All language subtitles for Greys.Anatomy.S22E02.1080p.WEB.h264-GRACE

In 1976,

an orthopedic surgeon
crashed his plane

in the middle of nowhere
with his family on board.

Fix it, Meredith!
I'm trying.

He was shocked by how unprepared

the local doctors were
to treat his injured family.

How many times have I told you?

Always go in with a plan.

I didn't have time.

Mom.

Ohh. For God's sake.

What did I tell you
about having children?

-Mom!
-Mommy! Mommy!

When is
the carousel going to start?

The carousel never stops
turning. You can't get off.

-Come on, Mom!
-Start the carousel.

-Clock's ticking.
-Hurry up!

Can you help?

I raised you
to be extraordinary!

-Mommy!
-What happened to you?!

They prioritized
what they could see...

lacerations, open fractures...

and didn't look
for hidden injuries

like brain trauma
or internal bleeding.

♪ Ooh, I'm on fire ♪

How is she?

Hm. She's barely
gotten out of bed.

Has she eaten?
Did you make soup?

Who do you think
you're talking to?

I'll make the soup.

♪ Backs of my eyes ♪

She isn't sick.

We just need to get her
out of the bed.

Well, she's grieving.
Veronica died.

Monica.

Sorry.

May she rest in peace.

It's awful.

But Amelia is a workaholic,

and the hospital
is her happy place.

We just need to get her
back to her routine.

Well, I'm still gonna
make soup.

Maybe I should
go in and say... hi!

♪ To just go ♪

I guess that's a no.

It inspired him to invent

the Advanced Trauma
Life Support program.

But ATLS is only the beginning.

Well, look around you.

Say hello to your competition.

Eight of you will switch
to an easier specialty.

Five of you will crack
under the pressure.

Two of you
will be asked to leave.

This is your starting line.

This is your arena.

This looks like the minor
league, and I came to play.

How well you play,
well, that's up to you.

Should they be
wearing hard hats?

Look, I have enough to do

without having to laugh
at your dad jokes.

Oh, I'm not joking.

I thought you'd be less busy.

Fewer O.R.s, fewer problems.

New interns, new problems.

I'm still assigning them
to the residents.

I want them to be a good fit.

You want me to do that for you?

Look. They're fresh and eager.
They'll fit with anybody.

Oh, no. I'm not
worried about them.

The O.R.s will be ready
by the time

they figure out where
the bathrooms are.

It's the second years.

Ohh!

You're concerned they
won't be good teachers.

I'm concerned
they just lost Beltran.

I'm concerned that yesterday
there were interns,

and today they're supervisors.

That's how the system works.

Do they seem like
supervisors to you?

Didn't say it was
the best system.

♪ Wherever you go,
I'm close behind ♪

What happens after that
is all on you.

I-I thought you got
a hotel room.

Oh, a big MVC
came in last night.

No, it didn't.

Due to the lack of O.R.s,

they notify me when
we have overnight traumas.

Noted. Well,
I don't like hotel rooms.

Since when?

Am I somehow bothering you

from an on-call room?

No. It's just not exactly
a long-term solution.

I'm aware.

We have rounds on Link.

Already saw him.
He's doing well.

Well, I'm still
going to see him.

Knock yourself out.

Okay.

Dr. Martinez to the CCU.

Dr. Luis Martinez to the CCU.

Excuse me.

You're not worried about
someone stealing your stuff?

It's cup noodles and
sweaty gym clothes.

They are welcome to it.

Ugh! It's broken!

Uh, are you okay?

Uh Bailey said you could
take some time off.

I'm fine. Everyone else is here.

You were the only one
with Beltran.

I'm fine. I just need
to move my stuff.

I've been trying to call you.

Yeah. I need coffee.

Don't you think we should ta...

Congratulations!

You've made it
to your second year.

Alright.

So you have been emailed
your assigned interns, right?

Find them and learn their names.

Unless it is
on their birth certificate,

a name does not include
a number, adjective,

or an instrument
they have dropped.

You are no longer the bottom
of the surgical food chain.

You are responsible
for teaching them,

from running codes
to finding the cafeteria.

