All language subtitles for Greys.Anatomy.S22E02.WEB (SDH)

[Grey] In 1976,
an orthopedic surgeon
crashed his plane

in the middle of nowhere
with his family on board.

-[Ellis Grey] Fix it, Meredith.
-I'm trying.

[Grey] He was shocked
by how unprepared
the local doctors were

to treat his injured family.

How many times have I told you?
Always go in with a plan.

I didn't have time.

[Zola] Mom.

[sighs] Oh, for God's sake.
What did I tell you
about having children?

-[Derek] Mom!
-[Ellis] Mommy! Mommy!

When is the carousel
going to start?

[Ellis Grey] The carousel
never stops turning.
You can't get off.

-[Derek] Come on, Mom.
-Start the carousel.

-Clock's ticking.
-[Derek] Hurry up.

Can you help?

[Ellis Grey] I raised you
to be an extraordinary.

-[Derek] Mommy!
-[Ellis Grey]
What happened to you?

[knocks on door]

[Grey] They prioritized
what they could see.

Lacerations, open fractures,

and didn't look
for hidden injuries

like brain trauma
or internal bleeding.

[knocks on door]

[♪ "Close Behind" playing]

How is she? Mmm.

Well, she's barely
gotten out of bed.

Has she eaten?

Did you make soup?

Who do you think
you're talking to?

I'll make the soup.

She isn't sick. We just need to
get her out of the bed.

Yeah, she's grieving.
Veronica died.

Monica.

Sorry. [whispers]
May she rest in peace.

It was awful.

But Amelia is a workaholic
and the hospital
is her happy place.

We just need to get her back
to her routine.

I'm still gonna make soup.

Maybe I should go in
and say hi.

I guess that's a no.

[Grey] It inspired him to
invent the Advanced Trauma
Life Support program.

But ATLS is only the beginning.

Oh, look around you.

Say hello to your competition.

Eight of you will switch
to an easier specialty.

Five of you will crack
under the pressure.

Two of you will be
asked to leave.

This is your starting line.
This is your arena.

This looks like
the minor league
and I came to play.

[clears throat]

How well you play...
Well, that's up to you.

Should they be
wearing hard hats?

I have enough to do
without having to laugh
at your dad jokes.

Oh, I'm not joking. [laughs]

[stammers]
I thought you'd be less busy.
Fewer ORs, fewer problems.

New interns, new problems.

I'm still assigning them
to the residents.

I want them to be a good fit.

-Do you want me
to do that for you?
-Mm-mmm.

Look, they're fresh and eager.
They'll fit with anybody.

Oh, no. I'm not worried
about them.

ORs will be ready
by the time they figure out
where the bathrooms are.

[sighs] It's the second years.

Oh, you're concerned
they won't be good teachers.

I'm concerned
they just lost Beltran.

I'm concerned that
yesterday they were interns
and today they're supervisors.

That's how the system works.

Do they seem like
supervisors to you?

I didn't say it was
the best system.

[Grey] What happens
after that is all on you.

I-I thought you got
a hotel room.

Oh, a big MVC
came in last night.

No, it didn't.

Due to the lack of ORs,
they notify me
when we have overnight traumas.

Noted. Well,
I don't like hotel rooms.

Since when?

Am I somehow bothering you
from an on-call room?

No, it's just not exactly
a long-term solution.

[sighs] I'm aware.
We have rounds on Link.

[Altman] Already saw him.
He's doing well.

Well, I'm still going
to see him.

Knock yourself out.

Okay.

[sighs]

[PA announcer]
Dr. Martinez to the CCU.

Excuse me.

You're not worried about
someone stealing your stuff?

It's cup noodles
and sweaty gym clothes.
They are welcome to it.

[Millin grunts]

Ugh. It's broken.

[sighs]

Uh, you okay? Um, Bailey said
you could take some time off.

I'm fine.
Everyone else is here.

You were the only one
with Beltran.

I'm fine.
I just need to move my stuff.

I've been trying to call you.

Yeah, I need coffee.

Don't you think we should t...

Congratulations. You've made it
to your second year.

[chuckles] All right,
so you have been emailed
your assigned interns, right?

Find them
and learn their names.

Unless it is on
their birth certificate,

a name does not include
a number,

adjective or an instrument
they have dropped.

You... [sighs]
...are no longer at the bottom
of the surgical food chain.

You are responsible
for teaching them

from running codes
to finding the cafeteria.

