruism.

Yeah, you know, like--

Oh, I get it, I get it, I remember my psych rotation.

You think I´ve got some kind of subconscious motivator...

...like winning friends and influencing people or, uh...

Well, go ahead.

Give it your best shot.

I wonder what it means when a renowned neurosurgeon...

...with a shot of making the history books...

...moves to the middle of nowhere

and gives his resource away for free.

And he won´t be buying a football team anytime soon?

You got me, doc. I don´t think about those kinds of things.

I guess some people are just too hardheaded...

...for that kind of complexity.

I believe that the average level of neurosis...

...in non-mentally ill individuals

...is strikingly similar.

It´s the spectrum of self-awareness that differs.

I call it the denial factor.

Well, that sounds vaguely familiar.

Who do you talk to, Dr. Brown?

A friend, a colleague, wife?

Well, I get a certain perverse pleasure

out of solving my own problems.

Everyone needs someone.

Well, those other ones look fine to me too.

You might wanna keep an eye on them.

Put your clothes on, unless you love that gown.

Okay.

So lay it on me.

What does happen to those unfortunate individuals...

...who deny their own neuroses?

The effects vary, of course.

In extreme cases the pattern can be something along the lines...

...of complete emotional spiral, resulting in total breakdown.

You don´t say.

-Bright, where are you going? -Got a date.

Tonight? No, no, no. You have to be here for dinner.

I don´t think so. Got a shot with Gemma Maxwell...

...and Mom´s tuna cornflake casserole?

Not gonna seal the deal.

Bright, you can´t go.

-You have to be here. -Why?

-Mom invited the Harts over. -So?

I´ve got the research about the surgery.

-All you have to do is just-- -I thought they said no.

-They could change their minds. -Fat chance.

We shouldn´t get involved.

We´re already involved. Colin is your best friend,

You have to help me. Tell them--

It´s a lost cause, Amy.

What is wrong with you? Don´t you want him back?

[DOOR OPENS THEN CLOSES]

-That bad, huh? EPHRAM: Depends.

-What is it? -Point taken.

-What do you think, Delia? -It´s fine.

Is something wrong, Delia?

Magilla wouldn´t play with me today.

He just wanted to play with his other friends.

Magilla doesn´t have other friends.

I´m sure he´ll wanna play with you again tomorrow.

No, he won´t. He said he can´t play with me anymore.

ANDY: Why not? -His mom said.

-Why would she say that? -She doesn´t like me.

Heh. That´s impossible.

You have to have a parent talk.

What, with Magilla? I´m not his parent.

EPHRAM: No.

You have to talk to his parents.

You know, that´s actually a very good idea, Ephram.

Tell you what. We´ll go over there right after dinner.

We can stop and pick up some ice cream on the way over.

-Sort of a peace offering. -That might work.

I can´t remember the last time we were so well taken care of.

-Thank you for having us, Rose. -How are you holding up?

Must be hard to have a nice time knowing that Colin´s--

ROSE: Amy.

I think about him all the time.

Why won´t Dr. Brown be performing surgery--?

Amy. You´ll have to forgive her, she´s been under some strain.

Don´t talk about me like I´m not here.

-That is enough. SHARON: It´s all right, Rose.

I feel the same way you do, honey.

There´s nothing that we can do.

Yes, there is.

Dr. Brown is one of the premier

brain surgeons in the United States.

Patients fly halfway around the world

for a consultation and we have him...

...right here...

...and he wants to help us.

SHARON: No.

No, he doesn´t.

We agreed that Colin should have the surgery...

...and it was Dr. Brown who changed his mind.

These things are starting to melt.

You think I should ring again?

You rang four times. They don´t want us to come in.

Here we go, see?

Good evening. I´m Andy Brown

and I think you know my daughter, Delia.

Hope you don´t mind our dropping by like this.

We rang the bell few times and, uh, figured you--

No, I really have some--

ANDY: I´ll just get to the point.

It´s come to my attention that there´s some misunderstanding.

-I-- -Delia´s under the impression...

...that you don´t want her playing with your son Stuart.

Do you want to discuss this in front of your daughter?

What´s this, Jenny?

Uh, this is a friend of Stuart´s,

Howard, and her father.

Andy Brown, pleased to meet you.

Delia was telling me a story on the way over here.

She said that she and your son

were playing the other day and, uh--

This is hard to believe, because Delia has been

a tomboy ever since she was in the womb but that--

Well, they were playing dress up. Ha, ha.

Well, I can assure you that as a physician...

...at this age, this kind of play is perfectly alright.

All the same, if it bothers you, you don´t have to worry.

It won´t happen again.