They will mess up,

and when they do,
it is on you to fix it.

Due to construction, elective
surgeries have been canceled.

Any emergent cases will be
directed to outpatient O.R.s,

so pay attention
to where you're going.

Alright. Dr. Kwan, you are
covering the surgical floor.

Millin, cardio.

Griffith, take the pit.

And, Adams, you get to enjoy
the pleasure of my company.

Alright? Everyone clear?

Okay. I will be keeping
my eye on all of you.

If something unexpectedly
becomes surgical, do...

Do you like greedy people, Kwan?

I do if they need surgery.

Go find your intern!

Okay.

Come on.

How's our VIP patient?

Huh. He's, uh, post-op...

day seven following
a thoracotomy

plus subclavian, intercostal,

and lung laceration repairs.

And he's doing great,
according to Altman.

He's rehabbing like a champ,

so he'll be out of here
in no time.

Maybe it's time to take a break.

Not if I want
to hold the twins.

Well...
I'm not due tomorrow.

You have time.

Three more sets.

Pulse is strong.
How's your pain?

It's less than before.

Well, I agree
with your assessment.

And there is no output
from the chest tube,

so I will come back later
and remove it.

Okay? Alright.

But, um, h-he shouldn't push
himself too hard though, right?

Well, pushing through some pain

is a good thing, so keep it up.

Dr. Ortiz to Pediatrics.

Dr. Marisol Ortiz to Pediatrics.

Sorry we're late.

Someone read the number
on the room incorrectly.

Sorry.

Mr. Tep, meet our
newest surgical interns.

Can you tell us
about your chest pain?

It's no big deal.

Dad, you were doubled over.

My daughter needs more
important things to worry about.

Meade, you're up. Up?

Uh...

Sok Tep, 65.

Admitted to
the chest pain obs unit

to rule out MI.

Chest X-ray shows
mediastinal widening.

What does that mean?

Well, it's hard
to tell without a scan,

but Radiology's
ready for him now.

But I'm supposed
to be at the temple.

He was eager to go to
a Cambodian blessing ceremony.

There will be other bouns.

You're in pain. You need help.

I can take care of myself.

Alright, uh, well, look,
since you're here,

let's go ahead
and get the scan, alright?

And then we'll go
from there, okay?

Thank you. Just hang tight.

Uh, Dr. Ndugu,
before we go to CT...

About last week and the closet.

I was in shock
and I was exhausted.

And if we could
just forget about it?

Already done.

Dr. Anderson to Radiology.

Dr. Olivia Anderson
to Radiology.

Uh, Dr. Warren is
overseeing the pit today.

As a fifth-year resident,
he will assure you

that although we're short
on scheduled cases,

we receive
plenty of emergencies.

Uh, welcome.

I was where you are
just a few short years ago.

Mm-hmm. Well, not that short.

I w-was a firefighter for a bit,

and before that, I was
an anesthesiolog...

Dr. Warren. Right.

Bed 4 is being assessed

for severe abdominal pain
and nausea.

Dibs.

Well, Baldwin's already got it,

but we also just did an intake

on an open femur fracture
in trauma 3.

Dibs again. That one's mine.

Is that a possible
arm lac in bed 6?

'Cause, if so, I also ca...

You are not a kid at recess
trying to get the best swing.

We do not call dibs.

Can we get some help out here?!

Well, for the last time, this
is the emergency department.

All supplies
need to go to the freight...

We need a doctor right now!
This thing just went rolling!

What thing?

Okay.

Dibs.

Your chicken broth was expired,

or I-I would have made you soup.

So this isn't quite
as comforting,

but it does have the cute
little marshmallows.

Do you feel like
getting out of bed today?

Maybe taking a shower?
Putting on some clean clothes?

Do you have any clean clothes?
What is happening here?

My washer broke.
I'm waiting on a part.

When is the last time
you did laundry?

Um, a couple weeks ago.

I-I went to your house
when nobody was there.

There's a key
in the planter still.

You know, I have tenants.
You can't do that.

There are laws about that.

I'm sure that they don't care.

But maybe they have
chicken broth.

Let's go.

We can do the laundry.
We can catch up.