They will mess up.
And when they do,
it is on you to fix it.

Due to construction,
elective surgeries
have been canceled.

Any emergent cases
will be directed
to outpatient OR.

So pay attention
to where you're going.

All right, Dr. Kwan,
you are covering
the surgical floor.

Millin, cardio.

Griffith, take the pit.

And, Adams, you get to enjoy
the pleasure of my company.

All right, everyone clear?

Okay, I will be keeping
my eye on all of you.

If something unexpectedly
becomes surgical...

Do you like
greedy people, Kwan?

I do, if they need surgery.

-Go find your interns.
-Okay.

[sighs] Come on.

How's our VIP patient?

[chuckles]
He's, uh, post-op day seven
following a thoracotomy

plus subclavian intercostal
and lung laceration repairs.

And he's doing great
according to Altman.

He's rehabbing like a champ,
so he'll be out of here
in no time.

-[Wilson] Maybe it's time
to take a break.
-[groans]

Not if I wanna hold the twins.

Well... [chuckles]
...I'm not due tomorrow.
You have time.

[groans] Three more sets.

Pulse is strong.
How's your pain?

It's less than before.

Well, I agree with
your assessment

and there is no output
from the chest tube,

so I will come back later
and remove it, okay?

All right.

But, um, he-he shouldn't push
himself too hard though, right?

Well, pushing through some pain
is a good thing.

So, keep it up.

[PA announcer]
Dr. Marisol Ortiz
to pediatrics.

[groans]

[sighs] Sorry, we're late.

Someone read the number
on the room incorrectly.

Sorry.

[laughs] Mr. Tep, uh, meet
our newest surgical interns.

Can you tell us
about your chest pain?

It's no big deal.

Dad, you were doubled over.

My daughter need
more important things
to worry about.

Meade, you're up.

Up? Uh... [grunts]

[sighs] Sok Tep, 65,
admitted to the chest pain
OBs unit to rule out MI.

Chest X-ray
shows mediastinal widening.

[daughter] What does that mean?

It's hard to tell
without a scan,

but radiology
is ready for him now.

But I'm supposed to be
at the temple.

[sighs] He was eager to go to
a Cambodian blessing ceremony.

There'll be other ones.
You're in pain. You need help.

I could take care of myself.
[coughs]

All right. Well, look,
since you're here,

let's go ahead
and get the scan, all right?

And then we'll go from there.

-Okay? Just hang tight.
-Thank you.

Uh, Dr. Ndugu,
before we go to CT.

About last week and the closet,
I was in shock
and I was exhausted

and we could just...
[exhales] ...forget about it?

Already done.

[PA announcer]
Dr. Anderson to radiology.

Dr. Olivia Anderson
to radiology.

Uh, Dr. Warren is overseeing
the pit today.

Uh, as a fifth-year resident,
he will assure you that

although we're short
on scheduled cases,

we receive plenty
of emergencies.

[groans] Welcome!
I was where you are just
a few short years ago.

Well, not that short. I was...
I was a firefighter for a bit.

-And before that,
I was in ADC--
-Dr. Warren.

Right. Uh, bed 4
is being assessed for severe
abdominal pain and nausea.

Dibs.

Well, Baldwin's already got it,

but we also just did an intake
on an open femur fracture
in trauma 3.

-Dibs again.
-That one's mine.

Is that a possible arm lac
in bed 6, because if so,
I also call--

Uh, you are not a kid at recess
trying to get the best swing.

We do not call dibs.

Could we get
some help out here?

For the last time, this is
the emergency department.

All supplies need to go
to the freight--

We need a doctor right now.

-This thing just went rolling.
-What thing?

[worker screams, panting]

-[groans]
-Okay.

[groaning]

[pants, screams]

Dibs.

Your chicken broth was expired
or I... I would have
made you soup.

So, this isn't quite
as comforting,

but it does have
the cute little marshmallows.

Do you feel like
getting out of bed today?

Maybe taking a shower?
Putting on some clean clothes?

Do you have any clean clothes?
What is happening here?

My washer broke.
I'm waiting on a part.

When is the last time
you did laundry?

Um, couple weeks ago I-I...
I went to your house
when nobody was there.

There's a key
in the planter still--

You know, I have tenants.
You can't do that.
There are laws about that.

I'm sure that they don't care.

But maybe
they have chicken broth.

Let's go.
We can do the laundry.
We can catch up.

You know,
my mother always said,
"Clean house, clean mind."

I don't think
that's my problem.