Why didn´t you tell me about this?

I was going to.

Keep your daughter away from our son.

I´m sorry?

You heard me.

Please don´t come back.

Let´s get these home before they melt.

Dad.

Is something wrong with me?

Nothing is wrong with you, sweetheart.

There is nothing wrong with you.

[PLAYING SOFT MUSIC]

AMY: Why didn´t you tell me?

What?

-Your father turned them down. -What?

The Harts asked if he´d do the surgery.

Wait, why wouldn´t my dad wanna operate?

-You tell me. -No, it´s impossible.

My dad´s a jerk but he´s never turned anyone down.

Dad´s never met odds he didn´t like.

-He didn´t like Colin´s. -You sure you´ve got this right?

The Harts told me.

The guy would rescue a kid from a coma...

...and, you know, be the town hero.

Are you sure he didn´t tell you this?

Why would I lie to you, Amy?

You´re the only person I care about in this whole stupid town.

Look, I didn´t know.

I swear.

[CHUCKLES]

There´s still too many chairs in the waiting room.

I said 10 chairs and I meant it.

We need to redo the color-coding on the patient files

by Friday at the latest.

And, uh, get a copy of the seating chart for the recital.

We don´t want any surprises like last year.

Oh, and, uh, get me some coffee, will you?

[DOOR CLOSES]

Good morning, Dr. Abbott.

Good morning, was there--?

When you say "we," do you mean "we" or do you mean "me?"

Heh. I´m sorry, I--

We need to redo the color-coding.

Do you mean "we" or "me?"

Well, you, I suppose.

Then I´d appreciate it if you´d say:

"Could you please have the folders

redone by Friday, Louise?"

And furthermore, I was not hired to make coffee...

...so if I choose to do so...

...it would be on a case-by-case personal favor basis.

Is that understood?

Yes, Louise.

You told me my lack of assertiveness

was limiting my career potential.

-Oh, now, I-- -So I signed up with Dr. Trott.

[SIGHS]

You can hang your own scarf.

[HARRY CHUCKLES]

[CHUCKLES]

No.

Dr. Trott.

Dr. Trott!

Dr. Trott.

What do you call this?

Hmm....

-A scarf? -No, not that.

My assistant, Louise, she was a completely normal person...

...before you got your rabid, invasive,

self-indulgent paws on her.

And stop filling people´s heads with this garbage.

Have you no scruples?

You wreck people´s lives, you charge them for it.

-You´re like a televangelist. -I am having a breakthrough.

-Alright, alright, you altered-- -Excuse me, Brenda.

BRENDA: Even-- -Excuse me, I´m not done yet.

TROTT: I am done listening though. Good day, Harold.

Oh, no, it is not.

It is not a good day, do you hear me,

Dr. Feelgood?

I will have you evicted.

I will have you towed, you--

You´re all crazy.

[TALKING INDISTINCTLY]

-Hi, sweetheart. -Hey.

Well, that didn´t sound very enthusiastic.

Your friend still not talking to you, huh?

He´s got a lot of willpower for a third-grader.

He wasn´t in school today.

He´s probably just out sick.

I asked Miss Violet, she said he wasn´t coming back.

Do you believe this?

Those parents yanked their kid out of school

for playing dressup?

That´s medieval. Alright, here´s what we´re gonna do:

-We are going over there. -Word on the q.t.

-They will listen to reason. -Doc.

ANDY: These people know nothing about child-rearing.

If I can tell that they´re doing it wrong--

[EDNA WHISTLES]

In your office, sarge!

[DOOR OPENS]

-Look, I don´t know what the-- -Shh!

As Dr. Sourpuss´ nurse, I was privy to some information...

...which I normally wouldn´t disclose

but under the circumstances....

It´s about little Stuart. Magilla.

-He wasn´t born a he. -What?

Not a she neither, exactly. Ambiguous genitalia.

What some in the profession call pseudohermaphrodite.

The gorilla kid? The one who put a bug up his own nose?

The parents were in the deep serious on this one.

They send him to a specialist in Denver.

This genius follows the prevailing wisdom...

...and suggests that since baby Magilla´s

got a well-formed you-know-what...

...and generally looks masculine...

...the parents should rear him as a boy, no questions asked.

Then Delia comes along...

...and they see their boy playing with a girl...

...playing like a girl.

The situation will only become more complicated

as he approaches puberty. I should talk to them about--

You can talk till you´re blue in the face.

It´s not gonna change this family´s ideas

of how to raise their child.

-Not change per se but I could-- -No.

All I´m saying is I could just--

Let me tell you this and I mean no offense by it...

...but I´m not entirely sure

...anyone´s ever told you this before.