You know,
my mother always said...

clean house, clean mind.

I don't think that's my problem.

Aren't Link's parents bringing
Scout back tomorrow?

I think we have to get you up.

And, selfishly, I have to get
on another plane in 24 hours,

and I'd like to spend
some time with my sisters.

And I'm sorry, but you need
some clean underwear.

I will buy more.

Come on.

He's a little low
on the right.

Griffith, move around
next to Adams.

Gurney coming in!

Oh. Here we go.

Come on, fellas.

Take it easy.

The keys are in my pocket.

There's a button next to
the seat to put it in reverse.

It's Patrick, right? Yes. Yes.

Okay. We're leaving this
forklift right where it is.

Yeah, even the smallest movement
could cause more internal damage.

But you're gonna
get me off this thing, right?

You think you can cut through
this with a 14-inch rescue saw?

-I'll go get it.
-You're cutting it?

You're not gonna
pull it out of me?

We'll remove
the metal in your abdomen

in the operating room
where we have more control.

I'll grab supplies
to stabilize the blade.

I can handle this if you want
to check on the other residents.

No, no. Get the supplies.

I was trying to manage both
an insulation delivery

and electrical inspection,

and I forgot to put
the lock on the forklift.

Someone yelled my name.

By the time I turned
around, it was too late.

Look, we will do everything
to get you out of here.

You need any extra hands?

Not if everything on your
patient list isn't finished.

Okay.

Adams, we need vascular access.

Griffith, get a crash cart
10 ten of morphine.

Yeah. Okay? Move fast.

I'm not sure
how much time we have.

Okay.

A forklift? Through a person?

Well, the construction
team was using it

to lift and transport
materials upstairs.

I understand its purpose.

Whoa!

You know that awful moment

when you open up
a patient's chest

after their aorta has ruptured?

You've seen it a hundred times,

but it's so much more blood
than you ever expected

and you can't see anything

and you don't even know
where to begin.

We're in the bloody cavity.

The metaphor
is clear, but I was...

You know,
I should call your wife.

I should file
a worker's comp report.

I need to tell the lawyer
to just come back here.

I mean, they might as well
live here at this point.

Can I make a recommendation?

Don't call your wife?

Go check on the patient.

Right. Good idea.

Dr. Griffin to Oncology.

Dr. Danelle Griffin to Oncology.

Thank you.

But I don't
think this is right.

I think this has to
come down. Right?

You only put two orders in?
That's less than one per person.

-We...
-The drop-down menu

threw us at first,
but I think we're good now.

New plan...
I'm gonna finish these,

and then we'll round
on our patient list.

Da-da-da-da-da.

You're gonna be doing
running stitches.

On a surgical patient?

On bananas. In the skills lab.

There is a man downstairs with
a forklift through his gut.

He's gonna need surgery,
and I want in.

And that can't happen
if this work isn't finished.

And you are slower
than molasses,

so I'm gonna finish it myself.

Aren't you supposed
to be teaching us?

I am. I am teaching you

how to be efficient
on getting what you want.

Skills labs. One floor down.

Hey, guys, guys.
I'm seeing patients.

Okay? Who's with me?

Great. You know what?
More for me.

This is your fault!

I need you to be more specific.

You told Link to push
through the pain.

He was rehabbing so hard,
he dislodged his IV!

You gotta go talk to him!
He won't talk to me!

Bailey has a construction worker

who is skewered
on a forklift outside,

but I will go
and check on Link after.

He's like a rabid dog who
chewed off both his arms,

and then you
let him off the leash!

He is a surgeon. He understands

what's important for recovery.

Make sure that Link is okay,

and I will help Bailey
with the trauma.

This is my department.

I have to go anyway
because the incident

happened on hospital property.

Okay, well, I'll make sure
that trauma two is ready,

and then I'll head up there.

I'm gonna go to the cafeteria
to eat for three.

If he rips open his anastomosis
before I get back,

you're both dead to me!

Page me if you need me? Yep.

Dr. Alex Rudow to the ICU.

So you put in
all of your orders,

and then you do your notes.

Uh, we all share this tablet?