Aren't Link's parents bringing
Scout back tomorrow?

I think we have to get you up.

And selfishly, I have to get
on another plane in 24 hours

and I'd like to spend some
time with my sisters.

And I'm sorry, but you need
some clean underwear.

I will buy more.

Come on.

He's a little low on the right.
Griffith, move around
next to Adams.

[worker groaning, panting]

-[paramedic] Gurney coming in.
-Oh, here we go.

Come on, fellas.

-Take it easy.
-The keys are in my pocket.

There's a button next to seat
to put it in reverse.

-It's Patrick, right?
-Yes. Yes.

Okay, we're leaving
this forklift
right where it is.

Yeah, even the smallest
movement could cause
more internal damage.

But you're gonna get me
off this thing, right?

You can cut through this
with a 14-inch rescue saw?

-[firefighter] I'll get it.
-[Patrick] You're cutting it?

-You're not gonna pull it out?
-[Griffith]
We'll remove the metal

in the operating room
where we have more control.

I'll grab supplies
to stabilize the blade.

I can handle this
if you wanna check on
the other residents.

No, no, get the supplies.

I was trying to manage
both an insulation delivery
and electrical inspection.

And I forgot to put the lock
on the forklift.
Someone yelled my name.

By the time I turned around,
it was too late.

Look, we will do everything
to get you out of here.

You need extra hands?

Not if everything on
your patient list
isn't finished.

[Patrick groans]

Okay, Adams, uh,
we need a vascular access.

Griffith, get a crash cart
and ten of morphine.

Okay, move fast. I'm not sure
how much time we have.

Okay.

A forklift through a person?

Well, the construction team
was using it to lift and
transport materials upstairs.

I understand its purpose.

-Whoa.
-[files thud]

[sighs]

You know that awful moment
when you open up
a patient's chest

after their aorta has ruptured?

You've seen it a hundred times,

but it's so much more blood
than you ever expected,

and you can't see anything
and you don't even know
where to begin.

We're in the bloody cavity.

-The metaphor is clear,
but I was--
-Yeah, I should call your wife.

I should, uh, file
a workers' comp report.

I need to tell the lawyer
to just come back here.

I mean, they might as well
live here at this point.

Can I make a recommendation?

Don't call your wife?

Go check on the patient.

[chuckles] Right. Good idea.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

[Bryant] But I don't think
this is right.

I think this has to
come down, right?

You only put two orders in?
That's less than
one per person.

The drop-down menu
threw us at first,
but I think we're good now.

New plan.
I'm gonna finish these

and then we'll round on
our patient list. [vocalizes]

You're gonna be doing
running stitches. [sighs]

On a surgical patient?

On bananas in the skills lab.

There is a man downstairs
with a forklift
through his gut.

He's gonna need surgery,
and I want in.

And that can't happen
if this work isn't finished,

and you are slower
than molasses.

So I'm gonna finish it myself.

Aren't you supposed to be
teaching us?

I am. I am teaching you
how to be efficient
on getting what you want.

Skills lab, one floor down.

Hey, guys, guys,
I'm seeing patients.
Okay? Who's with me?

Great. You know what?
More for me.

[Hunt clears throat]

-This is your fault.
-I need you
to be more specific.

You told Link to
push through the pain.

He was rehabbing so hard,
he dislodged his IV.

You gotta go talk to him.
He won't talk to me.

[sighs] Bailey has
a construction worker who is
skewered on a forklift outside,

but I will go
and check on Link after.

[sighs] He's like a rabid dog
who chewed off both his arms.

Then you let him off the leash.

He is a surgeon. He understands
what's important for recovery.

Make sure that Link is okay,
and I will help Bailey
with the trauma.

This is my department.

I have to go anyway
because the incident happened
on hospital property.

[sighs] Okay, well,
I'll make sure that
trauma 2 is ready

and then I'll head up there.

I'm gonna go to the cafeteria
to eat for three.

If he rips open his anastomosis
before I get back,
you're both dead to me.

-Page me if you need me.
-Yep.

So you put in
all of your orders
and then you do your notes.

Uh, we all share this tablet?

[grunts]

Go to the nurses' station
and ask for more.

-Okay.
-Go.

[sighs] Where are the scans?

Should be up in a minute.

[MRI machine whirring]

Did you join the live stream
for Beltran's memorial service
yesterday?

I didn't have time.

Yeah, I had to change
my schedule around to make it.