There are some things that you can´t fix.

I´m ready, let´s go.

-Need some help with that? EPHRAM: I got it.

Is Amy nervous about the recital?

She´s too pissed off.

Well, these are difficult decisions.

What the Harts decide is their prerogative

and we have to respect that.

What the Harts decided?

What you decided for them.

This is typical, the one time it matters--

It always matters, Ephram.

It just so happens that this time, it matters to you.

-But that doesn´t mean that I-- -Amy matters to me.

And as pathetic as it may be, you were her only shot.

She´s not used to being let down by you, not yet.

Listen to me, Ephram.

These people asked me what I would do if it were my son...

...and I told them that I thought it was risky.

It´s tempting to leap in and try and surgically fix things.

That´s a load. You know it.

If it were your son, me, you´d let me sit in a coma...

...when there was a zillionth chance

you´d ride in on your horse and save me?

I don´t think so.

And if I didn´t know any better, I´d think you were scared.

We´re gonna be late.

ANDY: Excuse me.

Excuse me, would you mind moving over

so my daughter and I could sit together?

No.

No, you wouldn´t mind or--?

I´m a person and I´m important.

You wouldn´t by any chance be a patient of Dr. Trott´s?

Why, yes.

Go ahead, sit on the inside, sweetheart.

You´ve really got this down.

I´ve read The Art of War.

How long did you have to wait for these seats?

Three hours.

He brings his backlog of medical journals.

The Harts told us about your decision.

Oh?

It´s what I´d do, the more cautious choice.

Well, thank you, I´m glad you agree.

I said it´s what I´d do.

Amy?

Colin would never forgive me

if I didn´t make sure you got these.

I know he would give anything to be here.

Good luck.

Amy.

Amy.

-What´s wrong? -He´s not coming back.

Hey, you don´t know that.

He could come out of it, he probably will.

He´s gone.

Amy.

Amy.

EPHRAM: Dr. Abbott.

-Come here now. -What is wrong?

EPHRAM: It´s Amy. Come on.

ROSE: Amy?

HARRY: Honey, honey.

Sweetheart, can you hear me?

We´re going home.

We´re going home, sweetheart.

Sweetheart.

[DOORBELL RINGS]

-I can´t talk to you. -It´s just for a minute.

You saw what happened, sorry.

I´m not here to tell you how to raise your kids.

I need your help.

Please.

I´ll come around to the side door, don´t knock.

[SIGHS]

Did you pull your son out of school

because of what happened?

Oh, no, my husband and I...

had been thinking about sending him...

...to a boy´s school anyway, over in Cloverton.

I know about your son´s condition.

-How could you--? -I won´t.

I´m ethically bound not to disclose

your son´s medical history to anyone...

...but I wanna help you.

-As a doctor-- -We´ve been to doctors...

...don´t you understand?

All we want to do is to put this behind us.

But Stuart won´t be able to put it behind him.

Maybe that´s not such a bad thing.

These kids grow up to be very special people.

They´ve got a lifetime of empathy

by the time they turn 10. And that´s a tremendous gift.

You cannot put him in a box and try--

Would you please just go?

ANDY: Stuart´s not the reason I came here.

But I would like to ask you to do one thing for me.

For my daughter.

I brought you the hat you like.

Take it.

I don´t like that hat.

Yeah, you do. You said.

Okay.

It´s too small. People will know it´s from a girl.

So?

I hate girls.

Well, I hate boys.

All boys?

No.

I don´t hate girls, I guess.

Goodbye, Magilla.

Goodbye, Delia.

Ready to go, kiddo?

-How did that go? -Fine.

[ENGINE STARTS]

Maybe you two could stay in touch with letters or e-mail.

-You´ll make new friends, Delia. -I don´t wanna make new friends.

I don´t want to say goodbye to people anymore.

Hey, you look better.

Hi, guys. I feel better.

Really?

I´m totally fine.

Okay, because last night was pretty--

Freaky, right?

It´s funny, same thing happened to me

when I went on this family trip.

I didn´t have time to study for a chem test.

I just spazzed out, I lost it.

It´s good I got it out of my system

because I feel completely together.

I´m just so embarrassed that everyone saw me like that.

It´s just so not typical of me. What?

You´re talking faster than my brain processes language.

Oh.

Sorry, I´m a little bit, uh--

Anyway, so how are you?

-How are you? -I´m great.

No, how are you, really?

I´m completely fine.

Really, I am.

Because, you know... if not, you can tell me.

I just told you I am.

If you wanna talk about anything or whatever, I´ll be here.

Oh, my God, I forgot. I´m supposed to meet Kayla and Page

at the mall. I gotta go.