Go to the nurses' station
and ask for more.

Okay.

Go!

Where are the scans?

Should be up in a minute.

Did you join the live stream

for Beltran's memorial
service yesterday?

I didn't have time. Yeah.

I had to change my schedule
around to make it.

Yeah, it was hard
to see her parents.

Did you know she had
an older brother?

Been a lot for me to process.

How about you? I'm fine.

So everyone can stop asking.
Because I'm great.

Unlike Dr. Beltran, I'm alive,

so, no, I don't need
to talk about it.

I don't need time off.
I don't need help.

You know who does?
Our patient who has...

...a giant mass in his chest.

That's a problem.

Good. Thank you.

An intern ordered potassium
for the wrong patient.

We have him
hooked up to monitors

and almost have access.

I need to get in there.

Yeah, you're not the only
one with a task to do.

Done!

How's it going?

Uh, somehow fine so far.

But this was the easy part.

-Fluids are going in.
-Safety first, huh?

Yeah, safety left the
building a long time ago.

Hey. Hey. If I die...

Unh-unh. Unh. No. No.
We're not there yet.

Hey. Hey. You just hang tight.

Blanket's in position.
We're ready.

Everyone stand clear!
Like sparks could be airborne!

Stop! Stop, stop!

Okay. BP took a dip.

Someone squeeze the fluid in.
And get blood, STAT!

Griffith, start a central line.

We should intubate him now.

It'll save us time when
we finally get him off.

We can't keep him in a stable
position once he's sedated.

Then we'll do
an awake intubation

without induction drugs.

We'll have control over
his position the entire time.

You want to shove a tube
through his nose

into his throat
while he's awake?

Every second is going to count.

Well, then,
we'll intubate him fast

once we get him off
this forklift and sedated.

I agree with Warren.
We have to control

what we can when we can.

Alright. Change of plans.

Alright.

Is it cancer?

We need to do
a biopsy to find out.

But it... it could be.

Possibly.

Or it could be the result
of an infection.

Have you traveled
out of the country

or spent much time
somewhere else?

I don't go anywhere.

He emigrated
from Cambodia.

That's a long
time ago. The '70s.

During the genocide.

You were injured. Mom told me.

Enough!

It's part of
your medical history!

You don't have to hide it!

Oh, my God! Dad?!

-Dad!
-Okay.

Let's secure his airway

and then get that
biopsy done ASAP!

Another load is in.

What do we think
about these red walls?

The teal cabinets?

I feel like the house
is screaming at me.

At least they didn't
knock down any walls.

You said, "Let's knock
this bitch down."

And I told you. That was
the tequila talking.

You knocked it down with us.

What was I supposed to do?

She had already
busted a hole in it.

Well, the tequila wasn't wrong.

It really does open up
the place, don't you think?

Here. Wann fold some clothes?

Do you remember when
we were sister lady chiefs

and we were carpooling to work?

And you used to get dressed
in the backseat?

I don't think
we were on time once.

Where are you going?

Can you just give up on me?

No. You drop everything
when I need you.

If you want to pay me back,
just leave me alone.

That is actually...
That's what I want.

No. I'm sorry.

I love you, but
you're a mess right now.

And when one of us is a mess,

the other two come in and help.

That's what we do,
whether you like it or not.

What's wrong with you?

Nothing. Nothing.

I'm pregnant.

I'm sorry.
I have to take this.

Shout if you need me. Mm-hmm.

This is Altman.

Are your nose and throat
feeling numb?

Yeah. I'm... I'm ready.

Okay.

Look. I'm not
gonna sugarcoat it.

This is gonna be
extremely uncomfortable.

But it only lasts a minute.

Wait, wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait.

I don't want to die.

Patrick.

I love my life.

I love my job, my team.

We've been together. 20 years.

We built half
this city together.

If I die, you have to tell
them it wasn't their fault.

Tell them I was doing too much.

I made a dumb mistake.

There's nothing they could
have done to save me.

Patrick, I know this is scary,

but the faster we intubate you,

the better our chances
of you being able

to tell your team yourself.

Alright. Hold still.

Doing great. Almost there.

Okay. There we go.