[sighs] Yeah,
it was hard to see her parents.

Did you know she had
an older brother?

Been a lot for me to process.
How about you?

I'm fine!

So everyone can stop asking
because I'm great.

Unlike Dr. Beltran, I'm alive.
So, no, I don't need
to talk about it.

I don't need time off.
I don't need help.
You know who does?

Our patient who has...

giant mass in his chest.

That's a problem.

Good. Thank you. [sighs]

An intern ordered potassium
for the wrong patient.

We have him
hooked up to monitors
and almost have access.

I need to get in there.

Well, you're not the only
one with a task to do.

Done!

-How's it going?
-Uh, somehow fine so far.

This was the easy part.

Fluids are going in.

Safety first, huh?

Yeah. Safety left the building
a long time ago.

Hey. Hey, if I die--

Uh-uh, uh-uh. No, no.
We're not there yet.

-Hey. Hey. You just hang tight.
-[panting]

Blanket's in position.
We're ready!

[firefighter 2]
Everyone stand clear.
Live sparks could be airborne.

Stop, stop, stop!

[beeping]

Okay, BP took a dip.
Someone squeeze the fluid in.

And-And get blood! Stat!
Griffith, uh,
start a central line.

We should intubate him now.
It'll save us time
when we finally get him off.

We can't keep him in a stable
position once he's sedated.

Then we'll do
an awake intubation
wi-without induction drugs.

We'll-We'll have control over
his position the entire time.

You wanna shove a tube through
his nose into his throat
while he's awake?

Every second is going to count.

Well, then we intubate him fast
once we get him off
this forklift and sedated.

I agree with Warren.
We have to control
what we can when we can.

All right, change of plans.

[Altman] All right.

Is it cancer?

We need to do a biopsy
to find out.

But it-it could be?

Possibly or it could be
the result of an infection.

Have you traveled
out of the country or spent
much time somewhere else?

I don't go anywhere.

[sighs] He immigrated
from Cambodia.

[Sok Tep] It's a long time ago.

The '70s, during the genocide.
You were injured. Mom told me.

[speaks Cambodian] Enough!

It's part of
your medical history.
You don't have to hide it.

-[coughing, vomits]
-Oh, my God. Dad.

[Ndugu]
Okay, let's secure his airway

and then get that biopsy
done ASAP.

Another load is in.

What do we think about
these red walls,
the teal cabinets?

I feel like the house
is screaming at me.

At least they didn't knock down
any walls.

You said,
"Let's knock this bitch down."

And I told you that was
the tequila talking.

[laughs]
You knocked it down with us.

What was I supposed to do?
She had already
busted a hole in it.

Well, the tequila wasn't wrong.

It really does open up
the place, don't you think?

[Grey] Here.
We're gonna fold some clothes.

Do you remember
when we were sister lady chiefs

and we were carpooling to work

and you used to get dressed
in the back seat? [laughs]

-I don't think
we were on time once.
-[laughs]

Where you going?

Can you just give up on me?

No, you drop everything
when I need you.

If you want to pay me back,
just leave me alone.

That-That is actually...
That's what I want.

No, I'm sorry. I love you,
but you're a mess right now.

And when one of us is a mess,
the other two come in and help.

That's what we do,
whether you like it or not.

[cries]

What's wrong with you?

Nothing. Nothing.

I'm pregnant.

[chuckles]

[phone beeping]

I'm sorry. I have to take this.

-Shout if you need me.
-Mmm.

This is Altman.

Are your nose and throat
feeling numb?

Yeah, I'm... I'm ready.

Okay, look,
I'm not gonna sugarcoat it.

This is gonna be
extremely uncomfortable.

But it only lasts a minute.

Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait. I don't wanna die.

Patrick...

I love my life. I love my job.
My team.

We've been together 20 years.

We built half the city
together.

If I die, you have to tell them
it wasn't their fault.

Tell them I was doing too much.

I made a dumb mistake.

There's nothing they could
have done to save me.

Patrick, I know this is scary,
but the faster we intubate you,

the better our chances
of you being able to
tell your team yourself.

-All right.
-Hold still.

[groans]

You're doing great.
Almost there.

Okay. Here we go. I'm in.

Have the sedation ready
for as soon as we get him off.

All right.
Let's cut this thing.

Push in the meds.
Start bagging him.

Yeah.

Position. All right.
Three, two...

Nice and easy. Nice and easy.

Don't let it move.
Don't let it move.

All right, let's get him
upstairs ASAP.