-Sorry. -Here.

I´ll be here.

EDNA: You wanna see him, I need a reason.

You could be the Unabomber after all.

Not today, Mother.

Now you call me if there´s a problem, alright?

Okay, doctor.

HARRY: Hello, Marge. -Hello.

Dr. Abbott.

HARRY: Can I see you for a moment?

Sure.

In private?

Love what you´ve done with the place.

Examining table paper...

...some tongue depressors, sky´s the limit.

I find it´s more convenient...

...to store extra swabs under the table.

Did you come into my office for the first time...

...to tell me where you store swabs?

First day you recognized me.

You said it was from the mental ward.

Ha, ha. Yeah. That was a good one. Ahem.

You did recognize me.

I was finishing up at the VA when you got there.

Oh, there´s no reason you should remember me.

You were harder to miss.

Even then we all knew we were in the presence...

...of something greater than ourselves.

It was like being on the junior high

basketball team with Michael Jordan.

The chief would describe each new feat of yours...

...with unmitigated jealousy.

Almost hatred.

Gee...

...I always thought Doug liked me.

[HARRY LAUGHS]

He hated you.

You made him face his worst fear...

...that he would never be extraordinary.

He met you, he abandoned his dreams of greatness.

He wasn´t alone.

-So you were going to be-- -A surgeon.

Yes.

I was almost a surgeon.

Unfortunately, I....

I discovered I didn´t have the hands for it.

So after my residency, I just...

...came back here, joined my father´s practice...

...in this miserable little town, I became a family doctor.

No small thing in times like these.

But you...

...you are a man with a gift much larger than yourself...

...larger even than your own...

...hopelessly bloated ego, if that´s possible.

Thank you.

Sharon and James Hart don´t know who you are, I do.

I do. They don´t know what you can do for their son.

They´re terrified of making a mistake. I know and you know...

...somewhere within the world´s thickest dura...

you owe it to this kid...

...to perform whatever miracle you´ve got up your sleeve.

You owe it to Colin and to his parents and to my...

...poor heartbroken daughter and to the universe...

...or whoever decided that you would be Leonardo

and I would be...

...less remarkable. Hell, you owe it to me.

[PLAYING SOFT MUSIC]

What are you playing?

Uh, uh--

Nothing.

Did you compose this nothing?

Hey, what are you doing here, there´s no rehearsal.

Oh, I had a free period so I thought I´d--

That´s not true.

I came because I wanted to tell you something.

[PLAYS RANDOM KEYS]

Yesterday, when I told you...

...that I was okay...

...I wasn´t.

I´m not-- I´m not okay.

I remember in fourth grade...

...Miss Kitslinger´s class and Mrs. Barber´s class...

...went on a field trip to the brewery...

...and on the way back home...

...I got into the wrong bus.

Colin thought they had left me behind.

He walked back three miles...

...and stayed at the brewery till nightfall...

...trying to find me.

Couldn´t leave me behind.

What were you playing before?

You said nobody brought you flowers but Colin.

It would have been your first solo...

...so I wanted to make sure someone remembered.

I wrote you a song.

Will you play it for me?

No. It´s not finished, it--

Please.

[PLAYING SOFT MUSIC]

IRV: The thing about your touchstone,

you come to depend on it...

...no matter whether you set out to or not.

But not even your own personal Rock of Gibraltar is permanent.

Rock has her own needs to think of.

And just because you want someone to stick around...

...doesn´t mean she will.

Dr. Brown knew something about that.

You got time for one more hopeless case, doc?

ANDY: I had a medical consultation last week.

The parents wouldn´t consent...

...they wouldn´t put their faith in me.

Why do you think that is?

They didn´t believe that I could heal their son.

-Did you? -What?

Did you believe you could heal him?

I was advocating the procedure.

I believed it to be the proper course of action...

...with the chance of a positive outcome.

Not the surgery, the surgeon. You.

I wasn´t thinking about me or my abilities.

I was thinking about these people.

Someone´s parents...

...someone´s son.

This kid is the boyfriend of a girl

that my kid goes to school with.

I was thinking that if something goes wrong...

...if we can´t bring him out--

I was thinking about the outcome.

You never think about the outcome.

I just lied to you.

The truth is...

...in the end...

...it was me.

I told them I wouldn´t do it.

You were scared.

My son said something like that to me.

And?

It was easier before.

When I didn´t know so much about my patients...

...when I didn´t care.

I used to be able to fix things.

You told me that you moved here to be a father.

And a doctor.

Now you are.

Yeah.

I just didn´t know it would be so hard.

Welcome to the human race, Dr. Brown.

[ENGINE STARTS]