I'm in.

Have the sedation ready
for as soon as we get him off.

Alright. Let's cut this thing.

Push the meds
and start bagging him.

Yeah.

Okay. In position? Alright?

Three, two...

Nice and easy. Nice and easy.

Don't let it move.
Don't let it move.

Alright
Let's get him upstairs, ASAP!

Alright. Let's go.

My pleasure. I'll be back
to check on you

in another hour, okay?

Okay. I need a doctor!
You! Doctor...

Bryant. Okay.

I have a patient
whose A-V fistula

does not look good.
Can you take a look?

Yeah.

Mr. Folb, this is Dr. Bryant.

Hello. Hey. How you doing?

Let's, uh, see
what's going on, shall we?

Could you give me some
gauze and saline, please?

Yeah. Thank you.

Do you want to
start antibiotics?

Uh, it definitely looks angry.

I think an upper level
should lay eyes on it first.

Page Dr. Kwan.

Hand me another, please.

Make it stop!
Make it stop!

Sir. Sir. You need
to hold pressure.

-Please!
-Get me a tourniquet,

a gauze, and 1-oh silk!

You mean 4-oh prolene?

Yes! And page Dr. Kwan!

Who's the father?

Donor number 12-7-1-5.

I can't believe
you didn't tell us.

You guys always talk about
how difficult it is

to be a single mother.

I was worried you
might talk me out of it.

I would talk you out of a man

before I'd talk you
out of a baby.

Are you gonna tell Winston?

I don't know.
We haven't talked in a while.

You guys think
I've lost my mind?

Maybe.

It's a lot of work.

But I think it's wonderful.

Doesn't mean you won't be
up some nights at 2 a.m.

questioning every decision
you've ever made,

but this baby will
bring you more joy

and more hope than you
ever thought possible.

Alright. All done.

What the hell are you doing?

You're supposed to be
in the skills lab. I-I was...

Good thing he wasn't.

Your patient
could have bled out.

My arm was like
Mount Saint Helens.

I paid you as soon
as it happened.

And because it's
Dr. Bryant's first day

and he needs supervision,

guess who the nurses also paged.

Okay. Dr. Bailey...

Fortunately, Mr. Folb
will be just fine.

Look at that figure of eight.

Oh, yeah.
It's... It's very good.

Damn near perfect.

Dr. Bailey is
an excellent surgeon.

Uh, that was Dr. Bryant.

He's moving off of your
service and onto mine.

Baldwin is on his way

with his surgical team
for Mr. Folb.

You can go back
to writing your notes.

Bryant, come with me.
You are scrubbing in.

After you've changed.

Dr. Shupay to the ER.

Dr. Kami Shupay to the ER.

Hey. I'm gonna order lunch
from that Italian del...

Link?!

Um, my phone's about to die.

My, uh... My mom's
got Scout at the park.

I didn't want to miss any calls.

Well, she can always call me.

You're not sup...
Can you give me your arm?

You're not supposed
to be up right now.

No, no. No.
Has Owen been in here?

Yeah, he went to get supplies
so he could remove the tube.

Okay. Well, let me help you.

No. I-I'm fine.
You need help back...

-Ohh! Aah!
-Oh, my God!

-Aah!
-Link! Oh, my God!

Okay. Don't move.
You could be hurt.

No, no, no. Don't. Okay?

Let me help you up.

No. I'll... I'll get up myself.

Okay, then let me get
someone to help you up!

Okay. No. Damn it! Just go!

Okay.

Can we get suction set up?

Here.

Lap pad.

Can you help me
hold the blade? - Yeah.

Okay, everyone,
we are a full house,

so please be aware
of each other,

as well as this large
piece of metal

protruding from our patient.

We don't have enough
working O.R.s as it is.

Alright.
Bryant is joining us.

That guy's still alive?

We're trying
to keep him that way.

Hey. Let's reduce the chatter.

Warren, what's the plan?

We may need to extend
the incision around the blade.

We'll try to catch
all the bleeders as we go,

but mainly we're taking it
one step at a time.

Altman, I'm sure people
are looking for you.

We've got it from here.