[Warren] Okay. Let's go.

My pleasure.
I'll be back to check on you
in another hour, okay?

Okay, I need a doctor.

You, Dr...

Bryant.

Okay, I have a patient
whose AV fistula
does not look good.

-Can you take a look?
-Yeah.

[Nurse Karen] Mr. Folb,
this is Dr. Bryant.

-Hello.
-Hey, how are you doing?

Let's, uh... Let's see
what's going on, shall we?

Could you give me some gauze
and saline, please?

-Yep.
-Thank you.

Do you wanna start antibiotics?

[Bryant] Uh,
that definitely looks angry.

I think an upper level
should lay eyes on it first.
Page Dr. Kwan.

-Hand me another, please.
-[Nurse Karen] Mm-hmm.

[shrieks] Make it stop!
Make it stop!

-Sir, I need to hold pressure.
-Oh, please! Oh. Oh.

Can you get me a tourniquet
and gauze and 1-0 silk?

-You mean 4-0 prolene?
-Yes! And-And page Dr. Kwan!

[groans]

Who's the father?

Donor number 12715.

I can't believe
you didn't tell us.

You guys always talk about
how difficult it is
to be a single mother.

I was worried you might
talk me out of it.

I would talk you out of a man
before I talk you
out of a baby.

Are you gonna tell Winston?

I don't know. You know,
we haven't talked in a while.

You guys think
I've lost my mind?

Maybe. It's a lot of work,
but I think it's wonderful.

It doesn't mean you won't
be up some nights at 2:00 a.m.

questioning every decision
you've ever made,

but this baby will bring you
more joy and more hope

than you ever thought possible.

[crying]

[Bryant] All right. All done.

What the hell are you doing?
You're supposed to be
in the skills lab.

-I-I was--
-[Bailey] Good thing he wasn't.

Your patient
could have bled out.

My arm was like
Mount Saint Helens.

I paged you
as soon as it happened.

And because it's
Dr. Bryant's first day
and he needs supervision,

guess who the nurses
also paged?

-Okay, Dr. Bailey--
-Fortunately, Mr. Folb
will be just fine.

Look at that figure of eight.

-Oh, yeah. It's...
It's very good.
-Damn near perfect.

Dr. Bailey is
an excellent surgeon.

Uh, that was Dr. Bryant.

He's moving off of your service
and onto mine.

Baldwin is on his way
with his surgical team
for Mr. Folb.

You can go back to
writing your notes.

Bryant, come with me.
You are scrubbing in.

After you've changed.

[Wilson] Hey,
I'm gonna order lunch
from that Italian del...

[groaning]

Link?

Um, my phone's about to die,
and my, uh... my mom's
got Scout at the park.

I didn't wanna miss any calls.

Well, she can always call me.
You're not su--

Can you give me your arm?

-You're not supposed
to be up right now.
-No, no, no!

Has Owen been in here?

He went to get supplies
so he can remove the tube.

-Okay, well, let me help you.
-No, I-I'm fine!

-No, I... no.
-You need help back.

-Oh, my God! Link!
-[groans]

Oh, my God! Okay, don't move.
You could be hurt.

No, no, no, don't.

-Let me help you up.
-[stammers] I'll get up myself.

-Then let me get
someone to help you.
-Damn it, just go!

[sighs, groaning]

Okay.

[sighs, groans]

[murmuring]

-[Warren]
Can we get suction set up?
-[Adams] Here.

[Altman] Lap pad.

-[Griffith] Can you help
hold the blade?
-[Adams] Yeah.

[Altman] Okay, everyone.
We are a full house.

So please be aware
of each other,

as well as
this large piece of metal
protruding from our patient.

We don't have enough
working ORs as it is.

[Bailey] All right,
Bryant is joining us.

-[Bryant]
That guy is still alive?
-We're tryna keep him that way.

Hey, let's reduce the chatter.

Warren, what's the plan?

[Warren] We need to extend
the incision around the blade.

We'll try to catch
all the bleeders as we go,

but mainly, we're taking it
one step at a time.

[Bailey] Altman, I'm sure
people are looking for you.
We've got it from here.

[Altman] I'm...
I'm happy to stay and help.

[Bailey] This room is a zoo.
Get out while you can.

[Bailey] Mm-hmm.

All right. Ten blade.

[Ndugu] Okay,
advance two more centimeters.

Good. All right, now take--

[Millin] The specimen.

Can you place a stat order
for Dr. Ndugu, please.

-[nurse] Yes, Dr. Millin.
-[Ndugu] Nice job.

Bet you couldn't have done that
on your first day.

[Millin] Would've been easier
without the scar tissue.

He didn't say anything
about prior procedures.

[Ndugu] I mean,
he was just a kid during
the Khmer Rouge regime.

[Millin] Do you think
he doesn't remember
major surgery?

[Ndugu] I'm saying
he could be trying to forget.

[rapid beeping]

[Millin] Is he bleeding
inside his chest?
Did I hit something?

[Ndugu]
It's coming from the mass.
We need to open him.

I need a thoracotomy tray.

[distorted]
Give me a ten blade.
I need help with traction.

[Beltran] See?
You don't even need me.

[Millin] Dr. Beltran, wake up.

N-No. Open your eyes.
Wake up. Come on.

-[Ndugu] Millin!
-[Millin breathes shakily]

[Ndugu] Millin.

[Warren] Unbelievable. [scoffs]
His liver, kidneys, aorta, IVC.
They're all intact.

The blade missed all of them?

[Bryant]
He's one lucky son of a--

[Bailey] I recommend
you do not finish
that sentence.

Okay, so it did hit
the ascending colon
and part of the small bowel.

All right, Griffith and Adams,
you two will remove it

while Warren and I
check for bleeding
along the path.

Okay. On my count.

Slow and steady.

One, two, three.

[Griffith]
You're pulling too fast.

[Adams]
Your elbow's in the way.

[Griffith]
If you don't slow down,
you'll make it worse.

-[Adams] It's barely moving.
-[Griffith] We're centimeters
from his IVC--

[Warren] Okay, stop. Stop.
Both of you.

Adams, step away
from the table.

-[Adams] What?
-[Warren] Your fellow resident

has repeatedly asked you
to slow down, but you didn't.

The OR is a place for teamwork.

We don't have time
for you to set a bad example
for interns

or to jeopardize this patient.

Also, your comments have
frankly been inappropriate
all day. So take a hike.

Now.

Bryant, help Griffith.

-[Ndugu] Someone get Dr. Millin
a seat, please.
-[nurse] Yes, Doctor.

[Millin] I can assist.
[exhales sharply]

[Ndugu] Listen, our patient is
counting on you to be at 100%.

And if you're not there...

[Millin breathes shakily]
Uh, clips. Tray.

Gloves. Metz.

Lap pads. Ray-tecs.

[stutters] Sometimes it, um...
uh, helps me to name things
that I see out loud.

[Ndugu] To ground you.

I do that too.

You can keep saying them
out loud.

[Millin] Fluids. A drape.

[Ndugu] A spleen?

-[Millin] What?
-[Ndugu] I think... [chuckles]

I think he's got
an accessory spleen.

-[Millin] That was the mass?
-[Ndugu] Yeah.

Looks like the interns aren't
the only ones seeing something
new today.

[Millin chuckles]

[Warren] Almost there.
Just tilt it a little
to the right.

[Bryant] And what happens
once we get this thing out?

[Bailey] Griffith.

[Griffith] We remove
the damaged colon,

create an ostomy,
do a washout, close.

[Bailey]
Should be smooth sailing.

All right.
Looks clear over here.

-Warren?
-[Warren] Uh,
I lost visualization.

[Bailey] Okay, uh, Bryant,
come around this side.

[Bryant] Okay.

[clears throat]

[grunts] How's this?

[Warren] Oh, yeah,
that's much better.
Much better.

[Bailey] And all clear
over here too.

[Bryant] You still have room,
Dr. Griffith?

[Bailey] I will make it work.

[Warren] Okay, let's, uh...
let's pull this thing.

-Ready?
-[Bailey] Yep.

[Warren] And pull.

Oh, easy, easy.

Yeah.

-Ooh.
-[Bailey] Ah.

Nice work, doctors.
Okay, I need suction. Hmm.

[♪ melancholy music playing]

You didn't want
to do the surgery.
You were held hostage.

The second time.

If I had said no
to the first surgery,
none of this would've happened.

You were trying to help.

You're not the villain here.

The hospital exploded.

My friend died.
My son's father almost died.

There is a little girl
who is locked in.
She is awake inside her body.

She still can't even blink.

She is gonna spend
the rest of her life
in a long-term care facility.

I did that. I did that.

I understand
this mom's desperation.

If somebody did that
to Scout...

I don't know what I'd do.