I'm... I'm happy
to stay and help.

This room is a zoo.
Get out while you can.

Mm-hmm.

Alright. Ten blade.

Okay. Advance
two more centimeters.

Good. Alright. Now take...

The specimen.

Can you place a stat order
for Dr. Ndugu, please?

Yes, Dr. Millin.
Nice job.

Bet you couldn't have
done that on your first day.

Would've been easier
without all the scar tissue.

He didn't say anything
about prior procedures.

He was just a kid during
the Khmer Rouge regime.

You think he doesn't
remember a major surgery?

I'm saying he could
be trying to forget.

Is he bleeding inside his chest?

Did I hit something?!

It's coming from the mask.

We need to open him.
I need a thoracotomy tray.

I need a 10-blade.

Millin, I need help
with traction.

See?
You don't even need me.

Dr. Beltran! Wake up!

No, no. Open your eyes!
Wake up! Come on!

Millin!

Millin!

Unbelievable!

His liver, kidneys, aorta, IVC.

T-They're all intact.

The blade
missed all of them?

He's one lucky son of a...

I recommend you
do not finish that sentence.

Okay, so it did hit
the ascending colon

and part of the small bowel.

Alright, Griffith, Adams,

you two will remove it

while Warren and I check
for bleeding along the path.

Okay. On my count.

Slow and steady.

One. Two. Three.

You're pulling
too fast. It's tilting.

Your elbow's in the way.

If you don't slow down,
we're gonna make things worse.

It's barely moving.

We're centimeters from his IVC.

Okay! Stop! Stop! Both of you.

Adams, step away from the table.

What? Your fellow resident

has repeatedly asked you to
slow down, but you didn't.

The O.R. is a place
for teamwork.

We don't have time
for you to set

a bad example for the interns
or to jeopardize this patient.

Also, your comments have,
frankly, been inappropriate all day.

So take a hike.

Now.

Bryant, help Griffith.

Someone get
Dr. Millin a seat, please.

Yes, Doctor.

I can assist.

Listen. Our patient is counting
on you to be at 100%.

And if you're not there...

Clips. Tray. Gloves.

Metz. Lap pads.

Ray-tecs.

S-Sometimes it, um,

h-helps me to name things
that I see out loud.

To ground you.

I do that, too.

You can keep
saying them out loud.

Fluids. A drape.

A spleen?

What?

I think... I think he's got

an accessory spleen.

That was the mass? Yeah.

Looks like the interns
aren't the only ones

seeing something new today.

Almost there. Just tilt it
a little to the right.

And what happens
once we get this thing out?

Griffith.

We remove the damaged colon,

create an ostomy,
do a wash-out close.

Should be smooth sailin'.

Alright. Looks clear over here.

Warren? I lost visualization.

Okay, uh, Bryant,
come around on this side.

Okay.

How's this?

Oh, yeah,
that's much better.

Much better.

And all clear over here, too.

You still have enough room,
Dr. Griffith?

I will make it work.

Alright. Let's, uh...
Let's pull this thing.

Okay. Ready?

Yeah. And... pull.

Easy. Easy.

Yeah.

Ooh.

Ohh! Nice work, Doctors!

Okay. I need suction!

Mm-hmm.

You didn't
want to do the surgery.

You were held hostage.

The second time.

If I had said no
to the first surgery,

none of this
would have happened.

You were trying to help.

You're not the villain here.

The hospital exploded.

My friend died.

My son's father almost died.

There is a little girl
who is locked in.

She is awake inside her body.
She still can't even blink.

She is gonna spend
the rest of her life

in a long-term care facility.

I did that. I did that.

I understand
this mom's desperation.

If somebody did that to Scout...

...I don't know what I'd do.

I know I'm the
least qualified person

to respond to this because my
baby is the size of a raspberry,

but if I were that mom...

I would not blame you.

You are saying that
to make me feel better.

No, I'm saying that because...

I know that complications
can happen for any reason.

And sometimes
for no reason at all.

Look, i-if we could
all avoid mistakes,

we would all have
perfect records.

And I know that I still
think about Sabie

when I can't sleep at night.