I know I'm the least qualified
person to respond to this

because my baby
is the size of a raspberry,

but if I were that mom,
I would not blame you.

You are saying that
to make me feel better.

No, I'm saying that because
I know that complications
can happen for any reason.

And sometimes
for no reason at all.

Look, i-i-if we could all avoid
mistakes, we would all have
perfect records.

And I know that I still think
about Sabie when I can't sleep
at night.

[Shepherd sniffles]

Maybe we should
open a wine bar.

[chuckles, sniffles]

No one dies in wine bars.

People can have heart attacks
anywhere.

I'm sober.

Right,
but you don't have to drink it,
you just have to sell it.

[both laugh]

How am I going to raise
a person without you two?

Just say the word.
We can be in Chicago by lunch.

[♪ melancholy music continues]

Another step. Keep going.
Yeah. You're doing great.
You are good.

Yeah, I snapped
at my pregnant wife. [groans]

Yeah, it wasn't a good look.
[sighs]

[groaning]

You're recovering.

[scoffs] I can barely walk
across the room.

[groans]

You're right. You're right.
This sucks.

You're scared, and you feel
like a shell of the man
that you used to be,

and you feel obligated
to pretend
like everything's fine--

You know what,
you wanna patronize me?
You can leave too.

Keep going.

-What?
-[Hunt] Getting your anger out

might be just as important
as the PT. So keep going.

[sighs]

I hate the way Jo looks at me.
Like I'm a patient.

I haven't been looked at
like that since I was a kid,
and it makes me resent her.

And... And resent my body

and resent
every freaking beeping monitor
that I've been hooked up to.

I'm mad that Monica Beltran
didn't make it.

I'm mad that my scrub nurse
got hurt, and I'm mad
that my patient died

even though all he needed
was a knee repair,

and-and I'm mad that
I'm supposed to be happy.

I know how lucky I am.

I know.

And I came this close...
[cries]

...to never meeting
my daughters.

To never seeing Scout
graduate high school,

never witnessing
Luna's first date

and never growing old
with Jo, you know?

And I can...
I can handle the...
the physical stuff,

but I-I...

I don't know
how to heal from this.

I was just trying
to save that guy.

You're an intern.
You're supposed
to do what I say.

Rectal disimpaction
in room 410.

And when you're done,
there is more
where that came from.

-[Bryant] Great.
-You could try apologizing.

What?
I didn't do anything wrong.
Plus, I like a challenge.

-Okay.
-[chuckles] What?

-[Bailey] How's he doing?
-Alive... [chuckles]
...unbelievably.

As soon as I saw him
up in that thing, I didn't
think he stood a chance.

Awake intubation
may have given him one.

You were right.

I'm sorry if I crossed
the line out there,
but the patient was--

Will you be my chief resident?

Seriously?

Look, I can't be
in five places all at once,

and keep my eye on 20 residents
while also trying
to save lives.

Today, eventually
turned out fine,

but what happens
when it doesn't?

I have too much on my plate,
and I need help.

Not just any help, okay?

I need someone
who is good with the residents,

who thinks on his feet,
who has my back,

and who isn't afraid
to disagree with me.

I can do all that.

[♪ hopeful music playing]

-Yeah, don't disagree too much.
-Oh, trust me. I know.

You removed his spleen?

It was already gone.

Your dad had a condition
called intrathoracic splenosis.

Basically,
tissues from his spleen
landed in his chest and grew.

[chuckles] Tissue can just move
to a different part
of your body?

It can sometimes,
after a traumatic injury.

Dr. Millin and I removed it and
that should help with his pain.

[sighs]

He's always had the scars,
but he never told me
about the surgery.

Maybe he was trying
to protect me,

or maybe he was trying to
forget all the horrible things
that he went through.

But he's my dad.
I wanna know his story.

That blessing ceremony
that he mentioned.

It's actually a workshop
to help Cambodian refugees
process their grief.

I'd never convinced him
to go to therapy,

but he seemed excited
about this.

Yeah. Community can be
important for healing.

Can you take him
to the next one?

[daughter] I hope he'll let me.

Hey.

How pissed off is he?

I let him take
a couple swings at me.

-He's doing okay.
-Okay.

He wants to talk to you.

[Wilson]
He holds things in too long.

He still hasn't talked much
about that day.

Take it easy on him.

Well, I hope that he'll go easy
on himself.

I know that he has to put
his whole life back together,

but you can only do that
one step at a time, you know?

-I'll see you tomorrow.
-Mm-hmm.

[♪ hopeful music continues]

[PA announcer]
Dr. Brady to Radiology.
Dr. Jessica Brady...

Heard you were rounding.
Anything interesting?

Nothing as interesting
as an impalement.

Sorry you got kicked out.

I-I didn't see you walk out
in protest.

You expected me to leave?

Yeah, you're pretty good
at making your own decisions.

What is that supposed to mean?

It means...

It means I admire you.

You do what you want
despite what people think.

I didn't cheat on you.

We broke up.
You broke up with me.

You said it was over.
I was upset.
I went for a drink.

-And you picked up
a rando at Joe's.
-[Griffith] I...

I didn't plan it.

-That guy?
-Uh...

-[Adams] Seriously?
-[phone buzzes]

-Millin?
-[Griffith] 911.

-You think she's okay?
-We got the same text as you.

What's going on?

I, uh... I realized that we,
um, haven't properly grieved,
uh, Dr. Beltran yet.

You paged 911.

I would really like to do this.

Sure.

Yeah, how do you wanna start?

Um, well, first we each
take a candle. Um...

And then anyone who-who
wants to can say something
they remember about her.

Dr. Beltran literally put
her patient's life ahead
of her own.

She'll always be remembered.

Out of all the attendings,
she yelled at me the least.

[chuckles]

She, uh, really liked matcha.

And she was great with kids.

[Millin clears throat]

[sighs] Every time
I was with Dr. Beltran,
I learned something new.

Sometimes it was a technique
or a procedure,

sometimes it was a life lesson.
[sighs]

Like, be more careful
about who you bring home
from the bar.

The night of, uh,
the explosion,

she talked me through
a mesenteric repair on a child.

Then she died.

I'm still trying to understand
everything I learned
in that OR,

but I do know this...

I was the last person
to have the privilege

of learning from
Dr. Monica Beltran.

And for that,
I am truly grateful.

[♪ "Ashes" playing]

[Grey] To be good
at assessing traumas,

you have to be good
at dissociating.

♪ Held in the light of day... ♪

You're not looking at
a person on the table.

-Hey.
-[Grey] You're looking
at a protocol.

-What are you still doing here?
-I had time on my hands,

and since you were busy,

I called Catherine and filed
a workers' comp report.

Thank you, Richard.
That is a big weight off.

My pleasure.

Do you like being a suit?
[sighs]

It sounds like you don't.

I'm-I'm grateful for my job.
I-I am. It's...

A week ago,
I invented a new surgery
to create an aorta,

and today all I have
are emails to answer
and phone calls to return.

I can't even grieve
the people who have died here.

And I-I don't remember
the last time I had dinner
with my kids.

The corner office
isn't for everybody.

If you need time
to figure things out,

I'd be happy
to fill in for you for a while.

You would do that?

Uh, I kind of miss it.

Is it okay if I move
some stuff around?

Be my guest.

Thank you, Richard.

[knocks on door]

You don't have to knock.
It's still your office.

♪ There is a changing tide ♪

What are you doing here?
You back?

You know how
when people get sober,

sometimes they trade
one addiction for another?

♪ Has always
Been waiting to rise... ♪

I haven't used a vacation day
in four years.

You wanna take a vacation?

I was thinking more like
a sabbatical.

Sabbatical.

Where do you wanna go?

Wherever my people are.

♪ And just know that heartache
Will fade
Within times flow... ♪

[Grey] Sometimes,
the hardest part
of working in trauma

is finding yourself
on the other side.

♪ That love carries
All of us home ♪

♪ That I'm with you
Wherever you go ♪

♪ So sleep, now ♪

[Grey] Letting yourself feel.

♪ Let yourself
Find some release, now... ♪

[Grey]
Mourn the lives you've lost...

and celebrate the lives
you've saved.

They wanna go again.

One more time, and then
we're gonna have to hug
Maggie goodbye.

-[both] Yes!
-[Grey chuckles]

You're doing a great job
with them.

Hmm.

They have their moments,
but overall they're pretty
extraordinary.

♪ Love carries all of us ♪

I just never imagined
becoming a mother
without my mom.

She'll come up in ways
you don't expect.

♪ Love carries
All of us home... ♪

What about when I need
concrete advice in real time?

Then you call me.

[Grey]
Even if it's only your own.

-[Ellis Grey] Hi.
-[Derek] Hi.

♪ Carries all of us
Carries all of us ♪