♪ I'm running home ♪

Maybe we should open a wine bar.

Yeah.

No one dies in wine bars.

People can have
heart attacks anywhere.

I'm sober.

Yeah, but you don't
have to drink it.

You just have to sell it.

How am I going to raise a person

without you two?
Just say the word.

We can be in Chicago by lunch.

-Keep going.
-Yeah.

You're doing great.

You are good.

Yeah. I snapped
at my pregnant wife.

Yeah, it wasn't a good look.

You're recovering.

I can barely walk
across the room.

You're right.

You're right. This sucks.

And you're scared
and you feel like

a shell of the man
that you used to be,

and you feel obligated to pretend
like everything's fine for everyone.

You know what? You want to
patronize me, you can leave, too!

Keep going.

♪ I'm running home ♪

What? Getting your anger out

might be just as important
as the PT,

so keep going.

♪ I'm running home to you ♪

I hate the way Jo looks at me.

Like I'm a patient.

I haven't been looked at
like that since I was a kid,

and it makes me resent her
and... and resent my body

and resent every
freaking beeping monitor

that I've been hooked up to.

♪ I'm running home ♪

I'm mad that...
Monica Beltran didn't make it.

I'm mad that
my scrub nurse got hurt,

and I'm mad
that my patient died,

even though all he needed
was a knee repair!

A-And I'm mad that
I'm supposed to be happy.

♪ I'm running home ♪

I know how lucky I am.

♪ To you ♪

I know.

I came this close...

♪ I'll be... ♪

...to never meeting
my daughters,

to never seeing Scout
graduate high school,

to never witnessing
Luna's first date,

never growing old with Jo,
you know?

And I can... I can handle
t-the physical stuff, but I...

♪ I'll be cutting
through the forest ♪

I don't know
how to heal from this.

♪ Running home to you ♪

♪ Running home to you ♪

I was just trying
to save that guy.

You're an intern. You're
supposed to do what I say.

Rectal disimpaction in room 410.

And when you're done, there is
more where that came from.

Right.

Could try apologizing.

What? I didn't do
anything wrong.

Plus, I like a challenge.

Okay.

What?

How's he doing?

Alive. Huh. Unbelievably.

As soon as I saw him
up on that thing,

I didn't think
he stood a chance.

Awake intubation
may have given him one.

You were right.

I'm sorry if I crossed
the line out there,

but the patient was...

Will you be my chief resident?

Seriously?

Look, I can't be in
five places all at once

and keep my eye on 20 residents

while also trying to save lives.

Today eventually
turned out fine,

but what happens
when it doesn't?

I have too much on my plate,
and I need help.

Not just any help, okay?

I need someone who is
good with the residents,

who thinks on his feet,

who has my back,

and who isn't afraid
to disagree with me.

Oh, I can do all that.

Yeah, don't disagree too much.

Oh, trust me, I know.

You removed his spleen?

It was already gone.

Your dad had a condition called

intrathoracic splenosis.

Basically, tissues
from his spleen

landed in his chest and grew.

Tissue can just move to
a different part of your body?

It can sometimes after
a traumatic injury.

Dr. Millin and I removed it,

and that should
help with his pain.

♪ Still remember the sounds ♪

He's always had the scars.

But he never told me
about the surgery.

Maybe he was trying
to protect me.

Or maybe he was trying to forget

all the horrible things
that he went through.

But he's my dad.
I want to know his story.

That blessing ceremony
that he mentioned...

it's actually a workshop

to help Cambodian refugees
process their grief.

I'd never convince him
to go to therapy,

but he seemed excited
about this.

Yeah. Community can
be important for healing.

Can you take him
to the next one?

I hope he'll let me.

♪ To me, they were true ♪

Hey.

How pissed off is he?

I let him take
a couple swings at me.

He's doing okay. Okay.

He wants to talk to you.

He holds things in too long.

He still doesn't talk much
about that day.

Take it easy on him.

Well, I hope that
he'll go easy on himself.

I know that he has to put
his whole life back together,

but you can only do that
one step at a time.

You know?

♪ Younger days are over ♪

I'll see you tomorrow. Mm-hmm.

♪ Oh, my, I can't go back ♪

♪ I can not go home ♪

♪ My younger days are over ♪

Dr. Brady to Radiology.

Dr. Jesica Brady to Radiology.

Heard you were rounding.
Anything interesting?

Nothing is interesting
as an impalement.

Sorry you got kicked out.

I didn't see you
walk out in protest.

You expected me to leave?

Eh, you're pretty good at
making your own decisions.

What is that supposed to mean?

It means...

Means I admire you.

You do what you want,
despite what people think.

I didn't cheat on you.

We broke up.
You broke up with me.

You said it was over.

I was upset. I went for a drink.

And you picked up
a ran do at Joe's.

I... I didn't plan it.

That guy?

Seriously?

Millin? "9-1-1."

You think she's okay?

We got the same text as you.

What's going on?

I, uh, realized that we, um,

haven't properly grieved
Dr. Beltran yet.

You paged "9-1-1."

I would really like to do this.

Sure.

Yeah. How do you want to start?

Um, well...

first, we each take a candle.

Um...

And then anyone who wants to

can say something
they remember about her.

Dr. Beltran literally put

her patient's life
ahead of her own.

She'll always be remembered.

Out of all the attendings,

she yelled at me the least.

She, uh, really liked match a.

And she was great with kids.

Every time I was
with Dr. Beltran,

I learned something new.

Sometimes it was
a technique or a procedure.

Sometimes it was a life lesson,

like being more careful about
who you bring home from the bar.

The night of the explosion...

...she talked me through
a mesenteric repair on a child.

Then she died.

I'm still trying to understand

everything I learned
in that O.R.,

but I do know this.

I was the last person

to have the privilege
of learning

from Dr. Monica Beltran.

And for that...

I am truly grateful.

♪ This'll look different ♪

To be good
at assessing traumas,

you have to be good
at disassociating.

♪ Held in the light of day ♪

You're not looking
at a person on the table.

Hey.

You're looking at a protocol.

What are you still doing here?

I had time on my hands.

And since you were busy,

I called Catherine and
filed a worker's comp report.

♪ Hard to feel... ♪

Thank you, Richard.
That is a big weight off.

My pleasure.

♪ Hard to know what... ♪

Do you like being a suit?

It sounds like you don't.

No, I'm... I'm grateful
for my job. I-I am.

It's...

A week ago, I invented

a new surgery
to create an aorta.

And today all I have
are emails to answer

and phone calls to return.

I can't even grieve the people
who have died here.

And I-I don't remember

the last time I had dinner
with my kids.

Well, the corner office
isn't for everybody.

If you need time
to figure things out,

I'd be happy to fill in
for you for a while.

You would do that?

Eh. I kind of miss it.

Is it okay if I move
some stuff around?

Be my guest.

Thank you, Richard.

You don't have to knock.
It's still your office.

♪ There is a changing tide ♪

What are you doing here?

You back?

You know how
when people get sober

sometimes they trade
one addiction for another?

♪ Waiting to rise ♪

I haven't used a vacation day
in four years.

You want to take a vacation?

I was thinking
more like a sabbatical.

Sabbatical?

♪ All of the light ♪

Where do you want to go?

Wherever my people are.

♪ That heartache
will fade within... ♪

Sometimes the hardest part
of working a trauma

is finding yourself
on the other side...

♪ That love carries
all of us home ♪

♪ That I'm with you
wherever you go ♪

♪ So sleep now,
let yourself... ♪

...letting yourself feel...

♪ Now ♪

...mourn the lives
you've lost...

...and celebrate
the lives you've saved...

They want to go again.

One more time, and then we're
gonna have to hug Maggie goodbye.

Yes!

You're doing a great job
with them.

Hm. They have their moments.

But, overall, they're
pretty extraordinary.

♪ Love carries all of us home ♪

♪ Love carries all of us ♪

I just never imagined

becoming a mother
without my mom.

She'll come up in ways
you don't expect.

♪ Love carries all of us home ♪

What about when you need
concrete advice

in real time?

Then you call me.

...even if it's only your own.

♪ Love carries all of us ♪

♪ Carries all of us ♪